Okay... Got my early Christmas/Birthday gift for myself and it seems I've got my WiiU set up finally after 87 years of system update downloads...

Name is SorcererLance or SrcrLance if you wanna add me

In other news, I may start my break from the internet starting this Sunday for another week... What timing for Smash to be out already.

Meanwhile, enjoy these random videos:

Most of the streams I've been doing lately seem to be improving my mood a little... it's been hard trying to keep a positive mood, but it feels like faking it seems to help a fair bit.

Honestly dreading the holiday season for various reasons, but here's hoping I can still hang in there and get the medication I desperately need. It often feels hard not to remotely consider asking for a gun with a single bullet for my birthday, but until I can get my depression treated, I can only continue to struggle to get out of my hole through my own sheer willpower.

That said, I've been hard at work with commissions and other assorted projects to keep myself busy, hopefully continued productivity can tide me over keeping my sanity up.

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Current commission slots in no particular order;

1. vilanova (paid, need to start soon)
2. rick2tails (repayment for Anthrocon, schedule to work on it unknown)
3. joshdakoala (please contact me if you're still interested)
4. shadowdj86 (no contact for months, please contact me if you're still interested)
5. Hefewei (paid, need to start soon)

Trades owed:

1. satur1n
2. candlegirl

If I'm forgetting anyone, please remind me

I guess that fills FA's yearly DDoS quota for the year... I swear, it's like every year something happens to make the site go down for an extended time.

Anyone who hasn't read my journal on DA, I'll just copy/paste here;

Anyway, those of you who've followed me on Twitter knows I fucked up on my supposed planned offline hiatus, but... I had not foreseen how much of a slippery slope things have become.
Communication with friends via social media leads me to peek in on Twitter on my phone, while having nothing decent on TV made me activate Netflix and also Youtube.
This is a problem I'll have to better plan ahead the next time I do this sort of thing.

That said, I enjoyed my time away from the internet... during the first half of the week before temptations of the aforementioned slippery slopes kicked in.
I enjoyed re-experiencing the simplicity of life before the internet, which was TV, videogames and a sketchbook. I'm thinking of making this a regular monthly thing... and hopefully with better results.

I'll look into doing more streams now that I've had some time to reflect on things and clearing my mind a bit. Also gonna look into doing collaborations because I realize I can't do much on my own.

So I've been thinking... considering I find myself online on a daily basis doing very little art for myself and occasionally commissions (not ducking out on stuff I still owe to people), I've concluded just being online just serves as a distraction... I find myself constantly checking for new messages on my usual art galleries, social media outlets, emails, image forums, news media, Youtube and even being bombarded with up to 20 people messaging me on Skype, I think it'd do me some good to just turn off the internet for a while and try to be more productive.

I've never had so much to keep up with in my online life back when I used to draw a whole lot, I realize all this is keeping me from things. I'm probably gonna stay offline starting on Sunday and probably won't be back for at least a week and see how things go... So it'll work as both as a bit of a personal experiment on my productivity and to see how addicted I've become to the internet.

I guess those I'm close to who want to contact me are free to text me if they need anything starting on the 12th. Hopefully I'll have something to show once my little hiatus has passed... Maybe it'll be more of a habit just being offline more often if I end up doing more in general as a result.

Usually I consider September to be my worst month of the year. I've always considered it bad luck for me since 2001 but I find that I came out of it feeling the same amount of apathy and lethargy as I had the rest of the year.

This is the same pit I found myself in a decade ago when my depression reached an all-time low. I fear it's getting worse even with therapy as currently I don't seem to have the means to afford medication to help me out.

Last year I had found myself gradually becoming self-destructive by trying to cut myself (no scars were left) and even caught myself drinking alcohol (I normally never drink on a whim). This year, I find myself having trouble sleeping without the aid of Melatonin and maybe leaving the TV on... otherwise my mind races overthinking things, reviewing my life until now and reminding myself how much I haven't accomplished, my general sense of isolation and eventually my thoughts reach to the point of sheer paranoia where my heart races and I can't relax enough to sleep until I start seeing the sun rising out my window.
Hell, even when dad visited me (in the rare times that he ever bothers to), I found myself mostly lashing out at him, insulting him and being passive-aggressive... Blaming him for leaving me here in a town in the middle of nowhere with extremely few job opportunities around the area.

I had the chance to move out after saving up enough money, but ended up squandering that chance after underestimating my anxiety issues on top of my depression. I ended up moving back home to focus on my mental health, started seeing my old therapist again and opted to get some over-the-counter anti-depressant meds which barely put a dent on my condition.

