hello and how's it! First and foremost a thank you to all the new comers new and old that watched me recently and all the favs. Its deeply appreciated!

I rarely make a post worth while these days... Just thought i would touch base to show that im still alive... As for me im doing alright but could be better. My weekend was spent in a foul mood with anything that can go wrong ... Ending up going fits up fast. Been plagued with a most frustrating lag / high ping issue while gaming... Along with low fps.

I formated my pc after pulling my hair out for 3 months only to make a fatel mistake. I backed up most my file, like had a few i forgot about ...but thought "heh the pc on the reinstall gave me the option that only windows and apps will be removed and reinstalled. "

And so i did only to have it say that a complete whip is needed " because windows can't install on this drive unless its formated." So yeah. Lost a bit of art... All my stories I've been working on for years.. And more. Even art I've yet to post.

Top of that financially its shit. Cause im struggling yo save up for a pc when family and life finds a way to pull every penny from your grip. Be it a bill or something breaking around the home. Cost of living is only going up.. The government is killing us with this load shedding crap. The things i want i can't have practically.
40 k for a pc.
5 k for a scooter.
10 k for the comicon trip in march 2024.

Like htf must i save up for that????

So here i am typing on my mobile this entry... On the plus side my pc is fast again and doesn't take 20 to 30 min to boot up. Only cost me all my work of 8 years... So yeah... Im salty this weekend.

In August ill be starting my studies so after battling for 15 years in the company i finally got it.

Ive Been chocked up all day bout this piece of news... around midday I discovered a post that lead me to the detail that Asiri Haven Had passed away, and so I wrote this with a heavy heart.

I feel angry, guilty and sad, angry at her and at myself , for not seeing this coming,being powerless to help, for her doing something dumb, I Ask myself "Why?" Then realizing that she is the only one that can answers that. Guilty that I did not say anything to her for a month, thinking that she is just giving me the cold shoulder as normal. After almost a month I heard that she got hurt and so I messaged, with no replay. Today I messaged her again only to find the news and realize that she will never be reading my text again </3

She was one of the first FA friends I made to commission art with, little did i know what was going on behind the screen.
I knew her for years but did not really "KNOW" her. I have never meet her face to face yet I've been crying most my day. Asiri has been part of life for over 10 years. And it saddens me to know that she is no longer with us.


From a Mariner Rat to the Gamer Girl Yeen Queen ... Fair Winds And Following Seas to you Lass.

I pray and hope in what ever plain of existence you are in now, that we meet again. It is never goodbye, only see you later. ~

First an foremost! Welcome to all my new Watchers and thank you so much for the love that you send this rats way! It's not often that I post a journals about my current or past events bla bla bla you know how it can be with social media, that is just not my cup of tea. I hope everyone has been keeping things as stable and safe as possible with the current lock down's in place in the wake of this Covid-19 business, at the moment, I do got to be honest about this ... its scaring the shit out of me... I am asthmatic... been so all my life... and I have laid awake at night thinking " If by some twist of cruel fate... I catch this shit... It MIGHT actually KILL ME!" So I have been going the extra mile to take measures to insure that it does not happen as I am one of the " essential services" staff for Marine Port Operations for the country.

That said it has been one ... how can i say... ONE FUCKED UP YEAR LOL .... can we just reboot it.. please!

Now on to my Question?
As some of us know, It has been 6 years since James.M.Hardiman the creator of Skunkworks passed away. I have been contemplating to get fan art and personal art commission involving his characters from his series. What would the complications be for doing so, even tho I am doing this in good faith ( And obviously giving the respected credit to him and all involved) as a fan and not for making money and all that jazz, would people be up in arms about it?

Or would they be cool with the idea?

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9171278/ AlextheCatte is hosting a 2 K art raffle! :D

it Has begun! i am slowly working my way down a list on art owed, refunds and charge back to some artist that are in need of a swift shock to the system. its 2019. you are gonna see a CUNT of a side of me in the months to come. the gloves are off baby! ....


On other news. I am living in a racist county that i think just declared war on "white People" ... whom knew.. lol its this political KAK as normal.

