Rant (IMPORTANT INFO IN BEGINNING, PLEASE READ)
Posted 13 years agoSo I've decided something.. I'm not doing requests. Not right now. The requests I have currently, I'm truly sorry, but I just can't do them. I've tried drawing them multiple times and they all piss me off one way or another. I am not happy with the way I am drawing them. I really just am not in a good place right now to be responsible for anything other than what is my own.
***(Important info is over, the rest is the rant part. Kinda personal so don't read unless you want to, I just need to rant somewhere)***
The end of my senior year is kicking me in the ass so hard I think I can see a foot coming out of my mouth. Too much work, too many teachers barking at me, and too many fines to worry about. May or may not be able to go to my senior prom and may or may not graduate on time due to absences. Found out my dad is getting foreclosed on as soon as August so will be losing my childhood home. Probably either moving into a trailer park, a crappy apartment, and we've even been talking about the possibility of an RV. My mother is possibly moving into a trailer park when she runs out of money soon. I most likely cannot go to college for at least a semester because I have absolutely no way to pay for all of it. I still need a job. Every day brings me closer to the harsh reality that I will lose most of the people I've spent the past four years with. Despite my efforts to deserve otherwise, I am still treated like a naive 13 year old. It seems like I just keep having more health/psychological issues. I am entirely fed up with relationships and people and the never-ending pain they bring. And I've been trying so hard to grin and bare it but I think I have finally cracked. I don't have any idea what to do about anything anymore.
***(Important info is over, the rest is the rant part. Kinda personal so don't read unless you want to, I just need to rant somewhere)***
The end of my senior year is kicking me in the ass so hard I think I can see a foot coming out of my mouth. Too much work, too many teachers barking at me, and too many fines to worry about. May or may not be able to go to my senior prom and may or may not graduate on time due to absences. Found out my dad is getting foreclosed on as soon as August so will be losing my childhood home. Probably either moving into a trailer park, a crappy apartment, and we've even been talking about the possibility of an RV. My mother is possibly moving into a trailer park when she runs out of money soon. I most likely cannot go to college for at least a semester because I have absolutely no way to pay for all of it. I still need a job. Every day brings me closer to the harsh reality that I will lose most of the people I've spent the past four years with. Despite my efforts to deserve otherwise, I am still treated like a naive 13 year old. It seems like I just keep having more health/psychological issues. I am entirely fed up with relationships and people and the never-ending pain they bring. And I've been trying so hard to grin and bare it but I think I have finally cracked. I don't have any idea what to do about anything anymore.
Get to Know Me Meme
Posted 13 years ago1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
Elizabeth or Lizzie.
2. How tall are you?
5'3" (I grew an inch! =D)
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Strawberry blonde
3. What about eye color?
Hazel, though some colors decide to show more than others depending on my mood.
4. What orientation are you?
Orientation as in?
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Single. Not by choice -.-
6. What do you do in your spare time?
Write, draw, read, play mindless video games for hours on end, surf the interwebs, and lately, a lot of crying. WOOH!
7. What's your job?
My job is to make others realize how AWESOME their lives are compared to mine.
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I'm supposed to like stuff about myself?
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
There's not much I "dislike" about myself, but there's a ton I hate, so yeah, moving on.
10. What're some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Hell if I know.
Good! Hold on, coming up on some deeper questions now... ready?
11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any)?
I believe that religion is all fake. HOWEVER, I do believe in spirituality, so in that sense, I still lean somewhat towards the beliefs of Jainism, but I don't agree that you have to "practice" anything to believe in something. Anyway, that rant is over. Next.
12. Do you drink?
Not beer, that stuff is gross, why the hell would you water down perfectly good alcohol?! Anyway, usually just straight liquor, and I only drink when I have absolutely no desire to be sober.
13. Do you smoke?
Cigarettes, daily. Weed, if someone has it. But nothing else, and not sure I ever plan on smoking anything else either.
14. What are your fears?
Losing my best friend. Spiders. Insects. Clowns. Losing my babies (phone, iPod, laptop). Never being able to write again. My mother. Finding a serial killer in my shower.
15. What are your dreams/goals?
Well my dream is to become a well-known poet. My goal is to get a book of my poetry published.
16.Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
No crushes, I don't get crushes, I fall for people, and right now I hate everyone. I have quite a few exes though -.-...
Almost done!!! Time for some lighter topics now :D
17. Who's your best bud?
Austin M. No doubt. My best friend in the whole world. And Brittaney M., my sister.
18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
The better question is what AREN'T I reaching for. I love food.
19. Favorite drink?
Uhh... I probably shouldn't say vodka soooo... strawberry mango lemonade.
20. Favorite color?
Purple. More dark purple.
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Telekinesis. Or telepathy. I'm not giving my reasons why.
22. Favorite movie?
The Fox and the Hound. Hands down.
23. Least favorite food?
Tilapia maybe. Not many foods I don't like.
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Cheesecake. I don't care about anything else.
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Toyota Camry or an old Bentley.
Last 5 questions. You're in the homestretch, come on, you can make it! Lets see what gets under your skin.
26. Most disliked bug?
Bedbugs.
27. Most hated pet peeves?
One word replies. People who linger/hover. Bad grammar/spelling. My mother. Way more but I can't think of them at the moment.
28. Dislike in life?
Everything. I'm not a big fan of life.
29. Most annoying?
Obnoxious, ignorant teenagers.
30. Most disliked TV show?
I don't watch anything I don't like so I don't know.
NOTE: There are two number 3's. I fixed whatever grammar mistakes I noticed. I was bored as hell.
