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Posted a month agoOctober 5th is maned wolf day. 8]
PSA!
Posted a month agoHi, I don't put out journals often, but the need has become clear! I appreciate all the positivity on the recent Breaking News uploads I've been putting in; the faves and comments are very uplifting. ^^ I have made a couple for some friends now, and this is something that also brings me joy. I've never opened up YCHs or taken commissions because I do not feel assured that I may be able to provide something that somebody will find worth their money, but gifts are free...so I can do that!
However, this doesn't mean you can send me a private message or note boldly asking for me to make one (or even multiple) for you too...especially if I don't even know you, and especially especially if you're not even a watcher of mine.
I'd normally end a journal like this with a sort of apology, but I'm trying to move beyond apologizing too much soo..y'know, I'm not that sorry. :( Thank you for the interest, but also don't be presumptuous!
However, this doesn't mean you can send me a private message or note boldly asking for me to make one (or even multiple) for you too...especially if I don't even know you, and especially especially if you're not even a watcher of mine.
I'd normally end a journal like this with a sort of apology, but I'm trying to move beyond apologizing too much soo..y'know, I'm not that sorry. :( Thank you for the interest, but also don't be presumptuous!
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Posted 6 months agoegg
new banner
Posted 7 months agoi hope you like it
completely original design credit to me do not steal or i will sue
completely original design credit to me do not steal or i will sue
2025!
Posted 10 months agoHappy New Year! :D
(Mostly pointless journal to bump the previous one out, I'll probably do this again in a few more months!)
(Mostly pointless journal to bump the previous one out, I'll probably do this again in a few more months!)
Welcome Back!
Posted a year agoIn case FA goes down again, here's where else you can find me:
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...well I don't really have anywhere else. I hope it can hold together here.
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...well I don't really have anywhere else. I hope it can hold together here.
:(
Posted a year agoHow dare I feel sad? I did not know the man. We never interacted. Where was my compassion and support when he was still alive? Strange how nobody cares until he’s gone.
I am sorry. I feel grieved about his months of discomfort and pain. Angry that help was sought but he could not be saved. And I feel a bit hollow because I know everybody close to him has experienced an enormous tragedy and significant trauma. Neer is at rest, but everybody close to him continues to suffer.
I wish things had gone differently. Thanks for giving me and countless others a place to express ourselves. This place has given us all a sanctuary where we can feel at home. We took you for granted. I am sorry I did not do more.
I am sorry. I feel grieved about his months of discomfort and pain. Angry that help was sought but he could not be saved. And I feel a bit hollow because I know everybody close to him has experienced an enormous tragedy and significant trauma. Neer is at rest, but everybody close to him continues to suffer.
I wish things had gone differently. Thanks for giving me and countless others a place to express ourselves. This place has given us all a sanctuary where we can feel at home. We took you for granted. I am sorry I did not do more.
Running low on tethers
Posted a year agoWhat's a tether? Easy, it's what keeps you anchored here. A reason you must remain.
Me? Call me selfish but I really don't care too much about people. People have endless support networks and can come and go with no major impact on much. I really identify/bond more with canines (please do not make this weird ffs). My "tethers" have grown to number 7 from the time I was a teenager until now.
Seven individual canines (one was a person masquerading as a canine...the realest connection I have ever had to another human being) that have kept me tethered down. Seven reasons to wake up every day.
It's been a bad day. It's been a bad few years.
I'm down to 2. One of these I have recently had to leave behind myself, as she resides where I used to volunteer, but I had to relocate many hours away and cannot see her often...this girl is now 15.5 years old and I don't expect her to make it too much longer either.
That will leave me with 1. One single reason to remain. I'm not suicidal, but what do you do if you run out of tethers?
If you read this far, only half the reason I posted this is to vent. The other reason I wanted to post this is because I wanted to remind YOU--please do not take the things you love for granted. Cherish every day.
