Ever since my wife passed away it's been a struggle, bills piled up, the phone company slapped me with a fee to have it changed from her name to mine, and I need some money for groceries and medications.

If you can help here is my paypal : Carusio_MystWolf[at]yahoo.com

Every little bit will help thanks...

I know I almost never post here, but right now I am in a very bad situation.
My wife and mate, Ryver MystDragon, is dying of kidney failure. She may only have a few days to live. Nothing can be done to stop it.
Please keep us in your thoughts.

I am trying to get back into the furry community, but taking it slowly. I am occaisionally streaming when I play games, I mostly play Guild Wars 2 and Smite. If I get more viewers, maybe I'll do other games.

Life's been tough, and I'm fighting my depression as best I can. So if you wish to help, or get to know me btter, here's my twitch stream

http://www.twitch.tv/carusio

I know I am not very active here, but I am desperate. gofund.me/urdg2k

Please help!

After years of being a wolf, I have come to a rather interesting conclusion. I don't want to be a wolf anymore. I haven't played as my character, Carusio, in over a year.

I'm now Arvu Re`Bantra, a leopard. I'd really like it if someone can help me and get me some art so I can update my FA. Please let me know, thanks.

I had to make yet another difficult decision. I can no longer do a job like this. My wife requires constant care, and I need to be here for her. Driving a truck cross country is not ideal for that. I had no choice but to quit. There simply was no other option.

My wife Ryver had a stroke on sunday. She has been in the hospital since then. I just got home yesterday, and have been trying to recover some lost sleep and fight off a cold. I will give an update later.

I guess I have no choice right now. I have to wait a few more days to get our on the road it seems. I'm not too worried, but as soon as I get everything cleared up, get a few bucks saved up, I am going to get my truck. I don't even care anymore. I know it's not easy to lease your own truck, but I have to take the chance and do it. I just hope they have a Volvo available at the lot...I've kind of grown to dislike the Freightliners after all the shit the last one put me through...

Basically, my plans have been set back at least a month or two. I had a set of keys IN MY HAND, and could have had a truck of my own. And then I was informed that I could not due to the fact that my license is not for the state I am a resident of.

So now I am at home, waiting to go over and deal with this. And because I could not drive a truck here, I do not get paid. That's right. After sitting there for a week, I have to spend a SECOND WEEK dealing with this. And because they take out of my pay for the truck driving school, I will end up owing them money.

Yeah you heard that right....

They fucked up, and I owe them because of it. So now I wait for a phone call... If my manager does not meet my demands, I may walk away from them and go elsewhere. I got a CDL, I can get a job with any trucking company. I don't need this bullshit...

Well I have been doing it for about two weeks! It's a lot of fun, but Idon't get on much anymore. Anyways! I really hope you all are doing well!

As I write this, I am packing up what I can carry, and heading off on a journey. The truth is, I have been putting this off for a very long time. I have allowed the fear of failure to ruin my life, and that of others. I was supposed to be the one people could lean on, the one that had a place for others to stay when needed. But I have been shown otherwise. To those of you whom have stayed with me and my wife, I am sorry for not being as strong as you needed. I lied to myself, and I lied to you. The truth is, I never had the proper resources.
And I have become bitter. I have become even more angry at myself, and at others. I have lost who I truly am inside. I need to find myself. This isn't just about a job. This is me doing what I feel I need to do to fix my soul.

Well, I leave on Saturday. I hope to have some internet access. Those of you whom wish, please add my yahoo IM. You will find that info on my profile. To those of you who have me on Steam, I suggest you add my YIM too, just in case. Hopefully things go as planned. I wish all of you luck in your journeys.

As of July 11th, I will be in Salt Lake City for truck driving school. From there, I will immidiately be put in a truck. I am hoping everything goes as planned. I would like to thank everyone who helped me up when I was down. Hopefully soon, everything will be better. I will not be online so much anymore, but I will attempt to throw a journal out at least once a week. I love you all. Thank you...

Just a temporary injury, maybe for a few weeks. My left wing was utterly destroyed in an RP fight. I think it would make for a great pic... but whatever. Wing's tattered and torn to shreds.

Oh god, I have an interview in a few hours. I am so nervous! I really want this job! But I am soooooo scared! PLEASE EVERYONE WISH ME LUCK!

Well, I didn't say it here, but recently I had lost my job. So I've been looking for a new one.

A friend of mine hooked me up, and I went online and did all the testing. I passed the tests! So now I have an interview on Friday!

Oh my GOD I am soooo nervous! PLEASE wish me luck!

FA wants you to have work friendly avatars, yet the front page is still filled with advertisements for furry porn?

I'm not sure just what that's all about, but doesn't it kind of defeat the purpose?

Well, my wife Ryver is in the hospital for a few days. She has a serious infection in her left hand. Because of medical conditions she has, they felt that she needed to stay for a couple of days. I will give updates later.

Right, if anyone knows of an artist that is willing to do my fursona for free, please let me know.

Meanwhile, I've been looking over some of my old writing, and have decided to rework and extend the story of WhispersInTheWind . I encourage all of you to please take a look at my original story, as things may change. I may change names, and re-write some events. Also, if you know anyone who is willing to draw Whispers, please let me know so that I may give a proper description.

I've got a bit more time on my hands now. I might start writing again. Not sure yet. Just going to give you guys a heads up and let you know that I might actually post stuff.

Well I have some great story ideas, problem is... I can't seem to get them out...


So here's an idea...

I need you guys to give me an idea for a character. Send me a private message with a breif description of the character. DO NOT give me background of the character, as that will be MY job to supply that. Give short descriptions, including species,sex, special abilities, etc.

Remember, I do not write naughty stories, so don't expect anything sexy.

Whoever gives me the most interesting character idea will get that character as a major part of a story.