Birthday
Posted 5 years agoI'm 29 today~
Casual Reminder.
Posted 11 years agoIf you're following me here because you've seen one of the nsfw commissions, you won't see much of the same here.
My nsfw account, like it says in my header is
Callipygous
Just saying :P That being said if you want to reach me through notes, this is the right spot to do so :3
My nsfw account, like it says in my header is

Just saying :P That being said if you want to reach me through notes, this is the right spot to do so :3
Something I can't stand... (YCH/minirant)
Posted 12 years agoThose, "Your Character Here (YCH)/"This Could Be You" (TCBY)/Pre-Posed/etc commission nonsense.
It feels like it's the next big thing everyone wants to do and it's the dumbest shit ever to me!
I know there are some uncreative people out there, but do they really have nothing better to do than throw money at artists to draw their characters in generic boring pieces of art? Really? Seriously?
The only time I pay for art is when I have an idea I just can't help but get drawn, I simply have to have it! Not just because I have money and stuff...
Maybe I could understand it if there was something really unique being offered, or if there was some insane discount, but no, that's not how it seems to work...
Hell some people have YCH auctions! Where the highest bidder or two get to put their character into generic position #1/2....
URRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!
Someone explain to me why you would rather buy a YCH sort of commission than put your character into something you thought up yourself?
Seriously, explain the appeal to me?
PS, I also think adoptables are stupid too, but it's the YCH stuff that really irks me the most...
It feels like it's the next big thing everyone wants to do and it's the dumbest shit ever to me!
I know there are some uncreative people out there, but do they really have nothing better to do than throw money at artists to draw their characters in generic boring pieces of art? Really? Seriously?
The only time I pay for art is when I have an idea I just can't help but get drawn, I simply have to have it! Not just because I have money and stuff...
Maybe I could understand it if there was something really unique being offered, or if there was some insane discount, but no, that's not how it seems to work...
Hell some people have YCH auctions! Where the highest bidder or two get to put their character into generic position #1/2....
URRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!
Someone explain to me why you would rather buy a YCH sort of commission than put your character into something you thought up yourself?
Seriously, explain the appeal to me?
PS, I also think adoptables are stupid too, but it's the YCH stuff that really irks me the most...
Free art
Posted 12 years agoChristmas
Posted 12 years agoI am in fact not dead, also this is my favorite Christmas song.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNgSMCaje4c
Edit:
Seems video tag is broken, so you get a link instead...
Edit Edit:
no, yeah it's broken
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNgSMCaje4c
Edit:
Seems video tag is broken, so you get a link instead...
Edit Edit:
no, yeah it's broken
Porn, where is it? Also sales
Posted 14 years agoSo it's been a while, but in case some of you guys don't look at old journals or just forgot, here's a reminder.
All my adult and mature art I've received via commission or request is all over here
Callipygous
While I may not check the comments or favs or whatnot on that account, it is where I post anything that isn't of a general rating. So check it out if that's your thing.
All my adult and mature art I've received via commission or request is all over here

While I may not check the comments or favs or whatnot on that account, it is where I post anything that isn't of a general rating. So check it out if that's your thing.
I'm Summoning the Spiders
Posted 14 years agohttp://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....r-Man57022.jpg
This... This is the most freaking awesome thing. EVER!
This... This is the most freaking awesome thing. EVER!
List of Groups continued (pt 10)
Posted 14 years agoUPDATE
I'm really fricken lazy and probably won't be keeping up with your comments, so I'd invite folks looking for more groups to check the comments down below. Feel free to add your groups by commenting with them!
Okay so FOREVER ago, I started this list of FurAffinity groups and their icons, in an attempt to make it easier to find them (By also making a image submission, and then tagging it appropriately)... I then promptly ignored it for a good year or so...
However folks have left me comments directing me to groups not on my list, and I have added them to the end of list 9.
If anyone else has some more groups I've not added to the list:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8
Part 9
Part 10
Then let me know and I'll start adding to the list here:
bellylovers
musclegutfurs
united_musclefurs
subarufurs
bassistfurs
booze_n_fur
hockeyfurs
retrofurs
goofurs
huskyfurs
native_american_furs
canids
Doberman_Pinscher_Furs




I'm really fricken lazy and probably won't be keeping up with your comments, so I'd invite folks looking for more groups to check the comments down below. Feel free to add your groups by commenting with them!
