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Posted 9 years agoIm sorry. I know its the last thing you want to hear. I lts the last thing i want to keep telling you. I know lately I have been a terrible partner and just shitty in general. I honestly cant explain it to you. I sink into things I do, im inexplicably anxious and im not sure why. I dont mean to push you away. Thats not my intention. I dont mean to make you feel alone or undesirable. I dont mean to make you feel anything less than good and confident in yourself, but have lately felt so distant from myself. I have the bad habit of getting lost in an activity. I dont know when i developed it. But i hate it. Its not a thing i do willingly. I dont know when im doing it. I just know its hurtful and stupid and inappropriate. You are my northern star, my guiding light you always have been but i have not treated you with the respect and dignity you so deserve. You should never feel unappreciated or unwanted or alone. Because you are not. I suppose until now i havent realized the responsibility i have as a husband. I havent realized that its not a free pass to do whatever because we are married. It is a commitment, no a promise to put you and your happiness above me. To support you even more than before. I have been a jerk and i ask your forgiveness, i cant tell you i will be a whole different person tomorrow, but i can tell you with confidence that every single day i will be working to improve myself and i will be putting you first all day everyday. You work hard and study hard and you are such an amazing person. You work so hard for your art and dedicate yourself so much to this community. I know it seems as though i lost sight of you but i promise i havent. And i promise that even though i have apologized before, I will show you that I am improving, and working hard to better myself. You look out for me so much and you try so hard every day and i will be there to match your pace. I will be there every day for the rest of my life looking out for you. You are a beatiful person. Inside and out and i have been a big giant butt. Thats going to change. you can count on it. Also, whenever you want to pull out that dogopoly board let me know.
I love you Jessie. I love you more than life itself. More than anything in the world and i truly truly apologize for my lack of showing it. Its you and me against the world. You have to be able to count on me just like i count on you. Were the dream team man. Lets get back on the horse and kick some ass. And maybe bake cookies.
I love you Jessie. I love you more than life itself. More than anything in the world and i truly truly apologize for my lack of showing it. Its you and me against the world. You have to be able to count on me just like i count on you. Were the dream team man. Lets get back on the horse and kick some ass. And maybe bake cookies.
hello it is i shane, definitely not jess
Posted 10 years agoleaves kisses all over your page
Posted 10 years agohi you're a big dork and i'm watching you put up that poster and even that is cute
okay i love you bye
<3 Jessie
yes hi hello it is i the boyfriend
Posted 10 years agoshane stole my phone so i stole her laptop
we are currently making an entire box of cheese sticks and having a contest to see who can shove a popsicle furthest down their throat
(it's shane)
and then we're gonna be gross
rip shane
FLUTTERING....
Posted 10 years agoI just got back to my room. At 130am. On a work night. My heart is racing, my mind is all over the place and my stomach is full of butterflies. Just a few hours with him and....I haven't a single clue to how he does it. How he manages to make these mundane little things, these tiny gestures so spectacular. How he can barely brush against me and make me feel like I'm electric. Like Im on fire. Like I can do anything. how he can say but a few words and make me feel like Im losing control. Ive never felt like this. Ive never experienced anything even remotely similar. This is unique. This is special. This is...incredible. and so is he....
My up. My down. My shelter and my home. My rock, my constant...my harmony in such a world of dissonance...my everything. My love.
remnants
My up. My down. My shelter and my home. My rock, my constant...my harmony in such a world of dissonance...my everything. My love.
remnantsSCREAMING
Posted 10 years ago[SCREAMING CONTINUES]
KRAMPUS WISHLIST
Posted 11 years agoRULES:
STEP ONE
Make a post via journal. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a ______ icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("all I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV."). The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.
STEP TWO
Surf around your friends list (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part:
If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use -- do it.
You need not spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf -- to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not -- it's your call.
There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Give, and you might receive. and you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
Well here goes nothing:
1) A Chains of Mephistopheles Magic card. (this one is pretty ridiculous, but Ive met plenty of people who just give away magic cards they dont want. xD Its the last card I need to finish my commander deck!)
