If you know me please dont read this... Its very very filthy.

I apologize for the lack of stories in the past two weeks. I am moving tomorrow and have been very busy packing. Updates will resume when I get settled (maybe another two weeks or so)

I'm still writing these but I thought I'd give myself a little time between updates. In my real life I am moving over the next month. So I'm committing to one new chapter I guess. A week. Its not going to be too much for me to handle and it keeps me writing. Expect them to be up at midnight on thursdays. EST.

I got married yesterday to  melmareena shes the best most awesome person ever.

I got married yesterday to  melmareena shes the best most awesome person ever.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3587190/

More info there. Gonna be a good raffle. Ends July first.

New icon courtesy of my fiancee  melmareena

So a few weeks ago I started on a fursuit. Its turning out great. Now, I wore the partial out and about. All things going swell. Well apparently the Lehigh Valley Mall in Whitehall Pennsylvania has a problem with wearing fursuits. Why? "Because I'm concealing my identity" Now. HOW IN THE HELL DOES A FURSUIT IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM HIDE AN IDENTITY??? If i wanted to be anonymous I WOULD CHOSE A HARDER TO RECOGNIZE DISGUISE. "Who robbed the store?" "A GIANT BADGER" is a lot more descriptive, unique, and identifiable. Then "that guy wearing all black and a ski mask."

Seriously who wants to flash mob it on holloween and out and out pwn the entire place. And when we get told to take our heads off. WE SCREAM "THEN MAKE EVERY SINGLE CHILD IN COSTUME TAKE THEIR MASK OFF AS WELL." And when we get kicked out. Lets protest.

Really bored ask me anything http://formspring.me/SirNom

Things are coming together nicely and this nom is indeed looking up at last.

=( Unhappy nom is sad. v__v broke up wif the gf the other day.

Sometimes in life for reasons that are not so clear we feel down. Sad. Gloomy. Depressed. It is in one of these downward cycles that I happen to find myself in. While I have been in an on going battle with depression over the last decade, it was only recently that I had managed to find a modicum of happiness that was more than a temporary fix.

As it stands someone has managed to influence my life so effectively that for the longest time I actually felt happy. But it would seem that this too was just a temporary fix as we progress closer and closer to the day we get together.

Maybe I'm just reacting to the distance between us. Maybe I'm just reacting to my dissatisfaction with my life at home. Maybe I'm just steadily going further and further insane. Regardless of it all I feel sad right now =( And my little special fix isn't working...

When maturity hits, its like walking into a street post, you look back on the things you've down, and you feel such regret, such disgust, such fascination. Wondering how you could ever be so naive, how the world managed to take advantage of you,

You develop a cynicism, and a pessimism that ultimately attempts to cripple the mind, and draw back to dangerous places, to seek adventure, enlightenment, happiness.

Only to have everything you've worked so hard for, so meticulously, collapse around you.

But the lucky ones,

Those who find that shimmering glimpse of hope that holds back the dangers of the world. That spreads its wings and lifts you away to places less damning.

You and I, me and you. We're the lucky ones in this whole forsaken place. As we are dragged to the depths of hell and back, may our eternal patience see us through to the light and our salvation.

We will spend the rest of our lives in each others arms. And I wouldn't want it any other way.

I think i'm relapsing into my depression, and or I may infact be bi-polar as well. Throw in the mild paranoid schizophrenia, and Dissociative Identity Disorder, and its amazing I can focus at all. Seriously I think i'm falling, far and hard and i don't know how to stop it.

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Everything around me is going so slow,
My body is twitching, tweaking, swaying to and fro.
I can't stop moving, or sit still.
My body is convulsing beyond my will.

Tired, wired, sad or bored,
I didn't know what this day had in store.
Confused, unfocused, silently screaming.
I can feel my blood start steaming.

Sick and twisted in a life surreal,
I can no longer tell whats fake or real.
My faith is shattered by a beating drum.
As the world slows, my heart only hums.

I can't bring myself to focus on my work today and I don't know why.