I put this in my profile info and just in case not everyone comes to my page, here's the message:

Due to constant interruptions at home, I need some time to catch up a little on my art work here. I'm not too far behind but just a little. Take care everyone!

I may be able to get on so I'll be around supporting my fellow artists.

Hello all, I'm back! I'll be busy for the next week or so dealing with some major life issues.

I'm here to announce an update on the big comic project. The story from here on is going solid so I'm going to need those who are "really" serious about being in this project to let me know they want to be apart of it. This story from the start was for those who are friends, supporters, and positive influences to me. I have a list of all those I've talked to about the comic and I'll be talking to each and every name. If you're reading this and serious about being in this comic but you don't know if I have you or forgotten you, or maybe you're a new watcher and interested, contact me and we'll talk.
I'd like to recognize and thank the guys who have shown their interest in the development of the comic and have encouraged me to keep going with it.
Thank you  binnoc9 and thank you  pyrewerepyre I have a little surprise for the two of you.

Here is the list and if anyone has news of a member's reason for absence, please share your knowledge:

Davos/Pyre
Sukebe (I heard she left, is it true? Who has contact?)
Akira
CircleA61: Krotsgier, Gekvige, Corro (creator deceased, should I take characters out?)
SammyFox
Dark Talbain
Shadow
Matinus Sykes
Zammy
Jocosa
Angel: Meeza and herself
Katavina
Wolf Punk
Jaga
Kura
Luciana (hard to reach these days)
Liane
Saiyori
Wong Phi Hung
Train: Crissy, Helen, Angela, and himself
Ice
Fishbo
Blue Billy
Vixynn (disappeared, in danger of being cut)
Nami
Specks
Kerflurval
Muir
Vivianyte: Edrysia, Pandora, Oka, Ana
Twinklestah
Binnoc: Mother Cat, Binnoc, Sarannoc, Sightless Claws
Kitoth
Rocksteady
Night
Charky
Gennii
Kiwi
Pouncer
Kurtsa
Toshiro
yiffneko: Fenrir
Sairune (where have you gone?)
abscartoon: Mandy
Cylnx: Orlina and Jamie
Cherry Fury
Kusatsu

For those who will stay in, I'm going to need this from you:

-A solid character design: You don't have to draw one for me. If you have a character reference, send that or give me a written description. This comic is going to take a while to complete so I need a design that is going to stay consistant inspite of changes to the fursona or OC over time.

Hello everyone, Merry Christmas! I just have to let you all know that I will not be online for a while. I need time to sort things out and get back on track. I apologize to those who have been following along with the comic. I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Thanks for the love and support as every voice counts. It's still a tough time for me but I'll be back on top of things in time. May you all have a wonderful time with your families and friends. May the New Year bring us closer together and to our goals. I love you guys and God bless.

Edit(12/31/2010)

I have returned momentarily to pay my respects and help notify the friends of another deceased FA friend since Dec 27th.  renamonprincess she will be terribly missed. May she rest in peace and her family find comfort in this time. If you knew her and want to know what happened, read this journal: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1984094/ the auther is a relative of hers appointed by her before she passed to let everyone know how she's been.
Will be back in January. Happy New Year all!

I want some opinions about this and maybe some other guys would like to know this as well. How can a guy talk to any female without seeming as if we are coming on to them? Even if you don't intend to go after them, they take it that way because you're being friendly. I know you ladies have a hard time talking to guys without them catching feelings and becoming clingy or worse.

What is your opinion?

I saw this in  midnightwolfsune 's journal and it caught my interest as well as curiosity. If anyone else trys, link me here!


