AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH EXCITEMENT THIS BRINGS ME!!!

So i own a green ranger pop figure, pretty cool huh? So last year i searched for a pink ranger one, they were selling for like £200 each because they were rare. WELL!!! Thanks to the new movie coming out this year THEY SELL FOR NORMAL PRICE AND SO DO ALL THE OTHER RANGERS!!!, Red, blue, yellow, black, pink AND WHITE!!!

BUT WAIT, THERES MORE!!!

They have ALSO BROUGHT OUT POP FIGURES OF THE NEW POWER RANGERS FROM THE MOVIE!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!! They have Red, blue, yellow, black and pink because i don't think green or white are in the movie. BUT THIS IS SO EXCITING AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Buying all of the figures on amazon (minus the green ranger) costs roughly £100, and tomorrow being my birthday I SHOULD HOPEFULLY get some money! I also have christmas money left over! SO! I MAY BE ABLE TO BUY ALL OF THEM!!!!!!!!!

I think i'm gunna EXPLODE AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


ALSO ALSO ALSO!!!

I'm still looking to commission a Megazord plush toy if ANYONE knows of a fairly priced and goodish person i could commission it from I will love you forever and you will probably get a lot of gift are from me ;3;

I left, thinking i'd be gone for good. I tried to cut this part of my life out. Theres a very long story behind it all... I can't say it i'm sorry. But i'm back now and i'm getting the hep I need.

A lot of stuff happened and nobody forced me to do anything. I chose to try and stop being Little but i just can't. Its a long story i'd rather not explain but in brief, i got really low and almost killed myself... But i'm getting help now and i'll be ok.

I now know that i have depression... But its ok because i can deal with it. I've put on a brave face for way too long. I'm seeinh a councillor at school now and i'm on a waiting list for therapy.

I'm sorry to all my friends that i left, but i'm back. Its going to take a little while for me to get back to a sense of normality again but i'll try my best.

Thankyou  Fallen-star-art for all of his support through this, you really are amazing.

So, a while ago I posted a Journal about a friend who had tried to kill herself...

She's alive. But, because of the way she landed, she shattered both her ankles... They've amputated her logs from the knee down. I don't know how she must be feeling, but she used to love riding her bike and she's been trying for so long to loose weight and now she wont be able to in the ways she wants to. I really miss her, but i think she'll finally get the help she deserves now.

Its horrible that, in this day and age, for someone to actually get help for their mental health and issues it takes them doing something drastic or incredibly dangerous. It all came out of the blue for my friend, she suddenly just decided to kill herself. But thats what we think, I know that something else must have been going on though. But its just disgusting that for her to get the help she's needed for so long it took her trying to kill herself for anyone to pay attention to her.

She's a self-proclaimed alcoholic and suffers from bipolar and anxiety AND depression but nobody even gave a shit about her until she jumped off a building! Its so horrible that it takes that to make people see how much she is going through! I talked to her a lot before she did it and I understood what she was going through but she didn't want me to say stuff. I feel so bad for her now that I didn't.

Don't send me hugs or good vibes or anything, please. Send them to her. Or just pray for her, she's a religious person...

So all this week i've been waking up early and going on a run down to some stair where i live near some shops, They're quite steep and I go up and down then 30 times non-stop.

Well... As non-stop as i can go, i most of the time get 10 done, then 30 second break, then 5, 30 seconds, then lots of 3 with 30 seconds between them or if i'm lucky and have enough energy i'll do 3 lots of 10 or something like that.

ANYWAYS! I've done that all this week and to be honest, I feel great about it! ^3^ I love getting up and doing it, it makes me really pumped up and awake for the day! x3

Also, I think its really helping. See, I love running and sprinting but I've never been able to run for maybe more that 3 or 4 minutes without stopping. If i sprint, its more like 30 seconds to 1 minute. So I've been doing this to up my stamina and on Monday i was out of breath about halfway to the stairs but from Friday onward I've been able to make it to the stairs AND do about 3 up and downs before i start to get out of breath!

