That... was incredibly stressful. I think it took a total of 30 cumulative hours to sort through all the artists I could think of and fave their works. Mind you, my own internet connection at home was broken, so I had to do this in this recreation facility (as in computers and vidja games, not anything remotely sports-like). I could find a solid wi-fi and an outlet for my laptop just fine, but this place is NOISY. Even playing my favorite music at max volume, I could only hear every fourth note. I could also hear other people's games, especially those games that have the tinnitus effect when a grenade blows up near you. Just about every sound effect from that special-ops zombie-hunting game was equally grating. I've never liked first-person shooters, but now these games have a special place reserved in my heart for my hatred of them.

Doing this was long overdue, mostly because I had this strange idea that I needed to contribute more to the fandom before I had the "right" to do so. However, after three years of Army life, my give-a-fuck is broken, so I did it anyway. I still plan to contribute more--a lot more, hopefully. But, I'm glad I did this. I got to re-evaluate my interests and preferences, and I got to see how artists have grown over the years. I have a new-found respect for a lot of them--though there are far too many to list here, I'd like to give props to  elwolfo for his stunning expertise in anatomy even in his earliest works. Trust me, this is just the first of many shout-outs I just may give.

This project... is not quite complete, though. I have not just a suspicion but a damned certainty (however unproven it may be) that I've forgotten someone. It's gnawing at me and I can't remember who or what I've forgotten to look at. There are some works, too, that seem to have vanished and I dearly miss. However, this was a very extensive project and my eyes and brain are very tired.

So, about the next works coming up in the pipeline:
-There's one about a soon-to-be father whose son has a very big surprise for him. It's mostly done, maybe one or two pages left, but the main issue I'm debating is whether to do what I want to do with them or skip ahead to adulthood where the age issue is no longer a concern. I'm leaning toward the latter so that I can get it done and freely publish it here, though I may go back and make two versions. I just don't know, though.
-I've started one that goes inside the mind of a madman whose experiments upon a wildly unwilling test subject go a little too well. Vore to follow.
-Don't worry, folks, I haven't forgotten my other story lines. Daniel still has his final brother and his father to deal with,
-and I'm going to go back to the laboratory with Mr. Solomon, as well.
-Of course, I'm always open to other ideas...

Sooo, I'm working on a couple stories--ACTUAL stories. One's even in the vicinity of being done. In the meantime, I've decided that it's high time I went ahead and added juuuust a few things to my favorites. I'm doing it systematically. That is, alphabetically (unless I remember an artist I'm liable to forget later), scraps to gallery, oldest to newest. Doing this is a much more involving project than I had originally expected--then again, a huge chunk of my favorite artists are either right at the beginning or in that R-S-T range.

Going through everyone's art is quite an experience. A lot of it makes me reminisce--I've been lurking around FA for years, admiring others' skill and works from afar. I can't remember which website initially led me here, but I know I followed a number of artists from there. This was back in the day when a lot of great artists were pumping out artwork (and were still around). I'm beginning to miss them, even though I barely even knew them.  azrialmarburius,  danandnite,  danielkay,  icewolf,  scottbear, and  stupidgit were some of my very first artists here. They introduced me to all sorts of unknown and interesting kinks while displaying quality artwork. I wish I could chronicle my entire history here, but I don't even remember all of it. Either way, I'm glad that I've taken my first steps in actually getting involved here.

This is also making me realize just how much my tastes have changed. It makes me wonder if I wasn't as picky when I was younger or if I just have refined tastes now--I think it may be a little of both. I was surprised how much tame stuff I liked and how much I liked for its artistic value rather than catering to my kinks. I know for certain I'm much more knowledgeable about anatomy than I was when I first signed up.

I feel old now...

(for tl;dr, skip to bottom of post)

A few days ago, I stumbled across one of those "life hack" images--those things that tell you how to revolutionize your life in various ways, from simple fixes to major transitions. It was a bit generalized, but it had a lot of good points and it got me thinking about the way I was living. You see, I'm a bit of a sociophobe. My childhood was less than stellar (and while I've become quite skilled at psychoanalyzing myself, I'd rather not get into it today). So, I've developed into a rather socially-awkward, introverted hermit. The thing is, things don't usually work out so well, and even I get lonely sometimes. So, I thought I'd make some changes in my life. One of those changes was that I had to thrust myself out into the public more often. While I don't always like the prospect of social interaction, it is good for me. I happened upon a post someone made with a passing reference to Second Life, so I thought I'd give it a whirl.

