ITS MY HATCH DAY

its my hatch/spawn/birth day in exactaly 7 days wana get/give or insert sumtin in/to me well my msn is takkisisdark im on a bit but i allways liek art in fact i collect "art" so that works to ;)

so a random spin off of all my previous journals any one know any good long fur comics they liek to read thats on the net and free? im currently reading twokinds... that high school one that fa has a link too and I'm not even going to try and spell that, and thats it i just need a few to read to pass the time thx :)

she said no and im happy 4 this reason only shes happy with her current bf so im not needed :) and i hope they stay happy

i told her and i hate my self 4 it....i might have just destroyed the only rule i fallow with all my power... loyalty do not break it and do not break others...
if you have no idea what im talking about...

first one http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/663453/...
second one http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/665223/

-pounds face on table and whines-...i ...hate....my...computer! i got an itouch and i forgot my usb ports dont work

up date from the last journal. yea so i havent told her yet but i did talk to her mom. and she said that shes going thru some changes and her current bf is her first and she said i should hold off on telling her cuz it might confuz her. and her current bf (who im friends with) might run me thru with my own sword. lol which would surprise me if i pulled sumtin like that on him

so i have a friend and I'm trying to figure out if i like her or not and well... she thinks of me as an older brother and well I've kinda took up the duty of protecting her cuz of her past and well im attached and i don't want to lose her but i don't want to confuse her if i tell her what im felling... advice plz

crying my self to sleep
i lie to myself i lie to other to help myself fell better i build a false house around me and now my tears are raining on it and its all dissolving away to leave me in the rain again to face these horror of my mind that i have created and don't want to face. a horror for every lie i have told there darkness is now so great there is not a spek of light in this mass of darkness..http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2074118
its about me how i betrayed and abandoned my self... and feed my own soul to the wolves. I'm sry that i lied to you all can you forgive me?

check it out
http://www.bad-dragon.com/forum/vie.....f=4&t=1240

yea i took a quiz o see wher i fall on the scale...i fell here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2058335/ and here is teh key to it http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2058337/ I'm damn close to the middle of every ones thinking lol

i hate it its the hallmark holiday to remind u that if you single your alone

im sick my lungs have decided to hate me that is all

well im a nerd and i bought wow and im wondering who all plays and on what severs

so i live in Portland and any one who knows Portland they know it dosent snow here unless its the storm of the century...well its the storm of the mellinia i swear i can no longer see the street the curb or much less the curb off the front of my house theirs 6 in right now and its supposed to not stop snowing for like 2 more days ...so did you know every one is white when it snows?!!! (I'm not raciest i was just making a bad joke)

i did this all most made $30 but i couldn't hold it down for one more min
never do the cinnamon challenge is just pain full hears the rule if you want to try

1: take bets
2: measure out one full table spoon of cinnamon and get a glass of water ready and a garbage can ready just in case if you cant do it
3: get the camera ready
4:eat the table spoon of cinnamon with out losing any off it the not go get water for 5 min
5: post it on youtube.com

WARNING: DO NOT TRY THIS WITH OTHER SPICES SOME OTHER ONES CAN KILL YOU FOR EXAMPLE NUTMEG IN LARGE DOSES CAN KILL YOU!!!

http://i13.photobucket.com/albums/a.....freak3/wat.jpg
warning slightly mature content

secrets do kill
He’s the guy
who hides behind a smile
the guy who begs
"please stay awhile"

He's the guy
who calls your phone
because he's lonely
and sick of feeling alone

I'm that guy you think is strong
but I'm just hiding which is hard, too
have you ever tried to hide
from you?

I'm that guy
with secrets so deep
secrets that hurt so bad
but I'm forced to keep

I'm the guy
who cries himself to sleep
because those secrets are so strong
and make me weep

Now I'm the guy
who took the easy way out
you’ll hear it on the news
but you still won’t know what it's about

Now you'll understand
you stand there in sadness
please forgive me
but I took the easy way out and now I’m gone

I died for my secrets
but by my own will
what did I tell you
secrets do kill...



will i ever be able to do any thing right?

im in a mood and this mood aint good that last time i was in this mood i broke some ones arm along with a few otehr thing....I WANT TO RIP SOME ONES JAW OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEN CUT OFF THERE TOUNG AND WATHC THEM DROWN IN THERE OWNBLODD....ASS YOU CAN TELL IM NOT ON THE BEST OF MOODS IM SO PISED I CANT EVEN TYP RIGHT AND I REALY DONT KNOW IF THIS TITTLE IS EVN OK FOR VEWING...WHAT EVER!!!!!!!!

any one want to do gift art for me because they are god awsome heres my new sona except im going to be...blue and black with blade would be best
http://heroes.ag.ru/h5/races/infern.....e_Pit_lord.jpg

http://www.shopping.hp.com/webapp/s.....0PC&lang=en&cc=us
hehe im get this soon i so happy

