those who sent notes with hi and stuff

sorry i dont do RP or anything like that. if you want to sent hi messages just send them on my page or journals. i will likely to comment more there. any messages will get ignored on notes so.

maybe i should get a skype account so you guys can talk. shall i?

8,000 pageviews.
i just noticed it. funny as i dreamt about it but couldnt find out who it was that got my 8000. i got annoyed as i was going to do a pic for that person, but couldnt. that was 2 days ago i had that dream.

how weird

my job at the bookies, cleaning has now ended.
this decision was not theirs but my own. it was a tough decision to make but its for the better of my health, as i find it too much and i keep getting tired all the time. quitting it would help a bit (i hope)

im going to miss it, the people and the routine. it wasnt a bad job. its just everynight and and its 30 mins journey on the bus. so most of the moneys go to bus fare anyway. and i will get more benefits now as the job this year affected it big time. so now i will get a bit more and not having to worry about screaming chavs and drunken twats every friday and saturday night. will miss the night busdrivers though but i will see them during the day sometimes anyway.

talking of missing things one of my good friends has died. not sure how but my bf got a message on fagbook that his friend (and mine has died 2 days ago) it shocked both of us as we saw him not long ago.

he was the person who kept me company when i broke up with the scambag ex of mine. we watch austin powers and drank cider. i felt sick after having that. i will miss him lots. why is alcohol such evil stuff. (thats what i think got him. he did drink alot in the past and he was about my age)

F.A is working again on my laptop.

so now those who are expecting bday arts will get it soon and i will start it tomorrow as i have nothing i have to get done on the day (only the docs but thats at 4pm)

the next story will be up this week when i finish the last page and right it up on wordpad. then that will be done.

got 2 weeks left until i leave my evening job at the bookies, cleaning. its getting a bit too much for me mental health, working all the time. it will be good to have evenings off again. will look for another job nearer and not so many days. so i will start to do commisions now i has paypal sorted and i will do them once i leave the evening job. it will be cheap compare to some artists

hope you all doing ok. now fa is working again i have no excuse not to do art now. i will still use inkbunny and do weasel at some point too

in the name of squirrelette. im looking around for you if you are there so yoi can find me. i still be here though.

i tried to get online on FA on my laptop but google keeps crashing everytime i try and get on.

On my phone. its fine.(is using it now)
so it looks like i have to use my phone for now. i can upload on the phone so i can do that. the story will be delayed intil i find out why google or the laptop is rebelling.

It seems that  radioardilla has read the journal thanks to  BUSTER-LAPIN who i sent as the messager so he can see what i has to say.

And it worked. thanks you Buster for doing that for me. And radioardilla that journal has now gone that you seen it and sorted it out. (i knew you would deep down)

I maybe a bit ranty at times but im hopefuly hope to hear something from the docs next week. i have great friends and that is one thing that does keep me going. sometimes i think they have deserted me but i was wrong. im just a bit impatient (aires thing) sorry for any trouble i cause everyone.
i gave up with facebook but im on twitter now and you can follow me there (not many negative comment there. but random stuff) EveSquirrelette for anyone that wants to follow me.

If i do anything silly or get really down and dramatic. just be patient. it will soon pass.just tell me off nicely. ok

I feel alot happier now that this is sorted out

here you go. finally get round to uploading them http://www.flickr.com/photos/97279295@N04/
feel free to download them.
if you see a pic of yourself, feel free to uploaded here or facebook,twitter ect

i thank all those who were at cf last week. I met alot of awesome people old and new. so i thank you all for hanging around with me, taking pictures, hugging me and just being nice. I THANK YOU ALL.

but it was not enough. When i got back i started to get worse. my tiredness was bad.(even with lots of sleep) it didnt make me much better. now the numbness started to get worse that my bf had to call ambulance. lucky not serious pysically. Its more of a mental thing.

right now in a nervous breakdown state with the 8th of the day coming in. my bf will be here shortly so he can call the crisis team(for mental emergancies)

sorry for being morbid. i did have a good time at cf

those who are on there way now. hope your journey be a safe one, with no delays, ect.