Second Life is a giant social sandbox--from what I hear, you have near-unlimited ability to create. So, logically, people make porn there--lots and lots and lots of porn. Seriously, you can't walk too far in any given direction without running into something adult-themed. To be honest, I find this perfectly acceptable. This has become a world where people have become shockingly honest about their interests and can design their bodies just the way they like them. Sex on the street? I'm sure they practice that, though I haven't run into it myself. But at the core of it, it's people doing exactly what they want and interacting with--nay, CREATING--the world around them. I've read a lot about Second Life, and some of the concepts are absolutely fascinating. It has its own economy, which has some very interesting applications for the real-life economy. There's a real estate system that sells virtual land for digital or even real-life currency. SL can be used for marketing purposes, in which designers can create digital copies of their merchandise and sell it in the game. I've even heard of manufacturers who will create in real life items designed by the player. The applications and technological possibilities are endless.

However, I came to Second Life with two purposes in mind. First, I wanted to meet fellow furs. Second, I wanted to create (specifically muscular bodies) or at least buy. So, I set up my account and downloaded SL. Immediately, I set about customizing my avatar. While everything looked rather cartoonish at first, I was able to max out my body size and give the human a relatively handsome face. I looked at the furry avatars they had, but their heads were perfectly spherical and looked far too goofy to take seriously. I decided I'd need to buy what I wanted or design it myself. So, I began to venture out into the world--or at least tried to as I bumbled through the controls. I realized at this point that Second Life doesn't have much of a tutorial system (or if it does, it's hiding from me). In particular, I was frustrated by the space bar. Years of gaming has cemented in my mind that the space bar lets you jump... but that's apparently not the correct hotkey for this application. For the longest time, I thought I was missing something obvious, but I never figured out what it was.

My first mission, I decided, was to go find a shop and browse for a new body. I was only aware of two people who actually play Second Life, one of whom was  icewolf. At one point in time, Ice owned a shop in the Northstar Mall (I think it's called). So, I teleported there and began to browse around. What immediately impressed upon me was how open people were with both sex in general and their specific fetishes. In particular was a display featuring women with impossibly large breasts. While it made me hiss like a vampire offered a plate of Chicken in Forty Cloves, I admired its bluntness and the interesting 3-D effect it had as I passed. Granted, everything here was 3-D, but those breasts were like Mona Lisa, staring at you and smiling no matter where in the room you stood. It wasn't even close to what I was looking for, though. I ended up running three laps around both floors of the mall before deciding that Icewolf's stall might not be there anymore. Why should it? The post I was going off of was five years old. I gave up on the mall. As I was considering leaving, I ran into two different pairs of people, but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to go up and talk to them. In fact, I immediately hit the "fly" button and soared off in the opposite direction as fast as my gravity-defying powers could carry me. This was a source of shame for me, both at that time and in all future social-aversion flights to follow.

So, next I thought I'd check up on the other person I knew played SL,  omegey. I saw a picture of one of his mods, with the name of a gym in the background. I used the search function and teleported to a place where I thought it was. I ended up in a strange cave with stained-glass-window porn of surprisingly realistic women. Again, I admired the ingenuity and aesthetic quality of it, but it wasn't my thing, seeing how I'm strictly gay. So, once the building finished loading, I headed out to the street and began to fly around in search of the gym. I gradually began to notice a few things. First, the place had no lag whatsoever, but it took a long time to load. That is to say, the transition between teleports took no time at all and my character was able to move around immediately upon arriving with not even the slightest chunky animation... yet a lot of my surroundings appeared as flat polygons and heavily-pixelated graphics as the game tried to load so much data. It all eventually cleared up eventually, the longer I stayed in one place. Looking back at that, I realize it's a technological marvel and highly preferable to any other scenario. Second, I noticed that, while the land was full of architectural marvels, shopping malls, and all sorts of other buildings and furnishings, the place was nearly barren. I barely ran into anyone on my adventures. It felt like a post-apocalyptic world, only not a single building was in disrepair, there was no sign of an active war, and the majority of people must have been raptured right off the face of the earth. It was intensely creepy. Third, I couldn't find the damn gym, and that was because I didn't know what I was looking for, let alone where to look. I eventually got fed up and opened the search box. It was then that I realized I could search for individual people! Of course, I couldn't figure out where the specific people were at any given time or even if they were online (again, it still feels like I was missing something).

