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Megaplex Aftermath
Posted 9 years agohttp://syraeuniverse.tumblr.com/post/148645544318
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Please click here to read the whole thing. Thank you. C:
Back home now...
Posted 9 years agoEven though I returned home after I was done with hte con each day, this time without worry about going back.
There is much to be said about this year's Megaplex. I'll be doing an Aftermath later. Right now, I want to make dinner and rest myself...
There is much to be said about this year's Megaplex. I'll be doing an Aftermath later. Right now, I want to make dinner and rest myself...
The end of Art?
Posted 9 years agoSo, I'm going to get into this simple.
Life likes to fuck me over. Family likes to fuck me over as well with bills. And since I cannot take any more commissions to do a dent in all this bullshit... I had to result in taking overtime.
Now here's the thing. More time at work means less time at home to work on commissions. They pay me for overtime. And I feel even shittier than I have already currently regarding leaving unfinished commissions for those who have waited for more than a year. It hurts. It really hurts me. Especially someone who would never back down and does what she said she would when paid. Many of you know that 98% of what I take in always gets done. But now, that percentage is diminishing at a rapid rate. It's hurting me more because I want to keep my promise. The promise to complete what I was paid to do.
But now, I think I'm at my limit. I'm doing 50 hours a week now at work. I get home, pass out, wake up, get ready all over again. Five days a week. Two days where I can do the work. No, more like one since the other is to watch kids. And I refuse to draw porn around them.
With a little extra money I'm making from that overtime, I decided...
I'm going to be refunding a few that have been waiting for more than a year. Not all at once, but one by one, I will be refunding up to five this year. It's not just lightening my load, but as an apology for not completing what I said I would do.
IF you want to see if you're on the list, please check the waiting list here.
I probably won't be taking any more unless I'm working at conventions. I'm not sure if I'll pick up any more. I love to work on art. It's my life.
But now, I'm being forced down with another that I didn't want. I’m given responsibility for others and not able to care for myself. And now, it's forcing me to nearly end my profession as an artist.
Which i undoubtedly refuse to let die.
I will keep drawing; I will keep on trying to do commissions, but for now. I'll keep working on what others I still owe.
Thank you for understanding. And I sincerely apologize about this struggle and failure that I'm going through.
Life likes to fuck me over. Family likes to fuck me over as well with bills. And since I cannot take any more commissions to do a dent in all this bullshit... I had to result in taking overtime.
Now here's the thing. More time at work means less time at home to work on commissions. They pay me for overtime. And I feel even shittier than I have already currently regarding leaving unfinished commissions for those who have waited for more than a year. It hurts. It really hurts me. Especially someone who would never back down and does what she said she would when paid. Many of you know that 98% of what I take in always gets done. But now, that percentage is diminishing at a rapid rate. It's hurting me more because I want to keep my promise. The promise to complete what I was paid to do.
But now, I think I'm at my limit. I'm doing 50 hours a week now at work. I get home, pass out, wake up, get ready all over again. Five days a week. Two days where I can do the work. No, more like one since the other is to watch kids. And I refuse to draw porn around them.
With a little extra money I'm making from that overtime, I decided...
I'm going to be refunding a few that have been waiting for more than a year. Not all at once, but one by one, I will be refunding up to five this year. It's not just lightening my load, but as an apology for not completing what I said I would do.
IF you want to see if you're on the list, please check the waiting list here.
I probably won't be taking any more unless I'm working at conventions. I'm not sure if I'll pick up any more. I love to work on art. It's my life.
But now, I'm being forced down with another that I didn't want. I’m given responsibility for others and not able to care for myself. And now, it's forcing me to nearly end my profession as an artist.
Which i undoubtedly refuse to let die.
I will keep drawing; I will keep on trying to do commissions, but for now. I'll keep working on what others I still owe.
Thank you for understanding. And I sincerely apologize about this struggle and failure that I'm going through.
FWA Meme 2016!
Posted 9 years agoSwiped this from 
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Transportation:
Car
Staying:
Marriot
Arrival/Departure:
Wednesday (3/30) to Monday (4/04)
Room:
, His Wife, and 
Description (out of suit):
Genderfluid, 6'0"
Around 260-280LBS
Undercut, brown hair. Hot pink top usually.
Art propaganda:
I'll be working at the Artist alley as usual!
Sketches (30),
Lineart (50),
Badges (35)
10min Sketchcards (10 per card)
Fursuit(s):
Not Aplicable to me!
Relationship Status:
Single. Not really interested in having a boyfriend or girlfriend.
Who you hang with:
Any of my awesome art buds or conbuddies.
Main purpose for attending:
Work on art, have fun.
Where you usually eat:
Metro, Sushi place, a place with Gyros. I'm willing to try new places!
Parties:
I don't see why not!
Sleep/get up:
Normally crash out around 3-4am. Wake up around 9AM.
Do you talk in/out of suit:
Not applicable suit-wise. Yes I do talk. C:
To get my attention:
Scream my nickname I got from work (TWIZZLER).
Fursuit rules of engagement:
Not aplicable!
Rules of engagement (out of suit):
Say hello! Tell me a joke! I'm okay with handshakes and permission for hugs. DO NOT TOUCH INAPPROPRIATELY.
How far is too far:
Treat me the way you want to be treated. Be nice? I be nice. Be mean? I will be mean back. And, again, do not touch me inappropriately. Things will go south incredibly fast.
Can I dance with you:
I'll try to, I suck at it though. I will try!
Can I buy you things:
Of course! i do enjoy Coca Cola, Twizzlers. If not those, I still appreciate ALL gifts. :D
Best communication medium to reach you:
Twitter! Here you go: CLICK HERE TO FOLLOW
C:Transportation:
Car
Staying:
Marriot
Arrival/Departure:
Wednesday (3/30) to Monday (4/04)
Room:
, His Wife, and 
Description (out of suit):
Genderfluid, 6'0"
Around 260-280LBS
Undercut, brown hair. Hot pink top usually.
Art propaganda:
I'll be working at the Artist alley as usual!
Sketches (30),
Lineart (50),
Badges (35)
10min Sketchcards (10 per card)
Fursuit(s):
Not Aplicable to me!
Relationship Status:
Single. Not really interested in having a boyfriend or girlfriend.
Who you hang with:
Any of my awesome art buds or conbuddies.
Main purpose for attending:
Work on art, have fun.
Where you usually eat:
Metro, Sushi place, a place with Gyros. I'm willing to try new places!
Parties:
I don't see why not!
Sleep/get up:
Normally crash out around 3-4am. Wake up around 9AM.
Do you talk in/out of suit:
Not applicable suit-wise. Yes I do talk. C:
To get my attention:
Scream my nickname I got from work (TWIZZLER).
Fursuit rules of engagement:
Not aplicable!
Rules of engagement (out of suit):
Say hello! Tell me a joke! I'm okay with handshakes and permission for hugs. DO NOT TOUCH INAPPROPRIATELY.
How far is too far:
Treat me the way you want to be treated. Be nice? I be nice. Be mean? I will be mean back. And, again, do not touch me inappropriately. Things will go south incredibly fast.
Can I dance with you:
I'll try to, I suck at it though. I will try!
Can I buy you things:
Of course! i do enjoy Coca Cola, Twizzlers. If not those, I still appreciate ALL gifts. :D
Best communication medium to reach you:
Twitter! Here you go: CLICK HERE TO FOLLOW
Life Update: A must read.
Posted 10 years agoSo, I have good news... and bad news that is changing a lot of things presently.
The bad news is that I'm closing down normal commissions. Most likely for good while. It's not because I don't want to anymore, mind you, but more so that life is going to get a whole lot more busy. Now with that being said, I'm going to be clearing my entire current list presently... or refunding half back because I don't want to have people wait for too long just for a commission from me that's been paid already. If you want a full refund, I fully understand and will do so as soon as possible. For those who recently just paid me for their commission, I'm going to still do them regardless. It'll just take a little longer, so please be patient with me.
As for the "Food Fund" Commissions, those will be happening as well to keep up with what bills I will generally miss or for the food funding. Because my sister just loves to fuck me (And my mother) over repetitively. Plus, it's quick art.
Now... for the good news.
I got hired for a full time job! :D
I'll be working as customer support/repair dispatcher for a company. I start working on the 8th (Well training but you get the idea). With this job, I'll be able to depend considerably less on commissions. Now, whenever I have time off, I'll be able to draw for myself for a change. I'm happy because I wanted to get a stable income just so that I'll be able to clear my list without any fear of an unpaid bill coming up.
