So, I haven't used this account in so long I'm going to create a new one. I'll add it to my profile saying I moved to the new one when it is ready. Thanks everyone.

Okay, as active as I wanted to be on here, I am starting pretty much from scratch and here's why.

In September, I fell ill and had to go from work to the hospital. Several months and hospital trips later, they found I had a herniated disc from degenerative disc disease and a disease called Syringomyelia (won't waste time explaining here, please use Google). I also developed epilepsy.

This past week, I had two major seizures over a few days span. The first wiped the entirety of my memory except for the last person I was thinking about before it happened and sent me to the hospital due to respiratory failure that my husband had to resuscitate me from. I regained memories VERY slowly up until the third day where another seizure stole the entire long term memory capacity and again caused respiratory failure (again, husband saved my life). So, that's where we are at now. I have memories only of the two closest people in my life and can recognize some faces and acknowledge having known them at one point, but have no memory of who they actually are or what I did with them in the past.

The neurologist said I may only regain up to 5 years of my past and that the rest is most likely gone for good.

So yeah, fresh restart, but not really? So don't be offended if I don't recognize you... And I'm going to try and use this account more because I want to get to know more people and make new friends in the fandom.

Well, it's been a year since I even posted anything on here and it's been a very busy year at that! To start, I worked at my local Disney Store for the Christmas season and then decided to apply to Disney World with my fiance at the same time... Surprisingly, we both got the jobs! So, we began our move down to central Florida. We had things planned out and set up to where we'd be doing great and living with some of our friends down here, but those plans fell through. Oh well, it was what it was and we frantically had to search for a place to live that we could both afford. Good news was, we found one! Now we've finally settled into our new place, we've been here for a couple of months now and things are going pretty darn good! I've also started on my Masters degree, so that's going to be an interesting endeavor. I still want to start up my YouTube channel thing, but I want to make an icon/logo for it and I also want an intro sound file for it that I will make myself before getting too heavy into it... With Shadow Play from Nvidia, that makes the recording of my gameplay and everything so much easier to manage! I might run a few test runs and upload them to start, but we'll see. I really want to plan this out and not just go randomly jumping into the YouTube scene lol... Anyway, there's the update... I do want to draw more, but I'll have to find the time for all of this fun stuff! :)

I've decided to make a YouTube channel dedicated to the things I love and love to do/watch. Now, I know a lot of people have done this before and a lot of people have made a living off of it and if that's at all possible, then great, but for the most part, I just want to do something in my spare time that I enjoy and can try to keep everyday life enjoyable instead of the usual mundane 9-5 kind of deal... So yeah, I don't know what it will be called or when I will get started on it, but it's going to be a rather interesting first attempt at it and we'll see how it goes :)

So, I've been thinking about this a lot lately and I definitely want to start branching out more. What do I mean about that? Well, I want to start drawing and get better so I can do commissions and stuff and I definitely want to start a Youtube channel. I also kind of want to start making fursuits, but that one is a project for another time... Anyway, I'm going to try and get started on these things, I just don't know how good at them I'll be lol.

I'm going to just say this one time to get it off my chest and if anybody disagrees that's fine... It IS just an opinion quickie... But if you come to a public fur meet and the event that the meeting occurs at is a family friendly event... DON'T WEAR YOUR DOG BONDAGE FETISH STUFF TO THE EVENT!!! There are FAMILIES here! With children! Nobody needs to see that garbage and you should just keep it in the bedroom! Let me be clear... I don't care that you're into that at all, I'm all for fun play in the bedroom... But BE MINDFUL OF THE PUBLIC!!! This is what sets furries back when we all complain that people label us as sexual deviants... And if you are super sexual, GREAT! BUT KEEP THAT AWAY FROM THE FAMILY FRIENDLY PUBLIC EVENTS!!! You're making things seriously bad for the rest of us and you're just making the people at the event (not the furry group, but the families at the event) extremely uncomfortable... Seriously guys... Think before you act and please don't wear bondage stuff to public family friendly events...

My apologies for being so silent for the past few months.... It has been an absolutely insane year since my last post... A lot has gone on and I will spare the details, but I'm applying for law school and plan to start in the spring so I've been studying for the LSAT (which I just took last week) and preparing for a LOT of changes coming up... It's been a very long and tiresome process! Anyway, hopefully I can find some time to keep up my writing (as I promised the story featuring my fursona which has also been altered a bit) and to practice my drawing so i can produce more accurate and fun pieces of work :) Whelp, it's off to do more work and hopefully I'll be a bit more active on here soon :)

I'd say that since I joined the community life has been so much better... and that would be the truth when it comes to the community itself... but life outside the community continues and at times that outside life sucks... especially being Therian and feeling even more out of place than I otherwise would... anywho...

I've already shared how I was raised and how that pretty much meant I could never really be myself and how I've been figuring out who I really am as a person and as a furry...

Turns out I'm gay... And I'm perfectly happy being able to openly say that and really be myself... but with that comes all the new experiences and fears and... well... complications...

See, I want to be myself and I'm tired of hiding... but I can't exactly come out to my family since my family is the way they are... To make matters even more confusing and complicated I've gone and fallen head over heals for someone and it was completely unexpected and I'll spare all the details, but long story short, as important as I've become to him and as much as he says he loves me, I was already too late and he's already got someone I would never be able to be... it's more complicated than that and a lot of shit happened and like I said I'll spare the details, but I still love him to death...

