Man, I met new people and saw many old friends.

I'd like to extend a thanks to the people I met, besides my sweetheart  MeowHype and my main man  Imuhata

Rynnie, Ark, Gel, EC Major, Ben, Mike, Sigil, Bazeel, Tristan, Ebel / Hali, K2, her GF Jen, Jaga, her BF Ziko, Glaide, Marc, Nomura, Modem (What a trip, dude!), Pandora, Bryan Jamal, Huskie, Dragoneer, Sciggles, Doral, Watcher, Van-Weasel, Gideon, Glycol, Blarion, Dragoncat, Deanna, Karen, Jack (Baka Saka), Pimpuigi, Doggy Treat, Alex (O-Kemono), Larathen, Wii-Fur (fullnekoalchemist?), Dracos (not Blackwing), Miyuki, Koyuki, "Private Teddy", Orion-J, Gola, "Bernadette Hare" (Katmomma!), Railride, Brauner, Dani(elle?), Lauren, and a few other people who showed up at the last few minutes, like Ishaway, Draak, Darren, and others I forgot!

Time to get some pictures sent. I have so many that it's going to take awhile. T_T

I hope AC is half as fun.

Edit-1: Forgot O-Kemono.. D: (Was reviewing pics, must've glossed over his!) ALso added Dani and Lauren.. don't know their other names. D:

Edit-2: Forgot Rocksteady and Mizuhiro_Neko.. T_T practice, perfect..

I blame FA:U being awesome to everybody, and especially my GF MeowHype.
I"ll be running around names later, but until then, stay cool.

So, if you didn't know, I've been on the Whole30 plan to get my body back to 'zero'.. That way I can figure out what my body likes and dislikes.

Unfortunately, I have less than 10 days left in my plan. What's this Thursday until Sunday? My FA:U trip! D:

It'll be my GF (  MeowHype )'s first furry con.

So, I got this problem.

The whole30 is all, "Nothing our cavemen ancestors didn't eat." (EG: Paleo?). And I have a feeling our cavemen ancestors didn't get to party. No alcohol, sugar... No grain, no legumes..
SO it's going to be very hard for me to eat and stay true to this plan. But I believe in myself D: And I also hope and pray that this jerky I"m making is good. I bought 6 pounds of grass-fed beef and am marinating it for 24 hours so I have some protein to eat. (Next question.. What vegetables? Sigh.)


Looking forward to seeing people there. You going to FA:U?

I couldn't decide what frames to pick.

So we got these!

I blame you,  Drake .

Hey, everybody.
I'm going to PAX East tomorrow.

OMG.

Are you?

URL to the Journal,
URL to the Auction itself

Pretty art.. :O

If you want to bid, bid. Take a look, though!



ALSO:
- I got a HTC Evo
- Spending my time working on piano, Japanese
- Hoping to work on my game (hoping doesn't work, though)
- Reading Hypnosis books that my sis got me for XMas to help with my situation
- Working

Is it just me? I bought the Humble Indie Bundle 2, and so far while playing it through steam, everything's so slow that it's unplayable.

There're only a few exceptions...

Is this the same for anyone else?

All I care about is the art and the people who like or draw the art these days.

I don't care about fucking furry drama bullshit.

And to be honest, I'm so sick of it.

To see all this bullshit going around... all it is, is a washing machine that never gets fresh water. It just spins around and cycles shit. These people have too much time on their hands.

Do something productive.

Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people.
Eleanor Roosevelt

Info on Me
The pic of me in "Rotate Me" is old, old old. THe newest one is really my profile ID.

Announcements?
Go see the Kemono / Japanese Furry panel.
SUNDAY, 12:30 AM! IN THE COACH ROOM!
I promote it every goddamn time he's running it, because Imuhata is my brah.

Who I'm going with
 imuhata ,  fullnekoalchemist,  zerohenry, and  YifferFox .
I'll be with them at varying times throughout the con :>

When can I find you?
Arriving mid Thursday (around lunch), and leaving somewhere in the middle of Monday, if not sooner or later.

Where can I find you?
Anywhere and everywhere. I'm either in my room with my buddies, out looking for people I know, out to dinner with people, or in a room watching what's going on. EG: Dealer's dungeon, Artist's Alley, Gaming room, etc.
If you want my cell, I'll probably give it to you if you run into me in person.

