Dragoneer
Posted a year agoI saw the news yesterday, when it was brought to my attention.
I know I'm not a large name or well known, but man this place has really helped me a lot over the years. I been able to express myself, and connect with like minded people.
I don't have a lot to say, other than - fuck the health care system, and fuck we lost a great person.
I'm so sorry to his family and close friends for this extremely large loss.
I hope the FA team can continue going and keeping this amazing website alive for years to come.
RIP Dragoneer.
I know I'm not a large name or well known, but man this place has really helped me a lot over the years. I been able to express myself, and connect with like minded people.
I don't have a lot to say, other than - fuck the health care system, and fuck we lost a great person.
I'm so sorry to his family and close friends for this extremely large loss.
I hope the FA team can continue going and keeping this amazing website alive for years to come.
RIP Dragoneer.
Slime Shop Opening
Posted 3 years agoOfficial opening of a venture I've been on for a LONG time to come..many years..investing and dreaming!
I have officially opened my slime store called tidepoolpotions.com
Feel free to check me out, get yourself a slime or share my website! I also have a Patreon that's a work in progress. I plan to have discount codes for those who support me! There will also be giveaways as well!
I have officially opened my slime store called tidepoolpotions.com
Feel free to check me out, get yourself a slime or share my website! I also have a Patreon that's a work in progress. I plan to have discount codes for those who support me! There will also be giveaways as well!
Free Unique Protogen Base
Posted 3 years agoI don't mind making a journal for this because it really is a lovely base, and has lots of options.
The Protogen is a super cool unique species that you can FREELY make!
The species was originally created by
and you should seriously check them out and their Primagens (closed species).
However, you can make yourself a handy dandy nifty beautiful character with
's lovely FREE base!
You can find it here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47018578/ they also have an add on that you can get by making a journal entry, much like I did because I think their lines are beautiful and I need more haha.
The Protogen is a super cool unique species that you can FREELY make!
The species was originally created by
and you should seriously check them out and their Primagens (closed species). However, you can make yourself a handy dandy nifty beautiful character with
's lovely FREE base! You can find it here https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47018578/ they also have an add on that you can get by making a journal entry, much like I did because I think their lines are beautiful and I need more haha.
I need donations/help/toxic
Posted 5 years agohttps://paypal.me/pools/c/8qKNjKu7wt
I am in desperate need of help, and I'm going to try and spread this as much as I can..I've tried putting characters up for sale but no one's seemingly interested. Please please share this if possible.
I am in desperate need of help, and I'm going to try and spread this as much as I can..I've tried putting characters up for sale but no one's seemingly interested. Please please share this if possible.
Selling characters
Posted 5 years agohttps://toyhou.se/2433905.echo/gallery <-- Make offers
Feel free to look at my other characters in ToyHouse
Feel free to look at my other characters in ToyHouse
ALL OPEN ADOPTS $5
Posted 6 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
In financial straights so selling every adopt for $5 USD
Link to what you want and I'll make sure I have it saved in my folders somewhere
This isn't available forever!
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....der/21299/Open
In financial straights so selling every adopt for $5 USD
Link to what you want and I'll make sure I have it saved in my folders somewhere
This isn't available forever!
Queue - end of 2018
Posted 7 years agoQueue information mainly for me cause I got a lot going on!
- Behemoth Custom - FINISHED
Devon - Torumaka custom - Anthro - FINISHED
Sara - Male Feral Custom - FINISHED
Ayla - Male Anthro Custom and feral version of female Torumaka - FINISHED
Shatondra Q Yauch - black panther female torumaka - FINISHED
- Custom character - FINISHED
- ref for Emily - FINISHED - Torumaka female custom - FINISHED
Sova - FINISHED
Updated: 1/5/19
FINALLY DONE WITH THE LAST STUFF FOR 2018
- Behemoth Custom - FINISHEDDevon - Torumaka custom - Anthro - FINISHED
Sara - Male Feral Custom - FINISHED
Ayla - Male Anthro Custom and feral version of female Torumaka - FINISHED
Shatondra Q Yauch - black panther female torumaka - FINISHED
- Custom character - FINISHED
- ref for Emily - FINISHED - Torumaka female custom - FINISHEDSova - FINISHED
Updated: 1/5/19
FINALLY DONE WITH THE LAST STUFF FOR 2018
Tarot Readings
Posted 7 years agoI have completely revamped my tarot readings webpage and I am very satisfied with it. There will be some more edits to come to the page, however it is completely new and approved otherwise! With new prices making it a bit more accessible for people.
If you have any questions regarding what I offer feel free to ask me, however a lot of the information is on the web-page.
Have a look?
Nic's Tarot Readings and more
Thank you for considering!
If you have any questions regarding what I offer feel free to ask me, however a lot of the information is on the web-page.
Have a look?
Nic's Tarot Readings and more
Thank you for considering!
SELLING SOME CHARACTERS
Posted 7 years ago1. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11715009/
2. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16761246/
3. GONE
4. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19826895/
5. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20192463/
6. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20206734/
ALL ARE OTA - OFFER TO ADOPT
ONLY TAKING MONEY OFFERS AT THIS TIME
I will set up an invoice, and email you the original characters art
2. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16761246/
3. GONE
4. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19826895/
5. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20192463/
6. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20206734/
ALL ARE OTA - OFFER TO ADOPT
ONLY TAKING MONEY OFFERS AT THIS TIME
I will set up an invoice, and email you the original characters art
Desperate times..
Posted 7 years agoI'm not popular, I don't have a lot to offer..but I am facing so many challenges right now..and I need help
So I made a paypal money pool to get some help
I also created a gofundme which has more information.
https://www.gofundme.com/jr5gut-another-start <-- GOFUNDME
https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/84WPfMmGlr <--- PAYPAL MONEY POOL
I figured to post both up, paypal doesn't take out anything extra however gofundme does have a fee attached. I figured if anyone would like to donate to either that would be exceptionally helpful..gofundme just allows me to write more.
Thank you..so much to anyone who helps me out..Both will run until the 1st of July which is the final day for me to be out..