This search turned up the location of a shop Icewolf runs, so I teleported there straightaway. There I found what I was looking for, although Icey wasn't at the shop at the time. It was depressing, though, since everything cost money and I had no idea how to earn said money. I headed out to the forum outside his shop, where I saw a display for some sort of quest. In my dejection and apathy, I dismissed it on the premise of, "Huh? Maybe, whatever, I guess...". I had failed in my search for people and places and things, and the people I did come across I was far too timid to approach. I was just about done when I realized, "Hey, I can still create things, though, right?" So I looked for somewhere private where I could create things. I saw a button in the controls that promised to teleport me "home". Where did it take me? It placed me on a sidewalk near a building that couldn't possibly be mine. The way the game "told" me I was homeless was amusing but a little insulting. I flew around the futuristic buildings where I found myself and parked atop one of the transport-tube spires. I then began to look at ways I could create. I was operating under the theory that, while I suck at 2-D art, I'm pretty decent with bezier curves and might actually be pretty good with 3-D art if I put my mind to it. It would be a good skill to learn. So, I opened my menu, intent on doing some modding to create a new body. The problem was, all that I could see to do was create geometric shapes--objects, not bodies. I have to admit, I chickened out even at this and decided to call it quits for the day.

I'm not completely done with SL just yet. I might try to go back in and give it an honest effort again--who knows, I might even talk to someone this time. I'd like to learn how to earn money and create things (specifically body-modding) and just play the game in general. I'd love to meet as many of you in there as possible. But most of all, I'd really love how to jump and move the camera without using my laptop's track-pad. If, in the end, this doesn't work out, I'll go back to my usual writing and RPing, but I'd really like to learn about 3-D modeling programs.



tl;dr
1) I'm terrible at socializing and bring shame upon my family.
2) What are the keyboard shortcuts for jumping and camera controls?
3) Where the hoyle are the tutorials? This game doesn't have the best conveyance.
4) Is I can I has muskles nao? How do I make my avatar bigger?

This has been a minor annoyance of mine, but it seems to be widespread. A lot of people tend to misuse the "tags" found in submissions. They'll write entire sentences in there or deliberately put in tags that don't need to be there. When I include tags, I try to provide as much information about the contents of my documents as possible. This allows the reader to decide at a glance whether it's for them. It also allows people to find documents and pictures that suit their interests when they search for them. I don't know anyone who goes to FA to search for "of". I mean, it's surely possible, and I don't doubt it'll turn up a lot of hits. Searching for specific names is at least a little more likely, but that comes with vanity issues and I don't always know the name of the person I'm searching for. Deceptive tags are the worst, though. That ten-inch cock is well within the potential of human attainment--anything up to 14 inches is. You don't need or deserve a "hyper" tag. Considering this is a site for furries and some animals are a bit better endowed, you could be even longer and not be hyper. When I want hyper, I want something that can be measured in feet, preferably in double-digits. That little ruler of yours ain't gonna cut it. Come back when you have to tape several yard sticks together.

I suppose, though, that it's at least better than not enough tags or none at all. There needs to be a small amount of information that tells the viewer what they're getting into. At the very least, it should contain the genders of those involved (herms may need additional descriptors--more on that later), as well as any kinks that are well-known to squick people out (like scat and watersports... ew). Granted, if you've got a huge document that would make the Aristocrats realize they need a new act, you might not have space to include everything. At least try, though. The goal here is to HELP the reader--to give them as much information as possible.

