So... Aside from the mass awkward of running into my ex and his partner, FF was fun ^^ Got drunk, did hookah with  skwirl, and shared a room with 7 other nut jobs! XD Mass amounts of pony art happened, so maybe I'll upload some stuff... Now to work on 3 pony plushies, one for  bakuram and two for myself.. >w< Bye now!

Sometimes I wonder, My God... What's the point to living? But then I hear my own voice saying suicide is never the answer... I'm not going to, nor would I ever... There's no point... I just find it hard to get up in the morning when I'm just plain miserable... And then I feel it hard to continue my day when I feel like someone just smacked me in the face with a bag filled with bricks. I always say "Look for the silver lining." "Look for the happiness.""Don't mention the bleak..." BUT MY GOD!!! To see through a river of tears to try and find the happiness and light!!! It gets to hard on my own... And soon... I will be alone... It's funny that I can laugh while crying in pure pain, but I'm not happy.... I'm hoping FurFright won't be a total bust... Or I seriously think I'm just gunna lock myself away until I ship off until December... Starting to feel that no one would miss me anyway....

I'm currently a little short on cash, and need whatever I can get to put toward the room at furfright... You see, my hours have been cut into pieces, since I just started workout days with the Navy... So my muscles are sore, but I'm losing hours... And I really need this money for furfright... Not taking commissions, since I never have the time to draw much of anything, so I'm selling my manga instead... I have to clean my room out anyways, so I would rather send my manga off to a better home than have them collecting dust on the shelves... >: Here is what I have, and the prices...

Bleach Volumes 1-17: They are normally $7.95, I would like to sell them for 5 bucks each. $80 gets you the whole collection.

Death Note Volumes 1-8: They are normally $7.99. I would like to sell them for 6 bucks each. $45 gets you the whole collection.

Chibi Vampire Volumes 1-4: They are normally $9.99 each. I would like to sell them for 7 bucks each. $25 gets you the whole collection.

Dragon Drive Volume 1: This is $7.99. I would like $5 for it.

Princess Ai Volume 2: This is $$9.99. I would like $7 for it.

Dost Thou Know?[/u This is a yaoi book. Is is $12.95. I would like $10 for it.

[u]HunterXHunter Volumes 5-7: They are normally $7.99. I would like to sell them for 6 bucks each. $15 gets you the whole collection.

Rurouni Kenshin Volume 28: This is $7.95. I would like $5 for it.

Yu Yu Hakusho Volume 6: This is $7.95. I would like $5 for it.

Black Cat Volume 1: This is $7.99. I would like $6 for it.

Tokyo Mew Mew Volume 5: This is $9.99. I would like $7 for it.

Hands Off! Volumes 1-2: They are normally $9.99. I would like to sell them for $7 bucks each. $10 gets you the whole collection.

D.N.Angel Volume 1: This is $9.99. I would like $7 for it.

If you plan on making a purchase of a few different types, just add it up... Say you want all the Bleach and all the Death Note. Just add it.. The total is $125. Please, help anyway you can. I not only need the extra cash for FurFright, I also need to get rid of these books... -_- thanks...

So... Almost all at once, three people dropped out... So now I had to do more math. I understand that  steviespeedcorewolfy was interested in the room, and if anyone else is, we have 2 more spots open. So I need to see if I am getting this right or not...

Room Count

 ryoukitten
 zato-24
 dragonzoomer
 xiris
 skwirl
 linney
 linney's friend

Total:7


Prices

Thursday- $43.33
Friday- $26.00
Saturday- $18.57
Sunday- $32.50

Total- $120.00


So yeah... Room for three... I'm gunna be working my ass off to make payments meet... -.- that means, don't expect me back on the laptop again for another few days.... Don't expect art for WEEKS.... Scanner is back, but I have been working hours to make everything work, and by the time I come home, I hate the world and want to kill anything that moves... So now, last journal for awhile. If something comes up, I'll note people via ITouch... People that are attending, if I don't have your cell number, please note me... I text more than anything. Ugh... Too much stress... Don't think I'm doing another con for a long time... Not that I have a choice... -.- *is leaving December 19th for boot camp*

Currently typing this on ITouch. Been really busy. Working over forty hours this week to pay for everything for FurFright. So far, I am touched that this room took off like it did. There are ten combined people in this room, and I had to do major math to make this right, since not everyone is staying all the nights from Thursday to Sunday. So now, time for math.



For Thursday and Sunday there will be only 7 people. So the cost for those two nights will be $18.57.

For Friday night, there will be eight people, so the cost will be $16.25.

And finally for saturday night there will be ten people so the cost will be $13.