Elizabeth or Lizzie.
2. How tall are you?
5'3" (I grew an inch! =D)
3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Strawberry blonde
3. What about eye color?
Hazel, though some colors decide to show more than others depending on my mood.
4. What orientation are you?
Orientation as in?
5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Single. Not by choice -.-
6. What do you do in your spare time?
Write, draw, read, play mindless video games for hours on end, surf the interwebs, and lately, a lot of crying. WOOH!
7. What's your job?
My job is to make others realize how AWESOME their lives are compared to mine.
8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
I'm supposed to like stuff about myself?
9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
There's not much I "dislike" about myself, but there's a ton I hate, so yeah, moving on.
10. What're some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Hell if I know.
Good! Hold on, coming up on some deeper questions now... ready?
11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any)?
I believe that religion is all fake. HOWEVER, I do believe in spirituality, so in that sense, I still lean somewhat towards the beliefs of Jainism, but I don't agree that you have to "practice" anything to believe in something. Anyway, that rant is over. Next.
12. Do you drink?
Not beer, that stuff is gross, why the hell would you water down perfectly good alcohol?! Anyway, usually just straight liquor, and I only drink when I have absolutely no desire to be sober.
13. Do you smoke?
Cigarettes, daily. Weed, if someone has it. But nothing else, and not sure I ever plan on smoking anything else either.
14. What are your fears?
Losing my best friend. Spiders. Insects. Clowns. Losing my babies (phone, iPod, laptop). Never being able to write again. My mother. Finding a serial killer in my shower.
15. What are your dreams/goals?
Well my dream is to become a well-known poet. My goal is to get a book of my poetry published.
16.Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
No crushes, I don't get crushes, I fall for people, and right now I hate everyone. I have quite a few exes though -.-...
Almost done!!! Time for some lighter topics now :D
17. Who's your best bud?
Austin M. No doubt. My best friend in the whole world. And Brittaney M., my sister.
18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
The better question is what AREN'T I reaching for. I love food.
19. Favorite drink?
Uhh... I probably shouldn't say vodka soooo... strawberry mango lemonade.
20. Favorite color?
Purple. More dark purple.
21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Telekinesis. Or telepathy. I'm not giving my reasons why.
22. Favorite movie?
The Fox and the Hound. Hands down.
23. Least favorite food?
Tilapia maybe. Not many foods I don't like.
24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
Cheesecake. I don't care about anything else.
25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Toyota Camry or an old Bentley.
Last 5 questions. You're in the homestretch, come on, you can make it! Lets see what gets under your skin.
26. Most disliked bug?
Bedbugs.
27. Most hated pet peeves?
One word replies. People who linger/hover. Bad grammar/spelling. My mother. Way more but I can't think of them at the moment.
28. Dislike in life?
Everything. I'm not a big fan of life.
29. Most annoying?
Obnoxious, ignorant teenagers.
30. Most disliked TV show?
I don't watch anything I don't like so I don't know.
NOTE: There are two number 3's. I fixed whatever grammar mistakes I noticed. I was bored as hell.
ART PAUSE! =O
Posted 13 years agoSo... umm... I kinda can't draw right now due to... umm... complications...
Okay, so my brother and I went ice skating earlier today and well, I haven't been on skates in a REALLY long time. I was skating on the wall the entire time. I tried skating without the wall a couple times and I never fell, I was doing semi-okay-ish, but yeah. I tried again and, instead of falling, I crashed into the wall and smashed my pinky finger on the metal bar between the pieces of plexi-glass. REALLY hard.
So now I have a fractured pinky and it just so happens to be on my right hand, which I write and draw with. I definitely won't be drawing until I no longer need a splint or it doesn't hurt when I move it.
Sorry everyone, I'll get to everything when I can, as soon as I can, but yeah.
Okay, so my brother and I went ice skating earlier today and well, I haven't been on skates in a REALLY long time. I was skating on the wall the entire time. I tried skating without the wall a couple times and I never fell, I was doing semi-okay-ish, but yeah. I tried again and, instead of falling, I crashed into the wall and smashed my pinky finger on the metal bar between the pieces of plexi-glass. REALLY hard.
So now I have a fractured pinky and it just so happens to be on my right hand, which I write and draw with. I definitely won't be drawing until I no longer need a splint or it doesn't hurt when I move it.
Sorry everyone, I'll get to everything when I can, as soon as I can, but yeah.
Relationship Meme
Posted 13 years agoStolen from 
I am totally not avoiding writing a psychology paper right now O.o... Definitely not.
-Current relationship status: Happily taken <3
-Longest relationship: 23 months
-Shortest relationship: 1 week
-How many people have you broken up with?: 4
-How many people have broken up with you?: 1
-How many times has circumstance ended the relationship?: Once... it was a bad circumstance too...
-How many times have you truly been in love?: Three times
-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?: 3
-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?: Mhm
-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?: I don't think you can love someone without it hurting
-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?: Yeah =\
-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Ohhhhhhh yah
-Are you happier single or in a relationship?: In a relationship
-Have you ever been cheated on?: Yah... never again
-Have you ever cheated?: Never!!!
-What is your favorite thing about the same sex?: Personality
-What makes you melt?: Holding hands, cuddling
-What is the best part of being in a relationship?: Knowing I have someone
-What is the worst part of being in a relationship?: Feeling like you're not good enough for them
-Worst relationship?: My longest one... more mental abuse than I could understand
-Have you ever had your heart broken?: So many times...
-Have you ever broken someone's heart?: Maybe?