So I'm super proud of myself for that, AND ALSO! I have something planned that's to do with my new character, Raz! If you haven't seen him yet, take a look in my Gallery.

Now i technically have 2 things planned, but i'm actually already working on one of them. Its going to tie in with my YouTube channel (not that i think anyone here actually watches anything from it >.>) because I recently hit 50 subs on there and yes that may sound small but to me, its a BIG thing!

I have a lot planned for Raz in the future, and hopefully he will become a recurring character both over on my YouTube channel and over here!

So, TLDR: I'm doing good with my fitness thingy and Raz is going to become a more prominent character in my work on YouTube and here!

Currently half dead, recovering from the first day of my new years resolution.
Ever day i'm going to run down to this steep flight of stairs near the shops near i live and run up and down them at least 30 times before running home.
I nearly threw up 4 times today but i did it and i feel great but also dead at the same time xD gotta work on my stamina lol

but its actually quite fun so I'm pretty good!

DeviantArt just went down while i was uploading some art -3-

Chrimbo means Christmas .3. Pronounced 'Krim-bow' like bow and arrow

I dunno, its just something i say x3

Anyhow, ya! Merry Chrimbo! Hope you guys have a nice day and get lotsa presents from santa! Tell me when your favourite was ^3^ i got the Chocobo Crystal Hunt card game and i loooooove it!

I'm sorry about the screamy title, but i want everyone who watches me to read this...

Today i found out that a close friend of mine is in intensive care. She threw herself out of a 3 story high window. Nobody knows why, she struggles with depression a lot but is a generally happy person most of the time, but I understand that people can hide their feelings. She almost died, she was so close to dieing.

Please, PLEASE, if anyone feels like they're going to try to do the same, talk. Just talk to someone. It doesn't have to be me, it doesn't have to be family or friends. It can be anyone. It can be any random person. Please just talk to someone. There are so many people who love you and i know its hard and nobody understands how you truely feel but please just talk to someone. Think about what your doing. Talk to me if you can't talk to anyone else. My notes are always open.

If I can get anyone to at least think about what they're doing, I'll be content.

Sooo I've got a new bedtime routine and i thought i'd just tell you guys it cause i'm kinda happy about it.

So lately i've been uh, well... Having accidents... Like, wetting the bed...
This is apparently because of stress and anxiety as i've had moc exams over the past few weeks and its been causing me to get stressed and end up wetting the bed.
But i've come up with a new idea.

I'm going to start wearing my diapers to bed.

I'm currently double-padded as i write this as i'm going to bed soon. And goooosh i'd forgotten how thick it is! >///>
But yea i'm going to be wearing my padding to bed now because of my... problem >~<
Yea i'm a bit embarrassed by it... Ok a lot embarrassed .///.
Buuuuut its necessary. I really don't want to ruin my pjs because i only have like 2 pairs that fit me.
I think that the main problem is that my diapers are kinda noisy and i'm getting a bit nervous about my mother noticing.

Buuuuuuuuut I'm going to go to bed in a little while and being padded makes me feel kinda secure while also making me feel little >.> messin wid mah head!

So uhhh I made a deviantart for non babyfur stuffs, and for posting a lot of the stuff i don't post of here. So if you wanna see what i draw in a day to day basis and stuff then head over there .3.

And um, if you do watch me over there, can you please not mention anything to do with my babyfur side as the deviantart account is to sort of deter my girlfriend from looking for this account and i don't want her finding out about this at all...

http://evilbunnybutt.deviantart.com/

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7942993/

My friend is in a tight spot so please please pleeeaase can you help her out? ;3; she's such a good artist but she needs money right now and she is super flexible if you can't afford even $5 maybe just donate a dollar or two please??? :(

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!

