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Posted 6 years agoHello my friends,
if, by chance, you play the smartphone game "Tokyo Afterschool Summoners" (also known as "Housamo"), love bears as much as I do, and would like to have a strong ursine backing you up: My support team consists of fully seeded (max. level, skill, attack and hp) 4★Volos (limited) and 5★Leib, and mostly seeded (max. attack and hp) 5★Ashigara and 4★Jambavan (limited). Am currently working to max out the latter too, next will be Alp and Barghest. Just write me and I'll gladly add you to my in-game "friends list".
Bear hugs,
skarute
if, by chance, you play the smartphone game "Tokyo Afterschool Summoners" (also known as "Housamo"), love bears as much as I do, and would like to have a strong ursine backing you up: My support team consists of fully seeded (max. level, skill, attack and hp) 4★Volos (limited) and 5★Leib, and mostly seeded (max. attack and hp) 5★Ashigara and 4★Jambavan (limited). Am currently working to max out the latter too, next will be Alp and Barghest. Just write me and I'll gladly add you to my in-game "friends list".
Bear hugs,
skarute
Found this anthro game early in development
Posted 6 years agoReminds me of "Inherit the earth":
https://www.tripthearkfantastic.com/
I'll keep an eye on how it will thrive next year.
https://www.tripthearkfantastic.com/
I'll keep an eye on how it will thrive next year.
Slowly finding my way back to social media...
Posted 6 years agoStill mostly absent from Furaffinity... If anybody is looking for me, you may reach me on Telegram (https://t.me/skarute)... probably...
More than one year away
Posted 11 years agoI remember that a long time ago, I promised not to disappear from FA without saying a word except if something bad stroke me.
So what has happened, did I have an accident or caught a terrible illness? Nothing of that. I broke my promise, and I'm sorry about that.
The following is only an explanation, but not an excuse why I was absent.
With my new job, I have much less free time than I had before when I was studying. At the moment, I have arrangements for each evening of the week from Monday to Friday. Also, maybe as a positive aspect, I currently know more people in real life. My autism might be contributing to why I am really bad at keeping alive my contacts, and I have problems with answering e-mails in my inbox too. Furthermore, I have begun to dislike my own behaviour, it feels self-centered, wailing and begging for attention.
Last year in winter, I fell in love with a polar bear that I had met here. This happiness was a feeling I had never experienced before, and I was ready to visit him this year, going more than 9000 km.
It was hard for me to accept that our love would have no future. His family, being strictly catholic, would never acknowledge our feelings, and I would bring him in jeopardy if I turned up. As there was no way for us to be together some time, I eventually ended our relation, and it has rendered me heartbroken up to this day.
I have since then avoided FA and most of the furry subject because it reminds me of so many hurtful things: I am incapable to get to know other furs, I despise my own drawings, and whenever the cute pictures here touch me, it simply makes me feel more miserable. One should never awaken false hope, it will turn into pain.
Just recently, I tried to join a local furry group in my town. Although I don't know what I did wrong, I suspect that the failures following my intentions were due to my disability.
I am gay, and I long for someone whom I can care for and be tender to. But I don't know what to do.
Will I spend more time on FA again? Probably not; For now, I have given up most of my furry dreams. But I will miss you. However, I will continue to work on my game during holidays. The new graphics system is almost done, the characters can now wear clothes, change their facial expressions, and wag their tails and walk at the same time.
I thank all of you who cared about me.
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So what has happened, did I have an accident or caught a terrible illness? Nothing of that. I broke my promise, and I'm sorry about that.
The following is only an explanation, but not an excuse why I was absent.
With my new job, I have much less free time than I had before when I was studying. At the moment, I have arrangements for each evening of the week from Monday to Friday. Also, maybe as a positive aspect, I currently know more people in real life. My autism might be contributing to why I am really bad at keeping alive my contacts, and I have problems with answering e-mails in my inbox too. Furthermore, I have begun to dislike my own behaviour, it feels self-centered, wailing and begging for attention.
Last year in winter, I fell in love with a polar bear that I had met here. This happiness was a feeling I had never experienced before, and I was ready to visit him this year, going more than 9000 km.
It was hard for me to accept that our love would have no future. His family, being strictly catholic, would never acknowledge our feelings, and I would bring him in jeopardy if I turned up. As there was no way for us to be together some time, I eventually ended our relation, and it has rendered me heartbroken up to this day.