-Do you talk to any of your exes?: Almost all of them
-If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you?: Probably not. I'm happy with who I'm with now
-Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?: Possibly?
-What is your type?: Generally older (though for once I'm with someone younger, kind of), taller, smart, nerdy, and sensitive.
-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?: Not really, I try to be but eh..
-Have you dated people who were not good to you?: Yup.
-Have you been in an abusive relationship?: Mentally and emotionally abusive, but yes
-Have you ever had sex with someone just so that they would stay with you?: Yah... sadly that was how I lost my virginity...
-Have you ever had sexual fantasies about one of your exes?: No
-Have you dated someone older then you?: Duh, ha
-Younger?: Now, yes, but not even by a month
-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?: Uh... they were all alive? My exes didn't have too much in common
-Have u ever done anything sexual with your girlfriend/boyfriend in front of your parents?: Hell no! My parents haven't even met my boyfriend and I plan on keeping it that way a while x.x
-In the movies?: No
-Anywhere outside?: Haha, yeah
-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Mmhmm
-Have you ever cried for more then 3 hours about a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Yep, I hyperventilated a lot too =\
-When is the last time that you were in a relationship?: Right now =3, but aside from that, October 2011
-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?: (Bar none, call now! I had to do it O.o) But, no, I don't really, some people just don't change.
-Believe in love at first sight?: No
-Ever dated two people at once?: That's what I consider cheating. No
-What's the perfect date: Anything involving taking me to the mountains <3
-Ever been given a promise ring?: No
-Do you have something to say to any of your exs?: Nope, I've said everything that needed to be said
-Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?: Uh, kind of, but it was in no way intentional and I felt bad for it
-Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?: No
-Do you believe in true love?: That I do
-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?: YES. Worse, actually.
-Do you think that you will/or have found the love of your life?: I hope I have, but only time can tell

I am totally not avoiding writing a psychology paper right now O.o... Definitely not.
-Current relationship status: Happily taken <3
-Longest relationship: 23 months
-Shortest relationship: 1 week
-How many people have you broken up with?: 4
-How many people have broken up with you?: 1
-How many times has circumstance ended the relationship?: Once... it was a bad circumstance too...
-How many times have you truly been in love?: Three times
-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?: 3
-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?: Mhm
-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?: I don't think you can love someone without it hurting
-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?: Yeah =\
-Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Ohhhhhhh yah
-Are you happier single or in a relationship?: In a relationship
-Have you ever been cheated on?: Yah... never again
-Have you ever cheated?: Never!!!
-What is your favorite thing about the same sex?: Personality
-What makes you melt?: Holding hands, cuddling
-What is the best part of being in a relationship?: Knowing I have someone
-What is the worst part of being in a relationship?: Feeling like you're not good enough for them
-Worst relationship?: My longest one... more mental abuse than I could understand
-Have you ever had your heart broken?: So many times...
-Have you ever broken someone's heart?: Maybe?
-Do you talk to any of your exes?: Almost all of them
-If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you?: Probably not. I'm happy with who I'm with now
-Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?: Possibly?
-What is your type?: Generally older (though for once I'm with someone younger, kind of), taller, smart, nerdy, and sensitive.
-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?: Not really, I try to be but eh..
-Have you dated people who were not good to you?: Yup.
-Have you been in an abusive relationship?: Mentally and emotionally abusive, but yes
-Have you ever had sex with someone just so that they would stay with you?: Yah... sadly that was how I lost my virginity...
-Have you ever had sexual fantasies about one of your exes?: No
-Have you dated someone older then you?: Duh, ha
-Younger?: Now, yes, but not even by a month
-What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?: Uh... they were all alive? My exes didn't have too much in common
-Have u ever done anything sexual with your girlfriend/boyfriend in front of your parents?: Hell no! My parents haven't even met my boyfriend and I plan on keeping it that way a while x.x
-In the movies?: No
-Anywhere outside?: Haha, yeah
-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Mmhmm
-Have you ever cried for more then 3 hours about a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Yep, I hyperventilated a lot too =\
-When is the last time that you were in a relationship?: Right now =3, but aside from that, October 2011
-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?: (Bar none, call now! I had to do it O.o) But, no, I don't really, some people just don't change.
-Believe in love at first sight?: No
-Ever dated two people at once?: That's what I consider cheating. No
-What's the perfect date: Anything involving taking me to the mountains <3
-Ever been given a promise ring?: No
-Do you have something to say to any of your exs?: Nope, I've said everything that needed to be said
-Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?: Uh, kind of, but it was in no way intentional and I felt bad for it
-Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?: No
-Do you believe in true love?: That I do
-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?: YES. Worse, actually.
-Do you think that you will/or have found the love of your life?: I hope I have, but only time can tell
Update and Help?
Posted 13 years agoRequests, umm, to be honest, I haven't been working on them lately. I need to but my motivation is gone. Sorry to anyone that has had a request for a while, you WILL get your requests as soon as I can get myself to draw again.
Also, do any of you watchers take requests? (free art because I'm a broke fox x.x) I have a couple ideas in mind but no money to get them done. Or if any of you know of some people who do, let me know? Pleases and thank you.
Thank you all for your patience, and just thank you for watching me and such, I really do appreciate it =3
Also, do any of you watchers take requests? (free art because I'm a broke fox x.x) I have a couple ideas in mind but no money to get them done. Or if any of you know of some people who do, let me know? Pleases and thank you.
Thank you all for your patience, and just thank you for watching me and such, I really do appreciate it =3
Issues...
