Been a quiet month here. Sorry to everyone who usually hears from me.

So many of you might have noticed that I'm on  fursupport, which is not actually a type of brassiere. In fact, it's the first thing I ever took part in when I came to this site, even before the forums. My personal experience being in therapy has prepared me for a lot of things, and it's the single most gratifying thing in the world to help someone, but then there's the worry. I'm not talking about the people I'm helping, they're worried about stuff too, sure, but it's the worry I get.

I have, at times, hit the ground praying for people here. The type of begging prayers where you make deals with God. Of course, a lot of that is my anxiety making things seem worse than they are, but sometimes it's so emotionally draining that I just need a break. Taken more Klonapin in the past few weeks than I have in a long time. Just stress medicine, no worries. I am truly sorry to everyone I have been ignoring, and the people in this group that I've been helping that expect things from me. I just have a lotta stuff going on right now. It's selfish, but I just feel like I need to step back for a bit. Not like gone-for-a-long-time sabbatical, oh no. Just won't be on as often. For now, anyway.

But I'm fine, everyone. I'm okay. I'm here among wonderful people, I have no choice but to be. Thank you all so much for understanding. If you're reading this I care about you.

So I finally decided to put a  christian-furs icon on my page. Yes, I was aware of it before (as well as the tons of other similar groups that are basically the same thing, but in different flavors), but I didn't know how prudent it was to announce it on an art site. But having met some wonderful Christian furs here in the past few weeks, I feel like it would be doing all of them a huge disservice if I wasn't as open as they were, so, there you go.

It's not something I want to hide, but it's not something I want to shove in everyone's face, either. I can't put into words how comforting it is to be a Christian, even if it comes with pressures, too. "I can't, God can" has helped me through more times of anxiety than I can count. I have also prayed for people on this very site. I don't say any of this to gloat; I fail God on a daily basis, but He has yet to fail me. I'm a big fan of the love part of Christianity, so I don't hate anyone. You know that "Loves you just for being here" part on my page? That's the jist, heh.

So, yeah, that's that. Just needed to be said.

Hey guys, rare sort of journal entry for me, but it reaches potentially more people than the forums.

Those of you on the forums are probably aware of PheonixDragon () and his mate Kake (). As wonderful people as they are, they are unfortunately going through some difficult things from time to time emotionally. Who doesn't, right? I consider both of them to be my friends and I hope I've shown that I will be there for anyone I care about, but the situation is complicated and I can no longer provide frequent help to either of them on Skype.

I feel like I'm abandoning them, but I don't want to. Please, if anyone can provide support to Kake or Pheonix and can comfortably talk to them here or on Skype I would be eternally grateful. My fondest wish is for both of them to be happy. Even a little support here or on their FAs so they can see.

Pheonix if you're reading I really hope you feel better and I'm not abandoning you, nor do I mean to embarrass you. People like you here. I'm always here for you and Kake. :)

Thank you all so much.

I realize my watchlist isn't very large, but there was a time when it was nothing.

I know 500 views isn't a crazy amount, but it used to be zero.

And I don't have many submissions, but I'd never have any if it wasn't for someone who cared.

It's all a milestone to me. I was an observer in this fandom for probably around 15 years. Now I've got acquaintances. A sona. Been to furmeets. Got commissions. Meet some wonderful people. Said goodbye to another. All in a quarter of a year.

I wish everyone reading this knew how great it makes me feel to have you all with me.