Hey guys I have a couple random watches and I just wanted to update everyone one last time
THIS IS NOT A LIVE ACCOUNT! PLEASE WATCH MY NEW ACCOUNT littledooker !! :)

I've moved over to

See those of you who wish to follow me there :)
In about a week or so I'll be disabling this account :3

So I'm gonna pretty much start over, I'll be making a new account in the next few days and just have a fresh start.

A lot of shit has happened in the last two days and I've lost a few 'friends' but if they were so easily lost I can't say I have much respect for them since a friend doesn't abandon you because they know half of a whole story. But I'm not down about it. I have a lot of amazing people in my life. I have my family, who are honestly the most important thing in he world to me, and I will always choose them over anything. I have a new boyfriend, who pretty much caused me to lose friends? Lol but he's the sweetest guy ever <3 he's super protective of me and treats me like a princess. We are super goofy and silly and just perfect around each other, and I'm clinging to him like hell. <3 I've got my best friend Ben who, even though I work constantly, and don't get to see much, he still makes the effort to be in my life, and vice versa <3 Skippy as well <3

I don't feel like people know what they have till it's gone, so I honestly hope that they see, once it's gone, what they had, and if they don't, that's perfectly fine. I'm not going to change myself for anyone. I feel like I've done a lot of growing over the years and now know how to stand up for myself. I won't let myself cry over someone and crawl back to be treated like everything I do is nothing. I won't stand for being called a bad friend even though I give my heart and soul to someone and they decide it's not enough.

I've been a very independent person my whole life, I've never relied on friends for happiness. I started doing that and I regret it, it broke my heart. But everything that happens, makes me that much stronger. I hope everyone who thinks I'm a shitty person for standing up for myself, has a good life, and everything works out, and you have happiness. I hold no anger or resentment towards those, and if you're readin this, you know who you are. I hope everything you pursue works out, I truly do.

With every passing day, things are getting better in my life, and they will keep going, I will not look back and regret things that have happened. I will hold no grudge over those who have done me wrong. I have learned it's a waste of energy to hold negative feelings towards people. I hope you all learn that as well. That's not me begging for forgiveness, cause I haven't done anything to be forgiven for, for most part, and things I've done wrong, I have apologized for, ignored or not, I've stated where I was wrong.

Anyway, I'm going to be making a new account within he next couple days, I won't be moving any old art over, it will all be a fresh start. Those who follow me, I will appreciate it, those who dont, I appreciate the time you've given me.

I wish everyone all the happiness in the world. :) and I'll post my new account when I make it <3

I'm done drawing for the night, but I'm going to have these open for the next few days if anyone is interested.

$5 for single character
+$3 per extra character, max of 3 characters.

If you're interested, comment/note me.

Thanks~

So I haven't posted anything since January. Wow jesus, I didn't think it was that long, ANYWAY.

I'm sorry for my absence, I'm busy, and dealing with my roller coaster ride of emotions, and just working at a job I hate haha.

I'm working pretty much everyday at Walmart, and I hate it, but I can at least put up with it, I'm not coming home crying or calling my mom through my shift crying cause my boss yelled at me and made me look like an idiot in front of my co-workers like at Petco. So yeah I hate my job, but it's a job and it pays more and I get way more hours, so yeah <3

BUT I'm excited cause I was finally able to go and tour a school I really want to go to down in St Louis, and I'm in love with it. One big down side is they don't have much to offer in ways of financial aid :/ But I'm going to go through what options they do have and see if I can get anything. I'm also going to start an Idiegogo, and see if by some chance I can raise money through there ^^' The program I want to do is about $30k.. which is obviously no small task to get haha.

Oh and the school is for Pet grooming/training :> so yeah I'm really hoping once my car is paid off I can go there and learn my trade <3

I'm going on vacation to FL in June too, so I'm stupidly excited about that :3

Uhmmm, So yeah I have some days off coming up and I'm gonna try to do some art and stuff so hopefully I can get that going again. I really do miss drawing a lot. ;n;'

Anyways. Just wanted to let y'all know what's been going on and where I've been! :3 Hopefully you'll see more of me soon.

Love you alllll~ <3

I'm sick .o. yay.

1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
Yes'm

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
Whenever <3

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I usually end up on the right side? I thinkk? LOL /directionally retarded/

4. Do you masturbate?
Yesh

5. How often? Lately?
Mmm, Like once a day lately.

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
No lol

7. Do you prefer showers or baths?
Baths if I'm in the mood? I like relaxing in a nice hot bath~

8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath?
Yes

9. Do you watch/read pornography? With other people?
Not really, once in a blue moon. Never with someone else.

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
Aggressive >:3

11. Do you love someone on your friends list?
There's that word again lol

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
I know most of them yes.

