A good fiend of mine has opened to offer a nice deal on helping those that want a better looking cutie mark than stock images taken from Google and personal attempts you may not be happy with.

http://avanteymod.tumblr.com/post/3.....utie-mark-arts My mark is the middle feather one, the one on the right belongs to Mesmeric Swirl, a cute friend of mines, and the left one is for Avant-Guard himself.

So go here and help my friend out, even if it's just to check out their stuff. They also draw some nice ponies, as you can see here: http://avantey.tumblr.com/

So please, anyone, help a friend out and spread this around for me!

My birthday is just a day away, the 30th, and I realized, I have nothing planned, and haven't told anyone here when it is in a long time. So instead of sitting around, sad that no one remembers/cares, figure I'd preemptively post before it's my birthday.

Not that I expect anyone to get me anything, or offer anything like art or story or whatever, I am after all a nobody, but good wishes are always nice.

Also, planning to try to finally go through and clear up my FA as I noticed I missed posting about being stuck in NY and his commissions, and I am pissy that I have been missing out on art and the lives of my friends.

So, watching ponies right now, I am doing this http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m.....i7qjo1_500.png

No alcohol, I woke up at 4 this morning after 7 hours of sleep, started watching at 5:33AM. I have wanted to do this for a while; would have done it yesterday but yesterday I was up from 6AM to 9PM on 2 hours of sleep and 2 pots of coffee.

So won't be sleeping till done, breaks will be minimal, and not skipping opening or closing credits nor lowering the volume on intros and closing credits. Yes, I like ponies that much to watch all 52 episodes at once, only taking a break to cook up food when hungry or use the bathroom. Some may think it daft, but I was challenged by this challenge a week ago, and only now have had the energy and window of time to do it.

That and I had plans to do this anyway before season 3, but now was just too perfect to do it while I was feeling upbeat and awake. owo

Updated will be coming based on success and fail, and end score. <3

[EDIT] For those that want to try it, http://www.youtube.com/playlist?lis.....9D6CDCF010390F this is the updated playlist I'm using, only says 51 episodes cause A Canterlot Wedding is both parts in one video. =3 [/EDIT]


[Update] There, I am awake and finished ponies, and after a live stream with Shining Shield, Twilight, and Bluebood, I needed a drink, but didn't really start till after finished. Then went out for a cig, so just came back to update now nearly 30 min later as it occurred to me.

Total Score:16001
I didn't sleep, even though I nearly fell asleep middle of season 2.
Avoided the Jagermeister and Vodka till after finished ponies.
I calculated wrong and was still under an hour total, barely.
Every bloody theme song and credits played, so fucking sick of the song after 51 times. XD

I really love ponies, but season 2 really was "boring" to me and nearly put me to sleep for some reason till I ate dinner and watched A Canterlot Wedding. Either way, don't intend to do this again any time soon, it was too much pony to take in one sitting.

Alright, well, I know it's barely a week off till the con, and this really is last minute, what with the internet going out on us last night and not able to do this till could get it working again today.

So, my bestest friend in the world and roommate  RenardFoxx decided he wasn't going to go to FWA this year, which may have been a good choice, given recent incidents around here. Well normally he is my room I stay with at the con. Well without him going, I am out of a place to stay, and don't want to just not go because of that.

Really, I have no money at all, I don't even know how to pay for registration at the con cause all my money went to helping out here and I have no job still. So really, I am looking for a place where I can mostly leave my bags of cloths and art supplies safely, and maybe sleep during a time it's not totally crowded there.

I am pretty quiet and considerate, not one to party or randomly bring some one in to fuck or some crap like I have seen others do.

So, came to FA to check some ones page, and notice, I had 16 notes. I was moderatly confused why. I go there, and I see http://tinyurl.com/74yugkz

I click my latest submission I just made, to link to Inkbunny with the work I could not share on FA.

Reason Stated why it was removed?
Screenshots - Screenshots are not permitted. This includes screenshots of websites, desktops, applications, games (console, PC) or film.
Exception: Interface designers may upload screenshots of websites or interfaces that they have created so long as they are complete, original designs, use no copyrighted material, AND the screenshot does not include portions of the computer or browser interface.

They went through my stuff and removed every SL pic I had since joining FA, some pictures, I forgot I even had and no longer OWN as the computer they where taken on died with no way to get stuff off the memory.

But fuck all of you, every single one of you. XD

Ok, now that is out of the way, let me explain. That is in no way meant offense or attacks at anyone. As most people on my friends list i talk to often knows, among many others who I hardly talk to or just met, had issues with species, and changed a lot. And why? I cared too much about opinions, and people wanting me to be species, implanting their wants on me, my wanting to make me what they want. Few know about the drama I dealt with that drove me from kangaroo really.

Simply put, all those people that controlled me, and most of all, the voices in my head, telling me to become this, or go that, fuck you, in the nicest way possible. XD I deal with temptation too much with that, cause of some issues and the voices in my head (got Schizophrenia and http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissoc.....ntity_disorder formerly known as 'multiple-personality disorder, the DID is professionally diagnosed by a psych.) looking at a species I liked, telling me, how I should be it, focusing on an aspect and forcing me though suggestion to do it. And when lost and confused, I'd ask people for help, suggestions, caught in a catch 22, I listen, they control my species, I ignore suggestion, I feel lost, and am still controlled.

Some people told me they don't care, or simply, said they didn't understand it, why it's so hard. Really, I can blame it on my mental issues all I want, but really, it's more my weak will at the times. So frankly, fuck everyone, even myself, I'm going to go with what I want. And what I want, is what I wanted years ago, before many people pressured and guilted me back to ferret, the same thing that tops my list as all time favorite and special animal to me from the first time I saw one in RL in my own back yard. I am going otter, and I have  RenardFoxx to thank for it, for, well, frankly, making me feel bad and stupid, like an idiot, every time I had issues with species and would ask me, why the big deal, just be what you want and tell other people to just shut the fuck up and let me be me.

And more so, thanks to him for showing me http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6452954/ which, the hotness of it, reminded me of otter and made me question, why i didn't go otter and stay with it since I am so obsessed with them. Which, usual to him, he said "I'll never be able to understand why the species thing is such a big deal |3" and like usual, made me feel bad, but got me thinking, why don't I? Didn't take a lot of thinking to think of everyone that told me I wasn't ottery enough, or not an otter, how otter didn't fit me, or didn't like otter as much so went to their species and imposed it on me.

You all can laugh at me if/when I change from this, like I know everyone expects me to, but frankly, fuck everyone that imposes their own wants on me with no regrets, and thank you to the people that understand or tried to anyway, cause this is what I want really well, to be an otter, and enjoy it and not worry about pleasing people.

Taken from http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2439209/ where i first saw it.