You and I aren't on good terms. Should I expect glares from you? What about civility?
For anybody who knows me, It's almost never me who wants to cut off contact with people. So, it's likely you are more concerned about me. (To be honest, why are you reading this? :3;; )
There are a few people that I wistfully wish I could say 'hey' to, but I only spend my time where it's wanted. I don't waste my time where I'm unwanted. So, I might wave to you if we were close friends (because really, I don't hate you), but that's... probably it. D:

You and I are bros. Should I expect you to remember me?
Varying degrees, hell yeah. If I don't remember you at first, please headbutt me. There are only a select few that I see often enough to regularly remember-- and there are a few I remember from once in awhile. :> I ain't perfect, though...
(Also: the headbutt is not literal. If you headbutt me and we aren't bros enough for me to find it funny, it's not going to help your cause. 8))

Oh, if you're hanging out with people from the previous section, I may not notice until it's too late.... 8| Though if I notice, I'll wait for you to come to me.


You drink?
Yes. I don't drink to get any more than buzzed, though-- it's really hard to get me even tipsy. So, if I want to get buzzed, I'm trying to. I really only like 'buzzed', though. I think I get a bit leery when people drink to get drunk.. :X

You party?
Sounds OK, depends upon who I'm going with! (I miss LaineNyah when it comes to parties T_T <3 )

Other questions not mentioned here?

- I don't think I draw very well. I'm constantly unhappy with anything I draw. So, there're very few situations I'd draw in. (PS:  Comus might be one of the few who are blessed with great charisma.. ) If you want me to draw, it's going to take a lot.
- No guarantees about sharing a meal-- you know how these meals go. Either they're too many people, or barely anybody... 8)

Ask any other questions below! See you there~ :O <3

It's hard to explain.

Joined FetLife.
Back down to two days per week of work.
Hanging with a friend a lot of the time now. Makes me feel like crap for all the other people who like to talk to me and who I miss. 8| (I'm only a text away. :( <3 )

I've been letting so many things go by the wayside that I used to do. Download tons of porn? Haven't done that in awhile. Go through my FA watches and leave tons of comments? Not in awhile. Shoot the shit online? It feels like forever.

I haven't felt like drawing, and a shaky tablet doesn't help. It's just so much work to put the pen down on the tablet just to see it shake. I don't feel like poring through my house to find possible interference, either, when my tablet works fine on the laptop.. I think.

I haven't even been home much to game.

Besides that, inspiration for a great website. Would it hit it big? No idea. But I think this one's easy enough to do. :)

See you soon.

Dear FA,

Two things.

I've been quite MIA online and on FA. I have almost 3,000 submissions since I was behind on my Anthrocon submissions. I've been gone for at least a week plus... DOn't expect me back anytime soon, sadly D:>

Two,
My friend, Marc, wanted a girl to room with him at FurFright.

(edit: DRAMA DELETED)

Marc is looking for a rooming situation for FurFright. Why not see if he and his roomie are the right people for you? :> I can certify he's always brought a smile to my face, and stood up when the time called for it. Figure out the rest on your own. D:< :3

So, see you later!

Also: minecraft.

I am disappoint in all (well, most) of you. <:|

Now it's time to get on the submissions.

... some other time! D:>

PS: I am editing my AC writeup to include all the people I forgot... and I forgot a lot. <:3

Jeez, it's so hard to cover everything, but I'm going to do my best... D: Hopefully FA's icon limit gives me enough time to mention enough people...

 LaineNyah and  Unicow are the two I spent the most time at the con with. I had a great AC 2010 largely thanks to you two. I hope to run into you guys more at future cons :> <3

 Dragoneer and  Sciggles got the con off to a great start when I met them at the beginning. Those two seem like a charming duo of buddies. :> Hopefully I see more of these two, too! Of course <:3 I got to finally meet  Dior IRL, too. She's threatening <:3;;. but cool ;D

I spent a good amount of time with  MarcLeonhardt,  FullNekoAlchemist. Sadly, not too much, but it was still fun to hang out with them when I got the chance. :> <3 you guys. :3 Even saw another cool guy I like--  Bakasaka. I hope the Panda sketchbook works out, let me know :3 (I forget your friend Tristan's FA name, though! D: )

I never had met  Tojo-the-thief and  Sabur before. As my roomies, they were quite cool dudes. Even though I imagine there were a few ridiculous things they had to put up with!

