Guess I'm 31 now

Had to put down my husky she was going through kidney failure

I've just been dealing with a lot of anxiety and probably depression that's just been blocking ideas and killing any motivation to buy any art. I still plan on working on that new character and maybe revamping an old male character of mine.

I may also try to get more art of Raevyn, Saga, and Valisa in their feral forms if my anxiety backs off and if I can find a willing artist within my budget.

Also I turned 30 on the 23rd

I am still working on the new character. I might post their planned info I've got so far as a journal if people are interested.

My Great Dane Brutus passed away today at the age of 9

I probably should first note that Valisa's new refs are now done; I just need to update hir info and redo hir story. I might post without the story, just the updated information for now.
Anyhow, regarding the new character idea, I got the idea that they are semi-feral/anthro (comfortable being both bipedal and quadrupedal without having to shift forms like Raevyn, Saga, and Valisa, etc.), possibly around 10' tall on their hind legs, maybe taller, maybe shorter, I'm not sure what gender to have them, male, female, herm, etc. And I'm also not sure what species to make them a drox, a furred dragon, a typical dragon, or a wolf dragon; I don't know. I'm also not sure about the back story for them. I did consider having them be a herm version with Amnesia of an old male character I have but never posted here, but I'm kind of leaning away from that idea; I’m most likely to have them be their own truly new character, but I don't know; maybe if enough people like that idea, I might do it.
I'm not sure when, or if I’m honest, if I'll get around to it. The new doctor I saw wasn't working out. Medicaid does not cover them, so I was paying out of pocket, and any new medication they prescribed also wasn't covered by Medicaid, and the new medication (which was thankfully cheap), I think, was actually making my anxiety worse and making me more irritable and was making my chest feel weird so I stopped taking it (for those wondering what it was it is hydroxyzine)

I've been having a lot of anxiety, and I've also been struggling with a lack of motivation. I've been trying to work on new refs for Valisa. I've got hir anthro done; I'm just stuck on hir feral ref and revamping hir background I've also been stuck working on a new clothing ref for Raevyn. I've been to a new doctor who has adjusted my meds; hopefully, it'll help with my motivation issues.

I'm 28 today, and my dad got me some gold pay dirt that I panned some gold and gemstones out of (some gemstones are quite dense and heavy and can be panned like gold), and as for the other thoughts, I'm wondering how I could make Raevyn stick out more with new markings or something? also, I am redesigning Valisa.

Been having some big anxiety issues lately not sure why, but its been making it difficult to come up with ideas to get commissioned or draw/render my self and it doesn't help I'm self-conscience about my art and skills (or what I think is a lack there off) and it really doesn't help I've been having no motivation to do any art.

but I might have an idea for a male character (he would be more a revamp of an old character I've had that was exclusively tame and never posted here and haven't done anything with for years since making Raevyn) and maybe do a revamp of Sysil but I don't know if either thing will go anywhere due to previously mentioned issues, unless anyone has any ideas on how I can get my anxiety back in check and bring back my motivation.

so feeling kind of bummed out.

its Raevyn's daughter partly inspired by Ciri from Witcher III and shi is why Rayven/Kimora was pregnant for awhile

And I think I'm going to change hir backstory a bit too

I'm strongly considering changing it to Raevyn or Raven or some other variant of it so what do you think?

I've been strongly considering changing Kimora's name to Raevyn or Raven but of still on the fence about it so what do you think should I change hir name?

and as for the Update, I have moved house now, and everything has gone well-ish the first night was rough with my eldest brother hitting a low and dark point and scaring us cause we were worried he might be suicidal (btw both he and I are on Disability) but he's alright now but doesn't really like it here that much (can't say I'm a massive fan either but I'm coping I guess) I probably should have posted this update sooner but I just kept getting distracted or panicked by the pandemic and such.

I've been trying not to have bad panic attacks, I've not been doing great on that front of I'm honest, I've been kind of avoiding going online out off fear of seeing something that sets off panic attacks. I've been trying to distract myself but that's not always easy when you have OCD, but on a lighter note my brother and his wife had their first child on the 16th, a healthy little girl, but I am worried about her and her parents with current events though.

I'm kind of considering changing Kimora's first name I'm just not really liking it as much for some reason, I'm kinda leaning towards changing it to Raven or some variant of it or a name that means raven i don't know I'm still undecided about changing it at all.

I been bit down today, my oldest dog was put down yesterday his heart was in defibrillation and the emergency get we took him to said wasn't going to last long, they said even with the best heart medication they could give him he'd only last maybe a month so we decided it was best to end his suffering.

my mom passed away last night. I'm just really having a hard time. just trying hold it together

I'm not abandoning the FA ship, but if you need to contact me elsewhere for whatever reason I have a weasyl here https://www.weasyl.com/~shadowfirewolf and a Furrynetwork here https://beta.furrynetwork.com/kimora_iginsnox/

I'm gonna try to make a list of the good steampunkish movies, and TV shows feel free to give me suggestions!

• Sherlock Holmes
• Sherlock Holmes a game of shadows
• League of Extraordinary Gentlemen
• Chitty Chitty Bang Bang
• Howl's Moving Castle
• Legend Of Korra
• Wild wild West (the TV show, the movie was too over the top)
• Dracula ( the new TV show)
• Van Helsing
• Frankenstein
• Young Frankenstein
• The Brothers Grimm
• Steamboy
• Tank Girl
• the Good, the Bad, and the Weird
• A Woman, a Gun and a Noodle shop
• a tale of two robots" (short animation)
• Gentleman's Duel (3D short animation film)
• Hellboy
• Hellboy II The Golden Army
• Airlords of Airia
• league of S.T.E.A.M (online series)
• Last Exile
• The Mysterious Geographic Explorations of Jasper Morello.
• The City of Lost Children
• The Prestige
• Tai Chi Zero
• Tai Chi Hero
• Murdoch Mysteries
• The Adventurer: Curse of the Midas box

Games:

• Dishonored
• Dishonored 2
• Bioshock
• Bioshock 2
• Bioshock infinite
• The Order: 1886
• Guns of Icarus Online
• Thief series