It's my 25th birthday ah yes

<3

And commission info updated, at long last.

I'll only take ten slots though, and no payment until I get the sketch out. I've been doing okay with working on commissions despite my job so far, so yeah. Confidence.

Slots:
1.  poobwon all the things <3
2. Dunbar @ WH One pose
3.  eternallyconflictedsoul colored headshot
4.  echelonsohma 'other'
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-Note: If you are on wolfhome, it might do you good to check out my commission thread there. Prices are different on account of poses and the like-

Btw, if you don't see what you'd like/would like things like torso-up to save a bit of money, just hit me up. I'm willing to work things out a bit, ok?

Stolen from  deerpuke

Name: Sam
Nickname: Mavu, Deca, Vince, Tits
Location: Cheese. I mean Wisconsin.
Age: 24, 25 on Aug 9th
Height: 5'3
Zodiac sign: Leo
Any pets: I have a cat and am a cat stepmom. We also have two dogs in the house, but those are our rommates' lul
Favorite thing about yourself: Uhm. My. Personality? idk
Worst habit: I dunno they are all bad don't be like me kids
Fun fact: my tits are bigger than my head and it's really a problem

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: Queer
Sexual preference: gynophilic pansexual(I prefer girls/girly things)
Romantic preference: idk i'm a ghey
"Kinsey Scale" score: n/a
Relationship status: In a relationship
Myers/Briggs type: i don't remember and honestly don't care enough to find and take the test again
Hogwarts house: Slytherin as well, yes

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": I'm an Early Owl. Really I just don't sleep.
Bath or shower: The one that is warmer
First thought in the morning: "Today I will successfully not get out of bed, hopefully"
Last thought before falling asleep at night: "I could really use some sex"

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: I work
What do you do well: Nothing much, really. I guess art. I do that alright.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: I can't even tell you where I'll be next month so probably dead, yeah?

Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: Probably too much. I've dialed it back a bit
Smoke: I vape. Very tasty.
Do Drugs: No
Exercise: *laughs until I throw up*
Have a go-to comfort food: uhm tuna? No, sushi. But that's expensive so usually tuna. Salmon is also amaze. Really, any seafood other than white fishes.
Have a nervous habit: pulling out hair

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): MY hella rad titties. But I also hate them because dysphoria, so... I guess my hair. My hair is pretty cool
In Others: Tha booty.
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): I really hate my mental quality, idk what you want from me. I guess I like that I can pretend to be happy really good and that I don't tolerate bullcrap.
Food: Sushi
Drink: uhm Bailey's but I guess root beer is also acceptable NO, IT'S APPLE JUICE
Animal: Snake. Cat too. And cuttlefish and squids but mostly Nautilus.
Artist/Band/Group: Studio Killers or Russkaya
Author/Poet: Oscar Wilde, or maybe Dean Koontz. I read mroe Dean Koontz but Oscar Wilde was a super cool dude yo
TV Show: NBC Hannibal
Actor/Actress: idk, I'm not enamored with actors/actresses
Blogger: Also NBC Hannibal, or Denny's

For a lot of things, lately. For the continued support of my watchers and for the help I've gotten IRL lately as well.  merr has been my saving grace in all of this, and my raging evil ex is banned from this site, and just, a lot of good things.

All good things. My depression has been lifted, and I hope to keep it that way.

hi new watchers and old watchers who are favoriting things aaaaah

FA makes me feel so loved

is that weird?

Stellary and I broke up like a week ago. I'm not broken up about don't worry, it's just how things are ;P

Anyway, I wish I could change my name without changing my account. I really hate account jumping, but like... Sethie isn't really me, is it? Hhhhh. I go by In5ovietRussia(or Russia) or Deca, really. I don't like my username not coinciding with what I'd like to be called, yeah? Ugh, dilemmas.

Idk, I've really been wanting to come back anyway. FA never personally did anything wrong to me and I miss my FA peeps. :x I'll debate a new account though. I'm not even sure if anyone will want to see my new art. idk ugh I feel like poo

Taken from the source,  bluenire, trying to get my mind off of my mood.