Turns out that one of the people actually likes me and he's just an ass to everyone xD just gotta get used to it. But the other guys, OOHHH the other guy! So long story short he has left the club because he finally realized that we weren't going to put up with his shit. He's been starting romours about a few of us and trying to get me kicked out multiple times. He first said he was leaving because we confronted him and said he needed to make a new character because the one he made was stupidly OP for a lv2 character and his character was very, VERY unbalanced. Like having a lv 9 (max level!) spell at lv2. So he tried to get the other guy and his girlfriend to leave aswell with him, then started trying to stir shit with everyone. He tried to get us to all turn on eachother, which only got us all the band together and turn onto him. We brought up all the times in the past that he'd been a prick and done shit like this but we'd all forgiven him. We'd had enough. He has now left and we are all very, VERY happy. He caused so much drama in the group, its a blessing to have him gone. This is the start of a new Era in our DnD group ^~^

I don't understand why people hate me for no reason... Is it because i'm different? Because I'm not normal? In the DnD group that my girlfriend runs we just started a new campaign that she's DMing and theres these two guys who just hate me for no reason at all and I don't understand... The group has gotten a but too big and one of these two, who by the way held nudes of my gf's best friend to blackmail her, decided we should vote on kicking two people out and they both voted for me for no reason even though one of them hasn't even made a character so they're not even technically in the campaign and I just don't understand! My dad drives me 45 minutes every Thursday just so i can see my girlfriend for a few hours and play DnD and they just want to kick me out for no reason! I only got to have 3 turns today because everyone kept butting in during other peoples turns and everyone else got like 10 turns each while i only got 3 and I didn't complain, I didn't have a go at them, I just sat quietly and waited my turn! They didn't even let me explain my characters backstory without interrupting and they all sat quietly through eachother's backstories! I had an all day Art exam today and I was so stressed when I left school and i even told them when I got there I had an all day exam so I might be a bit twitchy but they just didn't care and i didn't snap at them at all! I am polite, i let people have go's, I wait quietly, I let everyone use my dice, BUT THEY HATE ME FOR NO REASON! They're so rude to me and insult me all the time and I brush it off but they just keep doing it and I can't belive I'm crying while i'm writing this AT MIDNIGHT because I've been studying all night and they had a vote in a FACEBOOK GROUP CHAT while i couldn't even get online!

I'm sorry for the rant but I just had to get this out my system... Sorry...

Ok so Kisu is holding a secret santa art thingy and you should all enter if you can do arts yup yup *nodnod*

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7934375/

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....eJvuCcDds/edit

.3.

am i asking for too much...? If i'm in Little mode I'm the child who always wants stuff and throws a tantrum if they don't get their way >.> especially if its dinosaur related

I disabled my account because i was feeling super crappy but now i'm back and i feel so horrible to doing that... I'm sorry...

To Play...

https://youtu.be/fY8FopiPpkU

So today i did my hair on once side of my face in a brain that goes down the side of my head and then put the rest back in a pony tail, i really liked it.

But for the past week or so there's been this kid who's 2 years below me who is just an utter asshole. Everyday at the end of break time while i was walking to my lessons he would purposefully run sideways into me about 3 or 4 times pretending his friends where pushing him.

Today I'd had enough, so when he tried for the 4th time i grabbed him and out him in a headlock. He reached up to grab my face so i grabbed his hand with my mouth and bit down, HARD. He got out of my hold and punched me in the eye at that point my friend stopped me and the kid pretty much ran away.

A teacher saw all of this and asked me who he was and I had absolutely no idea. This random kid had been annoying me for a week. Luckily my friends knew him and apparently he is the biggest dick head you've ever seen. So I want to Student support (A small place in my school where student's with mental problems go for help and such) and i started crying because i realize i'd just hurt someone.

I HATE hurting people, which is why i hadn't retaliated before now. So i stay at SS for the lesson and notice my hair is all messed up and that theres a bruise below my eye... I eventually go back to lessons (IT luckily, one of my favorite lessons where i actually have people that i see as friends with me) and have a pretty nice lesson.

