http://luckyanimals.insideoutmusic.com/

Do something for this would ya!?

This is where I join the cool people I guess. Ask me anything bitches.

Yup, nother raffle, heh.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3711227/

... God I miss that show...

Oh right, the point. Mystery raffle of mysterious goodness. Yeah I'm confused too, but hey, we all are. Go here for the not details: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3591602/

... but for those that don't know about  wolfgem and  elden just go here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3668480/

And damnit help if you can cause it's the only silver lining this fucked up mess of a fandom has for itself anymore, our ability to look after each other. Unless of course we organize a mob and chop that fucker's leg off for Elden, then we'd be pretty damn legendary. But then again, I did buy rum tonight...

And no, I'm not ashamed to admit I cried when I read about this.

I could tell a whole story here, but I'll just get to what really pissed me off. Coworker was bragging and being a general idiot about how he hooked up with this chick that was training to clean our floors since we outsource for that. Ok great, whatever, he got laid, what pisses me off though is he goes on to say she's homeless and living with a friend and her family, and if she doesn't have $100 by weeks end she wont even be staying there. I mention he's got a whole house to himself, "Fuck that!". I know he makes a shit ton more money than I do too but I didn't even bother pointing that out. No, instead of offering her a place to stay till she gets back on her feet (which she is trying to do), or just give her money to help out, he'd rather just go on and on about the sex. I dunno, maybe there's something wrong with me not wanting to see anyone homeless, specially when you can actually do something to help. Just really fucking shallow on his part and he was just laughing it up all night. The fuck is wrong with people...

No really, its a raffle for a fursuit head. Pretty damn worth trying for I'd say considering you'd only pay shipping on the most expensive part of a suit. Go check it out at http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3587190/

Yeah, I have nothing better to say right now. But hey, this time you could win something cute.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3587254/

So it's June 17th. Father's day. A lot of people out there know what it's all about and have their own things to add to it so I wont drone on and on about the meaning so much. What I'm here to say is, if you have some sort of petty reason to not talk to your father today, you should really get over it and do so while you still can, and be thankful you still have a father that you can still at least try to get to know. Mine was killed in a car accident before I was born so I'll never have the chance. Buy a car, or make a phone call, just don't let your chances pass you by cause you never know when it'll be too late.

Another pretty damn good artist doing a free art raffle over here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3556479/ Join today or I declare you all silly persons.

You know I don't jump into the whole pony thing often, but this was brought to my attention by  s0an and I think it's pretty goddamn cool, and does make me kinda wish I could be there.

So AC is just around the corner and I not so long ago realized something. This year, and this year alone, I could actually go to AC and FF thanks to a weird overlap of my vacation time, and having done nothing but save money up for months and months. Two cons in one year... Kinda a crazy thought for me really considering life as of late hasn't even given me time to hang out with friends much. But the more I think about it, the more I'm not sold on the idea. So, much as it is possible for me to be there, I wouldn't try to find me there either.

Yeah it's another one of those ones where you follow the link so here's that: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3438701/

Seems like good art, so get in there and start watering down my chances.

Head on over to  Anniepopokios and see the journal for details!
And even if you don't want in on this there's some good arts to be viewed there so get to watchin.

I saw an article on this in a Revolver magazine a while back, but kinda forgot about it till a guy at work brought it to my attention.



Though I disagree with calling these guys heavy metal at all, I think this is pretty damn entertaining. I'm also kinda shocked that those stick figures could even still walk after all that. Can't wait till some dumbass steps up and gets his ass kicked by a 52 year old psycho path. Just too bad they wont get any real metal bands in here, I mean come on, who wouldn't wanna see Warrior vs. Corpsgrinder?

So I guess my last few journals haven't been very cheery. Not without reason but it does need balance and since I've seen this meme floating about I figured why not.

1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
Dave. Yeah, that's pretty much it.

2. How tall are you?
Like 5'10" or so.

3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
I guess it's brown. Seems to be getting lighter though...

3. What about eye color?
Somewhere between hazel and brown.

4. What orientation are you?
Bi I guess. Pan maybe.

5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
I'll just take the facebook route and say It's complicated.

6. What do you do in your spare time?
Video games, movies, the occasional show on History. If its not screen related the I'm usually tinkering with whatever needs fixing but isn't immediately needed. And now that good weather finally hit, hopefully some outdoorsy type shit.

7. What's your job?
One of only six people that actually work in a local grocery chain.

8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
Can't fucking kill me.

9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
My kindness.

10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
Fuck all if I know. It's a wonder I have friends really.

11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
I'm not. Just spiritual when I need to be, but nothing that dictates.

12. Do you drink?
I will out drink anyone you put in front of me.

13. Do you smoke?
Never.

14. What are your fears?
Don't really have any.

15. What are your dreams/goals?
Currently, just to be happy again.

16 .Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Wow, unless you have a condition where even the thought of people terrifies you I don't see how anyone could say no to this one.