13. Would you choose love or money?
Love any day~

14. Your top three favorite kinks in bed?
Petplay, biting, and dressing up (fuck I just took Kitty's answers ;P)

15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
Yes and no. Lol it depends I guess? The whole thing that happened in high school when a friend took advantage of a shitty situation? Yes.

16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
Meh.

17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
Haven't really been any weird places D:

18. Have you ever been caught having sex?
Erm, almost? lol

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Nooo, but I kinda want to? LOL

20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
Nooope

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
Noooope

22. Ever been picked up in a bar?
Nooooope

23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
Kissed yes.

24. What's your sexual preference?
Bisexual~

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
Noooope

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
My own? lol

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
Noooope

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
Yuss

29. Bought something from an adult store?
Duuhh lol

30. Do you own any sex toys?
Mmmmhhmmm ~ ;3

31. If yes, how many and what are they?
I had others but I threw them out, lol now I have just two~
A medium razor w/ cumtube
& a small luka~ <3

32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
Yeahh

33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
Nooo lol

34. Have you ever had phone sex?
Yeah

35. Have you ever had cyber sex?
Heheheheheeeeeee

36. Do you think oral sex constitutes a form of intercourse?
Yuhhh

37. What's your favorite sexual position?
I think doggy~ <3

38. What's your favorite sex act?
Hmph, good question

39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
Noep

40. Who do you think has the guts to re-post this?
Lulz idk?

I love my life <3
Seriously <3 I'm thankful everyday for my family, and my friends and my kitty <3

People who truly care for me, and my happiness. I've grown so much as a person this past year alone, and I can't be happier for those who've been there to lift me up instead of drag me down.

I've never been happier <3

Nothing can bring me down when I have a support system like this around me <3

1: Do you have a crush at the moment?
Hmmmmmm <3

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?
I thought I was

3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?
ugh 6-7years ,_,

4: Have you ever changed for someone?
Yes.

5: How is your relationship with your ex?
Not good.

6: Have you ever been cheated on?
I don't know for sure tbh -_-

7: Have you ever cheated?
Yes, and it literally killed me inside, and I was young and a fucking idiot. I will never, as long as I live, do it again.

8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?
No.

9: What's the most important part of a relationship?
Trust, communication, and making time for one another.

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
Serious, I want to be someone's everything, and yeah I know that's selfish lol

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
I don't. But I would think there would be exceptions? But mostly no.

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?
I guess technically 2? ugh..

13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?
Staying for as long as I did, because I thought I was only worth what I had.

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
Probably 17-18? I don't know I don't think it should be rushed.

15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?
To an extent.

16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?
Love is a touchey subject for me anymore lol

17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?
See above answer lol but I do think the internet is a wonderful place~

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?
Someone who prefers to spend time on other shit than you. People who expect me to be their mother/maid. People who loom on the past and would rather do other things on my fucking birthday~ Lol yeah. anyways~

19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?
When you stop being blind to what's really going on in front of you. When you start to see someone's lack of effort to want to be with you.

20: Are you currently in a relationship?
mreow<3

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
Yes, if things end on good terms, I don't see why not.

22: Do you think people should date their friends?
Sure.

23: How many relationships have you had?
I'm on number 2~

24: Do you think love can last forever?
Yes, but love scares the shit out of me..

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?
Yes, which is why I feel I've never experienced it lol

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
Ugh, No, but my parents opinion means the world to me lol

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
ugh, lol

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?
Mhmm.

29: What do you notice first about another person?
Their sense of humor <3

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?
Bisexual with a pref for men

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?
No, Considering I suffer from depression that'd be pretty bogus of me lol

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
Yes, not physically but emotionally.