Posted 14 years agoSo, my internet at the house where I do my scanning and coloring and submitting is kinda... gone. Can't afford to pay it. So no posts will be made on Wednesdays or weekends.
YES, I finished the plushies, but the files were corrupt or something when I moved them to my laptop, so I need to get them again when I go back to that house on Wed. This week, at some point, they will be up.
I am soooo sorry. I had no idea our internet would be canceled so soon, and I don't know why only those files were bad when I moved them over.
*barks and hugs* I'm sorry all.
YES, I finished the plushies, but the files were corrupt or something when I moved them to my laptop, so I need to get them again when I go back to that house on Wed. This week, at some point, they will be up.
I am soooo sorry. I had no idea our internet would be canceled so soon, and I don't know why only those files were bad when I moved them over.
*barks and hugs* I'm sorry all.
Plushies! And stuffs =3
Posted 14 years agoAlright, so this weekend I intend on getting all of the plushie requests done. 


, yours are all finished, I am waiting to finish Caleb,


's so I can submit them all at once.
Others, I'm working on yours when I get the time, I've started basic sketches for some and I'll put up the WIP's when I'm finished so I can move on with them all.
Also, if you've requested something from me and I don't have you listed on my page, please let me know, I really don't want to forget anyone.
Thanks, dears.
Unrelated though, I just really like saying this because it was by far the funniest edition, by me, to my family's apparent tradition of doing stupid things on each other's birthdays, I set my hair on fire. XD
Anyway though, yeah, please let me know if I forgot anything.



, yours are all finished, I am waiting to finish Caleb,


's so I can submit them all at once.Others, I'm working on yours when I get the time, I've started basic sketches for some and I'll put up the WIP's when I'm finished so I can move on with them all.
Also, if you've requested something from me and I don't have you listed on my page, please let me know, I really don't want to forget anyone.
Thanks, dears.
Unrelated though, I just really like saying this because it was by far the funniest edition, by me, to my family's apparent tradition of doing stupid things on each other's birthdays, I set my hair on fire. XD
Anyway though, yeah, please let me know if I forgot anything.
Ponies? Plushies? Requests? PROGRESS!
Posted 14 years agoYolas! I have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA why I'm in a good mood right now (seriously, I've been in a depressive fit for a good 3 weeks now, I REALLY don't know why =\). But anyway, since I am, and I'm still kind of on a pony binge, I'm going to finish up drawing my ponies and hopefully get them lined and ready to scan and color this weekend (?).
So far I have lined Nishy pony 2.0, Luna (it looks like a mix of her as Luna and Nightmare Moon), and
. I have sketched 
, and Fluttershy. Still on my list are 
, and I may draw DJ Pon-3, Octavia, and Derpy Hooves.
If you'd like a pony, let me know! They most likely won't be done this weekend with the rest of them, but I'll get to them when I can.
PLUSHIE REQUESTS: I have half of them sketched and will not get to coloring and posting until I do the others.
OTHER REQUESTS: I'd like to get all these pony and plushie requests out of the way before I get to work on yours. Though I have begun working on
's badge and ref. Once I get to work on them I'll put off my other projects (unless I get an idea for a REALLY good one and have to get it done right then) until I finish.
Thank you all for understanding. I know I'm behind, but I'm working hard to try and get them done as soon as I can.
So far I have lined Nishy pony 2.0, Luna (it looks like a mix of her as Luna and Nightmare Moon), and
. I have sketched 
, and Fluttershy. Still on my list are 
, and I may draw DJ Pon-3, Octavia, and Derpy Hooves.If you'd like a pony, let me know! They most likely won't be done this weekend with the rest of them, but I'll get to them when I can.
PLUSHIE REQUESTS: I have half of them sketched and will not get to coloring and posting until I do the others.
OTHER REQUESTS: I'd like to get all these pony and plushie requests out of the way before I get to work on yours. Though I have begun working on
's badge and ref. Once I get to work on them I'll put off my other projects (unless I get an idea for a REALLY good one and have to get it done right then) until I finish.Thank you all for understanding. I know I'm behind, but I'm working hard to try and get them done as soon as I can.
2011 Meme
Posted 14 years ago1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
Went to Breckenridge, climbed past the tree-line fuckers!, failed a class, went to a furmeet... I did a lot that was new to me this year.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make resolutions because I know I can't keep them.
3. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
At my dad's, probably doing the same thing I always do. I might make some brownies or something though =/
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, but, it's been a scare a couple times...
5. What countries did you visit?
I've still never left the country, hoping to get to Italy in the next few years though.
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
For starters, a relationship that doesn't completely fail, though I'm not hopeful, a fursuit, and freedom (June 22nd baby)
7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
August 16th, October 31... and not for good reasons v.v
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I think keeping myself alive this whole year is my only real achievement...
9. What was your biggest failure?
I'd rather not go into that...
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
My Atypical Depression is an illness, I definitely suffered from that this year...
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Umm... what is money >.<
12. Where did most of your money go?
Food. Not even for me either, I mostly bought food for friends.
13. What song will always remind you of 2011?
"Rolling in the Deep" "When Two Are One" "Coming Undone" "Boats and Birds" and "A Minor Incident"... I know, more than one.
14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Getting out of the house and away from myself...
15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Spending time with the wrong people. And umm... yeah... sulking in my own self-pity and self-hatred...
16. What was your favorite TV program?
Robot Chicken, MLP: FiM, Regular Show, The Sing-off... I don't watch much tv...
17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is a powerful thing, I only save it for people that deserve it, only one person but he's not new.