Pick the first Letter of Your first Name

A- Fabulous
B-Gorgeous
C-Pretty
D-Popular
E-Gangster
F-Girly
G-Dyke
H-Sweet
I-Retarded
j-Emotional
K-Beautiful
L-Boyish
M-Slutty
N-Preppy
O-Hot
P- amazingg
Q-Punky
R-Hot
S-Sexy
T- Very Sexy
U-Ugly
V-Wonderful
W-Hott
X-Bitchy
Y-Under-appreciated
Z-Over-appreciated


Now the third letter in your middle name(if you dont have one use your last name):

A-beauty queen
B- skank
C-Bitch
D-Obsesser
E- God
F-Retard
G-Queen/ King
H-Slut
I-Girl
J-Goth
K-Nerd
L-M-Sex machine
N-Alcoholic
O-Geek
P-Babe
Q-Crackwhore
R-pornstar
S-Prince
T-Whore
U-Cry Baby
V-Jackass
W-Punk
X-Scaredy-cat
Y-Coward
Z-Chocoholic


Now What Color Is the Shirt You Are Wearing:

Red- Who's Good With My Hands
purple- Who Looks At Porn 24/7k
Orange- Who Likes It In The Butt
Yellow- Who Wants To Have Sex With You
Green- Who will do anything for Sex
Pink- Who Will Do Anything For Crack
blue- Who wants to fuck everyday
White- Who everyone wants to fuck
Brown- Who Wears Big Sunglasses
Black- Who will rock your world
Gray- who gives great head
None-who is a beast in bed


NOW REPOST THIS WITH THE NAME & STATEMENT YOU GOT
BEGINNING WITH "I'm a..."

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Anyone who is willing to give a youngster advice or know anyone else who would, please contact me by note as soon as you can. This is an important request. I really need assistance. This isn't about art or anything, its more serious and has to do with life. Please contact me when you can.

Happy Halloween to everone who celebrates it! Be safe, be cautious, and be courteous ^ ^

You like my avatar Halloween mask?

What are you all dong? I'm watching my nephews. The oldest is playing L4D and he's not too bad at it (he's 4yrs).

Hello people! I just want to tell you that there is a hault in my uploads not because I have art block but I'm just stuck. The inspiration in me is lacking. I've been watching a lot of artists here who caught my eye in hopes that maybe some one may pass their creative juices to me. Not to worry, usually when I get like this, once I recover, my skills upgrade to a higher level.
I didn't stop the comic I'm doing for  train I have 2 pages drawn.

On the side, I've been trying to get in to the Air Force but because of the fact I broke my leg, he wants the records. It was 12yrs ago meaning they are no longer holding my records. I mentioned this news to him and just as I was waiting for him to say we can progress, he says he wants a signed form from my doctor saying my records are no longer being held. I'm not lying about it nor has the operation left me with a disability. I was 11yrs old, I dont know who my doctor was. All I can remember is the nurses that walked in and out. My parents don't have the documents either. I don't know what's going to happen but I'm going to contact that hospital again and see if someone will write a note for me or something to satisfy this recruiter.

As of a couple weeks ago, I no longer work there due to complaints from the lady at the office or supervisor saying we were late or absent too many times. Doesnt make sense because we only didn't come in one day and she said, the day before that if it rained, we woudn't work. It rained so we didnt come in. One guy did and I guess because of that, she got upset. If anything, I'd say they were mad because they are extremly behind on their potatos. We were late most of the time because:

1. Work is a half hour to 1hr (depnding on whch farm we have to go to).
2. Because of the distance and the fact that the car (mercedes benz) has a big tank and costs over $30 to fill the tank half way.
3. Because work was every day dawn to dusk, we had no time to travel out to pick up our checks from the agency to fill up the tank.
3. We were new to the area and got lost on our first day to each farm.

Even when late, we made up the hours missed and then some. I don't mind the fact she fired us but she didn't have to go saying bad things about us to the agency. Most of what she said were made up stories anyway. All I know is that when we finally were able to get our checks, the lady at the agency had an attitude with us. Talking about how we made her look bad and she wouldn't even hear us out. She acts like we're her kids or something, I didn't get the chance this time but I'll set her straight if she snaps at us again.

Well thanks for reading. I have to get back to business. I'm still keeping contact with people whether it's by phone, email, mail.

