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Posted 12 years agoGot myself a new icon!
You like?!!!!
You like?!!!!
Status update
Posted 12 years agoStill feeling terrible, I don't know when I'll be able to be active again.
I'm really sorry to bring this upon my watchers, you guys rock and I'm not trying to punish you guys with my stupid anxieties.
I've been drawing a lot, I might upload some of it in a week or so.
I'm going to try to stay offline as much as possible, for my own health.
Again I'm really sorry guys, you are really great for sticking by me in my time of need. I'm just trying to protect myself for now. I'll do my best to get better soon.
I'm really sorry to bring this upon my watchers, you guys rock and I'm not trying to punish you guys with my stupid anxieties.
I've been drawing a lot, I might upload some of it in a week or so.
I'm going to try to stay offline as much as possible, for my own health.
Again I'm really sorry guys, you are really great for sticking by me in my time of need. I'm just trying to protect myself for now. I'll do my best to get better soon.
Break
Posted 12 years agoHey guys I think I just need to take a break from FA for a little bit
I'm not dead or anything, nothings happened
But I just need to take a break from internet for a little while
My inspiration and drive is so low at the moment and most things just feel bland and trite.
I guess this is a part of the journey to finally love myself, and getting caught up over stuff on FA is just distracting at the moment.
Maybe later in January I'll feel a bit more inspired to draw fun things again.
If I talk to you often on skype or something you'll have no need to worry I'll still be on that.
Uh anyway
bbl!!!
I'm not dead or anything, nothings happened
But I just need to take a break from internet for a little while
My inspiration and drive is so low at the moment and most things just feel bland and trite.
I guess this is a part of the journey to finally love myself, and getting caught up over stuff on FA is just distracting at the moment.
Maybe later in January I'll feel a bit more inspired to draw fun things again.
If I talk to you often on skype or something you'll have no need to worry I'll still be on that.
Uh anyway
bbl!!!
Art advice
Posted 13 years agoHey you guys
Does anyone have advice for my work? Go ahead and look through my gallery, I welcome critique.
I just really dislike my art and I'm feeling kind of unmotivated especially with my roommate situation (finally clearing up!)
Anyway, I just really need to improve. I really loathe where I'm at.
Thanks guys!
Does anyone have advice for my work? Go ahead and look through my gallery, I welcome critique.
I just really dislike my art and I'm feeling kind of unmotivated especially with my roommate situation (finally clearing up!)
Anyway, I just really need to improve. I really loathe where I'm at.
Thanks guys!
Roommate update
Posted 13 years agoI am currently living on a different floor in a single room until I move out in January.
The girls I share the suite with seem nice, I've only met two so far and they're pretty cool so far.
Anyway so I moved out of my room this evening, simply because I could not live in that suite a day-hour-MINUTE longer.
After class my (bad) room mate stopped me to tell me basically that I am a terrible person for telling Res life about her relationship with the RA (I was mostly concerned because he was revealing confidential information to her, which is sorry, a pretty big deal), and proceeded to tell me how much she HATED me and that she couldn't wait for me to move out.
At first I brushed it off and I was fine, but then I remembered that I was still living with her. Then I started to cry. That turned into sobbing and then escalated into a severe panic attack.
tried desperately to calm me down. I couldn't stop hyperventilating, it was really scary. I was afraid that she or the RA would try to get back at me and I feared for my safety.
And rationally speaking, she probably won't physically attack me or my property, but my anxieties aren't exactly rational. I can't stand to look at her, it makes me upset.
Res life told me that they're going to talk to her about her behavior. I kind of don't want them too, I just never want to have any kind of interaction, whether it be direct or indirect, with her again.
If this were high school it'd be no big deal, but tension like this just isn't the same as the shit that went down in high school. I have to LIVE with them. I can't do that.
My suggestion to everyone, don't ever live with a "party girl"
EDIT: According to who is still on their floor, they are making fun of me for moving out. aha. Ahahaha. AHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA.
Well good luck to them I guess.
The girls I share the suite with seem nice, I've only met two so far and they're pretty cool so far.