I truly wish I could offer something in return, but I just can't..I have..soo so much on my plate right now..so much..Thank you for the help if given.
So I made a paypal money pool to get some help
I also created a gofundme which has more information.
https://www.gofundme.com/jr5gut-another-start <-- GOFUNDME
https://www.paypal.com/pools/c/84WPfMmGlr <--- PAYPAL MONEY POOL
I figured to post both up, paypal doesn't take out anything extra however gofundme does have a fee attached. I figured if anyone would like to donate to either that would be exceptionally helpful..gofundme just allows me to write more.
Thank you..so much to anyone who helps me out..Both will run until the 1st of July which is the final day for me to be out..
I truly wish I could offer something in return, but I just can't..I have..soo so much on my plate right now..so much..Thank you for the help if given.
Update on life
Posted 7 years agoSo some things, I don't really know what else to say other then I need to find a new place to live. Sadly I don't know how much time I have here, but I'm doing what I can to find somewhere to live..I be it slowly..sadly..
The 4th I have a meds appointment to go touch up on my medicine and such and hopefully get that situated so I can have my medicine back and feel more normal again.
I have to make an appointment for public housing in TN sometime either in this next month or following because I can't make frequent long trips like that too often..it costs a good bit to do that..but its a smaller area and hoping the wait isn't long..as there seems to be a lot of openings that take "income based" rentals and what not.
If the wait is years I can't do that, and its my last effort..I can't afford to live alone in a normal apartment it costs a lot for me as I am on social security based income.
My aunt offered a place for me to live, but she also said she couldn't take my animals in too..which is a big fat no from me..because my cats mean the world to me..as does the guinea pigs (I'm trying to find a rescue for some of them however, not doing anything half assed because they can be used as bait etc).
Sooo so stressed out..I've been trying to pop some art out for some extra funds but its been so difficult with my depression and anxiety. Just hoping once I get the medicine things will return to normal in my head. I'm also REALLY sucking up with cleaning way more then usual to try and extend my stay here..just wished I was communicated with more so I could change how I was doing things and just improve on whatever was wrong..cause all it takes is to tell me..and I have been changing those habits.
Blah..just frustrated at life, but I'm trying to hang in there! Hopefully in the near near future I'll have some new stuff up.
The 4th I have a meds appointment to go touch up on my medicine and such and hopefully get that situated so I can have my medicine back and feel more normal again.
I have to make an appointment for public housing in TN sometime either in this next month or following because I can't make frequent long trips like that too often..it costs a good bit to do that..but its a smaller area and hoping the wait isn't long..as there seems to be a lot of openings that take "income based" rentals and what not.
If the wait is years I can't do that, and its my last effort..I can't afford to live alone in a normal apartment it costs a lot for me as I am on social security based income.
My aunt offered a place for me to live, but she also said she couldn't take my animals in too..which is a big fat no from me..because my cats mean the world to me..as does the guinea pigs (I'm trying to find a rescue for some of them however, not doing anything half assed because they can be used as bait etc).
Sooo so stressed out..I've been trying to pop some art out for some extra funds but its been so difficult with my depression and anxiety. Just hoping once I get the medicine things will return to normal in my head. I'm also REALLY sucking up with cleaning way more then usual to try and extend my stay here..just wished I was communicated with more so I could change how I was doing things and just improve on whatever was wrong..cause all it takes is to tell me..and I have been changing those habits.
Blah..just frustrated at life, but I'm trying to hang in there! Hopefully in the near near future I'll have some new stuff up.
There is some things going on
Posted 7 years agoIts crazy to look back and see all my dramatic posts about life, emergencies and medical crap..and just over all not fun journal entries..but its been a great platform to just vent a little and open up to people who may care, have something to say, or just curious about what I'm going through in life...
I don't really care for pity, and I don't really like to seek out anything of that nature..but wow life..is just..handing me crap left and right. I know I am not the only person who deals with things and goes through hardships..by all means I am not saying that I am the only one..but sometimes it feels as if you're alone..
As most know I suffer from depression, anxiety and bipolar..all of which are professional diagnosed I don't just go around claiming to have these as some often do..(please don't do that..). Because of my mental illnesses that plague my everyday existence when things go bad..they go BAD..maybe even I react to things in such a huge way that normal people wouldn't react the same way? Its my brain..its something I can't help and I often question am I over exaggerating or is this a legitimate reaction? Its hell, its just pure hell living like this. Its especially worse when I am not on medication, which I've not been for a while due to some of the situations I've found myself in..but soon guys soon I'll be back to me and hopefully a more normal state of mind..or what's to be considered normal.
Now with all this said, I experienced a break with my boyfriend this year, which was unexpected and really hurt..I am moving on..and I am doing better from it..though I miss the companionship and closeness that comes with being with someone..I miss being able to kiss someone and love on someone and all things intimate..our relationship for the most part hasn't changed much we still talk and laugh and hang out but it is not the same, as to be expected.
But the biggest thing to happen this year is my sibling, my little sister..going back to doing pills again..putting her life in jeopardy and nearly dying..required hospital stays..no this isn't something new..she had this problem once before..nearly dying..doctors claiming she should be dead..to our mother..our MOTHER..Now I'd like to also add my sister is the mother to my beautiful niece..who's going on 8? this year..could be 9 but gosh I lose track of ages..now I'd like to add that this kid means more to me then so many people combined..I've spent so much time with her..she's a piece of my heart she truly is..
My sister got clean, she did..for a long time..then this year came..and it's gone completely outta control. My sister has had serious back problems and surgery to try and fix those problems, she even went to school she worked in the veterinary field..but sadly couldn't keep working due to the bad back problems..she required pain management..and this is partly why things went south for her. She fought for her SSDI/SSI benefits and had finally got them..lots of back pay money..and it was gone..all..gone..we're talking thousands..
She's made up stories, lied to me our mother..family members..she's gotten thousands from her father..she's possibly staged a few robberies at her home..the list is endless..making her family in depth as well..lies, denial, blame.
This is of course a very short summery of what I've been dealing with, what my mother has been dealing with..
My sister is giving up her rights as a mother, and refusing rehab.
My sister can die..and my niece is without a mother.