I found an interesting reading on my zodiac sign. I believe it describes me well. Check it out to find out more about me ^ ^

Your element: Earth

Your ruling planets: Venus

Symbol: The Bull

Your stone: Emerald

Life Pursuit: Emotional and financial security

Vibration: Determined energy

Taurus Secret Desire: To have a secure, happy and wealthy life/marriage.


Description:
Underneath their cool, calm and collected exterior, Taureans differ greatly from all the other signs of the zodiac. Taureans manage to discreetly stay apart from the crowd, even though they have a well-earned reputation for being socialisers. They will let others get close, but only so close as they want them. Some claim that trying to get your point across to a Taurean, should they not want to hear you, is rather similar to talking to the trees – they simply won't budge. And, there is no such thing as an open-book Taurean. Their feelings, fears and desires often run far deeper than anyone around them would guess. Like the butterfly that chooses to remain hidden in its cocoon until it is ready and prepared to emerge, so the true Taurean spirit remains hidden behind a veneer of day-to-day activities. That's why Taureans are sometimes regarded as snobby, withdrawn, boring, or even sulky.

The truth is, when Taureans manage to operate very adequately on their own form of automatic pilot, they can switch off from the world around them very efficiently. And when they do switch off, they are actually gathering in their inner reserves to deal with the outside pressures. This sign is also very closely connected to 'feeling good'. Most Taureans like their creature comforts and hate change because it takes them out of their automatic pilot condition of separating themselves from the world around them.

Because they hate to be put in jeopardy of any kind, this is the sign that strives to create tomorrow in advance, rather than leave it to fate. In love, Taureans are regarded as extremely sensual beings. An earth sign, they deal well with the personal, physical senses and consequently all the pleasures associated with what they can see, touch, smell and taste, add up to a special delight to them. Often nature and pet lovers, Taureans are closely associated with all things off the earth and nature.

If you were born on the first or last day of a Sun sign, in astrological terms you were born on a cusp. If that's the case, you will probably benefit from reading your own Sun sign and the Sun sign that ends or begins right before or after your date of birth. For example, if your birth date is 22 December, your Sun sign is Capricorn, but you probably have some Sagittarian traits as well

By Athena Starwoman

Hello all. I just want to quickly let you guys know what's been up with me these past few weeks as quickly as I can.

I'm getting ready for the US Air Force. In the meantime, I have a full-time job at a farm helping potatoes through their process before they get to the markets. I work long hours and I end up exhausted by the end of the day being out in the feild then working inside and sometimes back outside again. It doesn't bother me much because I always craved the simple life. I'm still drawing and commenting when I can. To those of you who I've promised something and it's been about a year since, I truely apologize about that (I can sometimes be easily distracted or my mind just wonders and I end up wasting time thinking than doing). I'm getting better at managing my time. I recently opened up an Xbox Live account. You can go to my profile page and see my name in the info. If you didn't know, if you click the link, you'll see a page that shows my info like my latest activity. The avatar you see me using isn't me, it's my 1st Venus character "Cheryle" in human form. Please stop by and add me (If you can, I'm new to this and don't know how it works) I'd like to add friends.

Well, that's all I have for now, I don't know if I missed out on anything (it is well past my appointment with my bed to visit dream city) but if you have any further questions or something, you can always message me. Thanks for reading.

Hi, I'm back! Any Philly furs around? I was at a block party Sunday. Anyone go to one? I never been to one before but I never knew that it was possible to close out a full block to grill and party in the streets. I mean so many blocks blocked off. I really feel sorry for whoever is running from the cops and runs into a mess of block parties because there is NO chance at all of getting through.

Okay, I'm finishing up a page for  train and should have it up in a few.

Hello! I just wanted to let you all know that I'll be away for a couple days and wont be able to get online. To  train while I'm away, I'll be finishing up the remaining pages of the intro. Thanks everyone! I hope you have a good weekend.