2) A tool sweater. or a Mastodon sweater.
3) A Hitachi "magic wand"
4) The Warhmmer 40k book "Nemesis" (Horus Heresy)
5) A commission by
korichi
6) For remnants to finally frickin play smite with me and my friends.
7) The Dark Heresy Roleplaying game core rulebook (1st or 2nd edition)
8) A big lava lamp
9) A JT the Fox from Bad Dragon
10)The vinyl record "From Mars to Sirius", by Gojira
I'm by no means requesting any of this in earnest, but definitely won't say no to any generous people out there. If anyone wants to send little old me something, you can note me and I will gladly send my mailing address. :3
Anyways, I hope everyone has a very merry and very safe Krampus Day. Enjoy the holidays with friends and family!
STEP ONE
Make a post via journal. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a ______ icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("all I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV."). The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.
STEP TWO
Surf around your friends list (or friends' friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part:
If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use -- do it.
You need not spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf -- to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not -- it's your call.
There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Give, and you might receive. and you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
Well here goes nothing:
1) A Chains of Mephistopheles Magic card. (this one is pretty ridiculous, but Ive met plenty of people who just give away magic cards they dont want. xD Its the last card I need to finish my commander deck!)
2) A tool sweater. or a Mastodon sweater.
3) A Hitachi "magic wand"
4) The Warhmmer 40k book "Nemesis" (Horus Heresy)
5) A commission by
korichi6) For
remnants to finally frickin play smite with me and my friends.7) The Dark Heresy Roleplaying game core rulebook (1st or 2nd edition)
8) A big lava lamp
9) A JT the Fox from Bad Dragon
10)The vinyl record "From Mars to Sirius", by Gojira
I'm by no means requesting any of this in earnest, but definitely won't say no to any generous people out there. If anyone wants to send little old me something, you can note me and I will gladly send my mailing address. :3
Anyways, I hope everyone has a very merry and very safe Krampus Day. Enjoy the holidays with friends and family!
DUTY OF CALLING: WARLIKE ADVANCEMENT
Posted 11 years agoSo I got the new Call of Duty in a moment of weakness...I need some type of "casual" brainless video game to play, since all I have been playing recently is Hearthstone, Magic The Gathering (totally didnt spend like 500 dollars on a new deck, including a 200 dollar Nether Void) and Smite. If you have an xbox360 and would like to play with me, add me on XBL under theKetzer <3 <3 <3
WHAT THE FUCK EVEN IS MUSIC
Posted 11 years agoSo I have been listening to a metrci FUCK-tonne of music, mainly metal and it's ilk; psychedelic metal,stoner metal, doom metal, alt metal, nu metal, heavy metal, progressive metal, etc, etc. And I made some fucking sweet finds. Like, shit I have never heard about that turned out fucking amazing.
Here is a short but comprehensive list of my treasures:
Electric Wizard: Great band, has a very good low-lying sound to it and just seems to ooze stoner-metal. Very grungy and very cool.
The Album Dopethrone (Like, the whole album)
Uncle Acid and the Deadbeats: This is just straight up psychadelic. Has a very cool 60s rock and metal sound to it, even though the band is very modern. The music videos are fantastic. This band tries to replicate the sound of the first metal bands, so it isn't as hard as say gojira or skeleton witch.
The Album Bloodlust and Volume 1 (favorite song is probaby I'll Cut you Down)
Gojira: Fantastic Band, reminiscent of some of my favorite bands like Mastodon, but with a heavy note to it, such as Mastodon's Remission album. Great sound, and leaves out some of the more grating sound of some heavier metal bands.
The Album From Mars to Sirius (my favorite song is Flying Whales hotdamn that shit is good)
High On Fire: This shit aint new, but I can't stop repeating them. They are a great band with super nice heavy metal sound. They aren't just screamo, but still give you that nice sense of wanting to headbang.