My mom feels she's to blame for her possible ensuing death..we can't force her to go to rehab..we can't go to the police as we have nothing but speculations..we can't do anything anymore..period.
Tomorrow is Mother's day, I sent my mom her favorite flower in a bouquet..Daisy's..she loves..Daisy's..I am probably going to be the only child of hers to do something for her for Mothers day. My sister is currently at their home, and she wants to leave for where she came from (she flew out with her daughter) tomorrow..on Mother's Day.
My sister doesn't want to be there, she wants to go back home..that's it..
I am hurting, I been sick to my stomach, nearly throwing up..anxiety ridden..unable to sleep..
My mom had to go to the hospital cause she got real sick, she threw up, she's been anxiety ridden..The amount of people this has effected has been just huge..and my sister doesn't even realize it..Can't express to you how much this hurts re-living and re-accounting everything I've been going through..and all the crap my sister has been bulling..this started in January.
I'm emotionally drained, and so hurt and disappointed. I don't want pity, or even don't mind if no one comments..this is a huge..well its a pill to swallow..I'm scared to even go near medicine because of how badly this has effected my family..and me..I've been thinking of ways to vent in art..and I can't barely handle doing any art when I am feeling so low..and I can't think or concentrate..I been trying to just avoid people and talking and just been zoning out to try and not think about everything going on. Its a DAILY update from my poor mother who can't barely keep up herself..she's hurt and upset..and trying so hard..she feels like she has failed..as a mother..I'm so far from my mom I can't afford to just get up and travel there and I feel guilty too.
I'm hurting, so much..so please forgive me if I've pushed you aside or I'm super touchy..I am dealing with so much right now..I lost one of my best friends last year, she was so young..Now I am losing my sister..and I could lose her to pills..she can die..its only a matter of time before she's either caught doing something bad..or she kills herself.
I am trying to make some adopts, to go towards paying for my medicine and the trip it'll take to get up there..that's a long story in itself..I am in Alabama my doctors are in Nashville TN so its a bit of a drive..have my reasons..phew..its just a mess right now..I feel incredibly alone in this..even though I know people have my back..it does only so much..I am alone.
I'd like to add that you please keep this off my Facebook if you're on my friendslist..
I don't really care for pity, and I don't really like to seek out anything of that nature..but wow life..is just..handing me crap left and right. I know I am not the only person who deals with things and goes through hardships..by all means I am not saying that I am the only one..but sometimes it feels as if you're alone..
As most know I suffer from depression, anxiety and bipolar..all of which are professional diagnosed I don't just go around claiming to have these as some often do..(please don't do that..). Because of my mental illnesses that plague my everyday existence when things go bad..they go BAD..maybe even I react to things in such a huge way that normal people wouldn't react the same way? Its my brain..its something I can't help and I often question am I over exaggerating or is this a legitimate reaction? Its hell, its just pure hell living like this. Its especially worse when I am not on medication, which I've not been for a while due to some of the situations I've found myself in..but soon guys soon I'll be back to me and hopefully a more normal state of mind..or what's to be considered normal.
Now with all this said, I experienced a break with my boyfriend this year, which was unexpected and really hurt..I am moving on..and I am doing better from it..though I miss the companionship and closeness that comes with being with someone..I miss being able to kiss someone and love on someone and all things intimate..our relationship for the most part hasn't changed much we still talk and laugh and hang out but it is not the same, as to be expected.
But the biggest thing to happen this year is my sibling, my little sister..going back to doing pills again..putting her life in jeopardy and nearly dying..required hospital stays..no this isn't something new..she had this problem once before..nearly dying..doctors claiming she should be dead..to our mother..our MOTHER..Now I'd like to also add my sister is the mother to my beautiful niece..who's going on 8? this year..could be 9 but gosh I lose track of ages..now I'd like to add that this kid means more to me then so many people combined..I've spent so much time with her..she's a piece of my heart she truly is..
My sister got clean, she did..for a long time..then this year came..and it's gone completely outta control. My sister has had serious back problems and surgery to try and fix those problems, she even went to school she worked in the veterinary field..but sadly couldn't keep working due to the bad back problems..she required pain management..and this is partly why things went south for her. She fought for her SSDI/SSI benefits and had finally got them..lots of back pay money..and it was gone..all..gone..we're talking thousands..
She's made up stories, lied to me our mother..family members..she's gotten thousands from her father..she's possibly staged a few robberies at her home..the list is endless..making her family in depth as well..lies, denial, blame.
This is of course a very short summery of what I've been dealing with, what my mother has been dealing with..
My sister is giving up her rights as a mother, and refusing rehab.
My sister can die..and my niece is without a mother.
My mom feels she's to blame for her possible ensuing death..we can't force her to go to rehab..we can't go to the police as we have nothing but speculations..we can't do anything anymore..period.
Tomorrow is Mother's day, I sent my mom her favorite flower in a bouquet..Daisy's..she loves..Daisy's..I am probably going to be the only child of hers to do something for her for Mothers day. My sister is currently at their home, and she wants to leave for where she came from (she flew out with her daughter) tomorrow..on Mother's Day.
My sister doesn't want to be there, she wants to go back home..that's it..
I am hurting, I been sick to my stomach, nearly throwing up..anxiety ridden..unable to sleep..
My mom had to go to the hospital cause she got real sick, she threw up, she's been anxiety ridden..The amount of people this has effected has been just huge..and my sister doesn't even realize it..Can't express to you how much this hurts re-living and re-accounting everything I've been going through..and all the crap my sister has been bulling..this started in January.
I'm emotionally drained, and so hurt and disappointed. I don't want pity, or even don't mind if no one comments..this is a huge..well its a pill to swallow..I'm scared to even go near medicine because of how badly this has effected my family..and me..I've been thinking of ways to vent in art..and I can't barely handle doing any art when I am feeling so low..and I can't think or concentrate..I been trying to just avoid people and talking and just been zoning out to try and not think about everything going on. Its a DAILY update from my poor mother who can't barely keep up herself..she's hurt and upset..and trying so hard..she feels like she has failed..as a mother..I'm so far from my mom I can't afford to just get up and travel there and I feel guilty too.
