im leaving this account...im moving to  fattylombax watch that account

https://twitter.com/JoolsWatsham/st.....32406729781249

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....game?ref=video

I saw this on Alphaomegasin's channel and id like to see this game be successful!

http://www.gofundme.com/angeldrakken

Aunt left and obiviously they made the bills higher and didnt do shit about em, so the back room is now open. it needs to be cleaned up n such

anyway i guess no one wanted to take the room, but no matter my aunt came back, so now the only room ill have is for my love.

since mom is kicking rich out the back room is now available for rent, like 150-200 a month, must have a car and be nice and yeah you know the rest.


Note me if you live near me and want to rent out the room of course i have to talk to you for a few days, mom doesnt want a total stranger living in her house


of course you can come over and take a look at it before you make your choice.

Anyone?

okay im back after time to myself i must apologize....shit has hit the fan the last week/couple of days and my emotions were out of control, i kinda wanna explain why but i think you need to note me if you care that much....my emotions are still kinda itchy but not too bad.........

im done deleteing my fa

 ryanmartin has gotten a drawing tablet and it needs work id like it if you can check him out

I need more Gtalk friends so if anyone is interested in adding me note me with your gmail and ill add you or you add me......and dont be a jerk to me.....Please......

wanna know why im so fuckin pissed????!!! here!!!!

Mom found out i had money......I FUCKING CANT HAVE MONEY FOR MYSELF APARENTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY OWE ME 200 FUCKIN DOLLARS SHE HAS THE BALLS TO ASK ME!!! THEN AFTER I SAY NO AND THAT EVERYONES GOING TO FUCKING ASK SHE SAID SHE WONT SAY ANYTHING......THEN I STILL SAY NO THEN SHE PLAYS THE GUILT GAME WITH ME WHICH F.U.C.K.I.N.G. PISSES ME OFF!!!!!!!! THE MONEY I HAVE IS FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!! THEY WONT FUCKING PAY ME BACK EITHER!!!!! URGH!!!!!!! THE MONEY I HAVE LEFT AT LEAST IS GOING TOWARDS FOOD AND OTHER SHIT, BUT NO!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY WANT IT, I UNDERSTAND WHY I LEFT SO I DONT HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS BULLSHIT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT NOW IM BACK got my debit card back and crap then mom finds out i have money (im not saying a amount) NOW SHE WAS ALL ON ME ABOUT BORROWING IT I KNOW SHE WONT GIVE IT BACK BECAUSE SHE OWES ME 200 PLUS THESE SHITTY BILLS.......This shit really pisses me off i can go on for hours on end about this shit!!!



In the end.....i told her i spent it......but still FUCK!!!

i woke up to it.....just like dad...........she had cancer.....i know its better that shes gone but the memories are killing me and the fact that shes a cat....

Had to take moms anti depressant.....as i was changing and was having suicidal thoughts....its been a month i think since i had my anti depressant.........(yes im out of em)

ill be streaming some Amnesia maps sometime today. Expect some heart attacks. anyway heres the link

www.livestream.com/ratchet034

www.livestream.com/ratchet034

Yep either today or tomorrow.....im doing Cry of Fear

ive had a interest in zombies since i was 6 years old thats not going to change. I found something cool about the undead theyre dead you can do whatever you want, killing is more fun.

okay as for that story im sorry all if you cant read it. its a unique i believe, inspired by the walking dead music intro. I request you download it. Read it comment (If you want) Please...

okay, Carl came he convinced me to go to the Netherlands i got there his mom was okay at first, his moms b/f was a total ASSHOLE PRICK BASTARD! But they had good things like exchanging bottles for money, okay enough of that time for the rest I was suppose to get a job, but since i didnt know my way around i wait for carl to get home, But they needed Social security. But at that time Rob lost patience as i was making PROGRESS So Carl sent me back home because Rob was being a fucking baby. Plus Carls mom was offending me behind my back, honestly i know theres netherland furs out there but these people ruined my time there. So whats left? Carl is coming back AGAIN between April and July, this time hes staying because im not going back.

and hes playin Killzone 2 right now im actually happy for the first time in a long time. my dad still makes me cry from time to time, he doesnt see it anyway im happy

its been a while since i did another journal, it seemed that only a few people cared that my dad died, oh well i guess your not true friends then. Things have gotten rough i ran out of anti depressants, had a fight with my brother then he said something (My family hates me) that made me go under and slice my arm up. even without my anti depressants im really dizzy. I also ran out of insulin so i was in pain for a day i got 1 vial and ordered 3 more on amazon.

Alot of things have happened from the last journal and now. Things that really disturbed me, Had a dream about dad then later i see a funeral driving by.
i got money from Carl so i could be happy instead of depressed every day, i got bullet storm (great game) next games im planning on getting if mom dont take money from me, Dead Island and RAGE.


And if anyone has aol please add me Ratchet034 i dont have many friends on aim

Dad died this morning at like 2:30am ever since im crying i still am. his heart just stopped working...

it WAS my birthday but no one ever does anything here!!! THATS WHY I LEFT!!!

My birthday is tomorrow, and yes i am going to Six Flags (Next Week) so expect some pictures from that and ill be doin a video as well and im gunna upload it on youtube