I feel like I'm at the end of my rope.
In order to have insurance to help pay for my meds to treat my depression/anxiety, I need a job, though the best way to get to and from work is to have a car, in order to have a car, I need a job... but the last job I had triggered my anxiety and I couldn't keep said job for long.

I'm not quite sure what to do. I'm a shut-in not by choice, the only social interaction I only seem to have aside from my own mother is my online friends, in which in the end I'm staring at a computer screen not having someone next to me to keep me company and help get my mind off my paranoid thoughts... and I worry it's going to continuously get worse until I can get medicated soon.

I'm going to be 28 this year, what have I accomplished with myself? Nothing. Only way I can earn an income is by continuing to do commissions and freelance, which in turn keeps me from projects I want to do.

And sorry for the continuing entries in regards to my mental health. Just wanting to keep people updated what's been going on with me and I guess to have this act as a reference for myself of how I once was once and if I get myself medicated. Otherwise, this may just be a fruitless plea for help before my paranoia decides to take more drastic measures if things continue as they are.

...I've been drawing feet rather large lately.

I guess that's not too much of a problem for most of my watchers :P This must be how most normal male artists feel when they find themselves drawing ladies with absurdly large breasts and butts.

Maybe people were right when they say they see the DBZ and Sonic influence in my art...

I've been pondering on starting my own Patreon for quite some time... and according to my journals, I've been thinking about it for the past 6 months and I've been seeing a lot of people making use of it fairly well.

I'm still trying to figure out things like how to start it out and how to go about with it... since first and foremost I want to work on my webcomic (how long have I been saying that at this point?) but yet not want to worry about finances too much.
Commissions are nice, but admittedly it somewhat cuts into production time of comic work. Not that I'll stop commissions entirely, I may have to limit slots so I can have a little more elbow room.

However, the idea I have for the moment being may be... a little on the bold side.
Most Patreon artists seem to charge their donators per image/comic page they produce. What I want to do is to have a full comic issue/chapter done every month.
Though in order to be able to pull that off is to both have the comic in black and white (or at most, grayscale) to speed up production AND probably have a few months' worth of comics done ahead of time (at least 6 months, giving me some elbow room in case unforeseen things in life happen).

I'll also have to have the first issue done to act as a preview of what I'm gonna be doing, so stay tuned for that.


There also seem to be some donation incentives Patreon has, similar to Kickstarter's, where the more you donate, the better your rewards will be. I'm not sure how much I can be able to offer, but I do have a few potential ideas, you can let me know if they sound good or if I should offer anything else or change anything;

$2 - normal subscription fee for the comics in a PDF format
$5 - have your character be put on a list to have a cameo in the background of the comic from time to time (anthro or human preferred, though if your character is something else, I might be open to figure something out)
$8 - access to the behind the scenes being able to dissect the comic in a sized-down PSD file, may include rough sketches and doodles
$10 - be part of a monthly raffle for a commission
$20 (limited) - guaranteed commission

*Those who donate more would have access to the lesser rewards; so someone who donates $10 would have entry to a raffle, plus the sized-down PSD file, character cameo and the PDF comic.
**Those who don't wish to donate will still be able to read the comic, though having to wait by reading a single page uploaded per day.

A few days ago, I was reminded that my therapist said there were anti-depressant meds that are cheap and over-the-counter. After buying one a pharmacist recommended me (Sundown Naturals: St. John's Wort), it feels like it's kinda doing the trick... either that, or there's a placebo effect going on, regardless, I'm not feeling as down as I was previously.

The bottle says to take two pills three times a day, but the pharmacist recommended one pill twice a day and only to increase it if needed, so currently it's two pills twice a day. Supposedly there's no side effects compared to the meds I took which... to this day I've yet to get rid of, since the pills are made from natural stuff.

I'm gonna see how this goes in the coming days, if I can maintain my positive mindset, it may help with my productivity in general.

As an impromptu sequel to my previous journal, just want to further elaborate on how fucked up I am.

I've always been pretty shy since I was a toddler, I was usually timid to make friends and even talking to the cashiers in stores and restaurants as my earliest memories of the seeds of my anxiety. But that was the thing, I thought it was just general shyness, though recent years made me realize it's more serious than that.

