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Posted 10 years agoIn exchange I'll do an ink sketch page on paper! My email is neenasansonetti@yahoo.com. PayPal only, and please send as gift this time.
I realized I had 6 bucks in my bank account and I kinda want spotify premium for the trip I'm going on. Premium is $10.
I suppose if more than one person would like one, I can do multiple, but keep in mind I only have my phone to work with. Thank you!
I realized I had 6 bucks in my bank account and I kinda want spotify premium for the trip I'm going on. Premium is $10.
I suppose if more than one person would like one, I can do multiple, but keep in mind I only have my phone to work with. Thank you!
gone for a few days
Posted 10 years ago
Commissions will be delayed even more so. And just when I was starting to make progress on one of them.
But yeah, we're going to Kansas to camp and sight-see because it's my mom's birthday and she loves Kansas for some odd reason. I've been there so many times. Save me.
Plus I'm not sure my family has ever camped together so I'm really nervous because they're old and I don't have my shit together. I hope it's not more trouble than it's worth.
I'm going to bring my sketchbook and hopefully use it. Why couldn't we just go to Colorado. Why Kansas? Are we too poor to drive across the rest of the state? whY ww w why
Anyway, sorry. I just haven't left the house in a very long time and this is kind of overwhelming.
I hope you guys are doing A+
thank you
Posted 10 years ago
since I couldn't bring myself to reply to all the comments on my recent submission, I wanted to thank everyone here for the uplifting words.
normally I wouldn't even leave commenting open on something like that, but in this case I felt like I needed it. So again, thank you.
I don't plan on 'leaving' anytime soon, but I am struggling with thoughts about it and other things. I apologize again to commissioners for the delayed work, like always.
I hope everyone else is doing okay.
Commissions OPEN
Posted 10 years agohttp://sleeperstar.weebly.com/
No limited number of slots!
I will close them when I feel I have enough on my plate.
BACK, BROS.
Posted 10 years agoI was actually back on Friday,, SLOW INTERNET IS NO LONGER A PROBLEM IN MY LIFE.
They just installed our new router and everything's FASTER THAN ANYTHING I HAVE EVER USED GOD BLESS FIBER-OPTIC TECHNOLOGY.
Anyways, I have to open up commissions again immediately because:
- I have to pay my dad back $100 for taking me to St.Louis two days ago (concert)
- my dad said it was ok to get a binder so I'll be saving for that!!
- some other miscellaneous things that are important
Smite may or may not get in the way of my real priorities.
no internet
Posted 10 years agoI think it's been about two weeks now since we shut off HughesNet's service due to the huge bill we had to pay for almost useless internet.
So, that's why I've been inactive here but I will continue to be inactive for an unknown amount of time. Hopefully no more than a week or so but it could end up to be over a month because there's no telling when our new internet service is going to call us to come install a new router, etc.
It'll be fiber optic cables this time though so hopefully I won't have to suffer from problematic internet anymore :'')
Anyway, that's about all. I only get to use internet once in a while in town, so yeah.
Not to mention I hardly get any reception at all at home on my phone.Commissions CLOSED
Posted 10 years agoThis does not include people who I already promised commissions to.
This means that I am not open for any new commissions. I'm already overwhelmed, and in the next two weeks I will probably be working my first job, not to mention I still have to take my GED. And if I don't pass the first time around, then I have that to worry about as well.
I'll re-open them whenever I feel confident in my skills again, and when I don't have all this other stuff to worry about. Keep in mind that I have no idea when that will be.slower art
Posted 10 years agoart block strikes again. hard.
I've had extreme trouble with things I usually don't even have to put any thought into in order to draw.
Sometimes I have days where I just can't draw, period. I thought it was that, but after like a week of struggling to draw just muzzles, eyes, noses, and every other little thing, I've come to the realization that this is going to be here a while.