1.) Name the one thing/element you think helped you "get better" the best?(This could be anything from a technique, to a teacher, to an epiphany etc!) Open model sessions, if we're talking about a direct effect, and going to art school helped me more indirectly. Not so much the teachers and such, but having those peers with similar talents to me with all sorts of levels of skill and different styles really helped to encourage me to do different and better things. It wasn't even competitive, it was more just the fact that I could go to my friends and say "What about this is bad" and get some real, helpful critique when I most wanted it, and they all knew not to give critique when not asked because as artists they had the same feelings.

2.) Do you feel that you're confident "drawing in the round"(Ex: Able to draw a character in a convinceable 180 degree turn-about-sorry this question is here because it's what I struggle with the most!) ? If you are comfortable(-even a little bit) what do you think helped you the most? What sort of exercises helped you the most? No I suck at consistency.

3.) What REALLY inspires you the absolute most/best? When I have very vivid and inspiring dreams. My best drawings are meant to be worship for my gods or are meant to show something that I think is very important. Feelings. Feelings are what makes me do my best. Spur-of-the-moment, 'I have to do this now at 2am before I go to bed and forget' feelings. They are almost always bittersweet sort of inspiration.

4.) Why DO you draw? To communicate things that I can't put in words. And sometimes to make myself feel better, or other people feel better.

5.) Do you believe that anatomical study is important or do you feel it is overrated or gets in the way of style? I feel it's an absolute necessity and that it actually lends itself to creating a style. And it helps you to know what you like in a style too. For example, almost all of my drawings, though people will say I have 'good anatomy', are completely stylized. It's not noticeable to most anyone, but I give my characters short chins, their arms or torso are too long, and never match up according to 'correct proportions', and they are more than 6 heads tall on average. It's part of how I like to draw it, and not because I don't know it's off, I DO know, I just visually prefer it, and it helps to lend itself to diversity when you know more about a human body and how diverse it CAN be. The only time anatomical study is hurtful is when you are literally studying just one body type and learning everything about just that one type, and then only use that one type of body.

Realism is a style to develop too.

6.) Is having a unique/recognizable style important to you? I think so, but i'm not overly worried about it. I'd rather have a bland style that is like anyone else's than force myself to do something that doesn't flow well for me.

7.) If you do have a style, can you look back in your learning process and think of the elements that influences it the most? I can. I can see some of my early influences in my art now. Revolutionary Girl: Utena, Trigun, and Angel Sanctuary were all really dear to me when I was growing up. I can see the style influences in my art now, but it's changed with my introduction to realism and the whole big non-anime art out there.

8.) How do YOU, personally break art blocks? (if you even have them!) I generally wait for them to pass. Not in a 'passive' "Oh I'll get better" type way, but... the brain produces art blocks when something stresses you, so if something is really bothering you in your personal life, your brain will shut off the 'having fun' portion of your brain, and art blocks will occur. I find that when art blocks happen, it's because I'm going through great change and upheaval, and I need to get my life sorted out before I can make art again.

9.) What do you think makes a successful artist? (Hard working? Productive? Skill level?) I don't find myself very successful at all. On a better day, I would say it was my passion that makes me successful, but I don't feel that right now so...

10.) If you were free to emulate an artists style here on FA without being judged, who would it be and what is their style that is so attractive to you? I love a lot of artists here on FA, but I don't think I'd ever want to emulate their style. I'd love to adopt things from certain artists, like  squeedgemonster's bold and daring use of color and line weight,  neodokuro's amazing shading and ability to give real weight and volume with minimal visual complexities, and  centradragon's amazing use of shape and composition. But I'll never be those people or be able to do things just like they do and that's fine too. I need to find a way of doing it myself.

11.) Look back at the artwork you've done over the years, is there a "phase" you went through that sticks out as being "weird" or interesting? There were a lot of phases. I had a phase obsessed with men in dark makeup which I attribute to manga/J-pop stuff that I hardly remember.

12.) Art college: Have you been to one and in your mind, was it worth the time and $$ in your opinion? I went to SCAD and I could not recommend it any less. I regret it every day. Not because I didn't learn anything, but because I spent about $60k(counting my scholarship/grant, true debt is about $35-40k) and got cheated out of my degree, and there is no more bitter feeling than having a dream snatched away.

