While i hate to leave my Sweet name that has been a symbol of me for over 12 years. I did a test last night and found out that on the new account I made I could submit. Maybe this is the universe telling me to move...or what have you. So i am going to try by Monday to be all settled in on my new account. I am leaving everything that is here up. I don't really want to move all my old stuff over..and all. I'll move a few pieces that I want to.

 ZCamelLady

This is the new account, so if you want more of me, please go watch it there. I am still rather sad about leaving this name...since its been mine for over 12 years. Not on FA but in life. So good bye my Rantourus, I will miss you, but not what you stood for, I am taking that with me. I think I may put Z away for a bit, and bring in a new Fursona. Since I am having issues taking her(and myself) away from this name.

Trying to make every shinny and new while I adjust to this big change.

Ugg so i cannot submit...why cause FA informs me that is has an error when i try to submit..at any point in time....-.- So i open a TT....STILL NO FREAKING REPLY! but dear lord don't let me post a photo of MY child in her Chainmaile Bikini top saying i offer Adult sizes only...and listing the prices..since half the time most people do not go omg lets look at this person's page to see if she dose adult sizes....and the damn thing is pulled an i am noted in less than 30mins... because the upload goes against the AUP because a bikini top is so a piece of under garment....-.- really... so my wifey has been flagging each and ever bikini top for the same thing...>.> because if i am told its against the AUP because its an undergarment...then they can fucking loose their too.

From the Admin:
Such a photo would not be approrpriate if the model was an adult, and double so since the model is underaged.

From me to Admin:
How so, there is nothing showing? only her belly, shoulders, arms, top of her chest, and neck are exposed. So you are telling me that any bikini top images need to be removed?

I am show casing a sample of bikini work, even the description said Adult Sizes only. I have used this top as a model of my chainmaile work, and have yet to have any negative comments over it. So please explain how this image was inappropriate.

From Admin:
Mature Content - FA prohibits mature photography. Violating this rule will result in a 72 hour suspension. Mature photography includes images containing graphic nudity, improperly clothed models (underwear, diapers), bodily fluids and waste, adult sex toys, sexually modified fursuits, plush animals or inflatables, gore, blood or death.

Let me point this one out...SHE WAS NOT ONLY IN HER BIKINI TOP AND DIAPER...she had her pink skirt on....i cannot see why the hell a BIKINI top is considered underwear...since wearing a chainmaile one under one's shirt would make you look like a rickatard...

But i am off my original rant....

I STILL cannot submit...and to answer the stupidly obvious question...yes it was well over 72 hours
ago... i am so freaking frustrated...i have a folder filled to the brim of work..and its like FU Z! why in the hell would you want to upload....-.- i can has cookie nows? please? or some sort of table top RP...please give me the table top rp! if i could figure out how to do it over the internet...i swear i would...i am so hungry for it....cause i got 4 new OWOD books.

So i am gonna sit here... and wait..for the ext three years...for some one to answer my TT....ima be ov'r 'ere k? bye...

So the whole thing is that, last year she had no party, no gifts, and barely a cake. I don't want anything you know over the top, just a cake, 2 toys, a pinata w/candy, and to go out to eat. i would like to get 100$ or so before the 20th, since i was thinking that maybe i could do something then.

If you want to send her toys, or clothing, or stuffs, please note me, and i'll send you the address.

I am seriously not happy with having to basicly pimp myself out to get her something for her b-day. but i don't have much choice, With her daddy no longer working and my next show is the 27th of Aug, its really depressing.

I will do art work or chainmaile! if you decide to send her a gift i will send you out either some artwork or chainmaile.

Even if you can't maybe you can just spread the word. Its not like if it doesn't happen this year she'll be devastated. But i am hopeful that life will turn round a bit, and i wont deiced i am just gonna move to Mexico and be down with it...>.>

Anyway, note me or e-mail me at: ZCamelLadyCaravan at hotmail dot com

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i am so flustered right now....i have been looking high and low for my charger for my camera...-.- lets just say it went poofle...I have so many photo's to take, and a few deals to make on Chainmaile Bikini top photos...also the chopping off of my butt long hair....its just bellow my shoulder line...i have been debating about using my hair some how in my own costume..since its been with me for a few years...and it would be kinda cool to have real hair tassels...