Farm attacks on "white " owned land where the attackers have radio/signal jammers ( https://www.reddit.com/r/southafric....._using_signal/ ) FYI this shyt is military grade shyt! that ya cant get a radio shack. ROFL

Politicians like the Julius Malema calling for blood to spilled. (white blood. ) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nL9eXc1hP8A some BLF leader saying something along the line as to " for every 1 black person killed we ill kill 5 whites. " pets and all too FYI

... This has happened before in the Mozambican War of Independence where a group capitalized on that to chase "white people " out. Killing everything that was white or had white on it... from dogs, cats and cattle. in 1974

That is how my mother ended up in South Africa. seems history repeats itself eh.

I find it extremely unfair that no mater how many time i get the advantage, I see the target first, I shoot at the target first! but i always loose the gun fight due to Lag and latency. my ping is at 170 ms. And yet i get a massive disadvantage with lag. It frustrating me and makes me feel victimized by a system this is not compensating for me?

i am constantly at a handy cap and get i am expected to be competitive? how can i improve and be competitive when 1 out of 4 bullets register. and other players literally have 2 second window to do as thy please with me cause my characters stands there doing fuck all for 2 seconds before responding?????

shit like peaking.. moving behind cover .. and i still get shot is not fair.

MAKE SERVERS IN SOUTH AFRICA FOR FUCK SAKES!

other games don't have this much of an issue...

I hit the ground first.. but i can do fuck all cause shit is still rendering .. when while a other players ... jumping after me .. hits the ground first... gets into the same room as me .. picks up a gun and kills me... that is SO FAIR .. and means im a cunt noob that should GET GUD right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i mean i mean.. i only got 443 hours clocked in on pubg.....

As of late and due to the recent events in my life, I'd like to say sorry to those that I have been an inconvenience to in the past. They would know whom they are.

One thing I hate about my job is the moment of silence and stillness in the early hours of the morning where I would either look out over the ocean or peer into the depths that light can't touch. It's with these moments that I get lost in thought.. Do a little soul searching.. That I realize that I asked to much, expected to much, or expected anthing at all. And given way to much.

And over time it's gotten to be a heavy weight to give give give and still continue to smile while I punish myself for the name of either being the nice guy, or doing what is right. I'm just tired of being used, being taken advantage of, it seems to be the normal way of life in this age in a ugly world.

First and foremost hello and thank you to all my new watchers! I don't post journals often so with that said onto the main event!

After 14 years of being a furry I got bit buy the fursuit bug! XD I got my first taste of it at the fan con comicon here in ZA with a make shift paper mask!

So now I'm interested in making my very first head!

I'd like it to be semi realistic and not to toony.
No bigger than a motorcycle helmet.
Movable jaw.

I'll need all the help I can get as from what how about to start with this like what foam to use.
Glue
Tools... And so on. I've even seen something bout balaclava vs using the foam head.

Would it be a alright idea to start a patreon or gofundme to raise cash for art?

And like a reward time system is having a random draw to have characters pairing up with shephard, poles and credit of thanks to those that made it possible to commission that item. cause right now ... the dollar is just to high for what i can afford. what i can afford ends up being a simple and somewhat shitty sketch. thanks to the rand????

I cant afford High end tier art anymore sadly. so i will need help or a 50 50 partner.

any thoughts?

Captains log... 228-02-20160618 ...
This...
Place ......
Is ...............
A shit hole......


Secondary SITREP... This place is a total shit hole!

It's 02 22 Am and I'm still awake in the control room of the ENSELENI for my night shift. Spent the last 5 hours browsing the net for collars for Legacy and I. Pet stores... adult .. BDSM sites .. ya know ...

Does anyone perhaps know of furrs that could point me in the right direction? Custom crafters and so on. Looking for something casual yet stylish.. spiked collars are just tacky in my taste. D ring, comfortable, sexy. Buckle system.

Perhaps someone that can engrave leather collar?

Besides that .. how is everything one? It's good that I retch out to my minons time to time. ;3

It's safe to say after this whole compromise in in FA security that one should be a little more vigilant, a prime example is what I just noticed on my watch list!

In a span of 24 hour. ( and I recommend you do the same!) I picked up 4 new watchers on my list, so on further investigation I noticed things like on the one "watcher" ... who's account is no older than 48 hours, has between zero and bullshit information on the profile, has a stupid fucking name, has less than 30 + page views, and has watched over 1320 other profiles!

I think it's safe to say that it's a bottle generated account.