(keep in mind she is a dog groomer and sees hundreds of dogs, and obviously out of them all she will find ones with injuries or something 'wrong' about them. but this just takes the cake)

"yep. so i went to work this morning and some freak came intoday, fat.neckbeard, pull over hoodie with a sterotypical woflie furry with RED AND BLUE EYES. anyway he had a golden with him and as he passed the dog off to me he was jokeing with my boss how "hes such a hottie" "he has a tight ass" "hes packing" "hes a PLEASSSSSSURE to be around" . mind you. hes not hitting on my boss, hes reffering to his dog. but whatever i bring the dog into the back and i stared alittle, his nose seemed off to the side. like it was squished. so i picked up the dog to put him on the table makeing him yelp AND OH MY GOD. this hurts to repeat it.

his lower left jaw was broken and separated from the right side.
part of the nose was pushed in on one side.
the sheath on the dog had been cut back, the whole area swollen and dripping puss.
the penis itself was dried and cracked, was bloody.
his anal glands were impacted.
the anus was.. well it looked like a blown out ear lobes, just more puss filled and dried blood.
the dog tried to make a movement (restroom) making him scream and flail in pain.

what. the . fuck.

i called my boss back and well he called the police and animal group quickly, they examined the dog, finding his pelvic bone was also 'not in the right place', the skin around his nails was all pushed back and there was nail marks around the dogs neck, it was under weight, dehydrated and they mentioned they would most likely have to put the dog down.

the police found the guy quickly i heard. but what a shame. i hate people. what makes you think this is a good idea to do this to your dog? "

I really hope this guy serves at least 5 years in prison total, if not more as well is castrated and never allowed to own an animal again, and is put into sex offender list. More so, since he seems to be a furry, many people are hoping this man is found, and removed from the fandom best we can. I imagine, many people will treat him in the fandom as people treat people that are known for child abuse. I don't wish him to die though, no, I want him to live, so he has to live with his choices as a sick fuck.

Though doubt anyone is going to see this here with how few people seem to read my journals, but is part of the deal, so here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2378247/

Totally free, shipping included if you win random number roll. =D

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2370461/

Since my previous icon seems to be getting used by other people as well, at same speed, so figured, needed something new and more 'original' in the waves of bronies that like Rainbow Dash and the influx of icons bronies can get here: http://simbada93.livejournal.com/42763.html to use, one being the icon I was originally using at the very start of the list, but slowed down it seems.

TL;DR for some of you lazier people: Not a shapeshifter, stop suggesting it, I am mentally ill and have no control over what species the other personalities want. We are all one person, yes, they are all parts of me, but I have little to no control over what they want, no more than a single parent has over a small household of children and teens, all with their own wants and needs. Telling them no, is hard, more so since their wants and needs, by association, are also mine. And to deny your own wants, when they nag and beg and tease you, is hard.

So, though it's a joke on his part, I saw http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5649399 the other day, coincidentally at the same time as  -rai- was trying to convince me to be a kangaroo while I was sorta in a weakened state of sorts. Me and  RenardFoxx where talking and mention of kangaroos came up and some jokes happened and I remembered back to my days as a kangaroo and the nostalgia of the 'good' times before I got caught in a whole debate on roo genitals.

Long story short, for those that don't know, kangaroos have the balls above the sheath, see most any  Blotch roo for that. And the jokes about having "upside down bits" or, for those who thought they where so original having my "Goolies seem to be on backwards" (http://www.dogsdaysofsummer.com/pag.....omicpage10.htm for those that don't know) wore thin. So I gave in to harassment, and went for the 'anthro' approach of bits, sheath above, balls below. This, of course, had issues with people that thought they would 'inform' me they weren't on correct, and it got hard to be civil to either people, so I, being weak, let others control me though that and ditched it in anger and depression.

But, I guess to get on the track I am meaning to go for is, that comic about "multiple fursonality syndrome" got me thinking a lot. And sorta made me want to make this journal, and point out, I don't change on purpose around and don't feel I should fully feel responsible or have people look at me and be like "Pft, he is just another one of those furfags who can't make up his mind" Or as one artist I formerly considered a friend told me, to my face "I don't want to do art for you, cause I feel like the moment I draw you something, you will change species and make my art pointless."

To make a point, I am technically mentally ill, and those that know me will be like "Pft, well Duh, look at what you are into XD" and other jokes, which I giggle at. But no, I mean, I have issues I am going untreated for, some are minor, like i am OCD, need to count things, do things in a specific way, but not like, bad as monk where everything needs to be tidy and in order, which is why people assume I don't got it. And the Perfectionism, I am a perfectionist and need things to go a right way or look like I expect to be 'happy' and crap, which is prolly a side effect of OCD. But I actually have Schizophrenia, Dissociative identity disorder which is better know as "multiple personality disorder" and prolly a few other things yet to be discovered. And yes, i talked to a psych, and he agrees with me on the DID and such, and told me I should seek help with it.

But to that extent, I have lived the past 5 years, hating myself for constantly changing, and still do really. I hate every time I change, and I had people, telling me "just choose something!" and being harassed, sometimes out of love, but harassed none the less. I understand it annoys people and stuff, but look at it my way, it actually HURTS for me to change, cause I would fight the change, not wanting to give in. So I physically and mentally was in pain with each change. It's only recently that I look at it, and decided "I can't do anything about it, just gonna go with the flow and let it happen, and eventually it'll settle on a species"

Which it did, till kangaroo hopped along, and I fought it, hard and heavy, stressing myself out, trying to stick to what I was. But then I got linked to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcSwhA1S2Nc by an evil fox and that just killed the last resistance, and in that collapse of resistance, the fall was so hard, it actually changed my entire mental image of myself. Like, so much so, what I was before, has completely been replaced and I can't remember why I was with it.

In short, I guess, no, I am not a shapeshifter, stop suggesting it, it's a matter of, each species I become, my mind applies a personality to but I can't tell which one is me, and which is a character, so shit gets all messed up, and having people bitch at me about changing, solves nothing, if anything aggravates the problem like butter on a 3rd degree burn.