I have since then avoided FA and most of the furry subject because it reminds me of so many hurtful things: I am incapable to get to know other furs, I despise my own drawings, and whenever the cute pictures here touch me, it simply makes me feel more miserable. One should never awaken false hope, it will turn into pain.
Just recently, I tried to join a local furry group in my town. Although I don't know what I did wrong, I suspect that the failures following my intentions were due to my disability.
I am gay, and I long for someone whom I can care for and be tender to. But I don't know what to do.
Will I spend more time on FA again? Probably not; For now, I have given up most of my furry dreams. But I will miss you. However, I will continue to work on my game during holidays. The new graphics system is almost done, the characters can now wear clothes, change their facial expressions, and wag their tails and walk at the same time.
I thank all of you who cared about me.
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EF journal 3
Posted 12 years agoHello dear readers,
I will continue the EF report where I left it: As said, I was taking part in a lecture about the Oculus Rift, and at last I even had the chance to try it on. I didn't find it so spectacular, though, the 3d effect was weak, and the view was blurred. Maybe the device was not correctly adjusted to my eyes, since I wear glasses.
Next, I visited the Dealers' Den. Sadly, there was not much bear art to find. And I am angry about myself that I didn't purchase any of the lovely smelling soaps there, because right now I am lacking one.
In the afternoon, there was the famous furry parade. I missed the start, but waited till they all came back with aching feet (the walk had a length of about 2 km / 1.2 miles).
One could also take a picture of oneself with some real raccoons that the animal welfare organisation for which the charity was hold had brought along. I had a look at the cute animals, but didn't register for a photo because I don't support causing them so much stress, yet I donated for it.
The second day ended with a dance contest (it is worth to mention that a bear took part in it,
schwarzmoor, with an impressive performance) and the Fursuit Game Show. The latter was a bit chaotic and not always fair to the participants, but nevertheless much fun.
On the third day there finally was the Game Developers meeting. I had thought it was a more public event, therefore I had commissioned
bloodhoundomega to draw a signboard for me, but in the end almost everyone was from the development scene. Which was then an advantage in fact, since I could explain extensively how it worked under the hood, and I had several interesting conversations and got some tips about how to go on. I would have liked to go to "How to start drawing furry art" too which took place in parallel, but well, this event was definitely awesome.
The Pawpet show began with a long delay and had several breaks in between when the puppeteers changed the scene, but otherwise it was superb, the hosts really put lots and lots of effort in it, the story was thrilling, and I actually believed they took native hawaiian music, it sounded gorgeous.
The Big Blue Dance was set up at midnight, yet I was quite disappointed about the music. At least during the first two hours, it was mostly just pounding and a bit of dubstep, I cannot dance to that, I need some nice melodies to get myself into the right mood. Furthermore the dancefloor was too crowded, and you could hardly dance offside because of the many photographers orbiting around it.
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On Sunday, it was time for me to move homeward. And actually, the journey started well. The problems arised when the conductor said my ticket was invalid and I didn't know why because my mother had bought them. At least I was allowed to travel on. Later, the train staff had to call two times for a doctor because people had reportedly collapsed, and finally there was the announcement that this train was overcrowded (I couldn't attest that, for it looked normal where I was seated) and would not drive on. People were asked to change to another train. Well, I thought, if now everyone is changing trains, I should better hurry to catch a seat. And bound as it was to happen, I forgot my suitcase. I think it was only five minutes until I was back for having noticed my loss, but the train that was said to stay was already gone. Seems like I must be really dumb for forgetting my stuff and that I have given away my seat although I could have remained seated and avoided the loss of my suitcase. >:o(
In conclusion, I'm finally home, tired and still without suitcase though I have immediately handed in a note, but at least the ache in my throat has gone away and I feel healthy.
What an adventure! I doubt I will go to EF again, but will try to attend smaller conventions in the future.
Warm humming to all of you,
'root :o]
I will continue the EF report where I left it: As said, I was taking part in a lecture about the Oculus Rift, and at last I even had the chance to try it on. I didn't find it so spectacular, though, the 3d effect was weak, and the view was blurred. Maybe the device was not correctly adjusted to my eyes, since I wear glasses.
Next, I visited the Dealers' Den. Sadly, there was not much bear art to find. And I am angry about myself that I didn't purchase any of the lovely smelling soaps there, because right now I am lacking one.
In the afternoon, there was the famous furry parade. I missed the start, but waited till they all came back with aching feet (the walk had a length of about 2 km / 1.2 miles).