I am getting in a new shipment of rings tomorrow, and i have a few new things i want to show but can't. I have three shows lined up and working on a fourth.

wish me luck.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2520812/

i wasn't gonna do it...but...maybe i will win and it will brighten my year...even though its highly doubtful....

but join on in!

ok so my mate has yet to figure out that whatever he is eating or drinking his daughter wants, wither or not five seconds ago she was screaming for ice, chips or cookies... its rather funny to me. cause he in turns acts like a 6 year old when she drinks or eats all of what he got for himself. men are so funny some times.

I am ready to post a few things...though i have lost the charger for my camera....-.- this dose not make me happy. since i have loads of chainmaile to post....-.- i need to redo the website again...-.- but other than that i have buckets of free time...

So i am thinking of cleaning my journals out, and moving my chainmaile to a different account. But not sure on that one. since I barely have time to work with this one.

To everyone on my whole holy Z time, I only have basically a pen hole left, and everything else is healed and all good. The pen hole looks good, little bit of clear drainage, but nothing O.O.

I am in a crunch for my next show, ie 4th Fest in Bedford, tx. but i now have a canopy so I can now do outside events. i am working slowly on my catalog. this darn touch pad makes it slow going.

my kids are great, my life is stabilizing. i'll post up more items after the fourth.

later days

Some horrid things have happened. I feel so numb right now, i hurt so bad. My heart and soul feel crushed. So please excuse me. its like one thing after another after another after another...and today i cannot handle my world, which is falling apart in my hands...goodbye to the one whom walked out of my life...goodbye...

So for the past few weeks been having pains, though it was gas....well Monday i went to the hospital cause i had the same pain for five days...it was getting hard to breathe, eat or sleep. as in every breathe i took it hurt worse.

So in the hospital they informed me that i had Gallstones...the doc said if the pain killers don't work come back and will take out your gallbladder....well the pills were not working so i went back Tuesday night. i am writing in pain. Well lets just say i ended up walking out of the hospital and getting driven into town.

Once in the back, the ER doc was listening to my complaints, and had this shocked look and asked, and they didn't take it out Monday why? Because my white count was fine...-.-

Well Wednesday is when got it removed. Dr. Funk had to work to get it out. i have four holes in me...three of which are the normal Gallbladder ones and one is almost 3 inches at my belly button, he said my gallbladder was so inflamed he had to make a larger cut that he wanted and it was good thing that i got it removed when i did. i could be a whole lot worse off.

So now i am chair/bed bound again...tired and bored...-.- making bobbles for the bikini top that will not be done by this weekend which makes me a sad camel.

anyway i am doing ok, just hurt...and it hard to walk...stand...pick anything up...-.- which means i feel slightly useless...and want to clean... since only me and mom clean...and now that i am down and out...its like omg the house has gone to complete shit...-.-

ok i shall not rant...and i shall go sleep a bit...

i has 8 square feet of light grey pigskin....and i wants to nom nom noms it! but that would be bad...-.-

Yesh i have thing to post, actual things. and news...and stuffs...why do i always start things when its like the ass crack of dawn...-.-

i will try to finish my round of stock photos this week. i still need to make a few things to photo. but...yeah.

i have a new character, GenZ. I have to dig up my pens and prismas so i can finish her uber big reff...its like 11x27inches...why...because i could.

I plan to work on my first belt. Since i want and need new garb. plus i plan to start offering it. In other news i have partnered up with a friend, She dose Braided Yarn Hair Falls, She dose great work. i own two, and have a third on the way! so far my favs are my black and orange ones, they have fox tail bits on them. :)

I am working on a chainmaile Bikini top, and should have it ready for its first fitting by next week. once done i will take pics, then have her model it for me.