Now with this being said, I'm not going to close commissions permanently. It's only until my entire list is cleared: Be it completed art or refunds. Once it's clear, I will only take a controlled amount, clear, open again, rinse and repeat. I will also be still attending certain conventions to sell art and generally have fun with my friends.
Art is a very big part of my life and there is no way I'm going to stop. I love to draw, I love drawing for people and bringing forth life to their imagery. It had been my joy since 2008. Because of commissioners, I was able to grow, to improve and try new things that I never thought I would. I have wonderful clients, some bad experiences that helped me change... You guys are what makes me smile and work everyday. It's not just music or games, but friendly faces, understanding peeps and funny moments.
If there are some commissioners who want a refund, I fully understand and will start paying back as soon as possible. Just be a little patient with me is all I ask for.
Again, thank you so much for sticking this long with me and for taking your time to read this!
Much, much love to you all. <3
The bad news is that I'm closing down normal commissions. Most likely for good while. It's not because I don't want to anymore, mind you, but more so that life is going to get a whole lot more busy. Now with that being said, I'm going to be clearing my entire current list presently... or refunding half back because I don't want to have people wait for too long just for a commission from me that's been paid already. If you want a full refund, I fully understand and will do so as soon as possible. For those who recently just paid me for their commission, I'm going to still do them regardless. It'll just take a little longer, so please be patient with me.
As for the "Food Fund" Commissions, those will be happening as well to keep up with what bills I will generally miss or for the food funding. Because my sister just loves to fuck me (And my mother) over repetitively. Plus, it's quick art.
Now... for the good news.
I got hired for a full time job! :D
I'll be working as customer support/repair dispatcher for a company. I start working on the 8th (Well training but you get the idea). With this job, I'll be able to depend considerably less on commissions. Now, whenever I have time off, I'll be able to draw for myself for a change. I'm happy because I wanted to get a stable income just so that I'll be able to clear my list without any fear of an unpaid bill coming up.
Now with this being said, I'm not going to close commissions permanently. It's only until my entire list is cleared: Be it completed art or refunds. Once it's clear, I will only take a controlled amount, clear, open again, rinse and repeat. I will also be still attending certain conventions to sell art and generally have fun with my friends.
Art is a very big part of my life and there is no way I'm going to stop. I love to draw, I love drawing for people and bringing forth life to their imagery. It had been my joy since 2008. Because of commissioners, I was able to grow, to improve and try new things that I never thought I would. I have wonderful clients, some bad experiences that helped me change... You guys are what makes me smile and work everyday. It's not just music or games, but friendly faces, understanding peeps and funny moments.
If there are some commissioners who want a refund, I fully understand and will start paying back as soon as possible. Just be a little patient with me is all I ask for.
Again, thank you so much for sticking this long with me and for taking your time to read this!
Much, much love to you all. <3
Megaplex15 Aftermath (CONCLUSION)
Posted 10 years agoForced to crawl (LIFE)
Posted 10 years agoUgh, I don't know where to start. I guess...
So, work has turned into a snail's pace of being done. Why? My sister just popped out a kid and since I'm the only one doing absolutely 'nothing' with my life, I'm forced to watch an infant plus three kids (Ages 6, 7 and 8). And, since you all know what I draw for a living, I cannot do it around them.
Not only that, but my main pc is now forced to stay in the car garage. They don't understand equipment is expensive (Especially the Cintiq they keep moving around without my permission). They also don't understand the concept of "You see curtains closed and music is loud, it means DO NOT DISTURB", so they waltz in without respecting my privacy to work. Thus, not much is worked on.
So, I'm deeply sorry if I've yet to get back to you or started on your commission. I'm trying to, but family likes to be a royal prick and not find what I do as a normal money-making job. I've also have been applying for jobs so I can make a stable enough income to pay bills and have my own apartment to live in. Good luck to me on that.
And, of course the biggest bullshit of all. I was in a car accident a week ago. Before people ask, yes I'm perfectly fine. I was uninjured. Sadly, I can't say the same for my beloved 'BullStallion' though. She's got one hell of a dent on the left asscheek under the taillight. Sucks, I know. But hey, I'm not at fault. The other one is. So, I'll be busy trying to get that repaired as soon as possible. The paperwork is what annoys me. And it's my first time ever getting in an accident on my own. The last two were far different.
Anyway, In short: LIFE FUCKING SUCKS AND I WANT OFF THIS KOOKY RIDE PLEASE.
Please, be a little patient. If you feel you can't, I'll figure out how to refund you as soon as possible. Otherwise, I'm deeply, horribly, terribly and honestly sorry about all of this.
So, work has turned into a snail's pace of being done. Why? My sister just popped out a kid and since I'm the only one doing absolutely 'nothing' with my life, I'm forced to watch an infant plus three kids (Ages 6, 7 and 8). And, since you all know what I draw for a living, I cannot do it around them.
Not only that, but my main pc is now forced to stay in the car garage. They don't understand equipment is expensive (Especially the Cintiq they keep moving around without my permission). They also don't understand the concept of "You see curtains closed and music is loud, it means DO NOT DISTURB", so they waltz in without respecting my privacy to work. Thus, not much is worked on.
So, I'm deeply sorry if I've yet to get back to you or started on your commission. I'm trying to, but family likes to be a royal prick and not find what I do as a normal money-making job. I've also have been applying for jobs so I can make a stable enough income to pay bills and have my own apartment to live in. Good luck to me on that.
And, of course the biggest bullshit of all. I was in a car accident a week ago. Before people ask, yes I'm perfectly fine. I was uninjured. Sadly, I can't say the same for my beloved 'BullStallion' though. She's got one hell of a dent on the left asscheek under the taillight. Sucks, I know. But hey, I'm not at fault. The other one is. So, I'll be busy trying to get that repaired as soon as possible. The paperwork is what annoys me. And it's my first time ever getting in an accident on my own. The last two were far different.
Anyway, In short: LIFE FUCKING SUCKS AND I WANT OFF THIS KOOKY RIDE PLEASE.
Please, be a little patient. If you feel you can't, I'll figure out how to refund you as soon as possible. Otherwise, I'm deeply, horribly, terribly and honestly sorry about all of this.
Minor Turbulence is an Understatement (LIFE)
Posted 10 years agoAnd, boy, do I wish it was an understatement. Life has gotten far more difficult that I would like it to be over the last 5-6 months. After the whole ordeal of handling what I've endured for that time (I won't go into it publicly, if you'd like to know I can explain better. In private.), I decided that I can't take any more of it. I'm a woman who would do anything to bear the pain to try and get back onto her feet had finally caved in. With how my mental instability is presently, I can't do it any more.
I'm moving back to where my family is. I don't want to. I hate to, but I honestly feel I would rather do better back in Orlando for many reasons.
One of them being that I have family and friends there. I have people I can socialize with. People that I know cares for me and want to help me back up and in control of my life. While living here, I've done nothing but avoid everything that I could. I barely left the house for anything. I didn't converse with anyone. I don't have friends, family, what have you here. I just stagnate. And it's preventing me from moving onward.
Another reason being just that; my unstable mental state. I've endured something I clearly shouldn't have. No smart person would do it, yet I tried to. And all it did was break me down to the point where I've become emotionally and socially detached to everyone around me. I was looking for ways to escape just to be at peace. I was hiding from my friends on Skype, Furcadia, RPH and many other places. I often caught myself blanking out and staring off into space for hours at a time. Hell, most commissions over the last few months I barely remember. There was even a moment's chance where I just literally blinked, 2-4 hours had passed. This has gotten to a point where it's dangerous and it shook me awake on realizing it.
I need to leave. I don't care where, I don't care how. But I have to. Thus, why I'm moving back home in Orlando. But while I'm there, I'll be looking for a normal, offline job. It's to help me get myself a place of my own. A little studio, even, to help fix myself. I realized (Late than never) that I actually function and have more control over myself if I live alone. I don't feel so paranoid, I don't feel like I'm locked away from the world. It's better for me.
But, this doesn't mean I'll stop taking commissions. It'll just be considerably less of a worry being strapped for money all the time. And for those who are still waiting, thank you so much for being patient.
So, in short. I can't live here anymore. It's fucking with me mentally and socially. So, I'm going back to square one in my life and over to where my family is to pick myself back up once again in three weeks.
I move out on the 22nd this month. The week of 14-20th of June will be very rocky. I'll be packing up and getting ready for my trek back there. If I'm not responsive between now and when I move, I'm deeply sorry. I'm trying to move out of here. I'll be struggling with money just to get everything back home and leave nothing behind.
Hopefully, this move will make things better for me. It's uncertain, for sure, but it's a better choice than to live in a place where I have literally no friends or family to lean on when I'm falling.
I hope you all would understand and bear with me while I make my move (Third time within the past 12 months) back home.