Best part is ... it says on the profile info .. " another account owned by some other faggit, thanks for changing the locks FA"

And people are still like! "Thanks for the watch!" XD

Profiles like that I DO NOT TRUST!!!

I AM sick of this fucking shit!

People need to start manning the FUCK up!
I am just down right pissy and sick N tired of this same old bullshit! the sort of sick N tired and bullshit! that the second you hear, read or are spoken to about it, you say " WHOW! ...stop and just fuck off!" you know...

what i want to know is ... why do artist take on commission! when 3 months down the line .. thy cant HANDLE it .. then almost a year later thy want to refund me ... some even forget bout me or deny that i commissioned them until proven other wise.

But here i am typing to you with a cast on my arm! because of the 2 out 8 bone in the wrist are broken, the cast i only got 3 days ago.. pfftt 3 days ago i didn't even know th3y where broken! I worked threw with this pain for a month, heavy duty work in a dry dock till i told myself .. " i think something is up?"

Almost every other art piece i got in the pipe work are on hold or the verge of a refund because of some sort of turmoil in the life of that artist? That is happening way to much... what is going on????!

Wish me luck guys and girls! i need all the motivation that I can get! ill be starting my strict gym plan from today on!

tips and help WILL be needed XD

Well first and foremost a BIG welcome and THANK YOU! to my new watches! thanks for adding me to your epic list and favoring my submissions!

Its all most the end of the year once again and man has it been one messed up ride so far! With very few of my goals completed, but " everywhere is in walking distance, if you have the time." :3

but to the point now, i want 4 Commissions from RK http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18360976/ and i have 4 ideas and in need of 4 potential partners to go 50/50 with me, 2 females and 2 male characters willing to pair up with a Snow Leopard and a Rodent?

(1) Shep - hand job - female partner wanted.

(2) Legacy - finger job - male partner wanted.

(3) Shep - sex - Female partner wanted.

(4) Legacy - sex - male partner wanted.

I also have 2 other female characters of interest Sadie and Sukari! (Yes! I have finally picked a name for that sweet Rat!)
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/8154157/ SFW
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/15042109/ NSFW
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/17683856/ SFW
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/17963755/ NSFW

I SHEPHARD HAD JUST BORE WITNESS TO THE SINGLE MOST PAINFUL FUCKING MOMENT IN MY SHORT SHITTY LIFE!!!! SHREDDER YOU FUCKING CUNT! YOU HAD ONE FUCKING JOB! >:V

EVEN HIS OWN JUNKING GOON SAID "WTF MAN!!!!... WHY DID YOU DO THAT!"

INNER ME, " OK OK ... CALM THE FUCK DOWN .... HE JUST TOOK A GUT SHOT FROM THAT POES... MAYBE HE WILL LIVE..." AND THEN!!!! TO PUT THE FINAL NAIL IN THE COFFIN! A BLACK HOLE SWALLOWS THE PLANET.... SNUFFING OUT ALL AND ANY REASONABLE DOUBT THAT HE MADE IT.... http://i2.kym-cdn.com/photos/images.....3502548764.png

I need a strong drink....and some pills....


"We choose what holds us back, and what moves us forward."

-Master Splinter-

http://www.furaffinity.net/commissi.....s/paintchaser/

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/purrchinyan/

any female / male character willing to couple up with shephard for some NSFW pic? most likely be 40/40 or 30/30 depending on the type of pic.

First and utmost! A big shout out to all my watches for the Favs! You guys and gals rock!

And now back to the point of this entry! As the title says .. im looking for a rat skull neck lace like this > https://www.etsy.com/listing/619619....._listings_row# < there are many more and far cheaper around on the net with real skulls and so on. But this particular one is 1 1/4 inch in length, witch is perfect and precisely what I am looking for cause it can fit on my collar. I was hoping to treat myself to it as a birthday gift for myself this month, but alas ... the item and shipping comes to almost $100 which is just stupid crazy in my currency. (R1395 to be precise. )

Is there someone here that knows were I could get something more affordable but just as detailed with the correct proportion. (Bottom jaw was to short if you did not notice. ;3 ) or perhaps a furr that specialises making such nik naks?

thing I normally do! But first things first!.. a big shout out to all my watchers for watching me, and favouring my submissions. Most of you wont even see this let alone read it!? =P THANK YOU ALL!