One could also take a picture of oneself with some real raccoons that the animal welfare organisation for which the charity was hold had brought along. I had a look at the cute animals, but didn't register for a photo because I don't support causing them so much stress, yet I donated for it.
The second day ended with a dance contest (it is worth to mention that a bear took part in it,
schwarzmoor, with an impressive performance) and the Fursuit Game Show. The latter was a bit chaotic and not always fair to the participants, but nevertheless much fun.On the third day there finally was the Game Developers meeting. I had thought it was a more public event, therefore I had commissioned
bloodhoundomega to draw a signboard for me, but in the end almost everyone was from the development scene. Which was then an advantage in fact, since I could explain extensively how it worked under the hood, and I had several interesting conversations and got some tips about how to go on. I would have liked to go to "How to start drawing furry art" too which took place in parallel, but well, this event was definitely awesome.The Pawpet show began with a long delay and had several breaks in between when the puppeteers changed the scene, but otherwise it was superb, the hosts really put lots and lots of effort in it, the story was thrilling, and I actually believed they took native hawaiian music, it sounded gorgeous.
The Big Blue Dance was set up at midnight, yet I was quite disappointed about the music. At least during the first two hours, it was mostly just pounding and a bit of dubstep, I cannot dance to that, I need some nice melodies to get myself into the right mood. Furthermore the dancefloor was too crowded, and you could hardly dance offside because of the many photographers orbiting around it.
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On Sunday, it was time for me to move homeward. And actually, the journey started well. The problems arised when the conductor said my ticket was invalid and I didn't know why because my mother had bought them. At least I was allowed to travel on. Later, the train staff had to call two times for a doctor because people had reportedly collapsed, and finally there was the announcement that this train was overcrowded (I couldn't attest that, for it looked normal where I was seated) and would not drive on. People were asked to change to another train. Well, I thought, if now everyone is changing trains, I should better hurry to catch a seat. And bound as it was to happen, I forgot my suitcase. I think it was only five minutes until I was back for having noticed my loss, but the train that was said to stay was already gone. Seems like I must be really dumb for forgetting my stuff and that I have given away my seat although I could have remained seated and avoided the loss of my suitcase. >:o(
In conclusion, I'm finally home, tired and still without suitcase though I have immediately handed in a note, but at least the ache in my throat has gone away and I feel healthy.
What an adventure! I doubt I will go to EF again, but will try to attend smaller conventions in the future.
Warm humming to all of you,
'root :o]
*huff*
Posted 12 years agoI finally arrived at home again from Eurofurence. The convention was good, however today's journey was not. Will write in detail about it, but for now, I have to crawl in my den, I'm so tired.
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EF journal 2
Posted 12 years agoHello everyone,
I admit, yesterday evening made a bit up for the negative experience I had before. Thinking that if I want to change something, I have to do it myself, I joined the Game Corner and played "Werewolves" with the others. It was fun, one time I was the last survivor, the other time I discovered a werewolf but was killed afterwards. They probably thought I was the seer.
Afterwards I went to the dance floor. I really enjoyed moving to the rhythm, I believe I stayed there for about two hours! When I dance, I can break through my tension and I feel so light.
Oh, and just now, I'm attending a lecture about the Oculus Rift, it's amazing!
Snuggles and sniffs,
root burr :o]
PS: I attached a stub tail to the bear character in Faunis, polishing it for the presentation tomorrow.
I admit, yesterday evening made a bit up for the negative experience I had before. Thinking that if I want to change something, I have to do it myself, I joined the Game Corner and played "Werewolves" with the others. It was fun, one time I was the last survivor, the other time I discovered a werewolf but was killed afterwards. They probably thought I was the seer.
Afterwards I went to the dance floor. I really enjoyed moving to the rhythm, I believe I stayed there for about two hours! When I dance, I can break through my tension and I feel so light.
Oh, and just now, I'm attending a lecture about the Oculus Rift, it's amazing!
Snuggles and sniffs,
root burr :o]
PS: I attached a stub tail to the bear character in Faunis, polishing it for the presentation tomorrow.
EF journal
Posted 12 years agoHi pals,
well, I had a good journey to Magdeburg yesterday, only missed one train, and now am deep among the furry crowds of EF. That's also what was my first impression: There are too many people, social overload for me, so to speak. Which leads to my main problem that I don't know anybody and am too shy to speak, and with the awkward expressions on my face and my stiff movement, I am definitely not whom one would talk to. I always thought I wasn't impaired so much, but watching people made me realise how grave my deficiencies are.