Thank you for reading this.
I'm moving back to where my family is. I don't want to. I hate to, but I honestly feel I would rather do better back in Orlando for many reasons.
One of them being that I have family and friends there. I have people I can socialize with. People that I know cares for me and want to help me back up and in control of my life. While living here, I've done nothing but avoid everything that I could. I barely left the house for anything. I didn't converse with anyone. I don't have friends, family, what have you here. I just stagnate. And it's preventing me from moving onward.
Another reason being just that; my unstable mental state. I've endured something I clearly shouldn't have. No smart person would do it, yet I tried to. And all it did was break me down to the point where I've become emotionally and socially detached to everyone around me. I was looking for ways to escape just to be at peace. I was hiding from my friends on Skype, Furcadia, RPH and many other places. I often caught myself blanking out and staring off into space for hours at a time. Hell, most commissions over the last few months I barely remember. There was even a moment's chance where I just literally blinked, 2-4 hours had passed. This has gotten to a point where it's dangerous and it shook me awake on realizing it.
I need to leave. I don't care where, I don't care how. But I have to. Thus, why I'm moving back home in Orlando. But while I'm there, I'll be looking for a normal, offline job. It's to help me get myself a place of my own. A little studio, even, to help fix myself. I realized (Late than never) that I actually function and have more control over myself if I live alone. I don't feel so paranoid, I don't feel like I'm locked away from the world. It's better for me.
But, this doesn't mean I'll stop taking commissions. It'll just be considerably less of a worry being strapped for money all the time. And for those who are still waiting, thank you so much for being patient.
So, in short. I can't live here anymore. It's fucking with me mentally and socially. So, I'm going back to square one in my life and over to where my family is to pick myself back up once again in three weeks.
I move out on the 22nd this month. The week of 14-20th of June will be very rocky. I'll be packing up and getting ready for my trek back there. If I'm not responsive between now and when I move, I'm deeply sorry. I'm trying to move out of here. I'll be struggling with money just to get everything back home and leave nothing behind.
Hopefully, this move will make things better for me. It's uncertain, for sure, but it's a better choice than to live in a place where I have literally no friends or family to lean on when I'm falling.
I hope you all would understand and bear with me while I make my move (Third time within the past 12 months) back home.
Thank you for reading this.
CONFIRMED FWA2015 MEME
Posted 10 years agoWhere are you staying?
Main hotel where the con will be!
What day are you getting there?
Wednesday by car. I'm driving on my own, BABY! <3
Who will you be rooming with?
, 
and 
Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Probably with a lot of my art buddies.
Will you be suiting?
No.
Do you do free art?
Nope. Unless there's an equal trade.
What is your gender?
Genderfluid, but most of my friends refer to me as "she". You can refer me as either gender, it don't matter!
How tall are you?
Six even.
Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
I'm not taken.
No, I'm not looking for a 'mate', 'lover', 'fuckbuddy', etc.
Can I talk to you?
I would hope you can! I apologize if I seem a bit chatty.
Can I touch you?
Uh... Be advised to not do it unexpectedly and improper areas.
How can I find you?
I'll mostly be in the Artist Alley. If I'm not there, it'll be easy to find me.
Can I visit your room?
No. Unless I send you a message to come and pick up your commission. C:
Can I buy you drinks?
That's a big maybe. Unless it's soda. Then FUCK YEAH.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Warning me for a hug is okay. Snuggling is a no-no if I don't know you well enough.
Are you nice?
Well yeah! I may come off as intimidating, but I'm totes sweetheart. C:
Do you have an artist table?
I do! Come and find me! LOOK FOR THE HOT PINK TOP AND THE PURPLE BANDANNA.
Will you be going to parties?
If my friends are there, most likely I will be too!
Will you be performing?
Unless I'm performing as an ART Artist, then no. D:
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
"HEY SYRAE(Sci-Ruh)/CYNFERRET" or coming up to me and talking to me works.
What/where will you be eating?
Probably Gyros, good from that 24/7 diner, pizza or stuff from the mall. Whatever hits that craving.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
I don't see why not. Unless the ones I'm with don't want that.
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Well sure, but no stick figures, please?
Can I take your picture?
Haha, why would you want to? Sure, why not.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To make some money! And to see my friends. I'm not there to get drunk or high. I'm there for pure, clean fun. C:
Main hotel where the con will be!
What day are you getting there?
Wednesday by car. I'm driving on my own, BABY! <3
Who will you be rooming with?
, 
and 
Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Probably with a lot of my art buddies.
Will you be suiting?
No.
Do you do free art?
Nope. Unless there's an equal trade.
What is your gender?
Genderfluid, but most of my friends refer to me as "she". You can refer me as either gender, it don't matter!
How tall are you?
Six even.
Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
I'm not taken.
No, I'm not looking for a 'mate', 'lover', 'fuckbuddy', etc.
Can I talk to you?
I would hope you can! I apologize if I seem a bit chatty.
Can I touch you?
Uh... Be advised to not do it unexpectedly and improper areas.
How can I find you?
I'll mostly be in the Artist Alley. If I'm not there, it'll be easy to find me.
Can I visit your room?
No. Unless I send you a message to come and pick up your commission. C:
Can I buy you drinks?
That's a big maybe. Unless it's soda. Then FUCK YEAH.
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Warning me for a hug is okay. Snuggling is a no-no if I don't know you well enough.
Are you nice?
Well yeah! I may come off as intimidating, but I'm totes sweetheart. C:
Do you have an artist table?
I do! Come and find me! LOOK FOR THE HOT PINK TOP AND THE PURPLE BANDANNA.
Will you be going to parties?
If my friends are there, most likely I will be too!
Will you be performing?
Unless I'm performing as an ART Artist, then no. D:
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
"HEY SYRAE(Sci-Ruh)/CYNFERRET" or coming up to me and talking to me works.
What/where will you be eating?
Probably Gyros, good from that 24/7 diner, pizza or stuff from the mall. Whatever hits that craving.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
I don't see why not. Unless the ones I'm with don't want that.
Can I draw in your sketchbook?
Well sure, but no stick figures, please?
Can I take your picture?
Haha, why would you want to? Sure, why not.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To make some money! And to see my friends. I'm not there to get drunk or high. I'm there for pure, clean fun. C:
Heartbreak Update
Posted 11 years agoI cried. I threw things. I called mom and sobbed. I calmed down. I got sleep. I got peace. I listen to my paranoia scream "I told you so" over and over again... but then total silence.
I talked to friends. I played games, roleplayed, kept busy from thinking about it. I got voice of reason and experience to pull me through. I had friends pine over me to make sure I'm not alone at that crucial moment of my life. Be it on Skype or on Steam.
And finally, I got clarity. I'm over it. Sure, I'm still hurt over it and want so much hugs I don't know what to do with them... But, I know that I have lots of friends to help me through this and understand things a little more. But I'll be fine again. I'm going to be focusing on loving myself before letting someone back in my broken, bruised heart.
And it turns out... my happiness? My true happiness is to be around my loved ones. My family and friends. Have fun, get wonderful laughs and just have a great time. Travel, draw. Work. My happiness didn't lie with being a wife to someone or love that much. I wasn't ready. Don't get me wrong, I'm still hurt. That sort of pain will take time to heal. So don't think that I'm one of those types that it's easy to get over it. I'm still not over it. But, I'm trying at least. I'm struggling and pushing to move on. Because being sad and treating myself like shit will get me nowhere.
Those who said I'm strong... Thank you. It turns out I am. And it'll only make me stronger. So thank you. All of you. For understanding and giving me time to bring myself up when I was broken.
I'll be okay. I'll be happy again. I just need to do it for myself and not for anyone else.
I'll be getting back to work starting Monday! So be prepared!
I talked to friends. I played games, roleplayed, kept busy from thinking about it. I got voice of reason and experience to pull me through. I had friends pine over me to make sure I'm not alone at that crucial moment of my life. Be it on Skype or on Steam.
And finally, I got clarity. I'm over it. Sure, I'm still hurt over it and want so much hugs I don't know what to do with them... But, I know that I have lots of friends to help me through this and understand things a little more. But I'll be fine again. I'm going to be focusing on loving myself before letting someone back in my broken, bruised heart.
And it turns out... my happiness? My true happiness is to be around my loved ones. My family and friends. Have fun, get wonderful laughs and just have a great time. Travel, draw. Work. My happiness didn't lie with being a wife to someone or love that much. I wasn't ready. Don't get me wrong, I'm still hurt. That sort of pain will take time to heal. So don't think that I'm one of those types that it's easy to get over it. I'm still not over it. But, I'm trying at least. I'm struggling and pushing to move on. Because being sad and treating myself like shit will get me nowhere.