33: Do you want to get married one day?
UGH LOL, I'm working on getting divorced! But yes, I do dream on finding my forever mate and marrying them and having a real life together <3

34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?
I doubt it, I think I'd do something meaningful but not their name or anything that couldn't be explained as something else lol

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?
No, and yes? Lol I don't like a relationship built on sex, but I greatly enjoy the closeness and intimacy. with someone I truely care about and vice versa, I feel sex would never get old <3

36: Are you still a virgin?
Unfortunately, no lol /regrets everywhere/

37: What's more important: Looks or personality?
Personality~ For sure

38: Do you enjoy love films?
Meh, I'm more into comedies, but I'll watch anything with the one I care about <3

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?
I've received them once

40: Have you ever had a valentine?
meh, I guess you could say that

41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?
A truckbed, a million blankets and pillows, and her, under the stars. <3333333

42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?
Noep lol

43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?
Both are <3

44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?
Yes and I feel like I am to a fault lol

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?
Yes

46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?
Meh? To a point I guess? But not by anyone's fault lol

47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?
Guh.. Lady and the Tramp LOL <3

48: What's your favorite love song?
Uhhh, right now probably Unconditionally by Katy Perry lol

49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I don't think so.

50: If you're single, why do you think you are?
noep

51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?
LOL Poor and nice wtf XD

52: Are you good at giving other people advice regarding dating/ relationships?
Eeeeeeehhhhhh, not really? But I always try my best lol

53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?
Eh, It's more of a 'fucking gag me' thing lmao I was very, er, bitter towards things after my shit ended lol

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)?
Idk, -shrugs- I mean It's nice to know they're not ashamed of me lol so yanno

55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?
I definitely am at times.. Idk lol

56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?
I've been blamed for it yes, but then again so have my friends so? Lol

57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?
Yes, no one's worth your life. I've thought of this long and hard.

58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?
Submissive~

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?
No lol

60: What's your opinion on open relationships?
I don't understand them, but to each their own, I will always want a closed monogamous relationship.

61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?
They are both extremely important to me. I would hope I'd never have to choose..

62: How do you define "cheating"?
Being a liar and going behind the one you supposedly 'loves' back. Doesn't have to be sex, just being a general ass hole lol idk I'm bitter lol.

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?
It depends. Watch it with me and we're cool. But if you'd rather jerk it to porn than be with me, that's cool. Guess we won't be together lol. But y'anno. w/e

64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?
No lol, it's cute<3

65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?
Definitely, cuddling is my favorite <3

Cause I don't care :l

that's all.

http://www.livestream.com/dooksart?t=577351

if you wanna watch me fail xD

So I've been gone for a while xD
Yeah last Tuesday I had to undergo unplanned surgery to have my Gallbladder removed. x3x;

two weeks ago on Thursday I started having awful pains, from Thursday till Monday they just wouldn't subside, no matter what we did, I even went to the ER on Saturday night to try to get help, and they only gave me some morphine, and some pain meds that I can't take because they are ibuprofen based and since my gastric sleeve I can't take anything ibuprofen based or it could hurt my surgery. And the ER doctor even SAID he looked at my file and saw I had it -_-

Anyway on Monday I had already had an appt to see my surgeon about my gallbladder since I had gotten an ultrasound and they found gallstones. So I went in and told her about my pain and where it was and how it wouldn't go away no matter what. Well my surgeon asked me if I wanted to be admitted to the hospital and I said yes. I was admitted for dehydration and for my gallbladder. Because from Thursday til Monday all I was doing was sleeping, so I was extremely dehydrated. I had a cat scan and from there they went ahead and scheduled my surgery, it was just a pencil in so I had no idea when I was going in.

I ended up going in around 6? I don't remember XD But I was luckily able to go home that night cause they wanted me to stay another night, but I hate staying in the hospital so much :C

So yeah I've been slowly recovering, it's been extremely painful, just where the gallbladder sits makes it so painful for surgery in that area :/

But yeah so I'm on leave from work until the 12th of Jan. :/ So yeah it's been a crazy few weeks.. I'm gonna try to start drawing again soon ;_; but it's not easy to sit here haha

Love you guys <3

I'm looking for someone to do a MLP plushie for my friend for his birthday :c it's at the end of January (the 26th) and I'm broke, and won't be able to pay for the full commission up front D: If anyone knows a plushie maker who can do really good MLP plushies and would be willing to work with me on a payment plan, I would be amazingly grateful. I don't have $300-400 I can give right now ;_; Depending on my paycheck tomorrow I would try to give like $50? D: And then pay $50-$100 each paycheck till I pay it off, and I wouldn't expect it shipped till I paid it off :C

Please note/comment if you know someone or are someone ;__; /weh/

So we went to the vet this morning for Weasel, he's extremely skinny (1 1/2lbs), lethargic, losing hair, and grinding his teeth.. Dr. Saner, who is absolutely amazing, checked him out, he has swollen lymph nodes on each of his arm pits, and in his abdomen, he was also dehydrated. Dr. Saner is pretty sure it's Lymphoma, a.k.a. cancer.. To be positive they would need to do blood work and such, but she said it probably was the best option to just give him medicine to make sure he's not in pain. I don't know how long he has left, but I will make sure he's even more spoiled then before, he will have the best I can give him. I know he's already had a much better life with me after getting him from someone who kept him locked up in a small cage in a small room all day. I just want to make sure he knows how much I love him that I would do anything for this fuzz ball.. He's only 3yrs old..