Personal stuff has been going on, mainly Money wise sucks, but i do feel better. Also my BC dose not work for me...-.- which fucking sucks, since now i get to figure out how to come up with 700$ for my iud....

If anyone wants some art, chainmaile, or costuming, please feel free to hit me up. i'd be more than happy to talk out price and any type of payment plan.

I know its like tuesday and i ma finaly posting...but

my saturday was made whole when being nice to my x and watching him and his wife +lover thing shit bricks....and i did nothing...but smile and wave. :)

I am almost done with one cup of a chainmaile bikini top....and possibly going to b selling at a pow wow...>.> and if not i am soo still going cause rip needs the POW WOW! plus i haven't been to on in years...and the ingin side of me is like DRUMS AND DANCING AND OMG FOOOOOODDDDDD!

and before anyone gets the knickers in a twist i am native american and i call myself an ingin all the time... it amuses me due to the fact of how redneck i can say it.... so if you by chance find it offensive..get off my lawn....

that is all...

So yeah...i have yet to use the scanner since moving it into my room due to the fact THE DAMNED CORD RAN AWAY!....it makes me use my RAWR face...VV^v^v^v^VV <-rawr face....

I have new Chainmaile work..also need to go round up some supplies...like blue...i have no blue items at all...But i will change this..also i need to get more blackstone...since i have like 4 6mm rounds....-coughs- this is not good.

So things have gone on in the house...not happy with but by Wednesday we shall see what happens.

I am doing mostly good. few bumps in the road but good. the kids are fine....we have yet to cook and eat the oldest one...

Ok i am out of stuff to the report on...so feel free to leave random questions and i will answer.

I don't really have loads of time anymore.

So i am cutting things from my life. like the internet. Yes i am doing art, just not really having a lot of time to scan and show what i am doing. I got rings in. I need to work on my chainmaile, trying to grow my own business, i have little time in my life for things. i don' want to be like omg i am leaving forevers! i just think i wont be around much. If you see me on messenger, feel free to message me. i check here every couple of days. So even noting me i will still respond. i am working on trying to get things started up, so when i have finished most of my plans i will take pics and post them. and try to scan things as i can...

so its more of a reason why i am all not here.

You know i realize its not easy trying to raise two kids, own your own business. deal with the endless drama. I want to restart Barflys. But not sure on where to go with it. So its still around and i do think of it from time to time.

anyway..i am going to post a pic of the chainmaile bikini i did for my kid.

So...i know stuff in changing in my Work List...but anyone has yet to see anything....well i am going to tell you all. Most of the time i only feel like drawing when away from the house..ie in the truck with my mom.

MY brother's Drama Lama Crap is starting to affect me creatively. i can ink and flat color at home..but really don't feel like even finishing off Reff Sheets which all of the sudden have be come like supa easy! its kinda funny...

Today i was bitch about because me and Santos were up all night....did i mention my newborn is sick? so lack of sleeping kinda comes with the territory...also we have roaches again...cause only me, mom, and Santos will clean...and i have a newborn and an 18 month old...>.> so cleaning is on the list...normally it spit up...or something that Rip has gotten into...i wash the dishes when i get time...if i have time...then i try and at least take some time for myself..either playing games or working on art work...

Also today i go out anf find trash all over my work table...-.- i was like fucking kidding me...you have got to be fuckin kidding me...nope..Andy just left his trash all over my MOTHER FUCKING WORK TABLE....-.- i am so tired of cleaning up after him...so tired of feel like he thinks i am his maid..so i took all the trash on my table and set it the chair he sits in..he came in and was like who put this here? i was like I did, because maybe if you learn to clean up after yourself, instead of thinking me and mom are your maids...that wouldn't happen. he started to mumble and bitch...and i was like WTF ever...

anyway.. i am going to go back and work on cleaning the den and go and grab some of my art stuff out of the truck...kill andy...wait...yeah kill andy is on the list....and then prolly go to bed...since i am fuckin bushed...




Commissions OPEN

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none-but open prices are here
http://rantourus.webs.com/artworkprices.htm


Request CLOSED!

