Over the past 4 years I've been through a living nightmare but also had alot of good times as well.

So I almost died... twice
Diverticulitis is nothing to mess around with. so I had to get surgery to remove a section of my Large intestine. When the surgeon comes back and tells you the surgery was successful but if we didn't do surgery when we did I could have died. My section of intestine that was pulled out was black and dead and was very close to perforating. I've known too many people that have died from that.

Second time was 3 days later the procedure had a complication and leaked causing me to start to go into ceptic shock. Let me tell you thats something I never want to experience again because feeling cold, shaking uncontrollable, and the feeling you slowly slipping away is terrifying. I had to have an emergency surgery that left me with a colostomy for the next 8 months, if it wasn't for that I wouldn't be typing this.

Facing the idea of your own mortality twice in 3 days is beyond scary and that sits with you for a while. the recovery from that was hell and I have a huge scar on my belly to remind me of it not to mention other scars. The next year and a half recovering from this and having to get a massive piece of mesh put in to prevent hernias was rough.

Now to the recent stuff. I hurt may back bad at work and blew out a disk in my lower back. A slipped disk isn't fun but having to deal with workmans comp is worse, glad I've got a decent lawyer but in the state the process of getting things done takes a while. Cant go into more detail because god knows if they are going to see this. I doubt it but still rather not take chances. On top of that my girlfriend has been diagnosed with Breast Cancer again just adds to the problems.

"What about the good stuff Sivar?" well even though I had alot of bad happen I still managed to have good happen. I got back into doing the podcasts but that had to stop for legal reasons. I've been on camping trips, even a cruise in 2023 and other vactions before I hurt my back. I even got a promotion at work to Inventory control so I dont have to freeze my ass off anymore but thats what caused my injury tossing out 50lb boxes into a dumpster.

The Reason I had to stop the podcasts was because first someone decided to try and sell my website and radio station claiming they were me back in 2018 and when said person decided to pursue this in 2023 I had to stop broadcasting so the 24/7 broadcast and podcasts had to stop. Since then it's been resolved and the party that got scammed has gotten his answers and is seeking restitution. It was a lot of money and it's sad that someone scammed him like that. Now I could have put the station back up and streaming again with the podcasts BUT my WC layer said bad idea because my adjuster really hates me for reasons I cant talk about yet.

The past 2 years of not being able to run the station has been brutal and annoying to say the least and I have every intention of bringing back Marshal Radio X and both the Nuclear and Sivars Lair podcasts. The Metal Fur will be back and seeing I do now have a Partial thanks to Sakura Sky I plan on trying to get out to at least 1 local event like ANE (if thats still running). Since 2020 the world has been brutal and it's affected us all one way or another some have had it much worse than me. Typing this is a bit of therapy for me, as of February I gave up playing games because of mental health it's alienated me from friends, my GF's breast cancer diagnosis almost losing my house, bills being insane thanks to eversource being greed mongers.

How do I manage all this, well it's simple. I've had to remember no mater how bad shit gets there is a light at the end of the tunnel. besides I have lots more people to piss off and new friends to make so yeah I have goals. I'm turning 50 this year in October and I'm NOT going to let anything stop me, I have plans to live to be 200, as funny as that sounds I'm an ornery bastich Fighting off death twice in 3 days a while ago. If that cant kill me I'm damn sure I wont let anything get me down.

So remember 6 words. Rock'em Hard, Rock'em fast, Metal Forever.
Nuff said

You think I would write here more often considering the fact I want to let people know about the radio station and podcasts, yet for whatever reasons I dont. I'm not sure what my problem is as of late of posting but it needs to stop, the problem not the posting lol.
So life changes are fun especially with a severe case of Diverticulitis right now. Not my first rodeo either but still having an abscess thats huge isnt good.
So I have done a couple of podcasts for you metalheads out there and I plan on doing a few more as time permits and the motivation is there. (Links below)
It's funny now that I think back on it on August 28th it will be 20 years I've been doing all of this, and there is not a single day I look back and regret it. 20 years of bringing metal to the masses and entertaining you all. So thank you to you all that have listened and continue to listen I appreciate it.

#NowPlaying - marshalradiox on TuneIn Radio! http://tun.in/seOhO
Our podcasts are on www.podomatic.com/sivar
And follow Marshal Radio X on the Book of Face, just search for the name.

As always everyone, Rock'em Hard, Rock'em Fast, METAL FOREVER!

