I am moving on from FA. I find myself posting 110% more content to twitter and its where I do the majority of social interaction. You can find me there as cruxaholic if you so choose to follow me there.

So, I am nearly done with this identity and I may be moving on to a different account handle. (again.)
so come new years I will probably start to migrate to a different account that wont have me name locked to something/someone I am not!

Entirely up to you guys if you'd like to follow me onward, However its not necessary.

Ive mostly stopped uploading to this account though. Im just in the process of figuring out where to go from here. I want a seperate identity for my crux character that isnt tied to an account name I dont really own anymore.

Happy new years/ Happy holidays!

So, my plans for the rest of the year are:

-new vehicle
-MFF 2015
-New and improved Helix suit in November.
-New full time job that doesnt suck donkey nuts.

not a whole lot, but its stuff to finally be able to look forward to.

The dankest meme of Furcon memes.

Where are you staying?
GSR

What day are you getting there?
Wednesday afternoon

How are you getting there?
magic fucking carpet

Who will you be rooming with?
A bunch of dudes

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
The fucking Pope

What is the best way to find you?
spin around 3 times while shouting CRUX PLS

Are there any panels you might be attending?
nah.

What do you look like?
Some stupid canadian

Will you be suiting?
yeah.

What is your gender?
mayonaisse

How tall are you?
5'10

Are you mated/in a relationship?
With vodka

Can I talk to you?
Im not mute. talk to me.

Can I touch you?
Hands above the belt, homo.

Can I visit your room?
Probably not.

Can I buy you drinks?
Certainly

Can I give you stuff?
Maybe.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
You can hug me. snuggles are reserved.

Are you nice?
I could be.

How long are you going?
wednesday afternoon til monday morning.

Do you have an artist table?
nah

Will you be going to parties?
If im invited to any!

Will you be performing?
dollar bills are to be placed securely into my waistband

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
like a normal human being and talking to me.

Can I look in your sketchbook?
I dont draw!

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
ey b0ss gib me de free art pls

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Depends.

Can I take your picture?
Suit photos only unless stated otherwise

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Party, fursuit, talk to people, consume alcohols, meet people, the basic con things to do.

As things stand right now, I dont think it would be a wise choice to be going to this thing. Education funds need to come first, and im starting to dip into my last hundreds. I have a birthday coming up and if I have the extra dosh I may go, but at this point, Its probably not going to happen.
Not really upset about it, but whatever. BLFC isnt too far off from that and I do plan on going to Reno.

I have a bad habit of not being able to say no to people. Its getting to the point where people are expecting me to do shit for free, and that's not cool. I'm not your personal slave taxi, I'm not your local bank ATM, and I'm definitely not going to cater to every need on a silver platter.

That's it. If I pay you for a commission, I better fucking get that commission or I get my money back. Spent the money already? too bad. Fucking terrible business tactics. I am sick of being shoved around. I am done dishing money to people that make little to no effort to repay. quit begging me to commission. Don't spend money you don't have, and when you fuck up, don't pull the "I already spent it though" card. You fucked up, you're accountable for that fuck-up, own up to it, and fix it. People respect someone that owns up to their shitshow rather than the person that runs around making up fucking stupid excuses.

I'm not calling anyone out here, I'm just pissed off that I am being used. It just makes me trust people less and less.
If you wrong me, I will hold it to you. When the time comes, when you least expect it, I will make sure it comes back to remind you. Done with the pussy shit.

That is all.

- an angry crux.

So, Helix has been itching to get into some trouble. but not that kind of trouble.

Give him some winter fun ideas! He's already bombed around on a Sled, what else do you want to see him do?

for those that dont know the extent of WARRANTY VOID, Here you go.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycqPMGSj_2M

So im finally getting around to this since my health has improved enough so that I can actually sit infront of my computer and not want to instantly vomit.

MFF was fun! It was the biggest Con ive been to yet and what I probably liked the most out of everything was the constant population of fursuiters. didn't really matter what time it was because all day every hour was "prime' fursuiting time.

I wanted to go play hockey but I didn't feel like paying the extra baggage fee for my hockey gear. next year maybe.

I also met so many people and that made me so extremely happy. you know who you are!!! It felt like time flew past way too quickly though, Next year I will probably head down there Wednesday night or Thursday morning so I dont feel like ive only been there for a few hours.

the evac thing didnt really bother me much, I was kinda drunk and mostly confused so I just brushed it off as random con crap. I did smell it from the lobby though. Then I spent sunday doing other things and sleeping, so i only got maybe an hour of social time before I had to go catch my flight.

In the end, I will definitely be making a repeat appearance to this con. Likely will rent a single room again and just do my own thing, that was kinda nice. no roomies or annoying cellphone alarms in the morning for once, and having a bed that doesnt wreak havoc on my back.

OH GOD ITS HAPPENING AGAIN

Where are you staying?
Main Hotel.

What day are you getting there?
So far it looks like thursday night or friday morning.

