its offishal when i graduate im leaving every thing behind and going to the military i have nothing left to loose any more.... and im also cutting of all comunication between me an all family!!!!!! (heartless right) yah thats damn stright im fucking heartless towards my family!!!!! i guess thats what you get for being mentally played on for 18 years. (FUCK THAT) im a lone wolf in this world now all i have left are friends who are willing to help me out in any way shape or form. thanks to all who are in constant contact to see if every thing is fine.. ^.^ thank you and as for the family FUCK OFF AND IM OUTTA HERE WHEN I GRADUATE YOU FUCKING WORTHLESS PICESS OF SHIT!!!!!!!! WHO CANT EVAIN TREAT A CHILD CORECTLY!!!!! FUCK YOU GUYS!!!!

well im almost to my breaking point of all emotions ive keps for 18 years soon to be ofishally rock hard heart.. reson of being: well my fucked up dopped out mother!!! a constant down of depression that i put my self in to. and fake smiles that i five to people just so i can attempet to hide my past. the past is scarred on me and is faded a little. i could tell you some other things but im going to keep them to my self unless yopu despreatly need to know. all i have are my friends to help me now and i have as many as i can possably gather to help me like my own family has never acomplished i cant be in a relationship because i cant evain "love properly" (as sed by an x) but the real question what is love to me ive never properly experenced it before.. never... well another note im dooing better in school and will hopefully graduate in june (school name secret) its a contueation school (school of punks and assholes) well im dooing my upmost best as afurr in a school of racest un gratefull people who live of ther own parrents expecting every thing to be given to them. well change of subject!!!! life is alot better than before in my 18 years of hell and hopefully i get my life started in the right way after i get my own houst i never knew my own family and will probibly stop all comunication from them.. i would hate to do that but i haft to get away from the mind playing games and the fucked over people they know.. but i must start a new life and hope the turn for the worst dosnt hapen im gonna need all of the support i can possably get.. well hope to hear from all of you who love my sl character and will soon get some real art up that ive been dooing ^.^... have an exclent christmas and a happy new years if we get to a new year..

if people wernt so fucked up in the head about anything... well lets just say that im seeing more and more fucked up people these days. how are they fucked up you ask?? well simple the way they act in public to oathers is like embarresing. no "please" or "thank yous" and definetally no door holding!!!!! why the fuck would you go in and not concitor the person behind you!!!! fucking assholes!!!! and also the driving porson have you ever noticed the assholes on the streets not giving pedestrains the right of way, not letting oathers in front when you have a turn of coming making you literaly drive faster to race them just so you can get in front of them!!! fuck im just lucky i dont have speeding tickets because ive had to race people who are just being asses or not wanting someone in front of them im onely there for a minute!!!!! fuck and lastly kids in highschool worst ever.. why you ask?? because they find the smallest person or new person and fucking rant on them degrading them just so that there lives can feel better. well fuck that!!!!!! im fighting that you can talk behind my back all you want because i wont beleve some one else but talk about me next to me and ill say something to defend my self.. i've been in a lot of fights that way.. but the number 1 thing you never do is talk down to my friends in front of me number 2 is talk down to me. there will be some ass kicking no matter how big you are.. (just speaking) well there are assholes raised each day and you can try your best to ignore them but i garentee you youve allredy called them out in your head.. well i hope the assholes are stuped enough to find some one just as stubborn as them and duke it out to deth that will make smarter people avalable and think of better things to do besides being an asshole... (just speaking) besides that if youd like to coment feel free and send this to people you know if you want.. im not forcing you or pressing you. have a great day and a better life as you progress in your future. ^.^

fun is a saying we cant receive. i cant rap my had around the meaning fun. "if fun is enjoyment then enjoyment is a hobby' hobbies are what your good at. i still don't get it "fun sounds like trouble" cant spell fin with out "UN" "undisclosed ,unhappy ,unfaithful ,f.ucking u.nrated n.othing" "f.u.n" opposite of what they really are like i said still cant get my head around the word fun don't get me wrong everyone else has a different meaning for "fun" you can think its fun but think twice about the "UN" just punning. weather your having "FUN" or not have it it always doesn't last long "enjoy" it while it lasts.

ecnomic is the industery of the nasion and or with the goverment the govern ment is horiable. governmentis also trying to depleet gay pride. now th is horriable i mean let the people b gay or stright im starting to think the government is folowing hitlers law on the perfict nation well off tht subject. for now.

well hers my life. ill keep it short.

i was born on a pentagram and im litarly satins little gift but i would like to change but cant. well yadda yadda yadda jumping to conclusion: i was born into an abusive family. but all emo has a family thts abusive but not true.. theirs others tht r just hating thier lives... because the 1 thing was wrong, well suck it up u can still run your lives with out tht spshal girl or tht spshal program i dont care just suck it up wanna-b. and for those with the real problems johin gay pride and b one with your inner selves and rejoice and prove we can get far in life with gay honer and gratitude.

also if this gets longer then u no Ive been on piece furies and the gay's u guys rock... stay away wanna-B's and fucking die

your friend schneider6677 / Jared Schneider