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1. (sketched)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3206456 colors/markings
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3360540 body type

2. (Sketched)-printed reff out-

3. Mate pic Memember! (working on idea)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3958902/ male
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3958892/ Female

4.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3749804/

5.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5019535


Personal Stuff

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Redesign the Waypatur (Sketched)


Reffs
Zenon-Female-Ranpyre -inked
Skitzy-Female-Jackaran -Sketching
SJ-Female?-Bio-engineered Jackal -NS
Wrath-Female-Bio-engineered Rantourus -Sketched
The Neindee-Female-Neindeer -Done need to scan
Rena-Female-Waypatur-NS

Styks-Male-Cheshire Cat -sketched
Roxers-Male-Demon Hound -NS
Zen-Male-Ranpyre -NS
Brasin-Male-Hyena -NS
Sez-er-Male-Jackal -NS
Santos-Male-Demon Cat -NS

Commissions OPEN

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none-but open prices are here
http://rantourus.webs.com/artworkprices.htm


Request CLOSED!

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1. (sketched)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3206456 colors/markings
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3360540 body type

2. (Sketched)-printed reff out-

3. Mate pic Memember! (working on idea)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3958902/ male
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3958892/ Female

4.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3749804/

5.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5019535


Personal Stuff

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Redesign the Waypatur (Sketched out)


Reffs
Zenon-Female-Ranpyre -inked
Skitzy-Female-Jackaran -Sketching stage
SJ-Female?-Bio-engineered Jackal -NS
Wrath-Female-Bio-engineered Rantourus -Sketching Stage
The Neindee-Female-Neindeer -inked
Rena-Female-Waypatur-NS

Styks-Male-Cheshire Cat -sketched
Roxers-Male-Demon Hound -NS
Zen-Male-Ranpyre -NS
Brasin-Male-Hyena -NS
Sez-er-Male-Jackal -NS
Santos-Male-Demon Cat -NS

So i been mainly browsing and sometimes commenting...but i really put off making a journal. I am rather tired still..pain been keeping me up. any way bout the baby.

So they didn't have to induce me. I went in at 3-3:30 ish and popped him on out at 5:37am. That like 30 mins before i was suppose to be there for them to induce me. I found it amusing. I had no drugs, no back labor, and almost no back spasms. I had three or four near the end. He got stuck..-.- cause he has a huge head! even though it really doesn't look huge...but he was 20 1/2inches long, with a 15inch around head. He was 9lbs and 1 ounce. I didn't get stitches either...my doctor is such a minimalist....and hates the new stirrups that the hospital has...

But i staid in the hospital for like a day. and longer than my doc would have had me...but he had a moment and forgot....He was suppose to leave for Africa but those plans got changed. He meant to write up my discharge papers when he first got to the office, but some things came up and the day got really long...so he got off work and went home...he was eating dinner when they called him. He left his dinner and got me the heck out of dodge! which was nice...i was having Ripley withdrawal...it was bad. i missed her so much i was hearing her when she wasn't there....it was kinda creepy.

Buttmunch came home Saturday, so me and him spent as much time together as possible. Ripley is adjusting well, she kissed her baby brother today. and now if he touches her she doesn't go into a fit.

Well i am still freaking tired as hell...so i am going to go nap now...or at least cont to rest. ima post a picture of him in a min...later people.

i get to wake up at the ass crack of dawn! 6am i am getting induced! yay..this will all be over and i can sleep on my belly...and in like 3-4 month drink some boose! FUCK YEAH!

So i will be at least not really around for the next two weeks....i will be at the Addision hotel on saturday for a quick stop to drop off Pony and Amy's com, and to see the HATTER! and candi too! and you two can meet the new baby! yay!

it was a rather smooth convo with my doctor...though i feel that this whole, we are going to "check" you really means, We are fixing to violate you for medical purposes...i hate getting checked..but we found out i am like already at 4 sonometers..which in my family is half way there. so i made the comment, i told my mom it would be either tonight, tomorrow or the latest Friday. and he was like, well why not for sure tomorrow? I was like sure why not!

so there you have it..i am gonna be done!

that is all..go about your day now!