The total coverage for the people from Thursday to Sunday will be $66.39. For the Friday-Sunday person, it is $47.82. And for the saturday people, it is $13.

In case anyone forgot, you WILL NOT receive a room key if I don't receive the money that night!!!! Be warned, no money, no room!!!! That is all. Thank you. :3

So found out that I may be in the middle of an evacuation zone... And my parents won't even be here when it comes.... I don't want to be alone.... I don't think I can handle being alone... Great, now I won't sleep tonight....

I still have room in my room, if you would like! ^w^ But anyways.... *shakes* I'm gunna be... GIRATINA! XD Lolz. Mainly cuz I remember  inuyoko talking about PokeFurs... And I have legs made... >.> So I just need to add the rings on the legs, make the tail, and maybe wings... Ooh! And arms!! But the head... Yeah.... no XD I tried making foam base heads.... >.> Didn't work well... *is covered in hot glue screaming* So.... That is something to work on... >w> *happy Giratina tail wag* So like... look for a Giratina XD

HOLY SHIT DUDE!!! I thought I was going crazy, but I felt a bit of shaking... When you are in an old house, you think that it's just it settling... But then on the news... There was a 6.0 earthquake in Virginia! And those on Long Island felt it!!! Scary thing, I'm home alone... *whine* Luckily dad just rushed in from work and like hugged me worried... It was scary... I hope it doesn't happen again... I thought I was getting dizzy... >: Anyone else feel it???

Passionate

You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.
You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.
You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.

Scrupulous

You are an honest, fair person. You don't lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.
You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.

Original

You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what's going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what's going on outside.
You don't feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you're thinking about.

Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.

Empathetic

You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.
You don't buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else's because unless you're happy you're incapable of making anyone else happy.

Outgoing

You are more interested in interacting with others than in being by yourself. For you, it is a boring waste of time to sit around, alone, and analyze why you are the way you are.
You don't prefer your own company to being with friends; you're not so interested in what's going on in your mind that you don't need to interact with others. And you get no pleasure out of sitting around, alone, trying to figure out what makes you tick.

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.
You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Accessible

You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.
You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.

So like, made a room for FF! There are 3 people already confirmed in the room. So I would like at least 3 more people. I do have to state... There are rules for this!

RULES!!!

1) This IS a smoking room!! Please be mindful! No illegal substances!

2) If you are wearing a suit, please keep it clean... >.<

3) Please, please, please.... If you bring your mate, please keep the sex to a low... I don't want to come into the room after partying, and have to get yelled at because you are with your mate... -.- Cons are for shopping and seeing people new. Please keep the sex in your OWN bedroom....

4) Drinking is allowed, but I will need to see ID!!! If you drink in my room, I will require ID, cuz I ain't getting in trouble!

5) Pets are allowed in the hotel... DON'T BRING THEM!!! I will not be responsible for your pet!

6) I will be taking everyone's numbers down in my cell phone, so I can keep track of you guys ^w^

7) I WILL be collecting the money the day we show up at the hotel. You can't pay right away, then you aren't getting a room key...

8) You lose your room key, tell me right away! We would need to replace it, and replace ALL other keys as well.

9) Please let me know if you want to bring someone else into the room. If they are staying the night, they will need to pay their bit for the room! I don't wanna room someone for free...

10) NO ROOM PARTIES! The partying is for the con. I'm not hosting, throwing, or letting someone else host a room party. I may sound selfish, but I don't want it... This is not a SUITE... This is a room... Please don't do it...

11) You break it, you bought it! If you damage something or get something from the fridge, you will pay me for it... I will not pay for your mistakes...

A lot of rules.... Sorry, but I don't want ANYTHING to go wrong... >: Thanks again ^^

EDIT 8/13/11!!!!!

Travel

We are leaving Penn Station October 13th at 11:33 a.m. I would recommend meeting up around 10 a.m. to be on the safe side. We are then going to get to Berlin CT at 1:56 p.m. From there, I will call a cab. The cab will take us to the hotel. It is called the Quality Inn. That's 10 doors away from the main hotel. Heading home, we just back-trace; take the cab to Berlin Amtrak Station, then catch the 4:54 p.m to New Haven, arrive at 5:35 p.m. Then leave New Haven at 5:50 p.m. and get to Penn Station at 7:45 p.m. From there, we just head home ^^

Hotel Fare

Alright, I know this is on everyone's minds. The room I have is orignally $129.99 per night. So I rounded that to be $130. I will cover tax. With one person, it would be $520 for the 4 nights. So far with 4 confirmed people, it will be $32.50 per night, and a total of $130 for the full cover. If we can get more people, that would be great, but the limit for the room is 8 people, since the hotel is meant to fit 4 max. There are also 2 people planned for Saturday stay, so that would cut the cost even more. It would be $32.50 for Thursday, Friday, and Sunday, and then $21.66 for Saturday, which is a total of $119.16 for the room. I know it seems like alot, but if we reach our goal of 8 people, meaning 6 people staying the full 4 nights and the 2 on just Saturday, then it will be $21.66 Thursday, Friday, and Sunday, and $16.25 on Saturday, which would be $81.23 cover for the room. So ask around, get more people, run it by me! Because if we hit our max goal of 6 people all 4 nights, and the 2 on Saturday, then this wll be alot cheaper.