Those who said I'm strong... Thank you. It turns out I am. And it'll only make me stronger. So thank you. All of you. For understanding and giving me time to bring myself up when I was broken.
I'll be okay. I'll be happy again. I just need to do it for myself and not for anyone else.
I'll be getting back to work starting Monday! So be prepared!
Another day, another heartbreak.
Posted 11 years agoToday, I just found out that I'm no longer engaged to that man I loved. It turns out he is marrying someone prior to me.
Through Skype.
So today, I'm just going to take the day off. Only because I'm really heartbroken here. I'm not sure if I'll work tomorrow for that matter.
But, I'll try. I need the distraction.
Again, I'm deeply sorry. I'll try to recover as quickly as possible.
Through Skype.
So today, I'm just going to take the day off. Only because I'm really heartbroken here. I'm not sure if I'll work tomorrow for that matter.
But, I'll try. I need the distraction.
Again, I'm deeply sorry. I'll try to recover as quickly as possible.
Life Update, please read.
Posted 11 years agohttp://syraeuniverse.tumblr.com/post/93431648808
For those who want to know about what's going on with me presently.
For srs.
Thank you for reading.
For those who want to know about what's going on with me presently.
For srs.
Thank you for reading.
Art/Life Updates!
Posted 11 years agoSince I don't talk much to people, I might as well do an update sort of thing. So yes, as you guys know my commissions are still remaining closed until further notice. It's only until I can get my commission list down considerably or finish it completely. I have about 16 left to complete. After all other slots (IE flat color, badge, ref sheets, etc) are complete, I will be dedicating a WHOLE MONTH to complete nothing more than full shades. I know, it's fuckin weird coming from me. But at least things are being completed and that I've not taken in any other commissions. Which is a plus. A big plus for me because I'm able to clean my list out. So again, thank you very, VERY much for being so damn patient with my slow ass.
Here is May's Commission Schedule: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12392849/
And now, to touch on why I'm slow. Recently, I had to go to the urgent care (Not the back one. This one's sorta new, sorta chronic) to handle something I've been holding off for years. Reason why is because I needed the funds to do so. And going in to find out the diagnosis of what I have, I'm not surprised. They have put me on meds that might have to be relatively PERMANENT. Because my body doesn't know how to handle with out, it seems. As for what it is, I rather keep that private. But, thank you for your deepest concern on wanting to know. But know that it will help improve a lot of things and not just one thing. One of them helping me control my mood issues. But there's one downfall to this: It makes me nauseous as all SHIT. Every other day, it hits me HARD. So hard, I have to lay down and sleep it off. It keeps me from concentrating on work, on games, on talking as a whole. So I try to sleep it off. I'm getting wonderfully reacquainted with my good 'ol friends, ginger ale and animal crackers. So while my body is trying to adjust to what new meds I'm taking to unfuck what's been fucked up, I'm going to be acting and reacting weirdly. I just wanted to warn you guys of that. And if I attack you or do something completely not me, I deeply apologize.
I think that's about it for the moment. Oh, there is one more thing. I've only told some people about this since I didn't feel comfortable telling everyone at the drop of the hat, but since February 17th, I'm now engaged and will be getting married sometime later this year! Who'da thunk that someone like me would be getting hitched. Weird, I know. XD
With that aside, I think that's about everything so far. I'll be trying to stream as much often as possible for you guys. You have have a good night! C:
Here is May's Commission Schedule: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12392849/
And now, to touch on why I'm slow. Recently, I had to go to the urgent care (Not the back one. This one's sorta new, sorta chronic) to handle something I've been holding off for years. Reason why is because I needed the funds to do so. And going in to find out the diagnosis of what I have, I'm not surprised. They have put me on meds that might have to be relatively PERMANENT. Because my body doesn't know how to handle with out, it seems. As for what it is, I rather keep that private. But, thank you for your deepest concern on wanting to know. But know that it will help improve a lot of things and not just one thing. One of them helping me control my mood issues. But there's one downfall to this: It makes me nauseous as all SHIT. Every other day, it hits me HARD. So hard, I have to lay down and sleep it off. It keeps me from concentrating on work, on games, on talking as a whole. So I try to sleep it off. I'm getting wonderfully reacquainted with my good 'ol friends, ginger ale and animal crackers. So while my body is trying to adjust to what new meds I'm taking to unfuck what's been fucked up, I'm going to be acting and reacting weirdly. I just wanted to warn you guys of that. And if I attack you or do something completely not me, I deeply apologize.
I think that's about it for the moment. Oh, there is one more thing. I've only told some people about this since I didn't feel comfortable telling everyone at the drop of the hat, but since February 17th, I'm now engaged and will be getting married sometime later this year! Who'da thunk that someone like me would be getting hitched. Weird, I know. XD
With that aside, I think that's about everything so far. I'll be trying to stream as much often as possible for you guys. You have have a good night! C:
FWA14 Aftermath (CONCLUSION)
Posted 11 years agoIncase no one knows... Here you go!
Posted 12 years agoSince there are a fuckton of new watchers (And of course people don't pay often attention enough to new submissions or see new changes to my profile. But I'm not picking on them.)...
I wanted to say thanks for still watching me here on Furaffinity!
There are a few new things. First off is that I made A monthly Calendar Schedule that will be updated weekly (Submission will be changed at the first of every month to show what I will be working on each week.) so if you have commissioned me, keep an eye on it. It'll most likely tell you what I will be working on soon. This is to keep the messaging to a minimum on how their progress is. I'm not saying I don't like it! I do, just that- nevermind. It's nothing to be discussing over. I'm simply trying to better my time on getting art done faster for commissioners. I'm just doing my best. It will also show which cones I will be going to that month (if there is one. Currently, there is only one con I'm going to). Fridays and Saturdays are MOSTLY MY DAYS OFF. So please, refrain from messaging me about commissions those two days.
I also do weekly/bi-weekly pocasts: NerdGASM Network and Game Over Take Over. One is mostly nerding out on games while the other is, well, just nerding out on anything. GOTO Is the one I'm second in command of. And we're always looking for more nerds to join us on the podcast every other saturday night and just nerd out on any sort of thing that scratches that itch! If you're up for it, let me know! Otherwise, check out the stuff!
And finally... I have made an account on Weasyl! So now you can find me on there! Here is the link to my gallery there. It'll be updated on MONDAYS and my InkBunny will be updated on SUNDAYS.
That aside, I'm just trying to improve my productivity on getting commissions faster. There will be a slight update on prices (Not too much. Mostly involving additional characters, reference sheets and even a new type: Digital Painting).
That's about it! Thanks for reading. :D
-"Cyn"thia
I wanted to say thanks for still watching me here on Furaffinity!
There are a few new things. First off is that I made A monthly Calendar Schedule that will be updated weekly (Submission will be changed at the first of every month to show what I will be working on each week.) so if you have commissioned me, keep an eye on it. It'll most likely tell you what I will be working on soon. This is to keep the messaging to a minimum on how their progress is. I'm not saying I don't like it! I do, just that- nevermind. It's nothing to be discussing over. I'm simply trying to better my time on getting art done faster for commissioners. I'm just doing my best. It will also show which cones I will be going to that month (if there is one. Currently, there is only one con I'm going to). Fridays and Saturdays are MOSTLY MY DAYS OFF. So please, refrain from messaging me about commissions those two days.
I also do weekly/bi-weekly pocasts: NerdGASM Network and Game Over Take Over. One is mostly nerding out on games while the other is, well, just nerding out on anything. GOTO Is the one I'm second in command of. And we're always looking for more nerds to join us on the podcast every other saturday night and just nerd out on any sort of thing that scratches that itch! If you're up for it, let me know! Otherwise, check out the stuff!
And finally... I have made an account on Weasyl! So now you can find me on there! Here is the link to my gallery there. It'll be updated on MONDAYS and my InkBunny will be updated on SUNDAYS.
That aside, I'm just trying to improve my productivity on getting commissions faster. There will be a slight update on prices (Not too much. Mostly involving additional characters, reference sheets and even a new type: Digital Painting).