Of course, some people don't seem to like that for some reason. This is especially true when it comes to roleplaying profiles on certain websites. Some people want others to come to them and talk to discover even the bare basics about their characters. Well, you know what? I'm socially awkward, and playing "20 questions" with a complete stranger or getting half-way into an RP before realizing you aren't compatible isn't exactly my idea of happy-fun-time. Here you have a perfectly good medium for expressing yourself, telling people at a glance everything they should know before getting into an RP with them, and helping them find their RP partner without uncomfortable discussions about uncomfortable topics... and you choose to say "fuck it". I suspect half of the reason is the sheer pride of having someone approach them. Believe me, I was once painfully shy and wanted the same thing. I tried letting others come to me, but that didn't happen very often and I felt even more alone than before. If you want something badly enough, you're going to have to put yourself out there--write a decent profile, for starters. If you want someone to roleplay with you, ASK them. The worst they can do is say no, and rejection isn't that bad.

Next up, herms. There are two reasons why I dislike herms. First, for many people, gender identities are simple. There are men, and there are women--got it. When you have to deal with transgender people, that line gets a lot trickier. You have to break these gender identities down into genetic gender, gender of genitalia, gender the person appears to be, gender that person feels s/he is, gender s/he dresses as, etc. Some herms mix and match, too. Then you have to apply the correct word out of a slew of terminology, and that requires an intimate knowledge of things that have a tendency of squicking people out. Cuntboi, futa, shemale, tranny... it can get confusing pretty quickly. Also, if you want to create a transgender character, you have to go through this process yourself and maybe even come up with a new term--and then explain it to someone else. I have exactly one character who is not 100% male. His name is Gruff. Genetically female, female genitalia, appears to be 100% male (muscles, body hair, no fembreasts), feels like he's a male, dresses as a male. I call him a cuntbara and explain this whole damn thing every single time. Why? Because even saying "man with a pussy" isn't good enough for some people to understand. In conclusion, nothing against transgender people, but I'm lazy and understanding you takes effort.

The second reason I'm against herms is because of the typical build I see, the typical build people think of when they hear the term. I'm talking about a female with a cunt, a hyper-cock, and huge, huge fembreasts. Have I mentioned how much fembreasts squick me out? The average herm, in a roleplaying scenario, their writing skills are noticeably below average and they focus on their own sexual pleasure. I say average twice because while there are always, always exceptions to the rule, this represents the VAST majority of the people I've personally seen in these forums and chat rooms. Now, while I can understand the need for sex (IF you keep the other person's pleasure in mind, and few people do that 100% of the time), but when that's all there is and there's no emotional context and the writing's crap, it's inexcusable. As big a slut as I can be, the things that turn me on more than anything else are dialogue, emotion, plot, context, and subtleties. You can have the biggest cock on the planet, but if your character can't engage me on that emotional level and you can't write for crap, there's little point.

Personal opinion: Sergals are ugly. I don't know what it is about them, but I'm intuitively repulsed by them.

By far, my biggest pet peeve: Kids Bop. This is NOT KIDS' MUSIC! Children do not need to be listening to lyrics that are clearly adult-themed. I was born into a generation when we sang "the itsy-bitsy spider" and stuff like that. Is that not good enough for kids these days? God, I sound old now.. I'm not even 30 yet, I swear!

Anyway, just felt like getting some of that off my chest. Most of this is personal opinion. If you love it, leave some love. If you hate it, hate on and move on.

Whoops, pressed "enter" way too soon on that last one.

Ahem...

First of all, I must apologize to several individuals who may be reading this, and you'll see why soon. I know that a lot of people have real lives to worry about--and their worries are justified. These take up time, money, and sanity: three resources that are in short supply in today's society. Real life should always come first, and I feel very guilty about putting any additional pressure on anyone. I know of a few people in those situations, and they have very reasonable excuses not to get my commissions done. I understand and accept this, especially since my commissions can be a bit complicated. I'm also very conflict-averse, which means I'm not very likely to hound after someone to get to work--it's against my nature and I'm not always comfortable doing it. I just don't want to feel like a landlord, knocking on artist's door and asking if they have the month's artwork. People hate that guy, and I don't want to be that guy. This is an open question to everyone: how long is it reasonable to wait and not say anything?

I've had to go door-knocking lately because a couple artists haven't spoken to me in 1-2 months. However, there's still another artist I have not yet contacted to because I'm afraid to do so. He already has my money and agreed to do the commission, but it's been almost 5 months now. The worst part is--the part that makes me recoil at the thought of even asking--is that he specifically told me not to ask. I don't want to say too much else about it--this is already fairly specific as it is. But I just don't know how to handle this situation...


