lol i don't use fa at all anymore but i need to update the page

I want everything to stop. I'm trying and anxiety and just everything is so overwhelming right now and between just school, life, money, etc, I am just trying to live.

I'm not on FA much unless I'm checking art. Overall, I'm dropping this bomb with "it fucking sucks" but flip side, it's getting better too.

From end of May to August 21, I worked at my first actual job and it was great! I loved my co-workers and enjoyed my time there. I couldn't have asked for a better team.

A lot of myself after that kinda crashed once I hit college. Not that, you know, I hated it. Home life sucked a bit though after Dad brought this kid into our house. Mom and I felt a bit more separated from dad and i mean, mom felt neglected and I just felt things get tense between my dad and I more than it had. As soon as I got to college, things were picking up for myself until end of September. Turns out my parents separated and they're moving on. I also have been in a bit of financial issues right now too. so 2+ 2 = fuck. It's at least mutual between my parents and they're being cool, I think, and my money situation will improve soon.

I've been having a good social life here but it's kinda been hard bc i haven't exactly got anyone to comfort me and care for me the way i need them to. I wish I had someone here to just hold me and take care of me for a bit. Cuddling or whatever. I'm just glad I don't feel as alone as I have in the past. There's just a lot going on right now and even with the breaks, nothing exactly popped at me as one. I mean, I could use a break as in something completely new.

I miss friends and I wish I could see other friends.

It's going to get better though. I just hope I can get someone to whisk me away to fantasyville one night.

so tldr version for those who can’t read a lot

-depression is alleviating since i’ve been home, not gone but it’s been easier.
-Grades are good
-I’ve been playing Final Fantasy 6
-I have my old room back.
-Home alone this weekend
-Start job on Wednesday

More is right here

So hey, you all know me as Pepsi or Zach or w/e. If you know me as Pepsi or Sekaru, keep it that way please. Only rly close friends or people I know in person can call me Zach. Anyway, besides that, I’m done with college. It’s been entirely shit. Majority of my friends graduated and I’m happy for them. But now, I have to deal with them being gone next year and being on my own with less friends. Hahaha,,, Anyway, as I’m home, I’m feeling myself feeling a bit better about everything. Like a rock off my back. Though it’s not entirely better, it’s slowly getting there. It might be because I’m not stressed with college and I can relax and have privacy.

With that, my grades are doing well too. I’ll drop them here.
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I dropped out of Soccer so W is withdrew. I couldn’t put the time into soccer as everything else needed attention and I skipped majority of my classes [as much as I could, nearly failing due to absents] so I struggled and I managed to do well. I hoped I get a B in the two classes I got Cs in but I’m proud since I did work hard and sleepless nights went by, It’s a 3.0 for the semester so I’m good with how I did, overall GPA at a 2.49. I need 1.0+ for Cum Laude when I graduate.

On FF6, I’ve been playing it for a good bit since I’ve been home on break and it’s a really good story. I just am a bit overwhelmed with the amount of freedom and characters they shell out at you. I had to use a walkthrough for some of it to help me and double check my steps. Howerver, the story is great and really interesting. I hit that point in the game though it’s free time where you really sit down and grind your characters up and I need a good place to grind GP and exp.

Also, my cousin moved out of the house and now she’s out and I have my old room back after she taken it for the past 3 years from me since I’ve been at college. It’s ludicrous how it feels. I’m literally back in this room where memories were made and furniture was replaced. I wanna get new furniture for this room and open it up. Desk/dresser, big futon/couch combo, etc. The bed takes up so much space where the dresser has like 0 space to open. But hey, I’m glad to be back in this room [with a fan bc it’s so hot and fanless]

Since my parents are at the lake every weekend, I’m home alone this and multiple weekends which is cool. I’m needing some serious alone time in someplace other than my dorm. It gets depressing in there sheesh.

Also, I have a job starting Wednesday! It’ll be doing Graphic Design in Instructional Media… something. IMI is the initals and basically developing apps and designing layout for students. Designing is more where I’m going and i hope it goes well. I’m super nervous!

