I mean, this isn't a temporary thing, this is something that describes me personally, I am a scatterbrained person. But I'm really, really motivated to do art but I am literally too tangled in other projects. I want to draw porn but I have too many ref sheets to do. Here is my plan that I've been procrastinating on:

Ric is a Jackal and will have a Lucario pokemorph.
Ric will also have a pokemon team of OC's, including:
Lucario (feral color scheme), Mewtwo, Goodra, Greninja, Charizard, and one other pokemon I have not decided on. It was originally gonna be garchomp but there are no good garry's mod models.

There will need to be reference sheets for all of this. I'm considering being lazy and making the 6 pokemon OC's in Garry's Mod as there is literally no change.
Meanwhile, I had some crazy sexy artistic visions this morning I want to get out of the way, like, right now
But priorities.
Ugh
I see all you perfect artists and how you do it without tossing your tablet away.

I get sad sometimes because I can never tell artists how unimaginably good they are... I want to comment on every single one and thank them, but it's just soo much...
I love you all, I wish I could let you all know that. Real life gets in the way way too much of my fandom and it gets depressing that I can't look at some art frequently or really give anything in return. There's too much good artwork from you all for me to even comment on and tell you how much I love it...
It gets a little overwhelming and kind of depressing, I love this fandom so much.

Now that I have a job, my sex drive is going to drop, so I'm not going to be faving regularly, just in chunks. I'm sorry if I seem late...

I love all you artists and please keep doing what you're doing... Words can't describe how thankful I am to have you.

Deepest condolences to France and the attacks that have happened last night. I must say the shock and sheer depression has kind of ruined my weekend. But it's not a terror, I suppose. We should be thankful for the freedoms we already have as well this November. I have some French and some Canadian French in me as well, to the point that it's in my last name. I really hope I don't have any relatives in the area. From what I understand most of them are in Canada, Indiana, and Illinois still, I suppose.

Once again, I am not deeply religious but simply a very loose agnostic, I will be sending out my prayers to the god in all that is good. Stay safe, my French watchers.

I AM A BIG SCARY MACRO
NOTHING CAN STOP ME
EXCEPT DEPRESSION
:(

IF YOU HAVE WATCHED ME, THANK YOU SO MUCH
Usually I just thank people in journals, but I achnowledge nobody reads them. Also, I don't get a lot of faves or comments anymore. So anyone that does watch, thank you so much. It gets hard sometimes making something you think is really really good and nobody seems to care.

So I will now start to publically go to accounts and thank people for watches and faves and such

Updated my contact information on my profile. Some of it was false.

If you have tried to add me on Skype, try again. The information given was invalid.

Also, I should be more active on second life, now that a friend has walked me through it ^^

Like o////o
I didn't know I had it in me
It's everywhere
Shit

Not liking my ref sheet at all. Doesn't look like a fucking jackal. I draw jackals good on paper and not fucking... Someone on twitter called it a fucking cat.
Fuck...

I've been really happy for the past week but I'll still get depressed. I quit my job, my only source of income, I wasn't able to get that cellphone I was planning on and probably won't until I make a wage again... And I just feel so freaking bad about it. It doesn't help I am the slowest artist ever and it just feels like I'm living my days complaining instead of doing something. Even though I do go into OpenCanvas almost every day trying to do something without scrapping, nothing gets done.

That's my normal assumption, but helping a friend out today overcome some uh... harmful thoughts. I was thinking today, you can't base happiness off of productivity. I donated $10 to charity, helped people through self harm and suicidal thoughts, helped people find hobbies when they thought they couldn't do anything, and spent time with people that may have not had that time. If you're an honest to god good person, then there you go. We have our faults and mine just happens to be that I'm the laziest fucker in the world... Hehe

That's how I fight my depression at least. Sometimes we just don't feel that, but it's there. I guess when that loses sight, that's when I feel down, but it's never gone, my brain just kind of, eh... Gets tired :/

Try not to forget this, guys. Got kind of depressed last night

It pisses me off guys, why would you think I would want to yiff with someone I just met?? I've got hundreds of friends on steam and skype that are 100% willing to yiff but they will talk to me when I'm down... Blocking me the second I say no just proves you are only interested in sex with me.

Fucking predator.

Unfollowed most of the people that post suggestive content on twitter so if I ended up unfollowing you, I'm sorry, and if I didn't and you do that stuff anyways, it's cause I know you personally or on skype or steam or something. I love you all and I'll probably create a new twitter for that naughty stuff but I want my primary twitter to be safe for work

I think this will be the 4th time I'm rewriting the same series but it's okay
One of the problems with this series is it needs a setting, so before I write anything, I need to write a map.