Anyway so I moved out of my room this evening, simply because I could not live in that suite a day-hour-MINUTE longer.
After class my (bad) room mate stopped me to tell me basically that I am a terrible person for telling Res life about her relationship with the RA (I was mostly concerned because he was revealing confidential information to her, which is sorry, a pretty big deal), and proceeded to tell me how much she HATED me and that she couldn't wait for me to move out.
At first I brushed it off and I was fine, but then I remembered that I was still living with her. Then I started to cry. That turned into sobbing and then escalated into a severe panic attack.
tried desperately to calm me down. I couldn't stop hyperventilating, it was really scary. I was afraid that she or the RA would try to get back at me and I feared for my safety.And rationally speaking, she probably won't physically attack me or my property, but my anxieties aren't exactly rational. I can't stand to look at her, it makes me upset.
Res life told me that they're going to talk to her about her behavior. I kind of don't want them too, I just never want to have any kind of interaction, whether it be direct or indirect, with her again.
If this were high school it'd be no big deal, but tension like this just isn't the same as the shit that went down in high school. I have to LIVE with them. I can't do that.
My suggestion to everyone, don't ever live with a "party girl"
EDIT: According to
who is still on their floor, they are making fun of me for moving out. aha. Ahahaha. AHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA.Well good luck to them I guess.
Roommate update
Posted 13 years agoI am currently living on a different floor in a single room until I move out in January.
The girls I share the suite with seem nice, I've only met two so far and they're pretty cool so far.
Anyway so I moved out of my room this evening, simply because I could not live in that suite a day-hour-MINUTE longer.
After class my (bad) room mate stopped me to tell me basically that I am a terrible person for telling Res life about her relationship with the RA (I was mostly concerned because he was revealing confidential information to her, which is sorry, a pretty big deal), and proceeded to tell me how much she HATED me and that she couldn't wait for me to move out.
At first I brushed it off and I was fine, but then I remembered that I was still living with her. Then I started to cry. That turned into sobbing and then escalated into a severe panic attack. tried desperately to calm me down. I couldn't stop hyperventilating, it was really scary. I was afraid that she or the RA would try to get back at me and I feared for my safety.
And rationally speaking, she probably won't physically attack me or my property, but my anxieties aren't exactly rational. I can't stand to look at her, it makes me upset.
Res life told me that they're going to talk to her about her behavior. I kind of don't want them too, I just never want to have any kind of interaction, whether it be direct or indirect, with her again.
If this were high school it'd be no big deal, but tension like this just isn't the same as the shit that went down in high school. I have to LIVE with them. I can't do that.
My suggestion to everyone, don't ever live with a "party girl"
The girls I share the suite with seem nice, I've only met two so far and they're pretty cool so far.
Anyway so I moved out of my room this evening, simply because I could not live in that suite a day-hour-MINUTE longer.
After class my (bad) room mate stopped me to tell me basically that I am a terrible person for telling Res life about her relationship with the RA (I was mostly concerned because he was revealing confidential information to her, which is sorry, a pretty big deal), and proceeded to tell me how much she HATED me and that she couldn't wait for me to move out.
At first I brushed it off and I was fine, but then I remembered that I was still living with her. Then I started to cry. That turned into sobbing and then escalated into a severe panic attack.
tried desperately to calm me down. I couldn't stop hyperventilating, it was really scary. I was afraid that she or the RA would try to get back at me and I feared for my safety.And rationally speaking, she probably won't physically attack me or my property, but my anxieties aren't exactly rational. I can't stand to look at her, it makes me upset.
Res life told me that they're going to talk to her about her behavior. I kind of don't want them too, I just never want to have any kind of interaction, whether it be direct or indirect, with her again.
If this were high school it'd be no big deal, but tension like this just isn't the same as the shit that went down in high school. I have to LIVE with them. I can't do that.
My suggestion to everyone, don't ever live with a "party girl"
Tears everywhere!
Posted 13 years agoSeems like a lot of people I know have been crying today.