I could tell  Pinko was cool-- it's such a shame I only got to hang with her on the last day she was there. 8| ALmost everything else was momentary steals of conversation. Very cool, though. (Hey, TigerPillow and Raiku! )

I had a great lunch with  Plasmacat and his buddy Vince, again! :D (I forget your FA name, though.. argh!) Imuhata and FnekoAlchemist were there, too. That was pleasant :D

I barely got to see  Wovstah,  NicaNightspots, embervalgress and trissdv, even though they were really our room buddies 8| Sigh..

Of course, ran into a few favorites, like  KeeFox,  Indigo, and  YifferFox-- I'm glad Indigo and Kee let me sit with them for awhile :D <3

There were a few people in the Artist's Alley that I got to meet who I had heard of before-- like  CatFiddle and lavenderpandy . Catfiddle is so nice-- hopefully she can spend more time socializing the next time I see her D: !

It was a pleasure to see Gadas, xtaintedredx, and That-Boy in person. :D I even bough a new keychain chibi of Cid from FF7 from C! This is to replace my last keychain of Ellis from C, since he had a run in with a few too many zombies! :p
I hope to talk to them a bit more at the next con D:>

I got to meet Suna and Milku for the first time in person! Milku even came to Imuhata's panel! Suteki! :D <3 Next time I plan on talking more with them. I think I saw a bit of IrishFox, too.

I managed to see RevaDiehard and CHeezyWeapon, but that's about it. I got to talk to Cheezy a bit, though; he seems like a nice and sweet guy :D <3 I barely ran into EraDragon, sadly :<

I finally got to meet and talk to  SpirAyeAyeCat-- I have been seeing her all over FA and cons, it took me long enough to say something D:> Stay cool, Spir! :>

I got to see  Comus and draw him something. I hope FA likes it. T.T
I also got to see Zippiner and SkitzyCat! Shame it's one of the few cons I see them at, and rarely saw hima t this one. T_T

Who else did I run into..? Hm.. Hegdish, Drake, WitchieBunny, Doral., Damaratus (AND I CAN REMEMBER YOU UPON SIGHT, NOW! <:3 <:3 ), craydrygu, zerohour3k, DMDragon happyfeethax, raphoenix, shadowravenx, Swatcher, Kahmari,  NickWolf ....

I ran into a few people at my friend  Imuhata's panel, too-- Kitora, and barl-- I think Imuhata was a bit more glad about this than I, though 8)

I think there were more.. but if I missed you, feel free to mention it. I kinda did this in haste, since I still have so many submissions to get through, the con was a bit of a haze, and etc...

I really wish CrisisAbort was there! D:



PS: WOW. FA can't keep up with all the links and icons.
sigh.

EDIT: Forgot gel and ark-adustus! D: Sorry I didn't mention it! (More mistakes to come later D:> )

EDIT Jul 4th: I Forgot I met stevefarfan, Billy, FortuneFox, and Hammy and more. D: DId I mention  Kiba ?

EDIT SAME DAY:
ARGHH! I forgot to mention I had a nice late-night buffet dinner with Mallin and TouchMyBadger -- and I feel shitty forgetting this because it was one of my highlights.. FINALLY getting to talk to Mandi like I had wanted T_T

EDIT: Jul 5th: I forgot to mention MxScade .. argh. Mx and I hung out at PreReg for a bit, and then meandered around a bit more. Even have videos of Scade in the awesome cat getup 8)
Also I met Gavyn, too :O
Also I got to see Modem_Redpill again D:
Pulsar, who else? agh..
I can't believe I didn't mention BangaBear, who I'm SO glad is going to cons now. ARe you going to FurFright, dude!? D:
Oh crap, and I forgot about Cherri T_T dammit. <3
And JackalRem .. T_T

All of a sudden, a comment Scade left made me really feel appreciated.

Reminds me of all the people I know in my life who, even if slightly, look forward to seeing me. D: (I don't mean to overstate this.. Even just a little bit of 'omg! Nathan!" makes me feel glad.)

I really appreciate you guys. I can't wait to see you at AC. And those of you who are my local buddies, I hope we all rock out 8) <3

Sorry I'm so vague.. <:3;

Hey

I know you've posted your "I'm going to AC" journals

But I'm going to AC too

Please remind me that you're going so I can add you to a list of people I should look for and say hi to <:D

i'll try to add to the list, myself, if you are an ass and never read this or replied to it. <:3

1. Someone cool I texted hasn't responded after the first time. Oh well, moving on
2. The clothes washer died. With my clothes in it. So, I drained it, took my sopping wet clothes out, and can't buy another until tomorrow.
3. Speaking of money, I've got some kinda shit. After 3 months of waiting, I finally got a letter saying that all the money I got from Unemployment I will owe back-- unless I appeal the decision and the adjudicator finds in my decision.. More tense meetings, more seeing of my (thank god) EX Boss, more legal fees, and more dread. It's a lot of money to pay back. I don't think they'd expect it all at once, but...

http://blog.thenateway.net/?cat=178

so I posted to my blag. The only only other result that seems promising is 'replace the powe rsupply.'..
what a headache..

