Looking back to look forward
Posted 3 years agoSo I have deleted all my older journals. I read through all the notes left on them before I did and you all bright smiles to my face again when I did so.
My life is not easy, but it is mine and I am living it as best I can.
To inform; I am female, I do not have a body that matches that yet but I am still working on it. I am a mother, my children are not mine by any genetics but I love them deeply and care for them as best I can. I am married, my wife has had a hard life that makes my past look like a summer bike ride compared to her climbing the Matterhorn. I am an EMT, I am very happy for this job but I realize that my coping mechanism so I can keep doing this job has made me dense and sometimes a bit to snappy even to my friends. Sorry in advance if I offended you with my words. I am a hugger, sometimes I forget to ask first if that is ok.
I have been homeless, jobless, and had no idea where my next meal was going to come from more than once at the same time in my life and I wish that on none.
Most importantly to me. I have people that love me. Took me awhile to find them (as I said I'm dense) and to realize that they where not just saying that on reflex.
I finally am starting to realize how bright my future is because of how well it lights up my past.
-Seria Snowblind, December 17 2021
My life is not easy, but it is mine and I am living it as best I can.
To inform; I am female, I do not have a body that matches that yet but I am still working on it. I am a mother, my children are not mine by any genetics but I love them deeply and care for them as best I can. I am married, my wife has had a hard life that makes my past look like a summer bike ride compared to her climbing the Matterhorn. I am an EMT, I am very happy for this job but I realize that my coping mechanism so I can keep doing this job has made me dense and sometimes a bit to snappy even to my friends. Sorry in advance if I offended you with my words. I am a hugger, sometimes I forget to ask first if that is ok.
I have been homeless, jobless, and had no idea where my next meal was going to come from more than once at the same time in my life and I wish that on none.
Most importantly to me. I have people that love me. Took me awhile to find them (as I said I'm dense) and to realize that they where not just saying that on reflex.
I finally am starting to realize how bright my future is because of how well it lights up my past.
-Seria Snowblind, December 17 2021