That's about it! Thanks for reading. :D
-"Cyn"thia
FWA13: Aftermath (CONCLUSION)
Posted 12 years agoMan, so much went on. I don’t know where to start. No, seriously. A lot of things happened. Both great and wonderful to some what the flying fuck moments. I think I’ll start out on Thursday like I always do. Bear in mind, there are just some moments you’ll laugh at the awkwardness of what I type out. One thing I’ll point out is that I’ve been having 1-3 days worth of trouble sleeping. I suddenly get struck with a case of severe insomnia. I didn’t know where it came from. Nothing I did spark it nor did anyone else trigger it. This is my first time being self-aware of this sort of predicament. So naturally I didn’t know how to make it go away. I was confused and lost about it. So I did what I do normally: Ignore it. So those who saw me look like the walking dead: Thank you for being patient with my sleepy hooker ass. C:
Thursday: Well Thursday marked almost the third day and my body was not going to take that sort of shit from my brain’s antics. I got in the car around eight-ish to head from Greenville, South Carolina (Staying at Kasi’s house) to Atlanta, Georgia. I tried sleeping in there and it just horribly failed. So I looked like a walking zombie throughout the Westin when we arrived. I found some of my friends, but was just not at all in my head. The brain went on vacation while the body was just wandering about in search of a spot to just flop down on. My legs were sore, but the body just won’t sleep.
I finally found Dagger Leonelli (Friend back in Florida that I missed so much), she and I went on to go get some nachos from Hard Rock Café. It makes me overjoyed that there are some workers there who were very concerned over my diet when I mentioned that I can’t have jalapenos in my food (Being that it’ll kill me. Not as an allergy, but my GI track being violent). We sat down with other artists in the lobby area, I got to enjoy looking through the Journey art book and just talking away. So after a while of walking around and just hunting about for my friends I hadn’t seen in a long time, I went up to the room to shower and just blog about on things. That’s when sleep finally hit me around 9:30. Excitedly (as I could be) I went to the bed and laid down. I was out like a light.
Friday: I woke up early before Alty’s alarm clock went off. I showered, gathered my gear and went down to the Alley to start working. This year, I was only hoping to hit $200 at least. If I hit that, I could pay off some things and have extra for food. Just enough to relax. I hit that in under 2 ½ hours. TWO AND A HALF HOURS. I was surprised. From there, I was mostly sketching out a badge for myself since I didn’t really print out my badge that I made. So most of my time in the Alley was collecting commissions and just mingling with the con-goers. I was in a great mood, believe me. Sleep after a few days of insomnia? It leaves a person feeling good, I tell you that! After 2:45 hit, I just packed up and got out, letting Gunmouth take over my seat. I went to visit my friends in the dealer’s den and see penty of old friends that I missed so much and got to hug again. It was all around fun for me. I made some new friends, reconnect with some old ones and even talk to a few I wanted to, but never had the courage to.
Most things were a blur. I came back down to the Alley later at night to see who’s around later in the night. Shockingly enough, it was damn near empty. It surprised me since it would be a great place for many people to go and work in while the dealer’s room is shut down for the day. But no. Instead, I went back to my room and worked for the night, calling commissioners up to check on their badges being made and letting them be. I hate to say this, but there are just too many black-furred badges. I have to restock on dark gray pencils soon! I’m not complaining, though. I had the most fun drawing them.
Saturday: I got up in the morning again and skipped breakfast to head on down to the Alley. I decided to raise the cap by another hundred. If I didn’t hit it, it’s okay. But I was not going to stay too terribly long in the Alley since Alty brought me there solely for fun, not for work. But I wanted to make some money, so I decided to and also have a few hours of just talking to customers. But surprise surprise, many people wanted badges. In the end, I collected around far more than enough. I closed down and just headed up to my room. Turns out Alty’s mom came over to the con. Al they invited me for something to eat around 3 and I rushed up to my room to finish a few badges that were due before 5PM. A few friends would come up, hang out as I work (And customers, too!). We had a few great laughs, finished things and went down to the alley to laminate so everyone is on their merry way. From there, Savage Shark and I went off to get something to eat at the Metro Café (Ate there a lot, don’t judge me.).
I went up to the room to work a little more before Sean decided to call me and get me to come down to the Alley to work and hang. So, I went to the elevator. Bear in mind, I’m on the 34th floor at the Westin. I’m standing there with a small family, two fursuiters and someone. Then suddenly a con-goer appears in a drunken stupor. Under his arm is an EMERGENCY EXIT SIGN. One of his friends asks, then starts dying of laughter. He tried to hand it off to one of us (We all refused immediately), he runs off and LITERALLY RIPS OFF ANOTHER ONE to walk back over with it under his arm. Now this made me extremely uncomfortable. This person is destroying the hotel and his friend was just laughing.
I’m sorry, but you’re endangering other people by removing exit signs that denote where to go. People are not smart and won’t stop to look around to put two and two together. So it was a stupid fuckin move. Plus, I really don’t want the hotel to ban us just for one person’s blunder. Anyways, I needed to get away because I don’t do well around those who are completely shitfaced. I start to panic. So I said fuck it to my knees and walked down the stairs all the way to the 8th floor. I was in a lot of pain. But I bore it just to get the fuck away.
I get over to the table where Sean was sitting, we sat and talked and just worked away. It was fun. Hell, I had a few trying to commission me after I had long said I’m closed. Those who tried I just told that it’ll be take-home commissions. No one took it. But then, at the corner of my eye, I see someone selling these MINECRAFT CREEPER STATUES. Made out of beads. The head turns and all! I just couldn’t fuckin help myself. I just had to have it. He sold it to me for twelve bucks and I’m just so happy with it. I sat back down, finished working and calling customers to pick up their badges.
From there, it was around midnight. So saying my farewells to Sean, I went over to the Metro for some French toast. Where I met two ladies who I thought it was the two I was talking to and sitting near to in the alley. So without thinking, I asked them to join me. We all sit down and just talk. They were pretty drunk. That’s when they ask, “So, which convention are you here for?” My brain stopped. “Uh… FWA.” With a smile. They smile and nodded, “We’re here for the vampire diaries convention at the Sheraton!” (Incase you didn’t know. Yes, there are. Hosted by EyeCon.). Well, this made me feel extremely uncomfortable and awkward. So I made up an excuse without even hinting that I am that my roommate needs me. So I grabbed my food and headed out. I really need to pay more attention to people around me. From there, I went up to my room, went on Tumblr for a bit and then went to sleep. Saturday was very exhausting.
Sunday: Sunday was no different. It was more exhausting than before, honestly. We woke up around 11 in the morning. Our checkout is in an hour. Originally, I was going to wake up, see my friends again and find a spot to just sit and work on commissions I owe. Turns out we were rushing to head down and check out. We waited for the elevator for more than 45 minutes and there I am standing with about ninety pounds of weight on my shoulders. This convention was more about trying to get up and down from your room than anything else. So we put everything in the car. I only had about three hours left before we head back on the road towards my house. Which it sucked but there’s nothing I can really say since it’s Kasi’s car I came in. So I wandered, saying my farewells to my good friends and hope we’ll meet in person again soon.
I went to get a gyro at this place called GREAT WRAPS in the mall thing. Worst idea ever. They’re expensive and their food was not that good. Ten bucks for a gyro with only lettuce in it and the sauce and some fries with a bit of cheese slathered in it. No. Fuck that place I’m never going back there. So I bought a thick ass pizza from nearby and ate that too. Alty lost his credit card and flipped out. So I calmed him down, emptied his wallet and jacket. Then I offered to go with him to the mall again (since we were there). He went to call his bank to claim that it’s lost/stolen. He could only leave a message. When we went back, the people at the pizza place saw him, held his card up and shouted out to him. So Alty was overjoyed to get his card and thanked me for being a persistent bitch. From there, we piled into the car and drove home. I sat about and just told my tales to my roommates after they were hugging the fuck out of me. It seems that I was greatly missed and the house was depressingly quiet. (At least they didn’t say “WE MISSED YOUR COOKING”) I was deeply appreciated. That made me very happy. I went to bed around midnight since I was just so tired.
And so, here I am. I’m taking today off to rest up. From there, I’ll start sketching up ALL the commissions I currently owe to get them nice and prepared to be worked on. Both commissions from the cons and online. I am thankful for those who are ever so patient with me and even paying me to draw you something. It really shows that I am worth it. The con was worth it and I needed it badly after 5 months of being inside the house, working myself to the bone to keep my roommates fed.
Tomorrow, I’m off too since, well… IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! I turn 27 tomorrow. If you feel that you’d like to give me a present, I have plenty of games on Steam that I would love! If you can’t, then wishing me a happy birthday will make me super happy. Hell, just say Happy Birthday and that’ll make my day. C:
Welp, I’m off to go to the store to get things for the house. Thank you for reading, thank you for coming to see me at my table at the con or coming up to talk to me! And above all, thank you for being patient with me!
Thursday: Well Thursday marked almost the third day and my body was not going to take that sort of shit from my brain’s antics. I got in the car around eight-ish to head from Greenville, South Carolina (Staying at Kasi’s house) to Atlanta, Georgia. I tried sleeping in there and it just horribly failed. So I looked like a walking zombie throughout the Westin when we arrived. I found some of my friends, but was just not at all in my head. The brain went on vacation while the body was just wandering about in search of a spot to just flop down on. My legs were sore, but the body just won’t sleep.