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1479028/

ANd get me free art while you're there 8) <3


THough financing her intrepid trips to AC is an honorable job. Please do so!

I mean, I can handle really strange art, really strange pictures, and really strange things said.

But what people do on the internet to others steels me.

I suppose you should pardon me--
I grew up with a lot of media, a lot of internet. I'm almost exanimate about every story I hear-- I don't immediately assume it's true, I don't immediately believe it's provable, and I know that some stories are too complex to just take a mental shortcut. I've been in a variety of life situations, and none of them are as bad as those of others.

Though I have such a past, I still find the forces of nature on the internet fearsome.
Swells of people who beat down upon others. Waves of people suffocating swimmers in an ocean of preconceptions. Thunder from the darkness-- from those you trust. Thunder striking at your heart. A terror bolt exposing your soft earth for all to see. Thunder built up by the electricity of goading and clique discussions to strike at you through an old friend. A deafening echo that only beats back to you what you say to it. An echo that never changes its mocking tone.

The internet is a very dangerous place.

It's for many reasons like this that I remain in awe and suspense of what I say and do anywhere. There are so many whose first response to drama is to announce their lies and slander to everyone. There are those who would take a sordid past and turn it into blackmail money. I have so little personal history, but what I have I suppose I will drag to my grave.

Because of this, I try to live my life with as few regrets as possible.
I know that they are ammunition for cutthroats.


My experiences have made me less eager to point the finger. My mom used to say that if everybody in the class but me is throwing stuff at the teacher, I'd be the only one caught for the blame. It's made me realize how heavy the head is that wears the crown. And, it's made me unlikely to fight someone else's battles.


I'm not interested in 'white knighting'. It's moreso mobbing, to me.

And that's the terrifying force of nature of the internet-- its righteous Crusades and blind crusaders.

Edit:
Billy Joel - Shades of Grey

SO! I finally got a response on my Pounced.org personals ad!!

Unfortunately, it's from a dude.

LAME!

But, lo and behold:

Hey Nathan,

My name is ***** and I'm a producer in New York working on a tv documentary about furries and the furry fandom. And since everybody asks, no I'm not a bot, and yes I am a real person (you can google my name). And no this isn't a mass email because I actually read your profile and see that you're into Billy Joel and any kind of food. I guess that means any good food!!

If you're into it, I'd like to talk more about all things furry and definitely want to hear your story. Sounds really cool.

Thank you very much in advance, I hope we get the chance to connect soon.

J*** *********

OOOOH! I can't wait to be a pariah within this lame little fandom for saying the wrong thing!

But all honesty aside, he's a smooth talker. I like being important. However, I wanted to see what  Dragoneer said about these guys.

1. They were kicked out of FA:U
2. From what 'neer told me, their documentary is, "I Have a Fetish"
3. I can get off on real people with real vaginas and boobs, so I don't qualify for having a fetish. I also would only have fursuit sex if straight sex was provided alongside the suit. <:3 (TMI, but whatever)
4. His firm works for MTV


So, let's look at the recipe here:
1. Documentary's title inclines towards "I am different from you"
2. They're not picking out hot chicks, they're picking out bearded men
3. Does work for MTV and VH1, who've had 'great' exposés on furry.




So, I'm going to be polite and tell them I don't think I'm a fit because I'm probably not good TV.

EDIT: There's only one person I'm unsure of regarding teh room. Everyone else is set.

Here's the scoop.

Four of my friends need rooms for AC.
I think all four are still looking.

If you have space in a a room at the Westin that is at the ORIGINAL CON RATE, please note me.. No $300 per night bullshit.

If you have space in a room at the COURTYARD MARRIOTT at the ORIGINAL CON RATE, please note me..

If you have space in a room at the Double Tree or Omni, I hope you and I both realize that these hotels are a bit far. Note me anyways, of course!


So yes. Note me, pls.

---

EDIT:
Friend of an acquaintance got my friend a room opportunity. Waiting for her to work it out-- that's the last loose thread.