Tired of skimming through a gallery full of random art? Done with weaving through the search engine and being stuck with only look a likes? Well I've got a better way for you artists and fans of the Venus 7 to get all the info you need on the stars you love all in one place without having to search or skim. It's uninterrupted uh... totally exciting... ah nevermind was never good at advertising.

For a ton of V7 art and more, check out  venus7 Unfortunately, there's nothing much there at the moment but in time, the place will be filled with cool stuff. I noticed that quite a few artists took a liking to drawing Kelly so there's a color reference there. Watch for more info on Kelly.

Thanks for reading!
The logo was my original design. Tell me how you like it. ^ ^

Okay, I saw this in  kuraianubis profile and I decided to do this. I may be a while with more uploads so lets try this in the meantime. Give it a shot. Ryuu wants to know what you think.

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?


Thanks for your time.

I just stopped by to say hey. How is eveyone? I missed you all.

So far, Ive been hearing some things that have been going on here with my FA friends. Remember, I don't care who you are, if your on my watch list I care. So talk to me if you need to or want to just talk. Maybe I can help. I've been artistically paralyzed but I never went anywhere so what's up?

<.<...>.>...still here... -_- zzzzzzzz

Good an bad news identified to reduce chance of sudden shock.

Good News
I started working on and finishing requests given some time ago so if you've made a request with me at any time, know that it's coming and if you forgot, well, prepare to be surprised.

Bad News
I just wanted to let you know that the cause of the hold up with submissions is because the scanner still isn't acting right. The printer, fax, copy work but it's just the scanner. I honestly don't know how long this is going to take.

Terrible News
After filing my taxes, I received 5% of the money it showed on my W-2. Being it's my first time filing taxes, I'm not sure if that's normal but 10% sounds like... like a scam (either that or I did something wrong). I feel really bad now because I had my hopes set high on what I was going to save that money for and the reason for this unfortunate thing may have been my doing.

Great News
After every year of my life, since my little brother was born, I am finally going to have my own room. Even better, my plans of moving into a single bedroom apartment has been put in motion following a good paying job. I'm finally getting help on getting my independent living under way after graduation from Keystone.


That about wraps it up. I think I want to start the illustrated Journals again but oh wait... I have run out of paper -_- jeez, what a... what a... Hold on a sec, I hear a strong buzzing sound from the window on the other side of the room...

*goes over to check the window*
*looks behind the couch, then turns to look behind the blinds to see the eyes of some flying insect staring back* 0.0
*backing up, the flying creature flutters around through the blinds buzzing*
*Ryuu runs to the kitchen to grab his sister Miku's bug spray* *returns back to the scene to see that the insect has rested on a different part of the blinds close to the center*
*using great tactic thinking skills, Ryuu aims the can behind the blinds*
*using the plastic that covered the inside of the window, Ryuu shoots off a spray of the pest control juice, ricochet off the plastic and onto the unsuspecting victim*
*the insect turns to flee buzzing in a panic but is disoriented in his escape as he goes up and down* *losing focus, the creature stops on one of the blinds but can't hold on and falls to the floor and falls silent*

as I was saying, what a situation I'm in.

(the incident with the fly really happened not too long ago. I bulked up the story but only as far as things from the fly's point of view) Take it easy all.

Hello all, I just want to let you all know that I am interested in creating my own website. I'm looking for help on how to do that. I know a few of my friends and artists I look up to who have done this and I was hoping I could get their help.

Also, I am still trying to figure out what's going on with the scanner so the requests may take a while.

Not to leave unannounced again so just so you know what's up. I'll be away from computer for a couple days or so. Since yesterday, I've been really feeling ill (might be from sleeping in that nasty basement). It's not a normal sick, my head feels weird. Like the light-headedness one would feel when standing up too fast. My eyes hurt like they want to throw up their contents and I know my stomach is killing me. Thanks for your time and that's all. I feel it getting worse as my fingers shake.

Take care.