I finally found Dagger Leonelli (Friend back in Florida that I missed so much), she and I went on to go get some nachos from Hard Rock Café. It makes me overjoyed that there are some workers there who were very concerned over my diet when I mentioned that I can’t have jalapenos in my food (Being that it’ll kill me. Not as an allergy, but my GI track being violent). We sat down with other artists in the lobby area, I got to enjoy looking through the Journey art book and just talking away. So after a while of walking around and just hunting about for my friends I hadn’t seen in a long time, I went up to the room to shower and just blog about on things. That’s when sleep finally hit me around 9:30. Excitedly (as I could be) I went to the bed and laid down. I was out like a light.
Friday: I woke up early before Alty’s alarm clock went off. I showered, gathered my gear and went down to the Alley to start working. This year, I was only hoping to hit $200 at least. If I hit that, I could pay off some things and have extra for food. Just enough to relax. I hit that in under 2 ½ hours. TWO AND A HALF HOURS. I was surprised. From there, I was mostly sketching out a badge for myself since I didn’t really print out my badge that I made. So most of my time in the Alley was collecting commissions and just mingling with the con-goers. I was in a great mood, believe me. Sleep after a few days of insomnia? It leaves a person feeling good, I tell you that! After 2:45 hit, I just packed up and got out, letting Gunmouth take over my seat. I went to visit my friends in the dealer’s den and see penty of old friends that I missed so much and got to hug again. It was all around fun for me. I made some new friends, reconnect with some old ones and even talk to a few I wanted to, but never had the courage to.
Most things were a blur. I came back down to the Alley later at night to see who’s around later in the night. Shockingly enough, it was damn near empty. It surprised me since it would be a great place for many people to go and work in while the dealer’s room is shut down for the day. But no. Instead, I went back to my room and worked for the night, calling commissioners up to check on their badges being made and letting them be. I hate to say this, but there are just too many black-furred badges. I have to restock on dark gray pencils soon! I’m not complaining, though. I had the most fun drawing them.
Saturday: I got up in the morning again and skipped breakfast to head on down to the Alley. I decided to raise the cap by another hundred. If I didn’t hit it, it’s okay. But I was not going to stay too terribly long in the Alley since Alty brought me there solely for fun, not for work. But I wanted to make some money, so I decided to and also have a few hours of just talking to customers. But surprise surprise, many people wanted badges. In the end, I collected around far more than enough. I closed down and just headed up to my room. Turns out Alty’s mom came over to the con. Al they invited me for something to eat around 3 and I rushed up to my room to finish a few badges that were due before 5PM. A few friends would come up, hang out as I work (And customers, too!). We had a few great laughs, finished things and went down to the alley to laminate so everyone is on their merry way. From there, Savage Shark and I went off to get something to eat at the Metro Café (Ate there a lot, don’t judge me.).
I went up to the room to work a little more before Sean decided to call me and get me to come down to the Alley to work and hang. So, I went to the elevator. Bear in mind, I’m on the 34th floor at the Westin. I’m standing there with a small family, two fursuiters and someone. Then suddenly a con-goer appears in a drunken stupor. Under his arm is an EMERGENCY EXIT SIGN. One of his friends asks, then starts dying of laughter. He tried to hand it off to one of us (We all refused immediately), he runs off and LITERALLY RIPS OFF ANOTHER ONE to walk back over with it under his arm. Now this made me extremely uncomfortable. This person is destroying the hotel and his friend was just laughing.
I’m sorry, but you’re endangering other people by removing exit signs that denote where to go. People are not smart and won’t stop to look around to put two and two together. So it was a stupid fuckin move. Plus, I really don’t want the hotel to ban us just for one person’s blunder. Anyways, I needed to get away because I don’t do well around those who are completely shitfaced. I start to panic. So I said fuck it to my knees and walked down the stairs all the way to the 8th floor. I was in a lot of pain. But I bore it just to get the fuck away.
I get over to the table where Sean was sitting, we sat and talked and just worked away. It was fun. Hell, I had a few trying to commission me after I had long said I’m closed. Those who tried I just told that it’ll be take-home commissions. No one took it. But then, at the corner of my eye, I see someone selling these MINECRAFT CREEPER STATUES. Made out of beads. The head turns and all! I just couldn’t fuckin help myself. I just had to have it. He sold it to me for twelve bucks and I’m just so happy with it. I sat back down, finished working and calling customers to pick up their badges.
From there, it was around midnight. So saying my farewells to Sean, I went over to the Metro for some French toast. Where I met two ladies who I thought it was the two I was talking to and sitting near to in the alley. So without thinking, I asked them to join me. We all sit down and just talk. They were pretty drunk. That’s when they ask, “So, which convention are you here for?” My brain stopped. “Uh… FWA.” With a smile. They smile and nodded, “We’re here for the vampire diaries convention at the Sheraton!” (Incase you didn’t know. Yes, there are. Hosted by EyeCon.). Well, this made me feel extremely uncomfortable and awkward. So I made up an excuse without even hinting that I am that my roommate needs me. So I grabbed my food and headed out. I really need to pay more attention to people around me. From there, I went up to my room, went on Tumblr for a bit and then went to sleep. Saturday was very exhausting.
Sunday: Sunday was no different. It was more exhausting than before, honestly. We woke up around 11 in the morning. Our checkout is in an hour. Originally, I was going to wake up, see my friends again and find a spot to just sit and work on commissions I owe. Turns out we were rushing to head down and check out. We waited for the elevator for more than 45 minutes and there I am standing with about ninety pounds of weight on my shoulders. This convention was more about trying to get up and down from your room than anything else. So we put everything in the car. I only had about three hours left before we head back on the road towards my house. Which it sucked but there’s nothing I can really say since it’s Kasi’s car I came in. So I wandered, saying my farewells to my good friends and hope we’ll meet in person again soon.
I went to get a gyro at this place called GREAT WRAPS in the mall thing. Worst idea ever. They’re expensive and their food was not that good. Ten bucks for a gyro with only lettuce in it and the sauce and some fries with a bit of cheese slathered in it. No. Fuck that place I’m never going back there. So I bought a thick ass pizza from nearby and ate that too. Alty lost his credit card and flipped out. So I calmed him down, emptied his wallet and jacket. Then I offered to go with him to the mall again (since we were there). He went to call his bank to claim that it’s lost/stolen. He could only leave a message. When we went back, the people at the pizza place saw him, held his card up and shouted out to him. So Alty was overjoyed to get his card and thanked me for being a persistent bitch. From there, we piled into the car and drove home. I sat about and just told my tales to my roommates after they were hugging the fuck out of me. It seems that I was greatly missed and the house was depressingly quiet. (At least they didn’t say “WE MISSED YOUR COOKING”) I was deeply appreciated. That made me very happy. I went to bed around midnight since I was just so tired.
And so, here I am. I’m taking today off to rest up. From there, I’ll start sketching up ALL the commissions I currently owe to get them nice and prepared to be worked on. Both commissions from the cons and online. I am thankful for those who are ever so patient with me and even paying me to draw you something. It really shows that I am worth it. The con was worth it and I needed it badly after 5 months of being inside the house, working myself to the bone to keep my roommates fed.
Tomorrow, I’m off too since, well… IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! I turn 27 tomorrow. If you feel that you’d like to give me a present, I have plenty of games on Steam that I would love! If you can’t, then wishing me a happy birthday will make me super happy. Hell, just say Happy Birthday and that’ll make my day. C:
Welp, I’m off to go to the store to get things for the house. Thank you for reading, thank you for coming to see me at my table at the con or coming up to talk to me! And above all, thank you for being patient with me!
Update on stuff.
Posted 12 years agoSince I failed to do this on the first month OF THE FUCKIN YEAR, I might as well do it now!
First off, I'm deeply sorry but I won't be attending any conventions this year. I just moved around five or so months ago. I'm still struggling to get my bearings straight. I know, I'm sorry. I want to go to cons again soon but I don't want to risk things here. Better to go prepared than to go half-assed.
I might. MIGHT. Make it to FWA. I don't know just yet. Many of the people I hang with won't be going so I'll feel lonely. :C
Second of all, My birthday is in 14 days! I'm going to be 27 on the 19th! WOO~
Yeah, looking forward to being closer to 30th. I know a lot of awesome people who are in their 30s. This year, I'm not asking for candy for my birthday. Fatty McFatterton ate what I had left (Talking to you, Sable! D<).
