1. Who are you?
Roran C Wolf, how can I help you?

2. What do you do for a living?
I have 3 jobs and am at school full time.

3. What’s your weight, height and nationality?
Weight is something I dont like about myself but I recently went from 280 to 260. Im a good 5 foot 11 with a linebacker build. I played center ^^;; Im Caucasian Im pretty sure although my ex says that Im half black.... ^^;;;;;;;

4. Are you dating anyone special?
Lets not go there for now

5. If you had to pick one song to describe you what would it be?
The New Shit by Marilyn Manson.

6. What’s the craziest thing you've ever done in your life?
Hard to say.. probably when I had to cook for 80 poeple because the cook didnt show up and I made 80 orders of food in less than an hour and each one had to be made specifically for each persons health

7. What’s the worst thing you've ever done in your life?
Hard to pick....

8. Do you regret anything?
Plenty. More then most I think.

9. Who is your best friend?
I have too many friends to pick from. Most of which are family

10. What’s your favorite food?
anything italian and seafood :p

11. Favorite Drink?
Hmm... probably peach iced tea

12. Favorite type of music?
All kinds!

13. Are you more of a diva or do you roll out of bed and say fuck it?
Kinda both. Depends on the day

14. What kind of car do you drive?
a 2002 Ford Contour Luxury Edition

15. What’s something you always wanted to do?
Go sky diving and live alone with the one I love

16. Name three things you want to do before you die.
Meet every friend I have, modify my body as I wish and go to every con I can
17. Do you have any enemies?
Im sure I do. Not worth my time to know them all

18. Do you have a criminal record and what for if you do?
Hmm... nothing Ive gotten caught for ^^;; then again I got pulled over for speeding

19. What’s something that no one knows about you, not even your closest friends?
Hmm... not really sure

20. Do you have any pets?
Well, as in furry wise then no I am more of the pet but as far as animal, yes. I have a cat, a fish, 2 birds and a dog... until tomorrow

Well I guess I should update you all on how things have been.

The Day of Silence went pretty well, save for the fact I got jumped and a few other things happened which weren't to fun now that I look back on it and I don't really give a damn anymore. My dog is scheduled to be... taken.. next Wednesday and due to a previous experience, my parents think that I stole 200 dollars from them .. which I didn't. I would never. But it hurt. I ended up crying like a damn madman. I hate crying... it makes me feel weak and like my dad should just smack the hell you to me to get me to understand something. my grades are ok I guess..... my job is ok but my boss keeps cutting down my hours to save her money which doesn't help us at all. Today on the bus I was harassed for being gay, ton of fun there. I am kinda mad at someone but he musnt know. He thinks we are all good and dandy and happy... well we arent. My 18th birthday is coming up and I am kinda excited but at the same time I dont think I am ready for the honor of being an adult.. or mature for that matter. I hate that word. Maturity. I really do. When you think about it .. its just a word people use to piss you off or as an insult. Its hard to gauge a persons maturity and thats one thing.. but as an insult is just wrong.

We are reading Catcher in the Rye and I like it a lot. Really fun book. I read a book called The Geography Club too.. thats a good book. I am typing this with my eyes closed so I can just reflect so please forgive me for bad grammar and all that whatnot. My ears hurt. I put in some new gauges but the tunnels weren't made right and tore my ear. Ouch. I am just rambling at this point and doing nothing really but I figure I should just keep going I suppose.

I wanna see someone very badly... but his dad will be home for a while so I cant go see him... and I wanna talk to someone but he is mad as all hell at me. Oh well...

Yesterday I went to dinner with 2 local furs and they were mean and told everyone it was my birthday to embarrass me. Oh well, we all started laughing our asses off anyway. Was fun and I love them both a lot.
Until tomorrow freaks geeks pals and gals.

This is probably the hardest choice I will ever have to make.


My beloved dog, Patsy, sister and baby of 13 years, is not doing well and I have decided that... she has to be put down...

She has lost her vision and bladder control and is barking and biting .. I figure.. quality not quantity of life.


She is my baby.. and I could never ever forget her. She missed me when I was gone.. she would always sit at my feet and beg for table scraps which I always gave her.. sat at my feet while on the computer....


snuggled me at night


licked my face in the mornings....


My baby...
http://i38.photobucket.com/albums/e.....f/SD530081.jpg

Thats right, murrburgers.


Im kinda bored before school this morning and I have been talking with my dear parents and not only may a good friend be coming over for dinner and some chillin out but I might actually get to see someone this weekend who I want to see and hold so bad. *blushes*


Heee... anyway, Next friday, the 25th of March, is the international DAY OF SILENCE!

This day is a big day for me and other activists out there where a silent protest occurs to show support and desire for rights of the gay, lesbian, transgernder and questioning community.

I love that day! I am very excited and am getting shirts made for a bunch of my participating classmates. ^_^

Well, I have to go eat my granola bar before the big yellow sub comes to get me.

Howl at ya later!

I have noticed that a lot of my recent posts and journals have been kinda pissy. Sorry about that. Its not really who i am to be honest. I am normally a LOT better than this but seems as soon as I join FA, my life sets itself on fire and runs through a paper factory of my hopes , dreams, life and love.

Im working on it to be better for you guys, I promise.

Stole this from someone.

A : Easy to fall in love with.
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : one in a million.
E : Great in bed.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You are Quirky.
I : Great in bed.
J : People Adore you
K : You're wild and crazy.
L : Unbelievably great in bed.
M : best kisser ever.
N : You like to drink.
O : Crazy
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
S : You love to drink
R : Fucking crazy.
T : You're loyal to those you love.
U : You really like to chill.
V : You are not judgmental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You never let people tell you what to do.
Y : best boy/girl friend any one can ask for.
Z : Always ready.



