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Posted 5 years agoSo, as of last week, I've officially repayed everyone who was on my queue. Thanks again to everyone for being so patient with me, and thanks everyone for the kind words on my last journal
We'll see where I go from here. I'm making an effort to sketch more, and maybe someday I'll get back on the saddle. For now though, I'm gonna focus on life (my job, getting into college, transitioning), and maybe start getting the occasional commission, once I can afford them. Probably sometime after the holidays... I might make a Twitter, we'll see.
But yeah. Ya'll are awesome, and I appreciate every last one of you.
Thanks for reading; I'll be around.
We'll see where I go from here. I'm making an effort to sketch more, and maybe someday I'll get back on the saddle. For now though, I'm gonna focus on life (my job, getting into college, transitioning), and maybe start getting the occasional commission, once I can afford them. Probably sometime after the holidays... I might make a Twitter, we'll see.
But yeah. Ya'll are awesome, and I appreciate every last one of you.
Thanks for reading; I'll be around.
commissions, refunds, and an apology [please read]
Posted 5 years agoHey, all. It’s uh, been a while, huh?
Back in 2019, wrought from fear of the pieces that I knew I could never bring myself to finish, I fell completely off the face of this gay earth and into a pit of isolation. Since then I’ve been working through a lot of personal issues, and while I can safely say that I am in a better place now, it does not at all excuse my silence. I am deeply regretful for my actions towards my commissioners. It was wrong of me to drop everything and disappear like I did, and I would like to apologize and try to make this right, if I can.
Unfortunately, since the start of all this, I’ve not been able to put a pen to paper, and have since lost my ability to draw. Because of this, I’ll be offering full refunds for all owed pieces, which I should hopefully be able to give to everyone over the course of a month or so, starting this Friday (my next payday). If I owe you a refund and don't message you within the next day or two, please send me a note with proof that you’ve commissioned me and haven’t received your piece. I’ll be getting back to everybody ASAP and offering individual timelines for repayment.
Lastly, I don’t know when I’ll be making a “return”, so to speak. I’ve grown a lot since I’ve disappeared, and I’m still trying to find where my place in the community will lie once I’m ready to start posting again. Whether that will be as an artist, a commissioner, or something else entirely, I’m not yet sure; I don’t even know that I want to stay attached to this profile, and may end up with a new one entirely once I’m ready. I do know that I’ll be leaving this current profile up, as an archive of my time spent making art. I regret how it may have ended, but I don’t at all regret the great times and people who I’ve met over the years that I’ve been active.
I never meant to rip anyone off, let anyone down or to leave everybody in the dark for so long. I’m sorry to all the people I’ve ghosted, to all the friends I’ve dropped, and to everyone who I’ve let down over the course of all this.
Thank you for reading, I’ll be in touch.
- Small_Circles_
Back in 2019, wrought from fear of the pieces that I knew I could never bring myself to finish, I fell completely off the face of this gay earth and into a pit of isolation. Since then I’ve been working through a lot of personal issues, and while I can safely say that I am in a better place now, it does not at all excuse my silence. I am deeply regretful for my actions towards my commissioners. It was wrong of me to drop everything and disappear like I did, and I would like to apologize and try to make this right, if I can.
Unfortunately, since the start of all this, I’ve not been able to put a pen to paper, and have since lost my ability to draw. Because of this, I’ll be offering full refunds for all owed pieces, which I should hopefully be able to give to everyone over the course of a month or so, starting this Friday (my next payday). If I owe you a refund and don't message you within the next day or two, please send me a note with proof that you’ve commissioned me and haven’t received your piece. I’ll be getting back to everybody ASAP and offering individual timelines for repayment.
Lastly, I don’t know when I’ll be making a “return”, so to speak. I’ve grown a lot since I’ve disappeared, and I’m still trying to find where my place in the community will lie once I’m ready to start posting again. Whether that will be as an artist, a commissioner, or something else entirely, I’m not yet sure; I don’t even know that I want to stay attached to this profile, and may end up with a new one entirely once I’m ready. I do know that I’ll be leaving this current profile up, as an archive of my time spent making art. I regret how it may have ended, but I don’t at all regret the great times and people who I’ve met over the years that I’ve been active.