I don't want much. but I have a list of games I would like to own on my steam!(Click here to view what I want!) And if you feel cheap and you're an artist, draw me something! And if you're not wanting to give me crap, just saying "Happy Birthday" puts the biggest smile on my face. Just saying the words means the whole world to me. C:
That aside, I'm pushing as hard as I could to finish up what I owe to everyone. Mix in new commissions with ones that I owe from months back. So thank you for being patient with me~
I'll also be finishing up the emergency sketches I owe, too!
And if you follow me on Twitter/Tumblr/Facebook, you'll be updated on almost everything!
That's about it. Thanks for reading~
First off, I'm deeply sorry but I won't be attending any conventions this year. I just moved around five or so months ago. I'm still struggling to get my bearings straight. I know, I'm sorry. I want to go to cons again soon but I don't want to risk things here. Better to go prepared than to go half-assed.
I might. MIGHT. Make it to FWA. I don't know just yet. Many of the people I hang with won't be going so I'll feel lonely. :C
Second of all, My birthday is in 14 days! I'm going to be 27 on the 19th! WOO~
Yeah, looking forward to being closer to 30th. I know a lot of awesome people who are in their 30s. This year, I'm not asking for candy for my birthday. Fatty McFatterton ate what I had left (Talking to you, Sable! D<).
I don't want much. but I have a list of games I would like to own on my steam!(Click here to view what I want!) And if you feel cheap and you're an artist, draw me something! And if you're not wanting to give me crap, just saying "Happy Birthday" puts the biggest smile on my face. Just saying the words means the whole world to me. C:
That aside, I'm pushing as hard as I could to finish up what I owe to everyone. Mix in new commissions with ones that I owe from months back. So thank you for being patient with me~
I'll also be finishing up the emergency sketches I owe, too!
And if you follow me on Twitter/Tumblr/Facebook, you'll be updated on almost everything!
That's about it. Thanks for reading~
My take on DmC (Demo)
Posted 13 years agoIf you don't like what I'm going to say, please don't say it. I will hide it. No drama. End of story.
I can’t say I’m really thrilled about the game in the first place. I never liked the new appearance of both Dante and Vergil, their family history background and how they act. But most of all: The plot and story. Normally I let that sort of stuff go. I was taught to never judge a book by its cover. It can be something more than just a visually altered from the norm.
So, I downloaded the demo on my flatmate’s XBox 360. Just to give it a try. It wouldn’t hurt to stop drawing for a while just to play through it and get a good feel… Right?
Right?
Sadly, I was wrong. I played through it on normal (since playing in “Human” Mode seems like an insult. Even to me who is not an all around Melee or First Person shooter type). The playthrough was tricky. Not because I’m not used to it, but because sometimes when you do certain moves, it just misfires. And I can’t say it’s the XBox controller or the console. Now, I’m a quick learner. I catch on pretty quickly. But this made it hard. I can say I enjoyed the three different types of weapons in one sword, but it’s a little confusing on which one I had to use for certain places. One thing that pissed me off the most was the jump-dash bit at the church. I died quite a few times trying to get it right. It was very annoying.
It can be a decent game with a few more tweaks on the actual gameplay. It was a bit slow, but it’s a fuckin demo. I don’t expect it to be perfect at the moment.
I just wished they hadn’t rushed through the beginning of the story… That right there pissed me off more than anything. I was confused and lost. So now, he’s a demon-angel hybrid? And Sparda’s alive? Weird…
I like my original DMC series and I’ll stick with it. This one? Well, it’ll only be rent-worthy over being purchased to keep permanently.
I can’t say I’m really thrilled about the game in the first place. I never liked the new appearance of both Dante and Vergil, their family history background and how they act. But most of all: The plot and story. Normally I let that sort of stuff go. I was taught to never judge a book by its cover. It can be something more than just a visually altered from the norm.
So, I downloaded the demo on my flatmate’s XBox 360. Just to give it a try. It wouldn’t hurt to stop drawing for a while just to play through it and get a good feel… Right?
Right?
Sadly, I was wrong. I played through it on normal (since playing in “Human” Mode seems like an insult. Even to me who is not an all around Melee or First Person shooter type). The playthrough was tricky. Not because I’m not used to it, but because sometimes when you do certain moves, it just misfires. And I can’t say it’s the XBox controller or the console. Now, I’m a quick learner. I catch on pretty quickly. But this made it hard. I can say I enjoyed the three different types of weapons in one sword, but it’s a little confusing on which one I had to use for certain places. One thing that pissed me off the most was the jump-dash bit at the church. I died quite a few times trying to get it right. It was very annoying.
It can be a decent game with a few more tweaks on the actual gameplay. It was a bit slow, but it’s a fuckin demo. I don’t expect it to be perfect at the moment.
I just wished they hadn’t rushed through the beginning of the story… That right there pissed me off more than anything. I was confused and lost. So now, he’s a demon-angel hybrid? And Sparda’s alive? Weird…
I like my original DMC series and I’ll stick with it. This one? Well, it’ll only be rent-worthy over being purchased to keep permanently.
AC12 Aftermath (CONCLUSION)
Posted 13 years agoI DEEPLY APOLOGIZE ABOUT THE MULTIPOSTING. My internet is being a glitchy bitch.It was a blast. A mother. Fucking. BLAST.
I had so much fun and no drama at all. I was only pissy about someone else being a total two-faced jerk to one of my close buds. But otherwise? A whole lot of fun.
Wednesday night, I flew in and just talked most of the night away until I was too tired to even talk. I got to snuggle up against sabledrakon since it's been a year that I've got to. I was very content at his side. I like to thank Shax's friend who went out of his way and came to the airport to pick me up at the last minute. I owe you a sketch big time for wasting your time, man!
Thursday I mostly hung around duo and my gang about the zoo and in his room. I was already registered AS THIS by accident. I went back later and fixed it. Otherwise, I was waiting around for scappo to arrive. From there it was just more talking and simply having great conversations.
Friday started the fun. I tried working, but I had to jump back and forth while making blackbelt's impurity seals for his angry marine internet meme suit. It was very clunky and heavy. Hopefully this is a lesson to be learned to use lighter, more efficient materials so it's both easier to transport and to move around in. He was drunk most of the time in it. Work was a bit slow, but good. Granted that it's only day one. My friends got me a new shirt, plenty of buttons and this awesome ferret plushie. It's awesome and fucking cute. I love it~
When the night came, I went over to Fossil's work room. From there, I decided to get my very first TATTOO. I thought it would hurt, but guess again. Thanks to my high level of pain tolerance, I didn't give lip, quip, whine or complaint on it. I took it like a fuckin boss. Here's the vid throughout the whole thing. With the audio working! http://youtu.be/nV9jUkwrvTk
And I learned a good lesson here: Whenever you get a new tattoo, everyone will GRAVITATE TOWARDS IT. I swear, not even two hours later Alty kept smacking into it or pushing against it. It hurt like hell but I had too much of an endorphin rush to show it much. 6 hours later, it doesn't hurt at all. Only itchy. So, I'm well on my way to healing really easily. It's a good thing it's on my left shoulder-blade since I sleep on my right.
Saturday. That's when people started piling in. I saw a lot of my buds like GunMouth, Kamicheetah, Faint, Fluff-kevlar, Nek0Gami, Buttercupsaiyan, Gnaw, Maxblackrabbit, Papithefox, Eziel, DMK, Iggi, AgentElrond, and cubiShax. When the sushi get-together came, I invited Gami to join me and my buds (Sable, hysterium and bethany ) What I didn't expect is that he brought his crew too. Which included the ever so popular DAS BO SSCHITT. Apparently Sable is a fan of his stuff and filled me in just slightly. Granted, I saw some and I really liked it, but not enough to fangirl. So I got to sit and chat away with him, have a few good laughs. He's a pretty chill guy and it's great to make friends with him. We all got to talk and have plenty of laughs. That night was just moreso people hanging around, playing games and talking away. Sales were okay, too. After coming back to the room, I crashed out on the bed with some friends, had a lot of laughs that were just from plain silliness (that makes us look like we're high on something)
Sunday. The day where things came to a crawl. Sales were slow, but it gave me a chance to just kick back and talk with my friends. I mostly ate out with Duo, Dani and Darrak and had flat out fun. Just stuck around friends, get art for Sable and Bethany since they are just too great to me (And happy Father's day to darrak and jackalrem since They are the only dads I know!) So, my night ended with my lovey in my arms.
Monday was the day I flew out and came home to be ready for class at 8 in the morning.
In conclusion, I had fun. I didn't get to drink with anyone alcohol-wise... but I had fun nonetheless. And that's what made it all worthwhile. I might have an itchy back due to the tattoo for a while, but it's all worth it.