Last Minute Detail

I have invited another friend of mine, and he said he may be able to make it. Now if he does, the prices would be as follows. For Thursday, Friday, and Sunday it will $26.00. And for Saturday it would be $18.57. The grand total needed would be $96.57.

For Saturday Furs

This is a special section for the furs that would like to stay on Saturday. Depending on the number of people in the room, your price will decrease. If there is 6 people(including yourselves), it would be $21.66 that night. For 7 people, it would be $18.57 that night. And for 8, it would be $16.25 that night. You are free to offer the room as well, but once the limit of 8 people, including yourselves, the room will be closed off to others.

One More Rule

This room is "First Come. First Serve". Once we hit a total of 8 people, including just the Saturday people, my room will be closed off. That doesn't mean give up hope. If someone backs out, my room will open to the next person on the list. If you come, and the room is full, I will put your name on the list. If someone backs out, I will notify you right away.

People in the Room Thus Far and the Waiting List

 ryoukitten-room creator
 zato24-my closest friend. This is her first FurCon! ^w^ *is a proud Mama Envy*
 dragonzoomer Responded right away
 astrumnovus: Responded second
 linney She and her friend are the people that may be staying on Saturday.
 Skwirl He may be joining ^^

So far the count is 6. 2 more in the open! ^^

EDIT 8/14/11
So  Skwirl has confirmed that he will be in the room as well ^^ So now the numbers are as follows per day:

Thursday $26
Friday $26
Saturday $18.57
Sunday $26
Total $96.57 will cover you! ^^ We need one more person, and then the cost will drop even more, and the room will be full... I might push the number back to drop the cost even more, but at least now the numbers aren't in the triple digits!!! ^w^

So during my phase of LOVING Yu-Gi-Oh! GX, I started playing a lovely game called Bloody Roar 4. My inner furry squealed, and my GX fanatic stage came out, and was like "FANFICTION!!!! IT'S A MUST!!! DO IT RK!!" So... I ended up starting this in '07. Why am I bringing it up now?? Because I read it again, after all these years, and decided to add more chapters. XD And I must say, I'm pretty proud of myself, since I haven't really written anything in ages... -.- Here's the link if you are interested, but be warned.... The first two chapters are crappy compared to the more recent few I added.. XD

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3597142.....y_Roar_Academy

Just wondering, since.... IDK....

What if?~

● I died:
● I kissed you:
● I fell:
● I lived next door to you:
● I showed up at your house

unexpectedly:
● I stole something:
● I was murdered:
● I cried:
● I asked you to marry me:
● I was hospitalized:

~Would you~
● Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?
● Keep a secret if i told you one?
● Hold my paw?
● Study with me?
● Cook for me?
● Love me?
● Date me?
● Have sex with me?

~More ~
● When and how did we meet?
● Describe me in three words.
● What was your first impression of me?
● What do you think of me now?
● What reminds you of me?
● Could you see us together forever?
● When's the last time you saw me?
● Are you gonna re-post this to see what I say about you?

And I've been called the bad guy for something I didn't even do. So I'm sitting with my sorrow, hoping that a dear friend will come over soon, and relieve me of this sorrow so I don't jump from my bedroom window.... Cuz dare I say, I may hate it, but I feel that my life is almost meaningless and people would be better off without me... Then again, that could just be my feelings of the moment, but people really make me feel unwanted and unloved... Mainly my own parents...

Yes, this time, I managed to find some form of drive, and I'm working on a fursuit head while waiting for my printer to be fixed.... Dog sat on it... >.< I have almost all the pictures for the free art finished, along with the Iron Artist for this month.... BUT.. Scanner/Printer=DEAD!!!! *cries* Sorry all the people I owe art to. Hoping it comes back from the shop soon.... Anyways.... FURSUIT MEME!!!


Have you ever really thought about all the things you've done in fursuit? Here's a list of questions to help you figure out just how much fursuiting you've engaged in ;3

No rules (apart from having fursuited at one point or another), just answer the questions any way you'd like!