I wasn't exactly anti-social during my school days, I did have friends, though the bullying I went through arguably made me apprehensive towards new people if they want to hurt me be it physically and/or emotionally. I treasured the few friends I did grow up with and the people I did manage to befriend once I first got the internet... Though I grew up during a time when we were told to never share your real name on the internet or photos of yourself or else people will come find and hurt you. This was before Myspace and Facebook completely changed those rules I to this day, am still more used to going by my alias and being mostly camera-shy.

However, I emphasize I'm not anti-social, but regardless of having online friends and cellphone contacts, 99% of the time I don't initiate conversations. Reason for this is my mind tends to trick me into believing I'd be bothering people or they're busy with something and in fear of being a nuisance, I get more used to others contacting me rather than me worrying I'd annoy them at a bad time.
This further becomes a problem whenever I feel lonely and isolated as I want to talk, but those thoughts get in the way and my anxiety temporarily evolves into paranoia. Wanting to be social, yet being too timid to approach people usually brings about fears that people are avoiding me or if I did something wrong or whatever.

I apologize to those who have me added but I don't say much or message you. I don't blame you for removing me as a result.

Other recent examples of me realizing my anxiety issues were going to interfere with my daily life was my brief attempt to move to Georgia; A little after I settled in, I ended up starving for 3 days because I was too timid to ask for a ride to the supermarket or to borrow a roommates' car. Much later at Anthrocon earlier this year, I felt a little overwhelmed by the crowd and a bit nervous despite being at the convention for the social interaction which I lack back home... and normally I usually had the most fun at AC, but my anxiety levels came and went periodically.

Hell, even I find myself being nervous doing streams, I guess stagefright of sorts. The desire to be an entertaining host to my viewers while I do streams to stay focused doing art and panicking when I can't think of something to do to keep the stream going. Just me DOING a stream are my occasional times I overcome my anxieties.


All this, on top of depression in which comes from regret that I didn't do or say something I wanted to on a daily basis, culminates into how I've been lately. Aside from game work and occasional commissions with the rare personal art, I've been doing all I can to try to get both my anxiety and depression under control.
I've been seeing a therapist and thankfully got an insurance I can afford while looking into medication I can take so I can be my old self when I was medicated a decade ago. Hopefully once I am medicated, I'll be back to my old self and be as productive as I once was.

Once again, I apologize to everyone who had to deal with me and my messed-up, paranoid mindset. I'm not avoiding any of you, it's mostly an internal mental struggle to not let my thoughts keep making me think I'm some pest to others.

We lost a fine comedian and actor, Robin Williams. Though I knew for years he suffered from depression for most of his life, it's just a shame he allowed his inner demons win.



Reading other people’s stories about depression due to the recent news of Robin Williams… I feel the need to share mine.

I’ve always felt like an outsider, an outcast because I wasn’t like most other kids in school. Being bullied most of my life for being a nerd who didn’t like what was popular on MTV or because I drew “dog people” or because I had more of an interest in feet instead of boobs while growing up.

I grew up knowing from the get-go people can and will be assholes to you for whatever reason, especially if you’re different. It hurts, and you always feel like you’re being a burden trying to talk to people about what’s bothering you thinking you’ll be annoying or you’ll get a generic cookie-cutter response of “cheer up” which never helps or resolve anything.

Instead of worrying about bothering people about your issues or looking too glum to the point people will ask you what’s the matter, some people create and adopt a mask, a facade rather. This mask conceals depressed people’s true emotions by being a funny and/or charismatic person, the sad part is a good chunk of the time, it works, and people will generally assume that’s how you actually are all the time.

However, this mask is a double-edged sword; maintaining this mask is also an issue in itself, by hiding behind it, you have to keep up the act while keeping your true issues bottled up. Keeping up this act adds more stress to the depressed person not wanting to crack under the pressure while not wanting to disappoint people of your sudden personality shift showcasing your true, broken self.

Without therapy and/or medication, as well as close friends to confide in to discuss their issues, a typical depressed person cannot last long allowing their inner self-destructive thoughts destroy them from within and in their desperation, wanting to make those lying voices end.

Depression is a serious matter, I’ve suffered through it for well over a decade and took medication for it along with therapy, I was a changed man having a more positive outlook and was more productive. I later went off it and eventually life issues hit me in the face in 2009, making me relapse and only just now am I seeing therapy and seeking medication.
Depression is a horribly destructive thing on par to immense feelings of guilt and a person can only feel better if they talk about it instead of bottling it up.

Everyone gets depression at one point or another, there’s no shame in it and you’re not alone. Anyone who dismisses it or are never there for you whenever you feel down are assholes.