The Album Death is this Communion (my favorites are Rumors of War, Wastes of Tiamat, and Bastard Samurai [different album])
Baroness: I fucking love this band, It's like a lite version of Mastodon and has these kind of punk/grunge notes to it that I absolutely adore. Additionally the Guitar and Bass is exceptionally good. The lyrics to their music are also exceptionally good.
The Albums Yellow and Green and Blue Record. (My favorites are Foolsong, A Horse Called Golgotha, and March to the Sea.)
Here is a short but comprehensive list of my treasures:
Electric Wizard: Great band, has a very good low-lying sound to it and just seems to ooze stoner-metal. Very grungy and very cool.
The Album Dopethrone (Like, the whole album)
Uncle Acid and the Deadbeats: This is just straight up psychadelic. Has a very cool 60s rock and metal sound to it, even though the band is very modern. The music videos are fantastic. This band tries to replicate the sound of the first metal bands, so it isn't as hard as say gojira or skeleton witch.
The Album Bloodlust and Volume 1 (favorite song is probaby I'll Cut you Down)
Gojira: Fantastic Band, reminiscent of some of my favorite bands like Mastodon, but with a heavy note to it, such as Mastodon's Remission album. Great sound, and leaves out some of the more grating sound of some heavier metal bands.
The Album From Mars to Sirius (my favorite song is Flying Whales hotdamn that shit is good)
High On Fire: This shit aint new, but I can't stop repeating them. They are a great band with super nice heavy metal sound. They aren't just screamo, but still give you that nice sense of wanting to headbang.
The Album Death is this Communion (my favorites are Rumors of War, Wastes of Tiamat, and Bastard Samurai [different album])
Baroness: I fucking love this band, It's like a lite version of Mastodon and has these kind of punk/grunge notes to it that I absolutely adore. Additionally the Guitar and Bass is exceptionally good. The lyrics to their music are also exceptionally good.
The Albums Yellow and Green and Blue Record. (My favorites are Foolsong, A Horse Called Golgotha, and March to the Sea.)
recovery?
Posted 11 years agostarting to feel slightly better, still have flashes of stress and nausea, and bouts of anxiety, but overall beginning to recover I guess. Haven't really gotten over blaming myself, and not sure I will, but have been doing everything to keep my mind from getting too occupied with it. Started drawing again, started playing video games again, and started talking to friends again, which has all helped. Idk, it might just be a phase of lifted mood, but I havent had thoughts of suicide in quite some time. And I think that is good.
tldr: feeling better for the moment, don't want to kill myself, still lots of selfblame, might post art soon.
Also, quit my shit job at the supermarket because fuck them. The last thing I need is being belittled by my bosses. Delivery job is still pretty cool, so I have that.
tldr: feeling better for the moment, don't want to kill myself, still lots of selfblame, might post art soon.
Also, quit my shit job at the supermarket because fuck them. The last thing I need is being belittled by my bosses. Delivery job is still pretty cool, so I have that.
Random thoughts
Posted 11 years agoTrying to work through stuff, so I thought I would just post like, idk, random shit about myself. Maybe it'll make me feel better to just write stuff.
I'm 19 years old.
My birthday is June 13th.
I have a dog called Gizmo.
My favorite food is tacos, homemade pizza, and capt'n crunch cereal.
My favorite bands are Tool, Mastodon, and High on Fire.
My favorite colours are pink and green.
I work as a delivery driver for a restaurant in Germany and as a stocker in a supermarket.
I really like video games, and The Elder Scrolls IV and V are my favorites.
I am a satanist and have a rather cynical view of people's place in the grander scheme of things.
I have an associates degree and might try to work on a higher education past that.
The Dark Knight, Pulp Fiction, and The Other Guys are all great movies. Also, Office Space is a magical film and The Raid: Redemption is fucking amazing.
The Horus Heresy are my favorite books and I have totally cried to Space Marines, shut up.
I am half German and half American.
I am in the process of joining the US Air Force.
I really like drawing but need to practice to get back into it.