Hello people. Something has been bothering me and I feel that I have to vent out lingering thoughts. This is something I wrote on paper last month while in KJCC when I couldn't take it anymore and I balled it up. For future reference, I don't say these things just to whine but to express the way I feel and maybe someone can help me understand or find an answer because I'm always looking to better myself as a person as well as an artist.

It's hard for me to identify the appearance I give or whatever it is I do that cause people to treat me the way they do.
manipulation, hypocrisy (saying one thing, acting like they can relate but then change up making excuses for them and trying to make me feel guilty for not understanding), dominating and treating me like a child.
I don't feel that I relate to anyone in this world (not even family). Have you ever asked yourself or wondered if your family were just people out on the street that you meet, would they care for you the same?

People play with my emotions, my feelings.
Test me, try me, say they care then turn their backs.

Can't talk to councilor, teachers, etc... because they are all the same. They tell me the same thing but don't know. They just do what they are paid to do.

Life sucks for me because what I seek in life is either a ferry tale or has died a long time ago.

In the media and in all forms of communication to inform, people put up rules and laws saying how the world should be, saying how it "IS" when nobody follows them or take them serious. It seems as though I'm the only person alive who lives by them and think the world, somewhere it is the way it should be but I have been proven wrong all the time. Its too late for me to change and I don't want to become like these people who cheat, steal, and do everything to get ahead accept help one another through the kindness of their hearts and not just to get something in return.
Maybe I'm crazy or mentally ill, either way, I don't see myself fitting in with the world this lifetime.

I'm just too tame, I feel greatly restricted like there are barriers keeping me from expressing my feelings whether it's love or anger.
Like a muzzle used for a canine,
my tongue is dull and my teeth gone.
Like a domestic animal,
I feel that I haven't an aggressive bone in my flimsy body. This is the reason I ban myself from the world, why I stay away, to prevent the never ending cycle of having to fight. I feel that it is my curse to have been born male as males are expected to be strong and unbreakable. I come no where near it.
No one takes me seriously, no one respects me enough to stand with me when things get tough and the odds are against me. It's like my thoughts, my voice doesn't matter to anyone unless they are payed to listen.
What is god's plan for me? What is my purpose? How do I begin to understand and live how I was meant to. Or was I ever meant to live in peace. It's all I ever want. I don't bother anybody yet they come to me bringing nothing but lies, deceit, grief, and more pain. How do I become strong? Why weren't these crazy trials handed to someone who's physically and mentally capable or has the potential of success. I don't know who's wrong or who's right but everyday I go through the same things no matter where I go or what I decide to do. I just can't win. The stupid games the whole world is caught up in. The false images of good on this world and the persecutions of hypocrite who judge when the first people to pass judgment or rules are the ones doing wrong.
I go through the same cycles all my life and if I can't find an answer to my problem, I fear that one day, I'll lose it, become some crazy psycho killer to those who does anything wrong to me. But then when I react and in the end, I'm the one who's wrong for what I did right? But who are you to judge?...

Now these people who have done wrong without a care see me doing wrong, even the slightest thing like a hurtful word... suddenly they call me a bad person who doomed us all. These people have been doing it most of their lives and its not like I haven't a good reason. I swear if it weren't for the few good people in my life who have come and gone, those who have shown me love and cared about me, I'd have lost control of my morals, reasons and possibly humanity a long time ago.

To all those people out there who play with my feelings, use me, hate me and tried to intimidate or dominate me, I hope your happy and that you one day wake up and realize the wrong you have done and change.

People like you are the reason I am the way I am. So don't judge me and try to change who I am or try to fix me before you do a self evaluation. I'm sick of you telling me what I need to do I'm not who you think I am because no one takes the time to know me to understand me.
If you can't do that, if you got a problem with that, then its quite simple... JUST LEAVE ME THE **CK ALONE!!!

* I'm sick of people getting over on me!
* I'm sick of people teasing and taunting me!
* I'm sick of people telling me its okay!
* I'm sick of people ignoring me!