Again I will say this the wait was soooooooo worth it. As you have seen in some pictures I have my Fursona in physical form now. I have to say Thank you a million times to Sora/Parrots from Sakura Sky Studios. Some of the features I wont go into but she made it very easy to get in and out of the head, sleeves, paws, and feet very easy. The tail attaches to a belt (good thing I usually wear one anyway lol, but the coolest feature was in the head with the removable tounge and rear zipper. So its not like your traditional pull on head, it is more of a face first zip behind head that allows eazy in and out in case of... whatever (probably a spilled beer lol).
Now here is the part where I make her cringe and I would like to do some Mods (dont worry nothing that wont be removable.... I hope lol) like adding some metal rings and bars. For now I have to figure out what I want then how to possible add it that I can remove it without damaging the head or leaving big holes.

So I was on my phone yesterday, because I use chrome as my browser, and I saw some articles that I might be interested in and this one stood out so I clicked it and saved it to read for later. I was not dissapointed at all for once. Rolling Stone Magazine did an article at MFF about Furries, and for once it wasn't in a negative way. It was actually a good read and I am thoroughly impressed. Now if we can just get more main stream media on board with showing the positive in the fandom that would be great.

I read Rolling Stone because it has some good Heavy Metal news in it, think I'm going to read it a bit more for other things now.

On a side note yep still not dead and I will have pictures up soon of My suit made by Sakura Sky Studios. Sivar is here and I cant be happier!

Here is the link for the article
https://www.rollingstone.com/cultur.....st-924789/amp/

Well with life being a bit chaotic I have not recorded anything new in a long time for podcasts or even my new show "Nuclear" but fear not devoted fans I have recorded a show for Halloween for both. Nuclear Episode 3 airs at 8pm EST Friday night and the Halloween metal show Airs Sunday at 8pm EST find it on Tune in Radio and my website
TuneIn - https://tunein.com/radio/Marshal-Radio-X-s119892/
my website - http://www.marshalradiox.com

Now enough shameless self promotion, Life sucks work is non existant and stress is high... yeah thats about it for now I'll post more when I can.

First of all let me say this, this is not a cry for help, I'm not suicidal, EVER! I'm just trying to put thoughts down because it helps, and if you want to comment and give me advice feel free because fuck knows I dont have all the answers lol.

Well it's been a rough few months. alot of things have gone a total 180. I hate my job, My GF is starting to drive me insane slowly, and to top it off 2 weeks ago I got an umbilical hernia that cost me a better job. With all the bad news I could always use good news or a good laugh.

There are things about me most people dont know. As much as I have a super tough exterior and it always seems like nothing bothers me, I'm at a point in my life were it's starting to crack and I dont like it. Is it caused by age? Is it caused because I really have nobody to talk to anymore? Is it because I cant vent like I used to? I'm not sure is all I can say. All I do know is my life is full of uncertainties, and I dont like it.

I've been struggling for the past 2 weeks to record my podcast because I cant bring myself to do what I want to do or even enjoy doing. I get a little scared because what happens when my Partial gets finished and I get that box in the mail and I open it up see it fall in love and then run out and start suiting, OR is it going to be a polar opposite and I open it up I like the work but it goes on a hanger and collects dust but there is no real excitement anymore. Why is it I cant even enjoy small things anymore? Am I having a mid life crisis at 41?(yes I know I'm old LOL) Still I cant explain things happeneing and I want to know what i can do to fix it.

Depression sucks I felt it back when I was out of work for 3 years because of a shoulder injury but that was because I was hurt, this... this is something different, and I dont know how to fix it.

OK I've bored you enough...
Nuff... Meh.

You know I really don't post much here and I need to rectify that. First off hope every one had fun at FurPoc, wish I could have gone but as I've said no cons till I can suit and life availability too lol.

Well about 2 months ago after just getting into the swing of doing Podcasts again my recording/Broadcasting computer decided to nuke a hard drive. Problem is that HD had EVERYTHING on it I needed to keep the station going, I forgot to backup everything. now it's going to cost me $700 to get all the data recovered off that disk if it's even possible.