Okay so FOREVER ago, I started this list of FurAffinity groups and their icons, in an attempt to make it easier to find them (By also making a image submission, and then tagging it appropriately)... I then promptly ignored it for a good year or so...
However folks have left me comments directing me to groups not on my list, and I have added them to the end of list 9.
If anyone else has some more groups I've not added to the list:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8
Part 9
Part 10
Then let me know and I'll start adding to the list here:























Completely Stunned!
Posted 14 years agoOkay so I've only been hunting for a job for 9 months... I get home from my 6:30 AM class, only to receive a message from a family friend. Turns out his towing company won the RFP they had a bid on, and that I could expect to be approached by the company's hiring manager within the week!
This is so stupendous, I'm still a little bit delirious from the sheer level of awesome.
Seriously, I'm so happy right now, I don't even know how to adequately express it...
I dunno, it feels sort of like this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBzqOa9y02I (more or less... I had also been meaning to post a link to it at some point... )
So yep... just gotta pay back the money I owe my parents... ($13,000~ish if someone wanted to know...)
Then I'll need to build up a good bit of savings to be able to move out of my parents house, and get my life on track again...
Things are looking up, BIG TIME
This is so stupendous, I'm still a little bit delirious from the sheer level of awesome.
Seriously, I'm so happy right now, I don't even know how to adequately express it...
I dunno, it feels sort of like this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wBzqOa9y02I (more or less... I had also been meaning to post a link to it at some point... )
So yep... just gotta pay back the money I owe my parents... ($13,000~ish if someone wanted to know...)
Then I'll need to build up a good bit of savings to be able to move out of my parents house, and get my life on track again...
Things are looking up, BIG TIME
Invisible Kaz is Invisible...
Posted 14 years agoWell I must say, it's been FOREVER since I was last here... I mean I've poked my head in a couple of times just to make sure nothing completely insane was happening, but other than that, I've been hiding.
Okay not hiding, but otherwise occupied.
I've spent the better portion of this year looking for (and not finding TT_TT) a job. Before you ask, yes I've tried applying to xxxx or yyyy or what have you. Just not getting hired. (Fast food, restaurants, gas stations, pharmacy technician jobs, supermarkets, convenience stores, you name it.
I've also been on again, off again active over on the Flexible Survival MUD.
I want give a huge thank you to all the folks who have decided to add me to their watches, or who have left favs on any of the stuff I uploaded. I'll try to keep up with my notes, and comments, but seeing as I have no money to spend (especially on commissions), I don't foresee much in the way of new art being uploaded anytime soon... If I can get out of debt, and find a gosh damn job, then maybe I'll become significantly more active, but for now, I'll probably only be checking in every couple weeks or so...
Okay not hiding, but otherwise occupied.
I've spent the better portion of this year looking for (and not finding TT_TT) a job. Before you ask, yes I've tried applying to xxxx or yyyy or what have you. Just not getting hired. (Fast food, restaurants, gas stations, pharmacy technician jobs, supermarkets, convenience stores, you name it.
I've also been on again, off again active over on the Flexible Survival MUD.
I want give a huge thank you to all the folks who have decided to add me to their watches, or who have left favs on any of the stuff I uploaded. I'll try to keep up with my notes, and comments, but seeing as I have no money to spend (especially on commissions), I don't foresee much in the way of new art being uploaded anytime soon... If I can get out of debt, and find a gosh damn job, then maybe I'll become significantly more active, but for now, I'll probably only be checking in every couple weeks or so...
Flexible Survival (multiplayer version) (ADULTS ONLY)
Posted 14 years agoCouple things folks. First off awesome game (that I'm part of the staff/content devs) Flexible Survival, by Nuku Valente. http://web.flexiblesurvival.com/play/ is the web client if some of you already have an awesome MUD/MUCK client then you want host http://flexiblesurvival.com/ port 2000 .