Life on my side of the glob has been iffy of late .. with a mood swing of anger towards the world, mild depression after thinking to hard and long on what I want to get out of my life. Followed by me scoffing it off and going back to my 5 hour + fix of gaming with WoW (horde is getting their ballz kicked in so fucking, that it dangles out their arse!), DayZ (pvp fun... till you get killed by hackers or a dick arse sniper!) and Elder scrolls online (=3 Khajiits are hot!) And that my friends is how I spend most my days and nights, I'm withdrawn in a shell that is pretty much my life with almost no social life in it cause to me it has no value expect my closest friends. And even they can be complete cunts towards me. I work shifts so I do have time Don't get me wrong? But the case is when I am free .. they are working... when I am working they are free ( weekends normally cause thy work 9 to 5 ) .

Got long term and short goals that I got to fix myself on but lack the motivation to do so... im a lazy damn rat xD

Gym
Get my drivers (got a learners and no car :/ .. again )
Firearms licence. (R5 / R1 rifle, shotgun and glock.)
Learn to fight.
And fixing up the home room by room.

I need to get out more .. find a girl ..wont happen. I plan to do some paintball /airsoft so that is one of the only out I got. Along with fishing but its winter so the damns and lakes are closed. .. hmm what else can I drone on about.... but either way im still alive when I should be dead 5 times over! Haa!

But enough bout my crap! If I'm not to late and ya'll not in bed, ask me anything! Its TMI Weekend! =3

Hi guys and girls, first a shout out to all of my watchers! THANK YOU ALL! and as much as it sour's my mouth to say this.. happy valentines day to the couples.. buurghhh :/

to us single guys ill see you at the pub for a PINT! OF! BEER! later!

but Now onto businessssss! I need some solid help in spreading the word, or info so to say and to keep a look out for some items that I'm trying to get my hands on. I am working on trying to get a Russian set for my airsoft build. the basic build would be for now the hardest items to obtain in my country us listed below.

GORKA gen 3 or 4 camos.
ZSH-1 or 2 helm repilca or real.
SSO Smersh Webbing.

I'd like to see if i may perhaps find a contract outside first where i could get these items cheaper, almost new or second hand but in a decent condition, before blowing wods of cash online that would choke a donkey!

the helm alone for like $140 - $400 +- ranging from replicas to the real deal.

Right oh after a little facebook purge on the friends list, it's hard not to notice that some of the people in your life that mattered most, friends or family alike. Are the ones that just don't give a rats ASSSSS about you anyone. I am a very quiet in nature, shy individual. i am the type that will either say nothing at all or sit on my hands when it comes to petty crap. (if you don't got anything nice to say.. don's say anything at all. ) well if people ignore you, take advantage and piss on your battery for long periods of time. Bottling all that crap up! People pushing at your buttons, at the envelope, your boundaries to intentionally break you. then when you do break and go Chernobyl and strip your moer. .. then they want to stand shell shocked and judge you.

saying things like " oh this is not the guy i know, i'm disappointed." " you need to changed your attitude! " " you are a arsewhole " " you have issues (NO SHIT! SHERLOCK HOLMES!) " I have reached a crossroad where i do not care, what people think ... or feel anymore, if you are kind to me? ill be kind to you. if you wrong me ... then you're in for a surprise! the most smallest things are starting to make my blood boil, hints and things that some intentionally do, once again they push on.



people are killing the old me, they are not going to like the new me either!

This shit makes my blood boil! you fucking insult me ... like a COWARD then block me before i can defend myself and the fucking BF did the same move!
chicken shit hit n run tactic.

this bitch ... calls me a jerk.. leaves the shouts on my page. then slaps me in the face with the fact that she did a doodle she did for me a while back.
know know ... i know what you are thinking ... "Shep,... you cuntbag .. what did you do that """poor sweet girl????"""!!!!!!"

she said that all because i did not reply to a 16 hour old shout.

this is what i sent the mate ... AND OH BOY DOES THE APPLE NOT FALL FAR FROM THE TREE

Neghiro ... your mate has some major issues! i dont know what to feel about her. pity or anger... tell her ... from Shep that she is a FOOL that says things before thinking. calling me a jerk and leaving crap on my wall all be cause i didn't reply to her (after 16 hours ) im a shift worker living in a other damn country, i am like 12 hours ahead ....... then blocks me ... this is now the second time she is doing this hit and run tactics with me!