Now as always as with bad news there is always good news and vice versa. I got a new Job so I can officially say FUCK LOWE'S! That place was just sucking the life out of me and it was primarily the shitty people that live in SE mass that was causing it. Now I'm not saying everybody in SE Mass is a soul sucking ass hat, you have your nice ones too, just never enough. Oh yeah the new job, well I now work for Amazon Fulfillment center in Fall River. Pays better, room for advancement is good, the shift is Meh but I can fix that. For now I'm working Back half overnights, cant really get into that but needless to say any furry events on the weekends is a no go for me for now (not like I was attending any anyway but if I did have plans too lol). But with that good news Bad news comes along, and the GF does not like that and wants to leave me. Said its the job or me, I say begone with her as we have been having a rough time as of late, but being the good BF I'm going to try to make it work. See that all you single furry ladies a guy that cares and tries to make it work when things go bad, you dont know what your missing, hey if things dont work out *wink* *wink*, LOL!

I also got back from Ft Meyers, Florida about a week ago too. I was there for 10 days on Ft Meyers Beach at the resorts there. I have to say I enjoyed myself and had a lot of fun and I needed that relaxation after the holy hell I've been through. I have to say it was a great birthday trip for me and I got to surprise my sister that lives there as well. (we share the same birthday only 13 years apart). So to those of you out there that travel or want to travel, ALWAYS travel with someone as that makes the trip so much more fun.

So if you also happen to work at BOS7 on the same shift I work outbound so I'm on that break schedule and my lunch bag has the name SIVAR MRX on it, so if you see some scruffy looking Nerf herder with a black and silver bag with that written on it sitting alone come say hi.

Ok Nuff Said for now, just promise I'll try to post more often than every 3 months lol.

Damn I really need to remember to post stuffs here more often so people dont think I'm dead of fell down and cant get up.

Ok so The Sane Crazy Tiger has recorded a new podcast here is the link, It's called "Ep 14: I'm sorry you're stupid." Remember if you are easily offended or cant take a joke or vulgar language then dont click listen then bitch to me about it.

http://sivar.podomatic.com

Ok enough shamless self promoting.... NAAAAA! LOL!
I'm going to be going back on the air again in SL soon at a place called Eminent. It's my friends club in SL but if you ever wanted to hear me Live now is your chance to do it. I'll post up times I will be broadcasting at least a day in advance.

Now as far as RL is concerned I'm recovering well from both my surgery in the past year. The shoulder is still a little sore and my Range of motion is at 85% but I can get and give hugs at meets no problem now. My wrist is a bit slower and I can hold a bowling ball but not for long so a furbowl is still out for now. The non furry GF... yeah that might be ending soon for reasons I dont want to go into but lets just say I've had enough.

Shut up Robin you whiny bitch! LOL!

No but seriously I know I said I was going to let everyone know when the New podcast in 3 years was up and well It's been up now for a little over 3 weeks. STUPID ME! LOL!

So you can find it on sivar.podomatic.com

I'll have a new one up Friday BUT!!! I need input. I have 3 topics and I need you to let me know what one YOU want to hear ranted about... No not for 2 hours but the short rant I do in the show normally (about 6 min). Vote in the comments
1) "Oh Medical Insurance how you have failed us"
2) Guitar Centers Corporate scumbagery
3) "Uh oh there goes the family vacation," Gas prices on the rise again.

I'll be recording Wed afternoon, and maybe even streaming a game on twitch as I record (with webcam on). To find me on twitch I'm DJSivar

I'm the Sane Crazy Man and I approve this message---> "Rock'em Hard, Rock'em Fast, Metal Forever"

Yeah I went to the zoo at Roger Williams Park So I posted 2 videos and a bunch of pictures on facebook. Apparently you can share a link now so others can view it but... It's my personal page and well... I'm ugly as sin. Trust me if you saw this face without the mask on you'd go running too, just like my reflection every morning LMAO.

I once took a selfie and when I looked back at the picture it was just the scared face emoji with a comment that read "gallery broken due to ugly picture" LMAO!
If you cant laugh at yourself don't bother.

Ok off subject there, I'm going to post a couple of my best photos I took here on FA for you all to enjoy.

So today was Surgery #3 for me on the road to getting back a normal life. As you may recall in September I had gone for a 2nd Surgery to my shoulder to relocate the bicep. Well that surgery was great and I'm recovering nicely from that.

'So whats this 3rd surgery for then Sivar?'

Well this surgery was for my Right Wrist. 6 years ago (and 22 days) I had a nasty injury to my right hand at work, this is the injury that caused me to overcompensate my left side and tore my rotator cuff, labrahm, and bicep. For 6 years I was told by doctor after doctor there was nothing they could do until this current one who said I'll fix the carpel tunnel and take a look into why you have so much pain.