Okay whoring aside, Flexible Survival is all about transformation and sex. Pure and simple.
So, if you don't like any of the following:
->Transformation
->Sex
->Role Play
->Games that are effectively still in BETA
->Kinks (like: Gender Shifting, lactation, pregnancy, herms, multi-breasts, large breasts, tentacles, oviposition (egg laying), and few others (a lot of the kinks you may not like can be avoided through the use of in game character perks, though most of the most prolific content devs (myself included) happen to be fans of that kind of stuff, so if you don't like those things you won't be able to enjoy nearly as much as people who like that stuff....))
->Awesome, helpful, and "friendly" player and staff
->Me XP
You'd probably prefer not to check it out.... but if you've seen
xadera's Nimin - Fetish Fantasy Flash and enjoyed it, then you absolutely must stop by and check out Flexible Survival.
Also if you don't feel like getting into the whole "MUD/MUCK" thing... then there is a Single player game of the same name that can be found here: http://nukuv.blogspot.com/ on Nuku's blog, same content warnings apply....
Also because I'd love to know who comes on over from this journal, after you complete Chargen (character generation), type in "tutor kaz" and then send me a private message (type "page kazard=STUFF YOU WANT TO SAY") letting me know you added me as your tutor, and feel free to ask me any and all questions you might have....
Okay whoring aside, Flexible Survival is all about transformation and sex. Pure and simple.
So, if you don't like any of the following:
->Transformation
->Sex
->Role Play
->Games that are effectively still in BETA
->Kinks (like: Gender Shifting, lactation, pregnancy, herms, multi-breasts, large breasts, tentacles, oviposition (egg laying), and few others (a lot of the kinks you may not like can be avoided through the use of in game character perks, though most of the most prolific content devs (myself included) happen to be fans of that kind of stuff, so if you don't like those things you won't be able to enjoy nearly as much as people who like that stuff....))
->Awesome, helpful, and "friendly" player and staff
->Me XP
You'd probably prefer not to check it out.... but if you've seen

Also if you don't feel like getting into the whole "MUD/MUCK" thing... then there is a Single player game of the same name that can be found here: http://nukuv.blogspot.com/ on Nuku's blog, same content warnings apply....
Kavi A MESSAGE TO --HER-- WATCHERS!
Posted 14 years agoI was asked to post a journal for Kavi, so that her watchers aren't left completely hanging while her account is suspended.
PLEASE NOTE I love to believe the best about people, and while I'm extremely hopeful that all this is resolved in a satisfactory manner, I will not publicly defend or condemn what occurred. Nor can I fully confirm or disprove the validity of
kavi's story. As such I will only be allowing non-inflammatory comments.
If you are confused as to the definition of an inflammatory comment then read this before posting. http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_t.....matory_comment
Kavi's words:
end of
kavi's words
Now if you have any questions for
Kavi I'd be happy to relay them to her, as I have a line of communication, if
Kavi is okay with it, I'll give out a reliable means of contacting her, either publicly or privately for particularly concerned individuals...
UPDATE 3/26
Please note, I have been excessively busy in real life... and on other sites that are oodles more interesting at the moment... Thus I was not able to moderate the comments being made here as well as I had hoped to do so...
I would like to thank everyone who took their time to comment, but I'd also like to request that folks discontinue making comments in this particular journal. Feel free to continue the any and all lines of conversation via notes and other journals.
If I was keeping a closer eye on this journal I'd be more than fine with continued comments, but as of now the purpose of this thread to be a means of communicating with Kavi, or making requests of her, has been completely overshadowed by those who are collecting evidence, or expressing opinions...
Thank you to all those who read this and gracefully acquiesce, it's a HUGE help!
PLEASE NOTE I love to believe the best about people, and while I'm extremely hopeful that all this is resolved in a satisfactory manner, I will not publicly defend or condemn what occurred. Nor can I fully confirm or disprove the validity of

If you are confused as to the definition of an inflammatory comment then read this before posting. http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_t.....matory_comment

Well, apparently I was keylogged or hacked into, and had journals posted about a "house on fire" and a "dead sister". It's crazy. I would keep a personal death out of the furry fandom.
