Think i will start being active again here. Not sure if i will really post anything but hell, one thing at a time am i right? Have done a bit of growing the past few years and while yes for the most part i have done what a lot of people have when they get around my age and grew out of the hole furry fetish sub cultures thing. But, well i dont know i kinda feel like posting and farting around here some more.

Typing this out from my phone so ya, expect errors.


Read something today that....not just rubbed me the wrong way but just flat out pissed me off. Now i am all for tolerance and all that, i could give a shit about what color you are or want to be, same with gender and all that. All i ask is you not throw that shit in my face or have such a huge ego that you demand instant respect, there are going to be people who do not understand your choices and you do have the right to be upset. But to throw a fit and stick your nose up in the air and throw terms around like 'i will ban and delete comments i dont like' makes you just as immature if not more then the person who may have said something to upset you. Your nothing fucking special and your defently not so damn fucking important to wright a fucking novel about how oppressed you are. You draw fucking porn on a website. Grow the fuck up and get thicker skin, Words only hurt if you let them. But you should not throw a prissy little shit fit over it. Knowledge and understanding is a fucking two way street. Some people have a hard time expressing things well and if you were to just take two fucking seconds to explain shit, even if the person still refuses to undersand, is the mature way to handle things.


to sum up my ramblings. Grow the fuck up and lose the ego, or get the fuck off the internet. No one with two brain cells to rub together could give two shit about how good your porn is or if you stream or not, you dont get to act high and mighty, or act like the world will stop if you yank your shit off the internet. But at the same time yes you do have the right to be upset, but handle it like a grown fucking person. Not a spoiled baby with an undeserved ego.


*goes back to lurk mode*

before i forget though i fully expect this journal to piss people off and i accept that, my veiws are sometimes extreme. Also dont bother trying to ask me who i am ranting about. Its not really any of your business and if the person i am ranting about reads this. Dont bother trying to argue or yell at me, i will just ignore any messeges you send.

Thor has had his surgery and everything went well, he is now home and resting confortably again i cannot express my thanks to you all enough.



Also 10 points to anyone who knows were i got the title for this journal from.

thank you all for your help, thanks to all the contributers, we now have just enough money to get thors eyes operated on. Words cannot describe how thankful i am to you all and now that most of the stress of how i am going to pay for his operation, i am going to start working on everyones paybacks now.

so apparently the email i was given by my mother to accept paypal threw....they cant get into anymore and they did not tell me this before hand. So now i look like an idiot. the new email is metalfan1960@yahoo.com.

So if you can, cancel the money transactions you have going and if you still feel like donating or buying things from me resend it to the new addy, if not i understand completely.

To thoughs who have sent money threw paypal for things from me, i dont know whats going on but none of its showing up, so if you have sent it and it says its completed on your end you may wish to contact paypal and try and get it back. If you still want the things you were originally trying to buy from me, it will more then likly have to be done threw snail mail and if not i understand.

So, im not very good at comunicating so i will just get straight to the point, i need money for an operation on my dog Thor, i had him since he fit in my hand, i love that dog more then life, he his a sharpai/golden retreaver mix and unforcently his eye lids are curling in on them selfs, cause him a lot of pain and if i cant get it fixed soon hes going to lose his eyes or worse.

So im going to thin out my collectables to get as much money as i can, i have PS2 and N64 carts i will sell and Mtg cards and extra stuff like card sheets and deck sleeves.

and if none of that appleas to you, i will also do art for money as well, will do a two character sex or fetish scene for 5 bucks and 1 more for extra characters.
Just rember, if you choose the porn rout, im not terribly good at doing stuff like dragons or avians, but if you got horse or candid characters i can do them all day long.

Thank you for any help you can give, even if its just spreading this journal around.

and the fact im not making an account over there, To lazy and i really dont give two shits about that site or fa downtime, cause there are other things to do. So just slow down people, Not getting porn for a few fucking days wont kill you.

I have noticed i have been steadily losing watchers for a while now and for thoughs who feel they have to push that button a second time, i am sorry, i have no urge to do any thing furry at all, i mostly ghost any more and i dout it will change anytime soon. Theres just to much crap and crazy for me to want to deal with ontop of everything else i am going threw with my life right now.

So some of you may have heard this story before, but i was reminiscing about days gone by and decided i would share this little bit of my past.

Back in the day i used to have a 1984 Toyota Corolla Sr5, It had a mildly tuned toyota racing 4A-GE engine hooked up to just the standard transmission with a ceramic clutch and light weight fly wheel. That sum bitch was fast as all fucking hell, i could get it up to 80 on the old dirt roads of unincorporated Kingman were i was living at the time. It was a blast charging down thoughs roads, the 2 inch blow threw bypass pipe screaming for mercy. Well anyway, one day i was out and a bout, causing some hell with the local highway patrol (they could not keep up in thoughs huge and heavy SUV's they had at the time). After that i stopped at a friends house, He had just dropped a 2180 in his old baja bug and i wanted to check it out and kids being kids, with in half and hour we were on a long lonly stretch of abandoned high way racing. We were young and stupid, needless to say his 200 BHP 900 pound bug was smoking my pig of a toyota, so i got stupid and pinned it, soon as i hit 5th, doing about 120 i hear the sound no one wants to hear at thoughs speeds. A incredibly loud bang. The front left tire gave out and the tread separated, before i could react i was bumper first into a pile of dirt and rocks. the car was totaled but i had some how survived. My friend, after realising what happened came back and we booked it never to return to that spot again.