I'm hurting, so much..so please forgive me if I've pushed you aside or I'm super touchy..I am dealing with so much right now..I lost one of my best friends last year, she was so young..Now I am losing my sister..and I could lose her to pills..she can die..its only a matter of time before she's either caught doing something bad..or she kills herself.
I am trying to make some adopts, to go towards paying for my medicine and the trip it'll take to get up there..that's a long story in itself..I am in Alabama my doctors are in Nashville TN so its a bit of a drive..have my reasons..phew..its just a mess right now..I feel incredibly alone in this..even though I know people have my back..it does only so much..I am alone.
I'd like to add that you please keep this off my Facebook if you're on my friendslist..
Art art art
Posted 7 years agoLet me tell you suffering from mental problems the way I do, its so so hard for me to do artwork and get creative..but I WANT to get creative and put out more stuff..so I've been really pushing myself to put as much out as possible.
When I get help with idea's I tend to be able to play off the idea's a lot easier, but doing them on my own wow..its a challenge..
I've been putting a lot out (for me) and I am legitimately shaking right now. It is so crazy how it makes me feel so anxious and hyped up.
I'm trying to produce new adopts for different tastes and its super rough!
So if anyone has color pallets or even idea's it'd be super helpful and beneficial to me!!
I feel like I want to do more, but man I am shaking bad, its a strange feeling. I am not looking for pity or like making excuses..but this just shows that I really have bad anxiety and other problems and why I'm trying to limit my commissions and what I do so I don't get overwhelmed.
But the support shown is super appreciated.
When I get help with idea's I tend to be able to play off the idea's a lot easier, but doing them on my own wow..its a challenge..
I've been putting a lot out (for me) and I am legitimately shaking right now. It is so crazy how it makes me feel so anxious and hyped up.
I'm trying to produce new adopts for different tastes and its super rough!
So if anyone has color pallets or even idea's it'd be super helpful and beneficial to me!!
I feel like I want to do more, but man I am shaking bad, its a strange feeling. I am not looking for pity or like making excuses..but this just shows that I really have bad anxiety and other problems and why I'm trying to limit my commissions and what I do so I don't get overwhelmed.
But the support shown is super appreciated.
Blep
Posted 7 years agoBoop
Update on life
Posted 7 years agoI had a very successful surgery in January for a hysterectomy which has brought on some serious depression..however at least I'm alive and well..gotta keep reminding myself that.
I moved to Alabama with my boyfriend due to some things happening where I was living in Nashville, and we wanted to make sure we had somewhere to live..mainly myself as he was living on his dad's property.
ANY COOKIES
We got into a house and its huuuuge and we have almost no furniture! We had a bed he bought for me when I was living in Nashville and that was pretty much it. His dad purchased us a stove and fridge. And now I'm hoping we'll be able to go to my mom's place for a washer and dryer and other furniture that'll really come in handy.
But good gravy it is stressful trying to survive this month - so I'm doing the best I can to earn money to keep up with the struggle..guess that's my update for now..
Stress
I moved to Alabama with my boyfriend due to some things happening where I was living in Nashville, and we wanted to make sure we had somewhere to live..mainly myself as he was living on his dad's property.
ANY COOKIES
We got into a house and its huuuuge and we have almost no furniture! We had a bed he bought for me when I was living in Nashville and that was pretty much it. His dad purchased us a stove and fridge. And now I'm hoping we'll be able to go to my mom's place for a washer and dryer and other furniture that'll really come in handy.
But good gravy it is stressful trying to survive this month - so I'm doing the best I can to earn money to keep up with the struggle..guess that's my update for now..
Stress
Medical updates - serious shit
Posted 8 years agoSoo figured to update everyone on my life and why things are going incredibly slow on my page.
Last month about the 13th I was in severe pain..by this point I had been bleeding (period) from the 1st of November to at this point..I'm extremely anemic and was already having some serious issues with everyday living..including panic attacks and feeling like I can't stand up very long.
I went to the ER and I passed a soft ball size blood clot..no joke..would share but its painfully graphic..took a picture for my doctors.
After it passed I was in no more pain, however they checked my blood and it was at a 4 which they will let you leave at a 7 and normal is close to 20. So obviously this was a serious concern and I was admitted for a blood transfusion.
In total I had three units of blood and stayed over night to insure I was okay. This is extremely serious, and I could've died from this..as there was little blood oxygen in my brain which could've caused coma.
I'm obviously taking medicine for my anemia as I should have been in the first place however its so much more serious then ever.
I do have fibroid(s) in my uterus which causes excessive bleeding and lots of pain..unbearable pain..though with this episode..I decided the best course of action is getting a hysterectomy. I will be getting a Laparoscopic Hysterectomy done which is less invasive then getting a huge cut into my tummy..and good chances are I'll need another transfusion to insure I make it out of there okay. I am currently at a 6 for blood.
I will be getting this done the 3rd of January..its been just..so crazy the past couple months..
I only just recently stopped bleeding past couple days I was bleeding for a month and few days..insane..amount of time..and super serious.
I figured this update was needed as people do tend to wonder what's going on. Everything is on hold, depression really takes it tole when you're going through this..and I am diagnosed with it so its been rough..thank the gods for medicine.
Last month about the 13th I was in severe pain..by this point I had been bleeding (period) from the 1st of November to at this point..I'm extremely anemic and was already having some serious issues with everyday living..including panic attacks and feeling like I can't stand up very long.
I went to the ER and I passed a soft ball size blood clot..no joke..would share but its painfully graphic..took a picture for my doctors.
After it passed I was in no more pain, however they checked my blood and it was at a 4 which they will let you leave at a 7 and normal is close to 20. So obviously this was a serious concern and I was admitted for a blood transfusion.
In total I had three units of blood and stayed over night to insure I was okay. This is extremely serious, and I could've died from this..as there was little blood oxygen in my brain which could've caused coma.
I'm obviously taking medicine for my anemia as I should have been in the first place however its so much more serious then ever.