I gotta return the stuff

Icon done by theshoujoprince on twitter

anyway just
i'm just upset bc i got in a fight with a friend over break and i feel like they hates me. I'm rly scared to talk to them and idk what to say. I still have a game and comic i need to return at least if they want to cut ties. i won't force them to talk to me if they don't want but just
i don't want to leave this on bad terms

Am I a bad person?

So I'm 20. It was my birthday since the 26th and I just got Persona Q and a couple of games or cash from friends. It however, had a big emotional impact because I had a bad depression fit since thanksgiving and I felt very very despondent on Sunday morning until a bit after 2-3. Then I was fine until 12 am where I just was breaking apart for a while until this morning. I'm managing now and I had a whole fit about wanting people to pay attention to me on my birthday. But I'm back anyway and I'll try to upload commissions I get from others but please if I post a commission pls go like it on the artists page (if they one an FA)

yeah i'm back in school tho and two more weeks.

I also won $50 from amazon for being GameFAQs's Reviewer of the month.

Sure, why not.

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Buuuh so… uh…

This is my first official post opening story commissions. I don’t know how I’m doing this but right now I’ll write the story first and and decide payment by word amount. I would either charge $1 per 200 words and round depending on the next digit. So say it’s 3560, I’d charge $16. However, if you want a page limit, I’d be willing to make adjustments to say $5 per page. I’m aiming for $35 for magic 2015. If you pay for a page limit, I’d jump on the story asap. I can only do up to 5 pages for a one shot and only am willing to do one shots! I also will write a song for $5! No smut please!

Here’s some fandoms I’d be willing to write one shots with and ones I will not:
Fandoms I will:
* Total Drama (No Mike or PI characters)
* Buffy/Angel up to their last tv seasons (No Spuffy please)
* Orange is the New Black
* Kill La Kill
* Furry
* Digimon (No ships please but random adventures from the tamers or between digimon?)
* Pokemon (Mystery Dungeon like prefered)
* RWBY
* Kingdom Hearts (pls no ships)
* Soul Eater/Soul Eater Not!
* Persona 3/4
* Final Fantasy 7-10/13 saga
* Dangan Ronpa/SDR2 (No komahina or Ishimondo/Chihiro and mondo/killerxvictim pls don’t. Tho I can write a grusome execution for your oc and I’d be up for it I can do it, that can be negotiated)

Fandoms I refuse to do:
* Homestuck
* My Little Pony
* Supernatural
* Sherlock
* Doctor Who

I’m only comfortable writing feel good stuff and nothing too brutal or grusome. I can write like fights and stuff. It’s best to give me a scenario and what characters should I focus on.

If your OCs are involved, please describe how they should behave in 5 to 10 words, so I can work with them!
I'm offering a big special too right now!
If you purchase Tomodachi Life [digitally] or preorder one of 5 games for me, I'll write you 3-6 stories, depending on the cost! [up to 5 pages max, singled space]

Buy now: Tomodachi Life [3 Stories]
Preorder:
*Pokemon Alpha Sapphire [4 Stories]
*Persona Q [4 Stories]
* Persona 4 Arena Ultimax [PS3; 6 Stories]
*FF Theatrhytm Curtain Call [6 stories]
*KH 2.5 HD REMiX [6 Stories]

Please buy the game before I start and email me at zcline1951[at]gmail.com

idk

people being stupid
people stereotyping social justice peeps and defending the furry fandom even if some of it is garbage

idk nothing new

A lot of this is garabge FA is allowing.

Zaush admitted to raping and may God strike me down if I'm wrong because if furaffinity and their little shits decide to allow a rapist and an animal abuser be able to see everything on this site, then there's no help.

http://ransomdracalis.tumblr.com/po.....-ashes-im-gone

just read this.

I'm working on this in a different way. I'm going to find a way to make furaffinity pay.

Furaffinty is still as shitty as it can be and I'm not a popular fur so dragoneer will /never/ notice me.