So It's been a while since I updated anything and I apologize :/
I've been going through a lot trying to get my life together. I'm finally feeling a lot happier with 90% of things now, and the only thing I wasn't happy with was my relationship. There was a distance between us.

Well long story short, after talking with my new counselor I realized how unhealthy my relationship was. So me and my spouse have separated, and unless he decides to see a counselor on his own accord while we are separated, I plan on divorce. I still love him a lot, and I think I always will, but there are too many issues that we both need to fix, that can't be fixed alone.

I'm not going to bad mouth him or anything, I hope he is able to stay in the states like he wants to and be happy. There's a lot I wish wouldn't have happened on both our ends, but I can't lie in saying I feel like a huge emotional weight has been lifted off my chest. My emotions were literally weighing me down.

So I hope to start getting more time to work on my art and get back into doing what I enjoy when I'm not working.

Thanks so much for your much needed patience during my change in places in life. I appreciate it.

I also can't thank Itsu enough for being there for me, and talking with me. I love you so much girl <3

Sorry guys,
Dook/Red

Where are you staying?
Hyatt Regency O'Hare :3

What day are you getting there?
Thursday~ :3

Who will you be rooming with?
and her room mates <3

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Honestly I will be clinging to my hubby and my Yena ;; cause I miss that stupid 'yena so god damn badly :C

What is the best way to find you?
Well I MIGHTMIGHTMIGHT have a suit? But I don't think I will since Itsu got her eye fucked up <3 So probably look for me in my Dook ears and tail xD and Dook badges~ dis is me tho LINK
But yah I'm usually roaming the artists ally and dealers den and junk :b

Are there any panels you might be attending?
I don't usually do panels, but I might do any MLP panels, if I feel like it? xD

What do you look like?
SEE ABOVE LOL

Will you be suiting?
If Itsu can get my suit done I will! If not I plan on a Pinkie Pie cosplay =3

Do you do free art?
Not really but I get bored and do stupid doodles? lol

Do you do trades?
Sure :b

Do you do badges/commissions?
Not right now, I got too much stuff I gotta do XD

What is your gender?
I'm a gurl weazul <3

How tall are you?
5'9''

Can I talk to you?
Yes! I am shy and awkward at first tho ;_____;

Can I touch you?
If I have a suit ? But otherwise plz no lol
Tho If I'm cosplaying as Pinkie Pie and you're Rainbow Dash... lets make out bb omurr /fag

Can I visit your room?
Idk ? maybe XD

Can I buy you drinks?
I guess I really don't drink much unless Pina Colada omfg ;u; plsu

Can I give you stuff?
Like wut? Pony stuff? Art? PLUSHIES? YA LOL

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I like hugs! But I only snuggle my wuff and yena kthx

Are you nice?
Yes, I'm extremely nice, lol once I warm up to people I'm crazy and stupid all the time haha.

How long are you going?
Thursday to Monday =3

Do you have an artist table?
Nope~

Will you be going to parties?
Probably not, I'm really not a party weasel :l

Will you be performing?
No XD

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Probably best way is to say YO RED, or YO DOOK and I'll be like WATTTTT

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Sure if you like porn lmao

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Yes! Draw me thngs! I LOVE THINGS!

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Sure, if you ask and we are okay then why not?

Can I take your picture?
Yeah, I'm a lot more confident in myself since weight loss so I'm much more willing to do pictures haha

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To get as much time with my 'yena as possible >BC and meet people =3 I like making new furrends ;_____; /loner weasel/


So yeah lol I was bored

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5091425/

C: I generally don't enter raffles but why not xD

http://www.livestream.com/dooksart

Doing a livestream with my girl to raise money so she can get her eye fixed ;3; <3

Come watch and donate if you can :3

Please help her out anyway you can :(
Here's the journal explaining ~
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5061663/

even just sharing the journal can help. :(
I will doing all I can to help including OCing sketches for donations and whatever else I can do including probably shoving money at her once I get my first paycheck.