EDIT: I have to clarify because apparently there's some confusion (some of you are stupider than I thought)...the 15.5-year old I was referring to is a fucking wolf-dog hybrid. Not a human child. I literally cannot believe I am having to specify this.
Me? Call me selfish but I really don't care too much about people. People have endless support networks and can come and go with no major impact on much. I really identify/bond more with canines (please do not make this weird ffs). My "tethers" have grown to number 7 from the time I was a teenager until now.
Seven individual canines (one was a person masquerading as a canine...the realest connection I have ever had to another human being) that have kept me tethered down. Seven reasons to wake up every day.
It's been a bad day. It's been a bad few years.
I'm down to 2. One of these I have recently had to leave behind myself, as she resides where I used to volunteer, but I had to relocate many hours away and cannot see her often...this girl is now 15.5 years old and I don't expect her to make it too much longer either.
That will leave me with 1. One single reason to remain. I'm not suicidal, but what do you do if you run out of tethers?
If you read this far, only half the reason I posted this is to vent. The other reason I wanted to post this is because I wanted to remind YOU--please do not take the things you love for granted. Cherish every day.
EDIT: I have to clarify because apparently there's some confusion (some of you are stupider than I thought)...the 15.5-year old I was referring to is a fucking wolf-dog hybrid. Not a human child. I literally cannot believe I am having to specify this.
Go check out SourSundew for a free raffle! :)
Posted a year agoWanna get some free art? :) If you have a canid, cervid, or ursine character, you can head over here to check out this great artist, and enter their raffle!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10892098/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10892098/
A disconnect
Posted a year agoHello, friends; if you're not sure if that includes you, but you're reading this, then yes that includes you. I haven't messaged you, the reader, any time recently, and I can say that for certain because I haven't messaged *anybody* recently. It's not just you. I am sorry.
It's strange, because I feel like I have a lot to say but at the same time, it feels like there aren't any words. Nothing significant has changed or anything (at least, recently...), but I'm feeling very, very disconnected from...well, all of the things you and I may have in common, if you're reading this. I don't feel like a maney. Don't feel like I have any strong or even moderate connections towards my own characters, to anybody else's characters, or to anybody else in general.
It's hard to put into words. But it's lonely.
It's strange, because I feel like I have a lot to say but at the same time, it feels like there aren't any words. Nothing significant has changed or anything (at least, recently...), but I'm feeling very, very disconnected from...well, all of the things you and I may have in common, if you're reading this. I don't feel like a maney. Don't feel like I have any strong or even moderate connections towards my own characters, to anybody else's characters, or to anybody else in general.
It's hard to put into words. But it's lonely.
New year same me
Posted 2 years agoI don't really wanna change. Join me in treading water and failing to strive for self-improvement!
I'm here.
Posted 2 years agoThis message is for those that may be needing or wanting to hear it. I am here.
Things are alright.
Posted 2 years agoYou ever just have one of those weeks where nothing majorly horrible is happening, and you kind of realize that things are pretty okay?
Yeh. I mean we all have some things we could complain about but things are really alright.
If anybody reading this is feeling like things aren't okay, you can talk to me if you'd like!
Yeh. I mean we all have some things we could complain about but things are really alright.
If anybody reading this is feeling like things aren't okay, you can talk to me if you'd like!
Diabetic legs
Posted 3 years agoI’m not sure how many people will even read this, but I just wanted to announce an almost complete departure from this platform.
I’m not deactivating my account or anything, but I won’t be commissioning/creating much more art from now on.
2022 has been a hell of a bad year. Earlier this year, I spent two months fighting very hard to keep an animal at my volunteer job alive. I was there day and night, busting my ass just to see her continuing to circle the drain until she eventually lost her fight.
Then immediately after that, my car broke down when I was attempting to leave for vacation, forcing me to cancel a trip I had been planning for FOUR YEARS. And I only ever take 1 vacation per year, so I just did not get one this year.