How are you getting there?
Pony express

Who will you be rooming with?
if I can sort out the rooming catastrophe im in, i could tell you.

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Giant animals

What is the best way to find you?
My ears take up 50% of the conspace. you'll know it when i smack you with one.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
I heard there was some sort of hockey thing going on friday so I might do that.

What do you look like?
the flannel master

Will you be suiting?
DUH

What is your gender?
Cis gender pyro fox

How tall are you?
5'10

Are you mated/in a relationship?
hell no

Can I talk to you?
Im not mute. talk to me.

Can I touch you?
Hands above the belt, homo.

Can I visit your room?
Depends on who I room with and if they're fun nazi's.

Can I buy you drinks?
Certainly

Can I give you stuff?
Maybe.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
You can hug me. snuggles are reserved.

Are you nice?
I could be.

How long are you going?
probably thursday night to sunday night.

Do you have an artist table?
I sell cocaine and cocaine accessories

Will you be going to parties?
DUH

Will you be performing?
sure.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
point your box with the flashy light at me, that usually grabs my attention.

Can I look in your sketchbook?
I dont draw!

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
free art pls

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Ive never been to chicago so Ill likely be running in other groups.

Can I take your picture?
In suit, yes
Out of suit, youd better hope Im not sober.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Party, fursuit, talk to people, consume alcohols, meet people, the basic con things to do.

BE READY.

OKAY.

So i got there around 9:30 on wednesday and stayed the night at a friends house, then made my way over to the convention thursday afternoon.

THURSDAY:
-not a whole lot going on, bummed around a little bit, caught up on some napping and whatnot. Met my roomies.

FRIDAY:
-Suiting, suiting, suiting. Lots of fursuiting. Lots of running around. met people and the sort. Bought and consumed many alcohols.

SATURDAY:
-see above

SUNDAY:
-by far the best and worst day of my con. Sunday went well until around noon, then I got sad and whatever other PCD things follow.
Then night fell and I binge drank til I wore a traffic cone on my head and made a total butt out of myself. but thats okay, the next week will be filled with alcohol poisoning recovery. Had to be carried back to the room and I magically woke up still drunk in bed. I dont like teleporting when im drunk.

MONDAY:
-too sick to leave seattle, took refuge at my friends house who nursed my hangover with tea and fursuit repairs. Then I marathon'd GoT til late.

Thanks to: (if your name isnt here its because I dont remember / too lazy to locate FA handles ;w;)

 crimsonwulfe  jonouchimutt  vessi  wolfirotisha  nevermint




P.S.

you're all awesome.

DUMPING PHOTOS PREPARE YOUR ANUS

here we go again.

I stole this from  vessi deal with it.

-Staying at:
The Hilton

- Arrival and Departure?
Wednesday afternoon, Monday afternoon.

- Mode of transportation
Flying Tin can with seats and screaming children.

- Rooming with:
 vessi  nevermint and  wolfirotisha

- Who Will I likely see you with?
you wont. I will be in my room eating ramen or out on the streets selling opiates to kids.

or

with any of the roomies listed above, or whomever I drunkenly stumble into.

- Con Plans:
Be as Canadian as possible eh. Or just do things. fursuit etc.

- How can I find you?
I hang a collar with my badges on hip. Look for Helix.

- Do you do free art?
definitely not.

- Do you have prints/Cds?
No.

- Will you be going to parties?
DUH
if Im cool enough.

- Will you be performing?
fursuiting counts as performing so yes.

- Smoke?
No, I might vape a little but however.

- Drink
I drink til im awesome.

- Gender
Cis Gender Pyrofox.

- Can I hug you?
This is why i go to these things right? to get hugs from Giant animals.
All your hug are belong to me.

- Can I talk to you?
sure.

- Will you be at any panels?
Dont really know. I dont go to cons for the pannels.

- Can I touch you?
Buy me dinner first.

- Can I buy you drinks?
Incognito only. Im not legal enough for your united states of americunt

- How old are you?
19

- Can I snuggle with you?
it is possible.

- If you're pissed off, should I approach you?
I have a hard time believing that I will be pissed off.

- Are you nice?
Id like to believe so!

-Single or Taken?
Wizard

- Cliquey?
I try not to be but the most secure place for me is around people I know. They are nice, so I hightly doubt they will be against you coming up to talk/hang out or whatever be it.

- How tall?
Fun Sized

- Can I Take pictures of you?
In suit, yes
out of suit, I will include myself if I want to be in one.

- Will you get anything commissioned?
who knows. I just sold a bunch of stuff so I might with the extended budget.

- How can I get your attention?
no, the question should be how do I get YOUR attention?
but if you need me Find my twitter. Or yell at me doesnt matter.

- Can I ask you to dance at the raves?
depends on how much Liquid courage Ive had.


see you all there.

I had such an amazing time. where do I even begin.

