COMMISSION INFO

New Commission prices! Due to how much my art is improving, I felt the need to do an update of my prices..
So, here's the commission info for 2021!!

Full Body (Feral/Anthro): $10 (Includes coloring/background of your choice)

Full Body (Human): $12 (Includes coloring/background of your choice)

Headshots (Human/Anthro/Feral): $4

Busts (Human/Anthro/Feral: $8

Multiple characters (2+) are $2 each

Turn out will be varied but it will never take me more than a month to complete your request. Please be patient 🙂 I work hard on my art and I want to make sure you get the best product from me.

NO NSFW/nasty things. I won't do it. So don't ask.

Payment is required PRIOR to me starting the commission. I'll send you my paypal privately. Prices are in USD

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I GOT PAIRED WITH A COUNSELOR

HOLY FUCK
I JUST GOT AWESOME NEWS?
MY SUPPORT WORKER FOUND COUNSELLING FOR ME.

I-

HOLY SHIT.

February 5th 2021

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Perma-cut from toxic dad tonight. I wrote him a massive email, telling him how I felt and made him accountable for the way he treated me over the years. He tried to guilt-trip me and make me feel terrible, along with doing emotional manipulation... Ain't gonna work, not this time. He's a poisoned branch that has been cut from my life for good. I have a massive weight off my shoulders after tonight.

An official new dawn has risen in my life, without too much darkness. I'm proud of myself.

---A week later---

Today is Feb. 13th 2021, and I'm feeling good. A week ago I cut all ties from my emotionally and mentally abusive dad. From grade 8 onwards, it was like all hell broke loose in the emotional/mental side of things and it just went to hell that has had long lasting effects on my mental health, my emotional well-being, along with a slew of other issues. Due to a bi-weekly wellness check I'm doing online on a mental health site that's been recommended to me, I gained the strength to call my father out on everything he did, and even my support workers were proud of me for doing what I did. I haven't felt this light in a long time, and I feel like I can finally move on and really start living again ^_^

Opening some commissions. If you need examples of my art, please refer to my gallery


Please send me a note with what you'd like if you'd like a piece. I'm only taking a few at a time so I can get things done in a timely manner.

I will ask for payment prior to doing the piece and I'll send you my paypal via the note system


Headshots that are human or animal/furry are $4-BG and Coloring included

Full bodied (animals/furries) are $6-BG and Coloring included

Human Characters (fullbodies) are $8, with additional characters being $1 each-BG and Coloring included.

I hate today, i fucking hate it and I just burst into tears, It's a damn good thing I can type without looking at the keyboard
Tomorrow on the 16th is the 1 year anniversary of surrendering my cat Benjamin and I can't stop crying
It hurts so much still
so fucking much
Don't tell me I was a good cat mom for doing what I did, that doesn't help the pain of having to give him up and not knowing what happened to him after. I've had no closure on it at all

My heart legit hurts over this and I may not be around a lot for a few days >< I just...this is still a huge process as I'm still grieving giving him up.

I won't really be posting any 'completed' work in the next little while, just thinking I may do rough sketches/drafts and upload them on here, I might complete them at a later date, or I might not. I enjoy the more 'rough' looking work anyway :)

As of October 5th 2020 I've officially opened adopts! They go for $10USD each. I've got more coming (it's gonna be a bit slow, designing takes a while) but right now as of writing this entry, I have 1 adopt open (CURRENTLY) but am working on more.
Links are below if you want to check it out!

Payment is by paypal which I will note you once you express interest :) You'll have 24hrs to send the payment after I send you my paypal info :)

Black Tiger Gryphon (still unsold!):
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38459851/



Blue Jay Gryphon was sold to fitzsergal

As of October 5th 2020 I've officially opened adopts! They go for $10USD each. I've got more coming (it's gonna be a bit slow, designing takes a while) but right now as of writing this entry, I have 2 Gryphon Adopts open.

One is a Black Tiger Gryphon, the other is a Blue Jay Gryphon.

Links are below if you want to check it out!

Payment is by paypal which I will note you once you express interest :) You'll have 24hrs to send the payment after I send you my paypal info :)

Black Tiger Gryphon:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38459851/

Blue Jay Gryphon:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38534561/

Planning on making some adopts.

I'll make a batch of 3 to start, and if those sell, I'll make some more.


They'll be $10 each ^_^

I'll be posting them in a new file called Adopts, it'll take me a few days to make them, but I'm really excited as I haven't made adopts in quite a while, and I'll be using a base from detruo :)

Hopefully you guys will like what I make. I love designing things and this'll really be a fun challenge!

I want to start this off as first saying this is a straight up vent and I just need to get frustrations out. I don't wanna have advice or anything, I just need to vent and let shit out.

I'm tired of being below the poverty line, of barely having enough to get by every month in terms of food and money and it jsut makes things hard and when I run out of both, my mood dips and I get frustrated because I don't like asking for 'handouts' or help as I've asked for help before and people have thrown it back in my face saying I should find a job and pull myself up by my own bootstraps essentially. Even when working I was constantly broke because I could only work part-time due to my energy levels. Yeah it gave me a sense of purpose and a sense of being able to do things but I still wasn't making enough to really get by.