I do have fibroid(s) in my uterus which causes excessive bleeding and lots of pain..unbearable pain..though with this episode..I decided the best course of action is getting a hysterectomy. I will be getting a Laparoscopic Hysterectomy done which is less invasive then getting a huge cut into my tummy..and good chances are I'll need another transfusion to insure I make it out of there okay. I am currently at a 6 for blood.
I will be getting this done the 3rd of January..its been just..so crazy the past couple months..
I only just recently stopped bleeding past couple days I was bleeding for a month and few days..insane..amount of time..and super serious.
I figured this update was needed as people do tend to wonder what's going on. Everything is on hold, depression really takes it tole when you're going through this..and I am diagnosed with it so its been rough..thank the gods for medicine.
Stressed out! Buut..species info!
Posted 8 years agoI wanted to share with you all once again my Torumaka species in which is growing and males soon!
I am hoping now that I have the majority of the species bases out there and such..I'll be expanding on them more. Life is stressful, but I've kept up on them and it makes me happy..and it also keeps me from thinking of all the negative things.
My community is loving and so kind and I want to invite anyone here to join too!
I have some adopts open as well as customs for emergency funds - like a back up plan in case some things fall through this month which keeping fingers crossed that its a glitch in the system.
Torumaka Community
I am hoping now that I have the majority of the species bases out there and such..I'll be expanding on them more. Life is stressful, but I've kept up on them and it makes me happy..and it also keeps me from thinking of all the negative things.
My community is loving and so kind and I want to invite anyone here to join too!
I have some adopts open as well as customs for emergency funds - like a back up plan in case some things fall through this month which keeping fingers crossed that its a glitch in the system.
Torumaka Community
Well here I am again - requesting help
Posted 8 years agoSo I am going to share some links showing exactly what I been through for months now..health included.
This Journal talks about my health issues, in which are not something I'm in a financial bind over..but they have caused me some extra stress. Click For Journal. I don't know what's going on completely still and I've had to miss multiple appointments and re-do some..I am seeing my OBGYN for an ultrasound soon (7th of this coming up month) to see if I have something going on such as cysts on my overies. I have depression, anxiety, bipolar, and personality disorder and currently I am not on my medication but I normally take two different types of medicine for some of my problems they are - Paroxetine and Lamotrigine.
So with my health being all funky it makes my mental illnesses worse? Its rather..aggravating..to say the least..its like a constant battle between the two and me over-thinking and over worrying.
I also live in a terrible apartment complex, terrible. I've tried raising money to get out of this place previously but I just gave up as I wasn't getting any help what so ever..I had two people donate to the fundraiser one being my little brother. But I just couldn't handle keeping up with it anymore as I was getting further and further disappointed..watching other friends of mine get hundreds if not thousands of dollars to their needs..was just making me feel worse and worse..and I felt guilty for feeling this way. This is my donation page: Donation Page I tried going through Lend a Hand back then and I am going to try again..as I am completely desperate.
I've lived here for over a year now, and nothing much has changed for good.
They FINALLY fixed the laundry mat downstairs from being destroyed last year in the fall. I been hand washing mine and my roommates clothes constantly outside and recently I was being harassed by a neighbor saying I can't do what I was doing..washing my clothes..and threatened to report us. She claimed to me that the washers and dryers were replaced a month ago..A MONTH AGO..and that "everyone" got a notice on their doors..well we did not receive anything like this at all. So I was dumbfounded..and in disbelief until we went down stairs. Of course this was little to late as we have no means of washing our clothes downstairs until the first of the month.
My roommates futon is now gone as he's a big guy, and now he's sleeping on the floor once more..mine is getting there but I found away to fix it so I can still sleep on a bed. We have absolutely NO WAY of replacing our beds..or getting at least a mattress. We both are on SSI so we get a small amount of money each month to survive off of..it is almost impossible to save anything.
I do have pets, but they are well taken care of..honestly probably better then myself..however they are here as a sorta therapy to myself. I had two children who are both adopted out and they do fill that void..and has nothing to do with my situation at hand...but they help ease a lot of stress.
The people who own the building have no office on site, its elsewhere and they own many other properties. Section 8 people came out here and had to basically write some things that were wrong about this apartment..and THAT finally got their attention..to at least fix our leaking water in the bathtub when we shower..Oh but will they fix the stove that smokes and we can only use ONE of the eyes, and the dishwasher in which has been out a better part of the year..hm..nope.
I have proof of a lot of our issues in this apartment at my fundraising page..its just..a number of issues one after another..NEEDLESS TO SAY..and I think I covered everything here. I'd love it if me and my roommate both can get into a better living situation. We've talked about different options but we just can't do it on our own from the get go. Rent isn't an issue, its getting there and paying for the initial stuff..let alone replacing our beds..getting actual furniture which we don't have at all of..etc.
Any help seriously is so..so appreciated..I'm going to try and do this once again..cause I am just..desperate. We both are. I don't do art very well, and I'm constantly stressed out so its hard to concentrate on art as it is..I just need some help.
Thank you.
If you want to donate to my fundraiser feel free too or to my paypal: frisky_shibuiro_neko[at]live.com just please let me know if you've done so, privately or here in the comments below so I can personally thank you.
This Journal talks about my health issues, in which are not something I'm in a financial bind over..but they have caused me some extra stress. Click For Journal. I don't know what's going on completely still and I've had to miss multiple appointments and re-do some..I am seeing my OBGYN for an ultrasound soon (7th of this coming up month) to see if I have something going on such as cysts on my overies. I have depression, anxiety, bipolar, and personality disorder and currently I am not on my medication but I normally take two different types of medicine for some of my problems they are - Paroxetine and Lamotrigine.
So with my health being all funky it makes my mental illnesses worse? Its rather..aggravating..to say the least..its like a constant battle between the two and me over-thinking and over worrying.
I also live in a terrible apartment complex, terrible. I've tried raising money to get out of this place previously but I just gave up as I wasn't getting any help what so ever..I had two people donate to the fundraiser one being my little brother. But I just couldn't handle keeping up with it anymore as I was getting further and further disappointed..watching other friends of mine get hundreds if not thousands of dollars to their needs..was just making me feel worse and worse..and I felt guilty for feeling this way. This is my donation page: Donation Page I tried going through Lend a Hand back then and I am going to try again..as I am completely desperate.