Meeting some faces from the internet was probably the most terrifying yet exciting experience of the entire con. From this I gained a whole new level of social confidence and I met a few other spectacular people that made my first "major" con experience that much easier to deal with.

you guys know who you are, and I am so ever grateful that you were able to coax me out of my shell.

I did a lot of fursuiting. I had two extremely generous people tinker with my suit zipper and finally I was able to don the full crux suit. the reactions were exhillarating. I cant wait to be able to do this again at RF.

I am literally at my end with words to say about this whole thing right now, I am just glad I did this. I needed this badly.

If anyone has any photos of themselves with my critters, please send them my way Id love to see them!

I cant write the full experience on a phone, but this was by far one of the best experiences ive had in a long, long time. Made a bunch of new friends and met a few faces from other online interactions.

You know who you are, and i miss you all to bits right now. You guys made my con a huge success!

Next con in line is Rainfurrest. Oh my god i cannot wait.

I didnt post a Con meme or anything, but I am at RMFC right now.

a few things to consider if you do bump into me:

-Im broken. Bad knees, Broken back. PLEASE DO NOT PICK ME UP. I will break and be mad at you.
-being my first real con, I am absolutely lost and nervous. If I dont look like talking to you, or if I look unapproachable, please do, I dont bite.
-dont touch my butt.

I have both my suits here, one waiting on a zipper repair, but keep your eyes open for a red sergal or a blue striped crux. If not I wear my collar tags on my belt loops.

If im drunk, please bring me back to the nearest source of alcohol.

So yeah, I'll be there. look for the stripiest drunkest crux at the hotel and I 99.9% guarantee its probably me.

Come say Hi and junk!

Ive gotten a new suit. And then im going to bring it to Rainfurrest this fall so come say hi to him.

he doesnt bite

much

just be careful

You'll know it when you see it ;)

If any of you locals have a spot in a vehicle for a fursuit, specifically my sergal, I could toss you some dollar to have him brought to and from Rainfurrest?

let me know if you have the space for it, this is obviously months ahead of time but Id rather sort this out now than have to scramble weeks before.

Finally got more than a full nights sleep, im feeling a ton better, things in general are getting a ton better.

Since there are a bunch of people both local and online blablabla im going to indirectly thank those who have been around keeping my head level.

Where are you staying?
Hotel
What day are you getting there?
Friday Evening

Who will you be rooming with?
People

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
Anyone who wants to hang out really.

Are you attending any stage or public performances?
Lol, no.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
uhhhh, maybe.

Will you be suiting?
most likely.

Which suit(s) will you be bringing?
The serg.

Do you do free art?
I cant draw but I will gladly do an interpretive dance for you.

Do you do trades?
No

Do you do badges?
no

Do you do commissions?
no

What is your gender?
Platypus

How tall are you?
5'11"

Are you taken?
no

Can I talk to you?
Dont be a dink.

Can I touch you?
ask first. my old broken bones dont like being rustled.

How can I find you?
Red and white sergal, ill be wearing both badges for helix and syx.

Can I visit your room?
No

Can I buy you drinks?
Yes.

Can I give you stuff?
Depends on the stuff. No, I dont want your unborn children.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs only.

Are you nice?
I like to think that I am a decent individual, dont bring up drama and it will be all good.

How long are you going?
Friday evening til sunday afternoonish.

Do you have an artist table?
no

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
yell, scream frantically, whatever tickles your fancy.

Where will you be most of the time during the day(s)?
Con area either in suit with buddies and whatnot.

What/where will you be eating?
Wherever and whatever.

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Maybe.

Can I look in your sketchbook?
no

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
no

Can I take your picture?
Suit photos are preffered, but if my face does manage to find its way into photos then thats fine. Please ask first.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Get some much needed party time, sans drama.

Things are falling apart here. I have a younger sibling thats been admittied to the hospital indefinitely because of attempted suicides within two days.

Its mentally exhausting having to live through this again, so I cant guarantee my prescence anywhere outside of this city for a while until Im mentally stable enough to do so.

Im sorry for the doom and gloom journal but this is just how its going to be a for a bit.

regards,

syx/helix

Looking to start filling up my Steam and origin list, give me games to play, Id like to expand my horizon with PC gaming now that Im properly equipped with a proper machine to do so.

Im trying to get ahold of guild wars 2, battle field 4, League and whatnot.

I have had an inferiority/anxiety complex for some while now, as far as I can remember actually. Its been better to say the least, but I still have my moments of absolute confusion over it. This causes me to have a feeling of impending doom or judgement from people, even though I cant tell for sure.

this makes conversations on skype with almost everyone sketchy as fuhhh, I can read verbal moods far better than I can interpret just text. It worries me actually, because there are a lot of people I enjoy talking to that I would absolutely hate to offend or put off because of miscommunications. the cons of technology right?

that being said, if i have EVER, said or done anything that offended you etc, take this as part of an appology.

atleast Im sure I havent put anyone off, however that back of the head poking thought plays with my mentality a little.