And for the past couple of months, I have been increasingly unwell. Very fatigued. Very tired. Very thirsty, and waking up every 90 minutes during the night to use the bathroom. My eyes rapidly starting getting worse. I lost 12% of my body weight, and I was lithe to begin with.
This led to a doctor’s visit and a diagnosis of diabetes. That’s okay, I will live, but it’s just one more huge thing to deal with. I still feel like shit.
And the disease also comes with another big symptom: decreased sex drive, lmao. Hence a sharp decrease in interest in this site. Let’s be real, a lot of us are here because we’re horny, but not me any longer.
I hope you’re all well, thanks for reading.
I’m not deactivating my account or anything, but I won’t be commissioning/creating much more art from now on.
2022 has been a hell of a bad year. Earlier this year, I spent two months fighting very hard to keep an animal at my volunteer job alive. I was there day and night, busting my ass just to see her continuing to circle the drain until she eventually lost her fight.
Then immediately after that, my car broke down when I was attempting to leave for vacation, forcing me to cancel a trip I had been planning for FOUR YEARS. And I only ever take 1 vacation per year, so I just did not get one this year.
And for the past couple of months, I have been increasingly unwell. Very fatigued. Very tired. Very thirsty, and waking up every 90 minutes during the night to use the bathroom. My eyes rapidly starting getting worse. I lost 12% of my body weight, and I was lithe to begin with.
This led to a doctor’s visit and a diagnosis of diabetes. That’s okay, I will live, but it’s just one more huge thing to deal with. I still feel like shit.
And the disease also comes with another big symptom: decreased sex drive, lmao. Hence a sharp decrease in interest in this site. Let’s be real, a lot of us are here because we’re horny, but not me any longer.
I hope you’re all well, thanks for reading.
Another feral YCH boost
Posted 3 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/view/49498137/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49498137/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49498137/
marjani has done it again. I can't personally claim this right now, but perhaps one of you can snag it for yourself. :)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49498137/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49498137/
marjani has done it again. I can't personally claim this right now, but perhaps one of you can snag it for yourself. :)YCH boost!
Posted 3 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/view/48412779
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48412779
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48412779
I just wanted to boost this YCH. It's a collab between
psy101 and marjani. It's one price only (no auction), first come first serve. If you're reading this, go snag it! :]
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48412779
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48412779
I just wanted to boost this YCH. It's a collab between
psy101 and marjani. It's one price only (no auction), first come first serve. If you're reading this, go snag it! :]Unimportant update
Posted 3 years agoThings are okay. 👍 This is mostly just to bump that old journal off my page. I'm still pretty aloof nowadays, and am not very talkative...but everything's alright. Thanks for your time!
Aloof
Posted 4 years agoI'm only putting this here because I have nowhere else to put it. I can't put it on Facebook because I'll be stepping on too many toes and it'll impact my real life too negatively. I try to not be one of those people who just types their life's story in FA journals in an effort to seek attention....I put up new journals what, once a year or so?
Some of you may have noticed I've grown distant with you recently. This journal is both to apologize for that, and to request that you continue to be patient with me for a while longer. I promise it's not just you that I'm not talking to--I've essentially cut off communication with almost everyone and I intend to keep it that way for now.
Why? It's because...honestly, the more people I speak with on a regular basis, the more bleak my image of the world becomes. Every friend is another voice I have to lend my ears to. I'll come home from working a 14-hour shift during which I observed literal death numerous times, only to have to have an hours-long conversation with somebody who found out their significant other is cheating on them. I'll work 8 days straight with no days off, just to get messaged by someone who needs me to tell them how to magically heal their dying dog.
I only have two ears. I'm out of energy, guys. I can't fix all your problems, and nobody's helping me to fix mine.
Again, this isn't a cry for attention. I'm not looking for sympathy; in fact, I'd rather just be left alone. Thank you.