That being said, I know it's been a few months since I contributed anything, too. Mind you, everything I've done has been for free, but still I have that nagging sense of "owing" something. Now, as a child, I disliked nagging, but I never really understood or appreciated it until adulthood, when there's no doting mother on your back forcing you to sit down and get to work. You have to be self-motivated there and fight against the sense of freedom, that "I can do whatever I want because I'm an adult now" sense. Sometimes I miss being nagged. It kept me honest with myself and I usually got things done if asked the right way. I guess what I'm saying is, I feel guilty for not giving you anything for a while, and here I am talking about how other people owe me. I want to remedy this. Does anyone want me to write anything? >.> <.<

There's a pretty big change coming up pretty soon in my life--namely, I'm coming off of my deployment to Afghanistan. I'm looking forward to:

-Seeing my family
-Getting some privacy/alone time
-Being away from all the crazies in my unit
-Interacting with people because I WANT to do so
-Getting on a normal sleep schedule (I've been working night shifts and barely sleeping during the day)
-Sleeping on a mattress whose springs don't dig into my back
-A sturdy internet connection
-Being able to walk to the bathroom without having to gear up and venture outside
-Civilian clothes
-FOOD! Real eggs and milk, stuff that isn't the same every week, eating out at restaurants!
-Cooking for myself... I've been jonesing to do this for a while now.

I'm sure I can come up with a list even longer than that, but right now I'm so excited to get out of here. I can't give any details about when or where, but it's soon...ish.

I'll try to work on putting out another story or two. I've got a lot of stuff swirling around in my imagination, but I've also got a lot on my plate and finding the time will be tricky.

In other news, I finally broke down and started to immerse myself in FA. For some reason, I kept telling myself that I wouldn't start watching or adding favorites until I was a true, accomplished artist--that I was giving back to the community as much as I was stalking/taking. Recently, I got tempted into watching someone, and so that sorta broke the wall down a bit. I'm still feeling very subconscious about it now because everyone else has so much talent and 3000+ watchers and I'm still just a minnow. I'm also positive I'm forgetting someone, and it's really worrying me that I can't remember the name. Then again, I tend to worry a lot.

Oh, and happy belated Mass of the Living Christ, everyone.

Well, it's been a few hectic months. Things are gradually beginning to wind down on my end, though it won't be for long. I'm not positive if I'll be able to get any writing done, but I'll see what I can do. Oh, and I have some news: I've secured a contract as a freelance writer for a certain MMORPG. It's not a paying gig and I still don't know what it's going to be like. It's something I'm very excited about and have wanted to do for a while now. Since the game's still in development, I won't say much about it except that it's child-themed. It'll be quite a challenge going from adult works to something PG.

So... yeah. Turns out I have money and I can buy commissions now. I promised myself I'd get a few works under my belt first so that I could feel like I was actually contributing, as I.. kinda have. I'm still discouraged by the small size of my portfolio, but I think I'm comfortable now asking for things. It feels weird, and I can't explain why, but it probably has something to do with my shyness and difficulty asking for things I want. On the other hand, I feel somewhat empowered by it. I feel like I'm The Commissioner, like I'm some sort of crime-fighter. I want a cape now.

The first commission I've gotten is from  Aokmaidu. He was pretty patient with me throughout the process, and I'm pleased with how it turned out. Stingmon's a personal favorite of mine from the Digimon series. I used to have fantasies about him, Leomon, and Ogremon. Leomon always gets a lot of porn made of him, but Stingmon and Ogremon are woefully underrepresented. I felt that I had to correct that.

Actually, I think I know why it's so strange commissioning people. I've been following Aokmaidu for a while now, and considering the quality and the subject matter that he usually creates, I guess I thought of him as something of a celebrity in the FA world. It's the same with others, too. I've been on FA for several years now, but all this time I was just lurking, until less than a year ago. Getting to talk to all these people I've watched for so long, meeting these "celebrities", it feels a little larger than life. On the other hand, I've heard some people praise my works and recognize me from my Daniel's Den series, and that's a little unnerving, too. Then again, I tend to be humble and even degrade myself a bit when I receive compliments, so I guess there's no winning there.