I've lived here for over a year now, and nothing much has changed for good.
They FINALLY fixed the laundry mat downstairs from being destroyed last year in the fall. I been hand washing mine and my roommates clothes constantly outside and recently I was being harassed by a neighbor saying I can't do what I was doing..washing my clothes..and threatened to report us. She claimed to me that the washers and dryers were replaced a month ago..A MONTH AGO..and that "everyone" got a notice on their doors..well we did not receive anything like this at all. So I was dumbfounded..and in disbelief until we went down stairs. Of course this was little to late as we have no means of washing our clothes downstairs until the first of the month.
My roommates futon is now gone as he's a big guy, and now he's sleeping on the floor once more..mine is getting there but I found away to fix it so I can still sleep on a bed. We have absolutely NO WAY of replacing our beds..or getting at least a mattress. We both are on SSI so we get a small amount of money each month to survive off of..it is almost impossible to save anything.
I do have pets, but they are well taken care of..honestly probably better then myself..however they are here as a sorta therapy to myself. I had two children who are both adopted out and they do fill that void..and has nothing to do with my situation at hand...but they help ease a lot of stress.
The people who own the building have no office on site, its elsewhere and they own many other properties. Section 8 people came out here and had to basically write some things that were wrong about this apartment..and THAT finally got their attention..to at least fix our leaking water in the bathtub when we shower..Oh but will they fix the stove that smokes and we can only use ONE of the eyes, and the dishwasher in which has been out a better part of the year..hm..nope.
I have proof of a lot of our issues in this apartment at my fundraising page..its just..a number of issues one after another..NEEDLESS TO SAY..and I think I covered everything here. I'd love it if me and my roommate both can get into a better living situation. We've talked about different options but we just can't do it on our own from the get go. Rent isn't an issue, its getting there and paying for the initial stuff..let alone replacing our beds..getting actual furniture which we don't have at all of..etc.
Any help seriously is so..so appreciated..I'm going to try and do this once again..cause I am just..desperate. We both are. I don't do art very well, and I'm constantly stressed out so its hard to concentrate on art as it is..I just need some help.
Thank you.
If you want to donate to my fundraiser feel free too or to my paypal: frisky_shibuiro_neko[at]live.com just please let me know if you've done so, privately or here in the comments below so I can personally thank you.
Torumaka Update
Posted 8 years agoHey there folks! So a lot was going on with me health wise and I'm still dealing with things unfortunately having to make an appointment for multiple stuff at different specialists..ugh..and I'll update with that as soon as I get more information.
However I'm here to make an update for my species Torumaka's!
I have a group on Facebook if you're interested in the species as well as possibly adopting one or commissioning for a custom. Which is limited at the moment as I do have other owed art - don't worry I've not forgotten about you guys.
But I wanted to update about the species because I'm finally going to be getting an anthro version of the species as well as expand on their lore since anthro's and their feral form are basically two different sorta things.
So if you're interested please check out my FB group here
I'll be updating more on this soon, but mainly in my group. Come join us!
However I'm here to make an update for my species Torumaka's!
I have a group on Facebook if you're interested in the species as well as possibly adopting one or commissioning for a custom. Which is limited at the moment as I do have other owed art - don't worry I've not forgotten about you guys.
But I wanted to update about the species because I'm finally going to be getting an anthro version of the species as well as expand on their lore since anthro's and their feral form are basically two different sorta things.
So if you're interested please check out my FB group here
I'll be updating more on this soon, but mainly in my group. Come join us!
Update - Added Stuff 3/31
Posted 8 years agoHey guys a needed to make a little update for everyone.
I know I've made next to no progress on commissions but trust me I've not forgotten about ya'll.
I am working slowly on one right now and its almost finished!
I have been super super sick..or not sick..I really don't know? I've got a lot of invisible health problems..and its not the greatest excuse for the long wait everyone has been waiting for..and I feel so so guilty..
I had to deal with holiday's not basically doing anything for them, I got no pictures of my kids during this time (they are open adopted out), then my 30th birthday came in January..I didn't do anything..it made me extremely depressed as I wanted to do something special. My daughters birthday came the 30th of January and again..I got nothing from it..
On-top of all this - THIS IS YOUR WARNING SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH IF YOU DON'T DEAL WITH PERIOD TALK WELL -
I get EXTREMELY bad periods, to the point that I am basically stuck in bed, I can't do ANYTHING..it is excruciatingly painful and its also very very heavy..so I'm constantly dealing with pain and that. I've had children, and I can compare this monthly pain close to labor.
So on-top of period stuff - I got SICK?? Or I think so? I started coughing so bad to the point of being unable to breath..my nose was runny/stuffy through some of this time. Absolutely NO sore throat during this time but a bad bad cough to the point my ribs felt like they were bruising or breaking..it was TERRIBLE..this lasted past my period..and until now..two weeks in..with a cough..the cough has gone down drastically thank goodness but this is also an embarrassing fact..I've had two kids..if you know anyone who's had kids they could tell you that accidents happen commonly..you have little bladder control when you've had kids..its TERRIBLE..ugh! So! With that said, I've had the worst time ever..its just been one thing after another.
Good news is that I have two appointments set up to see doctors on what's going on with my body..I also suffer from mental problems too..being depression, anxiety, bipolar and personality disorder. So please be as patient as humanly possible with me..I'm truly trying to get things done and also dealing with a LOT in my real life time..a lot lot lot..
Truly I'm trying, and after all is said and done I'll be taking no more commissions for a long time until I figure out what's going on with me and get things fixed..along with my apartment living situation..its been so rough..and I'm truly sorry.
Update:
For the past several days I've had immense foot pain, I'm unable to go to the ER I have to wait for the 22nd for my doctors appointment..I have no money for Uber..or else I'd just leave now.
Its been hard to move anywhere, I can't walk at all without help or a lot of support..and even then I have to use my foot to balance and walk and I'm using the side of my foot to walk.
I plan to document my visit to the doctors just to prove that I am not making this shit up..it keeps adding up and its just insane..when things go wrong they just..get worse I tell you.
