https://discord.gg/KBxVrG you should join my friends discord its a fun place where you can hang out and talk with people who are chill and junk even post art and random stuff jsut for fun

or look over the Fav list i have may git the idea i like Diaper Art cuteness i also like Adult babys and other such things and no i hate wetting or using arts its .....just ew nope i like fluffy clean softness and what you may not know is i am a super shy about this Adult baby Rl buuuut i cant afford diapers thanks to powers out of my control * fake cough * "ssi taking away my moneys " and you may say that using what little money i have left after helping with bills and junk like that should really not be spent on my weird life choice i say to you fine sir or ma'am you are the buts of a face i should be able to do one of the only things " besides talking to friends on Skype love you all " that calms me down in a Ball o stress 100% of the time and just putting diapers on and doing everyday things calms me down so much .....i don't really use them seeing as its kinda a closely guarded thing rl and the fact i don't like doing so for other such things as the cleaning problem and i just don't like the idea of a dirty diaper ...most people a good 60% have 2 sides to there diaper love one being kinky i sorta don't but i cant say im 100% clean of NSFW Adult diaper love but more so its all about TRYING desperately to find even a little bit of peace in my stressed panicked little life so yeah ...weird amounts of updates on my life today i'll stop so i don't bug you anymore * bows * thank you for your time

i hate all holidays i really am a bad girl i know but all of them suck for a girl in a low income household growing up you never really had Xmas you maybe had one gift when we got are money ( good note to add i have lots of things wrong with me so im on ssi do note bad spelling is just a side product of one such thing) so yeah normaly i picked out my own gift and stuff i never had a party most of the time we did not have a tree just a meal with my mum and me so i never understand why people love this day so much seeing as i was never part of the fun ....from the outside looking in its like ....o hay why dose santa like this kid with money more then me ....was always a thought before a uncle popped the bubble of his real-e-ness to me and now i have really bad stress and panic attacks so Finally having a lot of people in the house for my Cousin little boy who is young so we all try making his days cool is just a huge pain for me where i end up crying or needing to run away to my room thanks to panic attacks on top of conic really bad headaches i cant spell the word now "mind Grains " stuff like that and its not just xmas
my b day was the same maybe 1 gift i pick myself seeing as i was always hard to shop for as some one who loves Teck and never really having the money to get me that kidna stuff Thanksgiving just seems like eating and tryng not to think of how we killed all them peoples back then but yay for that Chris dude i mean the only one i use to like was Halloween seeing as my mom always put a lot of time in to making things for me and free candy you don't have to have a lot of money to MAKE!! a costume ! not like now its all store junk and small candy that makes it not worth even going out .......so in short life is weird and kidna sucks if you don't have money and are dealing with ssi taking your money away for almost 2 years now ....happy Xmas And all others like boxing day and that one i don't wish to try to spell for dem what people who is the Jews i likes them people and them whats with the other stuff and things

its down not just for me but for lots of people i saved up a little spare change for a wile now hoping on the next sale of Castle Crashes not it looks like steam will be down For a wile i hope its still on sale when its back up i will be vary upset if its not im poor and saving up for a game is a lot of work !! i only have 9 $ its a 15ish $ game but its now 2.99 ^~^ i thought it would be nice to get a game i really love but steam is mean

Something you have seen around a lot ...lots of people havw it and more so on fa it seems lots of people with what I have also like becoming someone else or something ....Yeah yeah I have depression....bad to what I think is bad it's hard living with it if not for Skype Friends ....I think I would have Ben long gone if not for them ....I don't know why I made this post ...maybe I need some help when I'm feeling down again

So one more year of stress and sadness has passed...I love you all thanks for any love you give the gifts I git I like it when people like that art ....so yeah I hate my b day a lot and I'm doing my best to forget it's going to happen and it's going to make me 21 this year ...it's good I have you all Skype and here makes me smile when most of the time I feel depressed .I'm also super poor more so then normal lately and will be moving soon so sarcastic yay

September 27th I'm turning 21 hehe I realize a lot of stuff ...and wish you all a good time happy b day to all from now and forever and happy unbirth day to all others

i truly and utterly hate my day of birth every year growing up i did not have a party....i did not have gifts ....i did not make the day anymore then what it is.....just another day...its just the 27th to me ...nothing more ...so if you wish to say happy birthday to me i shall shrug it off and be on my way.....i would ask for you all not to git me gifts ...i don't what to feel like i need to pay you back for a gift.......and i wish you all a better birthday then mine

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This feeling a feeling deep in my gut I have no idea what it is. ....Turning yearning....feeling of loss and of needing.....but what did i lose? What an I missing I really don't know anymore .....what is this feeling? I feel so lost in a sea of black I have a bright sky to look up at where all my friends sit cheeking me up only for more to fall back down again. so meany times on my high and lows my mind only making it hard to run away from the insanity the darkness. the feeling building up in side me filling me with doubt and the need for....something....maybe someone. I have not felt anything for so long I don't know I don't know is this the feeling of love or loss? the feeling of needing some one?.....or the need to be alone ? what is this feeling that seems to grow stronger and stronger with each day with each fake smile and with each "i'm fine" i have no idea.... * grabs belly* cant some one tell me ? .......I think I want something to change in my life....anything.....I mean i moved....but that did not help...this change...is something bigger then that * grabs head* I have had a never ending headache no mater how meany pills i take it will not go away not that I take a lot of them.....is that's what it feels like to go mad? i'm so lost should i jump in to the sea and see what happens? I don't know if i'll ever git out again .......i'm lost anyways .......and no one can seem to pull me out....thew I like to tell them i'm okay...I like to say i'm fine ..is this all a cry for help? am I not yelling lowed enough for the people to here me ? but....they try to help they really do...maybe it helps me a little to talk to them.....but its just...never enough....they don't understand. i'm...so stupid.....so useless so mindless....so .....so lost....in madness in darkness in doubt....i'll put on another fake smile ...for as long as it takes ....to make everyone i love happy...i'll take the knife in the back as meany times as you like to stab me ......because i'm that kind of girl. I'll keep smiling no mater what...even if i don't always smile..to make it seem i'm not as bad as i really am.