yeah... so if you haven't noticed, i have gotten a 3d printer thingy, and i have had it running pretty much non stop the last few months, and with this a bit of creative juices have seeped back into my life.. and i like it,

been sculpting in 3d, its kinda hard to pick up, and hair is an absolute bitch.... but im learning, maybe even thinking if people would like the idea ot maybe owning a model of their sona?

the only problem is setting a price, i never really got into commissions , and this is on a different level so i am kinda nervous..

anyway nice to hear from anyone who still watches me, ! you never know you may be someone who gets a practice piece someday!

wow.. 2 years since my last post..... hmmmm... anyone still watching me?

i found out confuzzled is coming round again, and was considering splashing out on a day ticket just to see whats going on, also im making a fursuit so wanna talk to peeps who do also,

so has anyone gone before and if so what did you do and would you reccomend it? (i live in birmingham btw so its like... 15 mins away)

feeling ok today so wanna do some long overdue colouring

http://www.livestream.com/drawingwithsqueak

gonna go for quick food but wont take long

its been two weeks since i was in A&E the muscle pain is kinda fading apart from in my bicep where it hurts like hell still, but now its a deep " inner bone " pain across my shoulder and back, thats the only way i can describe it, plus my left shoulder has just as much pain as getting out of bed and dressed is so hard, ( and im out of pills too :/)

what worries me the most, is that i still cant raise my arm to the outside, no matter how hard i try it just wont go, you can lift it for me, no pain, just hope its not nerve damage.. apparently theres a channel for a nerve in the shoulder but i dont know where (thanks google )

sleep is kinda out the window, if i lie on my left, my arm drops and that hurts, and if i lie on my back for too long, my shoulder hurts, so its little and often, sleeping through the day is weird,

still waiting on a letter from heartlands hospital for a appointment for a CT scan, if its not come by tomorrow ill give em a call methinks, its been a week, i wanna see how bad it is myself, the Dr who saw me was foreign and to be honest i was in there like 3 mins, so some insight into whats happening in my body would be nice,

i hope everyone at work is OK, I'm pulling my hair out as i am bored as feck, and sitting at home all day is just something i could not do permanently, id stab someone...

gonna see my grandad in the next few days, he could have a few days left or a few months, it was hard seeing my dad cry today, i cant remember the last time i saw him cry..

keep well folks,

so yesterday at work i took another tumble.. trying to change a light again

short story

i have a broken shoulderblade, on my dominant arm.

could be six to eight weeks minimum heal, then 6 months to a year rehab.

ijust feel like a useless bag of blubber right now... arms in a sling, cant do much...

im here kinda.. but things are kinda ummm.. unsteady....

i dont really wanna talk about it too much, but its to do with a member of my family and the situation isnt looking great, and to be honest i havent felt like drawing and when i do its nothing i can post on FA

im sorry to my freinds on here, but i still think you are all awesome, i just hope you can all forgive me when all the bad has gone..

wow 1200 submissions to sort through....

imma kinda back, my machine still not where i want it, got £260 out of the 600 i need,

havent been drawing too much, and my creative side is just not really urging me to draw

but im here..

did anyone miss me?

will be there on friday, cosplaying catshitone both days

i was at work most of it so... meh...

2 weeks to go....

and ill be another year older... one thing i hate is relatives asking what i like... cause the only things on my list at the moment are a complete new pc, and a cintiq... and somehow i dont think im gonna get those lol

anyway 5 weeks till expo and my fursuit /cosplay head is taking shape

oh and ferret http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rp3j.....p;feature=plcp

to my little misunderstood old gal, i am gonna miss you, and i hope i did the right things as a daddy..

i love you always have, always will

To my little angel,

Since the day you leapt off the vetinary table into my arms you have made me so happy. you always were there for me eagerly waiting at the cage door, ready to go wherever i took you, always out for an adventure.

the last six years have been the best, you shone when we went out in public, and did great things to show that ferrets arent bad, i have never been so proud to see you with kids, letting them stroke you and poke you and all you would offer is a ferrethug and a kiss..

im sorry i wasnt there at the end, i just hope i was a good daddy to you, because i will never forget you i miss you more than ever now, a chunk missing from my life, i wish i could have you back, id feed you all the rasins and let you dig an all the shoes you wanted...

i love you Brandi

you were the prettiest ferret around..

lots of love, cuddles and kisses

from your daddy