13.) Do you feel artists should stick to one another and teach one another? or do you feel that artists are just in one big competition for customers? I feel like artists competing for commissioners are the vast minority and that art is For Art's Sake and we should help each other to improve. Money is secondary. If we were in it for the money, we'd be Graphic Designers, adept at creating packaging and advertisement.

14.) Do you feel the internet (and the possibility of digital art being stolen/reused/etc) more of a blessing (exposure) or a curse(competition)? It's a double-edged sword. Having your art out there can bring you anything. Literally anything. Just from people seeing and commenting on your art, you can feel a range of emotion, good and bad, and you can do anything from get discovered by a big-name company to getting your ideas stolen and having the thief profit. But it's better than not ever showing anyone anything and feeling lonesome, I suppose.

15.) If you suddenly woke up and had superman/woman's powers, (you wake up with the physique and everything) what would you do? idk. Probably wear cute clothes and be super cute. And save cats from trees and rob a bank. Rob a thousand banks.

16.) If you could tell/give an young aspiring artist (maybe yourself when you were young) a "tool" that would boost their skill significantly going forward, what would it be? I'd tell you to draw naked people. Not from photographs, in real life. It just isn't the same in photos, I'm sorry, it really isn't. You can feel out the weight of a person for yourself when drawing in person.

17.) This isn't "tagging people to make them do this" but if there was an artist here on FA that you'd REALLY love to hear their answers to these questions, who would it be? :) (Can be a few people if you like!) I dunno. I never read these anyway.

I hate myself and I hate my art a lot lately

sorry for the absence here, it will continue for some time yet I think

I want to make some shoes that are reminiscent to the big curved blades(like the ones that are swinging traps in Skyrim).

Like they have the blades on the bottom kind of like ice-skating blades but they are not??? idk I need to draw them for things but I am really bad at SHOES, so if you have any ideas or maybe like references for something similar I'd be really grateful :C

wow look at my front page it is just purple oh my god

wweeeh

i need to learn to design with other colors fffs

how are you B-E-A-U-tiful people finding me oh my god

I am so weak

but in all seriousness, note me or something if you wanna add friends? I doubt anyone WILL but you know. Stuff. ;P

I'm a scrub

can't afford X and Y, but I recently got(back) into PokeMMO. I haven't gone through Victory Road yet, but meh. Anyone wanna pal around n trade pokemon and be dumb on PokeMMO with me?

I'm working on building a Ghost team, so no you can't have any of my ghosts :U

uuuuugggh

I drew some chibi spider characters awhile back and idk if I want them. I might sell them off for a lowish price, since I just kinda need money at the moment :C I'll upload them in a little while, or maybe tomorrow unless I forget

please stop making your characters so ~attractive~

it makes me want to make more characters and I just have too many as it is :U

EDIT: Wow I missed the first few questions! I thought it looked short >:U Taken from  likeshine btw

1. Why did you join FurAffinity?
It was a more open type of gallery. I don't LIKE censorship in the least, and FA allows pretty much everything.

2. What does your username have to do with you?
It is the name of a fursona of mine. You know, one of a million of them XD

3. What is your current avatar of?
My 'sona, smoochin all on the gf

4. How many watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?
I've got 828(wow!!!) and I watch 406

5. Do you have more than one account?
Yeah, but I mostly just use this one, so they aren't really worth mentioning.

6. Name 3 of your favorite artists on FA.
and

7. What artist do you admire because of their personality?
I really admire , she's just sweet and adorable and her art and UGH <3

8. Do you comment, fave, or both?
I usually fave and run, but it's mostly because I don't like leaving comments unless I intend to start a conversation, or if something REALLY strikes me.

9. What do you typically post on FA?
UHM. I dunno? I post stupid doodles, mostly of gay men and demons and gay male demons.

10.What's your favorite submission in your gallery?
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11635196/

11. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
Everything. Especially backgrounds and props, but also poses and interaction.

12. How many hours a day do you spend on FA?
I generally check up on it daily, but I don't spend a lot of time looking at it. go through the new submissions, check journals and check for comments, maybe submit a piece or two, then I'm off.

13. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
Idk. People tell me I'm fast, but I get distracted really easily so I feel like it takes me awhile to get anything done.

14. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
I'm constantly annoyed, idk. I hate when people ask me where things are though. I can barely navigate myself, man :T

15. What is the most annoying/offending comment you've received?
Anytime people compare my characters to what is USUALLY a SUPER GENERIC anime character. "Oh, guy with long black hair that isn't effeminate? Must be Alucard" "Oh that guy has short white hair, probably Russia from Hetalia". Wow thanks :/ But because my characters are mostly human(looking), and not some crazy purple striped wolf dragon hyena pterodactyl hybrid, apparently they can't be told apart!

16. What/who inspires you?
Mostly my own feelings and experiences. My art is like an inward reflection. Sometimes that reflection is scantily clad crossdressing men. Sometimes not. Artwise, Alphonse Mucha and Yasuhiro Nightow, and also a bit of Stephen Gammel are my inspirations, though like almost none of that can be seen in my art style. OH WELL.

17. Everyone has considered leaving FA once or twice. Have you? Why?
I considered it. Not because I hated it or anything, but just because it gets so BORING, and I'm not really enthusiastic about ~furry art~. I'd love to have a main gallery on a website that wasn't known for weird animal porn, but at the same time it doesn't bother me enough to change. Meh.

so ask me some TMI if you want.

I've never done this(and gotten any responses), but hell, if you're curious, I'm pretty willing to share,

I have commissions that people have been waiting on but I am literally just shit ok

I need to do refunds or finish them or something but I'll open up my in-work pictures to start them and I either can't draw or can't draw in that style anymore or something else and I feel like sHIT and I suck at doing anything for anyone other than me because apparently I'm a selfish asshole or something, I don't know why, but I really want to not disappoint people and I'm -$200 in my bank account atm so I can't even do the courtesy of just giving the money back, even though that's what I really want to do.

I am a waste of space and hate myself. hhhhhhuuuuuhhh...

I just want to come into a bunch of money and pay people back and just never take commissions ever again because it's never worth it for anyone to wait this long on me

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Seriously. How do artists even HAVE a consistent style. I literally color a different way every time. I line- or DON'T line a different way every time. I don't even use the same brushes or textures two times in a row because I can never remember what I used before. consistency is really not... a strong suit of mine.

Well I mean, granted I can draw a character in a million and a half different styles and they can still look like the character I'm representing, but still. :T

My 'style', much like myself, is erratic and ever-changing.

You have a really specific scene in mind that includes people in a public place but you draw the body so nice that you really don't wanna put clothes on it

UGH

And it's human art too it would be weird for them to be nude.

I've been in a sort of arrested development it seems artwise

I've not had much drive to create just... stuff that is for myself??? I've been drawing a lot of fanart lately, that is. Hannibal and my fantrolls, really. I'm going to try to get owed art out of the way though, if I can, it's just been hard for me to think about??? What with the trip to VA and all the stuff, along with work. I apologize profusely for the wait.

In the meantime, I guess since I don't really want to become a 'dead account' here that I just constantly check, I am going to sTART posting my fanart. Uhm... this stuff is the sort that I don't usually post here, so I can't be certain how you will react to it, but I'm hoping you will like it, because what is left of my artistic drive is in these sometimes shoddy scribbles(and sometimes all-too-thought-out paintings).

If they aren't your cup of tea, I would prefer that you just quietly -unwatch me. If you are tentative, just see what I post tonight and then you can stay or go. It's up to you, but I will be doing what fulfills that drive in me. I hope to return to original art again soon, and I probably will, this is just something I'm doing right now.

If tumblr goes belly up u bitches are gonna have to deal with all my shitty fantroll art.
Jus saiyan.

Cuz I'm legit too lazy to keep up two accounts. Maybe you'll get lucky n' I'll make a universal homestuck-related preview icon so ur poor bb eyes can be spared but probs not

ugh omg I can't

nnghhh

Apparently the one or two files I had saved from my old computer have disappeared. Knowing me it was probably my own fault somehow.

Well I suppose it's for the best because I need to retry the lineart, I'm not sure if I would do it exactly the same if I tried to do it again in the middle of it, and then it would have looked like crap.

SO now that I'm sort of used to working again, I'd like to try and get into contact with some commissioners and see if we can/should set up a date and/or time for streaming.