My dream is to move to Canada and work as a night-time security guard. (shut up I know its lame)
I have a tattoo of a wolf scull with a double halo on my arm.
I want a tongue piercing but am afraid of needles and pain (ignore my previous statement >.>)
I have really bad social anxiety and have a lot of difficulty making friends.
I love Magic the Gathering and play Elder Dragon Highlander/Commander religiously every Saturday.
I spend way too much money on Magic the Gathering.
I can easily sleep for 20+ hours.
I love sleeping through the day and being up all night.
I usually eat like thousands of calories one day and then nothing for the next 2 days.
Peach Nestea is made of Angel's Tears and I fucking love it.
I think evolution is amazing and I don't understand why people choose not to believe it.
Abnormal Psychology and Vietnam War History where my favorite college classes.
I had no favorite high school classes. High school sucked for me.
Pretty much most of school sucked for me, I got bullied a lot.
I'm 6'3 and a black belt in karate (although I have to practice again.
I am turned on by being a sub, and have a few weird fetishes.
I am turned off by like, medical fetishes and stuff, and bloodplay >.>
Can't really think of much more right now. People should ask me more random questions. No holds barred, get my mind off stuff.
Anyways, thanks for listening to my stupid rambles.
I'm 19 years old.
My birthday is June 13th.
I have a dog called Gizmo.
My favorite food is tacos, homemade pizza, and capt'n crunch cereal.
My favorite bands are Tool, Mastodon, and High on Fire.
My favorite colours are pink and green.
I work as a delivery driver for a restaurant in Germany and as a stocker in a supermarket.
I really like video games, and The Elder Scrolls IV and V are my favorites.
I am a satanist and have a rather cynical view of people's place in the grander scheme of things.
I have an associates degree and might try to work on a higher education past that.
The Dark Knight, Pulp Fiction, and The Other Guys are all great movies. Also, Office Space is a magical film and The Raid: Redemption is fucking amazing.
The Horus Heresy are my favorite books and I have totally cried to Space Marines, shut up.
I am half German and half American.
I am in the process of joining the US Air Force.
I really like drawing but need to practice to get back into it.
My dream is to move to Canada and work as a night-time security guard. (shut up I know its lame)
I have a tattoo of a wolf scull with a double halo on my arm.
I want a tongue piercing but am afraid of needles and pain (ignore my previous statement >.>)
I have really bad social anxiety and have a lot of difficulty making friends.
I love Magic the Gathering and play Elder Dragon Highlander/Commander religiously every Saturday.
I spend way too much money on Magic the Gathering.
I can easily sleep for 20+ hours.
I love sleeping through the day and being up all night.
I usually eat like thousands of calories one day and then nothing for the next 2 days.
Peach Nestea is made of Angel's Tears and I fucking love it.
I think evolution is amazing and I don't understand why people choose not to believe it.
Abnormal Psychology and Vietnam War History where my favorite college classes.
I had no favorite high school classes. High school sucked for me.
Pretty much most of school sucked for me, I got bullied a lot.
I'm 6'3 and a black belt in karate (although I have to practice again.
I am turned on by being a sub, and have a few weird fetishes.
I am turned off by like, medical fetishes and stuff, and bloodplay >.>
Can't really think of much more right now. People should ask me more random questions. No holds barred, get my mind off stuff.
Anyways, thanks for listening to my stupid rambles.
pain
Posted 11 years agoeverything is so numb. everything hurts. i want to wake up. i can't keep going.
IM A NERD AND HAVE NERD PROBLEMS
Posted 11 years agoWaiting to get paid so I can go buy my Ps4 and Destiny, then debating whether or not to buy a box of Magic the Gathering; Khans of Tarkir, or fix my Animar, Soul of Elements deck, or Make a new Xenagos, God of Revels deck, but I have really no clue on how to do either, as I am having the Magic equivalent of art block. Ugh. Considering this is like, my main hobby, it's really fucking bothering me.
Gonna play more Diablo 3, whatever.