Other things that bug me:
- Why can't hotel managers imagine that there are people who don't use the lift? Once again, in the hotel where I reside (not the Maritim), the staircase is only designed for fire emergency (and you can see that by the dirt) and the doors can't be opened from its side, meaning that I'd always have to ask at the counter that someone unlock them for me. Thankfully, the staircase is so badly looked after that the doors are jamming, such that the mechanism won't shut them completely and I can leave them open for a gap.
- The events usually go like this: I'm waiting with a crowd in front of the door. Once they let everybody in, I let the others pass because I can't bear being squeezed in a queue. When I finally enter, the seats are all taken and I get to stand where I can't see anything at all. Just now, I wanted to listen to "Your first furry convention" and had to leave because it became so full, one couldn't even put a foot through the door.
So all in all, I like to watch all these fursuiters, but otherwise I don't really enjoy it. Though I can't believe I even got one hug for donating money, that was nice. Yesterday I went to my room at 9 pm because, and I am grieved to say that, even programming and tedious debugging is more pleasure than being the lonely one among happy attendants.
I will present Faunis on Saturday. Added two more areas, fixed some bugs, made the robots work again. Maybe then my time will come.
:o(
well, I had a good journey to Magdeburg yesterday, only missed one train, and now am deep among the furry crowds of EF. That's also what was my first impression: There are too many people, social overload for me, so to speak. Which leads to my main problem that I don't know anybody and am too shy to speak, and with the awkward expressions on my face and my stiff movement, I am definitely not whom one would talk to. I always thought I wasn't impaired so much, but watching people made me realise how grave my deficiencies are.
Other things that bug me:
- Why can't hotel managers imagine that there are people who don't use the lift? Once again, in the hotel where I reside (not the Maritim), the staircase is only designed for fire emergency (and you can see that by the dirt) and the doors can't be opened from its side, meaning that I'd always have to ask at the counter that someone unlock them for me. Thankfully, the staircase is so badly looked after that the doors are jamming, such that the mechanism won't shut them completely and I can leave them open for a gap.
- The events usually go like this: I'm waiting with a crowd in front of the door. Once they let everybody in, I let the others pass because I can't bear being squeezed in a queue. When I finally enter, the seats are all taken and I get to stand where I can't see anything at all. Just now, I wanted to listen to "Your first furry convention" and had to leave because it became so full, one couldn't even put a foot through the door.
So all in all, I like to watch all these fursuiters, but otherwise I don't really enjoy it. Though I can't believe I even got one hug for donating money, that was nice. Yesterday I went to my room at 9 pm because, and I am grieved to say that, even programming and tedious debugging is more pleasure than being the lonely one among happy attendants.
I will present Faunis on Saturday. Added two more areas, fixed some bugs, made the robots work again. Maybe then my time will come.
:o(
Away for Eurofurence
Posted 12 years agoMy friends,
while writing this, I'm already on my way to my first furry convention, Eurofurence. I'm excited, yet a bit nervous, since these are also the first holidays where I am on my own. Hopefully my OCD won't get me into trouble...
We'll see!
:o]
while writing this, I'm already on my way to my first furry convention, Eurofurence. I'm excited, yet a bit nervous, since these are also the first holidays where I am on my own. Hopefully my OCD won't get me into trouble...
We'll see!
:o]
Faunis 0.3.1 video
Posted 12 years agoSince I develop faunis on a gnu/linux system, I didn't notice until now that version 0.3 didn't run properly under windows. Now I have published a fixed version 0.3.1 and recorded a progress video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnCAHk9gBxU
I also tried to comment it via microphone, but soon had to admit that I just can't speak freely in English, nor could I procure a fitting licence-free music in time. So I'm sorry to provide you again with another silent video. :o(
skarute
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnCAHk9gBxU
I also tried to comment it via microphone, but soon had to admit that I just can't speak freely in English, nor could I procure a fitting licence-free music in time. So I'm sorry to provide you again with another silent video. :o(
skarute
It is (almost) done.
Posted 12 years agoHello my dear readers!
3 months later, after times of struggle, desperation, insight and illness, I have finally passed in my thesis about software verification, and the slides for its presentation are finished as well. Now all I have to do is to wait until my examiners are ready to mark it and to listen to my speech, and then: Free at last! No more studying for this bear.