People can say 'oh you could have gotten a second job' but my mental disability prevented me from doing so. I have something called FASD and I need to be focused on one, and ONLY one task if I'm working. I get easily flustered and overwhelmed and finding a second job at the time wasn't possible because of these issues. I had to quit a job I loved last year because of the company not supporting people with disabilities/not caring about their issues.

There has been a lot going on the past couple of years that have made my mental health decline quite a bit and I"m still dealing with that, I want to find a job, but I exited the employment program in my support program because I need to focus on my mental health and getting over this utter sense of sheer betrayal and feeling like I'm not good enough anymore.

I messed up badly at the beginning of the year and lost a lot of friends because of my actions, so I'm trying to recover from that, along with family issues that have made it hard for me to feel like I belong anywhere, and when people are genuinely nice to me or offer to help me, it's hard for me now to accept that because what if it blows up in my face again?


Right now I'm struggling a lot, and feeling like I'm not a good enough friend or Rper or anything of that sort because things just...have gone so wrong this year and I don't know where the good is anymore, so if I'm lamenting a lot or anything, I'm sorry. I just...I've been bottling a lot up inside lately, saying I'm okay when I'm really not, and just...not really talking much ><.

This isn't a pity party for myself or anything, I'm just trying to get thoughts and emotions out that I've been pushing down for a while.

If you've read all this...just know I am trying my best and just trying to get by >< I'm not perfect and I never claimed to be. I've made mistakes, but I'm trying to be better.

The Art by the ocean thing I was supposed to do tomorrow has been cancelled thanks to the heavy smoke in the air. I'm frustrated and angry but, not much I can do I guess, I'll just chill at home and art.

The smoke from the US wildfires have crept up here. It's gotten so bad that we're under an Air Quality warning. We're being told to keep our windows closed and limit outdoor activity. It's a bit scary, but I'm hoping the wildfires don't actually spread to here, as we really don't need that. I'm unable to do much but I hope people in the US are staying safe as such a widespread wildfire is terrifying.

Just, stay safe out there, okay?

Next Wednesday (september 16th) I'm going out with my disability support group to do art by the ocean. We'll be practicing social distance of course as that is still strongly in effect here along with masks being mandatory in stores.

I'm excited because I love art and I love to paint so I'm bringing along my two canvases (one small and one bigger) to it along with my mini easel, my paints, and my brushes and I can't wait to do art outsode and hopefully get some inspiration.

I may just bring my water colors along as well due to the blending qualities of it and oceanic scenes are a particular favorite of mine to do :)

Monday August 24th 2020.

Stepmom had severe food poisoning while camping. Got whisked away by the ambulance. She blacked out 3 times. 3rd time I had a panic attack because I thought she stopped breathing. The first time camping in years....and it goes downhill on the first night.....

Tuesday August 25th 1:27am.

My panic attack from earlier has made me hyper-vigilant and unable to sleep. I almost want to scream but I can't. My nephew is asleep beside me and the dogs are asleep at our feet. I can't sleep and I want to stay awake in case people try sneaking into our campsite.

The host is nice and has done a lot for us already and has invited my nephew and I over for breakfast in the morning. We accepted as he wants to help us make phone calls. The only problem is stepmom has the RV keys in her purse (and she's at the hospital) so I don't know how we are going to get home. It's stressful and difficult..

I just.....don't know what to do. This is hard and I want to protect Aidan more than anything....it has been an exhausting night but my mind won't stop....it won't shut up and I hate it.

Tuesday August 25th 2020 9:30pm

Stepmom got back to the camp site safe and sound but I was in the motorhome for most of the day due to the heat and needing to read and just shut my mind off for a while and engross myself in my Magnus Chase book by Rick Riordan.

After the sheer panic attack last night I needed to blank out and force my mind to relax. I took a nap after but I'm still a bit frantic mind-wise. Stepmom is still dealing with the after-effects of food poisoning but hopefully we'll do stuff a little tomorrow. We go home Thursday morning.

Wednesday August 26th 2020

Had bacon, eggs, and pancakes for breakfast. It was very good. Had a decent sleep last night. Today is another day of relaxing. We're having chicken legs and pasta salad for dinner so I'm looking forwards to that.

Aug. 26 8:20pm

Packed up most of the motorhome after dinner and dishes, now I'm sitting by the fire after I spoke sternly to my nephew about disrespect. We leave tomorrow morning which means I'll be home early.

Keeping my nose out of politics for the most part and just focusing on other things such as art, gaming and watching gaming vids on youtube and watching streams on twitch, along with keeping my mindset as positive as possible and good things happening the past 2 wks has helped a lot and I'm doing my best to stay as positive as I can.

With my GF and I talking pretty much every night and her being closer than ever (she only lives 6 hrs away now and plans to visit once the borders are reopened) I am seeing a lift in my overall mood and mindset. Not to mention I'm reading every day due to a daily goal app.

It's helped me a lot to do reading every day as I find it extremely stress-relieving along with listening to music I enjoy. I'm hopeful things will get better in the long run-we just need to get past this tumultuous time in history.