Posed in front of a mirror?
Yesh ^^

Been shopping/to a supermarket/store in fursuit?
Nope

Been group suiting?
Yes ^^

Ever put on your fursuit for no reason and worn it for an extended period of time?
Yeah XDDD

Have you walked around your hometown in fursuit?
Nope... >.>

Fursuited in a different state?
Yeah ^^

In a different country?
Not yet ^w^

Fursuited at a con? If so, how many times?
Yeah dude... And so far... I suited at FA:U4 and Anthrocon 11. ^w^

Drank in fursuit?
Yeah XD Got drunk too...

Eaten something?
Yeah ^^ Snacks though. Lke chips and pretzels.

Put on someone else's fursuit?
Yeah XD


Ruined the magic in public?
Yeah. >: When I was first getting used to it.


Gone to a furmeet in suit?
No. >: I want to

Been in a moving car while in suit?
Nope. XD

Been glomped while in suit?
Yeah. XD

Glomped someone while in suit?
YES!!!!

Made a child smile?
Yes ^w^ Was nice

Danced?
RAVED LIKE A BOSS!! SHUFFLED TOO!

Been in a fursuit dance competition?
No... I don't like competitions. >:

Done something that attracted a large group of people while in suit?
Yeah.. >.> When I got drunk, knocked a girl's drink out of her hand >:

Experienced a hater?
Not yet >.>

Longest time in fursuit? (what counts as being in suit is up to you)
3+ hours ^^

And finally...
Most memorable moment in fursuit?
TOO MANY TO COUNT!!!! O_O The cons, around the house, chilling with friends XD

I hit a low point... And like... Kinda stopped caring about alot of things... I will finish commissions, and Iron Artist, and free art.... Just.... I need some time to get back into my happy groove... Also... In other random news... Was in a car accident on the way home from work. Walked away with a bruised leg and twisted ankle. Was riding my bike to get home from work, and some idiot decided to turn against the red, and I got my leg pinned, but I'm alright. Just need to get out of this slump I'm in... I mean... I lost two awesome friends in two days... Caity TwoTail(not on FA) move to Pennsylvania, and Bakuram bakuram went off for boot camp today.... Feeling alone and very depressed... But whatever my needs, right? *shrug*

Stolen from  clemfox
Think back eight months ago, were you single?- Yeah.
What do you carry with you at all times?- My sketchbook.
Are you a cuddler?- Depends on the person,but yeah.
What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?- Nothing. I don't have an under to my bed.
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?- Cheruben(the wolfagon)
How are you feeling?- Hungry and kinda bored...
Is something wrong right now?- I'm hungry and my friend is not talking to me online... >:
Are you mad at someone?- Yes...
How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?- Not much at all...
What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?- Got a chance to smell a storm coming. I love the smell of storms.
How many TRUE best friends do you have?- Let's see... 5
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?- I can't...
How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?- One
Where is your number one friend on your friends list?- All my friends are equal.
Do you have anyone crushing on you?- Not sure...I think so...
When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?- O_O ummmmm...Months ago...
Do you sleep with the TV on?- Yes.
Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?- Yes.
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?- Yes.
Are you jealous of someone right now?- ....Yes....
Where is the person you like right now?- I don't like anyone like mate level...
What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?- Was drinking soda, so the bottle.
What are you supposed to be doing right now?- Working on commissions.
What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex's body?- The dick...*shrug*
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?- Yes
Could you handle a long distance relationship?- No... I hate them.
Could you cry right now?- Yes...
Are you okay with the life you live?- I guess.
Did you enjoy your day today?-It's not over. But it's good so far.
Do you have a tattoo?- Yes.
Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?- Yes.
Ever had a song sang about/for you?- HAHHAHAHA no....
What was the last thing you spent money for?- 12 pack Arizona Green Tea and Almond Extract.... >:3
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?- Bakuram's MOM! XD
Do you call it fall or autumn?- Fall.
11:11… Make a wish?- I wish... Can't say...
Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?- .......ChocolaFox, Zato(Drageon), Bakuram, Nibbles(cat).
What were you up to at 9pm last night?- Epic Meal Time with Zato and Bakuram!
Do you hold grudges?- Yes... If you hurt me more, then they last longer.
Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?- Yes...
What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?- I'm... BI! What do you think!?! XD
Who was your last text from?- ChocolaFox
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?- Yeah...
One thing you’re looking forward to?- FurFright
Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?- Yes.
Has anyone ever called you sexy?- Yes... And they never did it again...
What colour is your camera?- Blood red
Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?- NO, and he should!!!
Are you good at hiding your feelings?- Not really...
Are you wasting your time on someone?- I was... But gave up.
Have you ever overheard a conversation you weren’t supposed to?- Yes.
By the way, what is your name?- Ashley...
Are you currently in a relationship?- No....
Do you give out second chances too easily?- No...
What color is your favorite hoodie?- Black, white, and blood red
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?- HELL NO!