Eeegh today is stressful wow. I really hope I can move into my new apartment on the 2nd.
Guh trying really hard to stay calm and keep my head above water for the rest of the week.
Eeegh today is stressful wow. I really hope I can move into my new apartment on the 2nd.
Guh trying really hard to stay calm and keep my head above water for the rest of the week.
FWA?!!
Posted 13 years agoHey guys I'll be going to FWA this year, so if you wanna hang out look out for me!
Also, will anyone be driving through louisville or KY on their way down to the con?
I could just take a bus but I would much rather ride with some one. I will help with gas!
Also, will anyone be driving through louisville or KY on their way down to the con?
I could just take a bus but I would much rather ride with some one. I will help with gas!
Sketch Commissions!
Posted 13 years agoHi guys!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9390001/
I'm taking full body sketch commissions for $4, $3 for anything smaller.
Add $2 for extra characters!!
Thank you!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9390001/
I'm taking full body sketch commissions for $4, $3 for anything smaller.
Add $2 for extra characters!!
Thank you!
ANXIETY NOOOOOO
Posted 13 years agoAfter having a minor panic attack a minute ago everything is making me super jumpy.
I can hear my room mates just outside my room and it makes me anxious. I have to keep my door locked because I don't want them to deface my GOOD roommates stuff. They're the kind of people that would do that.
I'm also terrified that I'm a bad friend but I don't want to be aggggh.
I've had this eye twitch for probably a month now! ;m;
I can hear my room mates just outside my room and it makes me anxious. I have to keep my door locked because I don't want them to deface my GOOD roommates stuff. They're the kind of people that would do that.
I'm also terrified that I'm a bad friend but I don't want to be aggggh.
I've had this eye twitch for probably a month now! ;m;
Room mate issues
Posted 13 years agoI'm SO glad that I'm moving out in a month.
So the one roommate that I do like is getting bullied by both the RA and our other two room mates.
I don't stand for bullies, especially since she did the right thing and reported that there was drug trafficking going on in our apartment.
If it was any other school, my other roommates would've been arrested, I can't believe that they're still here after all the rules they've broken. I guess it helps if you're sleeping with the RA.
Hm.
So the one roommate that I do like is getting bullied by both the RA and our other two room mates.
I don't stand for bullies, especially since she did the right thing and reported that there was drug trafficking going on in our apartment.
If it was any other school, my other roommates would've been arrested, I can't believe that they're still here after all the rules they've broken. I guess it helps if you're sleeping with the RA.
Hm.
Weasyl!!!
Posted 13 years agoCome follow me on Weasyl!
I've had it for a while, but I've forgot to put a journal up about it
whoops <w >
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/honeydew
I've had it for a while, but I've forgot to put a journal up about it
whoops <w >
https://www.weasyl.com/profile/honeydew
blocked
Posted 13 years agoI'm having trouble drawing anything personal at all
It's like I think of an idea and get to scared to even work on it. So I don't even start or anything.
I feel like everything I draw in class looks like a toddler did it. It's such shit.
It's like I think of an idea and get to scared to even work on it. So I don't even start or anything.
I feel like everything I draw in class looks like a toddler did it. It's such shit.
Fursuit advice
Posted 13 years agoHi all!
For the longest time fursuit making has given me a lot of anxiety, because I've never been sure if my final product is of high enough quality.
Is there like a set standard that fursuits should all follow as far as quality?
Are there any really good tutorials or videos that I can watch that'll help me understand what customers should expect out of a suit?
I know these are all general questions but I just feel like everyone else knows what to do to make a suit high quality and I'm sort of left out of the loop about it.
For the longest time fursuit making has given me a lot of anxiety, because I've never been sure if my final product is of high enough quality.
Is there like a set standard that fursuits should all follow as far as quality?
Are there any really good tutorials or videos that I can watch that'll help me understand what customers should expect out of a suit?
I know these are all general questions but I just feel like everyone else knows what to do to make a suit high quality and I'm sort of left out of the loop about it.