18. What was the best book you read?
Beloved... I'd say The Sight but I haven't finished it yet.
19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Skrillex, Badly Drawn Boy, Gregory and the Hawk!!!!!!, and a few furiends (

)
20. What was your favorite film of this year?
Uh... shit I saw too many.
21. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 17, and I spent it at Cherry Creek with Brittaney........ then crying at home...
22. What kept you sane?
I'm only slightly sane, but furries! Dear god, furries. I can never thank you guys enough...
23. Who did you miss?
... People... that I shouldn't have missed. And a few friends I've lost...
24. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
Never let anyone else try to change you, only you can do that.
Went to Breckenridge, climbed past the tree-line fuckers!, failed a class, went to a furmeet... I did a lot that was new to me this year.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make resolutions because I know I can't keep them.
3. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
At my dad's, probably doing the same thing I always do. I might make some brownies or something though =/
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, but, it's been a scare a couple times...
5. What countries did you visit?
I've still never left the country, hoping to get to Italy in the next few years though.
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
For starters, a relationship that doesn't completely fail, though I'm not hopeful, a fursuit, and freedom (June 22nd baby)
7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
August 16th, October 31... and not for good reasons v.v
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I think keeping myself alive this whole year is my only real achievement...
9. What was your biggest failure?
I'd rather not go into that...
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
My Atypical Depression is an illness, I definitely suffered from that this year...
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Umm... what is money >.<
12. Where did most of your money go?
Food. Not even for me either, I mostly bought food for friends.
13. What song will always remind you of 2011?
"Rolling in the Deep" "When Two Are One" "Coming Undone" "Boats and Birds" and "A Minor Incident"... I know, more than one.
14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Getting out of the house and away from myself...
15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Spending time with the wrong people. And umm... yeah... sulking in my own self-pity and self-hatred...
16. What was your favorite TV program?
Robot Chicken, MLP: FiM, Regular Show, The Sing-off... I don't watch much tv...
17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Hate is a powerful thing, I only save it for people that deserve it, only one person but he's not new.
18. What was the best book you read?
Beloved... I'd say The Sight but I haven't finished it yet.
19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Skrillex, Badly Drawn Boy, Gregory and the Hawk!!!!!!, and a few furiends (


)20. What was your favorite film of this year?
Uh... shit I saw too many.
21. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 17, and I spent it at Cherry Creek with Brittaney........ then crying at home...
22. What kept you sane?
I'm only slightly sane, but furries! Dear god, furries. I can never thank you guys enough...
23. Who did you miss?
... People... that I shouldn't have missed. And a few friends I've lost...
24. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:
Never let anyone else try to change you, only you can do that.
Merry Xmas...
Posted 14 years agoI hope everyone else has a better Xmas Eve than I am, and continues on to have a great Xmas.
As for me, I've had a slight falling out with my family, I've learned that my father is facing foreclosure and my mother only has enough money to last until I graduate. So. Not a very good Xmas weekend for me so far. But I plan on drawing a ton with my new art supplies and getting drunk as all hell. Yeah.
Anyway though, I still wish you all a merry Xmas.
As for me, I've had a slight falling out with my family, I've learned that my father is facing foreclosure and my mother only has enough money to last until I graduate. So. Not a very good Xmas weekend for me so far. But I plan on drawing a ton with my new art supplies and getting drunk as all hell. Yeah.
Anyway though, I still wish you all a merry Xmas.
OMFG SHOOT ME!!!
Posted 14 years agoNO! I... I'm ashamed! WHY?! I can't believe I've come to this! Nooooooooo! I... I just... *dies*
I... I watched MLP... and... and I liked it...
Goddammit! Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But... I must keep watching...
*cries* I can't believe this...
I... I watched MLP... and... and I liked it...
Goddammit! Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But... I must keep watching...
*cries* I can't believe this...
Poems and projects and requests (Oh my!)
Posted 14 years agoBeen writing quite a lot lately. It's really been mellowing me out a lot, making me appreciate my spirituality and idealities and such, and just making me more willing to actually try. Anyway though, since I've been writing so much and since I've decided to post everything I write from now on here, I'd appreciate a little feedback from time to time if it's not too much to ask =3. Pleases and thank yous!
Also, for anyone who requested Xmas art from me, I have all but one sketched and inked and waiting to be colored.


, I will get to your refs and or requests by January most likely. (So if anyone else wants to request just know it'll be a while).
Aaaaaaand I haven't forgotten about my projects like the chibi dance party thingeh, hehe, they're just being pushed aside for a bit longer.
Also, for anyone who requested Xmas art from me, I have all but one sketched and inked and waiting to be colored.


, I will get to your refs and or requests by January most likely. (So if anyone else wants to request just know it'll be a while).Aaaaaaand I haven't forgotten about my projects like the chibi dance party thingeh, hehe, they're just being pushed aside for a bit longer.
Boredom
Posted 14 years agoStole this from 
Name: Lizzie, Nish, Nishy
- Single or taken: Single
- Sex: Female
- Birthday: June 22
- Sign: Cancer
- Hair color: Natural= strawberry blonde, dyed=blonde
- Eye color: Hazel, but they change
- Height: 5' 2"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Bi
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S P E C I F I C S
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Umm, I don't know
- What are you listening to right now?: "Runaway"- Silverstein
- Who is the last person that called you?: My mother
- How many buddies are online right now?: 3 on Skype and 13 on FB
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F A V O R I T E S
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- Animal: Foxes and platypi
- Color: Dark purple
- Drink: French Vanilla Cappuchino
- Element: Fire
- Food: CHEESECAKE
- Game: Banjo Kazooie/ Tooie
- Movie: Reincarnation
- Song: It changes constantly, but right now it's Tonight Alive's cover of "Little Lion Man"
- Subjects in school: English and choir
- T.V.: Don't watch it much but Regular Show and Tosh.0
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H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
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- Given anyone a bath?: Nope
- Smoked?: Yup, still do every once in a while
- Bungee jumped?: No
- Made yourself throw up?: No
- Skinny dipped?: No =(
- Ever been in love?: ... Yeah...