So the hacker/keylogger stole all this donated money from my PayPal account because literally all my accounts have the same password (d:) and transferred $205 to their bank account. Now people are harassing me for something I never did, and it's becoming insane.
Varenvel linked me to a virus scanner called Spybot - Search & Destroy, which found a few viruses/keylogger and Zebo, as well as my Windows Security being disabled (which I hadn't disabled before). I ran scans from Malwarebytes which found at least 2 more keyloggers and trojans/spyware, and AVG cleaned up the remaining mess that the other two couldn't find.
I have changed my password on everything, as per advice, so this should not ever happen again. The only thing that still is apparently not working is with Yahoo! Mail, because I keep getting emails saying that spam is being sent via my email address. >.<
Recently someone in Poland tried to access my Facebook account, which is confirming my suspicions.
BUT, I just received confirmation that PayPal has evaluated my account situation and reversed the money transfer to their account. Now all I have to do is wait 3-5 days and then I can return everyone's money. http://i56.tinypic.com/2janite.png
end of

Now if you have any questions for


UPDATE 3/26
Please note, I have been excessively busy in real life... and on other sites that are oodles more interesting at the moment... Thus I was not able to moderate the comments being made here as well as I had hoped to do so...
I would like to thank everyone who took their time to comment, but I'd also like to request that folks discontinue making comments in this particular journal. Feel free to continue the any and all lines of conversation via notes and other journals.
If I was keeping a closer eye on this journal I'd be more than fine with continued comments, but as of now the purpose of this thread to be a means of communicating with Kavi, or making requests of her, has been completely overshadowed by those who are collecting evidence, or expressing opinions...
Thank you to all those who read this and gracefully acquiesce, it's a HUGE help!
Funny as hell or am I just tired....
Posted 14 years agohttp://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/563258
you be the judge....
by the way there are TEARS of mirth in my eyes....
you be the judge....
by the way there are TEARS of mirth in my eyes....
One of the fastest growing text games around!
Posted 14 years agoand easily leaping ahead to become my favorite. Go check out Flexible Survival here http://nukuv.blogspot.com/ ..... Then check it again 3-5 hours later and most times there will be something new released and lurking within the game...
(of course everyone already knows about http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5232046/ but Flexible Survival is easily catching up to it and getting ready to run right by it in terms of content...)
Oh by the way... did I mention the creator of the game is encouraging player submitted creatures? Check out the new creature template here: http://dracone.no-ip.com/FS/monster_template.i7x and a correctly filled out version of the template here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....thkey=CKW02pAD
Happy Hunting
-fine print: all the links given out in this journal lead to text content of an adult nature... you have been warned...
(of course everyone already knows about http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5232046/ but Flexible Survival is easily catching up to it and getting ready to run right by it in terms of content...)
Oh by the way... did I mention the creator of the game is encouraging player submitted creatures? Check out the new creature template here: http://dracone.no-ip.com/FS/monster_template.i7x and a correctly filled out version of the template here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....thkey=CKW02pAD
Happy Hunting
-fine print: all the links given out in this journal lead to text content of an adult nature... you have been warned...
Free Art and Love Song Meme
Posted 14 years agoGo get some free art here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2096948/
I posted this meme a while back, and only got two replies.... come on lurkers, I want to see your answers!
Love Songs
1 Name a song you think represents love
2 Name the most romantic song (in your opinion)
3 Name the song you think best describes love
You can have the same answer for all three, or different answers for each....
My Answers:
1 Don't Go Breaking My Heart, by Elton John & Kiki Dee http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x1ucns_elton-john-y-kiki-dee_music -(This link goes to the real music video Elton and Kiki made, which is better than all reproductions to date XP )
2 Rhythm of Love, by Plain White T's http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWiwuiT58Yc
3 Let's Just Fall in Love Again, by Jason Castro http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PzoiTk6oSKw
So post here your answers, I would LOVE to see your choices
Also Sign up for 5 GB free cloud storage at SugarSync, using my referral link PLEASE *Puppy eyes*
https://www.sugarsync.com/referral?.....=bqy0ikxqdxo65
I posted this meme a while back, and only got two replies.... come on lurkers, I want to see your answers!