Logging into FA, I'm almost struck to death by the amount of messages in my inbox :o]. I hope I can work it off and answer to everyone.
Last week, I found enough time to finish Faunis 0.3 - I will create and post a video of it on youtube this weekend. I'm looking forward to Eurofurence 19, they said here that one can present his/her game creations - a chance I surely won't miss! Maybe I will meet one of you there?
Hugs and hummings,
skarute :o]
3 months later, after times of struggle, desperation, insight and illness, I have finally passed in my thesis about software verification, and the slides for its presentation are finished as well. Now all I have to do is to wait until my examiners are ready to mark it and to listen to my speech, and then: Free at last! No more studying for this bear.
Logging into FA, I'm almost struck to death by the amount of messages in my inbox :o]. I hope I can work it off and answer to everyone.
Last week, I found enough time to finish Faunis 0.3 - I will create and post a video of it on youtube this weekend. I'm looking forward to Eurofurence 19, they said here that one can present his/her game creations - a chance I surely won't miss! Maybe I will meet one of you there?
Hugs and hummings,
skarute :o]
It's just too much
Posted 12 years agoDear friends,
I come to the conclusion that at the moment, I'm hopelessly overloaded. My schedule is crowded with work in the morning, my thesis in the afternoon and further activities in the evening, while afterwards, I'm totally exhausted. At the weekend, I am claimed by my family (Last Sunday, we went on a nice excursion where I saw some tree pipits and a european goldfinch.
Bears, bears, bears... I have had at least three dreams about them recently. One where I met a mother with her cub in the wild, one where wild bears roamed our city and sniffed at us, quite scary, and one where I had a pet bear in the size of a guinea pig. <3
As my thesis will last until the middle of July (at most), there is currently no end in sight. I am then planning to finish my studies and look for a job as a programmer. I hope to find some moments now and then to come here, but I can't foretell.
Your sleepy bear
skarute
I come to the conclusion that at the moment, I'm hopelessly overloaded. My schedule is crowded with work in the morning, my thesis in the afternoon and further activities in the evening, while afterwards, I'm totally exhausted. At the weekend, I am claimed by my family (Last Sunday, we went on a nice excursion where I saw some tree pipits and a european goldfinch.
Bears, bears, bears... I have had at least three dreams about them recently. One where I met a mother with her cub in the wild, one where wild bears roamed our city and sniffed at us, quite scary, and one where I had a pet bear in the size of a guinea pig. <3
As my thesis will last until the middle of July (at most), there is currently no end in sight. I am then planning to finish my studies and look for a job as a programmer. I hope to find some moments now and then to come here, but I can't foretell.
Your sleepy bear
skarute
Why don't I have any self-discipline?
Posted 12 years agoIt's true that I recently had much more work to do than before: Internship in the morning, thesis in the afternoon, further side jobs in the afternoon. But that is no excuse to neglect my friends here on FA.
I think I am a bad person.
Some updates on Faunis: Moved from pixel art to full-size frames, the new bear avatar has been finished, currently refactoring and cleaning the code as well as implementing a scaler.
I think I am a bad person.
Some updates on Faunis: Moved from pixel art to full-size frames, the new bear avatar has been finished, currently refactoring and cleaning the code as well as implementing a scaler.
Curse you, Ankama...
Posted 12 years agoFor everyone who worries: I am neither dead nor have I lost my mind about my grandmother's death. I got over that.
It is just that the creators of Dofus noticed I had not played their game for a long time. And what do you do in such a case? Yes: You hand out some free subscription time to bait your players! And they hooked me well. End of the story: 15 level-ups in about 10 days, along with new in-game equipment and money.
Möh, it's finally over, and I won't renew my subscription for sure.
Hugs to all of you,
skarute
PS: I thought of getting a paypal account. I am just unsure about how it works and about all the things I can do with it. Do you have experience with it and would like to share?
PPS: I got a raspberry pi to experiment with! Joy! :o]
It is just that the creators of Dofus noticed I had not played their game for a long time. And what do you do in such a case? Yes: You hand out some free subscription time to bait your players! And they hooked me well. End of the story: 15 level-ups in about 10 days, along with new in-game equipment and money.
Möh, it's finally over, and I won't renew my subscription for sure.
Hugs to all of you,
skarute
PS: I thought of getting a paypal account. I am just unsure about how it works and about all the things I can do with it. Do you have experience with it and would like to share?