Thanks everybody. :)

Who I Saw and my thoughts, in no particular order:

 YifferFox,  Imuhata,  FullNekoAlchemist,  MarcLeonhardt
As usual, you guys make anything bad dealable, and anything fun spectacular. FNA/FurWii even commented on how these trips felt like an adventure. :D I can't thank you enough for the companionship you've offered at this con.

PS: BEN, NEVER GO MISSING. AGAIN. <:3


 Van-Weasel,  DonCass,  DoralLizard,  Roxikat,  BakaSaka
I know we haven't spoke much before, but I was very glad to see you at FA:U. I feel like I got to know you enough to realize what a great person you are. My interest in talking to you more has yet to be sated, though. I hope to speak to you more in the future! <:3 Don't be shy, please!


 Rynnie,  Bangabear
This was both of your first fur cons, and it was also my first time meeting both of you. Though I don't know you well, I feel like I've known you forever. You're quite funny, endearing, and of strong spirit. I admire those qualities in people-- I intend to keep in touch!


 Pimpuigi and  Doggy-treat
Pimp. I believe that everything will be OK for you, and sooner than you expect. I'm betting on it. I was glad to see you again. I hope you and Ben take care of each other during your fun upcoming days!
Doggy-Treat-- for my first time meeting you, I did a shitty job of truly getting to know you. I'm very sorry-- you seem like an amazingly kind, funny, and skilled individual. Next time, make sure to grab me and remind me. :)


 WitchieBunny,  Mistywolf,
We talk often online, so I was glad to see you. I'm sorry I didn't get to see you as much at this con as I should have or would have liked to... I feel a bit like a dick for not giving you more attention when I was just sitting in my room with someone else and using a PC. Next time, I'll seek you out if you would like. :)


 EraDragon
I've known you for such a long time. I liked having more opportunities to talk to you... I missed talking to you more. I felt like I got a chance to rekindle a friendship I've let wither.. Thanks for being a cool guy.


 Damaratus,  Dragoneer,  craydrygu,  ZeroHour3k
You be careful. The next con I go to, I might actually get to sit and talk to you guys... and sappiness I give you won't stop. D:< (See above.)

Ronas-a-Vampire
You have amazing artistic talents, and I'm glad you've finally got to go to a fur con. I hope that these fur cons are a place where you can truly shine as a person and feel a deep sense of confidence without egotism, like it's helped for many. You're already kind and sure, so I expect nothing less than the previous to be easy. ;)

AuraDeva, Blitzava
It was nice to finally talk a bit to people I've seen many a time from afar. Thanks for being interesting people with, what seemed to me, a sense of resiliency. I'm impressed with the diligence that you can focus on your tasks. (This is coming from me-- I feel like I don't have that kind of internal motivation yet.)
to Aura: ge ge ge no ge.


Glaide
I was glad to talk to you and hang out when I got the chance. You're one of the newer faces to me, but one of the best smiling ones. :> Stay cool.

Hulex, Fritter, 2Gryphon, SardonyxFox, Spunky
I didn't get nearly as much time to meet you and know you as I would've liked. You all seemed cool, so I hope there's more time to talk at a future con... or even sooner. :> I've seen you around FA, so I can't stop bumping into you without saying something much longer!


To people who I appreciate, but fail at finding words, such as Will and Brauner (both of Rynnie's awesome friends), Orion-J and Carl (people I met through Misty and Cassie), SirKain and ChrisInDixie, the amazing DDRman MozeeOtter, and even Ganador--
I hope to see more of you in the future. :>


I think that's everthing. If I missed you, I want to admit my memory can be quite crummy. Note me and I'll add you if appropriate... so hopefully don't be upset! D:

Are you going to FAU? D:

Where I'm rooming at:
The Main hotel. The Marriott.

When I'm getting there:
Afternoon, Thursday before the con. 27th.

When am I returning:
Monday morning, the 31st of May.

Who am I rooming with:
Definitely  Imuhata,  FullNekoAlchemist, and  YifferFox.
It looks like  Kashagalilie and  Bliv won't be getting to room with us.

What do I look like?
I look like this.
6', maybe 1".

Can I talk to you?
Of course. Do not think anything of how I appear online-- if you watn to talk to me IRL, go right ahead. :>

Do you drink?
Hell yes. Though, my goal is to REMEMBER things.. I don't like drinking too much. :p

Uh.

Any other questions?