I hate things that are false and I hate LIES! I get so sick of PEOPLE!!!

If you have a point of view to share or advice, anything, I'm open to talk (here or PM). Thanks for reading.

*shakes nervously putting on a false smile* Hello friends, everyone *loosens collar as sweat poors* I bet your wondering what this is about heh. It's a silly story actually.

I was on my way to scanning some sketches for  train when I hit the power button, it doesn't turn on. I checked the connections and found out that the cord to the power wasn't connected. Okay, I plugged it in and hit the power button again. It turned on, yay. But the first message I saw once setting it to scan is... it's not connected. I look at the back and *gasps*

WHAT HAPPENED TO THE USB CABLE!!!

Since the last time I fixed it, someone removed the cable while I was away at Job Corps. I have to find out what happened to that USB cable.
So if anyone's lookin' for me, I'll be hunting. Wish me luck as this is my only source of getting my drawings transferred to computer.

Well, thanks for reading about my dilemma. Hopefully the issue will be resolved soon.
So anything new anyone wants me to see or does this start another quest?

Something I picked up from  vivianyte ... actually, she tagged me.

1. tag 10 peeps (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. Answer all truthfully
3. Take it in public!
4. Tell all tagged on their profile that they have been tagged, and link to your journal.

Info
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parent.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[ ] I'm in school
[ ] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do/did my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles


Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from MySpace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrouds.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[ ] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

I don't really feel much for tagging others now but whoever wants to do it, go ahead.
Enjoy your weekend!

I don't normally do this but I need a form of release...

I'm graduating tomorrow. I've been so busy with a lot of things because I was projected too early for graduation. Been pretty stressful. Thinking about where I'm going and what I'm going to do when I get out. That's IF I get out.
I planned on going through advanced training after this but they accept students in January and being I was nearing completion, someone took it upon themselves to make the decision to send me out of here fearing I would finish and not have anything productive to do with myself until January (or so they say). I could have slowed down even though I wasn't finished or going to anytime soon and so I ended up having to rush to get finished by October and it was pretty late September I found out about this because they have been telling me I was projected for November.
Now that advanced training, college, or transferring is out of the question, I have nothing else to do but go back to my sis or father (I choose my sis) and find a job. They live in a mountain area where there's barely a city or a large population in site making job search difficult.
My sis has been having problems with her husband for the past few years and keep running back to him every time after swearing to me she's leaving him. THEN I hear she's having ANOTHER child!!! I mean WTF!!? They are barely surviving now! Now none of them work and because I'm coming back, they keep talking about how soon I can get a job like I'm going to be supporting them. I have my own agenda and I couldn't even if I wanted to. I mean I will help out a little but I'm not doing everything. I HATE it when people use me (it's happened too many times before). I'm SO fed up with this. Everytime I need them, they never pull through. I wanted them to see my thriller performance which we did last weekend and this weekend. We were doing 5-6 shows a night so they could have made at least one. But no, I didn't let it get to me. I try not to make a big deal out of things. I ask them to make it to my graduation ceremony tomorrow but yet they say they'll try (TRY) to get here afterwards. WHY THE HELL ARE THEY WAITING TIL AFTER!! The steam is seaping out of me and I'm afraid I can't stop it. It takes me a while to get to this point and there's a lot of things that has gotten me far enough. THen they have the nerve to ask me to pay for the gas to get here.

Do I have a right to be upset? I mean no, I'm not complaining to them or being dissagreable, I just told them to get here when they can, as long as they get me tomorrow or I will be forced to take a bus the next day and I have a lot to carry. I wouldn't have had a lot but because of all the crap I had to do to prepare for my graduation moment, I couldn't go visit them to take some of my things over early on. I hate when plans don't come together or when people act like they don't give a **** about you and act like there was nothing they could do instead of tell the truth. I hate when people lie to me and make me seem like the bad guy when I say something about it or if something goes wrong.