Ok, so, me and a friend where talking bout My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, starting out with, are ponies omnivores, as in latest episode, Applejack nearly eats a sandwich, with meat on it, seen here: http://www.ponychan.net/chan/pony/s.....0232221403.jpg and he brought up, Pinkie Pie mentioned a hot dog eating contest at one point. Saying he is "sure they have secret slaughterhouses in Equestria for those cows and pigs ;3" cause he "always like to think about the darker side to wholesome worlds." Which got us thinking, and this was the result:

marofox1
12:27:32 AM
but I wonder what's past the Everfree forest :P and the mountains
marofox1
12:28:14 AM
the darker part of me wants to think Equestria is a post-apocalyptic Earth x3
sev_the_ferret
12:28:23 AM
oddly enough, for a forest that is scary cause there is a pred/prey relationship, shit there sure is messed up, like the Poison Joke. 
sev_the_ferret
12:28:40 AM
many many people ahve pointed out it prolly is. XD
marofox1
12:28:57 AM
yeah, like it's 4000ad prolly xP
marofox1
12:29:38 AM
and I like to think there's a giant wasteland outside of Equestria where the worst ponies are banished
marofox1
12:29:51 AM
because Celestia has definitely banished someponies before xP
sev_the_ferret
12:30:08 AM
...
sev_the_ferret
12:30:13 AM
you now made me think...
sev_the_ferret
12:31:20 AM
of Fallout: Equestria, of ponies wandering the wastelands outside of the utopias with guns, weapons, and magics.
marofox1
12:31:35 AM
yeah, that's exactly what I had in mind x3
marofox1
12:32:07 AM
and there are horrific beasts in the wastes that are even too scary for the Everfree forest
sev_the_ferret
12:32:47 AM
OH GAWD! Super Mutant ponies... and holy fuck... pony ghouls... fuck man, this is messed up and awesome at the same time. xD
marofox1
12:32:52 AM
and prolly all the wasteland ponies have shunned the super pampered ponies in Equestria
marofox1
12:33:53 AM
hehe, it makes a great counterbalance. Outside of this loving, happy, sugary world there's another world of death and horror and guns and mutants :P
sev_the_ferret
12:34:31 AM
x3
sev_the_ferret
12:34:58 AM
you do realize, you MUST draw this now, right?
marofox1
12:35:08 AM
I like to picture it like there's a giant cliffside surrounding the edges of Equestria, and once you're banished, your horn and/or wings are clipped off
sev_the_ferret
12:35:42 AM
there was talk of banishment earlier...
marofox1
12:36:16 AM
lot of ponies really seem to fear the princess :P
sev_the_ferret
12:37:10 AM
yeah, she is nice, but yet, everyone is scared of her, and notice how no one laughed when she was like 'gotcha' to the Mr and Mrs Cake. XD
marofox1
12:39:14 AM
I don't get it xP if she's so playful and nice and understanding all the time, why are so many ponies afraid of her? She's had to have banished someponies before x3
marofox1
12:39:52 AM
when you're banished you're either tossed into the everfree to fend for yourself or thrown in a dungeon in Stalliongrad :3
sev_the_ferret
12:40:51 AM
hehe
marofox1
12:41:09 AM
and if you still cause trouble, then you're banished to the outer wastes x3
sev_the_ferret
12:41:30 AM
Hehe, wel li think depending on the crimem depends on punishment
sev_the_ferret
12:41:39 AM
also, you ever notice
sev_the_ferret
12:41:52 AM
the royal guard are all white ponies?
sev_the_ferret
12:42:03 AM
i think i sence some colorism. x3
marofox1
12:42:23 AM
hehe, of course the most majestic ponies are going to be all white ;3
sev_the_ferret
12:42:33 AM
The Princess is white, her guards are white, and after the first 2 episodes, Luna is nowhere to be seen.
sev_the_ferret
12:42:50 AM
and she banished her own sister to the moon, as punishment.
marofox1
12:42:53 AM
yeah, Celestia shoved Luna in a closet after the second episode x3
sev_the_ferret
12:43:15 AM
think about it, luna was all pissy about ponies sleeping at night, but by being in the moon
sev_the_ferret
12:43:18 AM
for 1000 years
marofox1
12:43:30 AM
yeah, this pic sort of set me up for thinking all of this pony wasteland stuff: http://img101.imageshack.us/img101/.....hponyvegas.png
sev_the_ferret
12:43:44 AM
she had to sit there and watch ponies sleep at night, it's no wonder she was so pissy when she came back finally.
marofox1
12:43:59 AM
someone on ponychan came up with a clever idea about that
sev_the_ferret
12:44:22 AM
but hten think about it, the princess could ahve stopped it
sev_the_ferret
12:44:31 AM
but instead, made Twilight do all the work for her.
sev_the_ferret
12:44:37 AM
so she also used Twilight...
marofox1
12:44:53 AM
wants her little Twilight to hone her abilities x3
marofox1
12:45:05 AM
so one day she can become Princess Twilight
sev_the_ferret
12:45:22 AM
oh my god... the princess is a huge asshole, and no differant than normal royalty, just she is nice enough to atleast careabout the little people. XD
sev_the_ferret
12:46:13 AM
hehe, why do i imagine it like a sith training it's aprentice, one day, twilight will slay Celestia in cold blood and asend to princess imn her stead.
marofox1
12:46:26 AM
yeah, the princess can be a douche sometimes :P
marofox1
12:46:58 AM
I really dunno what the deal is with the elements of harmony
marofox1
12:47:07 AM
other than a big plot device x3
sev_the_ferret
12:47:21 AM
it has no use after first 2 episodes XD
marofox1
12:47:32 AM
not really xP
marofox1
12:48:14 AM
hehe, I can't believe this
marofox1
12:48:31 AM
I'm on the verge of going to the store and buying a MLP figure x3
marofox1
12:48:36 AM
the kind with brushable hair
marofox1
12:48:54 AM
dear god what have I become?
sev_the_ferret
12:49:09 AM
hehe
sev_the_ferret
12:49:10 AM
a man
sev_the_ferret
12:49:12 AM
obviously
sev_the_ferret
12:49:18 AM
only real men
sev_the_ferret
12:49:24 AM
can flaunt their love of MLP

So yeah, just think about it all, and feel free to comment and agree/disagree and share this with everyone that you know. XD

[edit]
Oh gawd
http://ponibooru.413chan.net/post/view/5271
http://ponibooru.413chan.net/post/view/5273
Proves my point of what I expect from Celestia after last nights talks. XD

http://www.ponychan.net/chan/pic/sr.....0232515201.png Also slightly Relevant[/edit]

To no big surprise, No one seemed to really read or reply to my FWA journal, so, figure I might as well make a new one on my thoughts lately while in a mix of insanity from sickness and weirdly sane insight in the madness. As a whole, anyone that knows me knows I am in a species flux, like, near constantly. I was stable for a while, as Husky sorta, but like usual, stuff happens, I change, I end up miserable, people are disappointed. I have tried everything, tried asking others for advice, tried to ignore everyone and be what I want, various degrees in between. I even went cold turkey on Second Life, which is hard for me, as it was sorta a place I could hop on, and play with things, as that was, as I realized with some help, was a cause of change.