if i could give back the doodle she drew of me ... I WOULD ..

i wont allow her to paint me the villain to her watchers like last time, and i end up with hate mail again.

friendship is over, tell her not to bother unblocking and noting me.


shephard..first of all don't tell her that she's a fool! I don't apprciate anyone who saids something negative to her like that! Second of all, if she made you a doodle she was really trying her best for you because she cared! You don't have to be rude with her and say all that stuff...Im sick and tired of all of you saying something negative to her. If you have nothing good to say then don't say anything at all!

he doesn't even have his facts in order, but i predicted that cause he is the BF

its people ... no .. not people .. DIRT like this that make me hate the human race! well carma is a bitch! what goes around comes around. just like earlier her TV blew up! (serves her right. ) and you ask "why does bad things happen to you!?!?"

it is like trying to explain the concept of silence to someone that had a school bell ringing in the back group of his/her whole school life... its crap that just melts your brains to shhheeeet!

1st off! thank you to all my new watchers over the last few weeks for the Favs of Shep and the 2 other girls! :D

2nd off, i am deeply saddened and regret to inform that Jim Hardiman, the creator of passed away recently. Many of you would know him for bringing to life 3 eccentric girls to life! His style was truly one of a kind in this community, he's artwork with a pen was just magical. He was true a diamond in the rough. My heart sank with dread after i a journal announcing the bad news and he will be truly missed threw out the fandom.. by friends... family....
The characters of skunkworks and comics i can say with pride and confidence was the stepping stones for me into the fandom world.

thank you Jim for all that you have giving us.

3rd of all. now i rage! and rant... please.. take a look at my profile info. and take note of the "incoming commissions"
that little list ... is sooOOOOooon to become a FOKING! hit LIST in my eyes! ... REAL_FUCK_LY! time and time again Ive seen artist post journals of commissioners that nag or bitch at them for this and that.
Look at that and tell me that i do NOT have the right to ask and Question WTF is happening?!?!?!?! let me know if you see it in MICRO fine print on my profile page that says "SUCKER!!!" Months ago i have noted some of the artist in question after they went dark, MIA or ghost on me. some of the feed back received was not what i wanted to hear. things like .. life changing decisions to down right just forgetting bout me or "not liking my idea.".

i will only ask you once about something... i will not chase the rabbit for trivial things.

December month I will be demanding refunds. But my question to you is "what legal action do i take to get my money back? cause $503 in missing commissions is not a matter to take lightly. to back up my clams i have email invoices from paypal, emails, journal and comments/posts dating back.

Oh and it was my birth day btw *mumbles*

hi everyone, im looking for an artist that would do 5-10 dorra black and white sketches with 2 characters. i intend to get a sequence set of say 4+ sketches to depict a comic like set up.

any ideas for a good sketch artist?

Today has been the darkest and most emotionally taxing days of my life. the atmosphere was set for sorrow, dark, cold and raining. Today day I lost more than a dog.... I lost my fiend....

my old girl of 16 year passed on the morning. Its just to unreal to accept at the moment. A part of me died with her today she has set the most fondest memories in stone in my life.

2 days ago she just stopped eating... and in that time she started to loose that spark. At her age her eye sight was poor. Half deaf and then this... we .. or I made the decision to put her down before we went on holiday.. I was going to put in a days leave to prepare for the task ahead. Monday I gave her her last bath, took a few photo's and cuddle. Yesterday when I got back from work her breathing was somewhat labored... and I recognized that when my late dad was on his last stretch. I was with her late into the night with her on my lay... and she knew it.. just something the way she looked up at me.. and I knew she was on her way out... tucked her into bed and said my good byes... I found her dead and cold this morning. I'm happy and grateful that she died where she belonged.. she died where she felt at piece.. her home.. and not at the end of a needle. But angry that she was uneasy for a short time... I will miss her.

Hardest part was digging her grave .. and letting her go..

thanks for everything... you fought a good fight little one.

Omw .. how time has flown by.. seasons come and gone. Friends made and lost.

First of all! A shout out to all my watchers! Thank you all for watching and favouring my page and art that is posted here.

Second off. . . My pageviews are almost at 10 000!!!! Right now its 9912 ..... first person to catch a screenshot and link the pic from their page to my shout box of it at 10000 gets to be with Shephard in a commission of their choice / style on me!

may the odds be in your favour! :3