PPS: I got a raspberry pi to experiment with! Joy! :o]
Mourning
Posted 12 years agoI have given condolences several times here on FA to people who had experienced a loss in their lives. But now I realize that one cannot truly grasp such pain until oneself has lost someone close.
My grandma lived with us since I was little. She was like a mother to me since my parents were away working most of the time. Being a piano teacher, she taught me how to play since I was 6 years old, I think I was her student for 14 full years. We had so many great times together, she took me in her car, cruising around, we had picknicks and breakfasts, I remember her Schwarzwälder Kirschtorte, her strawberry ice cream and her delicious chocolate cake. She read the homework vocabulary list to me while I was writing it down, then she would test me. And I taught her how to pronounce the English, French and Spanish words.
But she had a hard time, too, due to an unhealable illness, her body became weaker and more and more paralyzed, it was a very slow, but unstoppable process. It began with her feet, first she needed a stick, then a rollator, then a wheelchair. At the beginning I helped her with shopping, later I did it all myself. About five years ago, she moved to a nursing home, because she could not even move herself from / into the wheelchair and was dependent on someone to help her. It was fortunate that she could take her piano there and continue to play, at least for some time. I remember us playing scrabble (and inventing new words), on warm days we went to the cafe, or into nature, visiting the chicken, where I picked blackberries for her. In the last years however, her sight and hearing became very impaired, she wouldn't go outside anymore, conversation was difficult, and it was nearly impossible to play the piano any longer, though I printed very large scores for her. I regret that I gave her visits rather rarely in that last time.
One week ago then, she was brought to the hospital because of an infection that gave her difficulties to breathe. After some days, they said that she was better and would be able to return soon. Because of my studies, I wasn't at home, and I didn't plan to go immediately.
And then, on Friday, after having spoken a last time with my parents, she died. Apparently the paralysis had reached her breathing, and she didn't want to be connected to respiration devices for the rest of her life.
Today, I have said goodbye to her in the morgue. But it wasn't really her anymore there, only the empty shell. Her spirit has left long ago, flying to God.
I will play some pieces of Bach at her funeral that she once taught me. My passion for this master's music as well as my ability to play is my greatest heritage from her.
Goodbye, grandma. Your suffering has finally ended.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZQtLgjZCEbQ
I thank all those who eased my pain with their comments, you mean a lot to me.
My grandma lived with us since I was little. She was like a mother to me since my parents were away working most of the time. Being a piano teacher, she taught me how to play since I was 6 years old, I think I was her student for 14 full years. We had so many great times together, she took me in her car, cruising around, we had picknicks and breakfasts, I remember her Schwarzwälder Kirschtorte, her strawberry ice cream and her delicious chocolate cake. She read the homework vocabulary list to me while I was writing it down, then she would test me. And I taught her how to pronounce the English, French and Spanish words.
But she had a hard time, too, due to an unhealable illness, her body became weaker and more and more paralyzed, it was a very slow, but unstoppable process. It began with her feet, first she needed a stick, then a rollator, then a wheelchair. At the beginning I helped her with shopping, later I did it all myself. About five years ago, she moved to a nursing home, because she could not even move herself from / into the wheelchair and was dependent on someone to help her. It was fortunate that she could take her piano there and continue to play, at least for some time. I remember us playing scrabble (and inventing new words), on warm days we went to the cafe, or into nature, visiting the chicken, where I picked blackberries for her. In the last years however, her sight and hearing became very impaired, she wouldn't go outside anymore, conversation was difficult, and it was nearly impossible to play the piano any longer, though I printed very large scores for her. I regret that I gave her visits rather rarely in that last time.
One week ago then, she was brought to the hospital because of an infection that gave her difficulties to breathe. After some days, they said that she was better and would be able to return soon. Because of my studies, I wasn't at home, and I didn't plan to go immediately.
And then, on Friday, after having spoken a last time with my parents, she died. Apparently the paralysis had reached her breathing, and she didn't want to be connected to respiration devices for the rest of her life.
Today, I have said goodbye to her in the morgue. But it wasn't really her anymore there, only the empty shell. Her spirit has left long ago, flying to God.
I will play some pieces of Bach at her funeral that she once taught me. My passion for this master's music as well as my ability to play is my greatest heritage from her.
Goodbye, grandma. Your suffering has finally ended.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZQtLgjZCEbQ
I thank all those who eased my pain with their comments, you mean a lot to me.
My grandma died.
Posted 12 years agoI will be silent for some time.