Gonna play more Diablo 3, whatever.
STREAMING?!
Posted 11 years agoWondering if anyone would be interested in seeing me fail at playing dota2. I wouldn't mind broadcasting it with twitch or whatever the fuck. Leave a comment if you would like that.
Also, I am not very good. I am like, kind of proficient.
Also, go tell remnants that he should play with me!
Also, I am not very good. I am like, kind of proficient.
Also, go tell
remnants that he should play with me!SO YOU LIKE WARHAMMER40K?
Posted 11 years agoSo I am a huge (and growing) fan of the Warhammer 40k franchise, and am currently plowing my way through the huge library of Warhammer books. (currently working on the prolific Horus Heresy series.) And if anyone cares, then I would love to list out some of my favorites of the franchise both in gaming, books, and random trivial content!
1) Favorite Book
This one is pretty hard for me as the Horus Heresy series has been absolutely incredible. So far, my absolute favorite books have been Galaxy in Flames, and Fulgrim.
Additionally, the Adeptus Mechanicum, (or Tech-Priests) are the coolest faction in the universe (aside from chaos of course hahahaha) and the Priests of Mars novel was an incredible read that I enjoyed very much, and was also my first 40k book I bought. (There is also the similarly good Lords of Mars, which is the sequel.)
2) Favorite Games
I love the 40k universe as a plotline, and an environment for gaming, and I very much value how alive it feels. Due to this I have a hard time not completely loving any of the full fledged games presented in this franchise.
My definite gold medal goes to Dark Heresy (and probably Dark Heresy 2 if I ever get my hands on it)
Its an incredible tabletop game, with simple rules that are easy to learn but hard to master. I am a bit amateurish as a Game Master, but I fucking love the game and am still trying to get remnants to fucking play. Its a goddamn good time and DnD with guns and deamons and hereteks is just amazing.
Silver goes to Warhammer40k Dawn of War 2 (with Chaos Rising) it is an amazing squad based RTS with rpg elements and a cool story. It's a few years old but holds up like no other. I enjoyed this game like crazy and it did a great job portraying tyranids, greenskins, and chaos. if you have not played it, do yourself a favor and get it right fucking now on steam.
Bronze goes to Warhammer 40k Space Marine because you get to play a 3rd person Space Marine. enough said. Good voice acting, decent plot, nice action.
Random Trivial shit:
Favorite Legion: As of right now I think my favorite Legions are tied between the World Eaters (traitor Legion, Primarch Angron "the Red Angel") and the Iron Fists (Loyal Legion, Primarch Rogal Dorn)
Favorite Faction: The Adeptus Machanicus, or Tech Priests of Mars. All hail the Omnissiah.
Favorite Warhammer Units: Dreadnoughts and Titans.
Anyways, I will try to be getting into the tabletop version of the game soon, since I now have a second job to support my alcohol addiction. (Just kidding I play Magic and Dota, I dont have time to drink)
1) Favorite Book
This one is pretty hard for me as the Horus Heresy series has been absolutely incredible. So far, my absolute favorite books have been Galaxy in Flames, and Fulgrim.
Additionally, the Adeptus Mechanicum, (or Tech-Priests) are the coolest faction in the universe (aside from chaos of course hahahaha) and the Priests of Mars novel was an incredible read that I enjoyed very much, and was also my first 40k book I bought. (There is also the similarly good Lords of Mars, which is the sequel.)
2) Favorite Games
I love the 40k universe as a plotline, and an environment for gaming, and I very much value how alive it feels. Due to this I have a hard time not completely loving any of the full fledged games presented in this franchise.
My definite gold medal goes to Dark Heresy (and probably Dark Heresy 2 if I ever get my hands on it)
Its an incredible tabletop game, with simple rules that are easy to learn but hard to master. I am a bit amateurish as a Game Master, but I fucking love the game and am still trying to get
remnants to fucking play. Its a goddamn good time and DnD with guns and deamons and hereteks is just amazing. Silver goes to Warhammer40k Dawn of War 2 (with Chaos Rising) it is an amazing squad based RTS with rpg elements and a cool story. It's a few years old but holds up like no other. I enjoyed this game like crazy and it did a great job portraying tyranids, greenskins, and chaos. if you have not played it, do yourself a favor and get it right fucking now on steam.