I am almost 100% sure its plantar fasciitis which is an extremely painful foot issue in which I had in the past..I can't..walk..I legitimately can't walk. I have had my roommate basically take care of me for days now. He has to walk me to the bathroom, in the morning is the worst of times. He has taken my puppy outside for me, it took time but Cupid my pup has gotten used to him taking him for potty and doing fantastic.
I really been struggling..my depression has gotten to me bad..cause I feel helpless..My cough has almost completely disappeared..I made the call initially to get that checked out..looks like I fought it myself. Next step is to get this foot checked out, and figure out my heart problems.
On a more positive note, I'll be seeing an apartment complex on the 7th! So here is hoping something good comes of that visit and tour.
Thanks for all your understandings.
Update:
I just got home from doctors office, needless to say it was interesting with a lot of different things to look into.
I got my blood pressure done, had an EKG, tested my blood oxygen level, got blood drawn..and made an appointment for a breathing test at the hospital and I need an x-ray to see if I have a stress fracture in my foot.
Blood pressure: High but not dangerous
EKG: Not sure what the results were with that exactly
I had my blood oxygen tested by having a monitor on my finger and went walking around a few times - it went down quickly the first time around..then went up the next..so yeah..odd..
Blood drawing was fun..my left arm didn't give any blood at all..even after digging around..my right thankfully did..
Also, she checked the roof of my mouth to see if it was pale and it is very pale.
Needless to say I'm possibly still very anemic, fun.
I also might have asthma but not clear on that or something else is going on with that.
Here is a screenshot straight from the website for all my medical stuff from this office I go to! Pretty nifty and helpful for me.
https://gyazo.com/bb71480be35ac7cd21ef9bc21cc3137c
So there is the run down, nothing exactly great as far as news but..gives a general idea what I'm going through right now..and I also took some video for FB while I was there too..just don't want it to seem like I'm making stuff up..I'm also going to be seeing an eye doctor so I can get an exam and new glasses as well.
UPDATE:
Went to the hospital for my appointments - got my chest x-ray as well as foot
I also did a breathing test and at the end of that he gave me some medicine to help my lungs and did some more breathing tests.
I wont know anything until I see my doctor with the results..
I know I've made next to no progress on commissions but trust me I've not forgotten about ya'll.
I am working slowly on one right now and its almost finished!
I have been super super sick..or not sick..I really don't know? I've got a lot of invisible health problems..and its not the greatest excuse for the long wait everyone has been waiting for..and I feel so so guilty..
I had to deal with holiday's not basically doing anything for them, I got no pictures of my kids during this time (they are open adopted out), then my 30th birthday came in January..I didn't do anything..it made me extremely depressed as I wanted to do something special. My daughters birthday came the 30th of January and again..I got nothing from it..
On-top of all this - THIS IS YOUR WARNING SKIP THIS PARAGRAPH IF YOU DON'T DEAL WITH PERIOD TALK WELL -
I get EXTREMELY bad periods, to the point that I am basically stuck in bed, I can't do ANYTHING..it is excruciatingly painful and its also very very heavy..so I'm constantly dealing with pain and that. I've had children, and I can compare this monthly pain close to labor.
So on-top of period stuff - I got SICK?? Or I think so? I started coughing so bad to the point of being unable to breath..my nose was runny/stuffy through some of this time. Absolutely NO sore throat during this time but a bad bad cough to the point my ribs felt like they were bruising or breaking..it was TERRIBLE..this lasted past my period..and until now..two weeks in..with a cough..the cough has gone down drastically thank goodness but this is also an embarrassing fact..I've had two kids..if you know anyone who's had kids they could tell you that accidents happen commonly..you have little bladder control when you've had kids..its TERRIBLE..ugh! So! With that said, I've had the worst time ever..its just been one thing after another.
Good news is that I have two appointments set up to see doctors on what's going on with my body..I also suffer from mental problems too..being depression, anxiety, bipolar and personality disorder. So please be as patient as humanly possible with me..I'm truly trying to get things done and also dealing with a LOT in my real life time..a lot lot lot..
Truly I'm trying, and after all is said and done I'll be taking no more commissions for a long time until I figure out what's going on with me and get things fixed..along with my apartment living situation..its been so rough..and I'm truly sorry.
Update:
For the past several days I've had immense foot pain, I'm unable to go to the ER I have to wait for the 22nd for my doctors appointment..I have no money for Uber..or else I'd just leave now.
Its been hard to move anywhere, I can't walk at all without help or a lot of support..and even then I have to use my foot to balance and walk and I'm using the side of my foot to walk.
I plan to document my visit to the doctors just to prove that I am not making this shit up..it keeps adding up and its just insane..when things go wrong they just..get worse I tell you.
I am almost 100% sure its plantar fasciitis which is an extremely painful foot issue in which I had in the past..I can't..walk..I legitimately can't walk. I have had my roommate basically take care of me for days now. He has to walk me to the bathroom, in the morning is the worst of times. He has taken my puppy outside for me, it took time but Cupid my pup has gotten used to him taking him for potty and doing fantastic.
I really been struggling..my depression has gotten to me bad..cause I feel helpless..My cough has almost completely disappeared..I made the call initially to get that checked out..looks like I fought it myself. Next step is to get this foot checked out, and figure out my heart problems.
On a more positive note, I'll be seeing an apartment complex on the 7th! So here is hoping something good comes of that visit and tour.
Thanks for all your understandings.
Update:
I just got home from doctors office, needless to say it was interesting with a lot of different things to look into.
I got my blood pressure done, had an EKG, tested my blood oxygen level, got blood drawn..and made an appointment for a breathing test at the hospital and I need an x-ray to see if I have a stress fracture in my foot.
Blood pressure: High but not dangerous
EKG: Not sure what the results were with that exactly
I had my blood oxygen tested by having a monitor on my finger and went walking around a few times - it went down quickly the first time around..then went up the next..so yeah..odd..
Blood drawing was fun..my left arm didn't give any blood at all..even after digging around..my right thankfully did..
Also, she checked the roof of my mouth to see if it was pale and it is very pale.
Needless to say I'm possibly still very anemic, fun.