Oh, and the art contest was epic fail, zero interest.
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Oh, and the art contest was epic fail, zero interest.
...
Faunis Music & Art Contest
Posted 13 years agoDear friends,
I think I have found one piece of music that I will play on Faunis' title screen:
Songs without Words, Op. 85 No. 4, Mendelssohn
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZdD7l0VwmKc
What do you think?
Coming to speak about the title screen... I am still looking for a picture for it. Therefore, I would like to hold a small art contest:
I'd be more than glad for anyone willing to take part and reach in his / her candidate artwork. The picture should at least contain the title "Faunis", and maybe a reference to the seven playable species, though the latter is optional. The actual content is up to you. Minimum dimension should be 800x600 pixels. The deadline is next week on Thursday, 7th February.
Then, we will have a public voting about which picture is the most amazing, where each one will have one voice. Chances are that all other pictures will nevertheless be featured in the game, be it for the credits, options or loading screen.
Most importantly, every featured artist will be given credit, of course.
Is that a good offer?
Excited,
skarute the piano-practising bear :o]
I think I have found one piece of music that I will play on Faunis' title screen:
Songs without Words, Op. 85 No. 4, Mendelssohn
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZdD7l0VwmKc
What do you think?
Coming to speak about the title screen... I am still looking for a picture for it. Therefore, I would like to hold a small art contest:
I'd be more than glad for anyone willing to take part and reach in his / her candidate artwork. The picture should at least contain the title "Faunis", and maybe a reference to the seven playable species, though the latter is optional. The actual content is up to you. Minimum dimension should be 800x600 pixels. The deadline is next week on Thursday, 7th February.
Then, we will have a public voting about which picture is the most amazing, where each one will have one voice. Chances are that all other pictures will nevertheless be featured in the game, be it for the credits, options or loading screen.
Most importantly, every featured artist will be given credit, of course.
Is that a good offer?
Excited,
skarute the piano-practising bear :o]
A fellow bear in need!
Posted 13 years agoFaunis 0.2 released
Posted 13 years agoNow with two connected maps between which you can walk around, and there are two comfy houses! :o]
I tried to make it easier for windows users to launch client and server by adding two batch files to the archive. Just double-click on them and the server / client should start up.
As before, there are two prepared accounts in the game named "user1" (password "user1") and "user2" (password "user2") which you can log in to. "user1" has the character "oso1", "user2" has the character "oso2".
https://savannah.nongnu.org/projects/faunis
I tried to make it easier for windows users to launch client and server by adding two batch files to the archive. Just double-click on them and the server / client should start up.
As before, there are two prepared accounts in the game named "user1" (password "user1") and "user2" (password "user2") which you can log in to. "user1" has the character "oso1", "user2" has the character "oso2".
https://savannah.nongnu.org/projects/faunis
Furry game on Kickstarter: Inherit the Earth 2
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.kickstarter.com/projects.....it-the-earth-2
If you played the first game, you will know that it was crowded with anthros. It was a great game, I liked it! But I hope that the sequel will have fewer mazes. :o]
If you played the first game, you will know that it was crowded with anthros. It was a great game, I liked it! But I hope that the sequel will have fewer mazes. :o]
Eurofurence
Posted 13 years agoMy dear friends,
I'm sorry for having been silent recently. At the moment I am not so good. I have problems maintaining my diurnal rhythm, and I feel lonely in RL. On certain days of the week I don't speak any word from dawn till dusk.
Well, I can at least look forward to something: Yesterday I registered my participation in Eurofurence 19, my first furry convention. Will somebody whom I know go there too? It would be awesome if I wouldn't be on my own there.
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I'm sorry for having been silent recently. At the moment I am not so good. I have problems maintaining my diurnal rhythm, and I feel lonely in RL. On certain days of the week I don't speak any word from dawn till dusk.
Well, I can at least look forward to something: Yesterday I registered my participation in Eurofurence 19, my first furry convention. Will somebody whom I know go there too? It would be awesome if I wouldn't be on my own there.
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The bear is back
Posted 13 years agoHello my friends,
I have finally returned from thse mountains. The weather was wonderful, sunshine and a pure blue sky almost every day, and I really enjoyed skiing. In fact, I saw someone skiing in a cute seal fursuit (presumably the mascot of the ski school), and two persons in some sort of partial bunny fursuits on the piste.
Everything was fine except that I once fell on my head during a walk (Does everybody see these green and blue sparkles or is that individual from brain to brain?), but the headache passed after one day.