But I had settled not too long before FWA, to be "Ferret" and stick with it, forcing myself to stick with it even, trying to get myself to keep to something still. I was fine, I managed with it, even with stressing out, then FWA happened, traveled north to Canton, GA to hang with  renardfoxx for a few days before. At the con, Thursday, at around 3, met this one fur, she was a hyena, forget her name, just remember she had a purple hyena wit ha green mohawk and tail that curled over he left hip was asking me where registration was. Told her I didn't know, we just got there too and where wondering. She asked what I was, I said Ferret, and she said "You remind me more of an otter" or some such, and that sorta started it all.

Literally, all Con, I was mistaken for an otter, or told I remind people more of an otter than ferret and so on. SO, by second or third day, I was in this weird species flux, "ferret vs otter" thing. Ferret being, The European Polecat/American Mink Hybrid that I have on my badge, and Otter being the North American River Otter/Bengal Tiger Hybrid that Immelmann drew here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5312756/ The sorta struggle was going on all con, and even up to this very moment as I write this. And I realize the problem why, they are custom made to be just what I want in a fagsona really.

I won't really go into it all, but pretty much, the issue is, ferret started, normal ferret, and evolved in ability and form to the point that, I lost repeatability with him, and dropped him, which really is what started the search for species, and, surprise surprise, the first species I changed to from ferret? It was River Otter, likely to do from the inspiration of living with an otter tribe for years, and the first time I saw a River Otter in my back yard pond, hunting fish. It didn't help that after a long while, I hated ferrets to the point I refused for the past 2 years to be one. I still hold some sorta hate for it, but I just dunno anymore, but I am still known as Sev the ferret on Yahoo and AIM, so I end up in this weird thing of feeling obliged to be one.

But I started work on otter-tiger some time ago, with some help from a friend, and built him how I wanted sorta, to fit the issues I have. To be submissive, but able to properly dom, the be prey, but be a pred as needed, to take bottom but have the ability to top as needed. Which I could just use characters for whatever I need on RP/stories and stuff, and I understand that, but that is a cause of change for me. When I play/write with a character, the character becomes me, then I want it to be my fagsona. I in sense, lost myself long ago, when the dam between my fursona, and characters I create sorta broke and the creative juices intermingle. Not to mention, I also have their weird thing, where I need realism in stuff yet... I want things that are purely fantasy, and it just confuses my mind and adds to the stress.

I'm sure no one cares, I just, sorta felt like venting for whatever reason, and just dunno what to do right now, being stressed, tired, and still slightly sick. I'll add more to this later prolly when I get home to SC, since right now still at Red's place and being reminded I need to leave as I have been here almost 2 weeks and I guess they all are getting really sick of me.

Well, I usually am sorta opposed/too lazy to do a post FWA report like everyone else, as it's usually for me, not that great of a con to report on it often. For me, FWA has really sorta been going down hill since my first year. As far as this past year, I really don't know where to put it in the rankings, so I'll start out from the start.

I got to the Atlanta area Monday night, then passed out on  renardfoxx's couch, and we hung out for a few days and planned for the con some.

Thursday
We got to the hotel around 3ish, and had our stuff sent up to the room. I went down to the con area to find  araclast and few other people, just to see the line was literally from one end of the south tower elevators to the front of the line for registration. Of course, Araclast was at the front of the line with some friends and was waiting there for 4 and a half hours before registration started up. Which would have been fine, had it not broken down within moments of being 'fixed' and such. The con was 'free' that day, but  Raicoonie didn't get to be there till friday, but even when he was there, he told me that the comps where still buggered and he had to go find an ATM to get money out to pay for registration.

The day was dull and slow, so I started to drink, cause been forever since I did, and promptly overdid it. I hung with Araclast till we went back to his room, and I was really drunk, but not so drunk to black out. Ara, being the light weight he was, promptly passed out, which left me alone, drunk, and bored, so started wander. Some stuff happened I regretted with a few hobos outside the con, resulting in me being out of $20 then I returned to my room, purged a bit cause I was starting to feel like crap, prolly from stress and stupidity that night, then went to bed.


Friday
I woke up, and my head hurt from not drinking enough water, and a bit hungry. So I grabbed a bag of chips, which where spicy, and they upset my stomach a bit. Red left the room for a bit, and I ate a can of Ravioli we bought to eat at the con so we didn't starve. That can made me incredibly ill, with lots of vomiting, and I ended up very badly for a while, till Red got me a bottle of pepto bismol, which helped a lot. But Rai, being so bored and alone and so shy and anti-social sorta, and he ended up going home early.

I went to the Vore meet once feeling better, but the sight of alcohol made me incredibly ill. I felt stupid about the night, and mostly wandered while I dealt with my illness, and tried to have fun after registering. The day was sorta uneventful otherwise, kinda a blur.


Saturday
I was feeling better, but still a bit touchy with alcohol, but I stopped by the dealers den an got two books I wanted. As I left the den and dropped my books off in the room, I noticed, I was missing two very important cards: My (as I remember/assume) Insurance Card, and my mothers Shell Gas card, and after that, I freaked. I asked people in the den, they never saw it, asked security, they said check back in 45 minutes, then the suiter parade started. After that was over, went over to registration, asked there like told, still nothing. So I went to a few panels, tried to tell myself they will be found, everything would work out, and jsut kept up wishful thinking. I checked back several times, still nothing. Went to bed at 6 AM, had to sleep under the table, and didn't get much rest. Red got up at some point, stole his spot, then slept till like 2 PM.


Sunday
It was a more or less uneventful day, talked to people, tried to not stress, checked security a few times. I waited till 8 PM, and asked security one last time, still nothing. So I told myself, it's prolly somewhere in the room. Went to bed at like 2 AM after some post-con partying outside the dance floor.


Monday
We woke up at 10, got everything ready and cleaned and packed, looked, no cards. Finally, went down, talked to security, they never got any cards turned over, and I was stressed all to hell. Then one thing after another, stuff just went bad for everyone as we left.


Overview
I had a lot of fun, but also a lot of stress and regrets. Made new friends sorta, talked to old ones and had fun, but the hotel itself wasn't that great, it was badly organized, electronics hardly worked below the 3rd floor, and a lot of people had stuff disappearing/getting lost/stolen I noticed.

To me, the largest disappointment was next years theme too, I was hoping for post-apoc, but even if not, something better than French Prostitutes.

TL;DR version: Never played a Kingdom Hearts game myself, want to finally, but no money to get them to play, so looking for nice people to be nice and make a poor stressed Sevvy happy.

So, thanks so some people been talking/hanging around with the past month or two, I have wanted to get into Kingdom Hearts finally. I am one of the few furs on this world that haven't played ANY of the game yet. Yes, you read right, never in all my life, have I played the games, though I have seen them played some, and at least one beat.