So my b-day was kinda crappy....

it started out pretty good. Got up, my hip hurt like hell, but i was breathing good, got a good night sleep. So i left with mom to go on her rounds. Cause i didn't wanna mope in my bed all day....cause that's just so not cool. i moped the day before, and really didn't want to do it again.

So round 1:30 that afternoon...that migraine i had had for three days straight came back... Well we start putting a few things together. Its cause i am dehydrated. Tends to happen when I take Claritin regularly... Not to mention you loose double the amount of water from breathing when you have a cold/flu/Respiratory infection...was something i didn't know, till my doctor told me. I guess my brain never really thought about how you loose water through out the day....anyway..

Well unfortunately when i get migraines...they don't go away, even if i fix the problem...So we get me some gatoraide, since me and poweraide are not on speaking terms... So i still need either meds or cold packs to get rid of it...-.- Well for three days cold packs did nothing..but the Advil Migraine fixed it..so we go on the great hunt for meds of goodness.

no luck every freaking pharmacy was out...WTF? Was there some mass rush of omg i must have Advil Migraine?

So i pass out in the truck. My body dose this to try and cope with the pain levels. You know my hip hurts, my back is always in pain...so when a migraine hits i generally just shut down.

Finally round 7:30 that night we go to walmart...pick up more Gatoraide and some Advil migraine...Also by this time Ripley has soaked through all the pants we had in the truck...>.> so we call my brother, Andy, and go when John gets home, can you two meet us at Walmart with some clothes for Rip, and we'll figure out where I want to go for my b-day.

Well unknown to us, mom left her phone in the truck, but i had mine on me...so no biggie. Well we get back to the truck and are like omg we missed a call on mom's phone..Andy, so we call him back. I talk to him since mom was coughing up a set of lungs...>.> So i say, Hey andy, what did you need? and then all i get from him is yelling how me and mom were to busy talking on the fucking phone to answer him, cause he couldn't find Ripley's basket of clothing. and how the cats and dog are making him sick and Rawr RAWR RAWR! needless to say...i hung up and pissed him off more....

ok for one...its my fucking b-day. for two...IT'S MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!....for three....I am preggers and due any mother fucking day.. i don't need to be yelled at!

So we go to the Cheesecake Factory...i told mom over and over that i know we can't really afford this, we don't have to go, i can eat someplace else...But we go anyway. So we park the truck and my brother, John comes over, and is all, well i finally got him calmed down after she(meaning me) upset him so much. Then proceeds to inform mom, We have to move Andy into Ripley's room and that was the end of it, cause we have to "fix" Andy. You cannot help someone who dose not want it...FYI

Ok..Andy kicks and throws Rip's toys around, as if they were trash...Andy disrespected me when we lived in Dallas by trashing my room. When i freely was like, umm you can sleep in my room so you can stay away from the cats and all... There is no way in hell i am letting him have my kids' room. Where am i suppose to put Rip? She goes to bed at 9pm-10pm...no one else in this house goes to bed then...So i guess i am suppose to move her, and my soon to be newborn into my room....So that like every 2-4 hours the newborn can wake up not only me and Santos..but Ripley too...cause a sleep deprived Toddler is such a great thing to deal with...also it promotes a healthy development...amirite?

So in other words, no Ripley will not be losing her room. He is not going to get any chance of fucking up the development of my children, nor get a chance to trash that room.

So We go into the Cheesecake Factory, wait for ever to get seated, but that was ok. there were a butt load of people! so We get seated and all...and then it happens...mom asked Andy if he has figured out what he wants. his Reply 'I don't know, i can't fucking see!" ....then belly acing about how he can't find a chiropractor...His back hurts so bad he can barley walk...umm..i have yet to see this...he walks like normal...he doesn't have a job, doesn't have this...I'd never pay for a 25$ meal ever! baw baw baw baw baw....