Bronze goes to Warhammer 40k Space Marine because you get to play a 3rd person Space Marine. enough said. Good voice acting, decent plot, nice action.
Random Trivial shit:
Favorite Legion: As of right now I think my favorite Legions are tied between the World Eaters (traitor Legion, Primarch Angron "the Red Angel") and the Iron Fists (Loyal Legion, Primarch Rogal Dorn)
Favorite Faction: The Adeptus Machanicus, or Tech Priests of Mars. All hail the Omnissiah.
Favorite Warhammer Units: Dreadnoughts and Titans.
Anyways, I will try to be getting into the tabletop version of the game soon, since I now have a second job to support my alcohol addiction. (Just kidding I play Magic and Dota, I dont have time to drink)
WEIRD D/S STUFF!
Posted 11 years agoAhhhh so me and my boyfriend decided to enter a like, higher level Dom/sub relationship and this obviously involves punishments. I didn't realize how hard it is to follow instructions/exact punishments over long-distance. There is no real reinforcement except your own willpower (which is important as a sub and dom alike) but I just have so frikkin little of it, and I kept breaking the rules cause I am so unused to them and guuuuh I feel really fucking bad cause I feel like I had pretty much one job as a sub and I really let my dom down and I feel like shit. I'm a terrible sub, even though its the only thing I want to do and I really love it. . I just have like 0 willpower. I know it will be better once we are together in person again, but I want to please him so bad and yeah I'm terrible and feel like it too. He is doing such a good job and I hate letting him down by being so shit in comparison.
bluuuuh...
bluuuuh...
HELP MY MASTER MAKE MONEY!
Posted 11 years agoMy boyfriend needs money quick to buy a super badass fursuit! He's super psyched about it and I don't know anyone who deserves a fursuit more than this Dork! Please help out and boy/commission and donate to Him!
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GREAT CHARACTER AUCTION!
Posted 11 years agoMY BOYFRIEND IS SELLING A BATCH OF CHARACTRS!! GO GET EM THEY ARE ADORABLE!!
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UPDATES AND SHIT FROM YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD WEIRDO
Posted 11 years agoSo since the initial university thing didn't work out, and I got a tonne of rejections, I instead opted to join the Airforce (for the smallest possible time [4 years]). This will provide me with an apartment/house after finishing basic training. I will get good insurance, cost of living allowance, great education benefits, a G.I. Bill, and a solid paycheck. I do not yet know what exactly my job will be or where I will be stationed, but I am going to try to move to Fairchild AFB or Lewis/McChord in Washington State, which will allow me and my partner in crime to be able to get a place together. I will finally be able to get a good desktop computer, buy my own candy and junk food, spend more money on hobbies and jank, and of course, most importantly, share a bed and abode with my lovely boyfriend.
Even though it is not what I planned to do initially, this option is amazing, and I am excited at the prospect of finally being able to live with the love of my life, which is my ultimate goal anyways.
It will take a couple of months, although it is looking to be less than I had originally anticipated, and I am sad that I can't see my king graduate, but I am working on making a great care package for him as a graduation present, and for my birthday. He has done amazing things for me, and If it were not for him and his amazing support, I would not be around to celebrate my 19th birthday. So because of that, I am sending him things, instead of the other way around. I am truly thankful, and truly lucky to have such a mindblowingly incredible, patient, thoughtful, intelligent, and handsome boyfriend, and I will do everything in my power to keep him happy. The possibility of spending my life with him is now, more than ever within arms reach, and I am more than ecstatic at that outlook.
Thank you for always being there, and for watching out for me. I love you more than anything, and I owe so much to you. You truly are my king. <3
Even though it is not what I planned to do initially, this option is amazing, and I am excited at the prospect of finally being able to live with the love of my life, which is my ultimate goal anyways.