Anyway two things.
What the fuck were you thinking in hiring someone with a shady as fuck background and no coding skills what-so-ever.
only reason I know this issue? Tumblr.

Besides the point though is that whenever someone claims rape, you do not fucking say they deserves it or tell them they're lying. I mean, maybe FA isn't the best place to bring it up at when half the people here don't fucking understand rape is basically sex without consent from a party involved. If there are multiple claims again Zaush, then why the fuck would you fucking hire him? LOL WAY TO FUCK UP FA. WAY TO GO.

Also, when you just hire someone because they're your friend or in terms, "basically hired adam and adam was a huge fuck and did nothing but, knowing nothing himself, talk down to the other guys who do it for a living and basically drove them away," there's a huge ass issue

that's my point from what i know though

FIRE ZAUSH.

~Saw someone who I am watching do this and I thought it would be fun to do~

What made you choose the species of your main fursona?
-I wanted to be a wolf originally but my friend considered I had more traits of a husky than a wolf and I liked huskies so... wulfski

Is your fursona just like you, or how you want to be?
-Similar but he's a huge baby and I'm a big nerd.

Does your fursona have the same personality you have?
- I guess. He's outgoing more than me and enjoys his friends and quality time.

Does your fursona have the same dislikes and likes as you do?
- p. much

Does your fursona look like you at all?
- He was based off me so you'll see some distinctive traits atching ine

Is your fursona the same gender as you, if not why?
- Nope. He's cismale. I'm agendered. Biological sex tho, we're the same

Do you have more then one main fursona?
- Nah. I have other fursonas/characters but the primary one is Sekaru

Do you have a back story for your fursona, if so does it have anything to do with your own history?
- Nope. I mean I do but I don't It's complicated

Is your fursona mated, if so is it to your real life significant other?
- yep yep.

If not are they looking for a mate, or are they a swinger so to speak?
- N/A

Is there something special about your fursona that you think sets them apart from others?
- Nothing special exactly. He's just Sekaru.

Do you have much art of your main fursona/s?
- A good bit. Not too uch

Would you ever consider parting with your main fursona, if so why?
-Nope. He's a piece of me i've grown to.

If you suit, do you have a suit of your main fursona?
-NOPE. SEE ALL THE MONEY IN MY POCKET BUCKLED IN TIGHTLY.

Have you ever roleplayed with your main fursona, or do you prefer not to?
- Yuppers. Especially with my mate B)

Do you consider your main fursona to be a part of you in any way?
- Yuppers. It's a bit complicated like I'm not otherkin but I mean I sometimes feel connected to my fursona. It sounds stupid I know but I imagine Sekaru as his own entity sometimes but still a piece of me. Especially with phantom tail and ears sometimes.

i guess we'll see what it'll be
no one will prob remember me

I'm just feeling tired of everything.
Bored of everything.
I just want to do something I normally can't.

I wish I could just focus on stuff without the need to think like this.
I love my friends dearly but me and another is fed up with majority of the group. Not that we hate them, oh no, we love them with all our hearts as friends and shit but just
they're driving them up a wall and i'm getting annoyed by little things.

i'm just tired a lot and i'm right now just staring into space
i want to do more art
i want to write more
i want to do all this but i don't have any fucking time because i either am too stressed to do anything i need to practice on or too tired to want to do it. i'm just ugh.
whatever

Well, some of the furs in the fandom anyway.

I'm really sorry that you're crying over a simple fucking request to NOT POST SUGGESTIVE/CREEPY/SEXUAL COMMENTS ON AN ADULT PIECE.

Here's the thing. Just because it is an adult piece such as fapping off, it does not give you the right to be a sexual creep who thinks just because it's an adult piece you can say that you want to fuck the character or because you can say "yeah here's my vivid fantasy in maximum detail."