I have a goal, and I'm trying tie up this whole plot, simplify and trim my large list of characters, and make things work. The problem with my series is I have a theme but no chronological or physical way to make it work considering I'm making areas up, but I'm gonna try to change that.

I was going through my transition period at work, a call center, and I'm not seeing any improvement in knowing how to take certain calls. I consulted my parents last night about quitting and instead of suggesting I stay, they thought I should quit because they didn't like seeing me upset. However, I committed to quitting with them and I was only second guessing myself after my parents went to bed. My mom's bf (basically the best possible stepdad ever but still) works there and that morning he told me he would have come get me if I decided to continue working there to pick me up, so after about 15 or 30 minutes of sitting and thinking it through and when it was time to make a decision, I decided to formally quit, realizing now I've made a bad, bad decision.

I can't seem to roleplay or be enthusiastic about the furry fandom while I'm battling this anxiety. Things are rough right now but I'm trying to be strong and I promise I will be okay. I have learned from this.

Found new friends, got used to work, mom's relationship problems seeming to be getting better
Things should be alright

I was wrong.
Busy with work.
Will be gone for a long time.

I will be deleting some of my previous fursona attempts for this new one which, in my opinion, is the best one yet artistically. And I think the design will stick.

I will always be a lucario too, you know~ But you know what's next, don't you? A lucario ref >//w//>

But first, I do gotta finish this current ref sheet up

That is all. Continue stalking people's journals -w-

Just learned how to draw legs and paws

Studying  Tyrnn's Lucario paw work has helped me get this right.
Give him a watch everyone >w<

I forgot to post about this but I got a new program through a steam sale that I really really love.

I was drawing super good on it even without a stabilizer. I think I'll finally be able to give back a little to this community. And maybe create a fucking fursona ;w;

Deviantart and Furaffinity's journal system is kind of dumb now that I think about it.

I mean, back in the day I would write journals every day but now I'm not as motivated. I can write journals in FA and DA but which one do I write it on? I usually do it because I'm bored, lol.

There should be some kind of a maximized feed on the homepage of your watcher's stuff, and then maybe a feed of promoted arts. I would love to read your guys's journals and I don't necessarily think it needs to be like facebook. I'm just saying, youtube used to have a subscriber's feed, why can't sites like these do they same?

I would say no problem or you're welcome, but I watch so many accounts that it's hard to keep track

If you're holding it against me for not saying something of the such, don't think it means I hold anything against you. In fact, it most probably means I'm too shy to talk >/////<

I love all of you furs :3

I'm finally in Tucson Arizona.
Time to make some friends ^w^

Now I'm on my mom's computer and I really shouldn't be on FA, but this journal had to be made ;w;

I'm so close to figuring out what I need to do to start this fucking series off right but it's just too far away. In a sense I feel like I've failed, I graduated and I'm moving and I haven't even started WolfPack yet.

I will need all of your support when it comes out, please... It's not a fetish series, but I do wanna illustrate it into a web comic.

In other news I will be less active on here for I will be on my mom's computer. In a house I'm completely unfamiliar with, with people I'm unfamiliar with (which I'm sure'll be friendly.) What I'm most concerned with is that I'll be accepted. I mean, I won't have a job and telling my new stepdad I want to be a furry artist might not make him the happiest person, even if he's a cos-player himself. In fact they know it's not a real job too, so I don't know. I'm hoping maybe I can get a job repairing computers, I'm pretty good at that.

Sorry I haven't been very active on here. A few things are happening.

1.) I graduated!!
That's right, I'm out of High School and I'm ready to start my shitty adulthood :3

2.) I'm moving
I move in a week to Tucson Arizona where I can meet my mom's fiance and new possible stepbrother! :3 They're gamers and midevil cosplayers, I'm really excited to see them! ^w^ Also I might be able to meet more furs there at the convention center ^w^

3.) I've deleted my porn :(
One night I was upset and I felt guilty bout my fetishes ;w; Sorry bout that, plus it was taking way too much space, I save every picture I fav on here really. Without the motivation to check fa and save my work, it's difficult to go to porn for fap when there's imagination~
Plus, I'm not on FA just for the macro, believe it or not, though it's a big reason. Most of my non-macro faves are on devaintart but it's so filled that I don't even think I ever go on there anymore.

4.) I'm addicted
To league of legends, lel. My summoner name is Ric Ultima if you wanna add me but I'm still practicing with beginner bots

5.) FRIENDS HAVE BEEN HERE LIKE EVERY DAY
I love my friends but I haven't been able to view FA because of this whole move and graduation thing, people keep saying they're coming to say their goodbye's one last time and they come again ^w^ Either way, I'm just glad I'm not lonely

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I love you all and hopefully I'll create a new fursona (yeah, the green and black one isn't suiting me too well) that you can all love :3

You miiight wanna wait for a submission I'm making