I'm not an open person to everyone i meet. I keep things bottled because i don't wanna burden others by sharing them. I don't need a stranger's pity to feel better.
My bonds are few now. They were many but they've been decayed by inactivity/time or shattered by one side.
So i stay alone and closed off, leaving wounds be until forgotten. Not thriving, only surviving. No one cares anymore, i'm just a drop in the ocean.
I'm a screw-up who'll die alone, too cowardly to take my own life. My suffering is my own and i'm the one bringing it upon myself.So alone in silence i'll suffer, hiding my pain with a mask till i die.
Sorry for wasting your time with this journal.
...bye

My view is this-
I don't care what your race is, what your religious views are, or what gender you are/believe you are.
It's when you use them as a reason to hurt that i care. You who do so are selfish, you don't care what your actions cause. You just do what you want, not realizing that your actions affect those in your community.
You who kill for the Blacklivematter movement not realizing that doing so will more than likely get an innocent live ended. You who kill for your religious views are making life harder for those of the same religious views. Say what you will but i don't care...well to a point at least. No death threats,please?
I am a white man from a small town and a school of mostly whites and mexicans. i have not interacted with many of the other races, but i know this-all lives matter. As a result you may say i'm sheltered and don't understand the world. i understand that there will always be strife and that world peace is just a wish but i understand enough.
Those who kill for their race or religion need to stop. You are making lives worse because of it. You making people afraid and dividing our nation as a result.
Just stop already-put down your weapons and open your hearts. Breed love not hate.
Thank you.

Today i turn 24. another year and i can say i'm a quarter of a century old. another year somewhat wiser of course.
23 was a mediocre age for me. not much new but not too terrible. i did get to try rootbeer beer, it's..not bad i guess.
Here's to another mediocre year to me. One not too bad with just enough good.

I'm still mostly active here, i just don't doodle or post much anymore.
I'm open to chat here should any want to..though few do anymore*sigh* wishing y'all a good rest of the day.
-Raven

Ps. i don't journal stuff like this usually cause i feel it makes me seem pitiful and desperate.

Happy Valentine's Day to all you couples and happy single awareness day to everyone else.
May you all have a great day no matter what your relationship status is.

*query search-new year resolutions. search results-0* Well can't fail any resolution i forgot i made.
Been a..decent year i guess. Finally got a job-woo 9 months already.
Haven't drawn or posted any art i made at all this year*sigh*been too tired or lazy to do that honestly. not that it matters, people the reposted art better..
No love lost or gained that i can remember, not that it matters.
Ah well*raises glass*farewell to 2015. may 2016 be a better year for all of us.

May you all have a happy and safe christmas/holiday.
And cheers to the upcoming new year*raises a glass*

hope you're all having a good turkey day so far. i'm off visiting family of course. to all you fatties may your scale show progress for ya.
to those braving black friday tomorrow-best of luck and may the odds be ever in your favor.
Happy thanksgiving everybody. ^^

Happy halloween to all you ghouls and gals.
May you have a safe but fun holiday filled with terror and sweets.
Enjoy*tosses out candy for all*

Another year not so wiser. I'm 23 today.
So far the only gifts i've gotten are the ones i bought myself. Which is why i splurged and spent most of the money i had last week. Bought myself a tablet, some new games, a new 3ds xl, and a external hardrive. Oh and i bought the complete road rovers series before that.
I'm thanful to have a job and income, so i could buy myself something nice. I happily accept any birthday wishes from all

Ask away

I'll be 23 this year. Man i'm slowly getting old*sigh*
Doubtful i'll get anything but birthday wishes from others this year but hey i can finally buy myself something for it though.
It's on the 15th if anyone's curious. i'd like to get art if possible of my characters from my gallery but alas i doubt i'll get anything like that. I'll settle for birthday wishes though.

Figured i'd try this again so...
Ask away

*passes out baskets full of candy*Enjoy with restraint everyone. ^w^

Happy Easter y'all

*dons the green scarf of old* Hope y'all are having a good St. Patty's Day today.
Drink responsibly to those who can drink. And cheers to ya ^w^

Favorite pokemon in battle: Marowak , Lucario
Favorite pokemon in design: Delphox , Ninetails
Favorite held item: Safety Googles
Favorite pokemon type: Fire-type i guess
Favorite move: Psyshock
Favorite legendary: Victini
Favorite mythical: Zorua
Favorite region: Kalos
Favorite generation: 6th gwn
Favorite starter: Fennikin

Happy Valentine's Day to you couples and happy single awareness day to everyone else.
Hope you have a great day no matter what your relationship status is.
And for all you singles out there, well there's always next year ya know.

Anybody want it? I got an extra one and it's just sitting here gathering dust.
Wanted in exchange for nothing really
Update-Code has been given to  tankthewolf

Farewell 2014 and hello 2015.
Here's to what will hopefully be a grand year for us all*raises a champagne glass*
My resolutions are simple one again and hopefully i'll achieve 'em this year.
So happy new year y'all. And now i sleep*passes out*
Raven:He'll be back in bout 9-10 hours folks
Sabre:Night everyone and from all of us here*all my characters gather round* HAPPY NEW YEAR!
*various colored fireballs are shot into the sky and weapons are raised*May the new year treat you all well.

What a year it has been.
A year full of good and bad. New experiences and new well stuff.
Learned to dissemble and reassemble my 3ds when the touch screen broke.
It's just been an experience in general for me. Now then i'm off to bed cause i'm tired.
Good night and expect another journal tomorrow.

Hope you're all having a wonderful Christmas day and that you got what ya wanted for Christmas.

I myself got some new sleep clothes and pokemon omega ruby. Well technically i got these things monday but still they're my gifts. Broke the touch screen regrettably, so i gotta wait and get it fixed monday. I plan to put up my secret base code thing whenever i finally decide upon a place i want it to stay. Already got 8 badges and groudon. Anywho better wrap things up here.
So...
from all of us here*my various ocs as well as Raven, Sabre, and Lynn gather round*Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays y'all!

Happy Halloween all you ghouls out there.
Enjoy your tricks and treats galore,
for i got some arts in store.
So wait around if you dare.
Hehe I'll have 'em up before midnight hopefully.
Till then*tosses out candies then dons a mask*Happy Halloween*fades into the shadows*

Well kinda.
Turns out i just needed to get the new security key to get back access. Still gotta sneak around bout it though, meaning i'm off skype for now and can only get on my laptop when it's safe to.
I can upload with my 3ds if need be, a feature i just realize moments ago ^^;
I'm on here if wanna chat/rp, but no promises regarding a set response window for it.
For now though, i'm off to sleep. Good to be back here again, see y'all round and good night
/\__/\
\^-^/

Raven here.
I'm sneakily using my mom's kindle to make this update.
I'm on a forced hiatus due to my sis going back to class and our wireless provider being bought out, forcing a restriction on net access. They're looking to replace it as soon as they can but since many providers don't reach us, we might have to go with satellite most likely.
I hope life is treating everyone good for the most part. I'll be sneaking on from time to time to maintain stuff here. I miss being on here and chatting with others. Hopefully I'll be back online for real before year`s end at the latest (fingers crossed guys).
Bye for now y'all.
And take care ^-^

hello everyone this is  alansoftbelly90 making this journal for ravenite or raven saying that raven's net is gone for the time being but he ask me to make this journal for him so those who talk with wont be worried or wont worry so much about him but yeah.


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p.s raven gave me his permission to use his account to upload this journal and this journal only so yeah take care