Heyya mutuals, I've got some art fever lately! With COVID and everything crazy going on I've been wanting to support more artists lately and also satisfy that art itch haha. So if anyone is looking for a piece with Sy or possibly dragon Sy (other forms) just hmu here or on telegram!

I'm open to most ideas! Let's get out there and support some of our favorite content creators <3

Hey! I appreciate each and every watch from you guys so thanks for that!

Now lately I've been on an art binge but am running out of ideas! While I've got a few commission ideas in mind what would you guys like to see Sy in more?

SFW slice of life?
SFW with friends / watchers?
SFW Themed, cosplay etc...
NSFW solo pieces
NSFW group pieces with friends / watchers, gay? Straight?
NSFW fetish - tentacles, inflation, etc...

Thanks for your support and I'm glad you guys like my silly panda!

Where are you staying?
Main hotel

What day are you getting there?
The 8th, staying an extra day for a nice little cool down as well x)

Who will you be rooming with?
 Tatertots but will be visiting with other friends as well. ^^

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Mainly friends I already know, I'm more of a follower than a leader.

What is the best way to find you?
Telegram or look for me in suit!

Are there any panels you might be attending?
Probably not unless one sounds really intriguing.

What do you look like?
Uh, short, unattractive, Caucasian lad. x) just look for me in suit.

Will you be suiting?
For sure!

What is your gender?
Male

How tall are you?
5'4"

Are you mated/in a relationship?
Haha nope, much too awkward for that.

Can I talk to you?
Uh sure, sorry if I'm a little shy at first.

Can I touch you?
Only I'd suit I'd prefer unless it's a quick hug.

Can I visit your room?
Uh maybe, probably not having any parties in my particular room.

Can I buy you drinks?
I accept donations to the "get a panda hecc'd up cause" long as the alcohol doesn't taste like alcohol. ;D

Can I give you stuff?
Is it bamboo?

How long are you going?
8th - 13th

Will you be going to parties?
Possibly, but I'm a tad shy.

Will you be performing?
Does suiting count?

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Say my name, or a gentle tap on the shoulder should do.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Only if invited.

Can I take your picture?
I'd prefer only if I'm in suit! If so go for it, my twitter is Sypanderp

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Enjoy myself, try not to be too awkward haha.

In a productive but bored mood so let's see what this will bring if anything. :P Open for juuuust about any question.

Heyya, doing some shameless promotion of my close friend  Marolel check out their art and maybe try for a commission or two to help get their name out there a bit more on FA, have known them for years and they're just getting started on here! Ask to see some more of their sketches they might not have uploaded yet to FA.

Thanks for your time guys!

Heyya! I'm still in the market for a good fursuit maker if anyone knows anyone taking commissions! Looking for a partial price range 1200-1800 USD preferred 50% down 50% on completion.

Heyya, as some of you may know I've been recently looking for a maker for a partial. I've heard some great suggestions from some friends but am keeping my options open, my budget would be around 1400-1600 maybe a bit more depends on the quality. Feel free to post links to FA, twitter, etc! Thanks for helping me in my search! :3

A better person, a better friend, brother, son, everything.
I wish I was better.
I just keep spinning down further and further into despair and it's no one's fault but my own. I wish I was better.
I'm getting just very close to giving up, I can't make it, I'm not good enough. I wish I was better.
I wish I could run, scream and close my eyes and go back to a better time and place but this is the life I've made for myself and it's not what I wanted, but is what I signed up for. I wish I was better.
I'm sorry for the wrongs I've done and crimes committed but sorry doesn't fix it, nor take it back. I'm my own judge, jury, and executioner. And I'll gladly smile when I finally submit to myself and give in.
I wish I was better...

So I recently breached 100 watchers and I got a few questions for you either crazy or wonderful people / furs out there. Well... probably a bit of both seeing as you're watching me.

Where are you from?! I love hearing about new places :3
What made you watch a derpy panda like myself? Was it the art? Well... a solid majority I know as close friends, and maybe you forgot you watched me and seeing this you're going "the heck is this guy... *unfollow.* x3
But yeah, hope everyone has a good day and all that!

-Sy

Gee, what a topic for a first journal.

Anyway yeah, I just gotta rant on paper or in this case just type as if I'm talking to someone. For years now I can't help but feel inferior. Inferior in school, looks, social activities, etc... doesn't matter what it is I just don't feel as good as others at just about anything. It's really sort of resonated again recently. I've always been a jealous person and certain things in my life have really amplified that, it doesn't help that I never figure myself good enough for ______.

I crave attention but don't want to seem needy, I often just sort of binge my worries away on whatever I'm fixated on at the time like games, music, books, or art even as you can see in my gallery here. A lot of the pieces were well over 100 USD. I have a need to make myself feel good or I'll just blow up, but all it does is push the feelings down and they come back stronger. I've been in this loop for years and I know tomorrow I'll regret even writing this blah blah but whatever, fuck future me.

I guess I'm just tired of not being "that guy" the one that can do that or this right. Now you'll say oh there's always gonna be someone better bud, but I'd settle for just being average at this point. I just don't feel good about almost anything in my life, so I try to seek attention of others often to the point where they just find me annoying and then I shrink back thinking I did something wrong so the cycle continues. Just lately I've been worse after having been cheated on over a fricken year ago and I still can't get it out of my head. Maybe if I was better looking? Maybe if I _ or _. I know "you can't live in a world of what ifs" but I'm allowed to wonder and speculate. I'm allowed these feelings as a person and sometimes well I just can't damn help them. They're consuming me and it's killing me.

I know my friends will probably read this and message me concerned, or just leave a comment below saying they care for me and will do whatever they can. I hope they know I appreciate them but in all honesty good wishing does jack. It's a short term solution, it'll boost me up but I'll fall again, I'm sorry guys I know you all mean well but it's just how my brain works. I'll be fine for a week, a month, two? But it always comes back, and I'm getting to the point where I just can't take it anymore.

Anyway yeah, that's it I suppose. Sorry for a rant, I just wanted to type it all out.

-Sy