Long story short, dont street race, its fucking stupid, your gonna end up either killing your self or some one else...........and if you find a Corolla half buried in the dirt out in the middle of the desert i would like my Metallica tape back.

Been thinking lately, mostly about my past. About the people i have met....and ruined. About the people who thought they could control me, tell me what to like and what to do. Thought i could be a 'pet' *spits* about being called, wild, unpredictable, unstable and flat out dangeras. Having some people look into my eyes and seeing a wild animal, how when they see me smile, that its not a normal smile, more like a snarl with many fangs being bared. About how these things used to hurt. But you know what? I like it, I am wild and unpredictable and by Oden, its who i am, who i was and who i will always be. I don't care if no one understands me, don't care if by who you talk to that i am a danger, some one to be avoided at all cost. Fuck it, if you don't like me, then stay out of my fucking way, or you may just get bit. I'm not cute and cuddly, i have very sharp edges. My mind is closed to things i don't like and never will like. I am quick tempered and always ready to raise arms and prepare for a fight. I tried being nice and accepting and it got me no were. Just hounded by idiots and morons looking for asspats and handouts. Im done with that bullshit. I am done being moved by idiots, of trying to make everyone happy.



from now on its 'have teeth, will bite'

just a heads up to everyone, im going to be offline for a few days while i do my physicial therpay and what not, so ta ta for now. be good peoples, no licking rocks.

my internets all fucked up and its like pulling teeth trying to get it fixed. So i probably wont be terribly active till its fixed.

Original journal by DonCass



Figured I'd spread the word. Especially for TF artists out there.

STAY AWAY FROM bigdog2010 (Andrew Rinaldi)

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3767675/
http://knyazhnko.livejournal.com/716.html
http://thelabforum.com/forum/viewto.....amp;view=print
http://phantom-inker.livejournal.com/4258.html
http://artists-beware.livejournal.com/617474.html
http://espilonarge.deviantart.com/j.....aldi-243027206
http://en.wikifur.com/wiki/Wereandrewtiger


Block him nao.

so i try to go to one of my favorite game mod sites to find out it was hacked by some dumb ass crusaide to to keep the 'west out of islam' and i am just sitting here thinking.......what the fuck? Are you stupid? for one the sites not even 'in the west' a second why the fuck are you messing with a mod site?



I have lost all faith in humanity.

:P seeing how many people think the title was real, also, im not dead just distancing my self from furry for a while, getting burnt out and all that, still here just doing more lurking then anything else.

So i am probably not going to be on much, if at all for the next few days till i can breath with out feeling like im going to die again.

doctors appointment today, my sciatica and pain is more then likely caused by a hurneated disk in my back pressing on my spinal cord, i have meds and appointments for MRI's and tests to see what extent the damage to the nerves in my legs are.

Well after a few docters appointments i now know i have whats called sciatica.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedh.....th/PMH0001706/


so mana, i am trying hard to finish our trade, but its hard to sit for long enough to do it, i have another doctors apointment in a few days, hopfully i can get on a treatment plan for pain manegment and start getting this under control soon, if i do i may open up full porn comisions to.

I am Dragonborn, All fall before my blade, be they man, beast or dragon, none dare stand in my way. Kingdoms fall before me, dragons speak my name in hushed tones.

All will know my blade or know to stand aside. I am Dovahkiin.







*zombies back to skyrim instead of doing art he owes*

For the lack of art. You see, a while back i was diagnosed with clinical depression ontop of my add. I'm taking meds for it now, but it is still really hard for me to get the energy and will to make art of any kind. I promise you all i will try hard in the coming weeks. I might even take full commitions again soon as this stuff builds up in my system and makes me feel better.

I am extremely bored, so i may end up leaving very, very, horrible puns as shouts on random friends pages. Deal with it *troll face*

Guess that means he.....
*glass's*
forgot to pay the troll.
http://yeahbutton.com/

Browsing youtube and watching minecraft grieving and some people just go to far, not the people doing it, but the people trying to get it to stop, posting videos trying to get people to hack and dox people and just otherwise ruin lives. It's shamfle. It's a fucking game people, they come in, fuck shit up, have a laugh and leave, the admin rolls the 'damage' back and life goes on. It is not something to go so overboard about and heres a tip if you really want your block house not to be ruined, either dont play online or join a private server. Don't make youtube videos saying you want to kill and hack people. It's just going to get your ass in trouble, i don't get why furries and teenagers think the internet makes you invincible, it don't. Just ask all the pedofurs and beastfurs who are in jail now and registered sex offenders.


Ya i know these grieving teams are antisocial assholes, trust me, i have had my run in with the egotistical pricks. But its not something to get so worked up over. There so fucking easy to avoid and give gratification to. If you see the tards on your fav game or server, sit back, giggle and let them burn them self's out. Just like internet tough guys, furries and huge internet egos. You ignore them and laugh a bit and they get bored and move on. Its not hard, in fact it's so fucking easy its not funny.

Cause i hate all the things you love and think differently then you.



Go!

as the title says, im sanse a tooth and kinda out of it, so i prolbably wont be on tonight.