Boop.

Hi,

I imagine only 2 or 3 people will actually read this, but I digress. I have been depressed for over a year now and im getting tired of it. Its really screwing up my life. I cant handle relationships, I cant figure out what I wanna do with my life, and I feel like crap every day. Everyone tells me it'll be fine, i'll get through it, blah blah blah. Thats all well and good but I would like to think theres something I can actually DO about it, rather than just waiting for something good to happen.

Heres my current situation. I live at home with my parents, I work at Burger King, and im lonely. I would like that to change. I want to live on my own, work somewhere better/go to college again, and have a mate. At one point I had all of those things but then depression reared its ugly head. I used to live in the dorms at a college I really wanted to be at, but after a while I started to hate my classes and miss my boyfriend. So I left at the end of the semester and went to visit my boyfriend. After the visit we broke up. So now what? Am I just supposed to shrug that off and move on? Move on to what anyway? That was everything I wanted and I lost it in all in just a month.

Maybe this all just sounds like venting to you but its all I can think about lately. Its really getting to me and im struggling just to hold on...

Hmm... the title says it all really. I just felt like saying hi to all your wonderful furries who happen to glance at my page ^.^

Does anyone wanna tell me what im doing here? Does anyone care? Will anyone read this and seriously consider answering these questions? Or will everyone see this and just ignore it?

Whats the fucking point?

There are no wrong answers here, folks...

I've been really busy lately and I havent had a lot of artistic energy. Does anyone have any advice for how to draw, paint, ect. consistantly without burning yourself out? I'm sure everyone has their own methods but im having trouble finding my own...

I've begun scanning my pictures now rather than using my camera phone, so I will be changing the submission files for most of my pictures using scanned versions for much higher quality. Maybe you dont care but I thought I would mention that. Enjoy.

Recentley I realized how extremely furry I am and I began to wonder how many of you are really furry or just casual. I know I dont have a lot of watchers but maybe you could help me out by making a journal like this to ask your friends on here just how furry they are. Thanks :3

I havent been able to use anything other than furry pr0n ever since I discovered it. At one point or another I imagine what non-furry people that I know's fursonas would be if they had them. I like the idea of wearing a fursuit because its one of the few times you can wear a mask and it doesnt disguise who you really are. The movie avatar just made me wish that the technology existed so I could become an actual furry.

How furry are you?

You can get good $5 headshots tonight, just check this link http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1118659/
It would really help! x3

Stolen from xTaintedRedx

[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.

[x] You have your own room.

[x] You own a cell phone.

[x] You have an ipod/mp3 player.

[ ] Your parents are still married.

[x] You have more than 2 best friends.

[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.

T 0 T A L: 4


[ ] You dress how you want to.

[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.

[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.

[x] You have never been beaten up.

[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.

[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.

[x] Your room is big enough for you.

[ ] People don't use you for something you have.

[x] You have been to a concert.

T 0 T A L: 8


[ ] You have over 50 friends on myspace.

[x] Your parents let you have a myspace.

[ ] You get allowance.

[x] You collect something normal.

[ ] You look forward to going to school.

[x] You don't wish you were someone else.

[ ] You play a sport.

[x] You do something after school.

T 0 T A L: 12


[x] You own a car.

[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.

[x] You are happy with your appearance.

[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.

[x] You have never got a failing grade in your life.

[x] You have friends.

T 0 T A L: 17
[x] You know what is going on in the world.

[x] You care about so many people.

[x] You are happy with your life.

[ ] You know more than one language.

[x] You own a pet.

[x] You know the words to 5 songs.

[x] You don't have any enemies.

[x] You are a generally nice person.

T O T A L: 24

Now count your numbers and multiply by three.
Then title this journal "My life is __% Happy"

Today was a flood of Memes on FA and I gave in. However as a result I have tripled the number of people watching me! This brings me to a grand total of... THREE! I am in a good mood now but this being my first journal I suppose introductions are in order.

I shall explain my fursona like so many others. I am a ring-tailed lemur named Mr. Bodkin, I have white and orange fur with orange in the edges of my hair and on my tail. There is a small arrow under my left eye, this has no meaning as of yet but I will keep it as a signature to distinguish myself. I also have a pair of green tinted goggles that I make an effort to wear at all times, I only wish I could find a pair like them in RL so I ask anyone reading this to point me in the right direction. :3

As for my interests those would involve furries (of course), art of the sketchy kind, martial arts, video games, computers, and finally exploring the subtle but significant differences between reality and my imagination. Now if only I could remember everything I wanted to say, i'll have to settle for this. Thanks for reading.