And before anyone asks why I never played, let me sorta explain. When it first came out, I wasn't much into RPG's, let alone, I my entire life, never owned a PS2. So when KH came out, I saw it and immediately hated it cause it was the new 'in' thing. After a time, after KH2 came out, it turned to "These games are stupid, if they weren't full of Disney shit, I'd like it and prolly play it." From there, it sorta went to me hating them less and less as I got older and farther from High school. I was gonna buy KH RE:Coded, but thanks to a friend, told me it wasn't the original like I thought it was. Since RE:Coded came out, I want to actually play the games myself, but that is the problem. I downloaded a PS2 emulator, and spent hours downloading the KH ISO and the BIOs for the PS2 emulator, and, well, here are 4 pics of example of the results I got:

http://i262.photobucket.com/albums/.....g?t=1299543637
http://i262.photobucket.com/albums/.....g?t=1299543637
http://i262.photobucket.com/albums/.....g?t=1299543637
http://i262.photobucket.com/albums/.....g?t=1299543637

The second picture seems fine in the pic, but really, the game was running at 50% of it's FPS so it was slooowww, and on all attempts to play, the sound was kinda messed up and annoying.

So, what I am asking is, anyone got a PS2 they can spare to send me, or even the KH games they can spare to help me experience the games? Looking around, a PS2 sells for about $50 and KH 1 & 2 as well as the PS2 Chain of Memories all cost $20 each. But I don't have $110 + tax to spend on the games and system, and I just wanted to see what people say or could offer in any form of kindness. Even after a month of trying to for a job, I still got nothing coming my way and need some sort of better stress release that is a good, long Video Game or three. If not able to send a console and/or games yourself, money to help afford a PS2, or even Backwards Compatible 60GB PS3 would also be greatly appreciated and leave me in your debt.

Cause it is relevant to today and how I feel. =3

This is what happens when you don't keep atop of FA for a looong time. XD You have 124776 new messages ( 76697S, 48079J ) That would take me 2130.5 pages to clear it all up without the nuke button. XD

I got to here: You have 72593 new messages ( 72233S, 360J ) as per the time of posting this journal. x3

I can't take it anymore, I got submissions from 257 days ago. XD

I was going to take my time and clear it all up, but in just those 2 days I have started, I already have 360 journals I need to read, and the submissions I clear, seem to fill in a chunk of what I cleared within a a day or so time. Though that may just really be me really, but eh, who knows. xP

In other news,  Jjiinx is in really desperate need to help. He needs a place to stay and is desperate enough to pay rent in money or even sex if needed just to have a place to be to get the last $100 to get the ticket to get a flight to move in with his mate. He is really asking for nothing more than a place not on the street to be, even if it's just a garage, I'm sure. Donations of money to him would be greatly appreciated too, but you would have to talk to him and find out his info to do that and other stuff.

I'd love it if you could spread the word or whatever you can to help him. <3~

Ok, so first off, lets mention,  raicoonie with some help of  araclast have nwo made me a crux. I am not allowed to change, at all, to other species, so sayith Rai, who placed a "magical" collar on me, and said so. xP

So yes, I am crux now, and only if araclast changed from crux and/or wills it enough, will I be free to change. xP Meaning, I get to in essance, stay a crux forever, which luckily I love crux.

Though should prolly say sorry to those few of you that hate crux and will in somewaysay "*sighs* great, yet anotehr crux" which to all I can say is "sorry, guess you will have to deal with it. =P" cause I aint chainging. XD

But yes, if you find me as any othe species but Crux, feel free to report me to  raicoonie and/or  araclast if you want. =P

Ok, tired of that long meme of a journal, so here is a simple, short one. x3

So, I just got Soul Silver not too long ago, about a week ago, and I wanna ask people, cause I asked myself these:

What Pokemon would you be if you where one?

Would you prefer to be a different element?

If you where a gym Leader, what type of Pokemon would you use?

What element, do you think I'd be?

And finally, with no neccisary relation to above question, what kind of Pokemon do you personally think I am?

Here: http://old.veekun.com/dex/pokemon?gen=national is a list of all 493 Pokemon so far, till 5th generation comes out. Then feel free to return here and change it if you wish. x3

Taken from  Araclast


1.ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Only one? Pft, I have many, scars are memories engraved in your flesh. Each one is a memory, be it a bad one or good. I'd need a journal alone to retell the stories my scars could tell properly. <3

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Same stuff on the journal  RenardFoxx put up.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Like whatever a G1 google slide phone looks like.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Music is too broad of a term, I listen to everything just about, though I guess, rock mostly.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
On a date that makes some people either fear me, or worship me in some way. Time itself was about 11:37 PM I am told though.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
There are many things, to numerous to think of, that I can't say without seeming greedy or delusional. Otherwise, really, I guess, to have a stable place to live, with a job I will enjoy, that more or less comes to me without me needing to walk 8 miles to get there, then 8 miles back. That, or free car insurance for life at least if not to win the lottery.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Many things really, namely privacy, and a time in my life when I could be me, without the need to sell myself out and become just another sheep of the masses, or be shunned, neglected, and turned away for who I am on looks alone.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
Possessions are material things, they are fleeting as they disappear, break, and/or get stolen. Worse yet, when we are gone, they stay behind. For the most part though, my backpack wit hart supplies in it, a thor hammer necklace, and my computer are the three most prized things in my life at the moment.

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Hard to say, I got a good nose, and rarely can play favorites.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
No, I personally Like places that are dark and comforting.

11. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK?
Not of the dark, but of what lurks within it, and thus, all of us.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
I hate the stuff, it burns and hurts my nose and head. Skunk spray burns less and smells almost as good either way.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON SOMEONE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO?
Long hair on guys, and short hair on girls usually, even thought I am gay. x3

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
Depends on the proposition that I am offered. less you mean marriage, then who knows.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Coffee, it tastes better, and warms you up. Though energy drinks are cheaper and easier to get a hold of the good stuff.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Anything really, even anchovies.

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Eh, no idea really, I'm not picky. Though i'm sure a few people have ideas of things I'd like to nom on. x3

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
Some one I know that accused me of theft and threatened me some, just to later forgive me and stuff.

20. DO YOU SPEAK A FOREIGN LANGUAGE?
I mostly just speak American, though know some English, Australian, and some German.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX):
Hmm, a painting they did.

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Many people I guess, in various degrees of "like" really.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Nope, just very flexible.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
The kind that comes in my size.

25. WHAT`S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I have always wanted an original Humvee, possibly one that served in a war or military specifically.

27. WHAT IS ONE OF YOUR DREAMS?
To become a (semi-)famous comic artist/writer.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Varies person to person, I once read a manga, where at the end, a guy tells the girl, "If you ever want to die again, I'll kill you." Which was really touching and nice of him to tell her, but out of context or to some one else, it wasn't that nice to say.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
Pi

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Who cares, I prefer Raven anyway.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
No one, people tend to have to call me.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Children, and the human population as a whole.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE US?
Sadly, not yet.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
The fact that I am too caring, considerate of others, and give without thought, often leaving myself with the short end of the stick and suffering for it.

36. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE?
No idea, as long as it is a place where I can be me with little to no worries.

37. FIRST JOB?
A mom and pop pet shop that got put out of business from a pet's'mart opening up.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Not while sober as far as I can remember.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
Playing Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2, wishing I could be playing Battlefield: Bad Company 2.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Prolly get a nice op to make myself look more like a girly boi/androgynous like I wish I could look. Otherwise, just get an op to get my body fat removed as best as I could.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
 Aralast and  Renardfoxx wanted me to.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Being cute I guess.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Drink more of it, maybe make my own, or in general, turn to other drugs for my fix.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
No idea, a new computer, something that can run games really well and hold a lot of stuff without lagging.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
Unless you mean as a food source, in which case, I find teenagers prepared well, namely females, are quite tasty, otherwise, none, ever, if I can help it.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yes, My mom, who was named after he grandpa, which is just my first name, the rest of my name is messed up. So I am named as such, Mom's first name, Dads first name, Moms last name-Dads last name, to make my fucked up real name what it is.

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
In a sense, yes, I do.

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
Middle ones cause I seem to be one of the few people in the world that know the true meaning of giving some one the middle finger.

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
At some point within the last year. I can keep my emotions in check usually.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I am fine with my handwriting, it's others that hate it.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Kangaroo or Aligator.

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Many, alcoholism, staying up late, smoking cigarettes, don't brush my teeth twice a day, etc.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Why would I be embarrassed of a CD? If I bought the CD, then I don't give a shit if people find it. I openly admit that I like My Chemical Romance some after all. XD

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Possibly, but I am a total jerk, douche, faggot, and asshole to everyone, cause that is how i show my 'affection' for my friends.

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Anyone that says they didn't, is lying. I have told to other people, but only after a long time, or the strain is too much to bear alone and I need help. Even psychiatrist need to go talk to other ones privately to tell things to unburden themselves.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
They can, but I am bias and live in a fantasy world and think I am horribly ugly and need to be an 80 lb girly boi to be 'happy' and stuff.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Varies, so hard to say.

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
I barely have a first home, but I guess, wherever my parents are, there is always room for me there.

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Trust and Respect are earned, but everyone starts with a specific level of trust and respect, till giving me a reason to not trust them or respect them.

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Video games and toys, till I got to about 12, then it was myself. ;3

61. WHAT ARE THE FIRST THREE NUMBERS IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
843

62.
Dewk!

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
No, I am totally sincere all the time *sarcasm*

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
Yup, Powerman 5000 concert fuggers!

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A MAN/WOMAN?
Hard to say, I am easy to please.

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Sev, Sevvy. Sevvers. Sevness, Sev-Sev, Sev-chan, Serval, Sasha, Kiba, you fucker, motehr fucker, dumb bitch, etc. List goes on.

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope, no need to when they can just slip off.

69. WHO IS YOUR CRUSH?
Varies, though I tend to get attached to fictional characters to some extent easy.

70. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
The kind I get for free.

71. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU WENT ON A DATE?
I guess technically, going to McDonalds and eating with your mate counts.

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Purples, Black, Blood Red, Blue, and earth tones.

73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
All of them, as they are just barely coming in at 22.

74. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
My freedom as soon I will have to go look for a job within walking distance as I have no auto-insurance, and I'd prefer not to ahve my car taken away.

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Sure, why not.

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
I find myself returning over and over to watch this: http://wimp.com/talkingcarl/ between the sounds of gunfire every few rounds from Modern Warfare 2

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Hot dogs while pretending they are cocks like I always seem to do,

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My mother, otherwise the last call I got was from Bank Of America to tell me for the 7th time that my account is $45 overdrawn and if I spend anymore money, there may be additional charges.

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT A MAN/WOMAN?
Body language/eyes for RL people, footpaws/ears for anthros/furries.

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
The one with the one guy singing the one thing about that one time with that one instrument playing in the background.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE:
Religion, or rather, worshipers of religion that take it seriously, and make a big deal of it, and not so much the religion itself. As Gods do not kill people, people with gods kill people.

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Rum and Dr. Pepper, though not often together as the flavors conflict.

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
Scorpio cause I grew up in the desert and played with them all the time and it's my symbol.

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Depends what you consider a 'sport' I guess.

85. HAIR COLOR?
Dreadlocks, color irrelevant.

86. EYE COLOR?
Golden-Brownish-Grey with Gold flecks or 'shards' as some eould cal lthem in the eyes.

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Yeah, though I prefer goggles.

88. SIBLINGS?
An older brother, and another brother that was given away to another mother.

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
October

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
I live off of it when I can.

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED
Movie wise? Resident Evil: Degeneration.

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
FWA is what I look forward to every year, and that lasts about a week long.

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Yeah, only cause I am a horrible person and feel people I like are out of my league and can do better.

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter.

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hugs

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Varies.

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Whoever I tell to.

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Anyone I show it to and expect them to do it.

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
The Seventh Chakra by Kevin Frane, Though am regretting not buying a second book to read in case i finish this before next FWA since I buy one new book a year from there since last year.

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
 Araclast is for sure, as are a few other people that I return the affections of. =3

Ok, so lately, I really have been in the mood to write stories, but got nothing for sure I am sure I want to do, no motivation, and no real full inspiration to get anything out. I have plenty of ideas, but they flip flow around, and I got so many in my head that they either clash, conflict, or splice together like some over hybridized abomination.

So I am turning to everyone that will bother reading this (like, maybe all 5 of you over the next 3 months since I'm not popular enough to get anyone really giving a care to try to hit me up for free stories/art often. XD), and ask that they give story ideas, like topic, setting, kinks, whatever.

Really, I will write about just about anything, except scat, vomit (as a fetish (i.e. on some one for fap purposes), I got no problem saying some one will vomit from like stress, adrenaline, or pain induced or whatever x3), and baby furs (cubs I can be ok with, so long as it's after a certain age,though I prefer nothing below age of consent XD), otherwise don't be afraid to ask.

Some ideas I had was:
Inflation
Castration/penectomy
C&BT
Cooking
Vore
and really I could make a long list of this, yet still never get shit on (digital) paper, so I seriously need ideas. Easier to ask others and think of it as 'gifts' then doing it for myself. x3

THE FURRY ACHIEVEMENTS MEME!