I never meant to rip anyone off, let anyone down or to leave everybody in the dark for so long. I’m sorry to all the people I’ve ghosted, to all the friends I’ve dropped, and to everyone who I’ve let down over the course of all this.
Thank you for reading, I’ll be in touch.
- Small_Circles_
Queue and stuff
Posted 6 years agoThanks again to everyone who's been so patient, ya'll rock.
I'll be focusing on sketch commissions first, and then progressing onto the larger projects. I've got everything listed below in the order I plan on currently plan on completing things, and what's left to do. I'll be posting this on my userpage too, at some point.
AlricAfterDark - sketching/coloring
KorenSolust
seifer coloring
SmellySkunkybutt - detailing
lightning1109 - lining, coloring
TheAnon - coloring, shading, detailing
AxelTheDino - lining, coloring, shading, detailing
Biggie - lining, coloring
burningwreck - sketching, lining, coloring
luca_shoal - sketching, coloring
zephyrlot and 
blitzen - sketching, coloring
If I owe you something and you don't see yourself on the list, please feel free to shoot me a note! I'll get back to you ASAP.
I'll also be posting a lot of finished work over the next few weeks! Sorry my page has been kinda dead lately, but I plan on being around a lot more here in the near future. Work has me super busy, but I should definitely be getting more days off in the coming weeks.
Ok, think that's it for now. Hope ya'll have been good <3
I'll be focusing on sketch commissions first, and then progressing onto the larger projects. I've got everything listed below in the order I plan on currently plan on completing things, and what's left to do. I'll be posting this on my userpage too, at some point.
AlricAfterDark - sketching/coloring
KorenSolust
seifer coloring
SmellySkunkybutt - detailing
lightning1109 - lining, coloring
TheAnon - coloring, shading, detailing
AxelTheDino - lining, coloring, shading, detailingBiggie - lining, coloring
burningwreck - sketching, lining, coloring
luca_shoal - sketching, coloring
zephyrlot and 
blitzen - sketching, coloringIf I owe you something and you don't see yourself on the list, please feel free to shoot me a note! I'll get back to you ASAP.
I'll also be posting a lot of finished work over the next few weeks! Sorry my page has been kinda dead lately, but I plan on being around a lot more here in the near future. Work has me super busy, but I should definitely be getting more days off in the coming weeks.
Ok, think that's it for now. Hope ya'll have been good <3
Finally on the mend (life/news)
Posted 6 years agoAt least, I hope I am.
July's been, for the most part, pretty not great. I spent most of it trying to adapt to a medication that worsened my depressive symptoms, which in turn had me ramp up my ineffective coping mechanisms to 11. That, in tandem with doctors visits and family drama and stress about life and finances and the future, all had me in a pretty rough spot for most of the month.
I say "most" because my last week or so has actually been super good. I'm on a better medication, I'm scheduled to start therapy this week, and I even have a job now, which is like, kind of a big thing for me.
So, with that in mind, I plan on getting back to commissions. I plan on posting a journal with a full queue when I've got a day off and can actually spend some time drawing.
I won't be accepting new commissions until the current queue is completed, and that may take a while, so comms are closed atm. Also, sorry to anyone who's messaged me in the past month about owed or new work- I've been kinda bad with responding to like, anything lately.
Sooo that's it, I think? I think so.
How're ya'll?
July's been, for the most part, pretty not great. I spent most of it trying to adapt to a medication that worsened my depressive symptoms, which in turn had me ramp up my ineffective coping mechanisms to 11. That, in tandem with doctors visits and family drama and stress about life and finances and the future, all had me in a pretty rough spot for most of the month.
I say "most" because my last week or so has actually been super good. I'm on a better medication, I'm scheduled to start therapy this week, and I even have a job now, which is like, kind of a big thing for me.
So, with that in mind, I plan on getting back to commissions. I plan on posting a journal with a full queue when I've got a day off and can actually spend some time drawing.