I contributed literally one second of animation to this, lol.

Catch it at 16:14.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13275275/

LUCKILY I jotted down the highlights of the cons for the last two days on my cellphone to refresh myself what went on.


Mental note; buy a new AC adapter for the laptop... and treat it as lovingly like a beautiful woman so it won't break on you and give you a hard time to cooperate with you while leaving you disappointed she's not there for you when you need her.

Day 2: mostly wandered about at the Dealer's Den, got a commission from  kv1nn4 while continuing to bump into  t-kay and his brother, managed to buy one of his art CDs as I met up with  ythen and hung out with her for a while then caught the fursuit parade before bumping into  keirajo and then briefly  donamer.

I managed to get a photo taken with Lee Tockar and Jim Cummings before later catching the breakdance competition (surprisingly some fursuit dancers had suits that aren't as constricting as I thought they'd be) and afterwards  2gryphon's rants, hearing a few favorite stories of his.

Also for the first time tried out that popular Smash Bros Brawl soft mod "Project M" in the game room... amazed to see how many characters were fixed for the better, though the stages felt... a bit bland. Maybe I'm in the minority who actually LIKES stage hazards, so... *shrug*.
There was a also REALLY good female gamer I fought against I kept losing to, really impressed with her skills, kinda wish I caught her name...

Unfortunately, my laptop's AC adapter broke during this time, hence me not writing up a review of what went on that night... more unfortunately still was it was my main means to spread the word about the Beast's Fury game.


mental note; do NOT lose the booklet that lists out the day's events... completely went through this day relatively blind.

Day 3: not an awful much happened during the final day, yet again met up with T-Kay who finally was sharing an Artist's Alley table with  thefunkyone who had airline troubles and barely managed to attend the final day of the convention, got a few of their prints. Also managed to get a commission sketch from  ajin while I was at the Dealer's Den as I worked on a sketch for  rick2tails

Also managed to bump into  footman and  ramzkun for a little while, was afraid I wouldn't be able to catch him before the con was over, though had to say goodbye to  backlash and  icelancefox since they had to leave early.

While I didn't have my schedules on hand, I did manage to catch a bit of the auctions that were going on... amusingly a rare Fox and the Hound animation cell complete with a background and a frame was bought for less than an advance hotel reservation... more amusingly still, a piece of garbage was jokingly being auctioned off and someone ACTUALLY bought it for $100...
All proceeds went to charity, so the aviary it was going to benefit either way.

Afterwards, I managed to catch a really entertaining dance competition, moreso since everyone was in their fursuits for them, then caught the closing ceremonies.


I'd say I had fun, a few things could've gone a little better and I wish I had a permanent posse to hang around and do activities with as a group, as I fought some anxieties being left on my own. Also would've been nicer to have a bigger budget, but I feel satisfied I didn't end up spending as much as I could've.

I think my absolute BIGGEST complaint is the sudden decision to move The Zoo from a good area in the Westin into... a COMPLETELY out-of-the-way airport hangar beneath the Artist's Alley. It's too far and too huge to really socialize much with anyone and there's a complete lack of water fountains and plugs.

mental note; work on stamina before going to any large convention... because you will be unwittingly walking miles throughout the day.

today was pretty eventful, enjoyed browsing around the Dealer's Den for a bit and met up with  kv1nn4, got some original art from her while getting a few other things.
Bumped into  t-kay and his brother no less than four times throughout the course of the day... decided to hang around them for a while before losing them entirely before briefly joining up with  backlash and  icelancefox

Checked out the panels Lee Tockar and Jim Cummings were holding, unfortunately missed out on another event they were in, may have to catch that on Youtube eventually... also plan to get a photo with them and maybe an autograph by tomorrow.

Also decided to hang with  jwolfsky for a bit, enjoyed a few parties with him before navigating through downtown back to my hotel.

Debating on having my own table, be it at the Artist's Alley or Dealer's Den one day in the future. Also would've been nice if I had some extra time before going to pass out Beast's Fury cards and maybe have a shirt to wear... may have to make a makeshift badge if I can manage to while doing what I can to promote the game.

mental note; registration lines take up to 5 hours, so bring water bottles.

aside from the hellish long waiting line, I managed to bump into some friends like  jwolfsky,  backlash and  icelancefox... since the events haven't started yet, not much was going on aside from some socializing at The Zoo and the pre-convention rave.

