Hiyo

the father of my girlfriend celebrates his 50th birthday and he invited us to come. I wouldn't be able to post any artwork until next sunday.

hope to see you soon.

best,
Steve

I wish to everybody a wonderful holiday time. celebrate with your friends and family and iof course I hope you got some awesome presents =)

Hi,

I seriosly feelin very down right now. I tried to make good pictures, I tried to do my best, but I still feel I just can't wake real interest for any pictures.

Oh sure, something is free so we want it, but a serios interest? NO!

I feel like I got sucked out. So Screw it. Screw it all...!

Actually, I should be fine, but the last few days I often find myself here, as I obviously worse off. I do not know why. I do not know what I should change. My Christmas Avatars go well, it seems everyone is happy .... But .... how come I can not believe it still. I have a feeling I only get the praise because I give away something, and inside they think the drawings are just as shit. No idea. I have to make this Christmas a few avatars and soon there is a Fur Meet in Freiburg, so maybe it will go up again.

Incidentally, I have pretty scared what the future holds, if not too much because I've done, but on the other hand, I can not just turn around, I have to try ... or I throw my life long before such a coward I've been yet.

I was frustrated. I wanted to work on another picture, but I wasn't able to see it in my innereye. So I did what I often do, when I feel a block in my mind. I listened to music. First I listened to Falco - Jeanny. Then I tried it more classical. And I listened to the Sorcere's Apprentice and I finally began to see a picture running throught my mind.
But I wanted to take a bath and I wanted to listen to more music, so I took Disneys Fantasia Dance on bald Mountain and Ave maria. Throught the "Dance on bald Mountain" I saw dark images for a big canvas i could draw... but as "Ave Maria" I was seeing something different.

The bad thoughts and feeling, that were running throught me for days suddenly seemed to washed away... like dirt it ran down my body into the hot water, and I was seeing pure light. It was like a meditation but it seemed I reached another level without even trying, just because of the beauty of music.

It's an expieriance everybody should see at least one time in his life. Just a moment of purety and beauty

Jup today is that spooky night, called Halloween, but did you know, that basic of this celebration was original celtic and also was been celebrated from west to centre europe as well?

It is said that at this night to the 1st November, the gates of the Underworld open, so the dead can visit the living Humans to give them advise. But to "scare" the bad spirits away the celts also costumed themselfs and made scary laterns out of all kind of fruits. also they sacrifised a living animal for praying for a less hard winter.

well in that case

A very Cheerfull Samhain, Happy Halloween and don't forget to wish the best from me to your dead ancestors

Skunk Out