I will be going over the results on the 10th of any findings she made while looking around, but for now my hand is numb and as it slowly wears off OMG THE PAIN! Thank you Percocet. So with this surgery I can get back to having fun and actually participating at furbowls again soon, and later when my partial is done start being an active participant at cons once again. 2016 has started off really shitty but I hope this is the first of many things that are going to go in the right direction back to a normal life again... or normal to me LMAO!

When you think you have an handle on stuff life decides to throw curve balls at you. As some of you may or may not know I have a GF... OMG SIVAR HAS A GF! Yes I know I'm tied down for now lol. But as I am writing this I'm a bit of a wreck as she has breast cancer and is in surgery getting a full mastectomy of her left breast and reconstruction. So far it's been 5 hours and they said it was going to be a total of a 4-6 hour procedure. Nothing worse than waiting on a phone call hoping everything is ok. Thats just one example of how life is in my eyes.

I try to catch a break even on my own recovery from surgery and i go and trip on my shoe in PT and tear up some of the new bindings my bicep made to my left arm bone, screws are still there undamaged though. Even more of the other crap i have to deal with seems to go tits up and wind up in the shitter.

I know the man responsible for this, his name is Murphy. No not robocop you twit, the man that said "anything that can go wrong will go wrong". I will find this asshole and punch him in the dick lol.

Also for those of you that listen I am working on another podcast/video again (last one got rejected by the bosses because it was too harsh). So I this to the overly political and sensitive listeners, DO LISTEN I want to destroy you, unless of course your easy to get buthurt then forget it lol.

Nuff said.

When life gives you Apples make Apple juice.
When life gives you Lemons make lemonade.
When life gives you Oranges make Orange juice.
When life gives you Potatoes make vodka and then find the guy thats making orange juice and make a screwdriver and have a party!

WTF! I cant seem to stay out the hospital for one dumbass thing or another. This time it was because I had a Nasty Virus that was attacking my liver... AGAIN! I went through this 3 years ago, I cant understand how this could happen again. Oh and because I had abdominal pain, 'Hey lets give this guy every test in the book!' I am glad that happened because on a CT scan they found Diverticulitis, nice find but I dont need anymore problems. So before I leave yesterday they were trying to convince me to stay 1 more day for observation... Ummm NO! I've been there for a week already (yes i said week as in 7 days) I want to go home. I'm going to go into details but 5 days I had a HORRIBLE roommate and, on my 1st day alone the nurses start yapping outside my door loudly at 3am! So I pulled back the curtain and told them to shut up or talk softer.

So overall I think hospitals sometimes are a joke (especally my local one). Dont get me wrong I dont think they are all bad, but it just takes forever for the doctors to get their collective heads out of each others asses and start talking to one another. I had to find out from a surgon that I had a nasty virus and not a tick borne illness. Why, because nobody can give you a straight answer EVER. So done with hospitals next time I have to go to one I'd rather die first.

Well The surgery went well (so they tell me lol) and I'm out of a drug haze now, sort of. I did have a very scary moment the day of after coming out of anesthesia where I had a hard time breathing and chest pains. Turns out it was not a collapsed lung or a heart attack but my diaphragm was stuck and pushed up so my air intake in that lung was cut in half.

For those that don't know my bicep was detached from my labrahm (shoulder) and reattached to my arm bone. They also cleaned out the burcitess and arthritic inflammation in my shoulder from the previous surgery.

Well 2 years almost to the day after my Shoulder surgery (2013) I'm going back in for a 2nd Surgery to my (Left) shoulder. This time to clean up the crap that is still causing me pain and to relocate my bicep. I also actually got to speak with workmans comp (say lawyer and they all you lol) and found out my adjuster says he trying to push through my surgery for my (Right) wrist as well. Glad I made the decision to not doing anything for a bit because i wont be able to anyway lol.

Well after a recent anxiety attack episode from last night I got to thinking why did it happen. Apparently my new found freedom is a small portion of that problem, and the unstable nature of my future was a much bigger portion. I went from owning a home (1/2 of it) to having roommates again, I'm still injured and got news a 2nd surgery might help my shoulder and a surgery on my wrist should help that too, and the money I got from my settlement is dwindling fast. On top of that I have not been sleeping well, mostly because of the brick mattress I have lol, but also because of things on my mind I didn't even realize was affecting me. It might not help either that my plans to move to FL have been put on an indefinite hold for now.