How to play:
- Go here to find a good copy/paste format [if you want].
- Write yes or no and an explanation under each achievement [if you want]. Try to keep the format, and use your own judgement!
- Add up your score.
- Post your score total with the journal's subject. (ie., "Furry Achievement Score: X")

"Waited In Line For Blotch Porn"
Parameters: Go/went to a furry convention.
Score: 50
Completed?: Yes [FWA every year]

"Rug Burn"
Parameters: Do/did the business, with one or more partners in a fursuit.
Score: 50
Completed?: No [Though been in the room with partial and full suiters doing it some times. XD]

"It's Like A Miniature Convention!"
Parameters: Go/went to a furmeet.
Score: 30
Completed?: Yes [A local Atlanta Furmeet]

"FURtune 500"
Parameters: Have over 10,000 views.
Score: 30
Completed?: No [9,422/10,000]

"High Roller"
Parameters: Have your character drawn by an artist that has over 100,000 views.
Score: 30
Completed?: Yes [ cheetahlover]

"Friends In High Places"
Parameters: Have gift art of your character from an artist.
Score: 20
Completed?: Yes [ Renardfoxx]

"Different Strokes"
Parameters: Own/owned/used an animal-molded, or furry-oriented, sexual toy.
Score: 20
Completed?: Yes [Own and used one before >w>]

"So, Yeah"
Parameters: Have more furry friends than non-furry friends in real life.
Score: 20
Completed?: Yes [only maybe 2 RL friends]

"Stalker"
Parameters: Be friends with an artist.
Score: 20
Completed?: Yes [Many x3]

"Connected"
Parameters: Have a total combined buddy count [on AIM, MSN, Skype or etc.] of 200 or more.
Score: 20
Completed?: Yes [645/200 on AIM, MSN, Yahoo, and skype combind XD]

"Just For The Art"
Parameters: Draw anthropomorphic art.
Score: 20
Completed?: Yes [Used to all the time in highschool]

"Dramatic"
Parameters: Have a LiveJournal, Facebook, FurAffinity, DeviantArt, and a Twitter account.
Score: 20
Completed?: Yes [Only FA is used often though]

"Get Over It"
Parameters: Have/had a spouse/partner/significant other/mate/whatever, in real life, that is a furry.
Score: 20
Completed?: Yes [All my 'mates' have been furs <3]

"Vanilla"
Parameters: Have nonsexual art of your character.
Score: 10
Completed?: Yes [Rare, but I got a few x3]

"O MURR"
Parameters: Use/used the word 'yiff', 'scritch', or 'paw' when talking to a non-furry friend in real life.
Score: 10
Completed?: Yes [to both of my first two roommates I had]

"And All I Got..."
Parameters: Own a distinctly 'furry' t-shirt [something made by furries and/or for furries].
Score: 10
Completed?: Yes [Only own one shirt for now]

"I'm Not Even Trying"
Parameters: Have some form of furry porn on your desktop [whether as wallpaper or a file].
Score: 10
Completed?: Yes [Both file and background XD]

"UNLESS IT'S A FARM!"
Parameters: Play/played Team Fortress 2 on a furry server.
Score: 10
Completed?: Yes [Only servers i like playing on]

"Such A Cock"
Parameters: Listen/listened to a 2 the Ranting Gryphon rant.
Score: 10
Completed?: Yes [Current Roommate loves him so have heard him before]

"Friends With Benefits"
Parameters: Commissioned/commission artwork of a friend's character.
Score: 10
Completed?: Yes [only once or twice a while ago.]

"Anti-Uppity"
Parameters: Have sexual artwork of your character.
Score: 10
Completed?: Yes [Several pieces <3]

"Don't Knock It 'Til You Try It"
Parameters: Roleplay/roleplayed your character over a messenger service/in a game of some sort.
Score: 5 for having done it at all, +5 for having done sexual roleplay.
Completed?: Yes [Mostly sexual things]

"NO FRATERNIZING WITH THE ENEMY!"
Parameters: Post/posted on 4chan or SomethingAwful.com
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [Once or twice before]

"Furries Ruin Everything"
Parameters: Post/posted a furry image on 4chan.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [Once or twice before]

"You're Doing It Wrong"
Parameters: Post/posted on fchan or TGFB [http://dammitfreehaven.com/].
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [I used to keep some threads alive just by myself on fchan XD]

"The Greater Good"
Parameters: Post/posted an image on e621.net.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [have before I believe]

"O.. murr"
Parameters: Use/used the word 'yiff', 'scritch', or 'paw' when talking to a furry friend in real life.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [Well that's just given XD]

"How Did That Get There?"
Parameters: Have a folder dedicated to furry porn.
Score: 5 for having a folder, +5 for having a folder of 1gb or larger.
Completed?: Yes/No [I had many many folders dedicated to kinks of nothing but furry art like vore and tentacles, some over 1GB XD]

"THIS IS THE REAL ME! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!"
Parameters: Commission art of your character.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [One or two pics]

"SRS BSNS"
Parameters: Tell/told a parent/friend that you are a furry.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [Most everyone knows I am a furry]

"Ding, DONG"
Parameters: Have a male character.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [Many of them, though few used]

"Tits or GTFO"
Parameters: Have a female character.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [Two, but never used for anything anymore]

"It's A Trap!"
Parameters: Have a herm/shemale/transgendered/etc. character.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [I got a character that counts as such, yes x3]

"Dime A Dozen"
Parameters: Did/do another furry meme.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [I like doing memes when i can. XD]

"You're It!"
Parameters: Tag at least 1 person after doing this meme.
Score: 5
Completed?: Yes [first person that reads/sees/gets linked to this and looks =3]

Alright, so, in reply to this: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1055220/ and this: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1058253/

As for what I'd want, I am really lax though will give some ideas while I can. Though would really prefer my on character, doesn't exactly need to be me if you got a greater idea that doesn't involve a skunk. x3

As for kinks, refer to here: http://www.f-list.net/c/sev for list of my kinks, likes, and the very few dislikes. x3

STORY: My main preferred setting for a story for my 'fagsona' in it I usually like to have sorta in fantasy setting lately, like Dungeons and Dragons, like with dragons involved or some stud. But also, modern/futuristic settings work too, so go wild, so long as there is some nice fun going on there. Preferred kinks in story, C&BT, castration, penectomy possibly if you want, and genital cooking are given. Some form of medical play wouldn't be that bad to see either if you like.

Though preferred but not required ones are hoodies, glasses, mention of footpaws, footpaw play, footpaw torture, footpaw cooking if not full cooking of my character and such as are things I'd like to see. But I know not everyone likes/can properly feel to know how to write the things, so add them or leave them out as you will. =3

Snuff/decapitation is also there for those that want to add that too. Like maybe dragon neutering, keeping the poor skunk as a sorta slave. Then spit roasting him on a stick, decapitating him, and roasting his body for a nice 'cream' filled meal. XD

But really, surprise me, do what you want, I know as long as it has castration and/or genital cooking/eating, I'll get my skunk berries off to it for a while. ;3

PICTURE: In terms of pictures, what I'd likely love to see the most is a nice bound skunk maybe, a tasty paw shot (yeah, such a paw fag. XD), and of course, a nice castration. Would love to see my character or the other one wearing a hoodie, goggles, and/or glasses. Snuff, cooking, and other kinks in my fav list such as medical play would be <3 to see in the pic too in some way, but not required.