I also might have asthma but not clear on that or something else is going on with that.
Here is a screenshot straight from the website for all my medical stuff from this office I go to! Pretty nifty and helpful for me.
https://gyazo.com/bb71480be35ac7cd21ef9bc21cc3137c
So there is the run down, nothing exactly great as far as news but..gives a general idea what I'm going through right now..and I also took some video for FB while I was there too..just don't want it to seem like I'm making stuff up..I'm also going to be seeing an eye doctor so I can get an exam and new glasses as well.
UPDATE:
Went to the hospital for my appointments - got my chest x-ray as well as foot
I also did a breathing test and at the end of that he gave me some medicine to help my lungs and did some more breathing tests.
I wont know anything until I see my doctor with the results..
I PROMISE I WONT SPAM POST AGAIN!
Posted 9 years agoLove you guys, sorry about that! XD
Needing serious help
Posted 9 years agoWell, I wouldn't normally do this..but I am in a situation in which is no longer healthy both mentally and physically.
I have uploaded pictures and video to this fundraiser, and I am now coming to FA to get a bit more of a boost..
https://www.youcaring.com/niccoleki.....andolph-736061
Please share too, anything helps. I'll also be doing adopts, and taking customs etc.
Or you can donate straight to my paypal here. https://www.paypal.me/SpandexPudding
I have uploaded pictures and video to this fundraiser, and I am now coming to FA to get a bit more of a boost..
https://www.youcaring.com/niccoleki.....andolph-736061
Please share too, anything helps. I'll also be doing adopts, and taking customs etc.
Or you can donate straight to my paypal here. https://www.paypal.me/SpandexPudding
Update on commissions
Posted 9 years agoThank you again for the patience, I have taken off all the commissions I've finished and the list is slowly going down. I am sorry for the long wait but lots of things happen in my life that I can't control..
I suffer from many mental illnesses and it does effect my day to day life.
I had an extremely hard Holiday season as I don't live near family nor do I really have contact with many family members as it is..and my children are adopted out (many many years ago now but its still hard to not receive pictures when I am suppose to be reviving more) so I didn't get anything from them..at all..and it really really hurt my feelings and sent me into a very big depressive state..which I'm still fighting..as my birthday is on the 13th (January) and I'll be 30..which for some may not be a big deal..but for me it is..and I'm trying to get some money together so I can have a decent birthday.
Lots and lots and lots..going on..like a lot..and I'm also trying to get some stuff done from a give away in a group I admin on FB being for a closed species..
So believe me I'm trying my hardest to do what I can right now, and I'm so sorry for the wait..things happen that I can't control..having multiple personality disorder, depression, and bipolar coupled with anxiety doesn't help matters..no it isn't an excuse and its not a fair excuse for you guys..but I'm genuinely trying.
The reason I am putting this out there is because I got multiple messages today regarding commissions, and I felt bad each time I got a message be it here or Facebook having to explain why its taking a little longer..
Again I'm super sorry, and I'm doing my best - trust me it'll all get done. Thank you~
This is my list of things to do click here.
I suffer from many mental illnesses and it does effect my day to day life.
I had an extremely hard Holiday season as I don't live near family nor do I really have contact with many family members as it is..and my children are adopted out (many many years ago now but its still hard to not receive pictures when I am suppose to be reviving more) so I didn't get anything from them..at all..and it really really hurt my feelings and sent me into a very big depressive state..which I'm still fighting..as my birthday is on the 13th (January) and I'll be 30..which for some may not be a big deal..but for me it is..and I'm trying to get some money together so I can have a decent birthday.
Lots and lots and lots..going on..like a lot..and I'm also trying to get some stuff done from a give away in a group I admin on FB being for a closed species..
So believe me I'm trying my hardest to do what I can right now, and I'm so sorry for the wait..things happen that I can't control..having multiple personality disorder, depression, and bipolar coupled with anxiety doesn't help matters..no it isn't an excuse and its not a fair excuse for you guys..but I'm genuinely trying.
The reason I am putting this out there is because I got multiple messages today regarding commissions, and I felt bad each time I got a message be it here or Facebook having to explain why its taking a little longer..
Again I'm super sorry, and I'm doing my best - trust me it'll all get done. Thank you~
This is my list of things to do click here.
Thank you for the patience
Posted 9 years agoI have a huuge list of things to do, but no worries everything will get done. I go from 10am-3pm art and I take Saturday and Sunday's to myself. Sometimes I have things going on during the day as well, such as appointments and such- as I do see multiple professionals for my mental illness's.
So thank you for the understanding and patience everyone has given me, seriously. :)
The list of commissions is shown on my journal which is pinned/featured.
It isn't in any specific order, but I am trying to go between everyone's stuff as much as I can!
So thank you for the understanding and patience everyone has given me, seriously. :)
The list of commissions is shown on my journal which is pinned/featured.
It isn't in any specific order, but I am trying to go between everyone's stuff as much as I can!
HOLIDAY PLANS
Posted 9 years agoSoo I got a lot of commissions to complete, but with the holiday here I got a lot to do.
I am leaving today to my mom's place which is a 3 hour trek, had to get everything I am bringing together and get ready etc. So that in itself takes time..xD
I am going to be baking pies and helping with my laundry that I'm doing there (cause the laundry mat here has been closed for over a month..Due to a fire..>_>)..so that'll take up a lot of time..but I will do what I can in between.
Friday I'm doing turkey and stuff so I will be helping my mom cook and what not so busy day!
I come back Saturday and will be working on art again (normally) by Monday. :)
So all in all, I'll do what I can while I'm away!
I am leaving today to my mom's place which is a 3 hour trek, had to get everything I am bringing together and get ready etc. So that in itself takes time..xD
I am going to be baking pies and helping with my laundry that I'm doing there (cause the laundry mat here has been closed for over a month..Due to a fire..>_>)..so that'll take up a lot of time..but I will do what I can in between.
Friday I'm doing turkey and stuff so I will be helping my mom cook and what not so busy day!
I come back Saturday and will be working on art again (normally) by Monday. :)
So all in all, I'll do what I can while I'm away!
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