Hallo everyone,

I wrote about my money problem and my father in my last journal and I wanted to keep you up to date about that.

First, I want to thank everyone who is there for me, helping with words and a open ear. It really made a lot of things easier. And especially I want to thank 3 Persons, who helped me with a little bit of money. I got 100 € in total from them and could afford to at least visit my father. It was like a Christmas gift for him and me. I would like to know who helped me, because I only got the real name but not an account name. If I am able to draw freely again i would like to do something for them as thank you.

My father is safe for now, but he will still be in the hospital for a while and has to take pills for his heart from now on. The reason why he got a heart problem was a result of to much stress, alcohol and cigarettes. That is why he needs to do a diet after he gets out of hospital.

And for the last part, I managed to get 100 € as well, leaving me with debts of 1.700 €. I think I will update every month or so about this, till I manage at least to get a new PC. Till then, I can't draw much. I will try but more then just some simple sketches don't will come. If someone is really interested in them you can find them on my tumblr Stormy Art.

And if someone still wants to help me, you can do it over patreon or paypal, I leave the links at the end of this journal. Maybe if you do so, leave me a note so I know who helped me.

And thank you everyone for your support.

patreon.com/rayhiros or with paypal.me/Rayhiros.

I fear I can't do anymore art
at least for a while... (till June next year)

I have some really bad news...

About my dad, financial problems and my computer.

My computer started to act weird a month ago, he is old after all so it doesn't surprised me. But I still could do a little bit of art. At first I wanted to buy a new one at Christmas this year, but this won't happen anymore. Last week started one of my worst time I could imagine. Beginning with a broken car on Thursday, followed with a water pipe burst on Saturday and a second broken car on Sunday. And it continued this week with a lack of heating oil on Monday. I lost in a few days a lot of money and can't afford a new PC till maybe next year June.

But the worst is, that on Tuesday my father went to a doc because he believed to have a cold only to collapse there. He is now in a hospital with a serious case of Myocarditis or inflammatory cardiomyopathy (is inflammation of heart muscle). He is currently under permanent watch, in case that his heart could stop at any moment. I fear that something could happen and worry a lot. But I can't even afford to visit him. He is to far away and I have no money what so all.

If someone reads this and maybe has a little to spare, I could really need some help. With patreon.com/rayhiros or with paypal.me/Rayhiros.

With 1.800 Euro I would at least be free of debt and could see my father over Christmas.

Thanks for everyone who wants to help.

Wow,

I was now over 2 weeks or so sick, at first it just was a normal cold. But after that it went just down with me. Got a gastrointestinal infection and had problems to eat and drink. Sounds still normal, but now I got medicals to help me. The only problem. One of the medicals had a bad side effect. My mouth got all swollen and started to bleed. I couldn't eat or drink and breathing became also very hard. And that I had already 2 other illness behind me, made me very weak. And so the only hope for me was the hospital I went for a couple of days. God be blessed I got home again and try to recover now.

Aloha everybody.

http://patreon.com/rayhiros

In the past weeks I always struggled with having money or a job over a long period of time. Leaving myself with less and less time to draw and learn how to draw, I couldn't do request or commission as planned them, and could barely keep up with my own project.

This can chance with Patreon. If I am able to get some money through the support of my fans and friends, then I could concentrate more on drawing and my project. Doing probably more full art, request and maybe commissions. And with the help of you, I am sure we can do it!

Thanks

Aloha everyone,

after a hard and hot week, i thought about to talk again with my follower. So who wants to talk or know something about me?

Does anyone have some good Sai brush settings? I lost all my costume brush settings after my HDD went down.

Aloha everybody,

and happy holidays, what ever you will celebrate now or the next day, I hope for you all to have very nice and fun holidays. I sure will! ;)

Aloha everypony,

And good to be back. After I wrote about having problems with my graphic card it got far more worst then I wanted to be. My PC did the disco! I could hardly see anything. And I was worried, after all I didn't had money for a new one and I couldn't tell when I ever would get so much money (for me it is much)

But a lot of people helped me to find a new and cheap card and even spend some money for it, so I could buy one.

And I must really say, I am very thankful for everyone who helped me. Without you guys, I would probably be waiting till Christmas.

In Short: Thanks a lot friends and it is good to be back.

For everyone who is watching me. I have a problem with my PC, it seems that my graphic card is dying. That means that I am not able to do stuff soon. And I don't have money for a new one. In short: It can be that I can vanish for a very long time at any moment. And for this case, I hope you are not angry about me, and I hope we can see us again one time, till then good bye my dear follower.

That is also the reason why I can't draw anymore, for everyone who is wondering.