It will take a couple of months, although it is looking to be less than I had originally anticipated, and I am sad that I can't see my king graduate, but I am working on making a great care package for him as a graduation present, and for my birthday. He has done amazing things for me, and If it were not for him and his amazing support, I would not be around to celebrate my 19th birthday. So because of that, I am sending him things, instead of the other way around. I am truly thankful, and truly lucky to have such a mindblowingly incredible, patient, thoughtful, intelligent, and handsome boyfriend, and I will do everything in my power to keep him happy. The possibility of spending my life with him is now, more than ever within arms reach, and I am more than ecstatic at that outlook.
Thank you
for always being there, and for watching out for me. I love you more than anything, and I owe so much to you. You truly are my king. <3WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON
Posted 11 years agoI have not posted SHIT for a few months now, mainly because I have been enrolled in university classes again and have been busy working on schoolwork and relaxing with small amounts of reading or video games. I will be graduating on May 11th, so about a month, and then I will have a few months of respite aside from work, in which I will be trying to get back into art. So get ready for plenty of naughty art, some updated ref sheets and character development for my fursona, and probably a bunch of kink and fetish stuff.
Dylan/Shane/Sigmaheisenberg
Also, if you are on Smite, that is the game I play most often now, add me! (Grimevein)
Dylan/Shane/Sigmaheisenberg
Also, if you are on Smite, that is the game I play most often now, add me! (Grimevein)
Fantastic review of events in gaming in 2013
Posted 12 years agoI dont like to amp up youtube videos or anything else for that matter, but this video by AngryJoeShow is fantastic, and touches on some hot topics and I think everyone should watch it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=voVpvKlntDM
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=voVpvKlntDM
There is plenty of appropriate strong language.
Please, watch this and please, for the love of god, listen.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=voVpvKlntDM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=voVpvKlntDM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=voVpvKlntDM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=voVpvKlntDM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?featu.....;v=voVpvKlntDM
There is plenty of appropriate strong language.
Please, watch this and please, for the love of god, listen.
MY FAVORITE MOTHERFUCKING MUSIC: A LIST.
Posted 12 years agoSo here is a list of my favorite music from my favorite bands!
TOOL
1) Vicarious - 10000 Days
2) Wings for Marie - 10000 Days
3) Prison Sex - Undertow
MASTODON
1) Crack the Skye - Crack the Skye
2) The Last Baron - Crack the Skye
3) Octopus has no Friends - The Hunter
HALESTORM
1) Rockshow - The Strange Case of...
2) Daughters of Darkness - The Strange Case of...
3) American Boys - The Strange Case of...
MUDVAYNE
1) (Per)Version of a Truth - The End of All Things to Come
2) Mercy, Severity - The End of All Things to Come
3) World So Cold - The End of All Things to Come
STARBOMB
1) Sonic's Best Pal - Starbomb
2) Mega Marital Problems - Starbomb
3) It's Dangerous to go Alone - Starbomb
PANTERA
1) Drag the Waters - The Great Southern Trendkill
2) Suicide Note Pt. 1 - The Great Southern Trendkill
3) By Demon's Be Driven - Vulgar Display of Power
A PERFECT CIRCLE
1) Let's Have a War - eMotive
2) The Fiddle and the Drum - eMotive
3) The Noose - Thirteenth Step
HIGH ON FIRE
1) Rumors of War - Death is This Communion
2) Bastard Samurai - Snakes for the Divine
2) Snakes for the Divine - Snakes for the Divine
FOO FIGHTERS
1) There Goes My Hero - The Colour and the Shape
2) The Pretender - Echoes, Patience, Silence
3) Walk - Wasting Light
TOOL
1) Vicarious - 10000 Days
2) Wings for Marie - 10000 Days
3) Prison Sex - Undertow
MASTODON
1) Crack the Skye - Crack the Skye
2) The Last Baron - Crack the Skye
3) Octopus has no Friends - The Hunter
HALESTORM
1) Rockshow - The Strange Case of...