I won't be accepting new commissions until the current queue is completed, and that may take a while, so comms are closed atm. Also, sorry to anyone who's messaged me in the past month about owed or new work- I've been kinda bad with responding to like, anything lately.
Sooo that's it, I think? I think so.
How're ya'll?
Blep
Posted 6 years agoSup?
General update (comms/life/news)
Posted 6 years agoHey guys, sorry for the silence lately. I've been dealing with kind of a lot since the start of the new year, and it's kind of been coming to a head over the past month or two or three. I'm hoping this journal will help to address some issues and sort of place where I'm at in life.
Where I'm at mentally
I'll start by saying that this isn't meant to be an excuse for my poor performance over the past few weeks; merely an explanation.
Earlier this month, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I've known about these issues for the past three years or so, but only pursued treatment after discovering that mental health issues kinda run rampant in my family, and almost half of my extended family is medicated. My physician went ahead and prescribed me some medication as well, which I'll talk about a little more later.
Depression and anxiety... kinda suck. They're pervasive issues in my life that affect pretty much everything, especially the other items in this journal, and I'm only now starting to understand the stranglehold they've got on me. The depression makes it hard to do simple things (bathe, brush my teeth, clean my room) and keeps me trapped in my bed, staring at either my phone or the ceiling. Time spent out of bed is often spent trying to overcome a range of anxieties so that I can get literally anything done, but I usually can't, so my to-do lists tend to pile high until they fall and squish me. Like a bug. 🐞
It's frustrating, because it prevents me from doing things that I know I need to do, and oftentimes these things aren't even difficult tasks. Something as innocuous as finishing a 15 minute resume can turn into a multi-month affair, for instance.
Which brings me to...
Commissions
Unfortunately, they're still a work in progress. I'd like to thank all of my commissioners who've been patient with me, especially over the last couple months. Again, there's no excuse for how long I've taken on some of these. It's just... hard, to work on owed stuff. Sometimes I'll just open Clip Studio and stare at a blank canvas, too afraid to look at work that I've already started. But they need to get done, and they will be. Rest assured, all of my work time spent outside of streams will be dedicated to completing any owed pieces.
In the mean time I will be taking on new work, but only work that I'll be able to do in-stream. I'd like to commit myself entirely to owed pieces, but can't at the moment for financial reasons. I plan on streaming relatively often, and I'll announce when I do, as per usual.
Moving forward
I'm going to continue working on my mental health, 'cause like, like, fuck, man. Unfortunately, my current prescription has worsened my symptoms, but I'm going to continue to pursue treatment, and will also be signing up for therapy when I have my next appointment. I can't promise that the next few weeks will be great, but I'm confident that I'll come out of all of this a better deer.
I'm going to try to be better with getting back to everyone. I can't promise that I'll have everything completed as soon as I'd like to, but I'm still alive and am still working, and I haven't forgotten about you guys. Thanks again for being so patient, ya'll are p much the best.
Anything else?
A lot of people have talked to me about setting up a queue, which I think is an excellent idea. I'll be making and posting a list of in-progress work as soon as I get the chance, so expect that before the end of the weekend.
Also, in addition to a backlog of work to complete, I also have a small backlog of art to post. I'll try to get through that p soon.
Also also, shout-out to my boys who've been a great support to me, especially these past few weeks:
paper_paws 
disparitybit 
fethyr 
poofy_dragon
Feel free to ask any questions down below. Hope all ya'll are having an awesome Friday. (:
Where I'm at mentally
I'll start by saying that this isn't meant to be an excuse for my poor performance over the past few weeks; merely an explanation.
Earlier this month, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I've known about these issues for the past three years or so, but only pursued treatment after discovering that mental health issues kinda run rampant in my family, and almost half of my extended family is medicated. My physician went ahead and prescribed me some medication as well, which I'll talk about a little more later.