I'm hoping this year is going to be better (last time was good too) its going to be good because....

1. many people have seen me now in suit and without. so many will reconize me with the bright orange suit.

2. I know what to expect there (but is in a different location that the last one i went to) but i know its going to be as good.

3. no going cold turkey. My pills are packed this time. (last time i forgot...) so i shouldnt be getting them withdrawal symptoms. only the side effects from the tables im on now.(lets hope it doesn't stop me or get worse)

4. has more money. so i can buy more arts from people than i did last time. and i wont have to worry about getting short for rent as its all up to date now.

5. better travel. well i hope this year there are no delays on trains and ferries. going through london will be a pain in the butt. but i will ask when i get to london of what trains to get underground as last time i was all over the place.

6. better fursuit. and it has the robe ect so i shouldnt be too much of an introvert. but now im familiar with some furs i should be ok. i did feel a bit lonely last time but i was new and with depression kicking in it was hard.

7. im sharing other other furs so i wont be lonely in a room. bit nervous as the room mates are male. but im sure they will look after me and are nice people.

8. im invited to a room party!!


note- if i seem abit down at the con. it would be i be missing my mate. so dont worry. feel free to give me hugs if i look depressed. i be happy to talk to anyone as well when they feel down or happy.

now i can get back to the stories.

i have taken photos of it so you can see what it looks like.
stories may come quickly so be prepared for any art floodage. (if there is one)

only 10 days now to go

to put a bady pic up, then i will get back to sewing the robe.

fursuit is nearly done and half way through the head. (run out of glue stick as i bought a glue gun. need to buy some more tomorrow. then i can finish the foam base then the rest shouldn't take too long). be done by next week.

so i be back then with more of them stories.
hope you guys are doing ok. will see it i can get on fa on my new phone :D

badges ive comissioned people for and will pick up at cf

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/10457410/ but  Charlie_B

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/10450207/ by  Lapres

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/10367063/ by  vashy_wings and  Booshie

if you want good commisions then these people are worth it. check the out

Been very busy getting things sorted and ready for cf. Now its only a month away there are still things I need to do. some have been done

I.D (passport renewed back in March so 'one important thing done)

Travel- Due to one of the Hants furs going early and in going the day after i was going to get lift but now has to find her own way. so need to book them train tickets NOW!! ferry i can do when i get there. (update. tickets booked for the train) DONE

Fursuit-

head- going to remake. still to do

body- resown in harder thread. fur added between the legs so legs can move freely and no seams come off there XD DONE

tail.-resown and with added stuffing (used a single duvet and pillow stuffing) DONE

hands- resown. felt for pads and claws sewn tighter awesome were coming off. DONE

feet- redoing feet. using the same shoes and now has foam to make the look better now as it is easy for me to get now. currently doing them now and it looks good so far. much better than the flat ones i did last time.

robe- still to do

hooded cape- done a month ago. done using a old white sheet and dyed it.

staff- still to do.

Buy bits- got toiletries all packed. only need to pack clothes and fursuit.

so wont be dong much art for a while until i get this fursuit and costume done. will take a pic when its done

losing my internet dongle last week so that's why i haven't been able to put the next 2 chapters on. got quite upset that i couldn't put it up for you. i think it got accidently fell in a bag or rubbish or sucked in the vacuum cleaner while i was cleaning under my bed.
now has bought new ones and able to pay some commissioners for my cf badges too. making them wait for the money. bad me. now they has their money as now i has a new paypal account due to i cant get into the old one and had forgotten what i put in the questions they give you. im so forgetful ^^;
i shouldn't forget now. and has a new email address too which i would use for commissions and paying people.
i should go and do some food shopping now. will upload story later when i done the shopping

its my bday today.
just to let you know

What is your gender?
female of course

How old are you?
30 but be 31 in 7 days time from today

How tall are you?
5'5"

Are you in a relationship?
yes. to a non fur and shall misses him when i go away. or maybe not :D

Where are you staying?
in the hotel

What day are you getting there?
on the day. i thought was friday and paniced thinking i need to pay an extra night as they extended the day. so its all o.k so be leaving thursday. stil need to book the time off work anyway but it falls on Derby day so they wont be happy for me to have that off.