I made a conscious decision (or as awake as i can be) that I've decided not to attend an cons in the future until I'm sure I have my personal shit straightened out. I've also said I was not going to attend any cons till my partial was done BUT... I think it's going to take longer for me to accept my new life and get myself situated that is going to take longer. It's weird because I used to live on my own 18 years ago and I always wanted to move back out on my own. Now that it is a reality I think I'm scared shitless. No need to put me on suicide watch I tried it once and I can still taste the gunmetal from 20+ years ago every time I think about it, not for me.

I don't know I think I might be panicking for all the wrong reasons and subconsciously I'm over reacting to everything. Yes I might still be injured but i am making progress in the right direction. And I've got a decent personal life, after her and I talked it was better to be FWB's until we find someone else or if we just decide to be together at some point, so I guess that's good lol.

For now I'm going to focus on the good things in my life and deal with the bad shit one thing at a time. I'll still go to furbowls from time to time, but a Con in my future is probably not going to happen till late 2017 unless I get my shit together before then.

Well I've wasted enough of my time an yours if you have read this far then thanks for reading if you skipped it and only read this part, go back and read you lazy ass lol, and if you didn't make it this far you have no idea what I'm saying here so you'll never know I said screw you at the end LOL!

Well I know I've been very quiet here for a bit after coming back from FL but there is a few reasons. First of them being my recording/server computer, the power supply finally died and I had to replace that. Second I've been trying to fix my laptop with no success after the remote Live show I did in NH. Third I've been going out a lot lately with a close friend/ex... This is were things get complicated.
At first it was a friends with benefits relationship that evolved into more. not a bad thing I've been single now for a couple of years and my life is getting back together rather nicely this year. Here's my problem, she's not a furry. Ok that not a big problem but the bigger problem is she's creeped out by Mascots and those in Fur suits, I found this out after i showed her a video by coopertom ('cats and boxes' if your wondering).
She has no idea that I'm involved with the Furry Fandom or that I'm even getting a partial from Sakura Sky. How do you tell someone that is creeped out by this, that I do this. Do I wait to tell her, or do i never tell her and hope she breaks up with me before she finds out? Maybe I'm over reacting right now who knows but it was a thought that crossed my mind. I was hoping to meet someone in the fandom that way I'd never have to deal with this but.... opps it happened lol.

Normaly I do a rant on the 4th but this year Fuck it, it's always the same.

So anyway Happy 4th of July to those in the US, Just remember what the holiday is about and why we celebrate it please.

So I mentioned LIVE SHOW... Yep I'm going to be doing a remote broadcast from Rt 106 Race park in Pembroke NH Sunday the 5th. I just got final word and the final ok to do it. It's called the hotlaps 2.0 R/C event, I'm really excited to do this show as it's the first time I'll be doing a remote broadcast AND the first time being back on that air LIVE in over 2 years. I will be talking with Race officals as well as Race winners and Participants. I'm also going to be racing my R/C cars as well. UNFORTUNATELY I have to take down the server for a few hours to travel to NH as i cant remote kick the broadcast like I used to. So from 6am EST till about 10-11am EST (depending on how fast I can setup) the station will be off the air. I will be broadcasting as well until it's time for me to leave or they throw my ass out.

If you want to listen and can stomach Heavy Metal from time to time (not often only when I'm racing and pee breaks) then go to http://www.marshalradiox.com and click the listen button that will take you to our Tunein Radio page or just search htp://www.tunein.com for Marshal Radio X. WARNING!!! This show is Rated R for the language in the music and my mouth but while Live we must remain PG-13 as best as possible as there will be young kids there.

As much as the past 2 weeks in FL were fun I cant wait till I get the chance to move there. To tell the truth about 10 min before I had to leave for the airport I almost canceled my flight. Granted I know I just moved into a place up here in MA but the only thing that stopped me was the fact I have a few doctors appt that I have to attend and I have to finish my physical therapy as well as possible schooling. Am I upset I came back, no. But the realization of moving there eventually has really got me anxious.

Now on to the other crap. My old house still isn't sold yet so thats still causing me headaches.
The worst news i got was from my PT, she told me that the 2 weeks off I took in FL undid everything we have done in the past month and a half. She assured me that while it is uncommon it does happen and that we are going to have to work just as hard again and probably put in an additional 3 month of PT in. WHAT?! Until this PT is done I cant put in for Vocational rehab or go work for anyone else... so Stress said welcome back as well as Karma and Murphy's Law. I dont know what i did to piss off Karma but she's really out to get me.