I really don't want to do the dating scene again and I'm seriously tired of everybody I fall for basically being able to suddenly be happy and taken from me by someone else... I also refuse to date anybody who isn't a furry and who doesn't understand all my interests (both sexual and in general)...

I don't know... there are just... complications... and I'm tired of being so alone...

So, I've been getting more and more comfortable in the furry community since I first went more public with my furry fandom a few weeks... Time has flown, I've met some awesome people who have helped me transition into the community, and I have finally felt like I could completely be myself for the first time in my life... Why is that such a big deal to me? Well, because of my upbringing and family and religion and stuff, I've been forced to keep my true self hidden from a young age and have never been free to truly explore who I really am... And that royally sucked because it was like I was living everybody else's life or at the very least what they expected me to be or become... I have no doubt I have amazingly great things ahead, but I can't keep hiding myself deep inside... That's EXTREMELY painful and destructive...

Okay, so that being said... I'd like to just be very open for a minute if that's cool with everybody...

I am Greed. When I was young, I growled, I barked, I even bit those who threatened me in a fight. I've always felt a connection with the wolves and always felt like it went deeper than just a simple fascination. When I was 12, this connection became even stronger and I began to have dreams and began to notice that I shared a great deal of personality traits with the wolves I felt so connected with... But, I never was able to pursue any of this nor did I have any direction or knowledge of what was going on...

At 12, I had a very short and abrupt conversation with my mother about it... My family is Christian, just so you know where this is going... I had asked my mother about same sex relationships and about sex changes... Things a 12 year old normally wouldn't ask... I got an early start apparently... Well, not only did she put the hammer down on THAT discussion, she was equally upset about my connection with wolves and my suddenly acting like one from time to time... Everything was wrong, God was right, Scripture forbid it, and that was the end of the discussion...

I got into furry art shortly after that (I'm not talking about me loving Disney or stuff like that, even though I did, I'm talking about the more... well, "intimate" stuff)... I'll skip ahead now and spare a super detailed story, but it involved being "programmed" by my parent's belief system, Greed taking an extreme beating on my behalf (he's been with me for a long time, just taking what I couldn't stand and if that's strange, so be it... He's my guardian as much of a jerk he might come off as), and a LOT of confusion while having to hide who I really was...

So anyway, down to the open and "nitty gritty" I suppose :3

I am Greed. I am a wolf Therian. I am bisexual. I am loyal to an extreme and very protective of those I consider part of my pack. I am strong and can take a beating for those who cannot. I defend those who cannot defend themselves. I am vicious if put into a situation where I must be and playful and calm in situations that do not call for being vicious. I fight to provide for those under my care. I am kind, loving, and gentle. I am no longer captive to the bonds that were placed on me. I am free. I am happy. I am Greed... And I will gladly have you if you will have me...

So there it is everybody... Thanks for letting me get that off my chest... Feel free to chat with me, I am a social wolf after all and I don't bite ;3

Catching Million Ways to Die at my local small town 2 screen style theater! I love this place :) They have beer and wine and that seems like a match for this movie lol :)

Found some peeps to share a room with and that will confirm my attendance at Megaplex 2014! Special thanks to ApolloWolfmaster for helping to get this all arranged!

If you're going, let me know and I'll see you there :)

Found some peeps to share a room with and that will confirm my attendance at Megaplex 2014! Special thanks to ApolloWolfmaster for helping to get this all arranged!

If you're going, let me know and I'll see you there :)

Ever have that moment when you're drawing something and you've got this really awesome image in your mind of how it should look and everything is going JUST RIGHT.... Then you mess up just enough to where the whole thing is ruined? If you have, then you know exactly how I feel right now... I am SO CLOSE to FINALLY putting an image to Greed though! Must keep trying!

Hey everybody! I wanted to go ahead and give the opening moments of my story for my fursona Greed as a little sneak peak treat! Eventually after I learn how to draw furry characters I will make it into a comic book as well. So, without further ado, here it is!:

Greed The Exicutioner:
Part 1
A Night of Regrets

A storm was on its way. A terrible storm that would bring with it a night that would never end for Greed. As the storm began to grow worse, lightning flashed and thunder rolled quickly illuminating the forest around him for a brief moment. In this moment, the lone wolf walked through the mud and rain. His shirt was in tatters and his pants were ripped and torn at his knees as if quickly expanded to their breaking point. Mud was caked on his lower legs and the rain washed over his fur. Another flash of lightning and another crack of thunder revealed a large gash on his chest along with two smaller gashes on each side of it as if a pair of claws had torn into his skin. Blood mixed with the rain and ran down his body, pooling into puddles of water and mud leaving a trail behind him. He continued to walk weakly down the path in the darkness. Another flash, another clap of thunder. His left eye was revealed to have another gash across it and more blood leaking from the wound. It was now impossible to tell whether or not his black fur had red mixed in or if it was simply the blood coming from his wounds. He stumbled as he tried to continue, slowly losing his consciousness. After taking a few more steps, Greed collapsed into the rain and mud, completely blacked out…


Hope you guys like it and I can't wait to continue the story! Hopefully I will have time to release each part either weekly or bi-weekly, but who knows? We'll get there when we get there :)