2) Daughters of Darkness - The Strange Case of...
3) American Boys - The Strange Case of...
MUDVAYNE
1) (Per)Version of a Truth - The End of All Things to Come
2) Mercy, Severity - The End of All Things to Come
3) World So Cold - The End of All Things to Come
STARBOMB
1) Sonic's Best Pal - Starbomb
2) Mega Marital Problems - Starbomb
3) It's Dangerous to go Alone - Starbomb
PANTERA
1) Drag the Waters - The Great Southern Trendkill
2) Suicide Note Pt. 1 - The Great Southern Trendkill
3) By Demon's Be Driven - Vulgar Display of Power
A PERFECT CIRCLE
1) Let's Have a War - eMotive
2) The Fiddle and the Drum - eMotive
3) The Noose - Thirteenth Step
HIGH ON FIRE
1) Rumors of War - Death is This Communion
2) Bastard Samurai - Snakes for the Divine
2) Snakes for the Divine - Snakes for the Divine
FOO FIGHTERS
1) There Goes My Hero - The Colour and the Shape
2) The Pretender - Echoes, Patience, Silence
3) Walk - Wasting Light
Christmas Wishlist!
Posted 12 years agoSo I am not really sure what I am doing here, so I am just going to list stuff I am wishing for/want to eventually get/really like!
1) A removable/portable hard drive (like, 500 Gb or 1Tb) for my computer, cause I am running out of space
2) A gift card for Steam (like 25 or 50$)
3) A Mastodon and or Tool Poster! (even a concert/event poster, anything :3)
4) A traditional picture of my OC Shane or a wallpaper sized, high res digital picture of the same character c:
5) Literally any kind of magic the gathering related things like booster boxes, booster packs, fat packs, event decks, deck boxes, sleeves, dice, gift cards for Starcity games, planechase decks, archenemy decks, literally anything that is not the return to ravnica block ^w^
6) A scarf and/or some fingerless gloves
7) The game of thrones box set of books
8) The game of thrones TV show
9) a 3 month subscription card to xbox live
10) a 2 month subscription card to World of Warcraft
11) Any Slugbox art prints of Ctheno
12) A nice set of D&D dice
13) A xbox360 wireless gaming receiver
14) A polaroid picture of Logan
15) Logan
1) A removable/portable hard drive (like, 500 Gb or 1Tb) for my computer, cause I am running out of space
2) A gift card for Steam (like 25 or 50$)
3) A Mastodon and or Tool Poster! (even a concert/event poster, anything :3)
4) A traditional picture of my OC Shane or a wallpaper sized, high res digital picture of the same character c:
5) Literally any kind of magic the gathering related things like booster boxes, booster packs, fat packs, event decks, deck boxes, sleeves, dice, gift cards for Starcity games, planechase decks, archenemy decks, literally anything that is not the return to ravnica block ^w^
6) A scarf and/or some fingerless gloves
7) The game of thrones box set of books
8) The game of thrones TV show
9) a 3 month subscription card to xbox live
10) a 2 month subscription card to World of Warcraft
11) Any Slugbox art prints of Ctheno
12) A nice set of D&D dice
13) A xbox360 wireless gaming receiver
14) A polaroid picture of Logan
15) Logan
OH. MY. GOD. PLUSHIES.
Posted 12 years agoTHERE IS A RAFFLE GOING ON WITH FREE CUSTOM PLUSHIES AND I THINK I AM GOING TO HAVE AN ANEURISM OF HAPPY. GO FUCKING ENTER!!!
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RAFFLE OF AWESOMENESS AND SURPREME VICTORY!
Posted 12 years agoMy ever so darling partner Remnants http://www.furaffinity.net/user/remnants/ is doing a Harry Potter Styled Raffle on FA and is giving out numbers, join now and reserve a spot quickly, as the finish date is a secret! Follow the instructions here and get your spot! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4869780/