Info
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (all the time... )
[X] I have many scars. (From many accidents.)
[] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. (I would love to just change hair colors all the time XD)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x ] I have a tattoo. (Vascol, my wolf-dragon ^^ )
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (very.... I don't look in mirrors anymore)
[] I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. (Yuppers ^^)
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (At bars, cons, on the street... YUCK)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house. (No matter how much she denies it, she kicked me out...)
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[] I'm in college.
[x] I have a job. (Working retail... Go me!*shoots self*)
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school (In high school... several times XD)
[ ] I always do my homework.
[X] I've missed a week or more of school. (Vacation!!! )
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation. (Lol! All the time! XD)
[x] Disney movies still make me cry. (One does... Hocus Pocus.. >: )
[x] I've peed from laughing. (*deep red blush* FFFF )
[x] I've snorted while laughing. (HAHAHA *snort*)
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (Yes! Several times! XD)
[x] I've glued my hand to something. (glued my hand to my face once as a kid... XP )
[x] I've had my pants rip in public. (Was the worse, thing, EVAR!!!)

Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment/disability (Yeah. >: )
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples. (Damn mutt..)
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[X] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend. (When she used to be my friend....)
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. (Yup, and woke up from it crying. D8 )
[x] I had a serious surgery. (I'm wearing glasses for a reason... >.> )
[X] I've had chicken pox. (And it hurt like a bitch!)

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (Personally driven, no, but was on a bus for 200 miles in a day! Was some shit!!!)
[X] I've been on a plane. (Been going to Vegas almost every summer since I was 9)
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city. (Yes... XD)
[x] I've seen a shooting star. (A few times actually.)
[x] I've wished on a shooting star. (Silly thing, but yea...)
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (HELL YEAH!)
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!!! I'M SO SORRY BAKURAM!!! T^T)
[x] I've been to a casino (Once more, VEGAS! XD)
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play. (I was in Theater in high school)
[x] I've met someone in person from Facebook. (Several of the NYFurs I met on Facebook first before meeting in person ^^ Like Noose! XD)
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. (In NY, it ALWAYS snows during the winter...)
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night. ( Love my roof)
[ ] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone. (Yes. XD)
[x] I've ridden in a taxi. (NY.... You take a hint!)
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I've eaten sushi. (So... Addicting....)
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[X] I'm single. (And hating it... )
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. (Yeah... Every day, I just get more and more alone...)
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. (.... No comment...)
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. (My feelings died before his did..)
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. (Was a small crush. No need for her to know about it now..)
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship. (Yesh.)

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex. (I'm bi with a female preference.. I think that counts XD)
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher. (One... And in high school... >///>)
[x] I am a cuddler. (Most of my friends know I'm clingy...*clings*)
[x] I've been kissed in the rain. (We weren't even dating.. >.> )
[X] I've hugged a stranger. (When you fursuit, you are BOUND to be hugged! XD)
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't. (I'm so sorry...)
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. (And I still beat myself up over it..)
[x] I've snuck out of my house. (And snuck back in! XDD)
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. (Who hasn't...? >.>)
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world. (Ssh..)
[X] I've cheated while playing a game. (Yeah.. They're called Cheat Codes! XD)
[X] I've cheated on a test. (*looks over shoulder*)
[] I've run a red light.
[x] I've been suspended from school. (Eh heh heh heh ^^')
[X] I've witnessed a crime. (yeah)
[x] I've been in a fist fight. (That's why I got suspeneded.... And I would have cut that bitch too if the security wasn't there...)
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[X] I've consumed alcohol. (I'm 21, so yeah... XD)
[ ] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking. (DAMN YOU FATHER!!! XD)
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten mushrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. (But... They taste yummeh T^T)
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed. (Yeah... Trying not to though... >: )
[] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. (Yeah...)
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose. (>.>)
[x] I've woken up crying. (Some nightmares are worse than living, if you could believe it...)