So, that brings me to this... I'd like to get more connected with the fanbase. I don't think I'm ready to open all lines of communication yet, but I would like to meet and do things with some of you all. Not physically yet--it's kinda hard to meet someone in Afghanistan--and I'm hesitant to give out my IM names to people I don't know very well. But if any of you frequent Eka's Portal (http://rp.aryion.com ), look up Tory, Gruff, Pred_du_Jour, or Ruse (that's in order of frequency). Also, if you want,, reply this journal and I'll scour your gallery and scraps folder. I'll pick out what I feel is your greatest work to date and may add it to my favorites.


Commissioner, AWAY!

So... yeah. Sorry... I haven't really done much of anything lately, have I? Much of my free time is spent on various sites doing RPs; I do like the lack of control, the collaboration of that. But I'm getting a little tired of that, and I'm considering writing again. There are certain events and circumstances that align to make me want to write things: disappointment from RPs, "breaking up" with roleplay partners, discontent with my procrastination, and a need for things that other people can't or won't provide. I'm finding myself in a mood where I crave productivity, and so I may begin to post things here again. There are certainly a few RPs that I've done that I can transcribe into a story, and there are millions of ideas floating around in my head that I want to get done on paper. I'm not going to promise anything or subject myself to some schedule--that usually makes me not want to write. So I'm going to try to be content with whatever progress I make and submit something here, even if it's a WIP.

Well, doesn't look like there's been much interest in my little project. I suppose half of it's because I haven't actually posted anything yet. I'm definitely going to be working on the rest of these stories and be posting them soon, don't worry. The other half of the reason is probably because I'm not all that well-known. Anyway, I figured it was too ambitious a project, but it did get my creative juices flowing again. Since there haven't been many people asking for things, I think I'll change things up a bit. I'm going to write stories for my friends, as sort of "Christmas gifts". Come the holidays, I'll post everything I have, and hopefully that'll get me back into the swing of things. Remember, you all can still make requests, and I'll do them as best as I can. Read my previous journal entry for details.

Hi all, I know I haven't been posting a whole lot lately, I know, and I really do wish to change that. I want to be honest with you all, because you deserve that. I've had plenty of time, and only a few things in the past months have prevented me from doing this. But the thing is, in sharp contrast to the rest of my life, when it comes to writing I lack dedication. I've been enjoying a lot of RPs over at YumChat as well as online with my friends, so it's not that I don't like writing--that isn't it at all. It's just a matter of sitting down and forcing myself to write. If I can start writing, usually I can go on for a very long time and not have any problems. So, I really want to change all this...

...by doing something incredibly stupid.

I'm going to attempt to write twenty-five stories in twenty-five days. That's right, one for every day leading up to and including the Mass of the Christ. I'm already down one day, and I'm completely unprepared for today, so it may be a while before I can get back on track. Now, of course, I don't expect to be able to do this all by myself. If you have any suggestions, look over there at that thingy. You know, the little hyperlink that says "comments" or something like that? You with me so far? Good.

Anyway, I'm not sure how many responses I'll get and there's no guarantee I'll accept a request even if I don't have that many. But, I'd like to push myself as hard as I can go. So, here are a few rules:

1) Please, be civil. Don't bash anyone else's ideas; be respectful to any and all posts you run across, even if they aren't "your thing". In the end, I'm the one who chooses whether or not to select them. I'm doing this as a challenge to myself and a favor to you all. I don't owe anyone anything, but I'll do the best I can to fulfill requests if they're reasonable. In short, just be excellent to each other here.

2) Please write at least a paragraph (five lines or more) suggestion. Be as detailed as you can, but I reserve the right to take creative liberties. I want to own your suggestion as much as you do--otherwise I wouldn't be doing it justice. If you leave details out, I may edit in my own personal preferences... though I'm sure some of you wouldn't mind that one bit. Just remember, your story may not come out exactly as you envisioned it--you've been warned.

