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go heres nows!!!

we've been talking for a month online and well we meet up finally last week for a few days....and just wow.....shes just like me in so many ways!!! shes caring, generous, nice and loves me for who i am not what i do <3 im just gona hold on and never let go of her...or her 7 year old daughter <3 their amazing all i gotta do now is see if i can get her to understand/except me being a furry...or maybe even have her join the fandom! ^.^ hehe been sooo long since ive felt this amazing!!! this...in love with someone <3 and she feels the same way...i wana be with here forever <3

had fun on the new transformers ride today :3 besides it being broken down for an hour X3 was an amazing ride!!! also ran into mt ex and her family...was nice to say hi to them and i texted her while bored in line :3 she got pissy so i stopped...anyways i had fun, back home now and im gona enjoy the rest of my day till 4 :3 then im going out with some friends to a movie and stuff ttyl guys

so i wont be at megaplex this year...but i might show up to the bowling on thursday night if time allows before we leave :3 best i can do?

well as you guys know...i had a dream again about  wolfaurora and woke up in tears feeling like shit....i figured out why i might have had the dream/ had her slip into my head again.......first off at last Tuesdays furmeet the movie was silver linings playbook which was a very emotional mover for me to watch....i was crying in it a lot due to the similarities of it and my past........but i was fine after......what really killed it was on Wednesday...after i had some lady back up into my jeep (thankfully only taking some paint off).....my mom caught my step dad having an affair with her and his first love of his life.....my mom was heart broken after 10 years they were together......and she cried so much.........i did what i could to help....we packed his stuff in trash bags and hes been living in a hotel for the past few days....my mom still in tears....and the pain reminds me of her.....my first true love....who i lost....and that's when the dreams started happening v.v......i thought she was gone...but i guess not if im here typing this......i know she has a new mate.....and there's nothing i can do about that.......i just hope i can seal the memorizes away again before they cause anymore damage.....to me or her........http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pN60DR5GQpg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zU9l.....OQ&index=1




great song....kinda forgot about it....would love to make a video to it or something X3

After 4 months....after thinking i had reset.....after getting over her....I had a dream tonight...about her......seeing her with someone else....and..........it killed me....I woke up crying.....and cant sleep....i...I hate that she still is there somewhere.....I hate that im still crying over her and everything........I hate these scars on my heart.........I hate to love her......</3

in other news.....i have off monday and tuesday.......might do universal monday...to cheer me and my mom up.....and tuesday ill go to the furmeet again mostlikely......

so after not going to furmeets due to work for like a month i finally got this tuesday off X3 so yes ill be at the orlando fur meet this week ^.^ who else is going?

hey,,,hey,,,,,everyones......ya you guys....should check out  AoiWolf33 she does amazing arts and has no one getting art from hers? o.o well besides me!!! lol shes a great friend of mine also hehe and could use the moneys and practice doing arts and stuffs! :3

My computers power supply decided to kill its self.......guess it was from all the movies I watch....or more likely...the porn...lol jk anyways untill its fixed all I have is my phone :3 least it gives me reason to finish the work on my room X3

Yep......another case of friend zoned -_-"what fun......and to make things worse it seems yet again I get the role of the bad guy.....this shits why I don't understand love...and hate it a lot at times.....*sigh* maybe I should just go gay X"3 lol

Atm shes dating another guy whos a friend of mine......and idk what to do.....I've been hanging with her for a while.nows....*sigh* shes so unique and different....I loves it....and she's so beautiful.....what to do v.v and the things she does....its so nice.....I would love it so much to call her mine...and rebuild my world around her.......I miss having someone who cares for me and loves me for the person I am....I hate.being alone.....and things with me and her just clicked....I can only hope for the best for her and him.....and if things go bad.ill be here for her....

might try to start having meets at theme parks again....only universal since my pass got canceled for sea world and bush gardens ....might buy a new one...idk but still i think i wanna start the meets back up at universal :3 only maybe like once or twice a month.....question is what day would work out best for people and who/how many would be willing to show up and hang out at the park for a day ^.^ ill be posting more on Florida furs later this week on the subject so keep an eye out...and as always anyone is welcome to come <3 ty everyone and i hope to get some good feedback! ttyl

so... surprisingly...i feel like my old self again o.o guess i just needed to let go....anyways things seem better now and im looking forward to things and plans now :3 i must thank all my friends who have been there for me....means a lot...now to get back to living my life the way i want ^.^

why do i feel pain, feel love, feel sadness, feel regret, and feel confused....all at the same time.....why is it.....im stuck here in limbo........between two worlds.......why cant i goo back or move on........why am i stuck here.....why.....am i alone......

if a friend was in trouble....needed money/help.....would you be there for them, even if they said they didn't want your help, to help then as much as you could......till things were better.....or would you just walk away......and leave them in the dust.....

going again this sunday! anyone is welcome to come if they wish! :3

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/104...../#cid:69027633

want some arts....AND help another fur out at the same time? then you should buy stuffs from this awesome person so they can pay the rent and keep doing what they loves ^.^

well....i might be looking for a new job soon....tired of albertsons and their bull shit -__-" anyone know any places hiring or willing to help?

So I meet a girl at megacon who is really nice as a friend and I found out that shes moving in 2 weeks to texas...on top of that she wishes she could go to universal before she turns 21 and moves. Any one willing to help her? I can take her to the park...just need someone to help get her in :3 would make her very happy. Ty guys :3 (would need to be sometime after this friday so I can have moneys for gas)

Making people happy....one of the things that cheers me up...ty guys

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SSK2SrPU5hs

dropping them tasty beats!!!!! lol X3

has come and gone....till next year, night everyone :3 <3

Woohoo universal today ^.^ wont be there till about 2...but still something fun to do this week X3

Ill be there tomorrow with my friends mostlikely...if anyone wants to go with/meet up let me know here or text me ;3 hehe ty

http://pounced.org/personals/viewad.....24&hcenc=1 figured id see what i could find friend wise ^.^