I haven't yet continued with the game, but I wrote one chapter and a short story which I will upload here soon after correcting some remaining mistakes. I also created several pencil and paper drawings, some of which are already finished. I think about switching to traditional art since I find it much easier to draw when I can see my hand, I still have problems with the coordination while using the tablet. Hm, and I will probably lose my status as a "clean artist", if you know what that means .
All in all, I am glad to be back here, I felt very lonely recently.
hugs,
skarute
PS: I think of going to Eurofurence next summer. Does anyone too, or can give me advice for my first furry meeting?
I have finally returned from thse mountains. The weather was wonderful, sunshine and a pure blue sky almost every day, and I really enjoyed skiing. In fact, I saw someone skiing in a cute seal fursuit (presumably the mascot of the ski school), and two persons in some sort of partial bunny fursuits on the piste.
Everything was fine except that I once fell on my head during a walk (Does everybody see these green and blue sparkles or is that individual from brain to brain?), but the headache passed after one day.
I haven't yet continued with the game, but I wrote one chapter and a short story which I will upload here soon after correcting some remaining mistakes. I also created several pencil and paper drawings, some of which are already finished. I think about switching to traditional art since I find it much easier to draw when I can see my hand, I still have problems with the coordination while using the tablet. Hm, and I will probably lose my status as a "clean artist", if you know what that means .
All in all, I am glad to be back here, I felt very lonely recently.
hugs,
skarute
PS: I think of going to Eurofurence next summer. Does anyone too, or can give me advice for my first furry meeting?
Last journal for this year
Posted 13 years agoDear readers,
I will be on holiday till 6th of January, skiing. Most probably I won't have Internet access there, so I take my leave for now and wish you all a merry Christmas. If I find some free time, I will continue coding on the game, and do some traditional drawings (try to boost my bears' cuteness ^^). And I hope to see you safe and healthy again next year!
Humming friendly,
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I will be on holiday till 6th of January, skiing. Most probably I won't have Internet access there, so I take my leave for now and wish you all a merry Christmas. If I find some free time, I will continue coding on the game, and do some traditional drawings (try to boost my bears' cuteness ^^). And I hope to see you safe and healthy again next year!
Humming friendly,
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Faunis 0.1 pre-alpha released
Posted 13 years agoDear readers!
Finally the time has come: The very first Faunis development release 0.1 has been published!
https://savannah.nongnu.org/projects/faunis
You can download it there from the "download area" and get a first impression of its very early stage of development. The two archive files ".tar.gz" and ".zip" both have the same content, just choose the zipfile if you're using windows.
Note that Faunis is currently configured to have client and server run on the same computer and not over the Internet, as encryption and server protection haven't been implemented yet.
The archive file contains both compiled and source form of client and server, so you don't have to compile it yourself. To get started, first extract the archive, then read the included "windows.txt" and "readme.txt". I hope that I wrote these documentation files with enough details for you to make it work.
Ah, and of course, remember that both client and server must be started. Client commands are explained in the readme. There are two pre-created accounts named "user1" (password "user1") and "user2" (password "user2") which you can log in to. "user1" has the character "oso1", "user2" has the character "oso2".
If you still have questions, just ask the burr. :o]
I want to thank
jetbear for becoming my first staff member. If you too would like to take part in development, send me a note.
*warm hugs to all*
skarute
Finally the time has come: The very first Faunis development release 0.1 has been published!
https://savannah.nongnu.org/projects/faunis
You can download it there from the "download area" and get a first impression of its very early stage of development. The two archive files ".tar.gz" and ".zip" both have the same content, just choose the zipfile if you're using windows.
Note that Faunis is currently configured to have client and server run on the same computer and not over the Internet, as encryption and server protection haven't been implemented yet.
The archive file contains both compiled and source form of client and server, so you don't have to compile it yourself. To get started, first extract the archive, then read the included "windows.txt" and "readme.txt". I hope that I wrote these documentation files with enough details for you to make it work.
Ah, and of course, remember that both client and server must be started. Client commands are explained in the readme. There are two pre-created accounts named "user1" (password "user1") and "user2" (password "user2") which you can log in to. "user1" has the character "oso1", "user2" has the character "oso2".
If you still have questions, just ask the burr. :o]
I want to thank
jetbear for becoming my first staff member. If you too would like to take part in development, send me a note.*warm hugs to all*
skarute