Love Songs
1 Name a song you think represents love
2 Name the most romantic song (in your opinion)
3 Name the song you think best describes love
You can have the same answer for all three, or different answers for each....
My Answers:
1 Don't Go Breaking My Heart, by Elton John & Kiki Dee http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x1ucns_elton-john-y-kiki-dee_music -(This link goes to the real music video Elton and Kiki made, which is better than all reproductions to date XP )
2 Rhythm of Love, by Plain White T's http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWiwuiT58Yc
3 Let's Just Fall in Love Again, by Jason Castro http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PzoiTk6oSKw
So post here your answers, I would LOVE to see your choices
Also Sign up for 5 GB free cloud storage at SugarSync, using my referral link PLEASE *Puppy eyes*
https://www.sugarsync.com/referral?.....=bqy0ikxqdxo65
Love Song Meme
Posted 14 years agoI just wrote this up, if you guys wanna call it a meme and pass it around, go for it XP
Love Songs
1 Name a song you think represents love
2 Name the most romantic song (in your opinion)
3 Name the song you think best describes love
You can have the same answer for all three, or different answers for each....
My Answers:
1 Don't Go Breaking My Heart, by Elton John & Kiki Dee http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x1ucns_elton-john-y-kiki-dee_music -(This link goes to the real music video Elton and Kiki made, which is better than all reproductions to date XP )
2 Rhythm of Love, by Plain White T's http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWiwuiT58Yc
3 Let's Just Fall in Love Again, by Jason Castro http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PzoiTk6oSKw
So post here your answers, I would LOVE to see your choices
Also Sign up for 5 GB free cloud storage at SugarSync, using my referral link PLEASE *Puppy eyes*
https://www.sugarsync.com/referral?.....=bqy0ikxqdxo65
Love Songs
1 Name a song you think represents love
2 Name the most romantic song (in your opinion)
3 Name the song you think best describes love
You can have the same answer for all three, or different answers for each....
My Answers:
1 Don't Go Breaking My Heart, by Elton John & Kiki Dee http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x1ucns_elton-john-y-kiki-dee_music -(This link goes to the real music video Elton and Kiki made, which is better than all reproductions to date XP )
2 Rhythm of Love, by Plain White T's http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWiwuiT58Yc
3 Let's Just Fall in Love Again, by Jason Castro http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PzoiTk6oSKw
So post here your answers, I would LOVE to see your choices
Also Sign up for 5 GB free cloud storage at SugarSync, using my referral link PLEASE *Puppy eyes*
https://www.sugarsync.com/referral?.....=bqy0ikxqdxo65
Also who wants 5 GB of free cloud storage?
Posted 14 years agoSugarSync allows you to have 5GB of storage in the cloud for free.
BUT WAIT THAT'S NOT ALL!!!!!
Sign up with my referral link https://www.sugarsync.com/referral?.....=bqy0ikxqdxo65 and you'll get an additional 500 MB. You get 500 extra MB, I get 500 MB and we're both happy... The best part, is that the site has stated that there are absolutely no limits for the amount of extra space you can recieve through referrals (until March 31, 2011 then they'll be putting a limit into effect, and if you earned more than that limit you keep it, but can't gain any additional free space...)
You can get more general info about SugarSync here https://restitution69.sugarsync.com/tour/ BUT please use my referral link when signing up!
Even if you don't feel like ever using the service, if you make a free account, download the program and upload something, I'll get the bonus free space and I'll lurve you FOREVER!!!!
Also...
BUT WAIT THAT'S NOT ALL!!!!!
Sign up with my referral link https://www.sugarsync.com/referral?.....=bqy0ikxqdxo65 and you'll get an additional 500 MB. You get 500 extra MB, I get 500 MB and we're both happy... The best part, is that the site has stated that there are absolutely no limits for the amount of extra space you can recieve through referrals (until March 31, 2011 then they'll be putting a limit into effect, and if you earned more than that limit you keep it, but can't gain any additional free space...)