Who will you be with?
im getting a lift from a hants fur but i mostly be on my own but will be everywhere meeting anyone who wants to meet a bright orange squirrel

Do you have art in the art show?
no

What suit(s) will you have?
only the one and is in the middle of redoing it. making new feet, head, resewing the body. tail now has more stuffing on and it resown. has a lot ot do in the next 6 weeks. im even doing the robe and hooded cape. cape done. needs dyeing. so will have a full suit with the costume.

Can I dance with you?
of course you can. we can dance together :D

Can I touch you?
yes as long as its not in a rude way

Can I talk to you?
yes. feel free to talk about anything and everything :D

Can I hug you?
hell yes <3 i shall hug you back

Can I take photos of you/with you?
go ahead. feel free. i shall be taking photos too :D

Can I buy you lots of drinks?
if you want, but im no alcohol drinker.

Do you drink Alcohol/Smoke?
no. both are poisonous to me

Can I give you lots of money?
why would you want to do that?

Can we hang out?
yeah. if you want me to hang out, i be happy to be in with some company :)

Where will you be most of the time during the con?
taking photos, dancing, eating, talking to people, buying art, helping out, doing some events and sleeping.


Who are you rooming with?
not sure yet. im not fussed on who i share with as long as they are nice people

Attending any events?
loads but not sure on which ones yet until i get there

How can I find you at the con?
you cant miss a bright orange squirrel XD

Are you doing anything in line with the theme?
i got my wizard robe and that. im even making the rod ready too :D

Its been a busy 2 weeks
1. staff training at the camp again. 2 days of being sat down with the same stuff they go on about every year. The same booklets and more doodles inside it. will scan sometime this week
2. housemates annoyed and complained about me using the hoover. I make it smell!
so thats put me in a venting mood for a while
3. mothers day fell so had to go and give mothers present
4. fell ill with a bad cold last sunday so i had to phone sick. no work for me. i couldnt sign on either. luckily i just did a sick form and was excused.2 days of the rotten stinker :(

Im back now and will do the story once again. :D
CF meme coming up as well

just looked at the pageviews and had reached 7024.

THANK YOU ALL!!

trades and request open (even though im always open to trades and requests if you ask)
has 2 week still left from rest from work, and i had 3 weeks holiday pay left so is using them up this week and the next two weeks im free to do things like that and will get them done quicker.

the next chapter will be up tomorrow as all pic for it are done. just got to write the story on computer and that will be done.

AND I THANK YOU GUYS AGAIN FOR WATCHES, FAVES, COMMENTS. I GET MORE OF THAT HERE THAN ON FAGBOOK XD

good
* we had snow so it was a good change to take some pictures (see my facebook for more. feel free to add me http://www.facebook.com/squirrelette )
* done my form and that so now back at the camp again this year. grrrrr
* the mate has moved down the road in a shared place. woot

bad
* depression strikes again. feel more tired and the gp upped my dose so is feeling worse again.
* the mate has messed about with plans again so i wasnt happy and we nearly broke up. but we didnt.
fa stats
newbie of the month  iDaxter
fave of the month http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9741847/
fanarts of the month http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9630523/
most faves of the month http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9742284/
watcher count now 241 was 238. you do the math

thast all from last month. bit late for doing it now -__-

Anyone been reading the new story posted by a lot of pictures with it?
this is the story based on my life and dreams that i have. some good, some bad.