I go to the canteen to eat lunch with my friends like i do every day and this kid and about 10 other boys who i suppose are his friends start gathering in the corner near our table. I noticed him and just ignored him. Soon enough he walks over and says "You bit my hand" so i reply with "and you've been annoying me for a week" so he decides to punch me in the face, hitting on the right side of my jaw. I don't react at all, just sit there and keep eating my lunch and start talking to my friends again. A dinner lady (sort of supposed to monitor the students during break and lunch to make sure they don't do bad stuff) steps in the way of him and just stands there with her arms crossed.

So he walks AROUND HER and she does NOTHING to stop him as he then punch me in the side of the head, my ear to be exact. I have the exact same reaction as before and just continue my lunch nicely. He once again walks/runs away with his friends and i'm left in peace.

Me and my friends sort of laugh it off, everyone in the hall at that point had seen this happen and were kind of shocked.

A teacher, i think, comes over and asks if i#m ok and i say that i am and that he had already hit me at break, then he asks things like who he was and if anyone knows about what had happened at break so i say that the teachers at SS know. He says it will be dealt with and he soon left.

So i finish up and go read a book in the RC (resources center, pretty much he library) and the rest of the day was pretty normal apart from my swollen lip and bruise under my eye. A few students in my year did approach me and asked what happened so i told them and we all had a good laugh about how i didn't react at all.

So yea, i couldn't fix my hair and I really don't want to continue with style week and all... Sorry.

So, I store all my artist research for school on a USB stick. That USB stick decided it wanted to wipe itself of all data. I no longer have any artists research and my exam is in two weeks. I CAN'T DO THAT ALL AGAIN!

I currently hate everything.

EDIT: THANK THE FUCKING LORD!

I quickely got a tried of a program that recovers lost files and managed to get an old version with all the stuff on it as i haden't changed anything on the files apart from the order of the pictures

My fucking god i was about to cry >~<

EDIT 2: OK THANKS STUPID PROGRAM, YOU WANT ME TO BUY THE PRO VERSION SO I CAN GET MY EXAM WORK BACK THANKS SO FUCKING MUCH!

Y'know what? NO! Fuck you! I've just taken a screen shot of the writing and put it into an OCR converter so FUCK YOU! (an image to text thing)

:c

I was sterilizing my paci because i have been a bit sicky lately and I didn't want to keep the germs on my paci cause i use it every day and it would just keep making me sick so i was sterilizing it and water got trapped in the rubber bit and i couldn't squeeze it out and i accidentally snapped the front of it off... I tried to super glue it back together but i made it worse and now its broken forever

It was the blue one that i used pretty much all the time...

RIP Fav Paci, 2015-2016

OMG! Ok so i really didn't expect much but holy shit it looks so cool! I can already imagine myself just in school at lunch time pulling out this tablet and being like "anyone wanna play mario kart?" And them all being confused and AAHHH IT LOOKS SO DAMN COOL! Munz are now needed to buy it straight away .3.

https://twitter.com/NintendoAmerica.....00063833493504

HERE WE GO!

https://youtu.be/ei3-Qo9wHH4






If you can't tell, I'm a lil' Nintendo Fanboy :3

I've done the frames for and animated 1:03 of a 4:43 video so far! I'm getting there, and i'm having a blast doing it! ^~^ its super fun!

ok so i'm doing another animation, but this one is gunna be an animation to a song and i've trying out a new style and hopefully i can do proper animation with it because i should be getting Adobe Flash soon!

I don't know what to do anymore... Its like no matter what i do, everyone around me is always blaming me and angry at me and i always fuck everything up...
I used to think that if i just tried really hard and reached as far as i could i would make everyone happy, but now its like they don't care anymore and i've lost everyone...
I tried, i really tried, i promis i tried... I'm so tired of this though... I want them to just notice me and take interest in what i do, but they don't...
I spend so long working on things like art and drawings and youtube videos but all they think i'm doing is playing video games on my laptop or using up all the wifi to upload a video because it takes all night to upload a 15 minute long video... They don't realize how much work and time i put into these things and they just think its something stupid and they're not supportive of me at all... And, sometimes, i still feel like i'm not loved...