Some of you may have noticed I've grown distant with you recently. This journal is both to apologize for that, and to request that you continue to be patient with me for a while longer. I promise it's not just you that I'm not talking to--I've essentially cut off communication with almost everyone and I intend to keep it that way for now.
Why? It's because...honestly, the more people I speak with on a regular basis, the more bleak my image of the world becomes. Every friend is another voice I have to lend my ears to. I'll come home from working a 14-hour shift during which I observed literal death numerous times, only to have to have an hours-long conversation with somebody who found out their significant other is cheating on them. I'll work 8 days straight with no days off, just to get messaged by someone who needs me to tell them how to magically heal their dying dog.
I only have two ears. I'm out of energy, guys. I can't fix all your problems, and nobody's helping me to fix mine.
Again, this isn't a cry for attention. I'm not looking for sympathy; in fact, I'd rather just be left alone. Thank you.
Back to it
Posted 5 years agoMy last journal saw me facing some financial hardships that resulted in a reduced amount of art being uploaded. Now, times have changed for the better and I'll probably start commissioning more art again.
That being said, I wouldn't expect to see much more art that I've actually created; drawing things myself is simply too tedious and difficult and boring, and I just don't have time for such things anymore! I'll most likely just stick to commissions from here on out.
That being said, I wouldn't expect to see much more art that I've actually created; drawing things myself is simply too tedious and difficult and boring, and I just don't have time for such things anymore! I'll most likely just stick to commissions from here on out.
New changes
Posted 6 years agoNew FA user interface! I like it— On mobile, it’s harder to accidentally tap on ads. I feel like it’s more sleek!
In other news, Resper just bought a car...I’m afraid I’m going to have to start being much more financially-conscious, which means I’ll be greatly reducing my spending on art. I am waiting on a few more commissions that are already paid for, but once I have those uploaded, you’re going to be seeing far less from me in the future. I’m sorry! My old car had almost 230,000 miles on it…it’s time had come.
Thank you all for a wonderful run. ❤️ I’m not leaving FA entirely but I must step back from the furry art realm quite a bit.
In other news, Resper just bought a car...I’m afraid I’m going to have to start being much more financially-conscious, which means I’ll be greatly reducing my spending on art. I am waiting on a few more commissions that are already paid for, but once I have those uploaded, you’re going to be seeing far less from me in the future. I’m sorry! My old car had almost 230,000 miles on it…it’s time had come.
Thank you all for a wonderful run. ❤️ I’m not leaving FA entirely but I must step back from the furry art realm quite a bit.
Go commission this artist!
Posted 6 years agoAnother really good artist that I follow has opened up commissions, and still has some slots available. 
Jambalayathepit has very reasonable prices and could use your help. If you've been looking for a commission but haven't been sure where to turn, look no further! ^^
Jambalayathepit has very reasonable prices and could use your help. If you've been looking for a commission but haven't been sure where to turn, look no further! ^^Artist in need with some great YCHs!
Posted 6 years agoI don't make journals...ever...but I want to generate a little more exposure for someone who I believe is a terrific artist. 
adaxel17 has some fantastic YCHs up for grabs. They've run into a bit of trouble recently and could use some help.
Please help out this great artist and get some good art in return! Here are links to some of their open YCHs:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31060465/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31060055/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31060350/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31060418/
adaxel17 has some fantastic YCHs up for grabs. They've run into a bit of trouble recently and could use some help. Please help out this great artist and get some good art in return! Here are links to some of their open YCHs:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31060465/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31060055/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31060350/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/31060418/
Time for a new journal...
Posted 8 years ago....to replace that old one that I put up when I first joined more than a year ago, lol. Obviously I'm not around too much anymore, but I just kind of wanted to announce that I am, indeed, still alive.
Somehow.
Somehow.
Finally getting my arse on here!
Posted 9 years agoLurked for long enough, it's time to contribute! :3