3) There are some things that you can include that will make your request more tempting--hyper cocks and balls, huge muscles or fat, growth and size differences, domination/submission, oral/anal/cock vore, and gratuitous anal play being among them. These are just suggestions, not requirements. But what really will make your request stand out from the rest is originality, unique combinations (for example, a macro sub or a dommy bottom), and things you think will push me out of my comfort zone. That being said, there are some things that I will absolutely NOT write about:
-Scat, watersports, gore, and goo/slime: I find these things too disgusting, and I don't want to think about them when contemplating sexual situations. If these come up, I'll likely get sick and have to step away for a half hour or so.
-Soul vore: I have way too many moral, eithical, and practical objections to this. For me, I want there to be the possibility of another story with each character. I also can't completely end a life like that.
-Feminine breasts: I'm male and gay. I may be willing to play around with genders, and I can tolerate a vagina so long as everything from the chest and up appears to be 100% male and everything uses masculine pronouns (he, him, his, etc.) While I can handle most things that straddle the gender line, female breasts are too far over the line. I will refuse any offer involving this.

4) I'll be updating my journal often to let you all know my progress with both the project and the individual stories. If I select your request/suggestion, I will add it to the list in my journal. It will show the requester, a tentative title, a small blurb, and the progress. Note that they may not be in any order, and I can't give anyone a specific date as to when it will be done. When a story is finished, I will post it to FA for the entire public to view. I believe stories shouldn't just sit in one spot, gathering dust and never being read. I want my stories to be alive and to circulate. If you have a problem with this flow, sorry--I won't negotiate on this point at all.

5) Please... please pray for me during this. It's something I've never undertaken before and I already have my doubts about it. But now that I've made a public promise, I'm going to pressure myself to fulfill it. Any kind words and encouragement will help. So will any gifts of art featuring my kinks and/or characters. I... I know, I'm a whore... ><


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My schedule so far:
December 1: MISSED
December 2: Ready, set...
December 5: Yeah... umm, see, that's the thing about discipline... in that I don't have it. I did half a story, though, see? That counts for something, doesn't it? ...yeah, I didn't think so. I need more requests, though--doing stories for others puts more pressure on me, and I need that right now.

Works to be done:

Daniel's Den, Brother the Third
Requester: Sphaler
Daniel mates with yet another brother and discovers how being gay affects his identity and his image around others.
Status: brainstorming complete...ish...

Unconfined
Requester: Sphaler
I do a lot of roleplaying, and I'd like to write a story about how I wish all of my sessions would go...
Status: Found the remnants of it, dug it up, resurrected it and got half-way done, but then I ran into some difficulty where I started to dislike what I was making. 50% at the moment... kinda.

Change of Command
Requester: Reikonova
An alpha wolf used to being worshiped and obeyed comes across the fox of his dreams and finds himself unable to dominate.
Status: Three out of ??? pages

...okay. I originally sat down today to finally write a decent story or three. Then, failing that, I sat down to write a decent journal explaining why I didn't. Now I can't even manage that.

I'm really sorry, I'll have something better up soon, I swear...

I apologize again for the delay in getting out my second work. It's a little longer, and I'm going to try to get a third out before my extra-long weekend is over. So, let's hope that makes up for it. ^_^;;

So, where have I been? Well, I've been doing a lot of smaller roleplays lately with a few people I've met as of late. Some of them can be so creative... I'm just speechless. It's on a little, out-of-the-way site that a friend pointed me to. If you're eager to read my works but can't bear the wait, head on over there. It's called Yum Chat.

http://www.villichat.net/cgi-bin/yumchat/index.cgi

Anyway, I'm definitely going to start branching out. I started out kinda kinky, but compared to some of the things floating around in my mind, it's comparatively vanilla. For one, I'd like to introduce the character I play over in YC--my half-Native American, half-cowboy, absolutely colossal coyote named Sphaler. I'm going to try to get the back story for Darcello, too... but I'm thinking I might want someone else to handle him. What else, what else? Oh, yes--the next one I'm planning on putting out is vore-themed, so beware of shifting kinks. Don't worry, there'll still be plenty of sexy studs with a penchant for filling each other up.

I hope this latest installment is a little better. It's more plot-focused, and I tried to make my characters deeper rather than keep them archetypal, but part of me is paranoid that this injection of depth seems forced. Don't mind me, though; I'm my worst critic. I always think it sucks more than it does. ^_^;;