So thankfully Ripley needs to be changed. mom comes with me, and i am like, i really wished i wouldn't have invited him to my b-day dinner...and i don't think i want him there next year. I love my brother but he did this last year... i am just tired of being disrespected all the time. So we get back to the table. rip is sleepy..since its like almost 11pm...What happens when kids get sleepy...They get fussy.. So what do we do with a crying child? YELL AT IT IN A RESTAURANT OF COURSE!....he yells at her to shut up...i wanted to reach over the table and slap him...-.- its like...really?

So on the way home, i am ranting about how i feel to mom. since i don't want to start anything when we get home... So mom gose into the room and Andy is all bitching and complaining about not being able to breathe and baw baw baw....needless to say mom has not be able to breath for two weeks..and me for almost a month... So mom opens her mouth...and ends up peeing in his post toastees...

so now i am making myself happy by eating Cherry Cheesecake..and a full belly of beef ribs...

/endrant

just an FYI if i get bitchy and snippy, it prolly has nothing to do with you. i was just really reminded how i have never really had a good valentines day. and the fact of the matter is my Birthday is tomorrow, my mate is working Friday, Sat,Sun...and all of next week..but then comes home after that...so yeah...

My birthday being Friday, i am due Sunday, and fucking v-day is Monday.... and i get to spend them the same way i have spent my b-day with my Wifey like the last oh 7-9 years, Alone for Valentines...and oh yes...lets just throw going to the hospital to push out a baby....-.- yup i want a drink after i do...cause seriously i am now all sorts of depressed...

So i have decided i want it to snow 3 feet tonight...so i can at least have something go right...i can at least not be alone on my b-day..since i feel like shit and don't really want to go anywhere...not to mention my mom is seriously sick...and i don't feel right going, hey mom take me some where!

i'll prolly delete this later..but i just need a vent moment.

Still if you want to get me something for my b-day my list of likes are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2086725/

oh and apparently some one i know died this morning...-.- so now i feel even better...since he was like 19..it scares the shit outta me...since i'll be 22 Friday....-.- yeah..bye now...

So i have a small list..vury small..

This mug.
http://www.etsy.com/listing/6526830.....stein-gunmetal


This Car Seat for Antonio.
http://www.toysrus.com/product/inde.....ductId=4089530


This set of jewelry...its one of the few Jap Animes i really really love.
http://www.etsy.com/listing/6211994.....nd-pendant-set


This Shop to sell out...Hint hint..nudge nudge...wink wink...know what i mean?
http://www.etsy.com/shop/Rantourus

And a pet memory badge from
I want something of my Cheeters...>.>

people to come see me....


FYI I do not want to be done with this whole preggers thing on that day either...-.-' My b-day is mine! goramit!

I am cleaning today..since i have misplaced my art stuff. Since i like to doodle in bed with my mate...then him get mad at me cause i have the light box and i am cuddling it...>.> for some reason when i do i flip upside down in the bed..and normally snuggle as close to his butt as atomically possible...>.>

So in order to finish the free stuff...which i have decided only the ones in the que will be picked. due to the fact of i kinda have other things on my mind.

Also, i am working on two ceramic figures. they are a set and will be for sale for 35 for both plus shipping. i will take pics of them while they are blacked out, and to gauge interest in someone taking them home. Since i am not a fox person...but i couldn't let them stay unpainted on a thrift store shelves...

Also small mini rant...WTF is with the number of Red foxes? like every where i turn to find images of foxes on FA they are generally Red Generic Boring ass foxes....yes i know...or the person going OMG I AM ORIGINAL! cause my fox has blue hair, blue crotch fuzz and a purple pok-a-doted dick...-.-

ok i am done...

i shall work on art tomorrow...or as soon as i find my art crap...again...-.-

So i have some how throw out my left hip...but wait there is more. I have pulled a muscle in the left side of my mouth. The left side of my face is swollen, i have some how burned the gums on the left side of my mouth. i also have sinus pressure in the left side, causing migraines... Oh did mention that due to the fact i pulled a jaw muscle, it hurts like a bitch to chew...-.- as if my month could get any worse... What food i could get down...i ended up vomiting due to coughing to much, from changing positions...or sitting up.