Thanks yo everyone for making it the most memorable, drama-free convention. EVER!
Though, I'm not sure if I'll make it to next year. I heard rumors stating that it'll be on the 4th of July weekend. Prices for plane tickets are incredibly high when it comes to holidays. So, I might have to back out of this one sadly.
But let's stay hopeful. Also, I will be taking a small hiatus until next week Tuesday hits. It gives me some time to rest my already murderous wrist.
And to top it all off, here are some vids that Sable took!
http://youtu.be/2kbNx1IjrWQ
http://youtu.be/HMIpMYJXae4
http://youtu.be/e6X3JFW5Ka0
Life Updates (March)
Posted 13 years agoDuring the con, my tablet's USB cable broke. Lucky for me, my bud 
gave me a spare he doesn't use at all. It's good for laptops since I'm always in need of short cords.
Sadly, when I got home the cable itself is too short for my desktop. My current employer for a fanbase comic (Will tell all when he releases such. I'm on a strict contract to not tell anyone sadly) gave me a little extra cash to get the right length. He always throws money for me to help me out when it comes to work.
Plus, with projects for class being done, artwork and commissions have been gravely delayed. I'm deeply sorry to ask of this, but I need my commissioners to be patient. I'm not saying that they're RIGHT NOW bothering me about their commissions. I am v ery thankful that everyone is keeping calm and chilling with me.
My life is not getting better. More stress is put on me since people in my family are going stark raving mad. At least my mother is starting to see that all the blame put on me are lies just from living here temporarily. And of course they make it a complete struggle to keep up with my classes. But, that's besides the point.
I have about one month left of classes so if you can sit tight and wait a smidge longer, I can get one or two done a week. Slowly, but surely.
Another problem is that while I was away at FWA2012, I strictly told the family that my sister in particular is NOT ALLOWED TO DRIVE MY CAR while I'm gone. The only one allowed to is my mother. You see, my sister has this habit of breaking my things when it's in her possession temporarily. She blew the transmission out in my previously owned car and had it stranded in Deltona, FL. While I was asleep and unaware. She then scrapped it without getting my tags back.
Well, When I tried to drive my own car on my birthday to my class, the car died. Luckily, my uncle was within the area and came over to see what's wrong. The alternator blew out for the second time. Turns out that someone left something on in the car. then, I was told that my sister was driving it on Saturday. I had that care for only a month and she has it for one day, it breaks.
So now, I'm car-less until my mother coughs up the money. She agreed to pay since it was her fault for handing over the keys in the first place. Though, I somewhat understood since her care's radiator was being repaired and that alone took two whole days.
Are you starting to see a pattern on why I'm mostly angry or irritated?
Also, if you're going to Elliot's Spring Gathering, I will be there with a few of my buds. Not sure if I'll be there the whole weekend or not. Here is to hoping, though.
I am definitely going to Anthrocon 2012, I have a table paid off and ready to be used when I get there. I'll also be doing a few commission specials to make a few quick bucks here and there.
And another thing, if you haven't seen it yet, I have a tumblr account. I post up art concepts I've done and even blogs of stuff that bothers me the most.
There will be a new blog posted up regarding FWA for people to read. So keep an eye out on it.
http://syraeuniverse.tumblr.com/
That wraps things up. See you around.
PS: There will be a new BSD page soon. Sorry for the massive delay. Life is shit. Period. +_+
gave me a spare he doesn't use at all. It's good for laptops since I'm always in need of short cords. Sadly, when I got home the cable itself is too short for my desktop. My current employer for a fanbase comic (Will tell all when he releases such. I'm on a strict contract to not tell anyone sadly) gave me a little extra cash to get the right length. He always throws money for me to help me out when it comes to work.
Plus, with projects for class being done, artwork and commissions have been gravely delayed. I'm deeply sorry to ask of this, but I need my commissioners to be patient. I'm not saying that they're RIGHT NOW bothering me about their commissions. I am v ery thankful that everyone is keeping calm and chilling with me.
My life is not getting better. More stress is put on me since people in my family are going stark raving mad. At least my mother is starting to see that all the blame put on me are lies just from living here temporarily. And of course they make it a complete struggle to keep up with my classes. But, that's besides the point.
I have about one month left of classes so if you can sit tight and wait a smidge longer, I can get one or two done a week. Slowly, but surely.
Another problem is that while I was away at FWA2012, I strictly told the family that my sister in particular is NOT ALLOWED TO DRIVE MY CAR while I'm gone. The only one allowed to is my mother. You see, my sister has this habit of breaking my things when it's in her possession temporarily. She blew the transmission out in my previously owned car and had it stranded in Deltona, FL. While I was asleep and unaware. She then scrapped it without getting my tags back.
Well, When I tried to drive my own car on my birthday to my class, the car died. Luckily, my uncle was within the area and came over to see what's wrong. The alternator blew out for the second time. Turns out that someone left something on in the car. then, I was told that my sister was driving it on Saturday. I had that care for only a month and she has it for one day, it breaks.
So now, I'm car-less until my mother coughs up the money. She agreed to pay since it was her fault for handing over the keys in the first place. Though, I somewhat understood since her care's radiator was being repaired and that alone took two whole days.
Are you starting to see a pattern on why I'm mostly angry or irritated?
Also, if you're going to Elliot's Spring Gathering, I will be there with a few of my buds. Not sure if I'll be there the whole weekend or not. Here is to hoping, though.
I am definitely going to Anthrocon 2012, I have a table paid off and ready to be used when I get there. I'll also be doing a few commission specials to make a few quick bucks here and there.
And another thing, if you haven't seen it yet, I have a tumblr account. I post up art concepts I've done and even blogs of stuff that bothers me the most.
There will be a new blog posted up regarding FWA for people to read. So keep an eye out on it.
http://syraeuniverse.tumblr.com/
That wraps things up. See you around.
PS: There will be a new BSD page soon. Sorry for the massive delay. Life is shit. Period. +_+
FWA12 Aftermath (CONCLUSION)
Posted 13 years agoA lot of good things happened. Some great things happened, very few bad things hit, but overlooked. A lot happened that can't be explained right now (probably ever) after I just flew in 9:30AM EST, spent time with my family before I went to class at 12:30PM. I only had about 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night.
There was so much that came and went, but the one thing I was a little upset was that I didn't make the quota of 400 as I promised myself to get there. Hell, I barely hit the 200 mark on the last day. It was disappointing, but you win some and then you lose some. I can only make it up at Elliot's in May and Anthrocon in June. If I graduate from college on the 27th next month, that is.
All I can say is that I was left completely drained and exhausted. I did get to see and hang with some of my good friends, long (but never forgotten) friends from many years ago, newfound friends, have plenty of laughs and tell stories of old and new. But, at the same time it made me look at myself and notice that I need to lay off of certain things since it's being taken a little too far and signs of restraint were seen weakened. It left me a little worried about many things. But, that's just my self-esteem talking.
I have 3-4 commissions from the convention to complete, so I'm going to try and kill those off as much as possible. So those who did get commissions from me there, please be a smidge patient. I am in college. College takes up time. I'm really sorry.
And finally... Today, I'm another year older. Whoo! I'm happy to be 26 now. I hope to see 30 someday. So, I'm keeping myself safe as much as possible. Otherwise, there's nothing else I can do.
Anyways, that's it. I might end up passing out in the middle of class. I'm just too tired after all this work for a con.
There was so much that came and went, but the one thing I was a little upset was that I didn't make the quota of 400 as I promised myself to get there. Hell, I barely hit the 200 mark on the last day. It was disappointing, but you win some and then you lose some. I can only make it up at Elliot's in May and Anthrocon in June. If I graduate from college on the 27th next month, that is.
All I can say is that I was left completely drained and exhausted. I did get to see and hang with some of my good friends, long (but never forgotten) friends from many years ago, newfound friends, have plenty of laughs and tell stories of old and new. But, at the same time it made me look at myself and notice that I need to lay off of certain things since it's being taken a little too far and signs of restraint were seen weakened. It left me a little worried about many things. But, that's just my self-esteem talking.
I have 3-4 commissions from the convention to complete, so I'm going to try and kill those off as much as possible. So those who did get commissions from me there, please be a smidge patient. I am in college. College takes up time. I'm really sorry.
And finally... Today, I'm another year older. Whoo! I'm happy to be 26 now. I hope to see 30 someday. So, I'm keeping myself safe as much as possible. Otherwise, there's nothing else I can do.
Anyways, that's it. I might end up passing out in the middle of class. I'm just too tired after all this work for a con.
+ Official Art Queue List
Posted 15 years agoCURRENT LIST (IN NO ORDER)
Please click here to see photo of to-do list.
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