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying. (I think it was all those Final Destination movies... )
[X] I hate funerals. (I hate them... )
[X] I've seen someone dying. (*currently teary* Grandma... I'm sorry I was afraid..)
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide. (My "little sister"....)
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[X] I've planned my own suicide. (When I was younger...)
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[X] I own an iPod or MP3 player. (Well two actually. XP)
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic. (Yeah... XD)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[X] I own something I got on eBay. (EBay is my LOVE)
[x] I own something from Abercrombie. (Was a gift! )

Random
[x] I can sing well. (I'm going on what people tell me.. I don't believe it though XP)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news. (Yeah before I leave for work everyday)
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly. (I have a nasty tongue. XD)
[x] I sing in the shower. (If my IFail is playing, yes XD)
[ ] I am a morning person.
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. (In the past)
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I twirl my hair. (When I used to have long hair...)
[ ] I have X’s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day. (Well... I had to move computers XD)
[x] I bake well. (I love to bake! XD Did a video chat of me baking XD)
[x] My favorite color is white, yellow, pink, red or blue. (Blue. )
[x] I've worn pajamas to school. (And got a phone call home wondering if I was out of clothing... -.- )
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes (Often... >.>)
[x] I eat fast food weekly. (Taco Bell at 3 in the morning! HELL YEAH!!! XD)
[x] I believe in ghosts. (Believe and see...)
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I still got an A in a class where I didn’t turn anything in. (It's called GYM CLASS XD)
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. (I HAVE to kill it!)
[x] I am really ticklish. (Touch my feet, and you lose your nose...)
[X] I love dark chocolate. (Yes PLEASE!!)
[X] I play video games. (All the time ^^ )
[x] I'm good at remembering faces. (Your name is...? But face!!! YAY ^^)
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates. (Somewhat... I remembered anniversaries when dating.)
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (I think the military will help with that ^^ )

So read a journal by  fullnekoalchemist stating that his bag was taken from the rave at AC, and is now in ARIZONA!!! Please help him if you know anything!!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2487355/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2487355/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2487355/



Also!!! Apparently a white and blue wymling went missing. It was created by  dartjunkie and bought by the customer, but it fell out of the person's bag. If you know ANYTHING, please help!!!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2488006/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2488006/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2488006/


If this is how people are gunna be at Anthrocon, I don't think I'm going to ever go back... Cuz some bastard takes my stuff, they are getting killed.... Quickly... PLEASE HELP OUT IF YOU CAN AT ALL!!!

Get drunk and sad at the same time... It fucks with your brain... Currently working on a picture to get my emotion out... Meanwhile Beck's is almost empty, and listening to sad Evanescence music... It's bad... I'm not trashed, which is why I can write this, but I'm not in my right place right now... Wanna know what's wrong? Of course you don't, but it will make me feel better to get it off my chest...

My fucking ex left me for a girl that was years younger than me!!! I'm 21, he's 21, she's 16!!!! YYou sick FUCK! You know who you are, and I hope you ROT!!! And then, he leaves her, messes around with me, and leaves me again for a fat bitch!!! This is some shit! I can't be young enough or fat enough for you, then why the FUCK did you even hook up with me?! Just for some sick kicks!!!?? You're a bastard!!! And when you drive everyone away, and you are alone cutting your wrists, you will know why!!! Cuz you hurt those closest to you!!! Fuck you! Fucking fuck you!!!!

Oh god I'm crying.. Fuck this shit... Crying is WEAK!! Really weak.... Mother says so... Lolz hahahahhaha!! I want another Beck's... Oh well... I'm still working on the free art, and Iron Artist, and commission from FA:U, cuz fucking AC was weak in the art department, even though I was LIED to and told I would make some serious bucks!!! HA what a joke!!! Some shit! Some fucking fucked up shit!!! HAHAH I need my bed.. Night now...

AC

So AC was alright... It was my first one, and was expecting it to be much better than what it was... Unfortunately, close to nothing was sold.... I was placed in between two famous and well known furry artists, one day it was  vera She is a very nice person, but no one even gave my art a second glance with her next to me... *sad sigh* ALWAYS taking commissions... Although no one even seems to give two shits anyway... =_= Spent Sunday drinking with  bakuram, who seemed to enjoy this a hell of a lot more than me... Could have been worse, but really wish it could have been much better... Got some cute gloves and cute little wings, and caused quite a stir at the Fursuit Parade, jumping around trying to fly, and making little kids giggle. So I guess that is a plus... =w= Just glad to be home...

Iron Artist

So apparently Iron Artist is a challenge where you draw something of decent quality everyday for a set period of time... I've been thinking about doing it, and frankly, I guess I've decided to do it. I guess I could follow  wolfattwilight's and try and get myself out there... Apparently I'm really shy in person when it comes to asking people about commissioning me... >//> Thank you for pointing this out Twilight and Bakuram!!! *flustered* So starting tonight, and for the next 35 days, I will submit something.. And here's how to expect the art flow;
Monday-OC
Tuesday- Kingdom Hearts
Wednesday- Soul Eater
Thursday- Fullmetal Alchemist
Friday- Mix
Saturday- Air Gear
Sunday- Mix

Enjoy my crappy arts... *grumble*

Free Art?