-crosses arms- Ok if you don't like to hear people complain hit the back button on you browser now because I'm about to bitch a big one so big i hav to number them
1: Money I mean WTF ok the saying money makes the world go round can go shove 8x8 covered in rusty nails up it ASS!!! i mean it because of money i cant any thing ok I'm not pore or any thing but we cant even ever keep enough food in the house for two people much less 3 and acconaly 4 and one is a teenager (me). I live in a duplex 1 story 2 bedrooms a living room that has to double as the dining room and bath room without a bathtub we have to take standing showers and we cant get food stamp or any thing because the system is so damn corrupted.
2:time and places are a bitch some time i mean seriously if money wasn't enough of a problem all of my frinds live out of state!!!(not their falt)...
i think im going to make my self sick if i think about this any longer so im going to stop talking about it and go do something else for a while and esss my mind

ITS my birth day today so I,m deciding to steal this from Seathwr and find out how eventful my life has been so far


Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(X) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 1

Level 2
(X) Are / Been In Love
(X) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
(X) Been In A Fist Fight (well he deserved the broken arm for that one hehe)
SO FAR: 4

Level 3
(X) Had / Have A Crush On An Older Person
(X) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(X) Seen Someone / Something Die (errr yea car crash on the freeway that as cool in a sadistic kinda way)
SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Furaffinity Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(X) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 9

Level 5
(X) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding (err...dose intertubing count?)
(X) Met Someone Through Internet (yea on FA i met Core)
(X) Been in a Mosh Pit (hehe those are fun..and slightly painfull)
SO FAR: 12

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers
(X) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(X) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 16

Level 7
(X) Had A Tea Party
(X) Flown A Kite
(X) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding (what?)
(X) Played Dress Up (errr playing dress years ago but dose ....cross dressing for a bet and going to a club count too?)
SO FAR: 20

Level 8
(X) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(X) Gone Sledding
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School (in math class and still got an A)
SO FAR: 25

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
(X) Felt An Earthquake
(X) Killed A Snake (by accident and it tried to get my dog...well more or less my dog killed it and i disposed of it in the field)
SO FAR: 28

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled (tho i don't like to be tickled that much)
(X) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(X) Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood (ummm... i cant seem to reacl a time in my life when at lest once in a day )
SO FAR: 32

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
(X) Been Suspended From School (errr i wont go into whay
(X) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 33

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (i ate 3 pints of ice cream in one siting i regretted that)
(X) Danced in the moonlight (SCA event)
SO FAR : 35

Level 14
(X) Hated The Way You Look (had to dress up)
(X) Witnessed A Crime
(X) Pole Danced (at a friends because i felt like it and it was there)
(X) Questioned Your Heart
(X) Been obsessed with post-it-notes (acting class)
SO FAR: 40

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World (I WISH)
(X) Swam In The Ocean (plenty of times its a hobby of mine)
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying (being healthy is just a slower way of dieing)
SO FAR: 43

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
(X) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(X) Sang Karaoke (i did that yesterday)
(X) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins (paid for $50 in pizza with pennys)
SO FAR: 48

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
( ) Made Prank Phone Calls
(X) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose (yea and it hurt too)
( ) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 50

Level 18
(X) Written A Letter To Santa Claus (twice and i still dident get what i wanted)
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(X) Blown Bubbles
(X) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 53

Level 19
(X) Crashed A Party (jr. high prom and that was fun and i almost got arrested if i hadn't of dipped they would have caught me spiking the punch)
(X) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People (and a wanted them to Kill me.)
(X) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 56

Level 20
(X) Worn Pearls
(X) Jumped Off A Bridge (swimming in a river)
(X) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina" (in drama)
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 59

Level 21
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
( ) Kicked A Fish
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes (look at leval 7 last question)
(X) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars (in montana with no clouds nd i was on top of a barn)
SO FAR: 61

Level 22
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel (i would die trying)
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(X) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about (both of them)
SO FAR: 63

Level 23
(X) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
(X) Had/Been In A Tree House
(X) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone (the ring and my lights died and the cell phone rang i fliped)
SO FAR: 67

Level 24
(X) Believed In Ghosts (kinda)
(X) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes (well i had 30 shoes but only 2 of them matched acting class yet again)
( ) Gone Streaking ( :3 )
(X) Visited Jail (yep playing monoplay)
SO FAR: 69

Level 25
( ) Played Chinese Chicken
(X) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 72

Level 26
(X) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(X) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one (asked too)
(X) Caught A Butterfly
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(X) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 77

Level 27
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(X) Had Someone Moon/Flash You (they flashed the school bus)
(X) Cheated On A Test (and still got the answer wrong)
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name (All the time.)
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
(X) Been Kicked Out Of Your House (lol more then once and all i did was go over to a friends house and play X-box)
SO FAR: 81

Level 28
(X) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
(X) Had A Cavity (and got them drilled and filled with out pain killers and what not)
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
(X) Been Black Mailed (grand parents)
SO FAR: 84

Level 29
( ) Been Used
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
(X) Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 88

Level 30
(X) Been shot at/or at gunpoint (paint ball gun to bare skin owww...)
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
(X) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 90

Errr is that good or bad?

I HAVE A SECOND PAGE ON MY GALLERY!!!! hehe small things ammuse small minds