So if you can offer help, please do <3
She's the sweetest most amazing person in the world, and deserves your help if you can offer it ;_; I know I STILL owe commissions, but I'll do anything I can to help my best friend in the world <3 ;;

Thank you ;3;

YIS I did~ I started at Petco on Sunday and I LOVE IT so far <3

I get to be around animals and ferrets <3

I love it so much, I'm so happy ;u;

Only downside so far is my manager said something about no vacations will be given from October-January 15th D:

Meaning I might not be able to go to MFF ;_____; but I'm gonna plead with him and see if there's anyway he will reconsider since I've been planning to go since last MFF.... so yeah :C I'm gonna be extremely upset if I can't go... huff..

But other than that, I'm really happy with my new job <3

Sooo losing weight has had a bad side :c I can't wear some of my favourite shirts anymore cause their way too big ;_; I love these shirts so much, and I wish I could shrink them XD

But obviously since I can't I thought I'd see if anyone would be willing to buy them? :C

Here's the ones I've found for now and when I find the others and get them clean I'll post them.

I got these two for my Birthday last year in October~

Pinkie Pie-
https://www.dropbox.com/s/1ghfynkr6.....oto%287%29.jpg

Fluttershy-
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ik1w8so70.....oto%285%29.jpg

I got these for Christmas last year~

Pinkie Pie Veggie Salad-
https://www.dropbox.com/s/lm23lcds4.....oto%286%29.jpg

Rarity Making it Work-
https://www.dropbox.com/s/vh70o89ft.....oto%283%29.jpg

Sweetie Belle I'm Excite-
https://www.dropbox.com/s/vnlskvmeh.....oto%282%29.jpg

Lyra I believe-
https://www.dropbox.com/s/0tlvmj6fe.....oto%281%29.jpg

Lastly this one I got probably two years ago?

Derpy is Best Pony-
https://www.dropbox.com/s/894f34s5r.....oto%284%29.jpg


I would like to get $10 for most of them D: They retail on Welovefine for $25 and I'm hoping to replace some.. but I know obviously I can't expect a lot xD

Just make an offer D:

they're all in really good shape, no stains or rips ;n;

Also I have this Powerpuff Girls shirt I got for Xmas last year as well, same size XXL
https://www.dropbox.com/s/h6qezj477.....mc01/photo.jpg

Comment or note me :C
/sob/ I hate not being able to wear these anymore ;_; !!!

So yeah, I'm about 6 weeks out of surgery, and not feeling so great, because it's so hard to get the amount of protein that I need in each day.. I need 60-80grams of protein and I'm lucky if I get half that. So we've found some protein drink shots that I take twice a day that are 26grams so I get at least 52grams a day z_z so yeah my body is mad at me for not getting all the stuff I need xC So I've been extremely nauseous and stuff for the past couple weeks x3x I feel like my doctors don't give a shit cause me and my parents have been figuring everything out since last time I called my doctor they did an Upper GI and when that looked fine they just kinda didn't give a shit. So me and my parents have been figuring all this shit out xC

I've been having so many urges to draw, but I just can't sit at my desktop without feeling like being sick for long enough to do anything ;;...

Idk it sucks right now and I just can't wait for things to get better.

Also even though I can't afford to buy one yet, I'm curious if anyone knows of anyone who can make super cute cartoony ferret suits? I think I've asked before, but I don't remember :l I've found a couple I like and might go with once I have the funds, but I'm just curious if there's any I've missed :U

Hii.. So I had my surgery on the 12th and was suppose to only be in the hospital till the 14th but I didn't get out till the 16th due to a spell of really bad nausea :C

Anyway, I'm working on healing, and on eating the crap I have to eat until I can handle reeaall food :l

I'm really mostly sore, and can't sit up much, so I mostly lay down :C

But once I get more healed up I'll try to art ;u;!

I go in tomorrow at 8am for my surgery =3 So I won't be around till maybe Friday/Saturday. =3

<3

So I've been on a pre-op diet for almost a week now, consisting of 3 protein shakes & a meal of 300 calories a day.

It's been awful, one of the hardest things I've ever done ;_; So I've been using one shake that made me sick, and I went two days pretty much eating nothing because of it. I was in so much pain with my stomach that I was curled up in bed crying heh.

So I got new shakes today from soy instead of whey, so hoping they are okay, and I can get through this last week with no issues. x3x..

So yeah that's why art hasn't been happening haha.

Also, if anyone knows how to make SL skins and mod stuff, please note/comment <3 I'm being a nerd and I really to make a Dook mod out of the ferret av I have ;3;<3

So yeah that's kinda what's up D:
I hope to get some stuff done or else /wrist