I've seen this a lot going around.  wolfattwilight recommended I try doing this to get my name known a little better... Not gunna be as well known as  vera kittmouri vitanior gideon, but it is worth a shot I guess... *not in the best of moods typing this. Sorry...* But yeah, here's how it works:

Post a journal with this journal as a link. Title your journal "Free Art" or anything clever like that. Post a comment below with the link to YOUR journal stating that you posted a link of MY journal in it. And bam! Free art of your fursona. Hooray. Let's see how many people respond... *is expecting maybe three tops*

Sorry this journal was a bunch of whining and self-doubting. I didn't have the best time at the con, and very tired while typing this. Onwards to Iron Artist... Yay ^^

I mean, I have so many... O_O And they just sit around collecting dust... >.> So should I start auctioning them off? Thoughts? Comments? Bitch you be crazy?? XDDD

 kittmouri's room, which includes me, has an opening for Anthrocon. If we get a fourth person, it will be $132 altogether. Please, we need one other person for the room. >: Hope someone responds... -.-

AC is around the corner!!! Can't wait to go!!! >:3 And I'm almost done with everything! I bought my train ticket today, so that is awesome! And now, all that's left, is to get 10 for my train ticket to Penn Station, and 33 for  kittmouri's room fare. And then Friday, when my paycheck comes in from work, I'll be able to finish paying for the room! Just a small note to myself.... NOT DOING THAT AGAIN!!! If I can't pay for anything TWO WEEKS in advance to the cons, I Ain't Going! XDDDDD This was NUTS!! And people that know me well enough in person know how much I was stressing out about this... SORRY  bakuram!! He knows, cuz I was spazzing to him about it for days. >:


And Awesome News!!!! I found out the UPS store by me does laminating for hella cheap!!! So I can make much more badges(when I get commissioned them XP)!! Which now opens up the laminating option in my commission lists! Which reminds me.. I should probably update my page with prices... >.> WEWT! XD Im SO STOKED!!!! *spazz fit*

Let's see how many comments I'll get... >.> *is expecting 0 if not, 1*

I am asking you guys out there for major help for Anthrocon. I may be short on money for my train and room. And I really need your help. :3 So here's what I have up for grabs. :3

Sketches for $5. Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/5723772/
Ink for $10. Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/5723789/
Copic Colors for $15. Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5822529/
Badges in color for $10. Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5784815/
Ref Sheet digital color for $25. Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/5910079/
Digital Color for $20. Example: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/5892584

Spots:
10 Sketches
5 Inks
3 Copics
7 Badges
1 Ref Sheet
2 Digital

I have a paypal account, but feel free to comment here, and I can give you a direct quote. ^^

Please help out! Anthrocon is NEXT WEEK! >.< Thank you for looking ^^

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5908766/

Please help me decide on which fursuit to make. I really want to make a fursuit, but I have no idea which one to make... Voting ends the end of tomorrow. I'll see which ones were picked, and if there is a tie, I'll make another journal, until it is widdled down to a winner. XD Thank you!!

1. If you woke up as the opposite sex, whats the first thing you would do?
Jerk off my new cawk... XD And then go to my Chocola Fox, told her I was a guy, and probably have some fun with her too. XD

2. Are you addicted to anything?
Pickles, hookah(to some extent), booze(to some extent), dancing

3. What do you see in a guy/girl?
Kindness.... If you are a nice gal, and you aren't pretty in the eyes of many, you will still be in my eyes...

4. Has an animal ever attacked you?
Yeah. And that little dog was never the same XD

5. When was the last time someone made you laugh really hard?
Playing Pangya with Chocola Fox

6. Do you find piercings/tattoos attractive?
Not really. They're more awesome.

7. What's the weirdest thing you've ever licked?
..... My Bad Dragon toy... >.>

8. When you wake up, what's the first thought that runs through your head?
Great.. Another empty space in my bed...

9. Do you actually believe Alaska is covered in snow?
No.

10. Are you ever purposely irritating?
No.

11.Would you ever play strip poker?
NEVER! Well.. Maybe with Chocola Fox... And Twilight... >:3

12. If you could make someone disappear, who would it be?
ONLY ONE PERSON!?!? DAMN YOU!!! I WOULD MAKE ALOT OF PEOPLE DISAPPEAR! But first, it would be this Kitty person who is harassing my Fox!!

13. Look behind you, what do you see?
A step ladder, a window, a blue glass vase, fake flowers, a cabinet to hold doggie and kitty treats.