-flails- on top of that mate was here for snow storm time..but left this morning...so now i have no one to pet me...and love me and cuddle with...or bring me things...since getting up hurts and takes so much time its not even funny.

-curls up and dies- oh wait can't do that...i am preggers.-.- i want to be done with one or the other...i don't care which now...

please don't tell me to go to my doctor...or the hospital...they can't do anything...-.- they can't give me meds, they can't x-ray...so what's the point? my doctor knows i am sick....and all...and that i slid on ice and all...-.- i am just done..

ok i know they are only free request but i still feel bad that i have no muse to do anything...or much energy or awake time. i am kept up all night, sleep horridly and generally wake up at 3pm... i hate being so close to poping out a baby...i will be taking my sketch book with me to the hospital...so maybe i'll doodle then.

The only thing i seem to be able to work on is reff sheets...for my chars...which i have one inked, two sketched and the other is in progress..i was also thinking of offering them on commission. but i dunt feel like thinking bout it right now.

Zenon- inking stage
Skitzy- sketching
Niendeer- coloring
Styks- inking
Straight Jacket- NS

ok so in the world of Z....it kinda sucks...

So most of you crazy ass people know i am Pregnant...and most of you should know i am due round the 13th of Feb...so in other words...real fucking close.

I have a respiratory infection. But cause i am not running fevers or anything my doc has decided that putting me on drugs is not too important...which is great! cause i fucking hate meds...i take my prenatasl...rarely... So if i was not preggers dealing with the first respiratory infection of the winter, FYI i normally have had about 4-5 by now, would not be bad. But all i want is to sleep...lack of air is not fun...

And now for the past two days False Labor pains....-.- And before anyone ask, yes i am sure...the baby is still active...at night....-.-

oh and my Mate is in Austin...meaning my bed is freaking empty! -flails and flops to the floor-

Oh so my doc would like me not to go into labor before February...but i have to have the baby before the 19th or i am holding it for two weeks....cause he is going to Africa, on some type of thing like doctors with out borders...which is freaking cool! Did i mention i actually love my doctor? Like seriously he reminds me of my Dad. and some of the things he says entertains the hell out of me.

"So we are still pregnant right?"
"Just in case you had any doubts, you are pregnant, Here is the heart beat."
"You CAN'T go into labor till after January."
"Well, even if it wasn't fine, nothing i can do about it." <- i got told that when the baby refused to let us sex him...what am i suppose to do bitch about the baby not wanting to let me know?

Seriously...i like a doctor that when he opens his mouth its either down to business or humor. And gives it to me straight, no bs, no long medical jive...just talks to me like i have brain.

But on more bad news...My brother is driving me to want to commit murder...-.- yelling, and being pissy anytime you talk to him. Lazyness....ok i am lazy to a point, i feel like i am being lazy all the time right now...cause i am to tired to do things round the house. But he quit his job...so now is all RAWR! and i am like...no. Like thrash day is Thursday, well Mate was not here to help..Andy was...did he...no...-.- needless to say...not all the trash was takin out...We live on just over and acre of grounds...its a long fucking trudge with three cans+ full of trash. two cans have to be dragged or carried. our driveway is half assed graveled...so taking the trash is not easy. Then Andy bitches over the fact that there is still a few trash cans around...while sitting on his ass watching tv on his comp...-.-

-flops some more-
so to list my issuses, for anyone who wonders why i am all moody or just gone...

1. Preggers
2. Close to due date
3. Sick
4. False Labor pains. -insert angry face-
5. Andy
6. Sleeping alone/ no one to take care of me/Ripley
7. Pain

So if i happen to eat your soul...please just ignore it. i will prolly talk to you in private to tell you i am sorry for my actions and a small bit of why i was just in a bad mood.

I am doodling...but nyquill and dayquill do not make what i draw come out right. nor dose coughing and sneezing and having pain...-.- i am so ready to go pop now.