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: When I was little
- Pictured your crush naked?: Duhr
- Actually seen your crush naked?: No -.-'
- Cried when someone died?: Yeah
- Lied: Doesn't everyone?
- Fallen for your best friend?: Not exactly fallen
- Done something you regret?: Who hasn't?
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C U R R E N T
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- Clothes: Pink shirt, black sweats, and an awesome scarf/bandana
- Desktop picture: Black Firefox, though I may change it to Fox and the Hound
- CD in player: Who uses CDs anymore?
- DVD in player: Probably still Brigadoon
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L A S T | P E R S O N
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- You touched: Goldie
- Hugged: My dad
- You kissed: ... Goldie... My stuffed golden retriever... >.<
- You IMed: The frog and wolfsune
- Talk to online: Same
- You sexed it up with: Bahahahaha
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A R E | Y O U
___________________________________________________________________________
- Understanding?: Yes
- Open-minded?: Yes
- Arrogant?: Everyone is at times
- Insecure?: Kinda
- Random?: I like cereal.
- Hungry?: When am I not?
- Smart?: I consider myself to be
- Moody?: Yeah, I can be very
- Organized?: Yes
- Shy?: Around new people and people I like
- Difficult?: Bahahaha, no, NEVER! XD
- Bored easily?: Yep, kinda why I'm doing this
- Entertained easily? Yush, find me a laser pointer and I'll be entertained for hours
- Obsessed?: With WoW, and music, and furries, and cheesecake, and poetry
- Lazy? Extremely
- Angry?: Only if I have reason to be
- Happy?: I try to be
- Hyper?: Haha, sugar
- Trusting?: Not so much anymore
___________________________________________________________________________
R A N D O M
___________________________________________________________________________
- In the morning I: check the time and go back to sleep
- Love is: that's all. Love just is. There are far too many yet not enough words to describe it.
- I dream about: Usually random stuff, but a lot of the times they turn into nightmares.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: First, hair. Then personality.
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W H O
___________________________________________________________________________
- Makes you laugh the most: Friends
- Makes you smile: Friends
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: No one
___________________________________________________________________________
D O | Y O U | E V E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Umm, I have before, and sometimes still do.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Oh noo
- Wish you were younger?: I wish I was older >.<
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Yes
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N U M B E R
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: What heart? Far too many times for me to want to count.
- Of Cd's I own: Like 7? I don't know
- Of scars on my body: None
- Of bones I've broken: None

Name: Lizzie, Nish, Nishy
- Single or taken: Single
- Sex: Female
- Birthday: June 22
- Sign: Cancer
- Hair color: Natural= strawberry blonde, dyed=blonde
- Eye color: Hazel, but they change
- Height: 5' 2"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Bi
____________________________________________________________________________
S P E C I F I C S
____________________________________________________________________________
- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Umm, I don't know
- What are you listening to right now?: "Runaway"- Silverstein
- Who is the last person that called you?: My mother
- How many buddies are online right now?: 3 on Skype and 13 on FB
____________________________________________________________________________
F A V O R I T E S
____________________________________________________________________________
- Animal: Foxes and platypi
- Color: Dark purple
- Drink: French Vanilla Cappuchino
- Element: Fire
- Food: CHEESECAKE
- Game: Banjo Kazooie/ Tooie
- Movie: Reincarnation
- Song: It changes constantly, but right now it's Tonight Alive's cover of "Little Lion Man"
- Subjects in school: English and choir
- T.V.: Don't watch it much but Regular Show and Tosh.0
____________________________________________________________________________
H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
____________________________________________________________________________
- Given anyone a bath?: Nope
- Smoked?: Yup, still do every once in a while
- Bungee jumped?: No
- Made yourself throw up?: No
- Skinny dipped?: No =(
- Ever been in love?: ... Yeah...
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: When I was little
- Pictured your crush naked?: Duhr
- Actually seen your crush naked?: No -.-'
- Cried when someone died?: Yeah
- Lied: Doesn't everyone?
- Fallen for your best friend?: Not exactly fallen
- Done something you regret?: Who hasn't?
____________________________________________________________________________
C U R R E N T
____________________________________________________________________________
- Clothes: Pink shirt, black sweats, and an awesome scarf/bandana
- Desktop picture: Black Firefox, though I may change it to Fox and the Hound
- CD in player: Who uses CDs anymore?
- DVD in player: Probably still Brigadoon
____________________________________________________________________________
L A S T | P E R S O N
____________________________________________________________________________
- You touched: Goldie
- Hugged: My dad
- You kissed: ... Goldie... My stuffed golden retriever... >.<
- You IMed: The frog and wolfsune
- Talk to online: Same
- You sexed it up with: Bahahahaha
___________________________________________________________________________
A R E | Y O U
___________________________________________________________________________
- Understanding?: Yes
- Open-minded?: Yes
- Arrogant?: Everyone is at times
- Insecure?: Kinda
- Random?: I like cereal.
- Hungry?: When am I not?