14. What's your fav thing about the opposite sex?
...... IDK.... IN all honesty.... IDK

15. What's the most important thing to you?
Family, friendship, and money(yes I'm Greed)

16. What would you be doing right now if you were kicked off your computer?
Probably go to this art festival with Twilight, KJ, and Chromey.

17. How do you spend your weekends?
Working at Marshall's.

18. Who do you want to be with right now?
Chocola Fox or Aura Wolf

19. Are you fun to hang with?
I guess. When I'm not being a downer. But around my friends, I'm not really a downer.

20.What country would you love to visit?
Japan! :3

21. What's on your mind right now?
My Chocola Fox going through stress, and wanting to love her...

22.When was the last time you went to a good party?
My Hookah Furmeet was pretty epic XD

23. Fav song?
ET by Katy Perry

24. Can you lick your elbow?
Yeah, kinda...

25. If you jumped out your bedroom window right now, how injured would you be?
Very.. Second floor, landing in a thorn bush outside my window. >.>

26. What would you do if your bf/gf cheated on you with your best friend?
I would ask for a threesome... My crush Chocola Fox, and my best friend Caity Two-Tail.... I had a crush on Caity Two-Tail....

27. Do you like anyone you can't have?
YES!!! DAMMIT!!!! *cries in emo corner*

28. Do you dance even without music?
Yes. And freak my mom out XD

29. Does anyone tease you cause of your name?
Not anymore. LOLZ

30. What song is stuck in your head right now?
JUDAS! JU-DA-AA! *dances*

31. What's your darkest secret?
Only me and the walls know that secret... And I am taking it to my grave!

32. What do you think is at the end of the rainbow?
NOTHING! There is nothing at the end of the rainbow! Only heartache!

33.If a blind guy/girl started hitting on you, what would you do?
Just walk away. They can't see me...

34. What was the last concert you want to?
.... Avril Lavigne I think...

35. Do you speak your mind?
Kinda

36. Can you handle the truth?
I would rather feel like dying cuz the truth hurts, than get caught up in a bold lie and live in the blank.

37. What would you do if someone random on the street came up to you and started hitting on you?
Tell them to get lost, or get punched...

38. Ever been caught naked?
Yes...

39.Ever been in a fight?
Too many..

40.If so did you win?
Yes and no.

41.Have you ever cheated on your bf/gf?
NEVER!

42.Done anything illegal lately?
I've never done anything illegal...

43.Name the most stupidest thing you've ever done?
Got into an argument about homosexuality with my CHRISTIAN mother JEHOVA step father....

44.Would you talk to someone you don't know on the internet?
Yeah.. I have REAL friends outside the interwebs...

45. Ever been in trouble for something you didn't do?
Nope

46.Ever done anything stupid towards a cop?
Nope

47.Have you ever been in an accident of some sort?
Yeah

48.If yes, may I ask what the accident was? (You don't have to answer this if you don't want to)
I was in a car accident. A guy hit me while I was walking home from work.

49. Have you lied to your parents about where you've been or going?
Of course. Who hasn't?

50. Ever had a prank turn out wrong? (and I don't mean the person dying or anything like that)
No. I hate pranks...

51. Would you send money to a starving family in another country?
In honesty, not really. Sorry.

52.Are you hungry?
Eating now.

53. If you could speak another language, what would it be?
Japanese

54. One word to describe yourself?
Foolish

55.To describe your friends?
Awesome

56.What's the last present you've received?
I went to see Wicked with my folks in the city for my birthday.

57. What would you rather have as a name?
Aluna, Grace, Allen, Ember.

58. Any siblings?
Step siblings: 5 brothers, 2 sisters... ALL OLDER

59. Are you a sporty kind of person or do you like to lay around and do nothing but watch tv or sit at the computer?
I would rather be out, but some days I just want my bed...

60.Could you outrun a bus?
NOT A CHANCE... Maybe if it were moving really really really turtlely slow...

61.You and your friends are bored. What do you do?
Ummm... XD We go out, live it up, go nuts XD

62.Who hates Twilight as much as I do?
Pretty much all my friends and I.

63. What's your middle name?
Ann

64.What's your fav website?
Furaffinity

65. Single or Taken?
....single...


66. Good or Bad kisser?
I hate kissing, so bad.

67. What would you do if the world were coming to an end?
Kiss Chocola Fox, like hardcore make out. I'm dying, so why not fulfill my greatess desire?

68. Biggest regret ever?
Hurting Aura Wolf... I'm so sorry...

69. Would you have giving into peer pressure?
Not anymore...

70. Last but not least. What's your name?
I hate my name... So no...

No tag. Go away. -.-