17. Who's your best bud?
Though I had picking favorites among friends, there is a certain cat bear that hasn't let me down yet.

18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Sandvich.

19. Favorite drink?
Whatever I'm craving at the time.

20. Favorite color?
Blue mutha fucka!

21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
I already have one, I'm invisible. So I guess the power to read minds would be good too.

22. Favorite movie?
I like too many of them to pick just one.

23. Least favorite food?
Onions. Can not... Just no.

24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?[
All you can eat whatever and eat it extremely slowly. If done right you will never die. Failing that idea I would demand to eat the person trying to kill me!

25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
A 1985 Pontiac Parisienne. As far as what I wish I drove... There's not enough time for that wishlist. and yes, my current car would still be on there.

26. Most disliked bug?
None really bother me that much, just annoy me with their habits sometimes. I guess my least favorite would have to be yellow jackets though cause I've been stung a couple times by them and I wasn't doing anything to provoke them.

27. Most hated pet peeves?
Lying. Especially when you have nothing to lose by telling the truth.

28. Dislike in life?
People that are assholes and all in your face about it. It doesn't make you a better person, and is comparable to people that try to push their religion on you.

29. Most annoying?
People that think their opinion is the end all be all of the subject at hand. Open your minds people.

30. Most disliked TV show?
Pretty much all of them. The only thing I'll turn on is the History Channel and even that can be hit or miss for me these days.

Kinda held off on this just so I wouldn't see any half hearted attempts, but now that it's the 6th I can say what a shit birthday that was. Worked to death, couldn't sleep, haven't yet eaten anything, and am so lonely that it makes emo kids look like motivational speakers. It's not even like I ask for much, I just wanna be surprised. Doesn't mean you even have to buy anything or make anything, even just something more personal than the same two words all the time would do. In the end though it was the same old predictable stuff right down to who said something and who didn't, save for a couple people on facebook but even then that place kinda shoves birthdays in your face if you don't turn shit off.

Think it's time I make the rum disappear again...

That really bad thing that I mentioned in my last journal but couldn't go into detail about? Yeah that just got infinitely worse.

No, it's not about the end of the world prophesy, but I swear if this year keeps on like it is there doesn't need to be a prophesy, I'll rain down a great fury and vengeance all my own. We're only a month into this year and so far I've had to pay $366 to get my car back into shape, during which time the inspection ran out cause finding parts is a bitch so I also got a ticket for that. Wake up this morning and got the mail and find a $135 fine for said ticket even though the only reason why I was driving the car when I got that ticket is cause my garage needed me to bring it in to make sure it was getting the right parts for me.

If it wasn't for keeping a good eye on my money I'd be fucked for all this cause so far this year I've only been getting 24 hours a week at work, thus making me pretty fucking poor. Makes no sense at all either cause we're heading into inventory again so there's more work to do, but I'm getting less hours. Instead I'm rewarded with a sudden constant back ache and I think because of this its causing my left ankle and possibly my right knee to hurt a lot as well. My neck also hurts a lot lately but I think that could just be sleep related.

My family just keeps making a bigger and bigger void within itself cause everyone keeps thinking they have all the answers without knowing a goddamn thing about whats really going on. Some of it was pretty much bound to happen thanks to one specific person, but other parts of it are just retarded when you look at the big picture which is usually right in front of everyone's faces, they're just too goddamn ignorant to use their brain meat for something other than themselves. I guess it's not something new here though, but it's been getting bad ever since November and I'm becoming more disappointed and ashamed of my own family as more time keeps passing lately.

And to top all this off, I ended up getting myself into something so personal that I've sworn not to talk about it publicly so I have something of that sort of magnitude rolling around in my head as well.

So yeah, in a nutshell, I'm poor, my body is breaking down, my family is falling apart, my mind is extremely troubled, and I've only a handful of people that I would turn to but don't cause I don't like doing that. How's everyone else's year so far?

Saw this getting kicked around and figured why not. It should hold people till I start bitching about how much I hated January.

Confession 1: Your biggest fear.
At this point in time, I don't really have one.

Confession 2: Worst Nightmare.
Well if you mean like dream wise, I don't really have those anymore since I kick so much ass when I dream.

Confession 3: Something you wish you could forget.
Nothing really. Sometimes memories hurt, but it's a bigger crime to forget what it was that made you who you are today.

Confession 4: Best dream.
I'm not optimistic enough to keep one of these anymore.

Confession 5: Favorite memory.
Man I don't know... There's a lot... Know what, I'm gonna skip this one cause I don't wanna play favorites here so nyah.

Confession 6: Worst experience.
Yeah... Don't think I'm goin there.

Confession 7: Biggest pet peeve.
Lying. You can't be straight up honest with me then get the hell off my planet.

Confession 8: Something you're paranoid about.
Barring something that's actually happening right now and that I don't wanna get into in this journal, too many things going wrong at the same time so's I can't fix it all and I end up seriously fucked

Confession 9: What you thought of your current best friend when you met them.
Hey this guy's kinda cool. I'm gonna have to stay in contact with him.