I do have something to look forward to though I have a commission in for a partial that when it's finished I cant wait to wear at a con or furbowl. I said I'm in no rush for it and I mean it, right now it's that ray of sunshine at the end of the rainbow lol. Now if there are Leprecauns there fine but unicorns and flying ponys... those fuckers gotta go! LOL

Ok you may now return to your normal lives if you have not already done so or fell asleep reading this lol.

Well here i am in Sarasota, FL from may 28th till june 10th. So far Ive had alot of fun and today I find myself at a furbowl/charity event in Bradenton right now. I wish there was another event down here that I could attend as I always look foward to bowls. Not as much as cons but bowls are monthly and you get to see some people all the time,while cons you get to meet new people. This is different as I get to meet new people at a bowl away from home. Well back to this bowl
nuff said.

I said this is a few times to people but apparently I need to say here if you were going to add me to your Skype list of contacts you must tell me who you are and where you know me from otherwise I block and Ignore all contacts request. I recently just got a new one today and it says hey add me to your Skype friends I know you can change that text to say "hey this is (your name here) from FA please add me". I've had a couple people tell me that I've denied their contact requests because again as I said they didn't include that information and they were rather upset with me and now wont add me. so again if you don't read this journal and try to add me to your Skype contacts and don't follow my simple request I will not add you.
thank you and nuff said

well let me start off first by saying I haven't been online much because I've had no internet for the past 3 weeks because I'm still in the process of moving and uhh my cable is shut off.

now that is a good question to go to FAU or to not go to FAU I'm kind of tossed on that idea as I'm going to Florida at the end of May beginning of June so I don't know if I should go to FAU as well maybe put some money aside for that. driving from Southern mass to New Jersey is not difficult it's just scary because New Jersey is just scary in itself it is New York's landfill after all lol. I know the vehicle that I have now aka the van, it can make the trip I'm just not sure if I'll have the money for gas and at least two days in the hotel unless I can find somebody to split the hotel cost for 3 days with.

so if anyone that's reading this needs another roomie for FA you let me know if not I'm looking for roomies lol that would be the only way that I can go.

I'm going to be moving the Radio Station Server asap today/tomorrow and beginning the process of packing the rest of my stuff up to move out later in the week. If anyone wants to message me I'll have my tablet on and skype running so I wont totally be out of touch.
Now to go finish packing the POD so mom can get out tomorrow.

Why is it when i say that people panic?(stupid professor)

ANYWAY, LOL! As some of you know I had been dealing with a workmans comp injury (2 actually) and have been out of work now for 2 years (been injured 5 though). A lot of you saw me at Fur Fright 2013 in a sling, well that was just a month after my surgery on my shoulder. That was the last time I had gone out to do ANYTHING Furry related or not, so yeah 2 years of sitting around my house of doing nothing fun.

WELL THATS ALL OVER!

As of Feb 27th,2015 I finally settled my claim in court and now after a month I can go back to having a fun filled and fur filled life again! I'm excited because I'm going to be commissioning my first partial as soon as the maker is available and opens for commissions. Not only that I'm moving back out on my own at the end of March, and i finally get to go on my long needed FL trip so i can get an idea what I'm looking at for jobs and an apartment, but before I move there I need to go to school first.

There is so much going on now that it is a bit overwhelming but it's all good and I think I can handle that a lot better than the bad lol. So my First Furry outing is going to be going to the Auburn Fur Bowl this weekend, as far as conventions are concerned that may have to wait until after school is done.

All I know is that after the move I can start posting podcasts on the radio station again and I can have a decent life once more and get to hang out with my friends both furry an non-furry alike. Granted it still does not change the fact my wrist is still fucked but I got lifetime medical so I can still get the treatment I need for that and my shoulder if anything bad should happen.

Begin Rant...

Just a general note for those of you that Live in Mass. DONT GET HURT ON THE JOB! the workmans comp laws in this state were changed my former Gov. Mitt Romney. He gave more right to the employers and screwed the guy/gal that gets hurt because you cant get the compensation you deserve. I'm saying this because I got screwed when it came time to talk settlement. Financially I dont give 2 shits at least I got something (gag order and personal rule prevents me from disclosign amount and who) but I should have gotten more. again I dont care about the money I just want to get the treatment I need to get to be 100% again or as close to it as possible and the schooling so I can get a better job.

...Rant over