*swoon*
Posted 13 years agoI'm having a tricky time drawing
bleh
bleh
I hate this
Posted 13 years agoMy room mates are horrible
I want to move out before I kill myself.
Anyone have any hilarious room mate stories to share? I need a good laugh, and I need to know if this'll eventually become a hilarious thing.
I want to move out before I kill myself.
Anyone have any hilarious room mate stories to share? I need a good laugh, and I need to know if this'll eventually become a hilarious thing.
When a bitch gets an attitude...
Posted 13 years agoCheese and Rice, some of the students have already developed some serious ego's.
It's really painful because I KNOW that I'm much more advanced than these people and I still really hate what I produce.
The faculty really need to start breaking some hearts and humble these shit heads.
It's really painful because I KNOW that I'm much more advanced than these people and I still really hate what I produce.
The faculty really need to start breaking some hearts and humble these shit heads.
Things to work on
Posted 13 years agoI'm making this journal more for myself < w>
Little things:
Homework
inking and coloring final action commission
Doing figure gesture drawings everyday
Medium projects:
Finish Hallows
Start small graphic novel
Work on small illustration series
Big projects:
Develop artistic voice and confidence!
Little things:
Homework
inking and coloring final action commission
Doing figure gesture drawings everyday
Medium projects:
Finish Hallows
Start small graphic novel
Work on small illustration series
Big projects:
Develop artistic voice and confidence!
Poverty
Posted 13 years agoSo I found out today that I only have about $170 to my name
It's pretty scary.
I'll be taking commissions, I'll make a price sheet later this week.
So if anyone is wanting some art from me let me know
It's pretty scary.
I'll be taking commissions, I'll make a price sheet later this week.
So if anyone is wanting some art from me let me know
Finances
Posted 13 years agoI can't even access my own bank account.
Wonderful.
Also I'm still sick and I feel like crying.
I really hope I can get a refund on the sergal fursuit items I purchased. That would help so much right now.
I am going to work on commissions as soon as I'm feeling a bit better, I'm just so sick right now I have no idea if I can promise quality or not.
Wonderful.
Also I'm still sick and I feel like crying.
I really hope I can get a refund on the sergal fursuit items I purchased. That would help so much right now.
I am going to work on commissions as soon as I'm feeling a bit better, I'm just so sick right now I have no idea if I can promise quality or not.
WAIT TILL YOU SEE MY DICK
Posted 13 years agoSo my buddy 
-alexx- is in a need of money.
If you're interested in inexpensive graphic work you should take a look at his stuff
He is also doing a stream!
http://www.livestream.com/drawingwithalexx
You should be cool and check it out
Mwah!!
-alexx- is in a need of money.If you're interested in inexpensive graphic work you should take a look at his stuff
He is also doing a stream!
http://www.livestream.com/drawingwithalexx
You should be cool and check it out
Mwah!!
Funky gunky
Posted 13 years agoShit I'm really sick
Happy burtday to me
Happy burtday to me
Taking emergency Commissions!
Posted 13 years agoHey guys I really need some extra money bad right now.
I can basically do anything you want digitally right now.
If you point me to anything in my gallery that you like I can give you price and we can go from there.
But I would specifically like to do cartoony/actiony things like this
example
It would be about $10
Thanks guys I really appreciate it!
I can basically do anything you want digitally right now.
If you point me to anything in my gallery that you like I can give you price and we can go from there.
But I would specifically like to do cartoony/actiony things like this
example
It would be about $10
Thanks guys I really appreciate it!
School
Posted 13 years agoBoy howdy school sure is tough. I need to get better at everything!
Sorry I won't be updating much guys, I'm drawing all the time but no scanner in my dorm.
Sorry I won't be updating much guys, I'm drawing all the time but no scanner in my dorm.
one whole year
Posted 13 years agoTomorrow is mine and agnusdei's one year anniversary.
This is really amazing. It doesn't even feel like a year but it has been.
I love him ahh.
agnusdei's one year anniversary. This is really amazing. It doesn't even feel like a year but it has been.
I love him ahh.