Depression and anxiety... kinda suck. They're pervasive issues in my life that affect pretty much everything, especially the other items in this journal, and I'm only now starting to understand the stranglehold they've got on me. The depression makes it hard to do simple things (bathe, brush my teeth, clean my room) and keeps me trapped in my bed, staring at either my phone or the ceiling. Time spent out of bed is often spent trying to overcome a range of anxieties so that I can get literally anything done, but I usually can't, so my to-do lists tend to pile high until they fall and squish me. Like a bug. 🐞
It's frustrating, because it prevents me from doing things that I know I need to do, and oftentimes these things aren't even difficult tasks. Something as innocuous as finishing a 15 minute resume can turn into a multi-month affair, for instance.
Which brings me to...
Commissions
Unfortunately, they're still a work in progress. I'd like to thank all of my commissioners who've been patient with me, especially over the last couple months. Again, there's no excuse for how long I've taken on some of these. It's just... hard, to work on owed stuff. Sometimes I'll just open Clip Studio and stare at a blank canvas, too afraid to look at work that I've already started. But they need to get done, and they will be. Rest assured, all of my work time spent outside of streams will be dedicated to completing any owed pieces.
In the mean time I will be taking on new work, but only work that I'll be able to do in-stream. I'd like to commit myself entirely to owed pieces, but can't at the moment for financial reasons. I plan on streaming relatively often, and I'll announce when I do, as per usual.
Moving forward
I'm going to continue working on my mental health, 'cause like, like, fuck, man. Unfortunately, my current prescription has worsened my symptoms, but I'm going to continue to pursue treatment, and will also be signing up for therapy when I have my next appointment. I can't promise that the next few weeks will be great, but I'm confident that I'll come out of all of this a better deer.
I'm going to try to be better with getting back to everyone. I can't promise that I'll have everything completed as soon as I'd like to, but I'm still alive and am still working, and I haven't forgotten about you guys. Thanks again for being so patient, ya'll are p much the best.
Anything else?
A lot of people have talked to me about setting up a queue, which I think is an excellent idea. I'll be making and posting a list of in-progress work as soon as I get the chance, so expect that before the end of the weekend.
Also, in addition to a backlog of work to complete, I also have a small backlog of art to post. I'll try to get through that p soon.
Also also, shout-out to my boys who've been a great support to me, especially these past few weeks:
paper_paws 
disparitybit 
fethyr 
poofy_dragonFeel free to ask any questions down below. Hope all ya'll are having an awesome Friday. (:
bleh
Posted 6 years agoHey guys, sorry I've about being pretty absent lately. I plan on making a journal addressing where I'm at atm, professionally and emotionally, and with news/plans and a work queue.
I'll be reaching out real soon to peeps with piece updates and stuff, too- thanks everyone for being so patient with me lately. 🙏
Ttys, ly <3
I'll be reaching out real soon to peeps with piece updates and stuff, too- thanks everyone for being so patient with me lately. 🙏
Ttys, ly <3
Getting back to it- sorry for the delay!
Posted 6 years agoHey guys! Just wanted to send a quick shout to my commissioners; last week was busier for me than I'd anticipated and I wasn't able to get much drawing done. I'll be working hard this week to catch up though!
That's about it. Hope everyone had a good weekend!
That's about it. Hope everyone had a good weekend!
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Posted 7 years agoHey guys, just wanted to throw out a quick update.
First off, I apologize for the radio silence. I've been going through some personal issues within the past two-three months, and it's basically put a halt to all of my art projects. I'm just now trying to get back into the swing of things, and I should be finishing up some commissions shortly. In the mean time, and for the foreseeable future, I'll be doing some daily sketches to keep me motivated and help me improve.
If any of the artists who I'm collaborating with are reading this, I'll be getting to our pieces very soon!
And that's about it. Hope to get back into the swing of things so I can get you guys some more arts.
Thanks for reading.
First off, I apologize for the radio silence. I've been going through some personal issues within the past two-three months, and it's basically put a halt to all of my art projects. I'm just now trying to get back into the swing of things, and I should be finishing up some commissions shortly. In the mean time, and for the foreseeable future, I'll be doing some daily sketches to keep me motivated and help me improve.
If any of the artists who I'm collaborating with are reading this, I'll be getting to our pieces very soon!
And that's about it. Hope to get back into the swing of things so I can get you guys some more arts.
Thanks for reading.
