Not sure who reads FA journals much, but in case: I'm still alive and well here. I just don't have the extra funds to spend on commission art anymore, haven't for the past year, so the account is pretty quiet on new uploads. I will post gift art when I receive them & remember to do so, but yeah not alot out of me these days although I want to do so.

Since I finally have a reason to do one of these, here's my Anthrocon 2018 journal.

Where are you staying?
Westin

What day are you getting there?
I'll be driving in Wednesday afternoon (hopefully!)

How are you traveling?
Driving in a rental, don't trust my own car to survive the long distance.

Who will you be rooming with?
 Canius and a few other folks.

How is the best way to find you?
Look for a guy with the silly bushy mustache, I'm sure I'm easy to spot.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
There'll be a few definitely, but I'm playing that by ear.

What do you look like?
6 foot, short brown hair, blue eyes, glasses, bushy handlebar mustache.

Will you be suiting?
Nope, can't afford fursuits nor do I want to wear one :P

Do you do free art?
Unless you want the sickest stick figures, no.

Do you do trades?
What kind of trade we talking about? Drugs? Handies?

What is your gender?
Male

Can I talk to you?
Of course. Just keep in mind that I am initially shy with strangers and I am bad at initiating conversation. However, once we get to talking I am perfectly fine.

Can I touch you?
Sure! Handshakes, hugs, I'm all good with that.

Can I buy you drinks?
I won't say no to free drinks.

Can I give you stuff?
If you want to :P

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Don't mind at all

Are you nice?
I like to think I am.

Will you be going to parties?
Mmm maybe, depends on what kind of party it is and who'll be there. Again, I am baseline introvert so the idea of randomly going to a party on my own volition isn't in my DNA, but I can be encouraged to go.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Calling out "Slaughts!" or any other form of getting attention will work for me.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Definitely! :D

Can I look in your sketchbook?
What sketchbook?

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
See above

Can I take your picture?
Don't know why you would, but sure :P

Do you do commissions?
Unless you want the sickest stick figures or some written erotic stories, nah.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Becoming more comfortable with my own place in the fandom and meeting online friends I've talked to over the years.

Every so often I got a comment along the lines of "why don't you do any WW2 stuff with your Character's?" I normally would've ignored that, but I feel I need to get something off my chest.

Over the years I've been growing uncomfortable with Fritz and Sophia. It's not because I felt they were bad, but because of what they were saying to people about me. I looked at the pictures with WW2 German regalia on, even though they didn't have swastikas or SS sig runes, and wondered to myself "what the fuck am I doing?" The past couple years in real-life especially made me question that.

I am a big military dork and the first conflict I got into was WW2. I was into learning about the weapons, tactics, vehicles, battles, and such that it became an obsession. As a result, I got into WW2 German history from that angle. Even then I knew Nazism was horrible, but in my mind I was making a big distinction between the tenets/ideology of Nazism and the military stuff.

However, over the years I became more aware how foolish that distinction was. Those things I became obsessed over came with an image of terror to people that were victims of the Nazi regime. The black and white Baltic cross, the Stahlhelm, even the look of Wehrmacht uniforms, can scare people as easily as a Swastika.

It was also foolish because I created an false image that the Wehrmacht wasn't complacent in the Third Reich's terror, that it was just a tool. However, the more I read, the more I understood that the division wasn't there or at least it was more grey. Yes there are plenty of Wehrmacht personnel that hated Nazism and weren't in the ranks because of it. However, there plenty that did and had no qualms participating in the goals of that regime, especially on the Eastern Front.

I remember having a conversation once with someone years ago about this and she stated something that sticks with me. When you look at what happened in the Holocaust, alot of it wasn't possible without the success of the Wehrmacht. Auschwitz, Treblinka, and other death camps wouldn't have been able to be built without the Wehrmacht's success. The unfortunate Jews, gypsies, and others in France, Poland, Russia and elsewhere wouldn't have been feed into the camps unless the Wehrmacht was good at winning a military campaign.

Essentially, even if it wasn't built as a Nazi organization, it was able to facilitate that campaign of terror. Even if they donned the feldgrau uniform and hated Nazis, those soldiers nevertheless allowed The Third Reich to exist. To those were victims of the regime, were families of the victims, or anyone really, that distinction I had in my head before doesn't exist. To be frank, they're not wrong in thinking that.