Stepmom risked the Covid thing to drop off a heating pad for me yesterday and...she had a possibly cancerous lump on the side of her jaw and I've been completely shut down since, trying to process this. She's gone to the doctor but she can't get a CT scan or anything at the hospital due to this virus....


She already has tumors in her lungs....(Masticized, they're not sure where it originated from, she's been dealing with it for a while and it's slow-growing but still...it's the big C.)

I'm absolutely terrified and upset that I'm going to possibly be losing the only person I consider a parent.

I know I haven't always gotten along with her, or anything and I've been trying not to talk about it as it's her personal info and what she's going through, but it's been scary, especially when she has other problems like an immune compromised body, asthma, and other things. This whole Covid-19 thing has kept me in self-isolation and it's mostly to protect her and my nephew.

My anxiety has been rather bad and my sleep has been really screwed up. Depression's been sneaking in because I could at least leave the house here and there if I wanted to but now due to over 1200 (1266 actually..) cases province-wide with 40+ deaths and 79 cases on the island I'm living on, I'm terrified of just leaving the house in fear of contracting it and even people without immune compromised systems have died from it, so yeah, I'm scared. Just leaving the house with my support worker once a week is enough to set my anxiety off.

This damn virus needs to go the hell away.

I'm going insane and my thoughts won't stop, anxiety has me thinking of the worst case scenario in this and it's a very real worst case.

I've been listening to a lot of music and talking to the friends I have when I'm able, along with keeping in contact with my GF but...I'm starting to think I'll be doing this for months....this virus isn't going away anytime soon.

I haven't talked a lot about it, mostly because it stresses me right out, but, I've been self-isolating since this thing was announced. My health is alright, but I don't want to risk getting sick anyway because even with people not having compromised systems, there have still been people dying from Covid-19 that have no prior health issues.

This doesn't just affect the people that are immune compromised, it affects everyone and with my stepmom having a bevy of issues herself, I've been calling her to check up on her and make sure she and my nephew are doing alright, they've barely left the house at all.

So, I've self-isolated in order to avoid this for as long as I can. I was terrified of leaving the house on Wednesday for my monthly shopping trip and frankly, if I had been able to get my groceries delivered, I would have done that but all the delivery and pick up slots were taken so I had to go into the store.


This whole thing has had my anxiety acting up and it's been hard to focus on things a lot so I've been a bit frantic, but I'm trying to push through this and just stay in contact with people over Discord and twitter.

I'm taking this stuff pretty seriously, and I hope everyone is staying safe too, please don't go outside unless you absolutely have to, and you needn't worry about your pets, they can't carry the virus or catch it! So just take care of yourselves and your feathered, furred, or scaled babies and give them all the love they deserve, they're probably ecstatic you're home and able to spoil them.

On a further note, I've been trying to game a little more and catch up on shows on Netflix which has helped a little to distract my mind from the crisis at hand, this stuff is terrifying, and I know a lot of people are scared, I've noticed staying away from the news and media helps a bit, so, that's another thing I've been doing as much as I can.

Due to having extremely low food and no money until next week...I've gotten a little bit of help from family and my support program.

My stepbrother e transferred me $50 for groceries after my support program gave me $30 which helped me get celery, green onion, miracle whip, tuna, and bread and cheese

So, I'm going to be using that $50 for grocery shopping tomorrow . It'll help a lot, and I'm so grateful that there's good people out there that'll help if someone needs it.

Human kindness among all of this darkness, it gives me hope. I've been so stressed and anxious about all of this, my anxiety has been sky high and I've been shaking a lot and just thinking frantically and thinking of worst case scenarios.

My anxiety is bad right now so if I'm over explaining or explaining things wrong I'm sorry...or in this case I apologize for the rant ahead. It's hard to think clearly at the moment and I'm doing all I can to keep from freaking out because the constant reminder of this damn virus is getting to me.

Stores are low on food in general and I have a $150 food bill next week so I can last until next month on April 22nd because that's my next disability payment and people haording supplies and food is making it harder for others.

Fucking think of others before you go buying out entire sections of stores.

Stop fucking being selfish and not thinking of others that also need those supplies you're buying out in a panic.

From Feb. 27th- My Support Worker is a miracle worker. We got my kitchen cleaned up and all junk taken out AND we filled out the counselling intake form and she's taking it back to the counsellor's office.

I am so, SO happy right now that I got stuff done :D

Just need to wait for a phone call now. I'm slowly working on getting the rest of my place clean, but my head already feels much more clear now that my place is cleaner.

Texted my support worker about possibly seeing a therapist in the near future, and she found one that I can go to. Just need to go to the therapist's office when I see her next and fill out an intake form.

First step has been taken. :)

Hopefully I can get to the root of my issues and work on everything, I have a lot I need to work on...

So fingers crossed.

I keep forgetting to upload stuff onto FA so I'll be uploading a lot of things in the next few days (mostly of my Fursonas/OCs among other things) , so please keep a look out!!

Just working on things in general. Mostly my art and myself. I have been too encased in drama lately (family drama) and I need to move past it.