You can get more general info about SugarSync here https://restitution69.sugarsync.com/tour/ BUT please use my referral link when signing up!
Even if you don't feel like ever using the service, if you make a free account, download the program and upload something, I'll get the bonus free space and I'll lurve you FOREVER!!!!
Also...
and goodbye girlfriend's breasts!
Posted 14 years agoGET OFF MY LAWN!!!
Posted 14 years agohttps://lh6.googleusercontent.com/_.....uoo/4002-1.jpg
because http://theslackerz.com is the funniest thing... EVEEEEER
because http://theslackerz.com is the funniest thing... EVEEEEER
Google Chrome OS (non-depressing note XP)
Posted 14 years agoSo I've been fiddling with the "Jolicloud" app for Google Chrome lately....
Jolicloud allows you to get the Google Chrome OS/Cloud experience for now, while it's unavailable to all but the lucky few chosen to beta test. Check out my setup, and my wallpaper, and tell me that's not epic
http://img146.imageshack.us/img146/.....background.png
Jolicloud allows you to get the Google Chrome OS/Cloud experience for now, while it's unavailable to all but the lucky few chosen to beta test. Check out my setup, and my wallpaper, and tell me that's not epic
http://img146.imageshack.us/img146/.....background.png
Life marches on... (life update)
Posted 14 years agoWhelp, my life was not the most fun thing for a while there... It still isn't that wonderful, but it's not the end of the world either I suppose...
I had my school troubles which I seem to remember mentioning earlier... Now I'm enrolled at a local community college, and living out of my parent's house again. This isn't my idea of ideal, but it could have been far worse I suppose...
I got my first speeding ticket driving (by myself) from my dorm in Kansas to my home in California.
I'm trying to get a job of any kind whatsoever.... I recently finished the paperwork needed to get my Pharmacy Technician license from the California Board of Pharmacy (I can expect to hear back from them in 3 months... (they're so fast aren't they? DX)).
I had to sell my old books and get new ones....
I had to get myself re-situated at home. This means setting myself up more permanently than the air mattress and not unpacking...
My parents weren't exactly thrilled when I told them that I'd spent the last four months, not going to classes they had paid for, but in the end I lived, and I'm probably a little stronger for the experience....
I recently got dumped by my girl, but really I was being distant and uncommunicative, so I deserved it, and she deserves better than I'm able to give her at this point in my life....
I recently found an amazing song,
Meet You There, by Augustana
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CAm2-eQif4
Here are the lyrics, considering some of what happened recently with my girl, they struck a bit of a chord with me...
Climb up on a mountain, just to watch it come down
But sooner or later babe, you're gonna need me around
'Cause you're getting older, there ain't no stopping that
It's a backstabbing world honey, just lean your head back
The fool in me
It's like a dream, you see
But if the world is right
I'll drive all night
And meet you there someday
Six in the morning, never felt so sweet
Just put on Lucinda baby, and dance with me
I know I'm hard to count on
Forget half what I'm told
You probably only know my voice from
A gosh darn microphone
It's a waste
A teenage taste of me
But if Daddy cries
Just say goodnight
And I'll come
If I could change
I'd keep away the rain
And the sun would shine every night
And I'll come meet you there someday...
I'm still good friends with the gal in question, but I'm not able to give her what I know she deserves, so it's for the best that it's over for now....
I had my school troubles which I seem to remember mentioning earlier... Now I'm enrolled at a local community college, and living out of my parent's house again. This isn't my idea of ideal, but it could have been far worse I suppose...
I got my first speeding ticket driving (by myself) from my dorm in Kansas to my home in California.
I'm trying to get a job of any kind whatsoever.... I recently finished the paperwork needed to get my Pharmacy Technician license from the California Board of Pharmacy (I can expect to hear back from them in 3 months... (they're so fast aren't they? DX)).
I had to sell my old books and get new ones....
I had to get myself re-situated at home. This means setting myself up more permanently than the air mattress and not unpacking...
My parents weren't exactly thrilled when I told them that I'd spent the last four months, not going to classes they had paid for, but in the end I lived, and I'm probably a little stronger for the experience....