That's why I haven't commissioned WW2 stuff that much lately. I felt uncomfortable doing so and I don't want to give the impression that I supported that ideology. Don't get me wrong, I'm still a military dork and will still engage in that, but I'm going to stay away from WW2 for awhile.

Fritz and Sophia are not going to go away, but I am going to be doing other stuff with them. I'm even at the point of ditching Fritz as my main fursona and starting from a clean slate with someone else. I'm not sure yet.

Anyway, I needed to get that off my chest.

I'd like to have something on my page where I can keep track of all the outstanding commissions I ordered and the commission ideas I wanted to get made.

Updated: 05/24/2020

Commissions On Order

None

A friend of mine,  cyberella, has a YCH currently available for bidding. It is a YCH with the Virgin Killer sweater. If ya wanna see your character in that, checkit out over here! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22729395/

Some of you know I have alot of  mistystriker's artwork on my gallery of my characters. She does some amazing work. Some of the stuff I did get from her were actually YCH poses that she's done (like this one: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20406950/ )

Right now she has a YCH auction going on over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20940420/

Currently it's sitting at $40 Australian Dollars which translate to $30 USD and the autobuy is $100 AUD converted to $76 USD. If you're interested, please check out her YCH auction! =D

-Slaughts

 fc32 is doing a collaboration picture series with  bloodceles where one of your characters will be in 3 pictures with two wolf/bear girls Jasmine and Charlet. You pick the content of the 3 pictures and they are full colored and shaded.

As of right now the price is $80 when the value is around $250. If you want to bid on this (you can bid in $1 dollar increments if you want), go here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18912080/

Haven't done one of these inawhile. If you want to ask me a question about anything, don't care about rating, then ask away

Figures right when I start sending out the alarm, she's been found. Woke up this morning with mom putting her on my bed, she was found this morning. This really scared the hell out of me.

I looked around our property and in the house. Unless she ran off to another home (which is unlikely with how far apart we and our neighbors are), my darling cat Boots is no longer here and hasn't been for the past couple days. She's not an outside cat so I don't expect her to really survive out there. I am crushed and I resigned to the fact that I won't see her again, another cat of mine disappeared the same way and never turned up.

I had her for the past several years and she was definitely a sweetheart to me and my family. She gave me alot of comfort and smiles when I needed them. I'm just damned sad that I had to lose her this way.

Wherever you are hun, dad misses you.

fuck it...just fuck it...

For the people that I owe commissions to, I hope you can be patient because PayPal restricted my account until I give them my SSN, proof of address, and my Photo ID. Since I don't have a scanner at home, this will basically take a long while.

If I went to you inquiring about a commission, disregard it please. I don't want to have a conga line of people I owe money to if this issue isn't resolved.

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
Sometimes it's my hair, sometimes it's my man parts >_>

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
Green and Silver, my Philadelphia Eagles hoodie.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Haven't kissed anyone in a long time....

4. Do you plan outfits?
Only for formal occassions like my dress shirt and tie.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Full of food and fatigued.

6. What's the closest thing to you that's red?
Blanket.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I was in some sort of shop as the owner, but coudn't tell you more beyond that.

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
Since my job is at a grocery store, I meet new people every day, heh.

9. What are you craving right now?
Water

10. Do you floss?
Not much, can't get between my teeth real well, especially my bottom row. I'm one of those kids that probably needed braces when I was younger, but never got them.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
Salad

12. Are you emotional?
At times yes,

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
Never needed to.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
Bite.

15. Do you like your hair?
Eh, it's getting too big for my liking. Like it when its buzzed down.

16. Do you like yourself?
Eh, I'm me.

17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
I'd probably take up the invitation

18. What are you listening to right now?
Rage Select Dojo playthrough

19. Are your parents strict?
My father can be, but my mother isn't strict as much.

20. Would you go sky diving?
Hell yes.

21. Do you like cottage cheese?
Yuck

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Only politicians, not celebrities in the entertainment sense.

23. Do you rent movies often?
Not anymore.

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?
Yeah I'm in a guest bedroom right now and they have some sparkly shoe figurines.

25. How many countries have you visited?
Never been outside of the US

26. Have you made a prank phone call?
I'm sure I did, but I don't recall.

27. Ever been on a train?
Last time I did was in D.C. in 2011.

28. Brown or white eggs?
I don't care.

29. Do you have a cell-phone?
Yeah a LG Optimus Elite

30. Do you use chap stick?
Not really.

31. Do you own a gun?
Not technically, but I do have a .22 Remington Rifle at my grandparents right now. It was bought under my dads name, but it is "mine" to say.