I asked before about if they would be able to pick me up last week but they keep saying something's wrong with the car. Something's ALWAYS wrong with the car when someone asks for their assistance unless it's one of his family members. He suggested that he could contact a friend but he couldn't know at the moment so I couldn't sign up to leave the following day. Then the next day i hear that my sister has been trying to call me because they were coming to get me. I was shocked because I wasn't even ready and there was no way I could have left without signing a pass and it was too late. Then she had the nerve to hollar at me because they had to turn around and go back. I never done anything wrong to anyone yet I am treated like a stranger who no one can stand or trust. I feel like I'm being a burden to them which I warned them about before I decided to move up there with them. My dad wasn't going to keep me around. They said it was okay (they actually urged me to come) but now it's like they don't want me around. How could he choose his brothers when I clean their house everytime I come by because it's so messy and his brothers don't do anything but sit around and play video games with him or watch movies and eat all the food. I watch the baby when they need to or run arrends. I even drove for them when his license was suspended and he got caught trying to drive to Philly and I'm not even familiar with PA to drive comfortably. He never asks to borrow my things and he destroys them and doesn't man up to his mistakes. Just gives more excuses and my sister plays along taking his side knowing how uncomfortable I am with people going in my things when I'm not around. I'm not stengy, I just don't trust him that well and look at the result.

I'm tired of having to depend on people when I can never get a bit of respect from anyone I come across. People say I'm too soft but the moment I change up, I'm a horrible person for it when they are no better themselves. I'm sick of the guilt being put on me for things that aren't even my fault. No one in my family is dependable or can keep their word and because I don't know what I can do yet before I can live as an independant home owner.

If anyone knows, please tell me! For living in PA. I can't take it, I really can't. If you have information, please share. I'm losing it in this loop of unfortunate events. I tried everything I could think of to help it but there's something I'm missing, something I'm lacking that could help me through life. Share your thoughts... what do you think?

Greetings all, how are you?

I just have a small message for you all:


As you may or may not know, I am stilll working on the comic project of my watchers and other aquaintances. I have someone assisting me with the designs for the outfits. Please check out  vivianyte if you are interested in seeing the developments of your character's for the story. No, we don't have outfits for all the characters yet but stay with us and you'll see. Just in case, I'll send yours in a note. Also know that these styles aren't the finals.
She's been wonderful working with these designs with me.

Let us know what you think of what we have so far. Maybe the next customizations will be adjusted to your liking if you you want.

Thank you all and have a great day!

How is everyone? Good weekend?

I really feel like a sitting duck right now. My apologies for those who have still yet to recieve their requested works from me. Just know that I haven't forgotten about you guys and will have your things submit once I get to a scanner which should be at my next break which is Labor day. So if you could wait a little longer everything will come together. I thank you for your patience.

Things have been going pretty fast for me. I'm almost finished with my trade in Keystone's Job Corps Center. I started 9th of December and I'm almost out. I am almost complete so I have planned on transferring to advanced training. If plans go accordingly, I should be moving from Pennsylvania to Edison, New Jersey.
It would be really nice if I could meet anyone from here who lives there or nearby. Those of you who have friends on here who lives out there, I'd be interested in hearing about them also.
But I should be leaving in September. But that is only if I'm accepted, if I am not accepted, I will graduate from here normally in October and wait til January classes for advance training unless another opportunity comes up.

The comic project is comming along well also, I'm having the story written up. It's in its rough stages. I can tell you at this point that there will be a lot of chapters once in comic form. Thanks to you all who will be apart of this experience and for sticking with it. I'm not the fastest artist here but it will definately pay off in the end. So thank you for your support and understanding.

Also, there are more characters to add to the roster so those who don't see themselves up on the roster yet, I have to add you haven't been forgotten.

Thanks

Just want to say Have a great Independance Day everyone. I'm working on a drawing right now for it.

I'm trying a lot of new things here so hope you all will like and enjoy the rest of your day. Thanks