Confession 10: Your strongest principle/belief.
Pretty much the golden rule, treat people like you'd like to be treated. That and just be fucking honest.

Confession 11: What annoys you the most.
People that are assholes just cause they think they're either better than you, or that think it's their right cause they think they have such a hard life. Oh and bad drivers.

Confession 12: Something you want to do before you die.
To truly say that nothing's bothering me instead of just saying that so others don't worry. But I don't plan on dying so I got time.

Confession 13: Biggest regret.
Trusting people that I shouldn't have.

Confession 14: Hidden talent.
Not really sure I have one, but I've gotten comments on the voices I do, and I have actually been hunted down by people for massages, so maybe that?

Confession 15: Favorite thing about yourself.
Prolly my persistence.

Confession 16: One thing you would change about yourself if you could.
I do need to learn to not trust people anymore.

Confession 15: Worst habit.
I can get irrational when I'm really stressed, but I do it over small things that don't even matter.

Confession 16: Most important person in your life at the moment.
Not saying.

Confession 19: A skill you wish you had.
It's a toss up between drawing and music. The things in my head for both I wish I could get out there, but I'm such a detail whore that I wouldn't ever wanna put someone through the hell it would be to make it for me.

Confession 20: Biggest compliment you've ever received.
I'm typically pretty modest so I usually don't cling to compliments, but for some reason it meant a lot when  BelicBear (for whatever reason or another) decided to thank me for helping at FF when I know there were others that did shit tons more.

Confession 21: What you hate most about society.
That it's become acceptable to scrape by with the bare minimum, and that everyone is fine with just looking out for themselves. Honor and integrity are lost practices.

Confession 22: Something that makes you cry.
Reflecting on my past. And a certain song.

Confession 23: Something that makes you laugh.
There isn't anything that's a surefire answer here. Guess it's gotta be something that's unexpected.

Confession 24: Most treasured possession.
Probably my car. It's proven to be more reliable that most people I know.

Confession 25: Something no-one expected you to like.
Pretty much all my interests. I guess I'm just one of those people that's really misleading. For example just recently someone was surprised to learn that I like and use to play football. Even more extreme is that someone was surprised that I'm the type that's interested in having sex. Yeah that one was weird.

Confession 26: Strangest hobby.
Really I don't have any strange ones.

Confession 27: Biggest ambition.
Typical family answer here.

Confession 28: Something stupid you used to believe in when you were younger.
Religion.

Confession 29: A random confession.
I like my metal like I like my peanut butter.

Confession 30: A few words to, honestly, describe yourself.
Honest, trust worthy, hard to scare away, quiet, listener, open minded, big picture thinker that likes to do things differently.

Don't usually get into these sorts of things, but SOPA is pretty bullshit and we're getting down to the wire. Here's a good rant to inspire people further.

So I'm just curious here, does anyone remember the second generation of the old cartoon they started airing after the animated movie or was everyone so butthurt over Optimus Prime dying that they stopped watching? I for one thought that shit was crazy in a good way, learning all the origins of everyone and screwing around with time and even though I was still a kid, really appreciating Rodimus Prime's struggle with his doubts over being the new Autobot leader.

I just watched all those episodes again thanks to a friend letting me borrow this swanky box set he got so I can't help but wonder if anyone else remembers this stuff, especially with all the crap Transformer stuff out there these days.

I'm not gonna say merry anything cause quite honestly, one of the worst Christmases ever. I will however say thank you to  Turkituck and  fidget_duck for not only having rhyming names but also for sending their Christmas cheer my way a bit. It's become a terribly predictable holiday for me so anything I didn't see coming like that is good.

That's all I got really. And since Christmas is over now, everyone get back to being miserable!

First year where there's not gonna be like any Christmas at all. And I've gotten to the point where all I really cared about is seeing parts of my immediate family that I don't get to see often, but we're not even doing our family Christmas bash this year either. Double fun. The best part of it is, the family gathering was brought to ruin by family members acting like a bunch of trolls to each other. Kinda resembled some of the stuff I've seen here. Hey I have to make jokes where I can cause there's not many smiles to be had here lately. Hope everyone else has better luck with the next couple holidays than I'm having.

You show up all expected like and you think I'm gonna be all "Yay it's you!" Hell no that's not how it works, you go back and call in advance before you show up like that. Now git!

Seriously though, did this month fly by for anyone else like it did for me? I feel like I missed a whole week or something. Not that it really matters though since this silly little hijacked holiday probably wont be celebrated too extensively here thanks to having lots of no money. And yeah I know it's not about gifts and whatnot, but seriously, relying on the Christmas spirit this year is also not a safe bet either. Seems like everyone I know is all BLEH this time around. Hell we don't even have snow yet and this is Western NY. What the hell is that all about? We don't even have any sort of decorations out, or a tree set up for that matter. I may try to do something about that over the weekend, but work might sap any ambition out of me. Guess we'll see how that goes.

Anyone else just not feeling the joy this year?