I've also become quite a fan of the Pizza Parma, I haven't tasted pizza like that in years.

Hoping to keep the spending to a minimal, but I'm sure I'm gonna be tempted left and right with some eye-grabbing merch and artists to potentially commission.


Also a little weird, if not unsurprising, all of downtown Pittsburgh adopted the idea to be very furry-friendly offering discounts to fursuiters and merchandise like t-shirts while having... the lamest puns to make it sound so quirky.

Then I remember I live in Florida and we whore ourselves by default to attract tourists, so I guess this was common sense in a financial sense for this kind of yearly event.


Also; Wifi is a pain in the ass to even attain around here lately... all the "free" wifi requires registration, so Twitter communication will likely be minimal unless I'm in my hotel room or at the actual convention center.

Surprise, I'm gonna make it after all :P

Where are you staying?
The Omni

What day are you getting there?
July 2nd

Who will you be rooming with?
 rick2tails and... whoever else he's rooming with

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
 rick2tails,  backlash and whoever else I can find that I know

What is the best way to find you?
I usually like to stick around the artist's alley/dealer's den and the zoo, I may wander around aimlessly or catch some interesting panels

Are there any panels you might be attending?
no clue, I usually like to come in being surprised with what's offered and might attend some... or none at all

What do you look like?
black frame glasses, trimmed beard, kinda longish hair down to my neck, may have it up in a short ponytail... I'll likely be wearing a yellow T-shirt or my Toonami Faithful Podcast T-shirt

Will you be suiting?
nope

Do you do free art?
maybe a quick random doodle for your sketchbook, but I don't really do requests

Do you do trades?
it's a HUGE maybe, but I wouldn't count on it

Do you do badges/commissions?
I might

What is your gender?
guy

How tall are you?
5' 7"...ish

Are you mated/in a relationship?
not currently

Can I talk to you?
I don't see why not

Can I touch you?
I... suppose? It depends

Can I visit your room?
maybe, it's up to Rick and if the room isn't too full up

Can I buy you drinks?
I don't really drink alcohol, but you're free to indulge me in my soda addiction

Can I give you stuff?
if you want?

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I... guess?

Are you nice?
I usually am, rule of thumb is I'm nice to those who're nice to me.

How long are you going?
the whole event

Do you have an artist table?
nah

Will you be going to parties?
traditionally I go to the nightly raves

Will you be performing?
nope

Do you have prints/CDs?
I wish

Will you have art in the Art Show? General or Adult sections?
nah

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
call my screenname

Can I look in your sketchbook?
I suppose so

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
sure, why not

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
also don't see why not

Can I take your picture?
if you want, I'm usually the camera-shy type

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
have fun, meet friends, relax, promote Beast's Fury

What is the best way to reach you?
most likely via my Twitter... if there's wifi at the con, I'll be checking it via my cellphone semi-regularly
https://twitter.com/SorcererLance

I was just reminded I didn't make an announcement journal about this.

I just want to apologize for the lack of any new art and explain by letting everyone know (mainly those who recently watched me, and as a reminder to those who've been reading my journals) that I've taken on freelance work. I'm currently handling cleanup inks, colors and shading on character sprites for the indie fighting game Beast's Fury which was recently funded on Kickstarter.

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....sts-fury-going
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/beastsfurystudio

So personal art is gonna be slowed down while I put a bit more focus on this until the sprites are all colored and shaded.

This won't affect too much on commissions and trades I currently owe, just my schedule's gonna be a little hectic having game work given slightly higher priority and any future commissions will have to be put on hold for now.


That out of the way, you guys fine with me occasionally posting art I've received from other artists in the meantime, or should I keep this gallery exclusively for my own art?

As of this writing, we're short $10,000 and there's 20 hours left, please help spread the word if you can't donate to this

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....sts-fury-going

Going for one last hurrah, we're down to the last 48 hours and over half of the way for the minimum goal we're asking for to help fund for a completed demo of this game.

Please help spread the word if you can't donate.

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....sts-fury-going

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/640770

Well this is a bit embarrassing to bring up, but I guess I should mention it since I've told a handful of people (even gotten a few "I told you so"'s)... I decided to head back home after being in Georgia for the past two weeks.

It feels extremely shameful after hyping up what was supposed to be a permanent move, but... I've learned a few things about myself after this trip. For starters, I jumped the gun a bit too early. In my desperation to move out of this quiet town, I jumped at the first chance to be able to move somewhere new and have a fresh start in life... I gradually learned that wasn't what I needed, or rather, wasn't the solution to my problems.