I recently got dumped by my girl, but really I was being distant and uncommunicative, so I deserved it, and she deserves better than I'm able to give her at this point in my life....
I recently found an amazing song,
Meet You There, by Augustana
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CAm2-eQif4
Here are the lyrics, considering some of what happened recently with my girl, they struck a bit of a chord with me...
Climb up on a mountain, just to watch it come down
But sooner or later babe, you're gonna need me around
'Cause you're getting older, there ain't no stopping that
It's a backstabbing world honey, just lean your head back
The fool in me
It's like a dream, you see
But if the world is right
I'll drive all night
And meet you there someday
Six in the morning, never felt so sweet
Just put on Lucinda baby, and dance with me
I know I'm hard to count on
Forget half what I'm told
You probably only know my voice from
A gosh darn microphone
It's a waste
A teenage taste of me
But if Daddy cries
Just say goodnight
And I'll come
If I could change
I'd keep away the rain
And the sun would shine every night
And I'll come meet you there someday...
I'm still good friends with the gal in question, but I'm not able to give her what I know she deserves, so it's for the best that it's over for now....
Shit... just ugh TT_TT
Posted 14 years agoSome of you may be wondering where I've been for the past 10 days. Well I've been trying to get my life back in order. Turns out I got F's in all 5 of my classes this semester (my first semester of college, out of state). Merry Christmas eh?
It's not the end of the world per se... but instead of taking 2 years to complete the pre-req course work to apply to KU's school of Pharmacy, I've now got five courses to retake, I need to find somewhere different to go to school (this one is a personal choice), get a job, and a whole bunch of other stuff all in a very short period of time. So instead of 2 years, I'm looking more at 5 or years to get a BA, and then being able to apply to a different school of Pharmacy. I'm slowly but surely figuring out what needs to happen to make sure my life isn't screwed up, but I'm far too busy to be online right now.
Wish me luck!
It's not the end of the world per se... but instead of taking 2 years to complete the pre-req course work to apply to KU's school of Pharmacy, I've now got five courses to retake, I need to find somewhere different to go to school (this one is a personal choice), get a job, and a whole bunch of other stuff all in a very short period of time. So instead of 2 years, I'm looking more at 5 or years to get a BA, and then being able to apply to a different school of Pharmacy. I'm slowly but surely figuring out what needs to happen to make sure my life isn't screwed up, but I'm far too busy to be online right now.
Wish me luck!
About my adult art, alt account...
Posted 14 years agoFirst off Merry Christmas everyone!
Second off, if you missed the journal a while back, or even the floods of art, I made an alt account for my adult and mature rated artwork.
You can find it here:
Callipygous
Also I recently had the Sexy Pranks comic started by
death-kat11 here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4779006/ (NSFW)
finished by the very talented
kavi with this pic http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4990424 (NSFW) and if you like TF, TG, and multibreasts, among other things you should definitely go check it out!
Additionally I recently began a new contest over on my
Callipygous account for some free art. So if you are an adult who enjoys porn, you should definitely check it out here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1969350/
You can also be entered to win a different piece of free art if you plug the journal....
Anyway yeah... Merry Christmas XP
Second off, if you missed the journal a while back, or even the floods of art, I made an alt account for my adult and mature rated artwork.
You can find it here:

Also I recently had the Sexy Pranks comic started by

finished by the very talented

Additionally I recently began a new contest over on my

You can also be entered to win a different piece of free art if you plug the journal....
Anyway yeah... Merry Christmas XP
I'm a nerd....
Posted 14 years agoI'm playing Dungeons and Dragons Online (DDO) and having a blast...
Why I DON'T use Facebook (or twitter)
Posted 14 years agoYes this is a rant, if you'd like to choose to skip it, scroll down and listen to the youtube song I like at the bottom...
Mainly because I'm a private (sorta, kinda more than most people...) kind of person. I'm all for telling complete strangers tidbits about my life and about me, just not enough for anyone to ever figure out who I really am, or any other information that could be used to effectively stalk me...