- Smart?: I consider myself to be
- Moody?: Yeah, I can be very
- Organized?: Yes
- Shy?: Around new people and people I like
- Difficult?: Bahahaha, no, NEVER! XD
- Bored easily?: Yep, kinda why I'm doing this
- Entertained easily? Yush, find me a laser pointer and I'll be entertained for hours
- Obsessed?: With WoW, and music, and furries, and cheesecake, and poetry
- Lazy? Extremely
- Angry?: Only if I have reason to be
- Happy?: I try to be
- Hyper?: Haha, sugar
- Trusting?: Not so much anymore
___________________________________________________________________________
R A N D O M
___________________________________________________________________________
- In the morning I: check the time and go back to sleep
- Love is: that's all. Love just is. There are far too many yet not enough words to describe it.
- I dream about: Usually random stuff, but a lot of the times they turn into nightmares.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: First, hair. Then personality.
___________________________________________________________________________
W H O
___________________________________________________________________________
- Makes you laugh the most: Friends
- Makes you smile: Friends
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: No one
___________________________________________________________________________
D O | Y O U | E V E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Umm, I have before, and sometimes still do.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Oh noo
- Wish you were younger?: I wish I was older >.<
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Yes
___________________________________________________________________________
N U M B E R
___________________________________________________________________________
- Of times I have had my heart broken?: What heart? Far too many times for me to want to count.
- Of Cd's I own: Like 7? I don't know
- Of scars on my body: None
- Of bones I've broken: None
Omg!
Posted 14 years agoSo today Christmas came early for me. One of my brothers decided to buy me a little sketchbook (that's more travel sized than the one I got from silverreyes) and a freakin' art kit! It has colored pencils, oil pastels, and acrylic, oil, and watercolor paint! Eep! New stuff to try out! So I'm hoping to get some practice in with those to see what I like. If any of you have any tips on anything I would greatly appreciate it =3. Eep! Is a happy shadow foxy!
Sugar! And music!
Posted 14 years agoSoooo my sleep schedule is non-existant as of late. And I DON'T CARE! Haha. Sorry, I'm hyped up on no sleep, PixyStix, and dubstep right now XD.
Aaaanyways, I have a sketchpad now (thanks silverreyes!) so I'm a bit more motivated to try to finish the last of my Xmas requests. Don't hold me to that, but know that no matter what they WILL be done before Xmas.
That's pretty much it =3
Aaaanyways, I have a sketchpad now (thanks silverreyes!) so I'm a bit more motivated to try to finish the last of my Xmas requests. Don't hold me to that, but know that no matter what they WILL be done before Xmas.
That's pretty much it =3
Gobble gobble!
Posted 14 years agoHappy turkey day everyone!
I hope you all have a great day with family, friends, or whoever!
And I'd like to say I'm so thankful for my family (well most of them), my friends, and all my furry friends as well. =3
Thank you for making me realize I'm a furry.
Thank you for honestly being such a great friend to me, I appreciate it so much.
Thank you for being like a brother to me.
Thank you for making Computer Art fun this year, my little freshie.
Thank you for making me smile when I didn't think it was possible, you're becoming a great friend.
Thank you for bein' a friend, our odd little conversations cheer me up.
Thank you for, well, a lot, like helping me realize some things I wouldn't have on my own, but mostly thanks for staying my friend.
You guys are amazing and you keep me sane and full of love and furry pride! I love you and am so amazingly thankful for all of you and what you've done!
Thank you to everyone else too, even if it's just a hi or whatever, thank you ^-^.
I kinda stole this idea from boltfan25 so thanks to him too. =3
Again, happy Thanksgiving!
Gobble gobble!
I hope you all have a great day with family, friends, or whoever!
And I'd like to say I'm so thankful for my family (well most of them), my friends, and all my furry friends as well. =3
Thank you for making me realize I'm a furry.
Thank you for honestly being such a great friend to me, I appreciate it so much.
Thank you for being like a brother to me.
Thank you for making Computer Art fun this year, my little freshie.
Thank you for making me smile when I didn't think it was possible, you're becoming a great friend.
Thank you for bein' a friend, our odd little conversations cheer me up.
Thank you for, well, a lot, like helping me realize some things I wouldn't have on my own, but mostly thanks for staying my friend.You guys are amazing and you keep me sane and full of love and furry pride! I love you and am so amazingly thankful for all of you and what you've done!
Thank you to everyone else too, even if it's just a hi or whatever, thank you ^-^.
I kinda stole this idea from boltfan25 so thanks to him too. =3
Again, happy Thanksgiving!
Gobble gobble!
Break, Scanner, Xmas... STUFF!
Posted 14 years agoThank #*@& for Thanksgiving break after tomorrow. Geez. Can't say when the last time I needed a break so badly was. School, family, life. Fur reals man, it's just so much for this little fox to balance all by herself. -.-'
Oh and on another note, I fixed my scanner! Chhyeah! So now I can start scanning stuff. I'll still put up temporary pics of requests or whatever I can't wait to post since I can only scan like two or three times a week, but yeah. Better quality! (I hope)
But anyway, Xmas chibis (and ferals too, just no one's asked for one yet) are getting done and I'll be open to do them for however long I choose, so if you want one, yeah, just ask. Seriously guys, I'm on a roll with them, and I'm having fun drawing and thinking up ideas for these, so keep me busy. And tell people who might be interested too if ya like ;3.