For years I was aware of my depression, thinking the repetitive and dull life in a quiet town was what was bringing me down... I had COMPLETELY neglected the fact I have anxiety issues, apparently serious anxiety issues I had not anticipated would get in the way of having a normal life. I've always had a degree of social anxiety since I was a kid and never thought much of it thinking I was just shy, but I've learned it's far more serious than I realized... paradoxically I'm charismatic online, but in reality, I'm timid and quiet.

At the risk of making parallels to MLP characters, I'm basically Rainbow Dash online and in real life, I'm freaking Fluttershy.

THIS is the problem I realized once and for all was the real issue I've been suffering through. Not just depression where I sulk about the past, but my anxiety issues make me worry about the future... bringing an endless loop of regret over the past when I was in a state of nervousness at the time.

Because of this, I realized my best course of action was to head back home and seek therapy to help take care of it after about a decade of not seeing my therapist...

In short; this trip was more of an eye-opener for me. I've come back home with a fresh, new perspective and better understanding of myself after having enough time to reflect. I guess this was a life experience, a valuable one at that. Perhaps once I get therapy and maybe get medicated, I'll try this again later once I feel more confident in myself... but for now, I'll continue doing what I love, drawing and animating. All the while looking for a job and saving for a car while getting the therapy I now know was what I really needed all along.

I don't have too many regrets over this, I appreciate the hospitality and help I got from my roommates during my brief stay, despite my painful shyness. Also bearing with me being an absolute newbie being out on my own for the first time. I suppose next time I'll put in more time doing more research on the area before making an impulsive decision like this again, as well as making sure I'm mentally prepared AND have my own means of transportation without feeling too shy asking to be driven around or borrowing someone else's car.

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/640770

So I helped draw in some quick sprites for a little minigame to help promote the kickstarter for Beast's Fury. It's multiplayer-only, so grab a friend and enjoy some rock/paper/scissors-styled fighting mechanics.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13653898/
https://twitter.com/egoraptor/statu.....39203483348992

Egoraptor confirmed, here's hoping we can get this game funded~

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....sts-fury-going

Yo guys, just letting you know the game I've been helping with, Beast's Fury started a kickstarter to help fund us to finish our demo; https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....sts-fury-going

If you guys are able, please help donate to the cause. If you can't, please help spread the word about this game.

So by a stroke of possibly dumb luck, I may finally be able to get out of this retirement island prison after 22 years.

Long story short, a friend of mine was in need of a new roommate and it so happens I've been itching to move out of here. So I'll be moving to the greater Atlanta area as early as possibly the 26th this month. I'll be traveling light just bringing along my PC and clothes among other essentials so settling in won't be much of a pain.

I've also got a high school reunion next weekend, so I may or may not be on for a stream during that time. Also other unfinished business would be trying to attend Supercon in July and then a family reunion in August before I can really say goodbye to Florida.

I'm nervous, but at the same time excited.

Kinda had an idea going onto someone else's stream...

Once I have some elbow room after I clear up what I need to do with my freelance work, commissions and such... I'm considering enhancing my webcomic in progress to have in cameo appearances of your characters. Beats the hell out of just having faceless shadowy figures.

Reason being is I'm totally crap at creating characters on the fly, I prefer creating characters with an actual purpose and role in the main story. I do have some characters demoted to background characters, but I don't want to use them until much later in the story arc. So I guess as a heads-up in future streams whenever I do announce I'm working on my webcomic, I may toss in your characters as cameos if you show up on my streams with a ref sheet (preferably anthro or human, I don't exactly have room in my universe for taurs, nagas, talking ferals, etc.).

I've been considering making the switch to Picarto as it's a streaming service intended for artists to stream their art in progress... however, it does have some bugs and minor issues while noticing people using Internet Explorer have more issues seeing or hearing anything while users on Firefox and Chrome don't seem to have that problem. This may not be 100% confirmed, but it's something I noticed.

Livestream is alright, but lately I've been having issues keeping the stream online as it randomly fluctuates between freezing or completely disconnecting me at a moment's notice. Picarto thus far seems to be a little more stable, despite still being in its beta stages.

I'm unsure what to do honestly, Livestream is unreliable keeping a stable connection as Picarto has some issues for some viewers. Should I stick with Livestream a little while longer until Picarto becomes more accessible while risking the random and occasionally long disconnections, or continue to use Picarto while risking alienating some users due to their own connections/preferred browser choice?