When you get called out on it when it was requested to not say any of those things, I see the whines and complaints of "well he was basically asking for it when it was posted up" or "how do you expect us to hold back when HE allowed it to be posted." I'm sorry but WHAT?

slow the fuck down there sonic

what do you mean it was HIS FAULT? you need to shut the fuck up because this is why we can't fucking enjoy art in peace when you say shit like that. JUST BECAUSE IT IS ADULT ART DOES NOT IT'S FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR PLEASURABLE FAPPY MATERIAL. There is something called self-control. There are artists who draw porn for anatomy practice or art practice and just want to get criticism. There are people who get porn with them and their mate and yeah, sure people will fap to it if it's publically out there but DO YOU HAVE TO TELL US?

I don't wanna know if you wanna fuck the character or not and I mean, myself, I don't mind being called cute or sexy or what not but please don't tell me your most vivid fantasies if you see my characters.

ANOTHER THING, stop turning it where it sounds so comparable to rape. Rape is bad. It's not something that should be very fantasized about but people will be people. At the same time though not everybody wants their character fantasized about so again how about stop blaming them for not wanting comments like such above on their adult picture, how about you learn some self-control.

Done.

i make another weird hybrid cause i'm weird
Name: Yevon Allicaster
Sex: Male
Age: 31
Birthday: December 12
Height: 6’ 2"
Weight: 245 lb.
Blood Type: A
Sexuality: Pansexual, doesn’t care too much about the sex of the person.
Appearance: He’s a polar bear and penguin hybrid. The body of a polar bear with the skin and colors of a penguin, he has very slick skin. He’s slightly muscular, but a bit more chubby with a medium beer gut. He wears jockstraps underneath some baggy jeans. He also wears a polo button-up shirt [not buttoned] with a white tee underneath. He walks around barefoot. On his head, he has some snowy white short hair that is considered his “fur." His eyes are an icy blue and a rugged bear-like face with his penguin skin. He also has a stub of a tail that is also snowy white fur.
Personality: Yevon is a kind fellow who has a secret dirty side. He’s very much of a gentleman but a bit of a country boy too in terms of how he acts. He likes to drink around, go out on a lake to fish, be out in the country. He treats everybody the same in terms of politeness but if you fuck with Yevon, you’re fucking dead or might as well be to him. He also has a bit of a temper that is triggered by certain topics in conversations. He’s somewhat shy and very much a tsundere in terms of how he acts.

I need to get money for Animal Crossing: New Leaf and IDK what I can do. I can't draw but I mean I could write short drabbles for $2 each if you want. It'd be about a page long, double spaced with Ariel 11 Font. Every continued page is $2. So if you want me to write 15 pages, that be $30. I need excuse to write again too. I write anything. Poems, Haikus, Lyrics, Stories, etc. Pleeease

I honestly think it's dumb how people think it's an issue that adult art exists in the fandom or how there is not enough sex in the fandom or how people think it's okay to leave creepy comments on a clean picture without thinking "oh okay people won't mind."

I'm someone who thinks like this:
-Do what you want
- As long as it does
-- doesn't* harm others
-- makes you happy

Creepy comments tend to leave other people a bit upset, hurting them emotionally. If it's on an adult image, then I guess it's okay? but clean pls don't do that cause no one cares that you'd fuck the character/want to be fucked by the character. Honestly, please do not leave that in the comments.

Another thing that I get upset about is Rape jokes in the comments (i.e. "It's not rape if he's willing," "It's not rape if he likes it.") Rape is rape regardless if liked or not. If you force someone into something without their consent and make them uncomfortable, that is rape. The Deep Dark is a perfect example of everyone. Sea Salt is forced into (blackmail) an uncomfortable situation but becomes willing over time because idk stockholm syndrome. It's still rape. Stuff like this is why people get away with rape crimes in america. BECAUSE WE HAVE A MENTALITY TO VICTIM-BLAME AND JOKE ABOUT RAPE.

GG i'm done before I rant more

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OMNIOUS MUSIC
ERRIEE VOICE
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Oh my god it's so good.
It's a bit different from how they normally are but oh god those drums~
get it~!

i'm alive.
yay.

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I'M TURNING OLDER WHOOHOO