what the story is about.
so far you had seen the prologue and the first chapter.
prologue is just the start of it all. looking at the rain, thinking of all the bad things, think how can it all end.
this story is that. a red squirrel who has a hard life tries to overcome her fears and past to make things better.

so far you had seen the birth and the baby squirrelette living in her toddler age, trying to find out about her father. with courage to help and guide her, she now know how this darkness has formed.

the next part i wont tell you much but something does happen and i need some volunteers out there to help stop an evil beast http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7593712/
if you want to be in the next chapter then comment now. i may use some of them comments here if you are going to be in the pic and you commented in the beast pic above.

let me know by saturday so i can put it up for sunday.

pics with story.
the reason i did so was top make it less boring for people to read as a stroy with no pic might be too long and boring. no offence to story writers. not many like to read stories and like to see more pictures. thats why i did that idea. and it helps me write more in the story as well.

so now you know

want a birthday gift from me.
all you need to do is comment and tell me when your bday is so i can do you a pic for the day.

this year im going to do conbadges. those who received gifts from me last wont need to do this as i have already written on the calender the dates.

so tell your bday now so i can write it on the calender

so what did the year 2012 bring?

best of 2012

*moved out my mums and moved into a small room in a big place.still there now and it will nearly 1 year that i have been there (jan)

*re took math and english and had passed them and a i.t thing as well.(jan-may)

*did a 8 mile walk for charity and raised 64 pounds english money. hope to do that again this year. maybe in suit.(May)

*carnivals have been good and seen a few of them. i even met my mate there and we got together 3rd aug. been together since(jul-sept)

*love had struck me like lightning.done many things with the mate,been places, people to see and its good to know my family get on well with him.

bad

*had a back injury. (a pulled muscles due to sleeping on a sofa and carrying heavy bags at work) its fine now. but it was sure fun bending down slowly and cleaning toilets with it

*work had no electric for 2 months so was on a generator. so was hard to get things done but only worked 30 mins due to it.

*depression at worst due to bad events happened the following year. even been to the shrinker and been tested for any other mental health issues. just anxiety and manic depression.

*been ill with flu one week i went to work and couldnt stay long to finish. had a nauseating headache thing as well. fatigue got me too. been so bad with it i felt weak and achey. fatigue still an issue and i will go to the docs and sort it out.

*harsh weather came. rain was the worst and cold temperatures as low as -15. floods were making the roads wet so nothing can go through them. winds were strong too. still is a bit. i just wish it wasnt so cold

ok that bit done.

page views 6740
so i dont know what it was before (about 5000 or something) so i got 6000 pageviews this year. hopefully more.

watchers at start 150
now 238
total 88 watchers this year.

pic of the year http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7655514 faves 32
fave of the year http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8366529/
fanart of the year http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7254606/
was very difficult to choose. so will do a journal of top 10 fanart pics ever soon

last years goals and ambitions
1.Find a place to live (x)
2.Find a better job ( )
3.Finish the maths course (x)
4.Improve art (x)
5.Play more guitar ( )
3/5 is good i guess.

this years goals and ambitions
1. get a good job
2. play more guitar
3. re do my fursuit and get passport done in time for cf this year
4. get my mental health sorted
5. do more art

hopes you all have a good year this year

Good points
*christmas was great. spent playing games with my sisters and their bfs. we had a great laugh, food and presents

*xmas art last month was tree decorations and 41 entries came. so most of december was doing art as well as shopping, seeing my mate, washing ect.

Bad
* depression strikes at the start of winter and my bf decided not to go to a fun day in town so it has wrecked the day a bit

so what has been happening on FA?

recent watcher- PeppermintDemise

watchers-238 19 watcher this month

fanart of the month(one drawn of me for me)http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9403386/  sqrl

fave of the month http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9450199/  fredvegerano

pic of the month(the most faves)http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9400501/

a yearly reveiw coming up shortly