32. Can you use chop sticks?
Not well.

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
Just me.

34. Are you too forgiving?
I can hold a grudge, but I can forgive easily.

35. Ever been in love?
Yes and it hurt me every damn time.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow (or the next soonest week day)?
I know one is doing art tomorrow and many of them have class tomorrow.

37. Ever have cream puffs?
They're delicious.

38. Last time you cried?
Couple years ago.

39. What was the last question you asked?
"Do you want this in a bag?"

40. Favorite time of the year?
Winter, I like freezing my but off.

41. Do you have any tattoos?
Not yet, but would like to have one.

42. Are you sarcastic?
I can be.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
Only bits.

44. Ever walked into a wall?
I have a couple times when I wasn't paying attention.

45. Favorite color?
Blue.

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes.

47. Is your hair curly?
My hair naturally curls up if I don't brush it and let it grow out. When I was a preteen I let it grow out into a nasty curly mullet/fro, back when I didn't give a damn.

48. What was the last CD you bought?
A Black Sabbath CD I think.

49. Do looks matter?
Usually when it's in the extremes yes or if you're making an impression. It's a human reaction.

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I'd have to understand the context before I could decide. I never had relationships like that so haven't been cheated on.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
$35 a month isn't bad for what I'm getting.

52. Do you like your life right now?
I'm not satisfied with it and I feel stunted and backward now.

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
Nope, can't have the brightness of the TV on.

54. Can you handle the truth?
Depends on the truth.

55. Do you have good vision?
Nope, near sighted and my right eye can get cock eyed.

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
Yes.

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not alot.

58. The last person you held hands with?
I can't recall.

59. What are you wearing?
In my boxers right now.

60.What is your favorite animal?
Black panthers, but felines in general.

61. Where was your favorite picture taken at?
When I was in my JROTC uniform.

62. Can you hula hoop?
I can.

63. Do you have a job?
Yep.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
Boneless Wings at Buffalo Wild Wings.

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yeah, my house was locked once, but I knew how to get inside through the window.

So this is something I've been wanting to do with commissions for awhile, get more darker artwork. It's been a goal of mine to get more darker stuff with Fritz, Sophia, Dmitry, Sa'lah, Sanity, and Horatio, but it's been one of three things:

1. I forget at the time <My fault
2. The costs of some artists are too high for me to afford or there's limited slots available.
3. I can't find artists that deal with darker subject matter well.

It's been disappointing because I have so many ideas in my head for this. For example, I want to get more pictures of Fritz/Sophia in their uniforms fighting and dirty. Sometimes I want to see how they'd look wounded and shot. Same deal with Dmitry, I'd want a pic that shows what happened to his eye. Sa'lah is a character that looks sinister by design and I want pics to explore that side of her.

Again, it's just hard for me to find the right people to do pics like this because there's alot of artists on FA and sometimes it's just...sensory overload on how much there is to dig through. I'm NOT saying the people I do commission often can't do this, but I want to find people who deal with dark subject matter alot of the time.

If you can give my any suggestions, it'd be appreciated.

Yeah, I can't manage them all, committed to too much shit.

I'm starting to wonder whether I want to create a human based OC. THere are some artists out there that I like, but prefer to do humans or do better with straight humans than with other types.

Wanted to note that I am employed again. I've been working with a regional grocery chain (Houchens) since the week before Thanksgiving, but I only got around to noting that now.

Even though I am employed, I still won't be commissioning as much as I used to. I am very stingy about my spending habits now and I have a few bills that are keeping me from going back to college.

 jasonafex and  kabier are holding a raffle where they'll do a commission piece and then animate it. Go look here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5271950/

 BloodCeles is doing a raffle for a free Steam copy of Sniper Elite V2: Nazi Zombie Army 2. Go look here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5253572/

 PunkWolf88 is holding a free art raffle. Go look here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5255101/

 CyanideSkittlez is holding a free art raffle, mainly a NSFW picture of one OC of yours. Go look here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5261023/

 lost-paw is holding a free raffle for a rasta gryphon character. Have a look here:

 krispup is holding an awesome raffle for $1111 that is straight up or in commissions. If you want to get on it, look here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5259913/

 rainbowchan is holding a free art raffle. Go lookie here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5150305/

 blackmill is holding a giveaway for a 3Ds/PS Vita plus a game. Go look here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5186967/