Now to clarify, I say I don't use Facebook or twitter, but in fact, I do have one account on each site. The reason I can still claim to not use the two sites, is thus:
Facebook: I have an account because my parents begged me to get one for a good year and a half, and I gave in finally when I was leaving home to go to college out of state. I have less than 20 friends, and at least 15 of which are directly related to me (2 for sisters, 1 for brother, 2 for parents, 1 for grandparents, 5 or 6 for cousins, and some more for aunts and uncles). I've also only ever visited and logged onto the site less than 5 times (I've had an account for at least half a year)...
Twitter: I follow 3 different users (and have 0 followers), one of which is for digimon battle online, another is Ray William Johnson's account (guy who does "=3" on youtube), and the third is... nevermind it was someone following me (a bot, who I blocked(after logging in to figure out who the third person I followed was...)) I've only ever made (posted?) 2 tweets (I think I can't check might have been 3...) and those were to RWJ to try and suggest vids for him to review....
Okay with that out of the way I can move on.
First off like I mentioned, I like my privacy. Also I don't like ads, spam, and/or etc. I especially hate having my preferences and and info being given to companies to make ads/spam/etc. for me. http://www.joyoftech.com/joyoftech/.....ives/1445.html
I personally have a irrational (aka mostly not founded on logic) dislike of a lot of popular cultural phenomenon (like Starbucks, Football, Baseball, Apple, etc.) and Facebook and twitter are both in that category and things I started out with an unfounded disliking of...
Also why would I want to be connected to so many people? I've heard all sorts of stories: People posting about being on vacation and having their house's robbed, employers finding compromising photos of some social event (like getting really drunk/high at a party), and even being friends with enough people that you start getting watched by the real creepers.... http://www.joyoftech.com/joyoftech/.....ives/1444.html
Probably one of the biggest reasons I don't use them, is because I simply could care less what other people are doing for the most part....
Anyway I could rant on and on about these things... but I feel I've wasted to much of my life just writing this,,,
/rant
Mainly because I'm a private (sorta, kinda more than most people...) kind of person. I'm all for telling complete strangers tidbits about my life and about me, just not enough for anyone to ever figure out who I really am, or any other information that could be used to effectively stalk me...
Now to clarify, I say I don't use Facebook or twitter, but in fact, I do have one account on each site. The reason I can still claim to not use the two sites, is thus:
Facebook: I have an account because my parents begged me to get one for a good year and a half, and I gave in finally when I was leaving home to go to college out of state. I have less than 20 friends, and at least 15 of which are directly related to me (2 for sisters, 1 for brother, 2 for parents, 1 for grandparents, 5 or 6 for cousins, and some more for aunts and uncles). I've also only ever visited and logged onto the site less than 5 times (I've had an account for at least half a year)...
Twitter: I follow 3 different users (and have 0 followers), one of which is for digimon battle online, another is Ray William Johnson's account (guy who does "=3" on youtube), and the third is... nevermind it was someone following me (a bot, who I blocked(after logging in to figure out who the third person I followed was...)) I've only ever made (posted?) 2 tweets (I think I can't check might have been 3...) and those were to RWJ to try and suggest vids for him to review....
Okay with that out of the way I can move on.
First off like I mentioned, I like my privacy. Also I don't like ads, spam, and/or etc. I especially hate having my preferences and and info being given to companies to make ads/spam/etc. for me. http://www.joyoftech.com/joyoftech/.....ives/1445.html
I personally have a irrational (aka mostly not founded on logic) dislike of a lot of popular cultural phenomenon (like Starbucks, Football, Baseball, Apple, etc.) and Facebook and twitter are both in that category and things I started out with an unfounded disliking of...
Also why would I want to be connected to so many people? I've heard all sorts of stories: People posting about being on vacation and having their house's robbed, employers finding compromising photos of some social event (like getting really drunk/high at a party), and even being friends with enough people that you start getting watched by the real creepers.... http://www.joyoftech.com/joyoftech/.....ives/1444.html
Probably one of the biggest reasons I don't use them, is because I simply could care less what other people are doing for the most part....
Anyway I could rant on and on about these things... but I feel I've wasted to much of my life just writing this,,,
/rant