This started after I finished that commissioned piece "The Hunter", and my guess is that I overworked myself or something, and now my brain isn't wanting to correctly proportion things, or draw angles correctly, or anything. At all. Nothing. And it's pretty degrading when I see my old sketches and think how much better and more realistic they look than currently.
this is NOT an art block related to "no inspiration" because I've had too much of that, in fact. I would actually much rather have no ideas than no ability to draw them.
this is just going to send me into another fit of heightened depression. I could feel it a few days ago, I felt it every time I closed SAI, and I can feel it now. I'm sorry you guys have to put up with all my shit but I might as well inform people of my state of mind when it affects my commissions.Thank you all + life news
Posted 10 years agoI mainly just wanted to thank you all for your words of encouragement on the last journal, I really appreciate it. It did take some of the edge off my worry. ;__; So thank you for taking your time.
The news is sorta related to my last journal as well. I've been attending a program to get me set up for my GED, and after only a week they told me I'm already well prepared to take it, so that's something. They also introduced me to a career center nearby, so today my dad and I went there and registered. I signed a lot of papers and things, felt really uncomfortable and overwhelmed, but I'm now on a better path to finding a job, so that's a huge step for me. If I pass my GED, finally become employed, the last thing I'll have to overcome is getting my license and a car. The car is not a problem though, it's the driving. I have a horrible irrational fear of being at the wheel, and constantly have nightmares about horrible freak accidents on the road. Even when I was little and wasn't even thinking about driving yet, I would have nightmares about it. So, any driving tips?? Not practical advice, but psychological. Better ways to view it, ways to calm yourself down, etc. How did you get over being afraid of driving, if you had a fear of it? It's not that I've never driven before, either. I have. And I'm a good driver, it just scares the heck out of me.
Look at that big paragraph, whew. That was supposed to be short. Thank you again, all who read this. ;;what do i do haha
Posted 10 years agoJust going to let off some anxious steam here.
Lately, I've been pretty discouraged about getting a job, for multiple reasons. I've been very slowly accepting the fact that I may have to end up living on commission money, not being able to get the small cabin I've been wanting, and lately very much needing, as living in such close quarters with my parents is becoming very emotionally stressful. On top of that, my social anxiety keeps getting worse. Doesn't matter if it's online or in person. This of course creates a huge obstacle in the way of my job-finding efforts, and narrows down my options (mentally) to almost nothing. Not to mention I still have made no progress toward getting my license, past getting my permit.
If I could pop out quality art quickly and with little stress, everything would be fine. But I'm now feeling pressured to keep my commissions open - because I need to - and therefore feeling the stress of it never go away. The stress of working, and also the stress coming from endless worrying about the customer's satisfaction, no matter how much they praise me/my work. It's getting downright ridiculous in my head. It's not something I can just think away and control, either.
I guess this isn't about one particular thing. It all ties into my mentality in general, which I'm in a constant state of confusion about and all the help I've tried to get for it hasn't really done anything. I would just go get better help elsewhere on my own, but I'm still dependent on my parents and every time I mention stuff like this to my them (or my dad at least) they seem to think I'm overreacting about myself and don't really need it. The fact is, if I can't get a grasp on myself, how are they supposed to?
Anyway, my mind is just all frayed right now and I guess I'm just reaching out to grasp something solid. If you read this, thank you, really. I'm not sure what I'm asking, when it all comes down to it. Some kind of encouraging or calming words? I'm not sure.NOTICE regarding comms
Posted 10 years agoNothing too big, just letting everybody know that I've decided not to upload most commissions.
Instead, I'll just send high-resolution files to the commissioners. You can still upload your commissioned work on your account, of course! Still always with credit to myself.
I'll upload ones that I personally really like, however. I've just gotten really self-conscious and picky about my work, so this is just another way of keeping my gallery... clean? I guess.
I don't even know if this matters to you guys, but I thought I'd make it known.Possible Delay
Posted 10 years agoI feel ridiculous posting this right after I opened commissions, but as usual, as soon as I've got things to tend to, my mental state goes downhill. So, I apologize in advance if I seem slow responding to notes and such. I really am.
Just today, I didn't get out of bed until around 9pm. I just feel... horribly incapable and foggy at the moment.
Just today, I didn't get out of bed until around 9pm. I just feel... horribly incapable and foggy at the moment.
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