i spend my days waiting for something better. nothing usually comes. no glimmer of life no shred of hope but every once in awhile sunshines in through the cracks and im alive. not today, today is different. i see a wasteland over shadowed by a storm. one thing keeps me going and she knows what she means to me. the hard part is surviving till i can be everything i want to be. I cant do this on my own is what ive realized and no help comes from above. ill take my greif and sorrow to the grave for every person ive betrayed. No one said life was easy and i can attest to that but wtf is wrong with the people who start their day saying to themselves im gonna ruin someone elses...you get one life to live why would i or any of you want to live in agony?

Dawn rises its another new day. i wake to find its no different the motions are the same, then a glimmer of hope shines in. what is it? i dont know. but its sits there are watches back for minutes then hours. when i open my eyes and look out the window its clear, its my chance and im taking it come hell or high water theres no looking back. why would i want to anyway? there would be no point in that! Be it my mate or myself i have to be strong. the storm is coming, can we hold on?

i can take the time to describe what has happened but Bring me the horizon "the comedown" explains it better..."Just like the living dead, YEAH, Ive got a taste for something, i dont want it, I JUST NEED IT, and i cant believe that its getting harder just too feel alive"