I've been exposed to a lot more of people's behaviors and thoughts out there than I used to be. I've taken a steady interest in what people have to say now a days and to a degree I feel like I'm obligated as an adult now to keep up with the times. I used to keep pretty out of the loop because the world was rather violent and pretty damn scary. I couldn't even handle my own grief at times much less than on a massive scale. My heart goes out to everyone out there affected by all of the negativity and cruelty in the world, you're never truly alone. To be honest the world is still rather scary and I do still have a lot of the fear I did when I was younger but, I feel much more resolved about my place in all of this.

I guess in the end all I really wanted to say is for the peeps who feel caught in the middle of all of the bad news around to hang in there. Also I wanted to state strongly, regardless of your political views or agenda, that here on this account I promise you, I will never judge or be prejudice to anyone who is simply here to enjoy art or talk in a civil/respectful way. I will never tell you to unwatch me or demand silence, you have a voice. I am but an artist, who am I to tell someone to leave or to be silent when I'm exercising my own voice through art.

I want there to be less violence in the world especially so close to home, I condemn violance if you believe the ends justify the means or not.

Whatever walk of life you come from, all that matters to me is the nature of your character, how you treat others and myself, as an individual and not your beliefs.
Hope this will be the closest I'll ever get to being political on here. This place is a poor fit for this kinda stuff but I needed a place to vent I suppose. From now on it's art and only art. I wish you all the best and please be safe out there.

I would like to take this moment to give a quick thanks to the commissioners who have helped me throughout the years and one timers. Regardless of how long, I don't think I'll ever spend enough time in my life thanking those around me who support what I do. It literally gives me a reason to continue to grow and be a better person everyday. I won't ever take your help forgranted and I'll continue to give it my all for
You guys, as well as me. I want to be something you guys feel proud of, commissioner, watcher, friend or living treasures of my life alike. If you aren't any of these, hope to soon work hard enough, and have fun doing so, so you choose to be. Thank you.

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I got one fresh slot left open and all the bids so far are pretty low if you're interested, you guys have a lovely night~

(Kinda appologize for this being my first journal here but its something I cant go on without stating ^^;)

He was a real friendly face whenever I talked to him and while it was a while since I did talk to him, I know that he was surrounded by friends up until the day it happened. I dont feel too bad knowing that I its been a while since I talked to him last, tried adding him on my new skype which he happily accepted, were both busy people and thats life sadly :T While I was in his company though, I learned that he was a huge supporter of artists by buying lots of commissions, a writer, a gamer, and a youtube content creator. Everything the guy produced and every word he said was just to enjoy himself while bringing good times for others in his interests. Reminds me a lot like me and its one of the big reasons why I liked the guy alot as a person other than his immense love for people. I fell a bit sad I didnt talk to the guy again even though I saw him on a handful of times recently until it happened, whatever did happen the details were respectfully left out, but I know he would forgive me. I want to finally bring my pain to a close with his passing and while it wont all be gone as soon as Im done with this journal I will try anyway because he wouldnt want anyone to feel sad over his passing. He commissioned me a few times and used my art and animations in his lets play videos and it was the first time anyone really valued my art so much that they would use it to promote their own content, it was a boost in confidence Im sure will continue to fuel my passion for the rest of my days. I think he commissioned me the most out of anyone I knew and I wasnt even good XD the guy really was something else and a friendly face Ill always miss. I know this isnt goodbye forever but the time its gonna take to see him again where ever he is gonna be a trial. I will live my life happily and fully in his name regardless of how hard it is to say goodbye, its what he would have wanted Im sure.

To anyone who knew this wonderful person I extend to you my friendship in hopes that we might honor the end of his time here with new beginnings and friendships. Furrys, Artists, both or neither, I offer you my company as he offered me his.

Thank you for the good times and the company Mr.Spencer, we will always remember you as you were. A friendly, fun, supportive, and beautiful person and a credit to the fandom. I hope where ever you are, youre that unchanged friendly person and that ya save me and everyone you called a friend a seat so we can talk into the night once more good times all around. Ill miss you always and continue on in your name.