RORY

R: Fucking Crazy
O: Crazy
R: Fucking Crazy
Y: Best boyfriend anyone could ask for.

So I am kinda crazy I guess.

COLLIN

C: Really silly
O: Crazy
L:Unbelievably great in bed
L: " "
I: Great in Bed
N: you like to drink.


Well... I guess I am amazing in bed.....but thats for you to find out ;)

and no I hate drinking

" remember... I love you"....



HA! Dont waste our time. We both know that you dont. So stop shitting me and start being a man.... **** I loved you. you know that. Then you lied to my face for months that you did. What a load of BS...

Not only is your mate ugly, but you are probably lying to him too ****....


I was surprised you didnt call me.. or care.

Oh well. Life goes on.

Im tired... * curls up in bed and goes to sleep*

Well, work tonight was kinda interesting.

A girl at my place of employment is a year older than me, and has been working at the place for 3 months. I have been working there a year and have even been there longer than my boss.

This girl thinks that just because her mom is best friends with my boss, she is right and rules the nest.

Well she started yelling at me for making an error.

Well I checked the numbers again and it was in fact, her error.

I yelled at her and pointed out her mistake and showed her the error she made.

Does that make me wrong?

It seems no matter what I do anymore, things will suck.

I tried to be happy and show pride.

I got jumped.

I tried to work hard.

I lost hours and money and am now in debt.

I gave my heart to people.

Each one broke it.

The ones I love more then anything that havent killed me inside live so far away, that I can have them.

Its getting old and fast. Im sick of being down. Im sick of being treated like ... well some of you know.....about my dad and the money thing..yeah.. anyway.

Am I being an emo shit? Yes. Do I like it? Hell no.

Ive just been thinking...


Would it be better to just stop the love. Stop the friends. Just work. Sleep. School. Would that be better? Not talk to anyone. Be cold and heartless? I dont understand..... would it be better for me and everyone else?

I just got off of work and had a bad day. Not only because the cook and the other aide didnt do there jobs so I had to do them but because of my other aide. Ashley. She neglected her job and the residents to go drinking.

Here is the kicker. She is trying to get smashed out of her mind and she came into work so freaking high that she was floating.

She is 16. 16. What the hell.... 16.

Not only that but she was refusing to work. I called the supervisor and she didnt give a damn either!

She didnt care that her underage employee wants to get drunk and drive. She didnt care about the drugs. She didnt care she wasnt doing her job....


whats going on........

Well here is more of my whining.

Im bored and lonely. Kinda been thinking about things and I realize that.. since my efforts aren't wanted, appreciated, noticed or other wise, there is no reason to keep up these efforts. Its useless looking for happiness. Useless looking for a new job. Useless wanting to go to college when I wont be happy or plentiful anyway.

No matter how much I care.. I have realized that no one has ever done the same for me. I make things for people, hold them when they need it... and its never been replied or given back..... am I missing something?

Oh well.. I must go on.....

Nur fur dich....

Well lots has gone down since I last posted a journal and things arent that bad anymore I guess. Just not sure as to whats going on anymore.

I have so many that I love.. and now people hate me for it. I dont understand it but... its who I am.

Is that wrong?


I dont know anymore. Ive lost my old spunk that I used to have. I miss it dearly.... some say that it is because of all the shit going on in my life but I cant honestly say if I know why.

Oh well.. Im hoping to make a big move today but the ripples of those actions could kill many of my friends. I dont know what to do there either.


Nur fur dich......













Nur fur dich= Only for you

I dont understand why but I dont feel good right now.

I know that there are things that I want to say and I know no one will read this.

I love my friend deeply.. but he is taken... he says that he loves me and we are great friends. He never tells me about his plans , nor does he ever tag me amongst his " friends" when he seems to put everyone but me.He says he cares and I think he does but.. hes never there

Another friend I love dearly and want him to be mine so bad it hurts and I know that I cant have him.I have a feeling his relationship wont work but all I can do is sit by and watch aimlessly

I dont know what it is but, no matter what I do, I fall in love with the ones that wont work for me... I dont know whats going on but its getting to the point where I want to just disappear from here, from the fandom, and my friends.

I want someone to hold. I want someone to be mine. I want someone to be loyal to me.... now to keep searching the elusive depths for someone who cares.

 rorancrystalwolf

Hey there. Can someone help me? I am a loser and dont know how to do the whole.. link to peoples FA with their icon and sutff.. it would help me a bunch!

Any help would be awesome

Sincerely,

Rory the tard.......

I stole this from Naki because I am a dick

Info
[] I am shorter than 5'4
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x]I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different colour.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I have/I've had braces.
[] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercing.
[x] I have/have had piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[x 4 of them....] I have a job
[] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year
[] I've stolen something from my job
[x] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples
[] I've broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada. (US if you live in Canada)
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from myspace/nexopia/facebook/furaffinity/etc..
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[xxxx] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x.....neh] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced.
[] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x]I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[xxxxx] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[xxx] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[xxxxxx] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[] I've been suspended from school.
[xx] I've witnessed a crime.
[] I've been in a fist fight.
[] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I've passed out from drinking.
[] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[] I've smoked weed
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[] I've eaten shrooms.
[] I've popped E.
[] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[] I've done hard drugs.
[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[xxx] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I am or was anorexic or bulimic.
[] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[xx] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[xxxx] I've planned my own suicide.
[xxx] I've attempted suicide.
[] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I own something from Pac Sun.
[] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[x] I can sing well.
[] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid/have paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I'm a snob about grammar.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[] I've worn pajamas to school.
[] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun
[....] I am in love with love.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[] I'm good at remembering names.
[] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] I love cooking.