So yeah. Thanks for all the faves and comments and watches and stuffs, I really do appreciate it. It all makes this fox's day just that little bit better =3
Oh and on another note, I fixed my scanner! Chhyeah! So now I can start scanning stuff. I'll still put up temporary pics of requests or whatever I can't wait to post since I can only scan like two or three times a week, but yeah. Better quality! (I hope)
But anyway, Xmas chibis (and ferals too, just no one's asked for one yet) are getting done and I'll be open to do them for however long I choose, so if you want one, yeah, just ask. Seriously guys, I'm on a roll with them, and I'm having fun drawing and thinking up ideas for these, so keep me busy. And tell people who might be interested too if ya like ;3.
So yeah. Thanks for all the faves and comments and watches and stuffs, I really do appreciate it. It all makes this fox's day just that little bit better =3
Chibi Ref Sheets?
Posted 14 years agoSo I've already made one for my new pet, Shira, my freshie, Nyx, and my Nish.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6879065
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6890798
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6890771/
And I'm in the process of creating one for my old pal
and my good friend
.
Not agreeing to anything just yet, but it would probably be on lined paper and look very similar to the ones I have (same type of info and such).
I was wondering, if I were to open these as requests, would anyone want one? Let me know and also if I should keep them free (if not and I figure out how PayPal works I assure you they would be cheap).
Pleeease let me know =3
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6879065
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6890798
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6890771/
And I'm in the process of creating one for my old pal
and my good friend
.Not agreeing to anything just yet, but it would probably be on lined paper and look very similar to the ones I have (same type of info and such).
I was wondering, if I were to open these as requests, would anyone want one? Let me know and also if I should keep them free (if not and I figure out how PayPal works I assure you they would be cheap).
Pleeease let me know =3
Chibi Chibi Chibi Parteh!
Posted 14 years agoAlright, so a little while back I got the idea, from Silver I think, to draw a raccoon dancing. I left it and when I found it tonight I got a better idea... CHIBI DANCE PARTY! Hehe, so obviously, I need more than just my Nishy to dance. So far I'm thinking 




and my little freshie, Susie, will be in it and possibly my newly adopted character, Shira. Was wonderin' if anyone else may wanna be included? Friends get first dibs but I'll include others if I have space ^-^.
Oh and let me know if you want to be doing a specific pose (other than dancing). Like I have a DJ, maybe a character in the corner XD. And if you want glowsticks or something.
Won't be able to get started on this for a week or two at least due to the fact that I'm a little behind on requests, but it WILL be done!





and my little freshie, Susie, will be in it and possibly my newly adopted character, Shira. Was wonderin' if anyone else may wanna be included? Friends get first dibs but I'll include others if I have space ^-^.Oh and let me know if you want to be doing a specific pose (other than dancing). Like I have a DJ, maybe a character in the corner XD. And if you want glowsticks or something.
Won't be able to get started on this for a week or two at least due to the fact that I'm a little behind on requests, but it WILL be done!
Music
Posted 14 years agoAfter a recent turn of events, I've introduced myself to some beautiful new music which is actually in my range. Gregory and the Hawk. I may learn to play some of them on an acoustic guitar and make covers if I can. I'm not sure yet though.
Personal
Posted 14 years agoAfter today, I realize how much I need to change. I almost, or did, or didn't, I don't even know, but I almost lost one of the people who matters most to me today, and I can't do that. I can't be like this anymore. I know that I need help, I need meds or SOMETHING, but I cant keep doing this. So I'm making a change and trying to better myself. I just need support, to know I'm not alone. And hope that the ones I love can understand.
Whew. Got a lot out today. But it feels good.
Sorry for that little spiel guys.
Whew. Got a lot out today. But it feels good.
Sorry for that little spiel guys.
Halloween!
Posted 14 years agoWooh! My favorite holiday is finally here! And I'm happy to say I'm not depressed today ^-^. Anyway, I'm just little old me at school today, no costume but I've got my ears and tail all set and I brought candy as well (hehe, perfect excuse to have candy =P). Tis a great holiday and though I may not go Trick or Treating this year, I'm still gonna enjoy myself. I just wanted to say happy Halloween to everyone =3.
Happy Halloween!
Love, Nish
~Grawr-rawrs!~
Happy Halloween!
Love, Nish
~Grawr-rawrs!~
Reference Sheet?
Posted 14 years agoSo, I'm starting to realize that a lot of artists need ref sheets to go off of. My problem? I'm broke. So if anyone knows who could do one for really cheap or free (ha, that even makes me laugh), let me know? Otherwise I can attempt to do my own ref sheet for Nish, just wouldn't turn out too well on account of I kinda suck, have not too great pic quality, and pretty much just have lined paper. But I'll still try if need be. Just yeah, let me know if you have any info. Please and thank you.
Fall Break Boredom=Art!
Posted 14 years agoTurns out Fall Break has been somewhat boring (sad,eh?). Anyway, I'm drawing like mad tonight and probably will continue most of tomorrow and Friday, at least until Howl-o-Ween (I'm even taking time away from WoW =O blasphemy, I know). I'm always the one to ask people if I can draw something for them but I'm just gonna offer my services for now. Until Friday, I'll draw (almost) anything as long as I'm able to, so just ask and I'll do it. Fur reals, I need stuff to do. Chibis, anthro, feral, whatever. Give meh tasks please!
Digital Art?
Posted 14 years agoSo I've been thinking of maybe trying to do some digital art??? I'm not quite sure yet when I'll be able to because of money, etc, but still. I'd like to know if there are any tablets (I think that's what they're called) or programs or anything else I should look into, considering I know nothing of the matter. You peoples who can actually draw would know more about this than I would so help meh please? =3
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