As stated above though, go wild, surprise me, I'll love it more then likely no matter what so long as it has castration in it in some way, penectomy, and possibly pre/post-cooking and being nommed on by either a large strong pred, or a cute, possibly girly boi-like sorta unexpected one. <3

REFRENCES: Here are some links that sorta work as refrences till I get a real ref sheet done.

http://d.furaffinity.net/art/sev/12....._bound_sev.jpg this more or less shows off the color of the fur, note the slightly purple color, though really it should be a bit darker then that still, a dark purple, almsot black, but adjust it as one will. x3

http://d.furaffinity.net/art/sev/12.....repsmaller.png This can also sorta be used as a reference if needed.

http://s262.photobucket.com/albums/.....%20Ref%20Pics/ these are some real old ref pics i took,

[EDIT]Ok, new refs off the press! http://s262.photobucket.com/albums/.....ercing%20refs/ basically, just use the head shots for reference to hair, bandanna no need to be included too, and the piercing refs. The Link above is perfectly fine for the rest of the body, except cock, which will come at a later date when  Cheetahlover gets around to finishing my genital necklace sketch/pic done, but if you need a ref soon, just IM me or have Charn IM me if you want to keep it secret and can try to get some pics your way. x3[/EDIT]

Feel free to contact me if you want to bounce ideas off me, or to give me ideas if you want. I am free most times to talk online on any messenger, skype, both of which I am always on when the comp is on, or SL when I am actually on it.

I am drunk. XD Yet, even after 9 shots of vodka, I am still coherent enough to be "okay" =3 I still feel like I can drink most people under the table seeing as i am typing this withotu a spell checker XD. Also, just wanted to get that long, psudo-depressing journal off my page.

In other news, for about half a week now, I have been living in Atlanta, GA, and really need people to hang out with or to at least talk to online/on the phone/on text message to ease the boredom, insanity from being cooped up all the time, and/or depression I have felt lately. x3

Just send me a note I guess and I'll get back to you with info you want. =3

Stolen from  roo_boy cause in a sorta masochistic mood. Warning though as it may not be the happiest of things going around, but I am truthful and up front about my thoughts/feelings in this silly thing. =3

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Sev
2. Sevness
3. Sevvy (I have many names I go by x3)

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Sev_the_ferret
2. sev the ferret
3. scalbaine[at]hargrey.com (Have always kept the same user names)

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES (Of the last day)
1. Cleared FA of my 58884 Submissions and 33635 Journals I had
2. Read some journals on FA
3. Procrastinated sleeping again

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: ( this one's kinda hard for me >.> )
1. Have a good sense of humor
2. Am selfless and caring to a fault
3. My long hair

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My body
2. My jealous ways
3. How locked away I am on average and anti-social/paranoid I am outside of my room cause of.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. Native American
2. Celtic
3. Norse (a.k.a. vikings)

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. Being Alone in the dark
2. Watching people I care for dying before my eyes and me powerless to save them.
3. Doing something really stupid and hurting the people that care for me deeply.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Purple Boxer-breifs
2. Camo Cargo Shorts
3. ...my thick leather collar.... (it's all i got on right now x3)

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Darkness
2. Caffine
3. Some way to talk to people online

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. My collar
2. My friends
3. My glasses

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Disturbed
2. Sick Puppies
3. Oomph!

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Cuddling after a long day
2. Out with friends
3. A good game with friends =3

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. You're Going Down - Sick Puppies
2. Perfect - Simple Plan (lawl, emo music...)
3. I belive in a thing called love - The Darkness (Yes, I am a huge fag x3)

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Get more fit
2. Find something that eases the feeling of loneliness and despair I hold back daily >.>
3. Become more confident in my art/writing and start taking commissions I feel won't suck.

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. Letting my family control me for so long...
2. Not making more/keeping in contact with friends before moving to Atlanta, Georgia...
3. Truthfully, my whole existence and life to now...

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. To get in one that I can be in, and not feel jealous of others... at least as much
2. To have some one, that will be there physically, protect me, so I can let go and stop pretending to be "okay" and happy all the time as I have been conditioned to do on reflex.
3.To have one that lasts, isn't puppy love, lust, or a rebound/fling

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVEN TO THE WORLD:
1. My existence, as miserable as it may be lately, has brought countless people joy, comfort who in return, gave the energy to others, who spread it yet still.
2. other then that...
3. nothing of major worth...

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: ( in no particular order )
1. I am a narcissistic prick who is greedy and selfish.
2. I really hate going out shopping with others. x.x
3. My own mother, has on three separate occasions, offered me weed to smoke and other drugs.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Am Gay...
2. Dunno what I'd do seeing as...
3. I can't find anything I 'like' in females more then friends

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. As friends, able to deal with emotional problems
2. After that
3. Don't look to much emotional level

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. I can't seem to stop pushing away/hurt those that get close to me, for some of the stupidest stuff...
2. Seem to make my parents ever truly be proud of me
3. Eheheh... push-ups... Can't do even one right, had to do girl push-ups in high school ._.

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. Highschool really, mostly cause the stress, depression, and suffering it caused... allowed me to tap into my art wells and draw.
2. The ability. to be left alone and live in my own fantasy world where I could truly be me.
3. I miss... the ability to remember... as some people know... I have amnesia/repressed memories and don't remember but fragments of my life before 14, other then painful, depressing things. =/

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. Love
2. Appreciation
3. A mate...

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. My psudo-neglectful parents
2. My traumatic past
3. My Stubborn, powerful, pride, ego, and will to not let into the thoughts and voices I had to deal with all my life, both in and out of my head. ._.

THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing
2. Gaming
3. Writing stories

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Sleep and hope I am less depressive.
2. Possibly meditate and try to relax.
3. Play video games on my own comp (am on a friends comp right now till get mine set up soon)

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Writer (heh...)
2. Veterinarian
3. Professional Artist (very long way to go...)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. Australia
2. Japan
3. New Zealand

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. Jake Long (season 1)
2. Cartoon Kangaroo Jack
3. Exile From Road Rovers o3o

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
1. Valryn
2. Jack
3. Blaze

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
1. Saras
2. Alex
3. Katt

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Finally find what I feel my sorta life mission is, if it exists
2. Learn to play guitar the rest of the way
3. Truly, without a doubt, find love as true as Roo_boy seems to have found, and make others jealous as seeing all these happy couples around me lately. x3

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR BE SUPER CUTE AND EAT CAKE =3 :
1. Araclast can if he wants
2. Steampossum
3. And Like RB said, first person who comments to this. X3